Ahhh you're truly so kind-hearted and lovable. My day was great, considering that I should actually study for an entrance exam that I know is going to kick my ass lol. And its already 1 am here, oh well Procrastination is my profession ✨ My Top 5 Naruto characters: (I genuinely took 15 mins because I love nearly everyone)

Kakashi ☼- the love of my life, the apple of my eye, I live and breathe for him

Obito- idk what to say haha

Itachi- This sweet baby man, I just wanna give him love

Gaara- this one is a the biggest cutie pie after you (+ he loves cacti)

Yamato- he kind of just wormed himself into my heart, idk how but...

honorable mentions (cuz otherwise I feel bad): -Shikamaru- love him sm -Genma- damn -Naruto- little devil sweetheart 💞

This was sooo hard omg, but I loved this. Why do I have mostly traumatized men up there? Btw, do you have a Top 5 list somewhere ? P.S: I read 'composure'- damn, it made me really giddy. I hope I didn't write too much 😅

how was the exam? sorry i wasn't around! (procrastination is also my profession what a coincidence!)

i love that it took you 15 minutes to chose your favorite characters because i do the same, i can never decide 🤣

ooh, btw i retook the test and i'm still an INFP, probably even more than before lol tell me your secret to turn into an ENFP because i need to be an extrovert so my life will get better

so my top 5 naruto characters (there i go to spend at least 20 minutes trying to choose 5 between all the characters that i love - that's a form of torture, just saying):

here's a cut because shit got too long

kakashi, obvs. he's my everything and i can be the therapy he so desperately needs (or i can make him worse 😉 watch me make him never leave the house again and just spend eternity in bed with me - he only goes out to see the kids who are not kids anymore and his kid's kids because they're like our kids)

my number 2 right now is obito, i just love him sm and i wish i could live squeezed in a sandwich between kakashi and obito (i could die happily, i just know that's what heaven feels like: you die and your favorite fictional characters are real and you get to live squeezed between them). i just wanna be loved by this unhinged boy 😩 tbh i think that the #1 reason obito is here is because my uterus just explodes whenever I hear his name, so...

itachi 🙄 i love him sm i wanna die, ugh. let me make you feel good, sad boi. watch me saying i don't love uchihas and then putting only uchihas on my top 5 because i am, in fact, a uchiha girl (also our top 3 is the same which explain why we're friends ❤️)

sasuke, i'm not sorry 😔. he just has been through so much, i understand his character (though i can't forgive his actions) and i just wish things could be different, you know. wish he could be happy... i also love naruto as much as i love sasuke, they're like my children. (is it cheating to put 2 characters in one position? because then i could put obito, kakashi and itachi on 1st 👀)

yamato - he had had 5 seconds of screen time when my heart decided that he needed to live there forever. purest heart in the whole world, i love him sm 😩😩😩😩😩 yamato let me love you properly

and of course honorable mentions!

zabuza and haku (i'm putting them together because even tho i love them in different ways they're a duo and can't be separated). i just love, understand and respect them a lot, wish we could've seen more of them.

deidara - i love this chaotic mess of a man 🙄

kimimaro - same as zabuza and haku, he'd amazing and i wish we could've seen more of him... wish zabuza had adopted him that night so he would be happier and would have haku to talk with. i just... wish i could hug him and tell him everything's gonna be ok. he just needed love. true, free and unconditional love, not that shit he got from orochimaru.

shikamaru and choji - yes, i love them abnormally, and i'm putting them together because i love them the same.

sakura - i know the list is already too long because i really do love all of the characters, and i also know most people hate on Sakura but i LOVE her, i think she's amazing, she grows so much!

this was really hard, like you said 🤣 i could go on forever about each and every character because i do love them all (except maybe orochimaru and danzo). anyway.

i'm so glad you liked composure! no one else but me did 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

i hope i didn't write too much, and thank you for asking and talking to me ❤️

(1/2) My headcanons where Mammon, Leviathan, Satan, Asmodeus, and Beelzebub react to their shy gn s/o asking to kiss him on the lips request is so good! I'm back!!! I'm doing well ☺️ I hope you are doing well too! I love it especially Mammon calling them treasure while smiling fondly which they did the same ☺️, he mentioned that they're outside of their room since they weren't comfortable enough to stay at the common spaces before 👍, he sat down next to them & said to do something fun but they told him that they need to finish this 👍, they couldn't concentrate because he kept sighing 🤣, they told him he's distracting while he said he's bored 🥱, both of them pouted )---, he grumbled about rewarding him for being patient 😁, they thought about giving someone else since they have no Grimm 🤔, just how giddy he is to get a kiss while they're blushing 🤭, he kissed them without hesitation 😚, he told them they're too cute 🥰, they tried to hide their face but he held their chin & stole another kiss 💋, he said he might steal them one day 😁, Leviathan is just as shy as them 🤭, both of them could only share small touches & lingering looks 👀, they decided to make the first move in his room 😤, their voice is squeaky when they asked him if he ever kissed before 💋, he's just as embarrassed which they giggled & it made them feel better about their cheeks burning 😳, he told them how it's been awhile but not because he dislikes it & he doesn't want to kiss a normie >///<, they asked what about them while getting closer to him 🤭, they're trying to ignore how much their cheeks are burning O///O, he's just flustered when he asked them back 😁, his brain 🧠 short-circuited when they asked if he would kiss them 💋, he blinks twice when they held his their sweaty hands together 🤭, they smiled when he said yes ☺️, they stayed still before leaning in to kiss him 😚, he was stiff until it became passionate & his other hand held his head closer ⁄⁠(⁠⁄⁠ ⁠⁄⁠•⁠⁄⁠-⁠⁄⁠•⁠⁄⁠ ⁠⁄⁠)⁠⁄, he kissed them softly & slowly 😘, he was breathless when they pulled away 🫁, he's been wanting to do that for awhile O///O, Satan usually doesn't mind how shy they are but he can find it infuriating at times 😅, he asked how's the book but their answer is more like a question ❓, he was unsatisfied as he was hoping to discuss about it 🗣️, he tried to ask them to elaborate but they didn't have much to say like me 🤐, he said they're lying but they told him they're not 😑, they managed to hold back from being snarky when he said he can feel their heart beating as they're sure he won't like it 💓, they also noticed how tense he is 😠, they asked him if he's angry with them which he calmed himself first before answering 👍, how honest both of them were with each other 👍, he said they should choose a book next time 📖, they asked it he's still mad at them before he left which he replied he's not & just wished they speak their mind 🗣️, they asked for a kiss while blushing 💋, he gave them several kisses 😘, they whined before asking for a proper one which he finally gave them 🤭,

Hiiiii, lovely anon, glad you liked it and happy that you’re doing well!! I’m doing well too, but I’m studying for exams so my brain is a little fried. 😵‍💫

Thurs, 6 Apr 2023; 11:55 PM

It's been more than two weeks and I am on my blog #04.

Maybe I don't feel to write anything these days. Is it the platform that matters to me while writing?? Idk.

Since I left Tumblr, it's not the same. There used to be a strong feeling to write something there, maybe because people had started reading them... But whatever it was, I think I was liking it

The fonts, format and the whole interface was just amazing.

I think when I will upload the blog here, it will look completely different from what I am looking right now...

But I think I will continue blogger only...

I also have decided to upload some of the Tumblr blogs on blogger, on the educational blog. The blogs about my B.Ed. internship would be there...

I will also share my journey to clear the IIT JAM exam in 2020... Although I didn't took admission in any institute on the basis of it, but it gave me a chance to build a career in online teaching through Unacademy... Will talk about it in detail in that blog....

If you still don't know, it is MyStudyTable.in that I have recently launched ...

A few more interviews of the students from IIT Ropar are awaiting...

It's not going so consistent...

But ya, I have joined the academy again, it's the first week and my body hurts so bad.... Get ready to study 2-3 hours after waking up. Don't know why I feel so lazy these days... I had analysed that using mobile phone just before sleeping might be a reason and I had decided to not do so again... But it's 12:03 now and I am writing a blog, that too after watching some YouTube videos..

Nothing, but it shows how consistent and how punctual I am... Maybe I need some more introspection...

Daily diary writing is a way to introspect yourself without a dear of being judged by someone else...

Will try to be more regular and said this hundreds of time earlier🥲😅

I had tried to be on a routine and had fixed a routine in my mind as well, but seems Little bit difficult until I work on a few habits of mine...

I just remembered about my decision of "almost" quitting the fast food, soft drinks, bcz these are enough to make someone feel lazy throughout the day...

These things decrease the productivity upto a great level...

So will try to stay away from them as much as possible...

Good Night 🌃

A USELESS RANT ABOUT MY MIDTERM EXAMS PART 1 (Idek if there'll be other parts, but lets pretend I know what I'm doing) I started the midterm exams, 1st exam passed well today. yay except the professor seemed stressed so he was yelling, I was late, went in, grabbed a paper, sat in the nearest desk, the assistant caught me but was nice, so she gave me the attendance paper to sign, there were only 5 questions on the 1st paper I answered 4 of them in less than a min, and then the professor collected (ehm-pulled) the paper from me and gave me the other one and gave us 5 mins to finish, so I finished in 2 mins and went directly home so I won't cry -just because the environment was stressful... I believe I did well tho, I only answered 2 or 3 questions wrong (which is not at all bad, regarding the fact I didn't have time to study everything)- TODAY HAS BEEN STRESSFUL FROM THE START like from even before the exam cuz stuff happened while I was on the bus and when I came home mum gave me some hours of hard time for useless reasons. BUT I made coffee and showered in the afternoon and it's better now ALSO : I was thinking I'm going to stop the 100days of productivity challenge because I'm really bad at math so I don't really have fun seeing which date should get which number when I'm late to updating and my memory isn't that good soooo ... :l ya, THO TBH I ENJOYED IT A LOT FR but I'm just getting stressed out about a bunch of stuff bec the day I spent at my cousins ruined my delicate schedule so now I'm ruined, I have 7 assignments and Midterms and 4 of them are like ...from 2 weeks ago so I can't stress about that and blogging :'3 specially that I have to log in/ install the app every time I use it for private ehmstrict parents reasons so aajhsdgsdgasiuashdg HOPE YALL HAVE A GOOD NIGHT, DAY AND INBETWEEN WHENEVER U R AT, happy Ramadan for the people doing it, goodluck, have fun and stay safe and healthy...I tried to avoid cussing so i won't ruin your fasting 😅❤ thank you for coming to my talktalk session

Week 1/20. Day 6.

Today, I got stuck on viruses but I watched a few vids and finally got (what now I seems easy af 🙄) plus- and minus-strand RNA and the purpose of transcription in minus-strand RNA. This video from USMILE Pass literally was the most useful 3 min video to understand. So, I’ll definitely be using this YouTube channel along with Khan Academy to grasp concepts.

Also, I started writing which videos help me the most in my books in the margins so, further down the study road if I need to review during UWorld and FL exams, I know exactly what to watch.

I’m pushing about 65 Anki cards so far and I’m really trying to keep them organized. My mistake last time I studied with Anki was…

1. Not making my own Anki cards: okay, so, I’ve used other pre-made decks before but it takes SO much time trying to learn cards I didn’t make and then reviewing them because I kept getting them wrong because… I had no idea what was on the card 😅

For me, making the card is half the learning curve.. like it’s almost like I’m trying to learn in the same style the person who made it does and we don’t have the same style.

2. Not reviewing my Anki decks everyday: obviously, lol this is self explanatory. For Anki to be useful, I HAVE to do it everyday. If I skipped a day or two, it was like having to start over every time. MAJOR EYE ROLL.

3. Not switching up the style of card: In my previous post I talk about not doing only cloze cards or basic, but really asking questions that not only ask a question but also review material as I review.

It’s all part of the learning curve so hopefully changing things will help my score.

Pharmacist, I am.

I never thought I'd push through with the board exam. But I did, and it was the best decision I've made last November!

Last month was craaaazy. Started with Halloween break where my little girl and I finished watching all Narnia and Pirates of the Caribbean movies. Then on the 3rd, I decided to enroll sa final coaching.

Now that I think about it, I enrolled 3rd of November and I became a pharmacist on the 3rd of December. Exactly one month!

After enrollment, I wasn't able to attend since I had to prioritize medical school, and it was our midterms from the 8th-12th. Then they said everything is recorded, so I thought ok, catch up na lang.

After exams, I checked the LMS and honestly, I didn't expect each video to last from 3-5 hours. Also drills were 200 items each, but I didn’t take them since the rationale were already discussed in the videos.

I felt weak and I lost all hope. I thought it was already impossible to catch up with everything. I mean, I had a full time job, I'm in medical school, I'm a single mom and I don't have a yaya, and although every single thing on my list is a priority, I couldn't sacrifice the time I spend with my daughter, because she is my number one priority. After all, everything I'm doing is for her.

Then 14th of November came, and my sister messaged me about the reviewers I wanna borrow from our friend's cousin. I took it as a sign na I should take the exam. Maybe this is God reaching out na don't lose hope and that I can do this. Imagine, I got the reviewers like 11 days before the exam!

I scanned through each of them that day but for some reason, I wasn't able to use them immediately. I tried watching the recordings pa together with work and almost everything haha! I remember, my airpods were stuck on my ears almost all day. I was playing with my kid and listening to the recordings. I was working and listening to the recordings. The only time I didn't was during med classes.

But I realized final coaching is more of testmanship than review, so I made this schedule. I just randomly typed this on notes before bed, after I prayed. Although I tried my best to follow this sched, I wasn't able to. It was easier typed than done 😅

And then 24th of November came and I wasn't done with all modules yet. I haven't even touched 4, 5, and 6. So this time I searched on Twitter transes, and I found this. I purchased all modules, even if I felt like it was no use since one day na lang before the exam but it really helped! I read module 1-3 transes while travelling. Although I skipped the biochem part, and I did regret it a lot. I had the lowest mark on module 2. Then D-day came.

1st Day (Nov. 25)

I had a rosary (given by mom) inside of my pocket and also an Our Lady of Fatima pocket prayer (given by Lola Lils). Also, each time I didn't know an answer or I panicked, I stopped and prayed.

Of the three modules, I was only really sure that I passed module 1. I wasn't very confident with module 2 especially with the pharmacognosy part. Then module 3, aaah this was the hardest for me. There were so many calculations, I was literally sweating 😅 I was the last one to finish, I think.

After the exams, I was hoping to study only the remaining transes. But module 4 wasn't available yet. Tough luck right? So I read Katzung instead. But not all of it! Only the tables at the end of each chapter and I just memorized the autonomic nervous system by heart. Also the last names of drugs from common drug categories. The only regret I had was that I slept early and didn't study module 5 and 6.

2nd Day (Nov. 26)

Prayers and rosary, still. Always.

I woke up 4 am and reviewed module 4 before heading out. I really thought this module saved me that day. Since it was the first exam, it felt like my day started out right. Then module 5 was the hardest. I had to eliminate and match every choices since I wasn't really able to study it. I consumed the entire two hours! And after taking it, I ate half a chocolate bar.

Also, for future takers. Don't bring notes, useless lang gid. I tried to bring module 5 and 6 notes hoping I can study in between exams during the break but we were not allowed to go out of the room or study. They were super strict.

The day after, we were supposed to go home but I had a Pathology long exam at 8am, so we extended our stay.

I felt like crying that day, I don't know. I just felt like I wasn't prepared for anything. Like if I could turn back time, I would've reviewed longer. But then again, I also gave it my best given the situation I'm in.

Then the waiting game began. I prayed, as I did everyday, and hoped for the best. I also visited the church and lit a candle. My faith only grew stronger as I waited.

Then 3rd of December came, and I still couldn't believe it. After a looooong, craaaaazy, tear-filled and sleepless November, I am finally a Pharmacist by God's grace. He truly works wonders and in mysterious ways. I will forever be thankful and grateful to the Lord. He has done so much for me. He has straightened my path and has truly given me a future despite of my past 😭🙏

I only really prayed for a 75, but God is so great sobra sobra pa gin hatag ya. Thank you thank you thank you Lord! ❤️

Faith over fear, I say. Faith over fear, amen 🙏

Special thanks to:

My work supervisor, Mint, and our boss, Harry, for letting me go on leave from Nov. 24-26

My workmate, Gwen, for helping me wrap up work the night before I travelled

My family and kid who always believe in me 🥺 I love you all ❤️

And to everyone who helped me since day 1 and who prayed that I would pass

Thank you so much! It really means a lot.

What helped me the most:

Prayers, rosary, and the bible!

I really honestly prayed more than I studied. So don’t lose hope. God is always good. He listens to our prayers and grants it at the right time. Thank you so much Lord God of Abraham! I love you so much!

Two weeks review, two days exam, six modules, six hundred questions — one license.. To God be the glory!

Jeremiah 29:11 🙏❤️