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bakudekublogblog · 4 months

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izuku didn’t just have to see katsuki’s dead body, he also had to see the fucking all might card right next to him. physical proof that katsuki always had a tender spot in his heart for izuku and their childhood together. evidence that katsuki fucking LOVED HIM THIS WHOLE TIME and now it’s TOO LATE. it’s actually so devastatingly romantic and fucking tragic. izuku really only finds out katsuki loved him all along when he thinks he’s lost him forever.

#bakudeku #bkdk #and then kacchan comes back and izuku stares at him with such open longing like #who can blame him he knows now #how can he not know!!!!#what else can it mean to hang on to a little card you got together years ago #and it’s right by his face too??#he was probably looking at it as he died???#it makes me fucking insane every time I think about Katsuki’s sentimental ass hanging onto that stupid card #carrying it around with him #his biggest regret not getting it signed #no matter what he never could bring himself to let it go #just has it on him at any given time apparently #like have you heard the phrase carrying a torch for someone #bc that’s #the metaphor is right there.#AND IZUKU HAS TO SEE IT HE HAS TO LOOK AT IT #WHEN HE THINKS ITS TOO LATE #HE LOVED ME THE WHOLE TIME AND ITS TOO LATE #ITS PEAK ROMANCE ITS SO BEAUTIFUL #I’M SO GLAD ITS NOT TOO LATE #in my mind bkdk is already canon bc this is just so damning #he only calms down when he’s told maybe it isn’t too late after all too #it’s so romance it’s to tragic it’s so dramatic it’s so JUICY ITS SO GOOD #I COULD TALK ABOUT IT FOREVER AND JUST MIGHT

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luck-of-the-drawings · 4 days

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"I think this is the most inhuman; and human, that I've ever felt.." MUCH CAN HAPPEN IN A YEAR. IN FIVE YEARS. A DECADE. imagine how much can happen in a century. just ONE (1). How will you grow? what phases do you find? even in 5 years, you will find patterns.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #jrwi suckening spoilers #jrwi the suckening #arthur bennett #HEY SO THE REALLY FUNNY THING THAT THE CHARACTER DID THAT SEEMED RLY SILLY N GOOFY IN THE MOMENT?#LIKE THE WHIPLASH BETWEEN SERIOUS N SILLY ALMOST PISSED YOU OFF? WHAT IF I FOUND A WAY TO MAKE YOU SAD ABOUT IT #this was meant to be a scribble that would be a bigger part of a bigger page.might leave it on that page.#but still. bc o that i nearly posted it onto my wacky side blog.BUT NAYY I SPENT TOO MUCH TIME N ENERGY N YOU GOTTA SEE IT #ARTHUR BENNETT DRIVES ME CRAZY. I FEEL LIKE ITS ODD FOR HIM TO BE SO TECHNOLOGICALLY OUT OF TOUCH #WHERE HAS HE BEEN. HAS HE BEEN IN WAR? IS THAT WHERE MAGNUS CAME FROM? WHERE WAS HE WHEN HE WAS WITH EDWARDS CREW?#ARTHURRR I HAVE QUESTIONS ARTTHUUURR!! HEY CAN I ALSO ASK; WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU BECOME #DO YOU THINK HE HAD ANY IDEA HE WOULD VEER CLOSER AND CLOSER TO THE MONSTER HE DESPISES. ALL BC HE DESERVES IT. OR WATEVER #HE FASCINATES ME SO MUCH. TO LOOK AT THE STONE COLD STOIC FOOL FROM THE START OF THE SHOW #AND TO FIND OUT THAT HE USED TO BE A BAD BOY.. A DELINQUENT... A LIL PRANKSTER.... MY GODDD THATS ADORABLE #I WOULD LOVE TO KNOW MORE.... BUT I DOUBT THE LAST EPISODE IS GONNA ANSWER THOSE QUESTIONS..i love arthur bennett so much....#AS FOR THE ART!! i mostly used the fire alpaca watercolor brush. tbh im not a brush guy. anti aliased default pen tends to be my main game #but LATELY IM SQQQUIRMIN OUT OF AN ARTBLOCK so expirimenting like this is helping #DONT LOOK TOO HARD AT IT!! im still proud tho. colors are fun :3 im also very proud of the backgrounds #I LOVE THE CARTOON THING where the background looks all fancy n painted but the characters are solid colors #what else can i ramble abt. OH YEAH. i looked up the bikes to make sure they were time accurate tehehehe. 1913 to 2012.#almost a century apart!! isnt that neat? ALSO FUUUCK CAN I JUST MAKE A QUICK CONFESSION. DOWN HERE IN MY TAGS.#only the strongest can read my tags anwyay. SO I REALIZED WHY I LOVE ARTHUR SO MUCH. TIME IS A FLAT CIRCLE #while arthur is a Stoic and Cool vampire w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORs #THERE HAPPENS TO BE A ROBOT FROM A BAND W A TITANIUM ALLOY SPINAL COLLUMN #WHOS A Stoic and Cool ROBOT w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORS #the fuckkkiiinnngggnn The Spine from steam powered giraffe. WHATEVER. i cant escape from my heart. i guess.#i think The Spine and Arthur could be friends. Arthur saw the band perform back when they were the Steam Man Band #EDIT: WOOPS I DIDNT REALIZE THIS WOULD END UP IN THE SPG TAG. HI GUYS DIDNT KNOW U WERE STILL ALIVE SORREE 4 THE CROSS CONTAMINATION

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skunkes · 6 months

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#something he keeps saying lately #also idk how to word this but my stuff almost never looks good when i flip the canvas but aiming for symmetrical too Stiff #i hope my stuff is at least a Good wonky and not a ''dude this looks so bad you just cant tell yet'' wonky...#i want it to look like i made it bad on purpose not like its bad because im just unskilled....#but it definitely is not ever on purpose or in an informed; breaking the rules ive learned way lol.#<- speaking generally here bc as of rn i dont think this doodle Sucks its just lopsided i think...thats what the canvas flip says at least #i always say this but i wish i cld switch between my perception of my stuff and someone else's perception #i hate feeling so in the dark about my own stuff. i wont even be able to tell if this sucks bad until anywhere from one day to 5 years #from now. ykwim.#a doodley #ok gn ^_^

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sirenofthegreenbanks · 3 months

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《山河令》 WORD OF HONOR (2021) | Episode 20

Dear, the kiss that steals your breath Will steal your soul instead When night is all that's left So wait, keep your heart inside My hand won't keep it safe I'll just feed on dreams and smile as hope slowly dies –The Rigs, Run Baby Run

#my gif #okay so the way wkx doesnt think these times can ever return #not just that things change and will naturally turn into memory #but also that he feels like he won‘t ever get another chance at being as happy as he was then #simply because hes Changed now #and he knows Bad Things Happen (to him) (because of him)#it reminds me of the nails reveal scene (‚i found u bad its too late.‘)#only much worse because so much more of wkx himself is revealed #so the stakes are higher #and he and zzs are so much closer #he inevitably needs to reveal what happened to zhen yan #but how can he? when hes convinced zzs will turn his back #if he ever finds out The Other Side of him (master of ghosts)#hes like working with a deadline #hnnng #wen kexing #zhou zishu #zzs #wkx #gifset #word of honor #wenzhou #山河令 #shl #shan he ling #also this is dedicated to Spare Me by staringatstars #which im currently rereading again and its having me Feel Things #about wkx & his yearning to sacrifice himself if the odds are against him #also: hii!!!!!! my first gifset!!!!! i know its not perfect but thats fine (tears of labour streaming down my face as i smile bravely)#priestnet

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hoffmanstits-enjoyer · 7 months

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uhm, honestly the idea of mark truly and hopelessly falling for peter as he's watching him fighting and rejecting his own damnation, finding in the desperate display in front of him someone that finally may be as miserably stubborn as himself— what does strahm have right then but him? his scream's muffled and distant-sounding behind the glass walls but there's no missing the blood spilled, mudding his vision until everything's tantalizing shades of red.......... he watches until he can't anymore, hoping peter had never looked at him the same way (wishing he did)

#haha im sooooo okay about them. its not like mark remembering him while fighting for his own life affected me at ALL #not like the fact peter's haunting him the same way adam haunts lawrence in saw 3d means ANYTHING to meeeee #no sir. no im FINE #love at last sight as you watch ur enemy rattling at the bars of a cage you trapped them in #spitting in ur face that they KNOW. you. perhaps not as well as they think but oh they got the closest to it #and u get to know them intimately. u get to watch the person they are when facing death itself and peter's everything he wished for #but never knew. so many victims gave up. sobbed their poor lil hearts out. yelled they were good and how could u do this to them? not peter #JUST MARK HOFFMAN IN LOVE WHEN IT'S TOO LATE OKAY? OKAY #hoffstrahm #coffinshipping #mark hoffman #peter strahm #saw franchise #saw v #saw vi #sawposting

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benevolenterrancy · 11 months

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this is a little belated by I saw @dayinthedeath's discussion about who in torchwood is most likely to be spiderman and I needed to join in with this proposal: it's a team effort in united nerdy idiocy

#torchwood #owen harper #toshiko sato #tosh #ianto jones #spiderman #my art #they all actively enable each others bad decisions and i firmly believe that includes trying to make a biological web agent to swing from #what i want to know is who's dumb enough to test run it and ends up falling from the upper levels #they all have the brains to try to pull this off and not enough common sense to realize it's a bad idea #if i had to choose just one of them i'm team tosh sorry the thought of her as spiderman just makes my heart happy #but owen is the next obvious follow-up to me and he does admittedly have the snark that tosh is lacking #but i can very much see tosh and ianto accidentally talking themselves into this - first as a joke but suddenly very much Not As A Joke #and then owen inevitably gets drawn in when they go looking for biology advice #he acts like he thinks its a stupid idea but he is immediately way to invested in doing this #jack and gwen aren't told until it's too late #this feels like a sequel to my myfanwy-rider picture but i just treasure this potential dynamic

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ccarrot · 7 months

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okay this is a very personal hot take but i genuinely don't believe dazai is as self destructive as he may seem.

#this is going to be a rant/vent here in the tags but #there's something abt some dz character studies. they really make a point of like... thinness. lack of eating. it bothers me a lot #i actually don't think he's like. actively starving or whatever. maybe his appetite come in waves. sometimes when u don't feel hungry at al #you end up not eating until it's wayy too late then you might eat too much bc u feel that hungry. then instantly regret it.#and then skip the next couple of meals #idkkk i've struggled with disordered eating. i don't like how callously its treated. it often seems kind of.. glamourized #i hate that.#in general dz seems like a glamorized character within the fandom. partly bc he's very pretty and simultaneously broken and self destructiv #** in my personal view based on personal experience**#don't reference my tags btw

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skitskatdacat63 · 8 months

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2009 Japanese Grand Prix - Sebastian Vettel

#im so glad theres no one here to witness my reaction to seb wins because my god #i dont think words exist in the english language for the screeching noises i make HAHAHAHAHA #i just love him too much and it is a very late hour so i feel so deranged abt him and its very unwell behavior #i am kissing the tv director was for this podium directly on the mouth because SO MANY GOOD SHOTS !!!!!!!!!#my main gripe(and youll see this often in my tags) is that they never have enough direct shots and also cut away at bad moments #this podium? absolutely fucking beautiful. i want to kiss the camera operators because their focusing and tracking is a thing of beauty #hes so cute this race!!!!!! i have way too much content so shall be 3 posts methinks. hope ya dont mind!!#ive seen a clip of him and tommi chest bumping but i didnt know it was this race so when it suddenly cut to them im like OH!!!!#seb at japan gp....truly magnificent every single season(we dont talk about 2007)#i usually put 'ft. [ther drivers] but clearly both the cameramen and i only had eyes for seb hahaha #i guess this time tommi and rocky are the features!!#sebastian vettel #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #we do a little bit of f1 #2009 japanese gp #2009 japanese grand prix #sv5

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completeoveranalysis · 1 month

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THIS IS AN APPROPRIATE REACTION. I ALSO WASN’T EXPECTING THIS WHOLE STAB THING

AND USUALLY THE FIGHTS GO ON A LOT LONGER

And that aside, the things that Kurogane and Fai must be feeling at seeing this happen? At finally finally connecting with their new son and learning all about him, and what he’s done, and forgiving him, and defending him, and being on his side - and letting him go and fight his own battle and SEE HIM ALMOST IMMEDIATELY GET STABBED RIGHT THROUGH THE CHEST

After they had just promised Mokona that they would all make it back ok? And after they had taunted Evil Wolverine to try and bring him into the fight?

Meanwhile Evil Wolverine was only ever stalling with Fai and Kurogane while his winning move was Syaoran alone.

NOT A PLEASANT FEELING, I MUST ASSUME.

OH MY GOD OK SO THE NEXT PAGE IS UNDER A READ MORE 100%

JESUS OK

I’m almost sure they wouldn’t actually do this but IT SURE DOES LOOK LIKE LAVA LAMP’S HEAD IS MISSING IN THAT MIDDLE PANEL THERE

I’M SURE THAT WOULDN’T ACTUALLY HAPPEN (in Tsubasa at least) AND YET EITHER WAY THAT SURE WAS ABOUT AS BAD A SWORD WOUND YOU COULD PROBABLY GET FROM AN ALL POWERFUL EVIL CLONE TRYING TO KILL YOU

AND NOW EVEN KUROGANE IS YELLING IN BOLD AS THE DADS TRY TO GET TO HIM IN TIME

WELL

W E L L

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magnusbae · 2 years

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Dream: I saw her again, you know.

Hob: Who? Lady Johanna?

Dream: She undertook a task for me and succeeded admirably, I might add.

Hob: I can do tasks too, admirably. pls. :(

#Hob's heartbroken face when he learns Dream someone twice a century but he doesn't even know his name yet #poor guy was BURNING AND YEARNING for Dream after their last meeting #thinking about his pretty outfit and pretty bow and pretty eyes and pretty everything #AND HE ALMOST GOTTEN A NAME TOO THEN #and now he just--- almost every moment in this meeting is Hob FORCING SMILES OVER HIS LONGING FACE #dreamling #dream of the endless #hob gadling #*saw someone jesus its too late here #buns.hc #buns.all

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s0fter-sin · 4 months

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metalhead ghost who’s been in moshpits since he was a kid and is now a veteran of the scene and the self appointed look out. he keeps an eye out for anyone falling or passing out, kicks the shit out of anyone crowd killing or putting their hands where they shouldn’t

and he’s been keeping an eye on the punk in the kilt since he saw him throw himself headfirst into the wall of death

he looks like the type to start shit - loud and aggressive as anyone else here but a punk doesn't end up at a metal show for no reason - but there's also something niggling at him that he's gonna end up getting himself hurt. and ghost can’t tell if he’s going to do it on purpose

if he does, ghost needs to know. he uses these places as an escape - the music, the violence, the community - always has and he knows all to well how easily an escape can curdle and become destructive. he’s seen too many people lost to the darker parts of the scene, almost lost himself to it; he doesn’t want it to happen to anyone else if he can help it

so when he sees the punk sweating his mohawk off, his movements becoming looser and uncoordinated, he has no issues with yanking him out of the pit and pulling him away from the crowd; pushing him up against the venue wall and ordering him to open his mouth

the glaze that falls over his eyes concerns him even as he obediently lets his mouth fall open. he was right; the punk’s severely dehydrated, tongue and gums far to pale and along with the look in his eyes, he half-thinks he’s about to drop

he reflexively tightens his hold on his jaw to keep him up and the punk shivers, a flush creeping up his neck. an almost confused arousal joins the haze in his eyes and ghost smirks beneath his mask

looks like metal shows aren’t the only thing the punk is new to

#soapghost #ghostsoap #ghoap #ghost has a split tongue bc i said so #and soaps mohawk is overgrown and fluffy as hell running down the back of his neck #once ghost forces water down his throat soap comes back online and is his usual self and ghost starts to like him even more #he likes having someone that can go toe to toe with him #i wish i knew more about the scene so i could expand this but i dont know shit about punk or metal culture lmao #i do know itd be mid 20s soap and late 30s early 40s ghost and soaps just self destructing #wanting to be an artist but hes being strangled both by his family who think its a waste when hes so mathematically smart #and by the artistic community who hate his pieces for being too chaotic and non traditional #ghost keeps running into him at shows and he recognises that self destruction all too well #and he sees him declining and knows if he doesnt step in no one will #he was a drug addict after getting caught up in abusive relationship with roba #and it was only his brothers death that pulled him out of his spiral #he doesnt want death to be the end of this spitfire punks story #soaps also got that classic catholic guilt internalised homophobia going for him #hes only ever known the bad parts of the scene he didnt know there was anything different #until ghost introduces him to price and nikolai whove been together longer than hes been alive #and to gaz and farah and alex who make no secret of their love for each other and soap realises just how deprived he is of healthy love #not when his parents barely stand him not when his sister only got married when she fell pregnant and they forced her into the church #with a man she hardly knew just so they could keep their reputation #just ghost showing soap theres more to life than violence and hatred and theres so much love for him to discover #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #we’re a team. ghost team #simon ghost riley #ghost cod #john soap mactavish #soap cod #save post

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skenpiel · 7 months

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i filled a whole canvas with shitty little rose doodles te other day and this was the only one that came out even half decent LAWL. can u tell i lik e stylizing -_-

#my art #doodle #rose lalonde #WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME I PISTED A draAWING THAT WASNT LIKE. FOR ANYTHING. HUH?????#ages ages its been Ages #i havent like. drawn. like i used to for almost a full year now. idk wats up w that #but anyway mostly i make a lot of silly shitty low effort doodles nowadays #almost all of them will never be seen by anybody. the other ones from this drawing for example #or like. i drew alpha rose too. nobodys gonna Ever fucking see that. i think it makes it a little easier 4 me 2 relax knowing that #like just focus on having fun or whatever. maybe #also thats a lie 1 person has seen it and thhat was my friend matt. but thats only because he was sitting behind me as i was drawing LOL #anyways. its late and cold So im gonna go to bed bye forever everyone #i am every canon compliant homestuck character fans worst nigjtmare 💪💪💪

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voiceofsword · 3 months

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Yaaay ^_^ hiii

Ummm. Rinniki. I love them. Uh. Do you think that Rinne waiting to kiss until marriage is a genuine thing he's committed to or do you just think he was a massive coward because of how forward Niki asked and now he's gotta commit to the bit. Both are funny but I think the latter is funnier.

OK PERSONALLY.... i do think rinne would be committed to it. i think hiiro would probably be too, if its something thats ever crossed his mind. but at the same time, i also think rinne could be convinced if niki really kept insisting, because if it happened once it's easy enough for rinne to shrug off, but after that i can only imagine it really feels like niki's testing his patience.... tradition vs the love of his life FIGHT!!

but also the one u suggested is so funny too. its like playing a game of gay chicken but niki doesnt even know hes participating in it, he would fully believe it's part of rinne's hometown traditions and just occasionally suggest them kissing but it wouldnt cross his mind that its not true. meanwhile rinnes like (tightens fist) idk how much longer i can do this. its really funny when rinnes portrayed as a huge playboy by people when in my head its more enjoyable to see him as a blushing virgin who doesnt even know how to kiss properly and wants to be with niki forever. he simply doesnt know where to start 😭 whereas niki doesnt think that hard about anything, so wanting to kiss rinne is just Easy. it comes naturally

in either case i think niki would probably be the one to initiate, i.e getting all close to rinne, intimate atmosphere, etc.. but rinne would have to be in just the right mood/mindset to know nikis serious and that he really really wants this, too. there's this beautifully written fic that expresses my thoughts on this really well; the fact that deep down rinne's insecure, too, and he wants confirmation of niki's affections just as much as niki would want his, even if theyre not entirely on the same page (but they can learn to be, theyre very important to each other!)

so rinne being really insistent about wanting to get married first is because he wants to make sure niki really loves him, too, even though its obvious he does — he just expresses his love differently.

something that doesnt change tho is that both of them want kissy. i think spiritually theyre both married anyway

#this was a whole lot of repeating the same thing i think. but seriously read that fic. its one of my absolute favorites #tldr i lean more towards the first one but ur right the second one is rly funny. i like confident niki vs rinne who is just kind of a pussy #the gap moe on rinnes part.... i love it when hes a little pathetic #im sure niki finds it cute too if not a little frustrating. wants to shake his shoulders like LET ME KISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!#mimthinks #im tagging it with that even tho its not a v long reply ww its been a while my old friend #if it wasnt so late id try to draw smth for this wahhh im sorry ;_;;;;

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puhpandas · 6 months

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Evan and Greg are basically your oc's!, what is your interpretation of Micheal in the modern au. Also how does mike not see Evan as a person?

Also flashlight duo is super cute

Has Evan ever been bullied at school?

the ocification beam hit them too hard...

I view Michael in my flashlight duo universe as being like. not how a lot of people portray him. as in he doesnt lash out for a reason. he isnt acting that way towards Evan because William told him to.

it's for sure affected by William's own actions, but as in Michael subconsciously learned those things. he isn't even on William's side really. he sucks as a father to both of them. it's just that michael doesnt respect Evan enough to see him as someone who is supposed to be on his side

Michael subconsciously learned growing up that everything Evan is is bad. and the cool people his age see people like Evan as weak, so he does too.

he lacks any emotional maturity, so a lot of his actions towards Evan are out of his own boredom and resent. he genuinely thinks his reactions are funny. if he ever did realize what he did was wrong, he would have to actually realize. he knows fully that what he does hurts Evan. he just doesn't care. he hasn't developed the intuition he needs to care. you know?

and Michael is around 16 if evan is 12. it's not that hes too young to understand, it's the lack of good parenting, or literally parenting in general. if Evans life is hell because everyone around him hates him, then that means its true. it means the people in hurricane dont like people like Evan (a boy who at his age should be getting manlier, but isnt. sensitive and emotional and physically small and lanky. evan literally has anxiety and paranoia and is neurodivergent and people dont really acknowledge that but they notice. and they don't like it)

the people in their town suck and are mean and so is Michael's father. so of course hes going to stick to what hes been taught and to everybody else who also believes it and is on his side. he was never taught that what hes doing is wrong. hes a bad person but it's a product of horrible parenting and the worst town in the world

in contrast to Michael, in the neglect and bullying Evan has faced its made him kinder. he is the one facing it so he wants to be kind to others instead of being like the people he hates.

I dont want to say he would be more in tune with his emotions than Michael because he wouldn't be. before Gregory, he was so unstable and miserable he was just a big ball of anxiety and emotions. he didnt understand his emotions and have that country mile on Michael's own emotional maturity because he didnt have it in him to learn

and by that I mean he didnt even like himself enough to want to help himself. hed been taught that theres fundamentally something wrong with him that makes him bad and weird and not like anyone else who's impossible to 'fix'. and hed been hearing that since he was a young kid, so of course hed believe it.

but then Gregory comes alone and slowly tries to strip away what Evan had been taught just by being kind to him and repeating kind things. the opposite of what everyone else did.

and that is what makes Evan begin to change for the better. the first thing he learns is that Gregory doesn't think something is super wrong with him that makes him bad and stupid so he starts to believe it a little, too. he begins to see how maybe how hes being treated is unfair and its him seeing himself as worthy of kindness that makes him upset on his own behalf. and what that means is he has better self esteem when before he was so insecure he could never even defend himself a little bit

and its after he gains some respect for himself that he learns how to help himself. he actually thinks he deserves it now, so with his support system in Gregory and his family he learns how he works. he learns what his phobias are and what sets him off and how to calm himself down. and of course he hoped all the way through that changing could be what 'fixes' him and the people around him wouldnt hate him so much. but like I said before its that self respect that confirms it's for himself and not for others

of course that stuff doesnt go away, but he improves. the people around him do notice. they dont care enough to say anything, they're more just suprised or happy hes shutting up in that mean way of theirs. but I think after a while of Evan being comfortable with Gregory and improving himself he would one day just snap.

before, he had layers and layers of nervousness and fear and anxiety and insecurity stopping his very high emotions from boiling over. and with the newfound respect for himself comes the anger on his own behalf of how hes treated.

so i feel like one day he would just blow up with all the emotion without the insane amount of fear stopping him. and it doesnt help, not really.

before, evan wanted to please michael and his father. but now that he wants them to know how much he hates them and how much they hurt him, they are pleased.

he gained more respect but in the worst way. not the way he wanted.

but back to their relationship, I think post-all of this, evan wouldnt want anything to do with him. let's say Michael does have a wake up call when they're both older. hes already ruined his relationship so much its unsalvageable. he caused evan to develop fundamental issues rooted deep (anxiety and paranoia, general things he learned about the world and certain people/groups and traits that he'll have to remind himself arent true) inside of him.

his family had their chance and they blew it hard. evan is definitely in the right to want nothing to do with him or William and to continue growing up and living and laughing with his actual family in his heart. they never get to make it official, but that doesn't matter.

anyway I went on like. a lot lol. for anyone who havent read my oneshot series this is based completely off of that au of mine and in my mind is canon to every oneshot if you do read them. thanks for enabling me to talk about flashlight duo lol you can tell I put so much thought into them every day its crazy

edit: to answer your actual questions lol: it's not that Michael literally doesn't see Evan as a human person, it's that he doesnt respect him enough to treat him with human respect. you know? everything evan is he has been taught is bad and worthless so that's what he thinks. so by extension evan is too

and yeah evan does get bullied at school. I always imagined it was less bullies pushing him into lockers and stealing his lunch money (Williams ass does not give him lunch money let's be real) and more that they just treat him awful. hes either invisible or in the way and then they dont care to be super rude to him. they dont just spout their exact thought process out but they all think of him badly and view him as a big joke. its less blatant meanness and more just treating him awful in general and that's what makes Evan think its normal and that hes asking for it when its not.

#things i think evan has at least in my au:#anxiety paranoia add #he could also have gender issues later on because of how he probably doesnt have a good relationship with masculinity #im thinking nb #fredbear colors #like probably when hes a lot older #adult age like 20s #i hc #or i guess its canon because. this is my au lol #that Gregory and evan move in together when they eventually both leave home #as soon as evan turned 18 he ran to live with the fazbears until gregory moved out #and then they both either go to college together or just get an apartment together #they are friends and brothers for their whole lives later btw #until theyre old and wrinkly #i think Michael eventually would understand that he was so wrong to act that way #probably when he and evan are both grown #but its just too late. you know #some relationships just cant be salvaged #vanessa is the older sibling evan always wanted anyways #pandas.txt #pandas talks #pandas asks #thoughts #flashlight duo #flashlight duo modern au #evan and michael #afton family #evan #Michael #flashlight duo au thoughts

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eggtqrt · 3 months

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the thing about the charming siblings is i want to make them tragic. you're perfect, I wish I was perfect. you're allowed to not be perfect. I resent you for being perfect. I hate you for being imperfect. I want to be a boy. I want to be a knight. I want to be you. I could be better than you. I wish your destiny was mine. I wish people loved me the way they love you. I wish she loved me the way she loves you. I hate you, I hate you, I hate you. I love you. I miss when we were friends. we never talk anymore. do you even care? you know nothing about me. you took my destiny. who am I? I'm supposed to be the responsible one. don't leave me. get away from me. when did you grow out of being a little kid? i miss home. the only place that feels like home is you. do you love her? do you love me? brother. sister. i was supposed to protect you. I'm sorry. I forgive you. nothing will ever be the same again.

it's about perfection and performance. it's about playing roles. everyone has their role to play. what if i want to be something else, something more. it's about femininity and masculinity. it's about not fitting in to either. is it about who you're supposed to be or who you want to be? I did it for you. I didn't ask for that. I'd burn the world for you. you never cared about me. I think of you always. there isn't room enough for all of us. i wish you'd never been born at all. I couldn't live without you.

#the thing about dexter and darling is they have a lot of parallels #they both thought their love interests (raven and apple) liked daring #they both wish they were like daring (though in different ways)#neither of them have a confirmed destiny #but at the same time dexter gets to be a prince and do the things she wants to do #and i think Dexter is sort of jealous of her because as another prince he gets compared to daring more #Dexter resents his siblings for being seemingly perfect and he also resents darling for how she doesnt even have to be perfect #bc she doesnt get compared to daring in his eyes #darling does feel the need to be perfect though and resents that she can't live the life she wants but her brothers get that life #daring TO ME has a superiority complex to cover up his flaws bc hes severely scared of being imperfect #but at the same time he wishes he was allowed to be imperfect bc the pressure is killing him #hes relied on false bravado for so long that he doesn't know who is without that especially when he loses his destiny #so he resents darling for her effortless confidence in who she is #i think they all used to be super close and daring felt like the one who needed to protect his siblings #but they grew apart as they got older and started to resent each other and he lost that protective instinct #but they all miss when they were closer #i think daring realizes he was “supposed” be the one protecting his siblings once darling starts protecting/saving him #to darling its too late for him to protect her bc she can protect herself and doesnt want to be protected #to dexter though i think a part of him wishes daring stood up for and protected him more #they all desperately need to be flawless but its killing them #and they all desperately want to be each other #and they all just want their siblings back #but they can't go back to when they were children #and they can't understand each other as they are now #but they love each other anyways #even as they resent each other #eah #ever after high #ignore that i wrote 50 million more things in the tags #i realize this may be out of character or whatever but idc

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Johnny: wow kerry thought he was living in my shadow? shit. I had no idea. wow. this is news to me.

Also Johnny:

#johnny silverhand #kerry eurodyne #cp 2077 #EDIT: if you’re seeing this from the tags pls check the reblogs for some good meta courtesy merge-conflict #youre a mean girl johnny silverhand #he talks soooooo much shit and has all this nasty masculine bravado #SECOND FIDDLE!#like but why does he have to mention that. btw V I’ve never been jealous of him IN MY LIFE OK #damn johnny. did we ask? you coming in hot #the lady doth protest too much i think. i truly think he realized long ago #that kerry had the potential for musical greatness/ superstardom #and his reaction to protect his own ego is to shit on that #not maybe fully realizing that kerry was taking all that to heart and internalizing it #because he DOES sound hurt on dark matter’s roof when kerry forlornly talks about being in johnnys shadow #but its like. damn dude. too little too late.

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