Guys I’m so traumatised, I just saw the weirdest, most inappropriate post. Like I was just trying to look at funny batman stuff, now I am traumatised.
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Adding onto this post because if I don’t I’m exploding.
I like to call it the homeless Au because it’s just Sheriff being a homeless rat.
So I’d like to present my notes:
- Because he got kicked out before anything could be done about his arm or just kept getting worse
- The mutation now takes up the entirety of his left arm
- Sheriff twitches a lot now. Basically being electrocuted because of a steadily growing mutation does a lot to a person.
- No sleep? No sleep.
- He’s got an entire pocket full of coffee beans. Don’t ask him where they came from.
- He found the hoodie in a dumpster, it is pride and joy (he has an unhealthy emotional attachment to it)
- Sheriff has eaten his fair share of strange things. It’s a wonder he hasn’t died.
- Has stolen food from La resistance’s vegetable garden (gotta slow down the mutation somehow)
- He does okay by himself. (Not really he’s very mentally unstable.)
- Easily described as a raccoon.
- Some months later his friends find him and are like “what the fuck.”
- They were raiding buildings and by surprise surprise he’s camping out in one.
- It’s an awkward interaction. He don’t wanna talk to ‘em and they don’t really wanna talk to him
- Somehow he ends back at the lair.
- No trust between both parties.
- Sheriff can tolerate Shooter. (I can’t and won’t shut about these gays 😔)
Uhh I think that’s all I got. So have some doodles I did :3
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Same anon as before, I’m happy that you’re accepting yourself! That’s great news. I had a very similar situation where I was very embarrassed about what character my brain chose to project onto, but after working with my therapist and years of reflection I’ve realized it had to be that character because they were the only one I could see myself in, we were both abused in certain ways that made it like looking in a mirror, and being Him meant that I was able to protect myself because he could (character is someone “dangerous” in their world). So I really think it comes down to a reflection of trauma, and there’s nothing to be ashamed about. We coped with what our brains found the most comfort in.
If I can ask, what does your therapist think about it? Only wondering because with my therapist, they are aware we have fictives of this character as well as the system as a whole projects through him but I’m still trying to figure out if it’s part fictives and other part alters with psychotic attachments or if there’s something else at play as well like past lives (the old fictionkin community used to be big into that but I know it’s not so much anymore so I’m a little embarrassed but I am still a spiritual person) alr that’s all, looking forward to your response!
First of all, I'm glad to hear back from you anon!!
My therapist and I figured roughly the same thing happened with me! When I say I use this character as a therapy tool, I don't think it's appreciated enough that it's bc my therapist familiarized himself with the source - my therapist watched (and enjoyed) 148 episodes of anime for my sessions and I cannot stress that enough lmao; we're pretty sure that what happened was that I saw a lot of my emotional trauma play out again in front of me in his character arc, mostly in the way he perceives himself but also with how he struggles with his emotions and general interactions with the world (with my own difficulty with such coming from the climate of the family that abused me). He did serve as a mirror, not just of my own trauma, but also of what I wish I could have done, which was to lash out and genuinely own my anger and frustration and do something. Of course there's a lot more to it, but with just covering the surface, looks like we've had pretty similar experiences!
As for my therapist's thoughts on this, we actually haven't put any clinical labels on it. I personally like labels, they make me feel sure and certain about things in my life, which is why I tried to nail this down with the OSDD/DDNOS (complete with question mark) in my bio, but truth be told I'm not entirely sure I meet the full criteria for either of them, in spite of the genuine experiences I've had with what definitely feels like multiplicity of some sort. Interestingly enough, while I myself am not very spiritual, my therapist did make a mention that this is an experience that I could try looking at through a spiritual lens, especially since it's been coming up a lot more as I'm trying to rework some deeply held thought patterns. There's been a pretty positive outlook on it overall and he encouraged me to interact with it - the episodes tend to come with some specific thoughts and feelings, so we're treating them (and by extension, this character) as a sort of conduit for them, sort of like a messenger bringing attention to them. This is all some pretty specific info for my stuff though lmao, I just wanted to cover the ground as thoroughly as I could 💖
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I do think it's funny that I resent people for using me for my ability to give excellent advice while enduring the brunt of someone's life trauma but then I'm like "I just need someone to use for their ability to give excellent advice while enduring the brunt of my life trauma" like the human need to dehumanize someone else for their own emotional needs is a circle
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