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i have been doing this thing where i have been accidentally eating nutritious meals, not drinking caffeine, not smoking, not drinking alcohol, and not eating any junk food and holy shit i feel amazing??? my mood has just increased so much and I'm NEVER tired and I've been having rare if no negative thoughts. has anyone heard of being healthy this is insane?
#to be fair i smoked like 4 times in the last two weeks#bc those were stressful days#but also considering everything else I've given up im fine with that#the fact that i#a guy who struggled with body image and anorexia and bulimia and binge eating and has an insane sweet tooth#bought a block of chocolate#over two weeks ago#and I still haven't eaten it#because I've been like. eating proper meals#is HUUUGE#i can't believe it!#my skin is glowing! a bunch of my coworkers complimented me earlier this week#i know what I'm like and I'm not going to completely cut out chocolate or anything#but the fact that i haven't even Wanted it is just insane to me#I've also been setting so many boundaries at work and in my personal life#not doing things that i don't want to do#this last month has just been amazing#ever since my naming ceremony ever since november i feel like I've literally physically (as well as figuratively re singing lessons)#cut out all of my shit that I've accidentally let grow#guy who recently discovered eating 3 nutritious meals a day: hey has anyone heard of this?#i do want to do more strength based exercise for my longevity just in case I'm fortunate enough to make it to old age#so I'll buy some weights later on but I've been doing yoga for now which has been cool#never thought I'd be this kinda person#I just kind of assumed I'd be living off monster energy zero and cigarettes for the rest of my life#I've also been enjoying logging all of my food that I eat into my phone app#because it breaks down how much of which vitamins and other nutrients you've eaten#and shows you where from#mine#anyway. this is the most sober and heslthy I've perhaps ever been in my life and holy shit this is transformative for me#feels weird to say it but I'm so glad i got sick that one week and went off food and coffee and cigarettes
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Machete and Vasco are so pomegranate-and-the-hand-that-slices coded. To me.
Pomegranates are seen as messy, bloody, inconvenient fruits. You slice or tear or bite and in return for your effort you come away underwhelmed, disgusted, and stained too deep to wash. The consumption of a pomegranate is a violent act of defilement, for both the fruit and the eater.
But that is because most do not understand how to open a pomegranate. They have little patience for the precise carving. They see no point in coreing the fruit gently, no reason to be reverent as they pull the quarters apart. When done correctly, opening a pomegranate leaves little mess. Your fingers will still stain, your knife will still slick, but there will be no pool of crimson drowning both you and the fruit.
The seeds are only sweet to those who understand the merit of a light hand and intricate slicing. Why put in so much effort for a food so bitter and clearly armored against consumption? Surely it must not yearn to be eaten.
(^insane about silly catholic dogs)
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#absolutely losing my mind over this#how dare you come to my house and deliver a poignant character analysis cloaked in metaphors and symbolism#I went all day thinking about pomegranates#doing late christmas shopping? pomegranates#glazing ham? pomegranates#watching futurama with siblings? pomegranates#they're still kind of an exotic fruit where I'm from and I only got around to trying one a handful of years ago#some fruits offer themselves readily but pomegranates are hard and resistant and require a bit more specific handling#I looked up a guide and even then the kitchen counter ended up a murder scene#I've gotten better but I know some people can open them very neatly and I still haven't figured out the right technique#I love you anon I love the fact that you've clearly been rotating my silly catholic dogs in your head#and are able to put your thoughts into words with such marvelous grace and eloquence#surely it must not yearn to be eaten UNFATHOMABLE#answered#anonymous#gift art#Vasco#Machete#pomegranates are canonically one of Machete's motifs/symbols but I never thought of them from this angle#at least not this extensively
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the script book is driving me fucking insane tf u mean "Crowley had lost Aziraphale, and the world was ending in a few hours" ??!!! bitch im gonna throw up
#'aziraphale is softening. they haven't spoken in a hundred years: he's realizing they're still friends' SHUT THE ACTUAL FUCK UP WHAT IS#WRONG WITH YOU NEIL OHMYGOD#'aziraphale: no. i. am. not interested. a breath. crowley is about to fall apart' ?????? EXCUSE ME#'they had eaten and spent a very pleasant day together' im gonna kick something#'crowley: and when im off in the stars i wont even think about you. aziraphale looks hurt' SHUT UP SHUR UP SHIR UP IM GONNA VOMIT#good omens#azicrow#aziraphale#crowley#ineffable husbands#good omens script book#neil gaiman
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So I was already doing a bunch of biochemistry math, and while I was still in math brain(TM), I started doing some more math in order to create a Bible/Tolkien style genealogy of the first thousand years of Narnian kings and queens (the Frank and Helen dynasty basically). And then after a while I thought to myself "why in the world am I doing this?" But I'm already five hundred years in. Not just names and years, but also exploits and how they ruled and whatnot. Modeled after Genesis and Chronicles.
So um. I don't have polls yet, but please sound off if that sounds cool/if I should finish. Like I said, idk what I'm doing. Think today might have driven me slightly insane.
#a heck of a day folks#i think I've been working on this for an hour???#i still haven't eaten???#what is wring with me???#but also. like. feels weird to scrap it at this point#i was crying to Canaan Bound on the way home (it was that kind of day) and then I started thinking about the Frank/Abraham parallels#and there ya go#pontifications and creations#temp#narnia#kinda
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Rose in the Lucky Luciano "you know I had to do it to em" sidewalk
> Rose: Do it to em.
#I know what I said about links but this was too funny not to lol#you can't see it but Rose is indeed doing the lucky luciano pose#no I'm not going to edit on hands omg this already took way too much time & I haven't eaten#also how do you draw hands?? I'm not the homestuck beyond canon team; that's their job; not mine lol#rosebot looks so good in this new outfit though I just wanna say like oh my god#ult!rose is so prettyyy; thank you hs epilogues & beyond canon folks#I'll post the edited sprite rip later as with my other hs rips; I need to go eat after I finish this request but plz send more!#or even submit some silly ones of your own; I still gotta come up with a tag for when people do#rosewheresheshouldntbe#rose lalonde#homestuck#originals#homestuck upd8#you know i had to do it to em#lucky luciano
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The uppity-ass websites I have to use for research to write Thranduil, I swear... Anyway if anybody else finds themselves in need of wine terminology, here you go.
#i feel like i still haven't found the one i want though#like i swear there's a word out there that's EXACTLY what i'm looking for and none of these are it#but they'll do#wish some of them sounded more tolkienish though#and yes this is all because of that damn finrod/thranduil crackship that's eaten my brain now#THANKS ZHIE#writing tips#wine#alcohol#thranduil#my writing#lotr fanfiction
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✨ bon appétit ✨
#sumire wanted to be eaten but not like this :(#i'm sorry#I still haven't gotten over this chapter#jshk#tbhk#no6#shinigami#hakubo#sumire#jibaku shounen hanako kun#toilet bound hanako kun#hanako kun
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Poor Wyll. :(
"Gods damn her straight back to the Hells. Just look at me - I did what was right, and Mizora made me pay for it. I'd be hunting devils and demons, she said. Traitors and hypocrites, heartless evils of all sorts, but not... not Zariel's victims. Not innocent tieflings."
"The Blade of Frontiers has some explaining to do."
This is sort of an interesting growth moment for Rakha I think. (I'm trying not to completely speedrun her development bc I keep having to remind myself that we're still REALLY early in the game, lol, but there's a lot for her to absorb very fast.)
Wyll has already said a lot to her about putting himself at risk for the people who can't defend themselves, about it being his purpose in life. This is a very strong, sharp visual demonstration that his money is exactly where his mouth is on the subject. He has quite literally sacrificed his humanity in order to keep a single other person - Karlach - alive.
This is not a thought process that comes naturally to Rakha. In her current state of memory loss her primary motivation has been survival, answers, and vengeance. Altruism has not been a top priority.
But it is very important to Wyll.
The most interesting thing, though, is that Rakha is angry on his behalf. She joined up with this group of people because they shared at least some of her experiences with the worm, and because they all have need of the same things. But... perhaps somewhere, deep in the memories she has lost, she had a concept of loyalty, once. Because there is a difference in the way she thinks about them compared to how she thinks about those outside the group.
She was ready (ill-advised or not) to lash out at Mizora on Wyll's behalf. She still would, if the devil came back. And that anger is hers - it is not the Urge, though the beast was certainly ready to feed on it.
Perplexing. Difficult. So she focuses on demanding information instead, which is always easier. Facts are easier than feelings.
"I'll say what I can. But it won't be enough," Wyll answers. He's watching her thoughtfully, as if surprised at her interest. Perhaps he, too, would not have expected her anger on his behalf rather than her own. "It's Mizora who grants me the power to conjure armor and cast eldritch blasts. Before I was infected, I could even call hellbeasts and summon festering clouds. But I promise you - ever thrust of my blade and every flame I sparked was for the good of the Coast."
"How in the Hells did you get involved with Mizora?" Rakha demands. It is one of many things that do not seem to make sense about this situation. Why would Wyll make a pact with such a creature in the first place, given his nature?
He smiles - sadly, but he seems pleased, just a little, that she wanted to ask. "Ah. The one little question that put me out of house and home. I can't utter the terms or circumstances of the pact. I can tell you most all else - but the pact? I'm forbidden, unless Mizora permits it." He sets his jaw. "But I'll say this. The moment I pacted myself to Mizora I have not regretted for a heartbeat. It was my proudest deed. It was worth the sacrifice. All I can give you on that is my solemn word."
She shrugs. She believes that he believes it. But is it true? She doesn't know. She is all too aware of how bound she is to the whim and control of the beast in her head. And Wyll has made such a decision by choice, deliberately placed the voice into his head to tell him where and when and how to kill.
Bravery. Or foolishness. Perhaps a little of both.
#bjk plays bg3 durge#rakha the dark urge#we need to get these people to stop talking about their feelings and go find something nutty for rakha to do XD#not tonight tho cos i still haven't eaten dinner whoops
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Nancy Drew games, mi preciosa
(i guess detective work isn't all that glamorous) :(
#nancy drew#nancy drew ghost dogs of moon lake#ghost dogs of moon lake#nancy drew games#i love nancy so much#but like girl#it's been like two weeks and you haven't changed#drank water#or eaten anything#and you are worried about the glamour???#girl it's a mystery how you're still alive lmao
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Shattered glass Shockwave headcanons
So today i read someone being upset that all the sg headcanons they see about shockwave isn't really good and they wanted to see some more input from others, i forgot who they where nor what the blog is called but i decided to give my own two cents in this form. Shout-out to this person this post is for you and i hope you can enjoy it
👾Still a scientist and looked up too for his amazing inventions but he isn't the same infamy then his counter part.
👾Mainly because he is messy and disorganized/not being able to set priority's because he doesn't understand what is a priority and what not since all of it is important for him.
👾 He also refused to do stuff if he sees the invention being used to harm others or if the negatives are too damaging in his opinion. The safety for others are his priority and his invention is just for the people in need.
👾Very autistic (his counterpart too but he is somewhere else on the spectrum). The type of autistic that, instead of having flat effect/ a monotone voice, has it going all over the place. It being very expressive and more loud then calm and quiet. Which also can come off as not so great because people still interpretate it wrong a lot of times. Thinking he is angry because his voice has a lot of intensity that is meant to show his happiness and eagerness to help or what also happens is that they think he is sarcastic because his voice tone goes up and down a lot essentially having a voice; LiKe hOw yoU WouLD ReAd ThIs OuT.(happens the most when he indulgence in his special interest).
👾A lot of his intellect comes from him being emotionally very smart. Like he knows exactly what your feeling and why and can help you with this exact problem and comfort you just right, making you feel like the world could end but everything's is alright as long as he has you in his arms, telling you sweet and encouraging words that hit just right.
👾But ironically (or better said autistically) he has problems to express his feelings in words. He doesn't seem to find the right once or can't read his own emotional right because their all over the place/just ????? (I hope you get what i mean, other autistic people who know that feeling give me a yippe in the comments/hj)
👾Will explode if he can't stim. Which also paired with when he info dumps it can be very intense. His voice gets loud and booming not being able to tell that it just does it's thing and he either walks up and down or rocks back and forth very intensely. He once feel back from a chair because he broke the backrest due to his stims. But he laughed about it and thought it was funny.
👾LOVES humans, most of his info dumps is about humans. A lot of inventions are for humans (also the reason why he isn't seen as much as a great scientist because like 60/70% of his stuff are ment for humans. And the Cybertronians just think "wtf are we suppose to do with this".) He has to be thoroughly convinced to not spend the next cycles to build some sort of stuff for humans. It can be really hard to do so. Not just for the one who tries to convince him but also for shockwave because it makes him sad that he can't spend more time with it :((. (It's also a high chance he will half ass his Projekt if no one checks in often enough or give him some sort of reward to motivate and show him it's not a wasted of time). But once you pull out the *insert Bot who struggles because of a thing out of their control and needs support for it* he is convinced. The other projects are much harder to convince for,their is going to be a hour long conversation with a really well made PowerPoint presentation that was made by a group to show him why he should do it.
👾 Beside that all of his project are ethical, his moral and justice compass is STRONG. Like STRONG STRONG. He would rather die then do something immoral that could hurt someone. It's just not logical for him to hurt others.
👾His work also besides helping humans, mostly focuses on Cybertronian health instead of war inventions. Be it support for disabled Mechs or the once who have mental health issues or just figuring out how you can get rid of a common cold the fastest and easiest. He generally focuses a lot on health and super for other's.
👾is very cheerful in general always here to build you up and share his love and passion with others.
👾Can also get overwhelmed by a lot of work very easy so he needs support on that with people he trusts the most.
👾Originally wanted to work as a Psychologist or sociologists but due to the war making his plans very messy he realizes right now the Mechs who lost it all needed inventions to help them out. He still pursues his original plan and already is called the "psychologist friend/Psychologist that has an invisible degree" because he knows so much about it.
#maccadam#transformers#transformers shattered glass#shattered glass Shockwave#tf shockwave#transformers headcanon#transformers shattered glass headcanon#i still have some more headcanons that are more about himself as a person then his role as a worker#man i haven't done such a list in a while hopefully it's good:))#anyway going to eat my soup haven't eaten the whole day and the day is almost over so oops#autism strikes again making me hyperfixated about a dbd like i haven't in years
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yes katie use that law school knowledge for iconic blorbo
STOP
#okay but real. so fucking real i don't want to admit it.#voltron discourse trained me in the art of speech and debate like nothing else#however this ask has abruptly reminded me of my true purpose in life: to be silly#i must stay focused. i need to remember the end goal here. which is to be funny and maybe piss people off.#EYES ON THE PRIZE KATIE.......... i was starting to get genuinely annoyed however in hindsight#it's because i am still trapped in this meeting and it's 11am and i haven't eaten yet. LET ME OUTTTTTTTTTTT#ask#anonymous
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favorite pastimes include writing fictional characters fucking each other, thinking of fictional characters fucking each other, and stalking every new followers' blog
#i'm delirious atm#did not get enough sleep#even though I woke up at 1 pm today#still haven't eaten#also have not drank enough water#anyway just in case y'all thought i was dead#i am not#just trying to bulldoze through a monster of a request for my bestie#someone pls help it's pushing 6k words :')#pls look forward to it#leospeaks
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bullying haven again
#he's so fun to be mean to#rex#haven#oc#doodle#how did i put it...#tfw you are hopelessly besotten with someone who is pretty sure you a) hate them and b) still only want them around to#make sure everyone else also hates them and c) last time you tried to communicate this was not true somehow managed to#misinterpret it but you haven't noticed yet and also d) is just a deeply unpleasant person.#and it would appear that he is suddenly showing interest in your hobbies of his own volition#but he is actually here to ask about if he can freeload harder off you#my alt text got eaten because i hit my number pad by accidenta dn im gonna keep it real with you guys im so mad im either posting this#now as is or im going to throw something. so it is what it is. ill fix it later.
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Started my new year out with TUMMY ACHE
#Can someone hug meeee#I wanna be held and told everything is alright#it's like u know when u haven't eaten in many hours but still feel full#and moving makes u anxious and u have emetophobia so its already anxiety inducing and aAAA#gonna try to just watch comfort movies today ig#vent#irl stuff#Metaltea talks
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holy shit I lived through today
#its still 5pm and i have another meeting at 8pm but#i did it! i finished the speech hooray#i can finally have lunch now#'at 5pm?' yes. I haven't eaten since 9am. I'm gna pass out any moment now
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walking around in a circle in the kitchen going "not got any limes" for like an hour now can someone let my brain know I've got the message. no limes ☑️ loud and clear brother ☑️
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