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#and backslide just as much bc thats just... how it is. better days and worse days. the best version of urself and the worst
neon--nightmare · 2 years
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you are legit the most correct person in the world with everything u said about fresh in those tags. thank you so much for the fresh content, there is not NEARLY enough and seeing stuff like that tag rant is !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CORRECT!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DUDE IM SO GLAD LIKE. OK ONE MISCONCEPTION I SEE ALL THE TIME IS THAT IF FRESH HAD EMOTIONS HED BE LIKE. HAPPY. AMAZED. OR BREAK DOWN CRYIN OR REALIZE HOW MUCH HE CARED ABT THE PEOPLE AROUND HIM OR SMTH it wouldnt be like liftin a veil from his mind dude hed be CATATONIC. HE WOULDNT BE ABLE TO PROCESS ANYTHIN AT ALL,, MUCH LESS THINK ABT ANYTHIN BUT HIMSELF itd be like someone pushin u off a plane into a HURRICANE w no time to prepare, ur bein torn apart in the wind and the last thing u can think abt is ANYTHING other than 'im going to die im going to die im going to die.'
and if it was a temporary thing and suddenly wore off/snapped him back to normal hed just like. get up and brush himself off rlly shakily and pretend it didnt happen at all like Wow brah wasnt that weird. Hahahaha anyways. and act like he was fine bc hes good at that. and itd just hammer deeper in his mind that emotions are BAD and painful and horrible and a miserable experience how do people exist like this all the time how can they stay alive. itd both reinforce his superiority complex SO much bc he doesnt have to deal with any of that because hes MADE better and stronger and he wont ever 'fall' to their level again. but itd also make it such more FRAGILE. bc he knows its a possibility. hed repress his emotions even harder. he wouldnt want to ever experience ANYTHING like that again. itd just make that divide so much WORSE. and i think thats really really interestin to go into too!!!!
#freshposting#I WANNA TALK ABT HIM MORE SO BAD IM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#long post#IDK IF THIS SHOWS UP RLLY LONG ON MOBILE IM ON DESKTOP#fresh sans#FRESH GETTIN EMOTIONS VERY VERY GRADUALLY AND SLOWLY COMIN TO TERMS W THEM IS THE *ONLY* WAY IT WOULDNT SHATTER HIM PERMANANTLY LIKE GLASS#fresh doesnt WANT emotions and also if he had them hed still (canonically) have severe chronic anxiety CONSTANTLY#NOT EVEN GETTING INTO. THE FACT THAT HE NEEDS TO POSSESS OTHERS TO SURVIVE AND THAT PUTS THEM IN INCREDIBLE AGONY#AND HE HEARS THEM SCREAMING IN HIS HEAD *CONSTANTLY* and he thinks thats funny when the only hollow smidge of joy hes able to feel is from#causin pain to others. sadism. but when he can actually feel like#i think itd both rlly rlly annoy him and hed lash out at the host until they shut up over and over again. and itd rlly unsettle him on a#deep level at the same time and he wouldnt know why. why it isnt funny or makes him happy like it once did.#ALSO FRESH WOULD STILL HAVE MASSIVE EMPATHY PROBLEMS EVEN W EMOTIONS OK BRO. MY MANS GOT LOW NO EMPATHY EMOTIONS DONT AFFECT THST#fresh w emotions (who hasnt accepted/learned to cope) can be so MEAN. HES WAY MEANER THAN REGULAR FRESH.#hed need to learn so much that comes naturally to 'normal' people and thats if hed even WANT to. he needs to make an EFFORT to change havin#emotions dont automatically make u a 'good' or kind person hed have to WANT to. hed need a VERY strong support system and hed make progress#and backslide just as much bc thats just... how it is. better days and worse days. the best version of urself and the worst#IM GONNA RUN OUT OF TAG SPACE SOON BUT THIS IS SMTH SO IMPORTANT TO ME MAN... ALSO if u wanna make an au like this dont take me as sayin u#cant!!!! u absolutely can!!!! have fun w it!!! its just... idk. itd be so messy in reality. (also hed have so much trauma to deal w WOW)#THATS A WHOLE OTHER THING TOO fresh has ptsd and just cant process it the way his mind works rn send tweet. my probably controversial take#IM JS. aus are SO fun and i enjoy happy emotion fresh aus very much ofc!!! but canon fresh w emotions is SO so so underappreciated too!!!#asks#chat#HOPEFULLY THIS DOESNT COME OFF THE WRONG WAY BRO I PROMISE B:')#THANK U SO SO MUCH FOR THE ASK+CHANCE TO RANT BOOKWORM ILY!!!!! (PLATONC)#starstruckbookworm
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