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fieldsofashrp · 2 years

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Lord Jon Arryn

Age: 52 || Face Claim: Daniel Dae Kim || Played by: OPEN

Keeper of the Gates of the Moon, Lord of the Vale, and Warden of the East, Jon Arryn has long held his seat in good standing and has seen the Vale prosper under his command. A cordial man with a reputation for being prudent, calming and wise, just as well as kindly and trusting. He was twice married and twice lost wives to childbirth and illness. He has no true born children but has been like a father to both Eddard Stark and Robert Baratheon who grew up under him as his wards. His nephew Elbert has been raised as his heir. Jon was born as the eldest son of his predecessor, Lord Jasper Arryn, Jon fought for King Jaehaerys II Targaryen in the War of the Ninepenny Kings in 260 AC. During the war, he made alliances with Lord Rickard Stark of Winterfell and Lord Steffon Baratheon of Storm's End, which resulted several years later in Jon taking their sons, Eddard Stark and Robert Baratheon, as his wards at the Eyrie.

Lady Alys Arryn

Age: 48 || Face Claim: Michelle Yeoh || Played by: OPEN

The only daughter of the previous lord of the Vale Jasper Arryn, Alys Arryn is a wise and cunning woman. Sister to Jon Arryn, she has long been a keeper of Jon Arryn’s council. She has nine children with her husband, Elys Waynwood and while many of these children have met an unfortunate and tragic end; Of their nine children, Jasper died at three years old, kicked in the head by a horse. The eldest daughter married Ser Denys Arryn but died soon after he did. Two daughters died while children from the pox, and another was left scarred by the same disease and became a septa. Another daughter was seduced by a sellsword, but after her bastard died in infancy, she joined the Silent Sisters. One daughter married the Lord of the Paps, but was barren. One daughter was carried off by Burned Men on her way to marry a Bracken. The youngest daughter married a member of House Hardyng and died not long after that. She has done everything in her power to protect the remaining few that have lived. She would do anything for her family and is the glue that holds House Arryn together.

Lord Elbert Arryn

Age: 36 || Face Claim: Henry Golding || Played by:OPEN

His parents died when he was young and he was raised up by his uncle Jon to be his heir. Fostered in House Royce, he was knighted at a young age and has taken to heart the virtues of a knight’s code of valor and honor. He is admired by many young squires who dream of living out their own days of glory. Elbert is known to be decisive and quick to act, firm and resolute in mind and body. However, his focus prioritizes his ability in combat and tourney, and thus, it is for this reason he has not yet taken a wife, even though many daughters have been presented to him as betrothal candidates, he has graciously declined every single one. Jon has always encouraged him to choose with his head and his heart but even his uncle grows eager to see him settled. Elbert is heir apparent to the lordship of the Vale.

Lord Dennis Arryn

Age: 25 || Face Claim: Charles Melton || Played by: OPEN

An Arryn by way of the Gulltown branch of Arryns, Denys is a humble man who relishes his marriage to his lady wife, the eldest surviving daughter of Elys Waynwood and Alys Arryn. He is father to a young son and adores his wife. In his youth he developed a close friendship with Robert Baratheon and Eddard Stark and still upholds this friendship with them to this day. He admires Elbert Arryn highly and is quick to come to his aid if ever he asks anything of him. Similarly to Elbert, Denys became infatuated with the idea of knighthood, and became renowned as a jouster, handsome and gallant and brimming with courtesy. He’s rather fond of travel and often wishes to show Ayleen the beauty of the world and to venture it solely with her. Though he is still bound by duty, he seeks to find a balance in which he could balance his family and to seek adventure for his own kin in the ever changing world of Westeros.e.

Lady Ayleen Waynwood

Age: 22 || Face Claim: Jessie Mei Li || Played by: OPEN

The eldest daughter of Alys Arryn and Lord Waynwood, Lady Waynwood is an independent thinker and a freespirit who enjoys hiking through the wilderness, hawking, and archery. Her mother has always called her Little Falcon - a moniker that has stuck to her in her adulthood. She finds her husband endearing if not a bit daunting. She longs for adventure out in the great wide world and wishes to explore every inch of it. She does not wish to be tied down at home but does enjoy spending time with her son. Even now, she still wonders if she’ll gain a chance to spread her wings to see the world that has always been ever slightly kept from her reach. Though she adores the life that she has been given, she cannot deny that she wants more for it.

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ace-angel-judas · 5 years

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Escape

∞Pairing∞ ⁞ Tahlia/Daehyun

∞Series∞ ⁞ Dae’s Parents

∞Rating∞ ⁞ Fluff

∞Synopsis∞ ⁞ Daehyun needed to escape.

1986

Brows furrowed together, Tahlia glanced over at Daehyun as he switched streets and drove away from the rest of the party. She sat up slightly, confused as to why he had decided to take a different direction. This party was important after all.

“Daehyun,” She looked at him, “What are you doing?”

“We aren’t going,” He stated bluntly.

She send him a look, “That party is to help get your father’s company investors-“

“I know what it is!” Daehyun sighed, “Another important party for my father to show me off and point out how I’ll be the next head of the family and take over the company, I’ve been going to them since I was thirteen years old,”

Tahlia decided to be silent, she had no idea he’d been doing this for so long. There was no way they could contact them either, none of them had their pagers on them. Of course, Daehyun would probably just throw them out of the car either way, wouldn’t be the first time.

They reached a dock and Tahlia slowly stepped out of the car, her eyes staring at the massive yacht. She had no idea why she seemed so surprised, the Jin family only proved time and time again that they were basically made of money. Daehyun began to walk towards the boat, glancing back and looking at her.

“Scare of water?” He asked.

She snorted, “I’m from Australia,”

“Well than get moving, kangaroo,” Daehyun teased.

Clicking her tongue, Tahlia followed him onto the massive vessel. She looked around, when she was younger, she’d only dream of one day being on something like this. Daehyun started the boat, steering slightly as they took off.

She watched the waves pass them, smiling slightly to herself. The smell of salt water reminded her of home.

“Do you do this often?” Tahlia asked, keeping her eyes on the waves.

“Whenever my dad doesn’t keep me locked in the house,” He stated.

Looking at him, Tahlia adjusted her seating and watched as he looked back at her, arms crossed over his chest.

“Where are we going?” She asked.

“My mother owns a private island,” He stated and Tahlia had to collect her jaw from the floor, “There’s a house there,”

“Do you do this often?” Tahlia was curious, “Run off?”

Daehyun swallowed thickly, “Whenever my father doesn’t keep me under house arrest,”

Tahlia scoffed, “You don’t have much respect for your father, it’s rude, he’s just trying to raise you, what about your mother? Would you talk about your mother the same way you do him?”

He laughed, “I haven’t seen my mother since I was fifteen,”

Biting her tongue, Tahlia decided to stay silent.

“Do you think my parents love each other?” Daehyun asked, “In my family, love doesn’t exist, you marry for power and have children to keep an inheritance going, the money might be nice but I don’t want this life,”

There was a sour expression on his face and Tahlia moved closer to him, sitting in the seat beside the billionare. Daehyun looked at her.

“Well, where is your mom now?” She asked.

“Somewhere in England or France, I can’t remember,”

She frowned and he sighed.

“I’d rather be someone like you,” Daehyun confessed, “You’re a million miles away but your parents send you letters ever week, you might not have money but you have a family who care and actually check on you, if I died it wouldn’t matter other than a heir was lost, my siblings are just backups in case anything happens to me,”

A soft look appeared on Tahlia’s face, Daehyun wasn’t a rich spoiled brat after all. He was an adult who was just sick of people pushing him around, living his entire life under a lock and key that was getting old and needed to be broken.

Reaching the island, Tahlia smiled and grabbed his hand, pulling him onto the dock. Daehyun looked confused for a moment, but she smiled.

“You said you wanted a life like mine,” She pulled him along, “Let’s go,”

The house was massive, standing tall along the beach. It was like something from the future and it had Tahlia staring at it with stars in her eyes. He just rolled his eyes and opened the door, pulling her inside.

First thing Tahlia did was rush around and stare at everything in awe, the couches themselves were probably more expensive than her entire life savings. Daehyun stood with his arms crossed and watched as she rushed through each room and stair case, admiring everything.

“Cute,” He whispered.

“Did you say something?” She asked, poking her head over the balcony.

“No, you’re crazy,” He snapped quickly.

When she came back down stairs, Tahlia looked at him, “Why does your mom need such a massive house on an island anyway?”

He looked her in the eye, “Same reason I do, to hide from my dad,”

Laughing, Tahlia shook her head as she looked around the kitchen. He sat on the couch and glanced at the ceiling, shutting his eyes before a bowl was placed on his chest. Daehyun opened his eyes and found Tahlia standing over him, arms crossed with a smile on her face.

“Get up, Richie rich,” She stated, “You can make your own pie,”

“A what?” Daehyun stood up, confused.

Tahlia smiled, tapping her fingers on the bench, “A pie, it’s an Australian food,”

Nodding and placing the bowl down, Tahlia pushed a range of ingredients towards him. She laughed when he looked utterly confused, she doubted Daehyun had ever made his own food before.

“Since you have such big muscles, I think you can manage to make the pastry,” She pointed out.

He smirked and flexed, “So you think I have big muscles?”

“I’m hungry, make the pastry,” Tahlia deadpanned.

Daehyun laughed before he stared down at the ingredients, flour, salt, butter, eggs… What was he supposed to do? Scoffing playfully, Tahlia showed him the measurements and gave him instructions as she cooked at the stove.

He looked awfully proud of himself, holding a lump of dough in his hands. She laughed, placing it on the bench and giving him half before handing Daehyun a rolling pin.

“Do you cook a lot when your home?” He asked.

“Yes,” Tahlia smiled, “I’m the only child still at home, my brother and sister both moved so far away and I decided to stay to help my mother with my father,”

“Your father?”

Tahlia looked up at him, “He’s disabled from when he served in the Vietnam war, he’s in a wheel chair,”

He frowned, “I’m sorry, you shouldn’t have come all the way here than,”

“Your family was offering money for my expertise and my family needs it,” Tahlia explained, “I might not be living there right now but I am supporting them,”

Daehyun looked at his hands, he really felt privileged in these moments…

As soon as the pies were in the oven, Tahlia let out a smile and began to clean up. He grabbed a cloth and began to clean alongside her, Daehyun smirked slightly before reaching around and wiping a tiny bit of butter on her nose.

Gasping, Tahlia wiped it from her nose and laughed loudly. She really was something special, Daehyun knew it. There was something about her that drew him in but then again, there was no way in hell his father would ever approve..

Although, Did he ever do anything as his father said?

They sat down on the beach together, a blanket underneath them both. Tahlia was quite well planned out as he figured out, she seemed to be ten steps ahead of everything.

“Holy crap,” He looked at the food in his hand, “This is good!”

Tahlia giggled, “There better homemade after all,”

“I don’t think I’ve ever had a homemade meal made from some I know,” Daehyun explained, “We have chefs for that,”

She shook her head, “Homemade meals are just a massive part of childhood, coming home and smelling your mom cooking in the kitchen and sitting down at a dining table together, it’s just all a part of the experience,”

“Shows you how much I know,” He whispered.

“What would you want to do?” Tahlia asked, “Say you didn’t have this life, you were just like anyone else, what would your plan be for a career?”

“Dance,” Daehyun answered straight away, “Anything with music, you can explore so much through music and learn through it, it’s a universal language, you don’t have to understand the words to know the message,”

Staring at him with awe filled eyes, Tahlia couldn’t help but admire him.

“When I have kids, I don’t care what my father says, they aren’t going to be pawns for this stupid company and family,” He looked at her, “I want them to be who they are so their happy, if my daughter loves her books more than her beauty so be it, if my son wants make up instead of a ball, who cares? It makes them happy..,”

Tahlia looked at the stars, “I want my kids to know that they’re always loved even if they don’t realise it, I’ll spend every moment of the day to make sure they’re loved, they can come home from school and have my homemade cooking, if they cry I’ll be there to wipe away their tears but make sure their disciplined,”

Resting his head on his knees, Daehyun smiled, she looked so beautiful in these moments. Intelligence and responsibility had never looked so good to him before. Leaning in, Daehyun cut Tahlia off with a kiss.

She pulled away slowly, staring at him and he smiled.

“I think I want to give you that love..,” He confessed.

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an-eldritch-peredhel · 3 years

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Ooh, you said in your tags that you saw Daeron as Lúthien’s brother! Do you have any headcanons for them and their relationship?

YES! Sorry this took so long, finals were killing me and then I had to write everything down (and find the Sindarin forms of words I’d normally use Quenya for) and it turned into a bullet-fic thing from Daeron’s perspective which I haven’t written before, and Dior snuck in towards the end too, and yeah. Bear with me because I haven’t tried to put them to words before.

A little background on why I headcanon this: in The Tale of Tinúviel (the oldest version of the story we have, with Tevildo prince of cats and what-not) Daeron is explicitly presented as her brother, though in later versions he isn’t. I don’t remember if it mentions if Daeron is older or not, but given the plethora of youngest sisters in Tolkien’s work (Literally almost no woman with brothers I can think of is the oldest, and most are the youngest, which seems to me like a convenient way to avoid having queens despite a supposedly egalitarian society but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯) I think it��s safe to say that’s what he intended. Pity, then, that I don’t care!

putting the actual headcanons under a cut bc this got Long. (Warning for non-graphic death mentions towards the end, due to old age and kinslaying 2)

Lúthien is the oldest. She was around the equivalent of 5ish when Daeron was born, so she was old enough to mostly get what was happening and young enough to be jealous. The first time she holds him she thinks “precious, must protect” and then immediately afterwards decides she hates him because he spit up on her.

So little Lúthien Does Not Like her brother, and the feeling is entirely mutual.

At one point they’re playing a game together and actually getting along pretty well, but when Lúthien wins Daeron bites her with his sharp little baby-half-maia fangs. This results in her pulling his hair, and then a tussle that leads to both of them running to their parents crying.

But when they’re both a little older (equivalent to 13 and 8) Daeron is getting teased by other elflings he’d tried to make friends with. Lúthien sees this and decides the only thing she likes less than her brother is other people teasing her brother. Those other elflings are more than a little traumatized in the aftermath.

Lúthien drags Daeron to their parents and explains the situation, and accidentally activates their over-protective mode. This leads to the siblings being largely isolated from others their age, and as a result of sheer desperation for someone who isn’t an adult, their relationship does improve, but they also grow more distant emotionally.

They turn to different interests to keep themselves occupied, and hang out where they intersect, or to be each other’s therapist on occasion.

For instance Daeron likes composing songs and playing music, and Lúthien likes singing and dancing, so he’ll compose and play things for her to dance and sing to.

Daeron is actually the more romantic of the two, he’s very “someday my prince will come” while Lúthien doesn’t really get it and figures there are better things to be concerned about. (I’m realizing that I accidentally made her grey-ace and I love it). This isn’t to say that she’s against romance, or that she’s not daydreamy, she just doesn’t have any context for what Daeron’s actually talking about and why she should care.

And then she sees Beren.

Daeron is there, playing his flute for her when they first see each other, but not for the other times. He isn’t there for their doomed, whirlwind romance. And Lúthien doesn’t tell him.

So when Daeron sees the two of them together, he’s hit by a lot of emotions including (but not limited to): judgement, panic, mild disgust, and more than a little jealousy (Not over Beren! or at least not mostly but over the fact that his sister who didn’t even care found someone she clearly loves so much despite his flaws)

So he tells on them to his dad.

Their story goes on as has been told, and Daeron, ashamed and angry, leaves first Menegroth and then, once he raises his courage to leave his Mother’s bounds, Doriath.

He knows that Beren makes his sister happy- happier than anything else. But he’s mortal, and that’s Daeron’s sister, and their parents don’t know them at all because once Lúthien has something set in her mind she will never let it go and their father sent her lover on a doomed quest and their Mother didn’t stop him and they’ve kept them trapped safe in the palace for almost as long as he can remember and really what did they expect!?

Tinúviel- Beren called her. Nightingale. Well nightingales are wild birds, and Lúthien has outgrown her golden cage and traded its safety for certain death.

He’s angry with himself, and his sister, and her lover, and their parents and he can only escape the source of one of those things.

So he runs, and is still running when the pair return to Doriath, and when Beren dies, and when Lúthien dies and when they both come back.

(and he feels that- in his fae and down to his bones he feels his sister’s flash of white-hot panic-rage-grief and then an echoing snap and nothingness as she cuts herself loose from the ties of the East and flies- and he feels her return with a spirit that can’t fly, not because it’s weighted down or, Elbereth forbid, her wings are clipped, but because it’s so big and so light that their world can’t contain it all- if it even stepped off the ground surely it would go floating up beyond the bounds of everything they’ve ever known and so it must be tied down into her body with cords both thicker and thinner than he thought they would be)

(they’re half-maia, they’ve never quite fit in either fae or rhaw, but Daeron can force it down- can bind the two together so closely that they almost match and he can pretend that his spirit isn’t a little too small for him: that his fingers don’t flicker when he gives himself fangs, that he doesn’t lose a hand-span of height when he pours too much of himself into a song. It isn’t the form his rhaw wants- it wants their Mother’s mercury wings and gemstone talons and eyes and eyes and ears and ears to watch and touch and own and heaR- but it’s all he can do to keep from imploding like a star, so he forces himself into a form like the Children- like his father- and holds it and pretends that his rhaw and fae are one and the same like when his Mother sheds her elven fana but not her existance on this plane.)

(Lúthien has the opposite problem. After her, their parents had overcompensated in the other direction which resulted in Daeron’s own condition. She is called the fairest of the Children for a reason- it’s what her rhaw wants, to hold an incarnate shape, and it does so with ease. The trouble she has is not keeping her spirit out, but in. It’s too big for her skin, it leaks through in ways Daeron could never imagine and doesn’t want to, because his body might betray him but it fades, it never ever warps. When he was younger he was jealous. He wanted the feathers that rippled along her arms at the slightest provocation, and the hair that was more like a night sky than any elven tresses, and the huge branching horns of petrified wood. But he’s seen how it hurts her. His fae leaves him empty, but hers leaves her bursting at the seams of both her body and the world, straining against the laws that hold Ardhon together until she pours it out in any way she can manage- through her rhaw, through her song, through her dancing and arts.)

(Becoming mortal takes away none of her vastness- only twists it in all the right places until despite its size it finally- finally fits her, because everything that doesn’t is no longer bound to the world and can expand and mantle her in wings even bigger than Melian’s. Daeron was meant to be a Maia, he thinks, but he doesn’t know how he ever thought Lúthien was meant to be anything but mortal. His parents may never understand, but he doesn’t need them to come to his own revelation. Mortals are more terrifying than his Mother has ever been.)

But he is still running when they get married and leave again for wild lands in a soft parody of his own escape.

Supposedly after Beren and Lúthien return to life, none see them again in the land that they lived, besides their son, and Melian when she gives them Nauglamir. Maybe that’s true. But it doesn’t take Daeron into account.

It isn’t an accident that he starts searching them out. It takes a few years before he doesn’t feel too guilty or too bitter to face them, but when he’s ready his wanderings begin to follow the rumors of a couple in the woods, both of them human- no, they both have elven grace- wolves howl and birds sing and flowers bloom when they come near, surely they must be spirits?

A few years isn’t much to elves, but to humans it’s long enough that Lúthien has the beginnings of laugh-lines at her eyes and mouth and the tiniest bit of silver at her temples. And she’s pregnant.

Daeron, who was expecting a nice, emotional reunion and apology (or maybe getting turned away on their doorstep it’s not like she doesn’t have a good reason) and then a return to something resembling their old status quo, Freaks Out.

“You’re old! Belain help me you’re mortal! And pregnant! Isn’t that dangerous? You could die! I’m not ready to be an uncle! I’m too young for this. You’re too old for this! How does mortal aging even work!?”

Lúthien watches him pace and rant on the porch in amusement, Beren poked his head out to see what the commotion was but then immediately retreated because he didn’t sign up for this. (He’s an only child)

They do, eventually, get to the emotional reunion. But not to the old status quo.

Daeron keeps wandering, but he always comes back to them eventually. The “guest” room becomes his room (it’s not like they were using it for anything besides storage anyways) and he pops in randomly at all hours with a story to tell and a toy from a far-off land for Dior. Determined to be the number 1 uncle (“He doesn’t have any other uncles, or aunts either.” “It’s the principle of the thing!”) he often takes care of Dior when his parents need some time to themselves, and once he gets old enough Daeron occasionally takes him on little “wanderings” of his own, a couple of days out camping in the wilderness and seeing how many birds they can call over and the two of them head home.

And Daeron is probably Dior’s favorite person, they go on adventures and he knows all the best stories and teaches Dior how to charm people (with and without magic) and how to write, and how to play any instrument he wants! (Also: how to be an elf. It’s not something that comes natural for either of them, but they agree that it’s worth the effort.) Dior wants to be just like him when he grows up!

(His parents were both fully mortal when he was conceived. Though magic runs in him from his mother’s side, it is only magic, not the blood that comes with it. He is as human as his father.)

(But there is that magic in him. And Lúthien‘s song is the only thing that has ever made grim Mandos cry, for the sake of that magic and of love her doom was reversed. And though Daeron may have been meant to be a Maia, for better or worse he is an elf.)

(Daeron makes his peace with that, again and again, but he is never glad of it until far, far in the future when he sees his nephew again- reborn and elven-proud. Dior was human, with no other blood in his veins, but he held inheritance nonetheless: to an elven crown and elven city and elven people, and above all to an elven soul shaped by an elven uncle. In all but blood he was an elf. In ordinary circumstances it might not matter- he never lived long enough to see if he would age as a man or remain undying, but the sword to his heart should have ended him regardless. But Lúthien set a precedent, if one hard to live up to, and while Nimloth doesn’t have her mother-in-law’s power and the plea is somewhat lessened by Dior asking life for himself, together their argument is just convincing enough. They don’t make Mandos cry, but they don’t have to, not when they are kept and then released together, and it sets just enough of a precedent for their daughter’s father-in-law to be allowed into the undying lands and immortality granted with blind eyes turned.)

(Daeron was there when his sister’s too-big spirit finally flew free, dragging Beren’s behind in search of their next adventure. Dior wasn’t. Her last request to him was that he do his best to take care of her son. He doesn’t think she’d mind that he’ll be doing it for far longer than any of them thought.)

These years, the four of them together in a cottage in the forest of the wild lands, are the best days of their lives. They are living and free, and almost fit their own skins. Daeron and Lúthien fight, wild and light hearted and over small things. Their relationship is the best it’s ever been. Daeron and Beren like each other more as they get to know one another, and share a strong bond of healthy fear and respect for the lady of the house. Daeron and Dior learn the best pranks to pull on the couple who sleeps too deeply. The wild lands are gold by sunlight and silver by moonlight and spring and autumn last longer than expected. The winter is harsh and dead, and the summer blazes with insects and humidity. Wolves howl at night and Beren’s arm and Lúthien’s throat ache when it’s going to rain.

It’s far from perfect, this product of Ardhon Marred, but it’s real and bitter-sweet and that, Daeron thinks, is the point.

#tolkien #silmarillion #beren and luthien #lay of leithian #my writing #my headcanons #luthien #beren #daeron #nimloth #dior eluchil #daeron luthien's brother #luthien & daeron #daeron & dior #death mention

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daeranilen · 3 years

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i’ve been meaning to make this post for awhile, but haven’t been able to assemble what exactly i want to say in advance. i don’t precisely have an audience that’s here for me - my understanding is that most of my followers come for my vintage parenting post and stay for my laugh rule tag - but it still feels like significant life changes are worth marking here, at least for the people who’ve been following me for awhile? so let’s just run down what’s new:

(cw: mentions of past depression and suicidal ideation)

hi there. i’m troy. you might’ve known me by a different name before. that’s okay, but do your best to forget it. if you’ve only ever known me as daeranilen or dae up to this point, that’s okay too! feel free to keep calling me that.

i’m a gay gnc trans man. or guess i mostly gay? sexuality is complicated. what i’m trying to say without sounding like a gross boy is that my sexuality is “sorry, ladies.” before this, i identified as aromantic asexual i-guess-nonbinary-feels-least-wrong, and i ID’d that way for a pretty long time! but it turns out, that’s actually just how long i’ve been super depressed.

it feels bad to admit that, especially here, where i blogged about aro-ace-ness in particular for a decent chunk of my time. i’ve had personal experience with people insisting i’d just eventually admit i was a lesbian (joke’s on them, i guess; that’s the one thing i was absolutely sure i wasn’t), and i hate the idea that i’m feeding those sorts of garbage myths. but for me, at least, my truth is that i spent a very long time so utterly numb that i didn’t notice i could feel shit like true happiness, much less sexual attraction or gender euphoria. it’s thanks to therapy and medication that i was able to reverse the slow death spiral i was in.

relatedly: i’m quitting grad school and working on getting a job that won’t devour my entire life. i really don’t care what i do from here on out. i just care that the work won’t follow me home ever again - that i can show up at my job, do my job, and then leave my job behind at the end of the day. i’m applying to a lot of coffeeshops and local places. cross your fingers for me.

i have a partner. i’m writing poetry again. i still like video games, but i don’t spend all my time trying to avoid my own life by playing them. i adopted a cat last year. i want to get into hiking this summer. i have a lot of things i want to do this summer, and this fall, and this winter, and next spring. i can look ahead in a way i couldn’t before, and it’s breathtaking.

this blog probably won’t change much. but the person behind it is changing so, so much, and i hope you don’t mind me sharing my excitement with you. :)

#dae talks

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hyuniebaby · 4 years

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Relief (2)

Pairings: Baekhyun x Y/N x Jongdae

Genre: Fluff

Part 1

Your ice cream date with Baekhyun was delightful. You completely forgot about your anxiety with meeting Jongdae. When you’re with Baekhyun, nothing else matters in the world. You were consumed by him.

Time seems to go by quickly when you’re having fun with your boyfriend. You noticed it was already going dark and you weren’t ready to depart from him yet, but you still had to study for your Chemistry exam. As if reading your line of thoughts, Baekhyun suggested that he helped you study. You were at awe at how perceptive and thoughtful he is.

You’ve been on countless of study dates with Baekhyun, but tonight was different. Instead of the usual silence that engulfed the atmosphere, Baekhyun suggested he quizzed you. He told you that if you were to answer the questions correctly, he’d take you out on a date. Quite frankly, you were excited. You haven’t been able to spend time with him lately because you both were busy studying for the exams. He had finished him last exam today while you still had your Chemistry exam, so when it’s finished, you two could finally spend time together again. To be honest, you know he’d still take you on a date even if you were to answer incorrectly, but you wanted to win his challenge and earn the date with him as a reward.

You weren’t confident with your knowledge on Chemistry. So you weren’t sure if you’d be able to answer his questions correctly, but as the quiz came to an end, you were surprised you answered every single question Baekhyun has asked. Needless to say, your boyfriend was very proud of you.

“You did so well baby. I know you’ll ace your Chemistry exam. So for your final question...” he trailed off.

You looked at him expectantly.

“Will you go on a date with me on Saturday?” he smiled cheekily.

“Dork! Of course I would!”

He laughed out loud at your enthusiasm. “Well then, you’re all set for your exam.” He gave you a thumbs up. “Now let’s get going so you can get some rest.”

Baekhyun dropped you off at your house. He was about to say good bye but you hugged him tightly. “Thank you Baekhyun. I had fun today. You’re the best.”

He smiled softly, “Anything for you babe. I love you.”

“I love you too.”

As you went to your room, you couldn’t help but smile as you thought of Baekhyun. He helped ease your anxiety and helped you study. You were grateful for having him in your life. These were the last thoughts running through your mind before you drifted to sleep.

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

Yesterday was magical but today, your nerves are back. This is your final exam for this semester. Despite having answered Baekhyun’s questions yesterday, you’re still nervous.

You have this routine where you dress up nicely and wear makeup whenever you’re nervous about taking an exam. You’d always mentally tell yourself, if I fail, at least I looked pretty. So here you are, standing in front of the mirror, all dressed and dolled up, exchanging your usual shirts and jeans with a dress. You laugh at yourself for this ridiculous behvior but it lessens your anxiety even just for a bit so you push through with it.

As you went to school, you got a text from Baekhyun.

B ❤️: Good luck with your exam babe. I love you. See you on Saturday 😘

You smiled at how sweet your boyfriend is and quickly sent him a reply.

Y/N: Thanks baby. I love you ❤️

After finishing your exam, you were expecting a text from Baekhyun. He’d always ask how you were feeling whenever you’re finished with an exam. Just to make sure you were okay. But to your surprise, it was a message from Jongdae that greeted you.

Dae: Hey, I just got home a while ago. I dropped by your house and your parents told me you had an exam today. We can hang out at the cafe across your school after your exam if that’s okay with you? 😊

You completely forgot you were supposed to meet up with him today! It‘s definitely too early for dinner and you’re more nervous now more than you were before taking your exam. You really wanted to decline just so you could freshen up a bit and try to ease your nerves but you were also so hungry after your exam so you found yourself agreeing to meet up with him

Y/N: Hi Dae. I just finished taking the exam right now. I’ll head over the cafe now. I’ll wait for you there.

Before heading to the cafe, you sent a quick text to Baekhyun, notifying him that you were finished with your exams and that you were going to meet Dae earlier than expected.

As you were nearing the door in cafe, you grabbed your phone from your pocket, about to inform Jongdae that you arrived, not aware that he was already inside the cafe. He saw you crossing the street a while ago so he stood up from his chair and was about to greet you.

When you opened the door to the cafe, you were greeted by a hug. You slightly panicked because, well, there was a stranger hugging you! A man at that! What if he was a creep?

The man let go upon noticing your tensed state. “Sorry about that.” He awkwardly laughed while rubbing his neck.

You looked at the man who hugged you and you couldn’t help but get shocked to see it was Jongdae.

“Jongdae?” You gasped. He looked extremely good. Far from the boy you grew up with who always wore glasses and had long bangs that covered half his face.

Jongdae has shorter hair now. He was taller and more muscular. He also doesn’t wear glasses anymore. He looked so good. You were blatantly checking him out and upon realization, you snapped back to reality.

“Oh my God Dae, is it really you?” You exclaimed. He laughed softly and nodded, slightly blushing because he too was checking you out. Truth be told, he couldn’t really look away because you looked really pretty in a dress.

You leaned in for another hug, surprised at yourself for initiating it. He reciprocated immediately. After a few seconds, you both pulled away and made your way to the table where Jongdae sat at. He already ordered for the two of you, as if knowing you were hungry as hell.

For a moment, you both didn’t speak. Not knowing how to approach each other after so long. It felt like the hugs you shared were momentary lapse of judgment.

“How have you been?” He tentatively asked. He felt bad for not being to respond to your messages all throughout his days in the university. He was truly busy, never really having free time due to the different activities the uni held on top of the lessons he had to take. Rarely does he get time off, and when he does, it would be spent with his friends there.

“I’m fine. I just finished my last exam today. How are you?”

“Everything’s going great. I’ve been really busy in the city so it’s nice to finally be done with all the tasks.” He looked at you apologetically and said, “Hey Y/N I’m sorry for being a dick. I’m sorry for not being able to contact you all these years. I’ve been meaning to reply to your messages but with all the events and all the studying, I didn’t have a chance to. And when I’ve finally been able to find time, I chicken out, thinking it’s too awkward to reply to a message that has been left on read for a week, sometimes a month even.”

You smiled softly. “That’s okay. I understand...” you trailed off. “For a moment I really thought you didn’t want to be friends anymore.” a slight sound of pain in your voice was heard.

He reached for your hand, “I’m really sorry for making you feel that way.”

“It’s all in the past now, Dae.” You truthfully said.

This has been always how you two were. Whenever you had fights, a simple apology is enough for the two of you. You both never would do something to hurt one another intentionally that’s why it was easy to forgive each other.

“So tell me about your experience in the city.” you started. With this Jongdae animatedly told you what he enjoyed most, what he mostly did, where he regularly went, and more. You both were enjoying your conversation while eating your food. It was like he was never really away. You were grateful to have your best friend back.

The only thing that was not mentioned in your conversation was about your confession to him. You were grateful he didn’t talk about it because quite frankly, you weren’t ready to talk about it. You just got to spend time with him again today for the first time in years and deep topics like that are for another time. Besides, you’re with Baekhyun now so it doesn’t really matter anymore.

Time flew by faster than you could imagine so when you glanced at the window to your left, you were surprised it was already dark. Jongdae noticed this as well.

“Hey sorry for keeping you out this late. Let me drive you home.” He offered.

“It’s no problem, Dae. I had fun talking to you,” you said while grabbing your things. He helped you carry your belongings and held out his hand out to help you stand.

What you didn’t know was at the corner of the cafe sat Baekhyun. He witnessed the whole exchange between you and the guy who he has never met. His brows furrowed at the sight of you and that man leaving the cafe together. There were a million questions running through his mind.

Who the fuck was that man and why the hell were you with him?

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Blood Promise ~ Prologue

Vampire Baekhyun AU

Pairing; Twin Baekhyun/Alana

Genre; vampire/ fantasy AU

Warnings; smut, angst, fluff, language, violence, mentions of blood, age gap

{- Synopsis: Vampires falling in love with humans was forbidden. That is until 18-year-old Alana Davis moves to town and attends the new boarding school; Hallows Boarding School. Unaware that vampires exist and that the school is home to both Vampires and humans. On one late night Alana stumbles upon two brooding and mysterious twin brothers, but little did she know they would soon change her life. Will it be for the worse or the better?}

- Note: Hello and welcome to my first Baekhyun Vampire AU. I have been wanting to write something like this for a while now, and I am very excited. This story is an erotic romance AU. I will try and update new chapters every two weeks. Be aware that this fanfiction will contain mature content associated with violence, language, blood, and explicit sex.

Enjoy!

- comment below if you would like to be tagged in new chapter updates!

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The time was 5pm. The sun had just set, and your flight had just landed in Seoul, South Korea. You were offered the chance to attend the new boarding school that had just opened as a foreign exchange student, Hallows Boarding School. With your parents both passing away last month due to cancer your only family left was your uncle. Your uncle in fact was the headmaster of Hallows Boarding School, the new school you would be starting at tomorrow. Quickly getting up from your seat you make your way out towards the aisle grabbing your luggage. Once you had everything you start heading towards the exit of the plane. You had spoken to your uncle on the phone earlier that day before you had left home. He had told you he would be picking you up at the airport once you have landed. Finally walking out of the airport you checked for your uncle’s car. Nowhere in sight you put your luggage on the ground and waited for your uncle to arrive. He told you he would be picking you up in silver Volvo. Breathing in the fresh air from outside you were hit with a cold gust of wind causing a shiver to run up your spine. It was just the beginning of winter, your favorite time of the year. It had just begun to snow. Your long black hair fell dow your milky pale face as you wore a long-sleeved black v-neck and denim jeans, paired with white boots and a long black coat covering your body to help keep you warm. The roads and trees were all covered in white snow. You looked around you. The city looked beautiful, but for some reason you sensed an eerie feeling forming deep in your gut, like something in your life was about to drastically change.

Finally, you see your uncle pulling up in front of you in his car as you stood on the curb. You smiled as he rolled down his window. “Well, hello there stranger” You hadn’t seen your uncle in 2 years. Your parents had a big disagreement on something that your uncle wanted to do, in which they didn’t approve of which caused them to not speak to each other. Thinking about it. They never really told you about what had happened that caused us to not see each other for 2 years. “Uncle Dae! I’m so happy to see you.” You spoke. Opening the trunk of his car he stepped out, with a big smile plastered on his face. “I’m very happy to see you too Alana.” He made his way towards you embracing you in a tight hug. Grabbing your luggage from your hands he puts it inside. Closing the trunk, you both made your way inside the car. You were now seated in the passenger seat, while your uncle entered and sat in the driver’s seat beside you. Putting on your seat belt you both drove off into the cold winter night. Looking outside the window as the city lights passed by. It was a quiet night. Inside the car you felt it was a bit cold. Rubbing your hands together you try to get some heat to circulate through your body. You slowly reached your hand towards the ac and turned the heater on. Clearing his throat his eyes still focused on the road your uncle spoke. “Soo.. are you excited to be starting in a new school?” your uncle asked a soft smile forming on his face. You nodded your head up and down enthusiastically. You really were excited! You felt like this year was going to be a great year. “Yes! I’m very excited Uncle Dae. Thank you for allowing me to attend!” you said. The time was now 8pm and it was already dark outside. Looking outside your window you could see that the city was starting to fade from view. Stopping at a stop light your uncle makes a sharp right turn down an even darker road. Unable to see anything, but trees and the bright headlights from the front of your uncle’s car and the road ahead of you, you both make your way towards the school. It was a full moon tonight and the moon illuminated the sky. You would be spending your first night at the school. Your uncle was now driving down what seemed to look like the woods. “We will be approaching the school any minute now.” Your uncle spoke breaking the silence in the car. Turning your head back towards the window you start to see what looks like a huge Victorian castle coming into view. You gasp. “Wow! That’s a school?” You asked excitement clear in your voice. “The school is beautiful” You couldn’t believe your eyes as you got closer and closer to the front gates of the school. Although, the excitement you felt just minutes ago didn’t last very long because sooner or later it was replaced with an eerie feeling that enveloped you, the same feeling you felt earlier today at the airport. Your face fell into a frown upon looking up at the school. A shiver ran up your spine, as you rubbed your arms. As the gates of the school opened allowing you and your uncle to enter past the gates, something about this school gave you a bad feeling, and you didn’t like it. You hadn’t realized your uncle had been watching your reactions to seeing the school for the first time and he finally spoke. Everything was about to change and you didn’t even know it yet...

“Welcome to Hallows Boarding School Alana….”

#exo #exo au #exo smut #EXO baekhyun #Byun Baekhyun #Baekhyun AU #Baekhyun Smut #Vampire Baekhyun #Fantasy AU #kpop idols

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at-the-exd-of-everythixg · 3 years

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Last batch! Doe looks sweet as always and I love necklace with the sun makeup and the pie triooo!! Morde is adorable and yes he us wearing a fox shirt, Dae is the outcast gay jock ur parents warn u about because he spitss acid and Miss Weech...gave baby goldfish in a bag earrings and yes she is Ace Aquarium Girl I love her so much and she also has hearing aids on along with a rare treat of her night form!! WHEN will a cutie come and see it romance can happen for a girl who loves fish, turns into a giant one at night and wears dino earrings??

#art #sweet face sour taste (adonai)#dusk filled head (mordecai)#diamond of the rough (dae)#underwater garden (peach)#peach is my fav

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🔔🔔🔔 + your rwby s/i! -dae

@sosoftandsweet yknow the interesting part about this is that i had this all typed up but then somehow i dozed off and when i woke back up it had all vanished

🔔 ophelia’s family is originally from a village in mistral, but her parents deemed it not safe enough to raise a child soon after she was born due to the constant threat of grimm and bandit attacks, so they moved all the way up north to mantle

🔔 during her time studying at atlas academy, her teachers and fellow students alike noticed her inquisitiveness and knack for problem solving, which eventually led her to taking up a side job as a private investigator alongside her huntress duties

🔔 ironwood actually offered her a position among the ace ops, but she declined, stating that she wanted to be “a bit more free than that”. she still hangs out with them tho, especially elm :3

#thank you for the ask dae!!#ship: treehugger #Anonymous

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cntcrtainmcnt-blog · 6 years

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lmao never trust my words when i say no more muses. so anyway, under the cut are brief intros.

ABIGAIL MACQUEEN looks an awful lot like VICTORIA JUSTICE. SHE is TWENTY-THREE and while they’re DETERMINED, they have a tendency to get pretty PASSIVE. You’ve probably seen them around Kola listening to SOLITAIRE by MARINA&THE DIAMONDS.

so i can definitely see how she resembles victoria’s character on eye candy. i actually created that muse before and then when the show came out, i modified it to look similar.

Older of two, she’s always been very energetic and outgoing. And very very damn good with computers.

When she was 16, her younger sibling went missing, and she started developing her hacking skills to try and track her online activity to find her.

But she never did, at least no in time, since they found the body of her younger sister washed up on some shore on the East Coast two months later.

She decided to not let it stop her, and decided to use her skills to actually help others who might need it. So she opened some sort of underground business, and gets paid to hack for people(as long as it’s not like... government, or the person isn’t meaning any harm by it).

Buuuuuut she got caught, although they gave her some kind of second chance. She’d be free, as long as she decided to use her hacking skills to help cyber crimes rather than doing illegal jobs. So now she’s a hacker for cyber crimes in Kola(which is where she grew up btw).

ARINA KOLOSOVA looks an awful lot like NATALIE DORMER. SHE is THIRTY-TWO and while they’re SUAVE, they have a tendency to get pretty VINDICTIVE. You’ve probably seen them around Kola listening to YOU DON’T OWN ME by DUSTY SPRINGFIELD.

Born and raised in Moscow, both her parents worked for an underground agency, think something similar to Kingsman, but with a Black Widow twist.

While her childhood was fine, when she became older, her parents started training her to become the perfect agent.

They became harsher on her, often depriving her of a real meal or even bed sheets at night when she wasn’t doing good in her training.

It was becoming a lot to deal with, but she knew better than to go against her parents. So she just tried harder and harder in trainings until they judged she was old and skilled enough to pass the entrance test for the agency.

Which she did, she aced it. While Arina never really thought about doing the same job her parents did, she did have a job now, at 21, so why give it up?

But it was underground, not very legal, and so they got busted when she was 24. She wasn’t there when they showed at the HQ, but her mother was, and she destroyed all files linking to Arina before the authorities saw them.

Due to her parents being arrested and her job not existing anymore, she managed to get a visa to move to the states for political protection.

She landed in Kola, and joined a biker’s gang, which is the best thing she did in her life.

Due to being deprived of meals often when she was younger, she now has a very large appetite, although she does burn off all excess by training.

Probably gets paid to help people get revenge on whoever did them wrong.

ARWEN DAE SHEEN looks an awful lot like ARDEN CHO. SHE is TWENTY-NINE and while they’re FUN-LOVING, they have a tendency to get pretty CLUMSY. You’ve probably seen them around Kola listening to WEIRD PEOPLE by LITTLE MIX.

Dae was born in Korea, but before she was even 5, her parents were targetted for a crime they did not comit, but the culprit created false proofs, so they had to flee the country.

They landed in England for a few years, building a new life. And by doing so, they all changed their names. They didn’t want to be traced back, although they did keep their last names. She was only 5 though and would only come up with random names, so her parents named her after a character from their favorite book series.

Her father later on got a job offer in Kola, California, so the family moved there. Arwen was probably about 8-9.

And she’s been in Kola since, and doesn’t plan on moving out, since she fell in love with the town.

She currently works as an elementary school teacher, as well as a fencing instructor by night.

CARSON MCALLISTER looks an awful lot like ALEXANDER KOCH. HE is TWENTY-SEVEN and while they’re IDEALISTIC, they have a tendency to get pretty DERANGED. You’ve probably seen them around Kola listening to WICKED by BOY EPIC.

My fucked up son I haven’t played in ages.

Son of the police chief in Kola, and a high school teacher, who sadly passed away giving birth to him.

His father was not a good man. Carson grew up seeing him bring in women, at first acting like a true gentleman, until he became abusive with them and they left. And that did rub on him with time.

During high school, he fell in love with this girl, she was the light of his life. They were together for nearly 5 years, before they broke up. He was training to become a police officer like his dad, and she felt their paths were diverging.

He... did not take it, and locked her up in one of the rooms of his very large house. His father working crazy hours and that room being empty, never realized it until a few weeks later. A missing notice person was filled, and his father suspected him. The house was searched, they found the girl, and Carson was arrested.

He did time, and is only coming out of jail now, has no job, probably couch surfing since his father won’t talk to him.

Still wants his ex back tbfh.

GENESIS FERRER looks an awful lot like ZOE SALDANA. SHE is THIRTY-SEVEN and while they’re LOYAL, they have a tendency to get pretty OPINIONATED. You’ve probably seen them around Kola listening to SORRY NOT SORRY by DEMI LOVATO.

Her parents moved to the states before she was born. But they later on got deported, although since she was born there, she was placed in foster care. (would’ve much rather prefered to be taken with her parents)

Was intentionally bad with all foster families because she was salty. She’s always been kind of a brat.

After graduating, she started studying management, while also working as a part time security guard at the mall.

One thing lead to another, and when she graduated, Genesis decided to start her own security company. So now she owns a company, who people basically employ to guard their buildings, malls, shops, zoo, whatever.

Was never able to get a serious relationship because she’s very distant with people. BUT I SWEAR SHE HAS LOVE TO GIVE.

Also I’m making her a green alien in the future verse because I CAN.

MADELEINE STOKES looks an awful lot like KYLIE BUNBURY. SHE is TWENTY-SEVEN and while they’re CHARISMATIC, they have a tendency to get pretty JUDGEMENTAL. You’ve probably seen them around Kola listening to BO$$ by FIFTH HARMONY.

This character was originally an April Pearson fc? But she has like no good resources? So here we have the lovely Kylie instead.

Filthy rich family, she was spoiled to death. And it got to her head. But her parents also thought her that she’ll have to work for her own money when she’s older.

Queen Bee all through her school career. People looked up to her, but also feared what she could do.

Currently works as weather girl for the local channel.

That character was also originally inspired by Regina George, so she does keep a Burn Book, which she’s had since high school, and still adds stuff to it.

MARGARET BALDWIN looks an awful lot like DAISY RIDLEY. SHE is TWENTY-FIVE and while they’re METICULOUS, they have a tendency to get pretty INDIVIDUALISTIC. You’ve probably seen them around Kola listening to CAN’T BE TAMED by MILEY CYRUS.

Daughter of Gustav, he used her as one of his test subjects.

When it got debunked, her mother and her changed identities, and while it did mess with her head, it was nothing compared to her mom.

It wasn’t much later that her mom had to be sent to a psychiatric rehab center, and is still there. As for Nicoline Margaret, her neighbour was kind enough to take her in for as long as it might take.

They already had two kids, so she grew up with two people she now considers her siblings.

She always did good in school, but was horrible at following simple rules and orders. So after graduating, she went into journalism and is now an investigative journalist.

She hates her dad, and wished he would still be in jail. Actually erased him from her life and didn’t even know he was out until she went to see her mom and she mentioned he visited her.

She’s very bad at relationships but I swear if you bring me John Boyega, Adam Driver and/or Oscar Isaac, as exes, current crushes, FWB, or whatever you can think of, I will forever love you.

#fckit:intro #death tw #abuse tw #kidnapping tw

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