cas entering the barn in lazarus rising:

john winchester repeating that all music made after 1979 sucks ass when 1979 is the year dean was born is so fucking vile

sam's drawing skills going from this in home (s1 e9) :

to this in bedtime stories (s3 e5) :

will never not be funny because there are two possible explanations implied:

1) he sucks at drawing in general but he's specifically very skilled at drawing trees

2) being good at drawing was part of his psychic abilities and so when he lost those his ability to draw well vanished too

dean describing cas to charlie

crying because destiel... true love... being really seen and more than that being touched... both physically and metaphorically... becoming a part of someone's soul of their very being because their warmth is home...

it was day. the sun was shining bright outside. but in the bunker dean is left in the dark cold and alone because HE LOST HIS LIGHT !!!!! DO YOU GET ITTTTT

does that silly gay hunter know i want his wife

look at him

i am definitely not thinking about domestic destiel (me when i lie)

friendly reminder that dean definitely bought cas shorts with the writing angel cake across his ass because dean thinks with his dick

do you ever think about when dean was looking at cas yearning so much because his anxious cptsd-can't-fully-relax-ever ass felt so at ease around cas that his shoulders fuckin' deflated??? like a goddamn balloon???? HIS SHOULFERS DEFLATED HE TRUSTED CAS SO MUCH HE BELIEVED HIM THE FAITHLESS MAN PUT HIS FAITH IN CAS

he said you did it cas when cas got the flower in purgatory... he was so relieved to see cas again and dean would have been fine if cas had failed he was content he appreciated cas being there with him and trying earnestly to find the flower but cas did more than that, cas found it and he was worried too and dean looked so happy in that moment and endeared on top of everything he smiled so genuinely i cannot

smth about monsters and killers telling dean they know him because they see through him and dean being in denial because they're the bad guys while he knows they're right

thinking about married destiel and dean one day uses the expression "we've got bigger fish to fry" and cas gets such a hungry look in his eyes then says: "we're killing fish??? bigger fish first??? we can eat them?? exterminate those idiotic creatures from existence 🙄 yess that is a mission for us, wonderful 😇" and dean thinks about how adorable cas is in the ways he resembles a cat so he just smiles and says "sure buddy"

okay but it's true that dean winchester is not real. he's strong and charming and detached, he has his shit together, he's the perfect role model of a brother, everybody likes him, he's a cool guy. he's john winchester's son, a good little soldier, god's favorite playtoy.

dean winchester is a mix of all projections and expectations people put on dean. he's an illusion, a meticulously crafted image like a shell. it's the only way dean can survive.

and dean plays his role almost perfectly except for when dean can't and he breaks and you can see glimpses of the real dean through the cracks.

dean's like idk why you love me you're so much better than me you don't have to love me let alone this much but me? i'm a wretched and broken thing, i do need you like the very air i breathe i have an existential guilt eating me from the inside but you're my world cas

but cas is like you're not broken you're only scared and i do love you yk and i'm okay with you wanting me needing me i like that it makes me feel sickly addicted to you wanting me like i'm just a rebellious failed angel i'm not that interesting anyway and i'm not a human i don't love like you do i hardly understand how humanity does it, loving and you do it so effortlessly most of all

there comes this angel who keeps staring at dean with a challenging stare and after the first moments dean's all like "well guess i'll reciprocate the energy seems only fair besides it's not like he'll stop staring anytime soon i might as well stare back"

meanwhile dean's actually like: