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not-goldy · 6 months

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"if you were in his shoes you would have done worse" No i wouldn't. Not even a single time in my whole life i have ever ever made fun of someone cause when i was a child i was told that if you make fun of someone god will punish you and will make the same thing happen to you that you're making someone's fun of. And till this day i belive in that thing so i never once tried to make fun of someone even by calling someone short, fat, black this that. Idk about y'all but that's a very common thing in my country which is told to everyone when they're child..

i said jk WAS mean to jm implying past tense. Me liking jk has nothing to do with how he was with jm i can like him and can still acknowledge he was mean to jm but with time he matured.

I would never ever rank my friend last in looks who's very clearly insecure about his looks as people made him insecure like that. I would never ever make fun of my frnd's voice who's again clearly insecure over his voice. I could never say such things to someone who cares so much for me like i would hate myself if i ever made someone sad or made fun of them. Idk maybe it's because the family and environment that i grew up in where no one makes fun of eachother or thinks it's a bad thing.

Now you put yourself in jm's shoe and i ask you how would have you felt when the person you care so much for made fun of your insecurities. Jm was young himself at that time but yeah let's make fun of him and call it a harmonal things sure. Don't forgot to answer me what you would have felt.

Religious trauma I can relate I was told God will rain fire on me if I sodomized 🥲

Like I said, JMs feelings are valid- it's yours I'm questioning. You and our other cousins who hate JK🥲

Jungkook was thrust into all this at 13 years old💀

Wait.... since we comparing traumas I was raised by families who would show me videos of people screaming in hell images of men and women being whooped to death every sabbath as a way of explaining what will happen to me if I strayed from my Christain beliefs.

I got cut with glass every time I broke them. I got shaved as a way to punish me- my father once say my shaved head and said with that I doubt you'll ever make fun of anyone- yes, I liked giggling at everything and everyone and that was my punishment. I went a whole week without food to teach me gratitude because I failed to say grace at dinner

I get roasted for my looks my failures my dreams my desires just as a way of my family and community expressing love and affection🤭

You are so blessed if you grew up in such a healthy environment-

But imagine the rest of the world ain't really like that and Jungkook at 13 had to do a lot of his growing up on camera around strangers and people he didn't know🙃

13.

If I was 15 and a 13 year old kid made fun of me- I'd question why the fuck he or she is even in my space talking to me. He or she should sit at the kids table. I don't do babies.

My sister and her friends never played with me and always acted as if I was still in diapers when I tried to socialize with them.

I hate people that are disrespectful and would keep my distance cos that's what any self respecting teen would do 😩

And if I couldn't keep my distance I would whoop their ass on God 🥲💀

Which is exactly what Jimin said too when he was supervised by that kid to wash a plane. He said he was going to whoop them if they were in Korea.

So really he should have just whooped Jungkook and called it a day💀

He gave JK too much power over him. Hobi out there throwing bananas at him and shit😩

I would have bleached his eye brows while he slept 😴

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jeneelestrange · 5 months

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I see a lot of chronic illness people going to like, the scariest possible disgnoses without ruling shit out, which I GET BELIEVE ME because your body is screaming that it’s on fire and like two hundred years ago any of these things might have killed us but like……I’m more and more convinced a surprising amount of the time the answer boils down to a crack in the system from the fact that doctors have the least amount of training in nutrition and sussing out malabsorption/food allergies/intolerances, and even then, doing it is a BITCH and can’t be done in five minutes by throwing a pill at it, which insurance companies hate. Like, these have to be things we’re not testing or really looking into often or aren’t easy to look into.

Your heart’s fucking up? Ok, every doctor’s got a minimum of 100 hours on that. Nutrition issue? 25 hours. A lot of schools don’t even meet that and are suss on how they even count that. And don’t even get me started on nutrition RESEARCH which is the red headed stepchild and long story short there’s a long-winded reason why it feels like one year you’ll hear something like “Blueberries cause cancer!!!!” and “Blueberries cure cancer!!!!” the next and even a lot of the basics are built on pretty hnghhhhh suss shit but ANYWAY.

Think about it—if you are not absorbing a nutrient, you’re going to have symptoms that affect YOUR ENTIRE BODY. BELIEVE ME, I have confirmed four of them, and incredibly likely a fifth. Many of them cause anxiety, depression, fatigue, and believe me, it’s DEBILITATING(fyi if you look it up and have a LOT of anemia symptoms but your CBC is always normal, you may have too much folic acid for reasons I won’t get into for brevity and that hides it on the CBC—insist on a homocysteine blood test, if you have high cholesterol like just about every adult ever the doctor can use the ICD-10 code 78.00–certain countries like America also just have much lower standards for B12 for like, I don’t even know what reason even though the WHO has recommended the international standard be set to that of where Europe and Japan is at—ask me how I know all this hahaha 🙃). And if your doctor is shitty—depression, anxiety, and fatigue no matter how outrageous just gets you an SSRI consistently only.

And if you’re a fat woman and the deficiencies make you anxious and depressed? God help you. God. Help. You. They are looking for weight loss and even if they know micronutrients exist and would NOT cause that hmmmm or you could just have IBS and have depression and need to calm down, right? I could tell my GI doctor had only read the top sheet of my progress notes with the GI symptoms only and was probably like “abdominal pain lol” because unfortunately people in this office had a tendency to do that and then immediately stick their foot in their mouth. I told him I was concerned about malabsorption issues and he said, “But why? People with that are usually skin and bones.” I just paused aghast for a moment and said, “I have four vitamin deficiencies????? Three of them are different forms of anemia????? Might even have a fifth one but I’m not that interested in getting off magnesium for a month and getting full body cramps, migraines, and muscle twitches again for a blood test that isn’t very accurate.” I have never seen someone so quickly read a chart and say, “Well you’ve convinced me!!! Let’s schedule a colonoscopy!!!” and try to get out of the room.

You have to check off all the little weird shit your body is doing for the record so they can’t say they didn’t know, yes, the weird bruises that you don’t know where they come from, yes, the nosebleeds, everything. I used to be really butthurt about the diagnosis of fibromyalgia until I realized there’s very few ICD-10 codes that can be used to test for vitamin-D deficiency, so unfortunately some things are about getting us the best care in a broken system.

#chronic illness #chronic fatigue syndrome #chronic disability

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tobe-sogolden · 2 years

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Omg your tags on your last post - YES!!! I agree with every word you said!!!! I have no idea why everyone (this goes for harries, Larries, the GP) have to drag Harrys sexuality into every single thing he does!! That’s why I’m actually dreading all this MP promo and discourse. We got literally 2 pictures, a release date and an interview with the director today and I’m already about to pull my hair out if I have to read another “hot take” about Harry’s sexuality. He has said he doesn’t want to talk about it because it doesn’t matter - so that means we all should stop talking about it too!!! Let the man live!! He’s not going to sit down and give some lengthy interviews about his sexuality…it truly does not matter and doesn’t affect his acting role in this movie at all.

Honestly the Harries on Twitter who keep bringing it up are really the worst for me at this point with MP. I’ve seen so many say they can’t wait for this promo so Harry can talk about his own experiences with his sexuality and I’m like 🤔 we already know he does not want to talk about it so why would you think he’s going to start now?? I expect this ridiculousness from Larries and they are a lot easier to block and ignore. But a lot of my mutuals on Twitter are so annoying today about this and I’m ready to scream. Why can’t we just enjoy the content of him having a lead role in this movie and see how great he does in it without having to hope he gives interviews about his own sexuality (which has nothing to do with playing a role!) Why can’t we ever have 1 thing in this fandom that doesn’t get ruined in 2 seconds before the discourse starts!?! I’m so tired.

It's just so frustrating that it's a constant discourse from all sides when it's something he's said is very personal to him that he doesn't feel like sharing or discussing with the whole world. Yet it seems to always be a hyperfixation of a large part of this fandom & the gp. I understand the role/film is inevitably going to bring some of that up, but so many people choosing to only focus on that (esp. fans) is so annoying. Ik all the gp sees are the attention-grabbing headlines but fans should be better 😭 I know a ton of the fandom identifies as LGBTQ+ (and I don't really identify as straight myself but I have no idea what I would consider myself at this point bc for me sexuality is very fluid and confusing 🙃) so there's an interest/desire in Harry sharing more about his personal journey & how he identifies but like Harry is pretty consistent - if he says he doesn't want to talk about something he's almost certainly not going to talk about it. He's given the same (very valid!!!!!) answer about his sexuality for years now, idk why people act like there's more to be said and are expecting/hoping for more out of him or want to make that the main topic of conversation around the film when he would literally hate that 😭

#ask #and i thought dwd release was gonna be hell 🥴 if this is what we have to deal with for mp take me off the roster #if i have to see another l*rrie make a manip with that man's face on it 🤢#or say that it's so evident he's portraying his own experience being closeted 🔪#or see one more rancid woke twitter take #im gonna lose it

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meanderingthoughtsofthewretched · 2 months

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Back again.

Another night staying up way too late crying because am I’m trying to fall asleep my brain starts dredging up shit. I was done literally less than an hour ago, but now? Crying again and I know I won’t stop for a while unless I actively distract myself, so might as well type here.

I guess I’ll start with the big one. I was not accepted into grad school. Again. For the *third fucking year in a row*. When I first got the news I was sad, sure, but more than that I was just pissed. I tried *so fucking hard* because *no one* was helping me. I don’t know what people want, what they expect, and I’m just flailing around in the dark.

Yeah, I know the first year was my bad. In my defense, I had not clue what I was doing. I spent wayyyyy too long studying for the stupid fuckjng GRE (why the shit do they have math that I haven’t seen since 7th grade????) and not near enough time on the statement of purpose, cv, or resume. But also in my defense, I didn’t know what schools I was trying to apply for because I was *literally* told certain ones I was not allowed to go to (which I bet my dad conveniently forgot he did) and then the ones I found I was told sucked ass. By the time I was told this (because of course no one fucking told me on their own, I had to fuck up first) it was too late to apply for any of the good ones. Yes, I was someone picky, but god forbid the tiny short ass 100 pound soaking wet sheltered kid not want to go across country **by herself** with *no drivers license or car* and no experience living in an apartment. So I applied to where I could and crossed my fingers.

Obviously, that didn’t work out. Year two, I tried to go for one school only, that way I could tailor my letter better. I thought I did good, but the panic attacks I got any time o tried to work on it made it take too long, and one of my profs didn’t get their letter of recommendation in on time, this I was auto denied. Which sucks, but I understood why.

So try again! Except, the time when I could have been connecting with profs, and writing, I had to spend relearning how to drive and then actually taking the damn test. Fuck, I hated that entire experience. I was constantly anxious and panicked, crying myself to sleep most nights and struggling to hold it together in front of my parents, who were acting like it was the easiest thing in the world to do and didn’t understand why I was struggling. I had to redo everything because wow! Paperwork can expire! And when I last did all of this *two fucking years earlier* they didn’t help me, and left me to flounder. I don’t know why they thought I could magically learn how to drive a car without *being in one* but I guess it didn’t matter that much to them until it was an inconvenience and actually affected them.

Anyways, this year I don’t know why I didn’t get it. I can only guess. Was it because I only had one bio prof, and the other two were other branches? (Earlier prof who got in late decided she just… didn’t want to, and made it my problem because she also took almost a month to answer me, requiring me to find a prof that was willing to write on an incredibly short notice.) Was it because it was turned in close to the deadline? If so, why have the deadline there??? It makes no sense. And I hate that it is during winter break, because if something goes wrong you have to work your ass off to get anyone to answer you about stuff. I also couldn’t show that I was upset, or worried, because that might have made my lil sister upsetti about going back for another semester 🙃

Every single. Fucking. Time I have any problems, someone else has it worse so I have to bite my tongue to not make it worse *for them*. Especially the bean. Jesus I hate that I’m here essentially as an emotional support sister, because my parents were tired of her losing her shit at the smallest things.

And yet!!! She has her life together!! Holy fuck! She’s got a car that she likes that she is confortable driving, a boyfriend who is willing to come see her at the drop of a hat, friends who she regularly sees and hangs out with and are willing to take her places, gaming consoles that are just hers, and a place to stay that is away from parents and where she feels she can be herself. She’s got a job and an internship *paid*, like **well paid** coming up that will likely lead her to other jobs, profs that like her and have said they are willing to write her recommendations, and it’s all been handed to her on a fucking platter.

I was not allowed to learn how to drive until now, much less have a car. No significant other to see or hang with. Friends are far away and don’t bother initiating contact (I have a whole rant saved for later about that). I’ve literally never had my own console to play on, they have all been shared and eventually taken away by my siblings, much less the tv and projector she has. I feel trapped here, and watched. I was literally not allowed to have a job and now can’t do anything because the walkable things are for students only and *I don’t have a fucking car*. One of my profs straight up said she doesn’t want to bother writing for me anymore because I’m not worth it. Basically any opportunity in college was squashed thanks to COVID and me not taking a year off when I should have. And now all opportunities are limited to students so I can’t even get any more experience to try and because a student to actually move on in life. And I just??? What the fuck am I supposed to do??? All I can do is cry.

I haven’t told my dad yet, I have no idea how he will take it. He will probably get mad.

My mum actually had the gall to ask me if I actually want to get a masters. I told her yes, but in reality?? How the fuck should I know??? I was never allowed to have a damn opinion about things involving my life, why start now?? She was the one who decided my life path, hell she tried to decide that for all my siblings, and I was the only one who didn’t say no. So, no, I don’t know if I actually want this, I don’t know what I want to do at all, this is her dream. Be been so damn depressed for so long, all I want is to have a stable life.

All I want is somewhere to live with people I choose, who I don’t feel obligated to take care of, a stable job that pays decently so I can occasionally get things I like, and isn’t soul crushing, a car that gets me places safely, and the ability to breathe without being constantly stressed out.

Is that really so much to ask???

I’ll do the friend rant later, but I’m. Too tired. It took over an hour to write this and it’s just ramble at this point.

Fuck

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ukyokuonji · 10 months

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Rip, I'm screaming rn. Anon that asked me like a month ago what my name is, I thought I answered and realized I didn't and answered on mobile today and somehow lost the ask, so lmao here is both my name and a mini landing page as I am working on my current landing page!!

Quick about, byf/dni, and things to tag.

Again my landing page is a wip, should be here soon!! Mayybe under a cut who knows I'm on mobile.

About

Call me Ami or Katara!! I'm 20 (almost 21), a fat disabled queer nb woc (no being non-binary and a woman of color is not an oxymoron). I use she/they pronouns.

I'm latine and desi! I live in the US (New England lmao 😔) which like I don't think is important then I find out that some of my mutuals are canadian or british or something and I lose my mind.

Puedo hablar español pero tengo difícil escribiendo en español. Y entiendo que eso no tiene sentido porque leer en español es más fácil de leer en inglés. Pero cuando estoy escribiendo en inglés estoy pensando de las reglas de español, y en español estoy pensando con las reglas de inglés 🙃. My extent of speaking in any sort of desi language is saying hi, bye, "I don't know", "hurry up", food names, and family titles in my family's language. And even then I mess up because my cousins are all married now (and have been for years) and I'm meeting their spouses now and being told there's a word for sister's husband, I don't have to call them bhai, and yeah

[ID: A person sitting on the ground holding their face in their arms. Their eyes are closed, and their mouth is open as if screaming. End ID]

Before you follow/Do Not Interact

DNI

- General DNI criteria (racist, homophobic, transphobic, radfem/terf, misogynistic, islamophobic, anti-semitic, xenophobic, pedo apologist, incest shipper/apologist, etc.)

- If you "age up" fictional characters who are minors to write smut fics about them.

- Can't think critically about the media you consume, and think that popular pieces of media/fiction doesn't affect reality

- If you ship real people

- If you support jkr in any way, shape, or form

BYF

- Minors can follow, but would appreciate it if you're 14 or older. I say this as someone who's been on tumblr since before the age of 14, and am hoping to impart some of my wisdom onto you

- I'm super critical of all my media interests, and very vocal about pieces of media/characters I don't like! If that bothers you, don't follow!!

- I hate t*ylor sw*ft. I'm a classical musician and I actually have a lot of reasons both of just her music and how she presents herself to the public. Yeah I hate her 😘

- I don't really have a tagging system, (I'm trying but it's hard) so if you like neatness, dont follow!! Will tag trigger warnings tho!! Ask if you need something tagged.

- I try and reblog images/videos with descriptions, but that's hard and time consuming so sometimes I don't. If you see me like a post of yours and it doesn't get reblogged for like four months that's because I started writing an ID, got interrupted, and saved it as a draft and haven't had a chance to finish it.

Things to tag

- General triggers (violence, death, assault, racism, etc)

- Flashing lights

- Sharks

- Clowns

Yeah thanks!!

[ID: An edited screencap of Anakin Skywalker from Revenge of the Sith. He is in a spaceship, and his profile is visible. He has a communicator headset on, and is speaking into it with a smirk. The caption reads "This is where the fun begins." On the left side of his face is a semi-transparent behind-the-scenes photo of Hayden Christensen dressed as Anakin. His hair is messy and stuck to his forehead, his gaze is downward and dull, his lips are in a tight line. He looks defeated. End ID]

#mini info post!! dont rb!!

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jd-loves-fiction · 3 years

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hi , bub !!! ^-^ u OK ?? is everything OK ?? is everything going well ?? hopefully , it is since u literally deserve all the affection & support !! ❤️❤️❤️

will it be OK if i req in a little scenario with JJK's kugisaki with a male reader ( that's currently her bf - still , it'll totally be OK if it isn't a male reader , though !! ) that's a teen dad of 3 kids that he adopted & is perhaps even the strongest student in jujutsu high ??

stay safe & be well !! <333 ❤️❤️❤️

🌑Thank you so much🥺 things have been a little tough but y'all have gotten me thru it so thanks :) also sorry if this sucks, i struggled quite a bit🙃

𝐁𝐚𝐛𝐲𝐬𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐃𝐮𝐭𝐲 !𝐆𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐖𝐑𝐎𝐍𝐆!

❏ 𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠: kugisaki x male!reader

❏ 𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐫𝐞: fluff, angst

❏ 𝐰𝐜: 909

Sorry, can't make it today. Maybe Maki can help you out instead?

The moment you send the message, a pit of guilt seems to open up in your stomach. You’d promised Nobara that you would help her train today, but alas, your children are the priority. No matter how much it pains you to break your promise.

“Dad! Akane is crying again!” Says Kyo, the oldest of your kids, referring to her youngest sister, who can be heard crying out from the living room.

Huuuh why not? Nobara replies, as blunt as usual.

“I’ll be there in a second sweetie.” You call out before rushing to type out a response.

Kids.

“What’s wrong, honey? You hungry?” You coo to the child in your arms, squirming and wailing. “Oh boy.”

A knock on your door tears your attention away from Akane, placing her on your shoulder as you move to answer the door. “Kugisaki! Hi.” You greet sheepishly.

Nobara looks you dead in the eye, unimpressed to say the least. But her expression quickly softens upon noticing the child in your arms and hearing her cries.

She sighs, not saying a word as she takes the child from your arms, comforting her with soft whispers and back pats. “You look awful.” She comments.

“I know.” You sigh, moved a hand down your face. “Sorry for--”

“No need, I get it.”

You quiet at that, watching as your girlfriend sits on the couch, taking care of one of the lights of your life without asking for anything in return. It makes your heart stutter as an unbearably fond smile spreads across your lips, watching as Akane reaches out to a smiling Nobara.

“Stop being a creep.” She scolds you teasingly, barely holding back her own tender smile.

You move to sit beside her, only to feel your phone vibrate in your pocket with a notification, ‘Pick up Hiroto.’

“Oh sh-” Seeing Nobara’s glare makes you bite your tongue, “I gotta go pick up Hiroto from school. I hate to do this to you but can you watch them for a bit? The school’s not far.”

She blinks at you for a moment, looking down at the child in her arms, “Think I should do it?” she asks the wide-eyed baby.

“Nobara-chan--”

“Relax, I’m kidding. Just get going, don’t leave your kid waiting.” She waves her hand dismissively, smiling genuinely when you starts thanking her profusely.

The door shuts behind you, leaving Nobara alone with the children. Children? Where the hell is Akane?

The girl gets up, calling out to Akane as she walks around the small apartment.

"There you are."

"What do you want?" Akane replies grumpily, looking down at her drawing. Nobara blinks at the unexpected attitude.

"Is... Something wrong?" She tries to approach the conversation carefully. The young girl had always been polite to Nobara whenever she came over to see you, so what's up with her now?

"Nothing is wrong." The girl responds, sparing Nobara only a glance over her shoulder, revealing her frustrated pout.

"Are you having trouble with the drawing?" Nobara suggests, placing a hand on her shoulder, hoping to help, only to be shoved away. "Leave us alone!"

'Us', not 'me'. So it's something she's been bottling up, probably because of how happy her dad seems now.

Kyo starts crying again at the sudden aggression, which Nobara rushes to fix by bouncing her up and down, to no avail. Akane sighs, placing her drawing utensils aside to pick up her sister, quieting her in seconds.

As Nobara watches she tries her best do something she's really not used to, being vulnerable and understanding. She kneels by the two small girls and asks, "Why don't you like me?"

"It's not-" The girl immediately tries to deny it but thinks better of it, "It's not that I don't like you, it's that I don't know you. And I don't know if dad knows you..." she speaks sheepishly.

"Your dad knows me. We're dating."

"I know that. It's all he ever talks about." Akane admits quietly, looking down at her sock-coverer feet rubbing against the carpet.

There it is — the real reason.

"You don't like that I'm taking all of your dad's attention?" Akane doesn't answer, but her embarrassed frown is enough.

"But if I wasn't around, your dad would give you even less attention, since he'd have to take care of the three of you alone. " Nobara explains as patiently as she can.

"But I help him with that." The girl tries to reason, to get back some of her pride.

"And with me, he gets even more help. Isn't that better? Makes his life so much easier."

Akane looks down, embarrassed but realizing the girl is right. "I'm sorry."

"It's alright. Just help me with your sister and I'll forgive you." Nobara says with an air of faux superiority, smiling playfully as the girl begins to smile again.

"Hey, is the house on fire yet?" You call out as you walk in, Hiroto by your side. You walk into the living room to see Nobara, laughing along with Akane at whatever new TV show Kyo's now obsessed with.

"You're usually the one starting fires though." Akane comments with a chuckle while Nobara nods cheekily.

Although you have to lay your pride aside, your heart swells upon watching them interact.

You don't mind them making fun of you, if it means they get along like family.

#jjk nobara #nobara x reader #jujutsu kaisen nobara #nobara imagines #nobara x you #nobara x y/n #kugisaki x you #jjk kugisaki #jjk x reader #jjk #jjk oneshot #jjk fanfic #jujutsu kaisen x reader #jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu kaisen x male reader #jujutsu kaisen x y/n #jujutsu kaisen x you

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