New figure! Melissa Bonny, Ad Infinitum 🖤⚜️🎤

Exitium's last album, 'The Devil' (2020).

All songs by Dynazty, except for Crystalline by Amaranthe and Afterlife by Ad Infinitum.

Yep, it's music AU, you guessed it. It doesn't feel like an AU anymore at this point, but I'm gonna still tag it as MLB because I haven't changed the names yet.

Monday, January 15.

Boxes, kisses, swords, and beards.

It is not merely Monday, no. This is Monday in January. The bottom of the rock, so to speak. Only this much cannot be avoided, try as one might, so let us sweeten this miserable deal with a trove of magnificent Our Flag Means Death fanart. Here be works to marvel at, to be moved by, to reblog ad infinitum, or indeed post your own for the viewing pleasure of the fandom community. Behold, indeed. 

@apllecrash

Commissions are open! ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Here’s a little disclaimer about this commish season: Since art commissions are currently my primary source of income, I decided to keep them open ad infinitum~  However, here are some things you should keep in mind:

I will be working on more than one commission at a time so I might take some more time finishing each one of them. I thank you all for your patience in advance 💗.

I’ll continue working with slots but there won’t be a limited number. You may send me an ask/message if you’re interested and I’ll let you know your number as soon as I can.

I’ll still keep you updated via email about the process of your commission everytime I get the chance :)

As always, I’ll be using Paypal and U.S. banks Zelle transfer as payment methods. The payment will continue to be upfront (it means that I won’t start working in your request until I receive the correspondent ammount), however, you don't have to send me any money until I'm ready to start working on your commission, just to make sure I don't hold your money unnecessarily.

I'm already working on some commissions requested by my patrons so I might take a little time to answer your messages/asks/emails.

Remember that if you are a $5 tier patron you get a 15% discount on every comission type! you can join my Patreon here! 

Things I will draw: Animals (pets and others, including fictional creatures), original characters, fanart, light NSFW (nudity, erotism and suggestive scenes are totally fine), light gore, fantasy characters.

I won’t draw: Very explicit NSFW (I’m talking of explicit seggs scenes), very complex mechanical things or weapons (this can be discussed tho), furries (I’m flexible but as long as there are no dingdongs showing it should be fine), real life people/cartoons. Lastly, If you can’t commission me or join my Patreon for any reason but you still want to support my profession as an artist, likes, shares, reblogs and comments are free and always help a lot! Thanks to all of you who help me reach new people ♡ (˵ ͡~ ͜ʖ ͡°˵)ﾉ⌒♡*:･。.

every day my mutuals put insanely high quality ace attourney fanart on my dash and it baffles me i thought that game was just about faggy lawyers one-upping each other ad infinitum in courtroom drama

While more than a little agreeable, honestly, I feel that the omnipresent protests about Infested Kerrigan's redesign can be a little much.

Like. On a Doylist level, considering what company StarCraft was made by, I absolutely agree. They absolutely sexualized her! And it's gross! (The overlooked, but actually grossest aspect here is that SC2, which decided to "redeem" her, made her face white again...)

But!

On a Watsonian level, it's... fine??? No big deal? In fact, honestly, I'd argue it isn't weird or out of place at all.

Her first infested form retaining a distinctly human face makes sense; the Queen of Blades was originally intentionally designed by the Overmind--who was at least moderately prescient--so it was only natural the dude give her an appearance that could capitalize on her manipulative acumen. And it evidently paid off in the Brood War; Raynor, being Raynor, wouldn't have realistically been willing to believe her at all if she just looked like a regular ol' space bug.

I get why the hair-tentacle "dreadlocks" are a little uncomfortable, but, fellas, how else are you going to make Zerg hair? Never even struck me as dreadlocks, personally.

SC2's redesign, as well, isn't that offensive to me because, by then, it was all her doing. She made herself look like that! And of course she would! One of her defining traits has always been vanity--even when she was human, the girl wore makeup! And had long hair as a soldier! Of course she'd give herself heels and boobs and ass and sick purple lights!

And as for "impracticality," it's really just... not? Kerrigan is the core of a hive mind composed otherwise entirely of purpose-built murder bugs! She doesn't need to optimize her physical form for close combat, she's got zerglings for that! And, besides, her telekentic power level ranges from planet-sized storms to crushing marine power armor like tin cans. Barring her (also in-character) recklessness, she could make herself an ant and still be virtually unstoppable.

She's a dork partaking in self-love... let her be, man. Yes, women in fiction always needing to be sexy isn't a healthy phenomenon, but we all get that. We don't need to harp on them ad infinitum for having the audacity to choose to look good in their own eyes--women get to choose what they do with their own bodies, and if Kerrigan makes herself a pretty monster girl, nice! Valid!

That said, awesome fanart offering different takes on her infested form are also badass! Love it! And we can appreciate both!

how tumblr works i guess:

i look at some spiderverse fanart

tumblr decides to recommend a bunch of x reader yandere fanfics centering miguel o'hara

as always, none of them are tagged consistently, so my content filter is helpless to stop them

i now have several new tags to block

this exact scenario will occur again every time i try to look through a tag

ad infinitum

So these are long overdue lmao

I didn’t quite realise how 2021 was The Year of Crowley (2020 was The Year of Aziraphale) and 2022 was The Year of Izzy until I put these summaries together

I didn’t manage to account for every month these past two years, and 2022 is looking particularly sketchy (quite literally). This is because Shit Went Down :) I’m going to summarise it below for my own benefit▼

Personal/philosophical ramble under cut

In 2021 I had a lot going on, which I think explains the lack of art in June and August (memory’s fuzzy), and why I never posted some of the art in the summary here on tumblr (miiight post Nov and Dec soon-ish). In 2022 things initially screeched to a halt and I had the worst art crisis (and personal crisis tbh) I’ve ever had. Basically I had a really hard time drawing anything without it feeling completely soulless and of worse quality than my actual skill level, which heavily impacted my motivation to draw (sometimes my ofmd obsession came out on top lmao, but that fanart still felt like it was lacking something essential 99% of the time). I drew less, and felt worse for drawing less, which made me draw even less, repeat ad infinitum. It wasn’t until solidly into Autumn that I realised the root of the problem: I had tied the label “artist” so closely to my identity that it had effectively become my identity. And since it was my identity, I felt I had to become a professional artist or be miserable, and in order to become a professional artist I felt I had to constantly focus on honing my skills and get better, nitpick everything in every drawing and strive for impossible perfection, and “draw every day” as all the professional artists advice you to do (I have never managed to draw every day, and my failure to do so made me feel like I was lagging behind). Drawing had slowly but steadily become some insane rat race to me and eventually it ruined my art because I couldn’t appreciate where I was at. Actually finishing a piece of art felt like an incredibly arduous task with little reward (which is why I only really “finished” two pieces last year). I had drained myself of the inherent joy of creating. But realising this didn’t solve the problem, not on its own, because if the fact was “artist is my whole identity” the question then became “If I don’t create art, am I anything at all?”, and the answer for some time was “No.”

I have since found joy and genuine excitement in other types of creating (not that I hadn’t before, but never above a hobbyist level) with potential career opportunities that won’t make my daily life “miserable” (fun fact about me: my biggest fears are the unknown and having my soul ground down by the tireless gears of capitalism). This has helped me stress less about “becoming a professional artist” (something I’m still certain I’d enjoy, despite it all) and find some identity outside of art, but that perfectionist/improvement mindset in relation to my art didn’t start to leave me until a few days before New Year’s. That’s when I was suddenly inspired to make the Ed/Izzy sketch representing Dec ‘22 in the summary above. I had effectively given up on my art at that point, but my mental image was so strong I had to commit it to (digital) paper, no matter if it turned out like shit or not (which, in retrospect, is probably the most visceral motivation an artist can have for practicing their craft). Having no expectations on myself, and with the single-minded drive to capture the ~vibes~ and nothing more, I found the act of drawing fun and near effortless for the first time in fucking years. That’s when it clicked. You don’t have to try and make every aspect of a drawing perfect, and not every drawing needs to be properly rendered; just focus on the one or few most important things you need to be able to convey what it is you want to convey (in this case it was the overall poses and facial expressions). The rest may not be perfect, but it wouldn’t have been even if you tried to make it so, because perfection is fucking unattainable (as much as my chronically perfectionist ass wishes it wasn’t). Trying to attain it is a fool’s errand that’ll slowly eat you up, and your audience will most probably not even notice or care about the difference.

Audiences, especially online audiences, are arguably their own potential source of artist brainrot (and not the fun kind), and I’m of the firm opinion that art can definitely be made for no one’s eyes other than the artist’s own (in opposition to the mindset that the purpose of all art is for it to be shared with external parties) - my own art from years ago being an example of this. But I have found sharing my art with others to be such an inherent joy to me that I don’t think I’ll ever fully stop doing it, and will continue to try my best not to fall into the mental pitfalls that can come with it.

I don’t think my relationship to my own art is fully mended (and I’ve likely failed to see some of the cracks), but it’s definitely better now than it has been in a long, long while.

in short, thanks to edizzy’s dysfunctional marriage for helping me not give up on art I guess

It's so nice to be in a fandom where you care about pretty much all the characters (even if not about all of the ships). You see new fanart and go "omg, it's Thrud/Freyr/Thor/Jormi/Heimdall! I love them so much!". And it just gets repeated ad infinitum.

The game has succeeded at one thing: making me EXTREMELY curious about all the side characters and wishing they got more screen time.

the search results for the elegance of the hedgehog is the purest form of a tumblr search i've ever seen it's twelve consecutive posts of the most pretentious, philosophical parts of the novel and then one post which is fanart of sonic the hedgehog in improbable circumstances and then repeat ad infinitum

Twaddloid

Wtf am I doing, trying to sort the LITERALLY OVER 10.000 IMAGES that I transferred from my laptop to my computer?  o(→Д←)o

Thousands of my own (arty) photos; screenshots; arts & fanarts I adore; pics of my sketches; pics of people who look happy together for drawing reference; images of monthly art/writey challenges; very se×y entanglements; Hawai'ian language screenshots; memes I hate but that make me laugh anyway; pics of architectonic masterpieces (and ugly old buildings); screenshots of an omo prompt generator I was working on a few months back; very unse×y but nevertheless enjoyable photos; pose references; screenshots of thesaurus entries; French writing prompts; images of sets of icons... et cetera ad infinitum et nauseam.

And all mixed up. I'm crying. (T^T)

WHaT?? YOU DON'T H4VE ENOUGH [[Wacky Stacks]] ?!1?

DO YOU WANT A CAT OR NOT!?

[[Hochi Mama]], this piece of fanart took a while! I...really like this song

Inferno 🔥🎭

Watercolor and acrylic painting of Melissa ❤️

~Don’t look so frightened 

                        this is just a passing phase,

                         one of my bad days~