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daggerzine · 5 months

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MY FAVORITE RECORDS OF 2023! (lists in no particular order....well, sort of)

MY 20 FAVORITE RECORDS OF 2023

Anna Hillburg- Tired Girls (Speakeasy Studios)

RVG- Brain Worms (fire)

The Tubs- Dead Meat (Trouble in Mind)

Seablite- Lemon Lights (Mt St Mtn)

The Reds, Pinks & Purples- The Town That Cursed Your Name (Slumberland)

Lewsberg- Out and About (12XU)

Melenas- Ahora (Trouble in Mind)

Blues Lawyer- All in Good Time (Dark Entries)

Colored Lights- S/T (Bobo Integral)

Doe St- Stepping Stones (Legless)

Guardian Singles- Feed Me To The Doves (Trouble in Mind)

Corvair - Bound To Be (WIAIWYA)

The Garment District- Flowers Telegraphed To All Parts of the World (HHBTM)

Royal Ottawa- Carcosa (self released)

Tough Age- Waiting here (Bobo Integral)

Soft Science- Lines (Shelflife)

The Midnight Sailors- S/T (self released)

Robert Forster- The Candle and the Flame (Tapete)

Civic – Taken By Force (ATO)

Sumos- Surfacing (Meritorio)

WAIT….HERE’S 20 MORE!

Connie Lovatt- Coconut Mirror (Enchante’)

En Attendant Ana- Principia (Trouble in Mind)

Withered Hand- How to Love (Reveal)

The High Water Marks- Your Next Wolf (Minty Fresh)

The Feelies- Some Kinda Love: Performing the Music of the Velvet Underground (Bar-None)

Connections- Cool Change (Trouble in Mind)

The Ex Bats- Song Machine (Goner)

The Photocopies- Top of the Pops (Ultra Modern)

Amanda Brown- Eight Guitars (Lillipilli)

Arthur Alexander- …Steppin’ Out! (Big Stir Records)

Eyelids- A Colossal Waste of Lights ((Jealous Butcher)

Panic Pocket- Mad Half Hour (Skep Wax)

Yo La Tengo- This Stupid World (Matador)

Swansea Sound- Twentieth Century (Skep Wax)

Kevin Robertson- Magic Spells Abound (Futureman)

Super 8- Hoopla (The Beautiful Music)

The Radio Fields- Dos and Dont’s (Subjangle)

Joe McAlinden- Where The Clouds Go Swimming (self -released)

The Black Watch- Future Strangers (ATOM)

Rob I Miller- Companion Piece (Vacant Stare)

….AND HERE’S 10 MORE

The Lost Days- In the Store (Speakeasy Studios)

Life Strike- Peak Dystopia (Bobo Integral)

Belle & Sebastian- Late Developers (Matador)

Lauds- Imitation Life (Fort Lowell)

The Hepburns- Only the Hours (Lavender Sweep)

Lomma- Torrey Pines (self released)

C.O.F.F.I.N.- Australia Stops (Goner)

Special Friend- Wait Until the Flames Come Rushing In (Skep Wax)

Burning Ferns- World of the Wars (Country Mile)

Wojtek the Bear- Second Place on Purpose (Last Night From Glasgow)

I ALSO REALLY LIKED ALBUMS BY: Diners, Moving Targets, Bill Orcutt, Skull Practitioners, the Suncharms, Divine Horsemen, The Flashcubes, Hurry, Teenage Fanclub, Lydia Loveless, The Make Three, Shana Cleveland, The Ekphrastics, Ryan Allen, Fruit Bats, Nicole Yun, Dippers, Lost Film, Tony Jay, Cindy, Class, The Clientele, Lemon Twigs, Sweeping Promises, The National Honor Society, The Whiffs, Infinite River, Silver Biplanes, Jason Isbell, The Cuticles, Mudhoney, Alex Lahey, Crocodiles, Peter Hall, Cherry Fez, The Angles, Scott Gagner, Mainland Break, Christian Kjellvander, Sick Thoughts, Grand Drifter, The Motifs, The Sunshine Convention, The 1981, Roy Moller, Youth Valley, Soft Covers, Deadlights, The Smashing Times, The Spires, Helen Love, Motorbike, Silverstiles, Water Damage, Uni Boys, The Royal Arctic Institute, Gina Birch, Gee Tee, etc.

MY 10 FAVORITE REISSUES OF 2023

The Chills- Brave Words (Fire)

The Replacements- Tim (Sire)

The Ocean Blue- Davy Jones Locker (Korda)

Wild Carnation- Tricycle (Delmore)

Neutral Milk Hotel- The Collected Works of Neutral Milk Hotel (Merge)

Das Damen- 1986- Keeps Me Wild (Dromedary)

Heavenly -Le Jardin de Heavenly (Skep Wax)

The Verlaines- Bird Dog (Schoolkids Records)

The Toms- S/T (Feel It)

Celibate Rifles Kiss Kiss Bang Bang (Bang!)

MY 15 FAVORITE EPS OF 2023

Lightheaded- Good Good Grief (Slumberland)

Minor Threat- Out of Step outtakes (Dischord)

The Cucumbers- Old Shoes (self released)

The Reds, Pinks & Purples- Unloveable Losers (digital)

The Vapour Trails- On a Beautiful Day (Futureman)

Blues Lawyer- Sight Gags on the Radio (Dark Entries)

Deary- S/T (Sonic Cathedral)

The Wends- Better Will (WWNBB)

Te Vista- S/T (Cripes)

Red Sleeping Beauty- From Sarah With Love (Matinee)

Letting Up Despite Great Faults- Crumble (S/T)

The Prize- Wrong Side Of Town (Anti Fade)

Touch Girl Apple Blossom- S/T (self released)

Galore- Blush (Paisley Shirt)

Lost Tapes- Crossing Towns (Shelflife)

MY 5 FAVORITE COLLECTIONS OF 2023

The Particles- 1980’s Bubblegum (Chapter Music)

Primal Scream- Reverberations (Travelling in Time) (Acid Jazz/XTRM/Young Tiki)

The Shapiros- Gone by Fall: the Collected Works of (World of Echo)

Dot Dash- 16 Again (Country Mile)

Comet Gain- The Misfit Jukebox (Tapete)

Eric "Eggman" Eggleson's favorite records of 2023!

A Colossal Waste Of Light - Eyelids

Aeterna - Vinyl Williams

Away From The Castle – Video Age

Babydoll – Rat Columns

Bananasugarfire – Golden Apples

Careless By The Coast - Marvin Powell

Cartwheel - Hotline TNT

Colored Lights

Compact Trauma – Ulrika Spacek

Continue As A Guest – The New Pornographers

Disenchanter - Alaska Reid

EP IV – Yumi Zouma

Flowers Telegraphed To All Parts Of The World – The Garment District

Henry St. - The Tallest Man On Earth

Hindsight is 50/50 – Ghost Woman

I Held The Shape While I Could – Bodywash

Javelin – Sufjan Stevens

Left Hand - Becca Mancari

Life and Life Only - The Heavy Heavy

Love as Projection – Frankie Rose

May Cause Dizzy Ness - The Musical Chairs

My Entire Life – SUSTO

Pearlies – Emma Anderson

Perennial - Woods

Pictures – Dean Owens

Praise A Lord Who Chews But Which Does Not Consume; (Or Simply, Hot Between Worlds) - Yves Tumor

Prize - Rozi Plain

Radio Red – Laura Groves

So Soon Now – Trillion

Strange Loops and Outer Psyche – Andy Bell

Suntub – ML Buch

The Greater Wings - Julie Byrne

The Natural Lines

The Queen Is Not Dead – Spiritual Front

the record – boygenius

The Sunshine Convention

The Twits - bar Italia

This Candle Is For You - Spearmint

Waiting Here – Tough Age

We Live In Strange Times – Ian M Bailey

When Horses Would Run - Being Dead

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alistairlowes · 1 year

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aoud reread part 1 or me just crying over alistair and gavin as you will

"Reid MacTavish decorated like her grandmama."

IT'S NOT A BAD THING

"Although Alistair might still live and breathe for now, he was the cruelest of all the champions left in the tournament."

lich rally not true but ok

amanda foody & christine lynn herman coming up with book2 ships

“Come out, asshole,” he muttered.

well...

honestly love that part when they put reid into the tournament it's so deserved.

“I can’t stand Grieve. He’s had it out for me before we ever laid eyes on each other, and he’s always looking for a fight.

meanwhile one of gavin's first impressions was like: uh he kinda hot :/

"Flirting had worked for Isobel, and if left with no resort, Alistair might be forced to consider—"

i love him. he is so stupid ♡

alistair, gavin, hendry and that child they kidnapped is literally best dynamic ever

alistair and gavin forming an alliance

"Because despite all the horrific training he’d endured, his heart remained a soft and brittle thing."

shut up i'm not crying

alistair: i will literally never care about another person ever again

gavin:

"As far as I’m concerned, you’re a freak."

no she is so right he is

ok i love alistair in general but the way gavin notices small details about him like his voice was oddly soft 🥺 it's sending because he is like yeah i want him dead and next sentence is like his face looked gentle or someshit

“You see what they’re saying about me,” Alistair said, unbothered, sniffing a dusty, suspicious jar of fig preserves. “That I’m ‘unstable’ and ‘destructive.’”

bby i love you but are they really wrong now

"Allies or not, rehearsed or not, it was strange to hear Gavin back him up, to consider that Gavin Grieve and Alistair Lowe could ever be on the same side."

ofc never 😔

“Why are you so angry with me?” Gavin asked.

“Because I don’t give a damn about the rest of the world’s judgment, but I refuse to take yours.

they make me so ill </3

“I can’t believe them,” Finley said. “Alistair killed his entire family, and he gets a fan club.”

it's me. i'm the fanclub.

"Why did Alistair get the world’s sympathy while she suffered its scorn?"

agreed unfair. i think this is first time i ever saw a book directly call out how men get a pass for same thing you would judge women for

the "i could fix him" for alistair asdfghj

“Don’t die,” he muttered to Alistair’s limp form. “I’m the one who gets to kill you, okay?”

😭😭😭

“You’ve got a fucked-up sense of humor.”

“You have to, when your life’s a joke.”

GAVIN REAL

“After that, I stare at the wall for a few hours.”

no one will ever understand how relatable he is to me <3

"He looked wrong, and each time the blond peeked through or his eyes returned to his own, an odd feeling stirred in Alistair—one he recognized and certainly didn’t welcome."

"Alistair dismissed the feeling—it was an intrusive thought, nothing more."

hihihi

alistair in book2 after being put in a death tournament, his family killing his brother, him bringing his brother back from the dead,almost getting killed, getting cursed to death and dumped by his gf of 3 days, murdering his whole family, kidnapping a child, getting trashed by media, almost getting killed again, about to have a bi awakening and fall for his ~enemy~:

fav thing is how alistair finds that gavin is "distraction" from his dark thoughts like 12/10 for that

"Alistair had never even been certain he liked boys, not beyond the occasional book or television character, figments of fiction."

alistair's crime count be like

"I—I keep telling myself that when this is over, it’ll stop haunting me. But after today … I don’t know if it ever will.”

he is written so well idgaf his guilt his grief his anger fucK

“You’re not a monster, Al,” he whispered.

Whatever Alistair had expected him to say, it clearly wasn’t that. At first he inspected him with thinly veiled suspicion, but Gavin didn’t avert his gaze, even as he wondered if this whole conversation had been a mistake. Then Alistair turned away, cheeks flushing.

“Well, you’re not broken,” Alistair grumbled, staring fixedly at the table.

gavin is in crisis after finally having realizashun he has crush on alistair

ending this part because it won't let me include more memes </3

#val reads #full of spoilers and once again longer than my final at this point lmao #aouv #aoud #all of us villains #all of our demise

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postapocalyptic-cryptic · 1 year

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hi mikey!!! could you talk about red alert and "sometimes you're born with it" pls? i need more red alert in my brain rn

hi zip!! welcome to the red alert fanclub dlkgjdlsfgkj

So this one would probably be about Red Alert reminiscing on how much of his life he's lost to mental illness and thinking about where he is now, from the perspective of Luna 1 Red. I think, like me, he was very very mentally ill from a very young age, and it's colored his whole life. He's struggled with it for as long as he can remember, which is a very long time.

He thinks a lot about who he could have been had he been happier, healthier, more energetic, and then there's a change of pace from reminiscing to him in the middle of a bad week on the Luna 1. But even in the bad there's some good, and he's got the company of Max and Cerebros to help him.

#sorry brain smooth rn #ask tag #zipquips #red alert

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answerisalways42 · 5 years

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amandabrugel: “Female friendships that work are relationships in which women help each other belong to themselves” - Louise Bernikow. From Day ONE. Insisted that I belong to myself. Adore you, @yvonnestrahovski. #theshoulderswestandon #theshoulderswestandon #theshoulderswestandon #theshouldersistandon [x]

There’s love and then there is Amanda Brugel, president and treasurer (and real life treasure) of the Yvonne Strahovski AKA Ball of Sunshine Human fanclub.

#yvonne strahovski #amanda brugel #founding member president and treasurer of the unicorn fanclub #but #okay real talk for a sec... WUT is this about?#'cause point 1 #yvonne looks teary #point 2 its kinda outta the blue #point 3 i dont have a point 3... i just felt like i needed to continue mumbling here about nothing #while im here... AMANDA BRUGEL bless your heart for posting a pic of yvonne... its been like 73 years #ive aged #no unicorn magic tralalaaaaaing about #ball of sunshine with arms and legs #adorable nerd #adopted nerd person #friggin favorite #forever and always #wonderful idiot #happy ninja unicorn

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askmetaborrowers · 7 years

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The Next Day With Amanda and Jack

Jack woke up and immediately grabbed for his phone. He looked at the time, ignoring the fact he seemed to have two missed calls. He winced when he saw it was almost 3 in the afternoon. Well, that’s what he gets for staying up all night. He sat up and stretched before getting ready for the day. He hurried as much as he could, excited to talk with Amanda again. As soon as he was done he practically ran to the kitchen and started knocking on the walls.

He listened closing for any footsteps or her voice, but frowned when he didn’t hear anything. He grabbed his chair and looked in the vent, but didn’t see her in there either.

“Amanda!” Had she left? After everything the night, er that morning, would she just leave?

“Amanda!” He hopped off the chair and started looking around.

Amanda, meanwhile, was sitting inside the walls behind the kitchen cupboards munching on some cheerios she had borrowed early this morning while Jack was still fast asleep. Amanda had always been more of a morning borrower, which for once had worked out in her favor.

Amanda listened to the knocks echoing throughout the walls and Jack’s loud voice calling her name. It was so strange to hear her name coming from a human bean.

Amanda frowned. She hadn’t technically promised to come back, and even if she had Amanda was pretty sure she could live with the guilt of lying to a human.

“Come on Amanda! Please! I just want to talk!” Jack looked around a bit more before collapsing into one of the chairs. Maybe she really had left. Or she had been a coffee, sleep deprived hallucination. But he was pretty sure that wasn’t it. Still, he probably shouldn’t be surprised if she left.

He thought for a moment before getting up and looking in the fridge. Maybe he could get her to come out with the promise of a hot cooked meal.

Amanda heard the knocking and calling of her name die down. Had Jack really stopped searching for her? Amanda couldn’t decide if she was offended or relieved.

Amanda packed up the rest of her cheerios and began to climb inside the walls back up to the vent where she could watch Jack. For a moment Amanda thought about switching locations since Jack had seen her here already, but Amanda figured it was still a safe spot. After all, if he came too close Amanda could just dash back into the walls.

Nevertheless, Amanda laid down on her stomach in the vent to help prevent being spotted. A heavenly aroma wafted up and looking down Amanda spotted the familiar sight of boiled potatoes. Amanda had always loved potatoes because they were good even cold and could store for a while.

Jack finished putting the potatoes on a plate and set them on the counter. He bit his lip, hoping this would work.

“Uh oh!” He cried in a very fake voice. “It looks like I made too much food! Whatever will I do!”

Amanda rolled her eyes and cringed. She should have known a human bean wouldn’t give up looking for a borrower so easily.

After nothing happened Jack pouted before another idea popped into his head. He took out a fork and took a bite.

“Oh! It’s so good! I’ve really outdone myself this time!” He paused, listening with bated breath.

Amanda sighed, facepalming with second hand embarrassment. What, did he really expect this to work? How dumb did he think she was?

Jack sighed after a bit and dropped the act. He groaned and face planted on the counter.

“Come on Amanda! I’m trying here! Please!” His shouts were slightly muffled by the counter.

“Oh this is absolutely pathetic.” Amanda whispered to herself. She pushed herself off the ground and decided it wouldn’t hurt to talk to him from the vent again. She paused, trying to figure out what to say.

“Hey!” She yelled out to get his attention, cupping her hands around her mouth.

Jack lifted his head with a start, eyes toward the vent.

“Amanda?”

“Who else would it be?” Amanda joked, continuously trying to convince herself this was a good idea.

“Amanda! You came back!” He thought about going up near the vent again, but decided against it. He didn’t want her to leave.

“Um...Potatoes?” He motioned to the plate.

Amanda considered it. The possibility of eating warm food was tempting, but the idea of being out in the open near Jack was not. Amanda imagined watching Jack shovel forkfuls of food larger than her body into her mouth as she had to sit by and watch, hoping she wasn’t next on the fork. Amanda shuddered, terrified at the thought.

“I’ll grab some later.” Amanda replied, deciding against it.

“Oh.” Jack frowned, but he kind of expected it. “Some other time then.” He set the plate aside.

“Well, I am glad you came back.”

“Yeah, well…” Amanda rubbed the back of her neck. “So, let’s just get into it then. You had questions, right?”

“Right, right. Uh…” Now that he could ask, his mind seemed to have drawn a blank. “Um...so, you’re a borrower right? What’s-What’s that like?”

“I mean, it’s alright.” Amanda said. “I don’t really have anything else to compare it to, but it would definitely be easier to be human because there’s a whole lot of danger when you’re my size. And you’ve gotta be really active because it takes a lot of strength to climb up places, not to mention it takes forever to get anywhere.”

“I bet. Don’t think I could ever do any of that.” He chuckled. “So, did you live at the hotel? How did you even get into my bag?” That particular question had been bugging him. How had he not noticed a tiny girl get into his bag?

“I climbed in when you set it down.” Amanda answered honestly, taking care not to mention Allison. “You had grabbed my hook and I wanted it back.”

Jack blinked. “Your hook? Oh! So that’s what that thing was.” He frowned. “Why was it outside our door?”

“Well I kinda sorta was being chased.” Amanda said. “And when I ran to go hide I accidentally dropped it.”

“Chased. By Dan right?” Jack asked. Remembering seeing Dan right before finding the hook.

“Yup, I think that was his name anyways.” Amanda recalled the incredibly tall, lanky human intent on finding her.

“Yeah. We don’t know each other well, but I would still consider us friends.” Jack shrugged and looked off to the side for a moment before realizing something.

“Wait! Hold on, I’ll be right back!” Jack started to leave, before stopping for a moment. “Please don’t leave.” He said before heading into his room and checking his phone. Just as he thought he had a missed call from Dan. But he also had a missed call from Mark. He bit his lip.

“Now who do I call…” He muttered to himself.

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yougotthat-write · 3 years

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this has been in my head for days but like a fic where rafael barba (law & order: svu) and nevada ramirez (trouble in the heights) were twins who were separated really young bc their parents divorced and i needed to get this out of my brain. there's probably spelling errors and stuff.

so, rafael grew up with their mother - who was nice, loved him, and gave him the drive to pursue his career, and became a force to be reckoned with in and outside a courtroom. nevada grew up with their father - he was abusive emotionally, physically, mentally yada yada. nevada ran away when he was like sixteen, changed his name, started a new life for himself in washington heights doing bad boy tingz.

anyway, flash forward to you being the newbie on the svu team, meeting everyone and oh, who is that cutie in the suit and constant scowl on his face? barba starts to like you, you like barba. sonny is screaming "when is the wedding?!" and amanda is teaching jesse how to hold a fancy pillow that holds the rings. this annoys you and barba but also, are they wrong?? no.

but before we can get to all the cute relationship things and marriage, we're at the chest aching pining stage, and a case comes into svu where women were being assaulted/raped. the rapist slipped up one night and left dna at the crime scene or something. warner gives you the results and the guy is in the system and it's learned he's part of a gang (nevada's obvi)

so you and nick make the trip up to washington heights (shout out to the in the heights movie and soundtrack that i can't get out of my head!!) and you start asking around about the perp. you and nick find him but he bolts. you follow him to a warehouse or something. idk how you and nick meet nevada, maybe you walk upon one of his deals or something?? idk but it results in a shootout.

bullets flying around, shouting, the whole nine yards. men scrambling into large black suvs but you and nick are ok until a window rolls down in one of the suvs and it stops you in your tracks. a hand starts to extend through the window, you don't hear nick yelling at you to take cover, and you don't feel the bullets hitting your vest until your on the ground and looking up at the sky.

was that? no. it can't be. but you knew those eyes anywhere.

then you feel the impact, the pain that makes you suck in a hard breath and makes you feel like you're suffocating. you start to groan, tears pricking your eyes as nick comes into view. he has a phone to his ear, his lips moving but you can't hear the words because you let out a scream. nick is trying to tell you that the bullets only hit your vest but you can't hear or feel anything other than the pain.

you're rushed to bellevue. you have a broken rib, bruising, your head hurts like hell from the concrete. nick rode with you to the hospital. olivia is the first to arrive, eyes glassy with anger and sympathy. her voice croaks out, "who did this?" nick goes into detail about the gang they encountered. he didn't see the face of your shooter though. fin, amanda, and sonny file in.

amanda tries to joke. fin offers a shrug of "it could be worse." and sonny says that his ma is making cannolis for you. they all stand around your hospital bed, giving looks of sympathy, trying to figure out who these people are and who shot you.

the last to roll in with a knock on the door is barba. you didn't see him yet because the wall of people around you hasn't parted. his hair looks disheveled. he isn't wearing a suit jacket. he's slightly out of breath and amanda quips, "did you run here, barba?" you feel nauseous. sonny gives a lopsided smile, "you look rough." barba doesn't quip back. he parts the sea of people and when you look up at him from your bed, you let out a scream.

the room is hectic. everyone's eyes widen, nick lays a hand on your shoulder. olivia tries to soothe you with words. fin takes a step back towards the door, asking for a nurse. barba steps closer to you and that's when you start to slide away from him. your chest hurts when you try to sit up, nick and olivia try to push you back down into bed. amanda watches you quietly.

rafael says your name and you turn to look at him, eyes teary. he watches the tears slide down your face and you look him in those green eyes that you would know anywhere and whisper shakily, "you shot me."

while nick has never been a part of the barba fanclub, even he is taken aback by the accusation. fin makes a 'this girl crazy' face, amanda looks between you and barba, sonny's mouth is open like a fish, and olivia is speechless. a nurse comes in and asks what's wrong. amanda asks what drugs you've been given. you haven't been given anything that would make you this delusional.

the look in your eyes - the fear - made rafael step back. now he was the one with the ache in his chest. he did what? you're babbling like a baby, tears falling onto your hospital gown, body trembling. every detective in the room knows who you are. they know you're a strong person, an honest person, a fighter. but they also know barba. a man with a quick mouth, snarky looks, and a library of law stuffed into his brain. he was a fighter. he was honest. it's why the two of you seemed to be hitting off so well.

but accusing him of shooting you? everyone thought you lost your marbles and rafael looked like he had just been shot instead.

everyone started bombarding nick with questions. what did he see? who was there? where did they go? nick told everyone what happened again but paused. "we saw the window roll down... and uh," he looked over at you for a moment. "i told her to take cover. i ducked away and when i looked at her... she had this look on her face." nick's gaze flickered over to rafael. "she looked like she knew the person and she just froze."

rafael swallowed the bile in his throat. "you can't be serious-"

"where did you come from counselor?" nick bristled and rafael's gaze hardened at the fellow spanish man. olivia put her hands up between the two men who stood on opposite sides of your bed.

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aaaaand that's all i have. if a fic would ever be written about this, it would be soooo long, holy crap. anyway, can someone else write it for me??? i have $6 in tips that i made last night and it has your name on it if you do this for me lolol

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saw5 · 3 years

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okay ivory told me to release my inhibitions so here it is, a list of all the lyrics off of the mountain goats' beat the champ that remind me of amanda.

whipped like a dog, down on the cards square in the spotlight sweating real hard all soaked in blood like a newborn babe sharp thing hidden in my hand shaped like an astrolabe

if you can't beat 'em, make 'em bleed like pigs

no brakes down an endless dark incline most of the boys won't ever cross this line if they all wanna die dead broke, that's fine, that's fine everybody's got their limits nobody's found mine

drift down into the new dark light without any reservations you've found my breaking point congratulations

spent too much of my life now trying to play fair throw my better self overboard, shoot at him when he comes up for air come unhinged, get revenge

i don't wanna die in here

stay good under pressure for years and years and years president of the fanclub up there choking on his tears

let all the trash rain down from way up in the rafters i'm walking out of here in one piece don't care what comes after

drive the wedge, torch the bridge

just like the entirety of werewolf gimmick. but here are some highlights:

i was not here for rehearsal, i don't need it anymore

let him he thinks he knows no fear look well upon my face

nameless bodies in unremembered rooms

half the city sound asleep and safe inside their beds get lost inside my thoughts and nearly tear his face to shreds

crude and graceless peeking through the eyeholes seeing the real you

and by way of honoring the things we once both held dear i will reveal you i will reveal you

#radio #i guess.#chavo guerrero and animal mask both kind of resonate too but in overall themes and probably in ways that only make sense to me and my twist #ed mind

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imagining-sio · 4 years

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Destiny headcanons

- Cayde once sent a mass invtie for a knitting club held in Zavala’s office in the city, several grandmothers showed up to Zavala’s office while he was knitting. There is now a monthly knitting circle in Zavala’s office.

- Saint-14 once cooed at Osiris like he does his pigeons, Osiris cooed back. They don’t talk about it, Segira, however, doesn’t shut up about it.

- Segira actively communicates with Saint-14, she likes to think she’s Osiris’ wingman. They gossip about their bridman together.

- Amanda always stops by Zavala’s office to leave him a small gift on father’s day and Dawning. If he’s there she will sit and talk with him for a bit.

- Hawthorne does the same with Devrim.

- It is customary for guardians and their ghosts to celebrate their “Revival Day”.

- Since the Crucible is televised throughout the city, their are several fanclubs for certain guardians. Some bars specifically hold crucible nights for when that guardian is playing.

- Since pineapples are a myth, it is popular that they grew to the size of actual trees and that many could live in them. This is supported by a certain cartoon under the sea that a guardian found once in an encrypted engram.

#destiny 2 #zavala #ikora rey #cayde 6 #saint 14 #osiris #lord shaxx #ghosts #Guardians #pineapple #headcanons #amanda holliday #suraya hawthorne #devrim kay #like for more

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oddthesungod · 3 years

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Damn bestie, you've turned into a sarek and amanda fanclub at this point! 😂😂

(BTW you're art is amazing, love everything you post 💖)

HAKDHSKDH I welcome all the Amanda and Sarek love 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

And thank you!!! 🥺💖

#reply #anon #s’chn t’gai human loving tradition

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toffoliravioli · 1 year

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HES SO LOUD AND FOR WHAT

#nico you’re KILLING ME #nico hischier #jack hughes #new jersey devils #nicojack rights <3 #amandas fanclub

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the-hopeless-haze · 4 years

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Someone to Hold You Too Close (Being Alive Chapter 1)

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Rafael hated this case. He wanted it to go the hell away.

First, the political tinge, as the man had connections what with a better-off sister. Then, it turned out he had a history with young girls in the middle school classes he taught. It shouldn't be too difficult to get a conviction, but it was going to take a toll on him.

He needed to talk to Liv about something, but you were in her office, the door open a crack. She had picked you up, a fresh face from Boston’s homicide department. You were barely 25, still optimistic, but you were stoic, reserved, quiet, beautiful (although he'd try to ignore that and ultimately failed). You’d been here a couple of months, hadn’t talked to him too much, save for the snarky comments you’d exchange when he was being a dick. There was one time, however, when he saw you talking to a victim, trying to help her be able to go on the stand, and you were able to talk her down from hysterics when no one else could. That was as close to a rapport as you’d gotten since he asked you why you didn’t choose to be a psychiatrist instead. You'd laughed, said you double-majored in college - criminal justice and psychology - but you never quite knew what to do with the psychology major.

“You thought I was good with her, Counselor?” you’d asked.

“Good? That was great. You saved my whole case. If she didn’t testify, her rapist would walk.”

You had shrugged, given him a tight-lipped smile. “I don’t know. I just thought this would be a better way for me to help.”

Since then, things had been smoother between you two, and you’d talk to him, exchange niceties when he came in the office, talk about Boston, but you weren't friendly, per se.

He didn’t mean to stay and listen to your conversation with Olivia, now, but you kept talking, not knowing he was there what with your back turned. "You don't need to take me off the case!" He'd never heard you so riled up, so upset.

"Detective (L/N)... If you don't think this is good for your mental health, I want you to step back. You haven't been doing well since we got her confession."

"This is why I wanted to join this squad, Sergeant. To help people. I can't do that if you sideline me every time there's a case that might be similar to my own. What you don't get... they're all similar to what happened to me. Are you going to take me off all of them? It's always about control."

He hears Liv sigh, and she says, "I know. I do get it." She makes eye contact with him then, and he coughs, knocking on the door.

"Do you have a second?"

"Yeah. She's all yours," you say, standing up abruptly, quickly walking past him. "I was just leaving."

Rafael looks at Olivia knowingly. "How much of that did you hear?" she asks once you're out of earshot.

"Enough," he says. "I wouldn't let her question the suspect."

Olivia leans back in the chair. "I can't do that. She's the newest addition to the team. If I keep the training wheels on too long, she's going to resent me."

"She can't be leading him to confess, or..."

"I don't see that in her. You know her style." He did, when he was witness to it. It was interesting. You were better at getting the full stories from victims and witnesses, as you really played on the empathy and fear card. He realized now you empathized with it more than he thought, and that you weren't just playing it up to get facts. When you tried to get perpetrator confessions, though, you empathized with them, too, but you never did lead them on. You got them to give you the truth, inch by inch.

“Well, don’t let her go rogue. I can’t have anything she does possibly come up in court.”

That was all he was ever worried about, wasn’t it?

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Rafael is startled to see you pacing outside the precinct, a cigarette in your hand. You smoked? Of all people? He has half the sense to knock it out of your hand. He comes up to you instead, looking at you cautiously. "Detective (L/N)? Are you doing okay?"

You laugh sarcastically, bringing the cigarette up to your lips and taking a drag, blowing the smoke out of the corner of your mouth, directing it away from him. "What do you think? You heard my conversation with Searge."

"I...I'm sorry. I didn't mean to--"

"You want me off the case, too? Am I going to mess up your confession?”

"No. I just want you to be careful," he says, stepping a little closer. He takes the cigarette out of your hand and throws it in the ashtray you were standing near. "Awful habit. You should stop."

"I only smoke when I'm stressed. I should've thrown these out. They're bad. They're from... God, these are Massachusetts cigarettes," you say, laughing despite feeling miserable.

He chuckles, too. “Well, make me a promise. You don’t buy any cigarettes in New York.”

“I don’t know if I can keep my end of the bargain up on that one, Counselor. Searge was right. It is getting to me,” you say, sighing, then look up quickly. “Don’t tell her I said that.”

“No one is going to judge you if you need to step off the case,” he says.

“You ever have to?”

“Yes,” he says but doesn’t elaborate. He doesn’t need to. This isn’t about him. “And I will again. We all have breaking points.”

“Well. I’ve met mine enough to know this isn’t it. I just want him in jail,” you say, anger setting in your tone.

“What do you need?” Rafael asks you, quietly, after letting you settle with your thoughts for a few minutes. “I can tell Olivia you need—“

“I need you to put him away. I’m counting on you,” you cut him off, staring at him with a fire in your eyes he didn’t know you had in you.

Rafael nods gravely. “You know I’m going to do everything in my power.”

You’re looping your arms around him, and he realizes you’re...hugging him. Holding him too close. He doesn’t hate this, he doesn’t hate you, but he hates what it means. When’s the last time a woman hugged him aside from his mom, or maybe Olivia? Of course you're a hugger, though, it made sense. You're a bleeding heart if there ever was one.

“You always do,” you tell him, and he feels a sense of warmth at the recognition. “You’re an excellent A.D.A.”

“Thank you,” he says. “I knew that already, but it’s nice hearing it.”

You laugh, and he can tell you need it. “Yeah. I was thinking I didn’t have to tell you. But you win this one for me, okay?”

“Of course,” he says, hoping he has a good jury, looking at you cautiously. "You okay to go back in there?"

"Yeah. I will in a few minutes."

"No...Since I took your cigarette, let me buy you a coffee," he offers.

You smile. "I don't think either of us need any more caffeine today, Counselor. I'll let you buy me a tea, though."

Rafael did feel bad for you; he'd seen it before, young detectives getting in over their head. You weren't like the others, headed for a burnout, although you could be, if you weren't careful. You did your due diligence, worked hard, asked the right questions. For whatever reason, you had wanted this job and fought like hell to get it, and that, well that, he could respect. He just hoped you didn't drive yourself to the ground.

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Rafael lets out a breath he didn't know he'd been holding. Guilty. On all counts. Usually, juries would throw out one of the random ones he'd try and slip in there to extend jail time, but not today. He'd truly won. And thank God, too. He didn't think he could bear walking up to you with his tail between his legs after promising you he'd win.

"Thanks for keeping your promise, Counselor," you say, hugging him lightly as he meets the squad outside the courthouse. Evidently, it was still too close, since Rollins mutters, "Down girl. Give the man some space."

You're blushing as you pull away. "Sorry. This one just meant a lot to me."

"I know," he says, maintaining eye contact with you a beat too long, your blush deepening. "Jury was good."

"Yeah. So were you," you say, grinning. "Closing statement? Jury would have to be a bunch of sociopaths to not convict."

"Don't feed his ego," Olivia laughs. "He doesn't need it."

"Nice to hear praise from my adoring fanclub, sometimes," he says, smirking, turning his gaze from Olivia to you again.

"Pretty sure that's just (y/n)," Rollins snickers. “She talks about you all the time.”

Wait... it couldn’t be. No. Amanda was just a snarker, liked to make people uncomfortable to take the edge off herself.

"Shut up, Amanda," you chide, glaring at her before turning back to him. "Thank you, Barba."

"Just doing my job, Detective," he says, but it didn't quite feel like that was all he was doing anymore. You’d said to win...for you. And what with Amanda’s comments, he couldn’t help but wonder if there was something more to that.

But no.

You were too young for him, too pretty, too kind. You wouldn’t want an old man like himself, and that ship had sailed long ago, anyway, because Rafael had ultimately given up on that part of his life. Dating was just something that never worked out for him, as evidenced by his long list of ex-lovers and the even longer list of reasons why they didn’t stay together.

It didn’t matter, anyway. You didn’t see anything in him. he’d seen you hug Amanda, rub her shoulders, even braid her hair. Evidently you’d gotten comfortable enough with him to do the same, to hold him what could be perceived as too close because he was a man and the A.D.A. and not a woman or your partner. That was all it was, that was all it could be.

But that glint in your eye? The way you were still blushing?

He’s a damn fool for even thinking about it and he's an even stupider man for asking you if you wanted to get a coffee as the rest of the squad trickles forward down the courthouse steps, leaving the two of you behind. But you agree, again, as a surprise to him. God, it's been so long since he's done this, it's so hard to read any signals. And even if there were any, what could he do with them? He couldn't just sleep with you - that's the way messes within a workplace started - and anyway, Rafael didn't do hookups anymore. He was far too old for that, but he was also far too old to be thinking about starting anything serious with a 25-year-old. No, you would just be friends. Friends went out for coffee, even if he thought you were the most beautiful woman he'd met in quite a long time.

You're exchanging a look with Amanda, who laughs and rolls her eyes, and again, he wonders again if there's something more to the banter both of you engage in or if you're making fun of him the way the girls used to in high school because he thought he had a chance with one who was far out of his league.

You order a coffee this time - iced, with far too much cream and sugar. "Why don't you just order milk next time?" he teases, covering the bill despite your protest that you could pay for your own drink.

"I don't know how you can drink it black. You ever have coffee milk?"

"No," he says. "Is that it?"

"You went to school in Massachusetts for three years and never had coffee milk?" you ask, sipping at your coffee, chewing a little on the straw before your lips purse around it again. Well, that wasn't distracting...at all.

"No. Enlighten me in how it's different from what you just ordered."

You roll your eyes, but you tell him, and the conversation flows easily as you talk about Massachusetts again. Again, you don't tell him much in the way of personal details, you mostly talk about places and ask him if he's been there (most of the time he has no idea what you're talking about, and he'll tell you he went there to study, not sightsee).

"Thanks for the coffee, Barba," you tell him, smiling. "But I should probably head back to the precinct and make sure Amanda took care of the paperwork."

"No problem, Detective," he says, smiling back.

As you head out the door, you reach for his hand, squeezing it gently before letting go. He could probably never get used to you being this close, the scent of your lilac perfume enveloping him. "I just wanna thank you again."

"You don't have to, Detective."

"No, you don't get it. Cases like this, cases that affect children... this is why I chose SVU. I need to see cases like that through and I need to know I did my job so you can do yours. All the cases matter, but these... I'll tell you why someday. But not today," you say, your lips turned down in a slight frown.

"You did an excellent job," he assures you, smiling in a way he hopes is reassuring.

You smile back, and that strawberry lipstick-stained mouth is guaranteed to haunt his dreams tonight. You hug him again, more awkwardly this time, and say, "Thank you. I'll see you tomorrow. Have a good one, Barba."

And you're gone, heading for your car, leaving the faint notes of your perfume in the air and on his suit jacket. He wants to wash it off, but he also wants it to bleed into the fabric so it never leaves. This was the opposite of a sure thing, the opposite of a thing to bet on.

So he swallows down his resignation to his solitude with a swig of coffee, needing the bitterness to assuage him that that was all his life would ever be. Because that's how it always was, wasn't it?

NEXT CHAPTER

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rosesmith18 · 3 years

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(PnF) Headcanon #8 Fanclubs

This post will be about the three fanclubs that exist in my personnel canon of the PnF Universe. This post will contain mentions of the MnT(Marie & Thomas)Universe which I have posted on post #6 titled Fankids, but for thoses who haven't or don't wish to read that post, I'll clarify. MnT is the name of the fanmade second generation for PnF made by angelus19, sam-ely-ember & Melty64 on deviantart. You can check out their pages for more details about the fan characters if you like about, but I warn you my headcanon for MnT differs heavily from it's source material. Anyway, let's get started with the Phineas & Ferb Fanclub: The Phineas & Ferb Fanclub is a fanclub that exist on an international scale to follow, support, and take part in the creative exploits of the famous step-brothers; Phineas Philip Flynn and Ferb Fletcher. Origins: Irving Du Bois has been the leader of the Phineas & Ferb Fanclub since the summer of 2008 when he documented the daily happens of the brothers and posted it to his Phineas & Ferb Fansite. Due to the brothers rapidly growing notary considering their science defining invention, people worldwide instantly took to the Fansite for quick and consist updates on the duos happenings. The fame of the site lead to the creation of a member based sign-in that would allow people to receive email updates encouraging many to create accounts for the site. To this day millions of accounts have been made showing the obvious and ever growing fame of the two brothers. The next fanclub of note is the Thomas Fletcher Fanclub: The Thomas Fletcher Fanclub is a fanclub housed in the city of Danville. It is a club entirely dedicated to worshipping, stalking, and discussing of the life of the clubs namesake. Origins: Beverly Lewis formed the Thomas Fletcher Fanclub with middle school friends; Amelio, Madelyn, and Jiahua in sixth grade. To this day the fanclub has increased tenfold in it’s number of active members. Tens of similarly aged young girls & boys crushing on a fellow classmate who is classified as a celebrity thanks to his fathers legacy. The actions of the fanclub are more than a bit invasive and underhanded, lacking much since of personal space and privacy. It is considered by non-members to be a nuisance if not a clear cause for concern. *Disclaimer: Thomas belongs to Melty64 on deviantart. Beverly, Amelia, Madelyn, and Jiahua belong to me. And, last, but not least the Thomarie Fanclub: The Thomarie Fanclub is a club devoted to the shipping of Tri-State Area’s favorite resident celebrities children; Thomas James Fletcher-Doofenshmirtz & Maria Elyzabeth Flynn Garcia-Shapiro. Origins: Jasmine Tjinder has been the leader of the Thomarie Fanclub since she began shipping her best friends; Thomas & Maria, at the tender age of six years old. Since then the romantic tension between her best friends has become apparent to many others including the entirety of the Flynn-Fletcher Family-excluding Phineas & Amanda. Several of those awaken to the romance in the air have joined Jasmine in her goal to bring the two step-cousins together, and proudly share their support & part in a soon to be amazing moment in history. *Disclaimer: Maria angelus19 & sam-ely-ember belongs to on deviantart. Thomas belongs to Melty64 on deviantart. Jasmine belongs to sam-ely-ember & Melty64 on deviantart. In summary, these are the fanclubs most important to my PnF & MnT headcanon though I may mention others in the future. If you have an ideas for fanclubs, questions or critics feel free to leave your thoughts on the post.

#phineas and ferb #marie and thomas #ocs #headcanons #phineas flynn #ferb fletcher #irving du bois #marie flynn #thomas fletcher #jasmine tjinder #fanclubs

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lighthousehq · 4 years

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are you ready for the hunt ?

we’ve said this god knows how many times, but thank you all again for putting so much heart into your apps and this group . we had some super tough decisions to make, and in the case of each skeleton, it constantly came down to two apps that we would end up debating between . if we could find a way to get all of y’all involved, we would ( and like we mentioned, you might just have to keep an eye out for season two ).

we’ve kept you all waiting long enough, so below the cut is a brief paragraph from us on why we chose each app ! you all have twenty - four hours to send in your accounts, and we’ll be sending out links to the group server as you do . we’re so stoked to have ya on board !

welcome back to the island, henri rosseau ( the tagalong ) !

kat says: reading henri’s bio was such an unbridled joy. from a tango gone too far to him losing his first tooth on a pickle jar to him learning to shotgun, i decided that henri is my child and i’m going to protect him with my whole life. selene making henri a grilled cheese? correct. something amanda pointed out that i wanna add here is that henri feels so real. first of all, he’s relatable as fuck. but also the way you told his story was so touching and emotional and... you love to see it.

amanda says: listen, the tagalong is one of my favorite skeletons and we had such a fun bunch of apps for them and it was so hard to make a decision. but every sentence of henri’s app gave off such personality and i was in love from the first sentence. every aspect of henri was so gripping and nuanced -- i told kat this, but i felt for him and i could relate with him and he broke my heart, while knowing just how to put it back together in the next paragraph. “sometimes it feels like you’re more of a concept than a person from the moment of your conception.” i. fuck me up, hayley. i just gotta say that henri is my ultimate homie and i’m so psyched to see how he plays out.

welcome back to the island, theo walker ( the brains ) !

kat says: i’m a kass stan first and a human being second. your apps were all wonderful to read, and when it came down it it wasn’t a question of if we were accepting you but rather which app we were accepting. i was sold on theo. three placings in capricorn? pardon me? an asshole with an eidetic memory? we have no choice but to stan. also like this is dumb but i felt like theo & henri actually really fit as cousins and that’s a huge cherry on top of this cake.

amanda says: when i tell you the first line of theo’s bio messed me up, i mean it. “a fuckin’ boy genius. that’s what they called you. when they pulled at your hair and shoved your face in the mud. when you tasted the word loser on your lips as the taste of blood.” i was so intrigued by theo, from the aesthetics bullet all the way to the pinterest and playlist you linked us to. there’s one line that i haven’t been able to stop thinking about since last night -- “when you look at pictures of yourself at that age, you wouldn’t have the heart to tell that kid he wasn’t loved by his parents either.” like. don’t talk to me. i love the edge you gave us with his problem with authority and the gang’s stick and poke phase and his eidetic memory? we love to see it. nothing but respect for MY meme king.

welcome back to the island, thalia pham ( the heart ) !

kat says: you have no idea the amount of times amanda and i have sent quotes from your application and blog back and forth to one another. “workers of the world unite, bitch.” “the death of a domesticated ferret.” your app has been my choice for the heart since we got it and i stand by it. thalia is exactly the heart we need. i would die for my como se dice spitfire. a law student? my angel.

amanda says: thalia pham won my fuckin’ heart and i never want her to give it back. it’s her’s now, she owns it. you gave us sixteen pages on lia and i still found myself wanting to read more. you really took the heart to places we couldn’t have imagined and i’m obsessed with her fire. i was so gripped by her and her background and every little detail you gave us. how she met the gang? hot take. her brother? maybe one cop deserves rights. the way she has so much strength and passion but you still found a way to emphasize her soft aspects without dulling her sharper edges? i could write sonnets on my love for her, tbh. i’m so stoked to have you join us !!

welcome back to the island, alina winthrop ( the sovereign ) !

kat says: honestly guys, this isn’t a scooby doo episode. me? president on the alina winthrop fanclub? more likely than you think. one time, she punched me in the face. it was iconic. honestly the sovereign was one of the hardest decisions but you can ask amanda every four minutes i would say “i still vote for alina tho.” she raised the very true point that alina and the winthrops feel alive and like they belong in brentwood. good looks jo.

amanda says: the sovereign was one of the hardest decisions for me to make, but what it came down to was how at home the winthrops felt. like i told kat, they just felt like they belonged in brentwood, and everything about them really captured me. as for alina? she could rip me to shreds and i’d thank her. when i was reading your app, there were so many lines that just had me stopping for a second to reread. i was so compelled and curious about alina and the way you took the skeleton -- especially with all the little details that really fleshed her out and had me falling in love with her. “the test you’ve been avoiding your whole life: if you weren’t a winthrop, could you still do this? but even more: will you be able to live with the answer when you find out?” BRUH. i’m so, so interested in where you’re going to take her in the story !!

#lhq:announcement #LET'S ROCK BABEY

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cypher-of-the-night · 5 years

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Information about Subaoki Kids~

Mun!Yuki: Okay so I’m just going to be like “Fuck it. I’m showing them now.” Let me introduce you my new grandchildren. :D I don’t have proper bios of them but I can always show what they are like here.

Let’s start off with the oldest to youngest.

Ichiru Sakamaki (逆巻一縷; Sakamaki Ichiru)

Age: 14 (Pre-Timeskip) -> 18 (Post-Timeskip)

Birthday: September 5th

Height: 160 cm (5’3") -> 177 cm (5’10”)

Weight: 53 kg (119 Ibs) -> 67 kg (147 Ibs)

Occupation: Next heir to the throne, Model, 3rd year High School Student (Post-Timeskip)

Seiyū: Yoshitsugu Matsuoka ( Akashi Saginuma from M3: Sono Kuroki Haagen ) (Talking / Singing)

English Voice: Daman Mills ( Varma from Taboo Taboo ) (Talking)

Personality:

Very similar to his father, Ichiru is a silent loner that is quick-tempered and is capable of causing a lot of damage, such as breaking things, even if it is accidental; However, he can also be sweet due to the influence of his mother, whom he loves very much, very similar to how his father loved his own mother. He is said to be a tsundere like his father, which he often denies. However, he is not a DO-S (extreme sadist) like his father; Due to the damages he caused when he was much younger, Naoki taught him to not damage things when throwing fits by teaching him many ways to calm himself whenever he is angered; Eventually, Ichiru chose to vent out his feelings by writing out his feelings in a private journal in the garden (very much like his mother when she is writing lyrics to her raps). Not wanting to make his mother worried whenever his father damages things, Ichiru is the one that often fixes it, which he later finds as a hobby.

Like his mother, Ichiru loves food to a point of eating anything, and like his father, He dislikes nothing when it comes to food. Very much like his mother, He has a disinterest in studying despite holding higher-than-average intelligence. Like Naoki, Ichiru has a golden heart, and is strong-willed and honest (but in his case, it’s brutal honesty). And also like her, He is understanding, caring, hardworking, and helpful. Despite his tsundere personality, Ichiru was taught to be a gentleman to women; Very similar to his mother, Ichiru is eccentric and is highly curious, to a point of having a strange way of thinking.

Despite admiring his father, Ichiru calls him “Old man” and snarls whenever someone comments about him being similar to him. This is due to the fact of learning about his mother’s time with Subaru when she was still human, and became protective of her as a result; This has caused a rivalry between Ichiru himself and his own father. Regardless, it is revealed by Naoki that Ichiru truly does love his father, but he’s just very stubborn to admit it due to his own pride, like his father.

Trivia:

• Just as Tsundere as his father; But still has a kind heart like his mother.

• As the oldest, He often scolds his sister and the damages she causes; However, the dismissiveness for the scoldings resembles their father’s dismissiveness of the scoldings he received from their Uncle Reiji.

• Because He is to be next-in-line for the throne, Ichiru is has to keep his composure and restrain himself from losing his cool; Even resorts to healthier ways suggested by his mother on how to calm himself down.

• At the age of 14, Ichiru was scouted to work as a model; While he initially plan to decline, Ichiru accepted in order to make money for himself without having to rely on his parents financially, especially his father, the Vampire King.

• While he inherited his father’s strength, Ichiru doesn’t take advantage of it due to not inheriting any destructive traits or tendencies.

• Despite his father and sister being left-handed and his mother right-handed, Ichiru is ambidextrous.

• Despite inheriting his black hair from his mother, Naoki herself attests that he inherit most of his looks from Subaru due to an incident where she witnessed Subaru’s hair dyed black from an incident involving an octopus ink.

However there was one incident that happened to Ichiru where his hair was bleached for a whole month because of his sister; Ichiru looked exactly like his father to a point where even Naoki can attest that they would’ve looked like twins.

• In Naoki’s HDB Brute Ending, only Ichiru was born through her becoming mentally broken from Subaru’s sexual assault; Where a cycle begins where an insane Naoki starts failing to differentiate between people, mistaking Ichiru as Subaru himself due to him sharing the same face as him, and, as a result, deemed him as “filthy”, despite loving and doting him when not mad; Very much like the relationship between Christa and Subaru himself and how Christa becomes mentally broken because of Karlheinz.

Tsukika Sakamaki (逆巻月下; Sakamaki Tsukika)

Age: 12 (Pre-Timeskip) -> 16 (Post-Timeskip)

Birthday: June 8th

Height: 149 cm (4'11") -> 158 cm (5’2”)

Weight: 49 kg (108 Ib)

Occupation: Idol, 1st year High School Student (Post-Timeskip)

Seiyū: Taeko Kawata ( Amy Rose from the Sonic the Hedgehog franchise ) (Talking / Singing)

English Voice: Amanda Lee ( Zero from Grimoire of Zero ) (Talking / Singing)

Personality:

While she inherited her mother’s bubbly cheerfulness, Tsukika inherited her father’s strength and tendencies to break things near her, including walls; However, this is mainly whenever she is happy and excited, as there has only been a very few times she has ever used her strength in anger and/or intentionally; Due to this, her older brother, Ichiru, always has to clean up after her and often scolds her for the damages she caused, which she prefers to ignore; The same way Subaru ignores Reiji whenever he is being scolded. Unlike her mother, Tsukika isn’t exactly smart when it comes to school work no matter how hard she tries as she only barely passes, very much like her father. Tsukika is rather girly, sometimes boy-crazy/girl-crazy (not often taken seriously), and fashionable, and is just as extroverted as her mother.

When annoyed, Tsukika shows to have also inherit her father’s temper, but shows it in a tranquil fury way just like Asher when he is angered. While she is temperamental and stubborn in private, Tsukika, as an idol, presents herself to the public as an fragile, air-headed star. Due to watching Kou’s performance as an idol, Tsukika wanted to become an idol when she reached of age. While it was difficult to handle at first, She admittedly enjoyed performing as she loved to sing and dance; This is something she inherited from her mother with rap music. As an idol, Tsukika is very cautious about using her strength in public and to keep herself in-character as a normal girl.

However, unlike her brother, Tsukika has Do-S tendencies due to her vampiric nature that she fully embraces, to a point where she has taken advantage of using her strength and her looks to do as she pleases, and feels no remorse in the things she does. Her victims would always be obsessive stalkers that happen to be cute to Tsukika, Men or women, and would often be broken down and tortured into mindless dolls by Tsukika, by shattering their pure image of her and themselves feel disgusting. On the full moon, She becomes a seductive temptress, turning from a playful flirt that often jokes around to a shameless flirt that has no shame for doing the things she does. Tsukika holds the belief that she would rather embrace her vampiric nature than to suppress it like her brother does, as she takes pride in being a vampire and doesn’t see any reason to hold back who she is behind closed doors; Alas, she would be forced to keep her activities secret to keep her job as an idol and her pure image from being tainted.

Trivia:

• By timeskip, Tsukika is not a virgin as she has had sex with her victims once she got older.

• Despite her history of sexual activities, she has never genuinely been in love before; But it is hinted that, when she does genuinely fall in love, she becomes rather yandere-ish. (Very much like Satou Matsuzaka from Happy Sugar Life)

• She has a crush on Rini (by @adiabolikpastel), as Rini is her first real friend; As a result, she genuinely cares for her and is heavily clingy/overprotective of her. It is implied that she established a secret fanclub for her in which Tsukika herself is the leader of.

• Tsukika has an immense love for cute things and sweets to a point her room is filled pastel colors and colorful plushies and a mini-fridge containing her sweets.

• Tsukika has a soft spots for animals, and even has memories of herself as a child being surrounded by animals with her father.

• Tsukika’s real name is “Měi-Rén”/“美人”, meaning “Beautiful Person”.

Tsukika’s name comes from the two first characters of “月下美人” (Gekka Bijin) or "Beauty under the Moon", which is what the Queen of the Night is known as in Japan for its rich history.

• Tsukika admits that Kou was the one that inspired her to become an idol herself. She even declares him her favorite uncle, despite the fact that he is not related to either of her parents by blood.

• Tsukika is actually pansexual and demiromantic.

• While She has a good relationship with her mother, Tsukika loves her father and cherishes the times she spends with him as a child; As much as she wishes to spend more time with him, she understands him being busy as the new Vampire King. Although, it could be said that, while having Naoki’s eyes, Subaru gets reminded of his mother due to the physical resemblance Tsukika has with her.

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Ichiru -> 1/2

Tsukika -> 1/2

#ichiru sakamaki #tsukika sakamaki

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