Even Izzy, Slash and Axl Rose, when I call you put 'em all on hold…

THANKFUL - CHRIS STURNIOLO

summary: you’re bringing chris to your family’s thanksgiving dinner for the first time.

warnings: none! <3

i haven’t written a fic in foreverrrr and this is my first post on this acc, so i’m sorry if this is sloppy 😭

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“chris have you seen my- you’re shaving?!” you exclaim, well aware that you’ve been begging him to shave for about a week now and he just shrugged it off.

“stop y/n, i need to look good,” he groans, not looking away from himself in your childhood bathroom mirror.

“well i can assure you that there’s no one to impress there besides old ladies,” you joke, winking at him through the mirror, only to receive an eye roll in return.

“you look great chrissy, i promise.”

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as you two get in the car with your parents, you rest your hand on his knee and start rubbing it gently to let him know he’s gonna be okay, seeing how nervous he is. “i love you,” you whisper in his ear, making his cheeks turn light pink.

chris is well aware of how your family is structured, and knowing that he’s just some youtuber from boston who didn’t go to college makes him really nervous. on the plane ride to your parents house, he couldn’t stop telling you how nervous he was that your family wouldn’t like him, but little did he know you knew they would love him. ever since your mom met him for the first time, she couldn’t stop sharing with everyone about how much she loves him, so of course everyone begged you to bring him to thanksgiving.

“alright we’re here!” your mom exclaims and chris inhales deeply.

“chris i promise you, you’re gonna be okay.”

“i know, i just want to make the best impression i can,” he smiles faintly, taking your hand in his.

“well the only way you can do that is by being yourself,” you smile, squeezing his hand gently.

you two trail up the walkway behind your parents, walking into the house full of laughter and chatter. your moms sister spots you four walking in and gasps, taking everyone in a big hug before stopping at chris.

“you must be the one and only chris! i’ve heard so much about you! i’m susanne,” she smiles, taking chris in a hug as well.

“it’s really nice to meet you!” he smiles, watching as she begins to come over to you.

“oh my! he’s so handsome, you guys will have the cutest kids!” she ‘whispers’ well aware chris can hear her, making you and her both let out a little chuckle. after chris gets past the introductions with everyone, you realize there are a couple of people who he hasn’t met yet. as you walk over to your cousin, you tap her shoulder and ask her, “where’s julie and lily?”

“they’re upstairs, you know where to find them,” she smiles, giving you a head nod. you take chris’ hand and lead him to where your little cousins are, who you always have to babysit when it comes to the holidays.

“hi guys!” you smile, peaking your head around the door frame.

“y/n! hi!” they both exclaim, rushing over to hug you. as they do, that’s when they spot chris. both of their mouths drop, and you can instantly tell they’re shocked.

“who is this?” the youngest one, julie, shyly asks. her cheeks turn a little pink as she does so.

“this is my boyfriend chris! i’ve told you guys about him before,” you smile at chris, gently rubbing over his thumb with yours.

“hi guys, it’s nice to meet you! are these your dolls?” he questions, gesturing to the mess of barbie clothes and dolls on the floor.

“y-yeah they are! do you guys want to play with us?” lily asks.

“aw lils we’d love to but we also want to catch up with all of the adults downstairs. can we maybe play with you after dinner?”

“mhm!” lily smiles quickly going back to her game with julie. you and chris then head back downstairs, and you already notice chris is less nervous than before. after about an hour of just talking with everyone, it’s finally time for dinner. of course you grab a seat next to chris, and make sure that all the young adults are surrounding you guys at the table. your cousins boyfriend, johnny, is sat across from chris, and you already know that they’ll get along great.

“so you’re from boston right? does that make you a celtics fan?” johnny asks.

“i’m not too big on basketball, but i’ve been to plenty of celtics games. where are you from?” chris asks johnny, and you just watch in enjoyment.

“i’m from milwaukee, so of course i’m a bucks fan. but if you’re not into basketball what sports do you like?”

“well i grew up playing hockey, so im a big bruins fan,” chris smiles. the two boys keep talking for the entirety of dinner, and you just can’t let your smile go. watching chris get along with your family makes you so happy.

eventually the night ends, and nearly every old lady had pulled you aside to tell you how cute chris is, and that they love his fun energy. as you and chris get unready from dinner, chris receives a facetime call from matt. he answers it, and you quickly come running into the bathroom to say hi.

chris props his phone against the mirror as matt and nick fill the screen, “hi guys! how was your dinner?” nick asks.

“it was really good! dont you think chris?”

“mhm! y/n’s family is really great,” he smiles down at you, wrapping an arm around you as he does so.

“did you guys have a good dinner too?” he asks, watching as his brothers scavenge through the kitchen for late night snacks.

“yeah, same food as always,” nick chuckles.

“you guys aren’t mad at me for stealing chris this thanksgiving, right?” you ask.

“no not at all! there was actually food leftover for once, since chris wasn’t there to eat it all,” matt laughs, making chris flip him off.

“when do you guys leave for boston?” nick asks.

“our flight leaves at about 7:30 tomorrow, so we probably should be going to bed soon,” you state, seeing that the clock reads 11:25 pm.

“alright well goodnight guys, we’ll pick you up from the airport tomorrow. just text us updates okay?” nick says, and you and chris nod. the phone call ends, and you both climb into bed.

“did you have fun tonight? you and johnny really hit it off,” you smile at him.

“your family is really welcoming, i mean i should’ve known with how welcoming your parents are, but still,” he chuckles.

“i’m really glad you came chris. i’m really thankful for you.”

“i am too.”

Hello! First of all, I love your blog so much, you give off such warm, positive vibes :)

I wanted to ask if you would explain your head canons regarding Basti and Thorsten's sexualities a bit more? I've seen you refer to them as gay/bi respectively quite often and I would love to hear your reasonings and explanations behind that. (Not at all because I disagree, I'm just obsessed with the two of them and I think you'll have some very interesting takes on the topc!)

If you don't want to just ignore me :)

Hi! and thank you for this lovely ask, it put a really big smile on my face!! you're so kind! 😌 and OOHHHH do I have headcanons about Thorsten’s and Sebastian’s sexuality, I hope you’re ready!! 🔥 (I prefer making lists rather than writing articles, so I hope this still reads well enough)

schwuler Thorsten <3 It would be so easy to say that Thorsten is straight because he had a wife and a daughter back in Hamburg, but people who claim that aren't watching the show right. Here's why I think that a reading of him as a gay man is so so so so valid:

Susanne and Lilli: There are many ways to fit his late wife and daughter into this headcanon, so take your pick: He genuinely didn't know he was gay and started a family. He was in denial and started a family anyway. He was well aware of his homosexuality and maybe this was a mutual arrangement between him and Susanne. It was purely superficial.

(lack of) interest in women: Once Thorsten is in Stuttgart, he literally never shows any interest in any woman whatsoever (much to the dismay of his neighbour) and I do not remember him flirting with any woman ever. Also when asked about women, he literally answers, "Keine Ahnung, ich bin da kein Spezialist." A fortuneteller read his hand once and said: "Sie sind ein lebenslang Suchender. Besonders Frauen sind Ihnen ein ewiges Rätsel." and Thorsten replies, "Jetzt wird es vielleicht doch etwas zu persönlich." Hm. . . So Thorsten is sb who still hasn't found himself? And women are a mystery to him? Hm, gay. Also: Another relationship with a woman, much less so marriage, is so far off his radar that he proposed to Sebastian to start a "Alters WG".

often presumed gay: It is almost a running gag that people assume Thorsten is gay (except that the possibility of a gay Thorsten should not be the punchline). Julian Siebert in "Grabenkämpfe" assumes that Thorsten is gay. His boss while undercover in "Freigang" assumes that he's gay: "Bist du schwul oder warum sind hier keine Weiber?" Thorsten replies, "Schwul.", which the boss plays off as a joke.

casual, yet serious about queerness and other queer people: This is particularly striking in comparison to Sebastian because Thorsten seems so #woke about everything. He understands subtle and not so subtle nods and hints from other queer people but does not make a fuss about them and immediately recognizes queerness (as opposed to Sebastian): Once again "Grabenkämpfe," where Thorsten never jokes about Julian Siebert's obvious interest in him. Also in "Hart an der Grenze" Basti treats them playing a gay couple as a fun joke while Thorsten is very much not amused - and there is just sth in the way he treats the topic so seriously that makes it seem as if it real to him. In "Anne und der Tod" they interrogate clients and stand in front of an old man who has pictures of him and another man on his shelf and wall, and while Sebastian very innocently asks whether that's his brother or son, Thorsten's behavior suggests that he caught on instantly that the old man is in fact gay and that those are photos of him and his late partner.

actively against homophobia: When an old man makes a homophobic remark at him and Sebastian, he immediately grabs Sebastians hand to make that man uncomfortable and as a big fuck you and a way of saying, "Yeah people are queer, get over it, old man!!"

never denying, never clarifying: As much as men flirt with him or people assume he's gay, Thorsten never denies it and never clarifies that he is, in fact, heterosexual. Never! Best example is (once again) "Grabenkämpfe" when his neighbour spots Thorsten at a gay bar with another man and says that at least now she knows why he didn't have time for her - and Thorsten does not get defensive and screams sth like, "I'm not gay, I'm here for a case!", he just lets it slide. And remember when the Freigang boss derogatorily asked Thorsten whether he's gay but then later it seems that Thorsten had sex with a woman, to which the boss replies "Na egal, bin ja froh, dass du nicht schwul bist."? Thorsten once again does not outright say, "Genau, bin ich nicht." but instead replies, "Ich weiß." and looks sad and angry at this blatant portrayal of homophobia.

love confession: In "Die Nacht der Kommissare" Thorsten confesses his love to Sebastian while on drugs with a loud and clear "Sebastian? Ich liebe dich." He continues to confess his love to other men in that episode, but this "Ich liebe dich" feels very different, very sincere and from the heart. I like to read this scene as both a platonic and a romantic love confession.

There is probably so much more, but this is just from the top of my head. Moving on!

bi Basti <3 Sebastian is bi because it Just. Makes. Sense.!!!!!

the rise and fall of the Bootz family: I need to start with Julia and the kids because Sebastian is introduced as a happy, young family man who has basically achieved everything, both in his private life and career. His life as a husband and father is basically too perfect when we meet him, and of course it does crumble more and more into pieces with every new episode. We soon see tension in his and Julia's marriage, ultimately leading to their divorce and Sebastian's never-talked-about problem with alcohol and his separation anxiety. I encourage everyone to watch all the eps until "Spiel auf Zeit" as if Sebastian is falling out of love with Julia and in love with Thorsten (. . .is it possible to love two people at once? Good question, Sebastian).

Felix Klare supremacy: Even Felix Klare himself thought that Tatort was lacking diversity in terms of presentation of women and gay people back in 2013 and he advocated for becoming the first gay Tatort duo. Aber Richy wollte nicht. Tja.

bi in another universe: In "Tödliche Tarnung" we learn that Sebastian and Julia were once close to breaking up and Basti wonders how different his life could have been: "Julia, hast du dir schon mal überlegt, wie unser Leben verlaufen wäre, wenn, naja, wenn wir uns damals getrennt hätten?" Cue "Scherbenhaufen": When he is about to go undercover, he has to come up with a backstory for his character. And what does he do? Completely remove a wife and kids out of the picture and then says, "Ehrlich gesagt, ich hab sie dann mit meinem besten Freund betrogen." Kinda bi to make up a scenario in which he gets to be with Thorsten instead of Julia, if you ask me. And he looks so happy about it, too.

weird about queerness: Sebastian has always been weird about political correctness, and to me this reads as a defense mechanism, as a way to distance himself from queerness and treat it as sth "not concerning me". And yes, I do headcanon Basti as having serious internalized homophobia, why do you ask? I have yet to form proper thoughts about Basti's uncharacteristic compassion towards the gay man who has just lost his lover in "Vergebung", it feels so personally affected. What we can nevertheless witness, though, is some personal growth in that Sebastian is more comfortable with and knowledgable about queerness.

heteronormative worldview / hetcomp: Sebastian literally doesn't know that bisexuality exists. When he hears of married men (yes, there have been three such storylines. . . THREE!!!!) who had a secret lover on the side, he always assumes they were gay and never once considers bisexuality. Looping back to the Bootz marriage&divorce as well as the countless "secretly gay married men" trope, Basti is literally describing his life in "Vergebung" without acknowledging the parallels.

flirting with Thorsten: Of course, any straight man can flirt with his friends, but the way Sebastian does it is so "haha just joking!!! . . . unless 👀"-coded. First the pretend gay couple at the adoption agency, then another pretend gay couple in the waiting room, then the queer undercover persona plot twist. And look how flustered he gets when he gets flirted with.

honorable mentions: bi lighting, bi sitting, bi bi bi music.

Again, there is most definitely more and everyone is free to add on to my thoughts! 😌✌️

bonus: Are Thorsten and Sebastian in love? 👀 Yes, and as of February 2024 there are 32 episodes to prove it. Thank you for reading! 🫶

Meet Aether Beyond the Binary Contributor S. J. Ralston

We’re entering the final week of the Kickstarter campaign for Aether Beyond the Binary, an anthology of 17 aetherpunk stories starring characters outside the gender binary, and we’re still going strong! As I write this, we’re $3,700 shy of our goal – an amount we definitely can raise, but the more help we get spreading the words about this project, the more people will know it exists, and truly that’s the single biggest barrier to hitting our goals: effectively spread the words. So, if you believe in this project, whether you’re a backer or not, we’d really appreciate you taking a moment to share/reblog/retoot/reskeet our posts about it!

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About S. J.: S. J. grew up in a distinctly weird, distinctly southern hometown, then hied out West for grad school before landing in Texas, where they currently work as a planetary scientist. They’ve been writing original works and fanfiction since they could hold a pencil semi-correctly, and continue to write both whenever possible (as well as still holding a pencil only semi-correctly). In their clearly copious spare time, S. J. enjoys hiking, tabletop RPGs, jigsaw puzzles, and enthusiastically crappy sci-fi.

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This is S. J.’s first time writing with Duck Prints Press. You can read another example of their writing by visiting their website to check out Anglerfish, a horror sci-fi story. 

An Interview with S. J. Ralston

How did you pick the name you create under?

It’s a line from the opening of the Aeneid that’s stuck with me ever since AP Latin in high school: “On account of the mindful wrath of cruel Juno.” It’s a synchesis, where the adjectives have been swapped from where you expect them to be; it’s Juno who is mindful and her wrath that is cruel, but rearranging them in such a way elegantly implies the relentless, vindictive onslaught that is to follow.

What do you consider to be your strengths as a creator?

Dialogue and dread.

What do the phrases “writer’s block” or “art block” mean to you?

The state of wanting to create but not having the intellectual raw materials to do it.

Are you a pantser, a planner, or a planster? What’s your process look like?

I would consider myself a plantser. Typically I start with an IDEA, writ large, center of the page. Then some key scenes will populate around it–dramatic moments, fun bits of dialogue, cool setpieces. At that point I get out my corkboard and red string and start trying to piece everything together, and if I’m lucky, the shape of the story will reveal itself to me. Sometimes it’s the classic parabola of rising and falling action, other times it’s been a ring, a tri-fold posterboard, a descending spiral, or a series of concentric circles. Then I fill in until the structure is complete and hope like hell that I can stick the landing.

What are your favorite tropes?

Found Family, Robots With Feelings, Enemies To Lovers, Destructive Romance, Kirk Summation/The Man In The Room

What are your favorite character archetypes?

Brooding Loner Secretly Just Lonely, Lying For Fun And Profit, Badass With An Obvious Dump Stat, Too Old For This Shit, Taciturn But Bizarre, Himbo

Do you like having background noise when you create? What do you listen to? Does it vary depending on the project, and if so, how?

I make a playlist for almost everything I write that’s longer than a few thousand words. Sometimes it’s for listening to while I’m creating (in that case, it has to be primarily instrumentals or I’ll get distracted), and sometimes it’s just for daydreaming to (in which case, the vibes must be correct, so I can construct AMV’s in my head).

Share five of your favorite books. (You can include why, if you want!)

Feet of Clay by Terry Pratchett – Eerie, funny, and poignant in equal measure; a police procedural done right.

Piranesi by Susanna Clarke – Lush with joy, curiosity, and love, yet still remarkably dark, with an ending that will nestle in your brain forever.

Artemis Fowl: The Opal Deception by Eoin Colfer – Fourth in the series and the absolute pinnacle thereof. A master-class in shit hitting the fan. 

Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation by Mo Xiang Tong Xiu – Everyone, down to the most momentary background character, behaves more like *people* than any I’ve ever read before and it’s *disastrous* and I *love* it.

The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde by Robert Louis Stevenson – The classic of classics. The horror of horrors. The transgenderism of it all.

What are your goals as a creator? 

(1) To write something that’s better on the second read-through than it was on the first, and (2) To write something that stays with the reader.

What’s the best advice you’ve ever received?

When you finish a first draft and you *know* you’ve got something really good, put it down. For a month, six months, a year; until the glow fades, or you’ve fallen in love with whatever you’re writing next. Then come back and re-read that first draft. Take extensive notes, diagram the plot, profile the characters. Notice the holes, redundancies, missed opportunities, and inconsistencies. Then open up a blank document and *start over.*

S. J.’s Contribution to Aether Beyond the Binary

Title: Razzmatazz

Tags: bipoc, body horror, butch, character injury (non-graphic descriptions), classism, dehumanization, eye horror, horror, humans are the villains, mechanic, minor character death, misogyny, murder (accidental), non-binary, non-human character, past tense, sentient construct (magical), third person limited pov

Excerpt: 

The thing was damn near unrecognizable, not just as Marilyn Monroe, but as human. People had tweaked the proportions through the years—amateur artists who couldn’t put down the paintbrush. That kind of thing was bad enough on paper, but seeing it in person made Skipper’s butthole clench.

The dress and the curls were Monroe. The rest was something else.

“Shit my ass off,” Skipper said under his breath.

“Yeah,” said Charlie.

“This gets up and walks around?”

“She does.”

“Shit my ass off.”

Maybe it was a trick of the light, a too-heavy head on a too-thin neck, but the Monroe wasn’t staring across the aisle like the others. It seemed to be looking down at Skipper. It put out waves of dare-you-to-start-some-shit energy.

“Is it because they messed with the proportions?”

“Huh?” said Skipper, pulling out of the Monroe’s tractor beam.

“The reason she moves around so much. Could it be because of…” Charlie gestured to its whole body.

“Hell, maybe,” said Skipper.

The Monroe loomed like a landslide, just waiting for the rain. Skipper had a hammer on his belt. He felt like the Monroe was staring at it. If he broke the case, what then? 

i remember in a article Zawe did in 2016 she just came out of a relationship and she didn't want to talk about the break up of her and then former boyfriend. Tom has been been dating alot between 2008 and 2016 : Susanne Fielding, Kat Dennings, Lara Pulver.. all three actresses , Jane Arthur a journalist all 4 at different times between 2008 and 2012 and with Elizabeth Olsen in 2014 and TS in 2016 . Which is making me think Zawe who had break up in 2016 with then boyfriend and so did Tom had his break up with TS .. then he having a crush on Zawe then why didn't he swoop in straight away after they broke up with other people in 2016 and wait two years because she was still working on the ind circuit before Tolstoy Dickens debate and so called ' they met at events over the years '

What? Can you link me the 2016 article where she supposedly says this?

Because my understanding is that she and her bf broke up at some point in 2017, then she quit acting and moved to Margate.

Idk where you’re getting the crush thing from. I never said that.

I wrote this as a part of my advent calendar fics, I hope you like it!

It is a Bradley ‘Rooster’ Bradshaw x gn!reader imagine.

Thank you @marvelandotherfandomimagines for proofreading!

Day 22: office Christmas party

Warnings: you’re working an office job in this one, if you don’t have one regard this as an AU 😉

You definitely weren’t a fan of forced social gatherings, even though you didn’t mind the people at your office.

They were actually kind, but like with all the people at a work environment you hadn’t chosen to be close to them, fate had just thrown them upon you.

While you liked some of them enough to regularly talk to them you weren’t exactly sure if you wanted to call them your friends, so any kind of social interaction outside of your workspace felt awkward to you.

That was why you didn’t look forward to the Christmas parties that came around every year, though that particular Christmas you didn’t mind as much.

Your boyfriend would be going with you for the first time, and you knew that wherever Bradley went everyone else had a great time as well.

You were excited for him to be there even though you didn’t particularly enjoy going, you were just glad that he came along.

You had dressed up for the occasion and Bradley was wearing something nicer as well.

Even though he didn’t like dressing fancier, he wore black trousers and a Christmas themed button up, a welcome contrast to the Hawaiian shirts he wore usually.

You were happy to take him with you and your hand immediately wrapped around his as you entered the site they had rented for the evening: a nice small floor with tables of food and drinks stacked around the walls and a makeshift dance floor in the middle of the room.

Bradley chuckled at the small mess this Christmas party seemed to be and you were about to say something when some of your coworkers and their spouses approached you.

“So this is the hunky Navy man you’ve been withholding from us for so long?” Your coworker Susanne asked, and gave you a glass of champagne that you almost dropped at what she said to you.

You did an awkward movement in trying to keep your glass from toppling out of your grasp and Bradley did nothing but watch you, with raised eyebrows and an internal snicker you could hear even though he didn’t actively voice it.

Once you had your beverage under control again you opted for an awkward laugh and a nod, trying to diffuse the situation.

“This is Bradley, he’s a Naval aviator,” you answered her, and a broad bashful smile rushed over Bradley’s face.

“Bradley ‘Rooster’ Bradshaw,” he introduced himself, shaking a few hands and receiving a glass from Susanne’s husband.

“You didn’t tell us he was this attractive, or I would have made you bring him to work often,” Susanne shamelessly flirted with your boyfriend, and you felt a tinge of annoyance run through you.

Bradley knew exactly how you were feeling without even looking at you, setting one hand at the small of your back and smiling away through the pain that conversation caused you.

“Oh I have a tight work schedule, but for you I’d have made it fit in,” Bradley winked at her shamelessly and you had to hold yourself back from laughing.

It was a strategy Bradley used often, because older ladies had the tendency to hit on him.

Bradley liked to flirt back ruthlessly, because they’d usually grow flustered and move on.

It had made you break out into fits of laughter often but this time you had a satisfied grin on your face as Susanne grew red as a beetroot and looked at her husband, downing her drink and asking him to accompany her to get a new one.

Once she had left Laurie embraced you quickly, chuckling as she pulled away.

“Suzie had looked too deeply into her glass even when I got here, and I was perfectly on time,” she laughed, and you joined her in it.

She did well in shifting the topic of conversation somewhere less awkward and the group of you casually chatted along, while Bradley kept his hand possessively at your side.

It made you feel good knowing he wanted to keep in contact with you even though you weren’t talking to each other, and you stood just a bit straighter because of it.

The evening went well despite a few more slip-ups by some more drunken coworkers, and Bradley escorted you to the car afterwards.

The drive was silent for the first few minutes as you awkwardly fiddled with your hands, the beginning of the party vividly running through your mind.

“For the record, I never said you were hunky,” you spoke up, and you saw and heard Bradley snort as you looked over at him.

The light of the street barely lit up his features, but you could still see how amused and how fundamentally pleased he was.

“That’s the first thing that comes to your mind when you think of me, though, don’t be shy to admit it,” he joked, and intertwined the fingers of the hand he wasn’t using to drive with yours.

You had to laugh too, and felt like despite Susanne the office Christmas party had been a full blown success.

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2023 Recap

Tagged by @astonishinglysane - thank you!! <3 <3 <3

I didn't get around to a lot of "new to me" things but I'll do my best. I dropped the ball on my #media consumption posts because my year was bonkers from Dec '22 to Dec '23. Tagging: @sharky857 @problemwithtrouble @pokemonandcatsmostly et al.

Top Films:

Tetris - legit obsessed with this heightened reality

Oppenheimer (2023) - I have my beef with it but it was still pretty great

Pacific Rim (2013) - rewatched this film every day of the week of it's 10th anniversary - so much fun!

Unbearable Weight of Massive Talent 2022 - ridiculous in the best way

Top TV Series:

Succession 2018 - 2023 - so fucked up

Endeavour - the final season - I was very impressed

Magpie Murders 2022 - new comfort show!

Colditz 1972 - still working my way through season 1

Queen Charlotte has been a lot of fun

Top Books:

I hardly read anything this year. I got home from work and I was a wet rag. I mainly just read some Arthur Conan Doyle Sherlock Holmes stories and stopped reading after October. If I read anything all the way through this year other than fanfiction I've forgotten.

A Study in Scarlet 1887

A Sign of Four 1890

A Scandal in Bohemia 1892

The Adventure of the Red-Headed League 1892

A Case of Identity 1892

Favorite Song:

"The Competition" - Kimya Dawson

but also "If You Want Me" ft. Susanne Sundfør - Röyksopp

Favorite Quote:

"I'm a ghost that everyone can see." - Franz Wright, from The Beforelife: Poems; “Empty Stage”

runner up:

“You wanna know what survivors of narcissistic relationships want? They want normal. That’s it. Just normal. You may be thinking ‘oh come on now; what really is normal in a family or even in an intimate close relationship?’. I can tell you what normal is not. It is not normal to grow up hating yourself, or wondering why you aren’t enough. Or for a child to believe that they are responsible for their parents’ feelings. Or that a child that just wants to be seen and heard and loved for who they are is being a needy brat. It is not normal to be in relationship where you walk on eggshells and feel crazy, and feel that the only way to get your needs met is to give in on everything. It is not normal to hold back on saying something for fear of being shouted down or gaslighted. It’s not normal to watch a parent being manipulated and devalued and broken down by your other parent. None of this is normal. Normal, if I were to speculate, is feeling safe, feeling that you are worth at least being listened to. Normal is respect. Normal is empathy. Normal is being able to say what you need and maybe the other person can’t or won’t meet it, but they do not shut you down and tell you that you are selfish or greedy for wanting something basic. Normal is being able to have a normal disagreement where everything is not personalized and you’re attacked for just not getting into line with the other person. Normal is people getting along and collaborating and not just one person holding court. But folks, normal, that’s all survivors of narcissistic relationships want. And it is not grandiose to want normal.”

-Dr. Ramani (her video about what survivors of narcissistic relationships crave)

Welcome home kisses from the touches prompt list!

Hi Mo! ✨

Thank you for asking! This sent me in a flurry, I won’t lie. Meaning: I had three different ideas, half wrote two, and eventually decided with the angstiest one. Also because Alyra is one I write less so she needs more affection.

And nothing, some shenanigans post Fort Drakon, playing Denerim as a Mahariel is just… Nasty. If you’re romancing Alistair it’s the first place where you see the cracks. I hope you’ll enjoy! 😊

Tis the prompt list

The Only Possible Choice.

[ Dragon Age: Origins, post “Captured!”, Warden and Alistair runs on their own | Female Mahariel x Morrigan – hints of Female Mahariel x Alistair -go poly or go home | 3333 words ]

Kisses – 11. welcome home kisses

Did you ever feel your heart stopping? Did you ever feel like a moth drawn to a flame? It's time to put on your lifejacket 'Cause I'm about to step up the game, oh - Kamikaze, Susanne Sundfør

She was absolutely furious. Seething with rage and a thousand “I told you so”.

Because oh, she had told them it would have ended up like that. They just had to spent a night in Fort Drakon, lose most of their armours and weapons and tools and escape through the skin of their teeth. Better than she would have thought, which was a quick execution and their bodies thrown to the pigs to get rid of the evidence. She would have done it, but Loghain was apparently slower than she would have been. A meagre consolation.

Anora was a royal bitch, and she tricked them. Almost jeopardized not only that mission, but the fucking war. And Alistair had the guts of saying she should calm down, that they had to rescue her.

Had to.

For all Alyra cared, she could have rotten in a cell and freed them of another arrow in her father’s quiver.

For all her silver tongue, she didn’t know how to explain to the Landsmeet having escaped from Fort Drakon without looking like a savage who cared not for their laws and rules and could easily decide to jump over them.

And all around her people told her to stay calm and get to better counsels and speak with the Queen.

Creators, she would speak with the bitch to curse her thrice before killing her. Her father could watch.

What angered her the most was that Alistair took the side of the asshole he called uncle, in treating her like she was but an unruly child who understood badly the rules this world followed.

It didn’t cost him so much thought to leave command fully to the unruly child that didn’t know the rules. And he had the audacity to ask her not to be angry at him.

He had paid her very little attention in the last weeks since they arrived in Denerim, looked only at his uncle, shadowed him like a lost duckling who finally found his. He left her explore the city, investigate, move to gain them support all on her own, facing the Alienage and the merry band of slavers hidden between with just Zevran, Leliana and Morrigan at her side. Saving Anora had been the first task he didn’t invent excuses not to participate, and that was the one task Alyra didn’t want to pull through.

What was worse was that she was right. Dalish and all, not knowing the rules fully, but she had been right. Anora sold them both off to save her own filthy skin, and now they had to pay the consequences.

And Alistair told her to stay calm, that she had no reason getting angry, she would have done the same and she knew it. She was overreacting, and he defended his uncle against her.

His uncle who made him sleep with the dogs. His uncle who threw him away to the Templars when his new wife asked him to.

She told him things she didn’t want to tell him, and retreated in her room. Kicked Stan out of it, because she really didn’t want to put up with anyone, this evening.

She just wanted to take off the accursed boots and nasty clothes she donned, jump in a bath to scrub the prison and the feeling of wearing someone else’s dirty clothes, and retaliate redecorating the room with her knives. Those curtains were ugly.

She managed up to the bath, scrubbing herself raw with a piece of soap and a rag, until her skin reddened and felt sensible, cleaned and combed her hair carefully.

As she was still combing her hair with a finer comb and finally starting to relax minutely with the gesture, someone knocked on her door.

Alyra huffed and ignored it. She was dressed but in a robe, humans and Andrastians were bashful about being undress, and she just wanted to be left alone. It was almost a year since she had left the clan and started to solve other people’s problems, they could leave her an evening of quiet and sulking in peace.

Apparently, they really couldn’t.

Knock knock knock.

It grew more insisting. Alyra ignored it again, hopping on her feet and heading to the desk, as her fingers worked to braid red locks sprouting over her left ear.

Knock knock knock knock knock knock.

The mysterious pesterer sped the rhythm up, growing more frantical at each hit on the wood.

“Coming.” She groaned aloud, understanding that she wouldn’t have gotten rid of anyone there without being vocal about it.

Whatever anger she lost in the bathtub and doing her hair was instantly gained all over again. And with some extra at the idea that out there was Alistair, wishing to continue any further with the shitshow of blaming the other. Which was probably the last thing she wanted to do, right there and then. She clenched her hand on the handle and opened the door to the corridor abruptly, sneering at whomever was there.

“I hope it’s important.”

She hissed, before fully realizing who was on the other side exactly.

She met with Morrigan, hand still raised in gesture and looking at her with a weird expression on her face. One Alyra had never seen her sporting.

Considering she was alone, she didn’t want her there either: she tried, and tried and tried to flirt and get somewhere with her, but to no avail. If whatever they may have was friendship and companionship, she could accept it and gladly so… but not now.

Now, she stood there, looking at her like one would a mythological creature. A manticore ready to bite. She said nothing.

And because it was Morrigan, Alyra took a deep breath and spoke first.

“I am sorry. But if it’s not important, I am tired.”

“Tis important enough.” Morrigan answered, in that serious briskness that admitted just a yes.

Alyra moved to leave her space enough to enter her room. Closed the door all over again, knowing that whatever she wanted to tell her wasn’t something either of them would have liked to share with the first scullery maid that walked their way. She stayed on the door, leaving the other woman space. Not that she personally liked the space, not with her. But she knew cornering the other wouldn’t have led to good results, as it never did before save having her recoil on herself and get further away. Plus, it wasn’t the moment to stoke on whatever tension was going on between them. It really wasn’t the moment.

She leant on the door and started to absent-mindedly braid her hair and pretending she wasn’t aware of her guest pacing in the room with a frustrated gait.

“Why did you do it?” Morrigan asked, and she was angry about it, tho she tried to contain it.

“I did a lot of things, you need to be more specific.” She ended one little braid over her left ear and picked three locks from above the right one, getting back to work.

“You escaped from the prison without waiting for help. Do you realise how-”

“Yes, Morrigan, I do realize that was a risky endeavour that could have gotten us in even more troubles than what we already were in.” she interrupted her, letting irritation seep into her voice.

She didn’t want to take it out on her, she knew the other was just worried, but she had had the same argument with Eamon and she wasn’t keen in losing even more time discussing over something that couldn’t be changed.

“After careful considerations on my part, I realised that the only way to get out of that prison, seen the current political situation, was to escape from it. It worked, we’re both here, I already was made present it was a stupid move, as if asking Loghain to please release the Wardens he’s been hunting down for a year wasn’t even more stupid.” She explained, finishing the second braid and picking other three locks above the first. She used them to form a third braid, with another plain lock, and adding hair to each section at each crossing. “I already lost enough time over this argument, if that’s all you needed to tell me, Eamon beat you to it and I won’t listen to the same thing twice.”

They glared at each other for a minute, no one ready to lower their eyes first. Alyra stopped blinking, even, to show resolve. If that move was enough to destabilize most people, it wasn’t enough for Morrigan. It never had been, and the other just snorted at her as soon as she realize what she was doing, unimpressed. The witch stepped towards her, glaring more.

“You don’t understand. There’s more at stake than you think, you cannot do these things.”

“More at stake than I think?” Alyra hissed, letting the finished braid down with a vengeance. “Oh, you mean more than Ferelden falling into a full scale civil war, that will just be stopped by the fucking zombie invasion and rabid dragon we didn’t stop? You mean more than the Blight crawling across the Frostback and taking the world unprepared? More than that? I am sorry I didn’t consider it, in my humble and limited knowledge of the world. You was so less sheltered than I was.”

That hit her. That hit her low, and the worse thing was that Alyra knew it would have. She looked at her with fury, now, fire blazing from her golden eyes. She wanted to kiss her, bad. They got close in the argument. Too close, the witch was standing but a step in front of her, chest heaving as she got her breath back.

“You don’t understand.” Morrigan just told her.

“Help me, then.” Alyra prodded. “What am I missing?”

She shifted forward at that, not pressing directly into the other, not touching, but getting closer, and not leaving her eyes from hers.  She heard the mage catch her breath, saw her eyes fall down on her lips, on the cleavage that her robe let peek out.

Morrigan groaned, frustrated, and turned her back at her, stepping back into the room. As Alyra knew she would have had. It wasn’t surprising. It wasn’t exactly the first time she pulled a similar stunt, getting closer and waiting for the other to decide whether to step forward or back, waiting for consent. And every time it ended like that. She looked down, there and then, and stepped to the other side of the room, leaning over the desk and shuffling the papers on it. Notes, schemes and maps, summaries of books she had taken from the library in the estate, trying to get a quick grip on Fereldan politics and how a Landsmeet even worked without relying on Eamon or his idiot of a brother too much.

Going on with her evening as if Morrigan wasn’t there.

She had shared the room with her since they arrived, after all, it wasn’t anything strange. The difference was that they were both in a mood, right now, both too stubborn to step out of it.

Alyra considered asking her to please find another place to sleep, tonight. Or to go herself to crack in Leliana’s room. There was just a certain amount of rejection she could stomach, for a day, and she needed to get a grip on herself and set her life back on track. If with the mage currently pacing back and forth in front of the fireplace, hugging herself somewhat protectively, all that ever would be was a friendship, a too-close one at that, that was fine. But she needed at least one night of peace to set her mind to it.

In any case, she needed warmer clothes on. She huffed in disappointment, as another shiver ran down her spine, reminding her that she was underdressed for the weather and those large rooms were impossible to warm up properly.

Her notes got collected in one neat pile she tapped thrice on the desk, and left down on it, caring for the bottom to be parallel to the edge of the table. And then she moved, still ignoring her roommate. She could stare at the fire all she wanted, Alyra didn’t care. Maybe the fire knew what she was missing.

She made it to the dresser and to open a drawer, before Morrigan spoke again.

“There is one thing I cannot tell you.”

Every word fell out of her lips like a stone sinking in a clear pond, heavy and slow.

“You don’t trust me.” Alyra concluded. It stung, quite a lot.

“Tis not that.”

“What is it, then?” She picked up her clothes, choosing with a calm she didn’t feel. Honestly, she was tired and she just wished everyone would leave her alone.

She didn’t look at the other, walking to the screen to get changed. At least the floor was protected by carpets, so walking barefoot wasn’t that unpleasant. But she didn’t make it to the screen.

Morrigan caught her arm, and she reacted by instinct. She pulled her arm back and pivoted on it, to get free and away. As skilled as a mage that she was, physically she was no match: in a moment, Alyra was free and facing the other, and a safe three steps away, instinctively in a fighting stance with bent knees, ready to jump.

“I didn’t tell you because you wouldn’t have believed me, or you would have gone away, or sent me away. I couldn’t risk it at first. And then… Things got complicated.”

“Complicated.”

“Yes.” She frowned harder, cheeks taking some colour. “I… I will tell you. But not now.”

“Are you going to stab me in the back?”

“On the contrary. Not any more than you did escaping on your own.”

Alyra snorted again, not understanding what even was the point of that conversation. Why she couldn’t tell her… Whatever it was that she was keeping secret. She glared at her, rage renewed past disappointment and rejection.

“What do you want, Morrigan?” She straightened her back, and even if at full height she couldn’t reach her, she put all her dignity up. “I’m out of my patience, if you want to tell me I’m a traitor because I am here, you can go gossip about me with Wynne, Eamon and Alistair, finally there’s one thing you can all agree upon.”

She turned her back and went again to the screen, not hunching down, minding her steps to be as elegant and dignified as she can. Not let her think she hurt you. Never that.

But it served her nothing: her arm was grabbed again, more forcefully this time. When Alyra again tried to set herself free, tho, Morrigan was ready. As soon as she turned to face the other woman, her other arm was equally grabbed, and she was pushed back, taking advantage of the turning to set her out of balance and surprised.

Her back was on the stone of the wall in moments, and Morrigan was there, close as ever, glaring at her.

“Thou worried me. I fear they’ll come and get thee and thou’ll get justiced without a sentence, this time. That was such a stupid thing to do, and I believed thou were more intelligent than that.”

“That was the only possible choice.”

“We were organizing a rescue party. Leliana and I-”

“No.”

Mahariel snapped her hands forward at that. The very idea she was just proposed made her blood boil. Knowing that Morrigan of all people was acting on it… She closed her fingers on the witch’s arms and pushed, hooking an ankle behind hers to make her loose balance and have her way more easily. It was fairly easy, then, to turn their positions around and have Morrigan pressed upon the wall, with her pinning her in position. She stepped even forward, keeping her blocked by pressing her hips on hers. She glared at few centimetres from her face.

“I already let one person I loved die for my sake. I couldn’t save Tamlen, but I’ll be dead before I’ll let the same happen to you, you understand?” She snapped. “Not waiting for you to enter Fort Drakon to get me out was the only possible choice.”

She declared, and they were there. Chest to chest, breathing heavily. Morrigan smelled of smoke and firewood and pines. And her expression had grown harsher at her words. Alyra didn’t care. But Alyra, maybe, wasn’t as intelligent as she was considered. She shifted her head slightly forward towards the other’s, stopping a breath away from Morrigan’s lips. She wanted consent, and she wouldn’t move any further.

“Why don’t you ever kiss me?” Morrigan asked, turning crimson at the question but stubbornly refusing to shy away.

“You don’t kiss me either.” She pointed out, ghosting her lips over the other’s, encouraged by how she wasn’t trying to move away, this time. It would have hurt more when the mage would have eventually pulled away, but she didn’t care, right now. All she cared about was that she was there, her presence and her smell comforting, and she wanted that consent. So bad. “Why were you worried?”

“I-” The Witch swallowed, breath catching and chin lifting up, following the other for a moment. “-The idiot…”

“Alistair knows.” She told her. “I told him we wouldn’t have been exclusives from the start. And besides, he doesn’t want me, these days.”

It stung, but it stung a little less, right there and then, pressed snugly against Morrigan, her lips so, so close. She held on, but she was moments away from begging.

“He’s a fool.”

“Do you want me?” Alyra cut her short. Alistair was right now the last person she wanted to think about.

Well, one of the last ones.

But she observed Morrigan biting her lower lip, and it just made her want to kiss it better so, so bad. But no. Consent. The last distance was for the other to fill. She cajoled and manipulated her way through Ferelden, but she would never do the same in a bedroom. Particularly with Morrigan, who had been her friend and the one that didn’t mind the cajoling and manipulations and daggers. She was pinning her in place, but not trapping her. Never that. She felt trapped for most of her life to know what it felt like.

“I wanted to welcome you home.” Morrigan admitted, finally, as it was a challenge.

“I’m right here.” Alyra challenged her back, taking her for measure. As she did for the start. As they both did with the other from the very beginning.

Morrigan huffed from her nose, in frustration, and surged forward, pressing her lips on hers.

Alyra would have whined, had she less self-control than she had. Months and months of waiting, and finally that was it.

She kissed her back, pushing her head against the wall and titling her own for a better reach. She tasted like smoke and like the woods and her hands were clumsy on her face. She raised hers to cup the others and redirect them on her cheeks, placing her better. For all her sharp tongue, it was clear she wasn’t that experienced, if any at all.

After a while, they both parted to gasp for air, breathing heavily, some of the frustration and anger disappeared. She never looked so good, Alyra thought, and wonder how much better could she exactly looked if she just could manage to kiss her longer harder, until her lips grew red and swollen, how much more her hair would get ruffled with enough fingers through it.

“Welcome home.”

Morrigan said, and Alyra took another kiss in all answer.

A whine escaped Morrigan’s lips as she gently bit her lower lip, hands slipping on the small of her back to press her flush against her, and that was how she knew that she won the hunt.

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Joe Jury - Satellites 12:55 Eelke Kleijn - The Big Chill (Original Mix) 12:52 Sans Souci - Fenton 12:50 Hbz, Anna Grey & Agent Zed - Aloha Hey 12:44 Max Denoise Feat Claire Willis - Bring To Me Life (Original Mix) 12:40 Chicane - Capricorn (Back Pedal Brakes Remix) 12:34 Hird - Getting Closer 12:31 Neptune & Moonnight - I Need A New Love (Original Mix) 12:26 Wave Wave Feat. Evie - Real 12:22 Ohm-g - Hulectric Soul 12:19 Vize & Alan Walker Feat. Leony, Edward Artemyev - Space Melody (Edward Artemyev) 12:15 Armin Van Buuren & Avira - Illusion (Mixed) 12:08 Hraach - Delirio 12:04 Ec Twins, Oda Loves You - Wonderful Life 12:01 Lost Frequencies & Elley Duhé - Back To You 11:53 David Broaders - Curracloe 11:50 L'imperatrice - Peur Des Filles (Montmartre Remix) 11:44 Consolidation Feat. Moguai - Ode To Joy 11:39 Phil Mison - Just Landed 11:34 Blank & Jones Feat. Zoe Durrant - One Evening (Lofi Selection) 11:28 Afterlife - Makes Me Feel 11:25 Nora En Pure - World Of Rules 11:21 Lucas Estrada & Henri Purnell & Neimy - In My Fantasy 11:15 Bent - I Love My Man 11:08 Julian Wassermann - People 11:05 Nora Van Elken - Okinawa 11:01 Gary B. - Lead Me Home 10:59 R3hab X Lukas Graham - Most People 10:55 Gardenstate & Bien - The Best Part 10:51 Peter Ries - Hold Me (The Force Radio Mix) 10:48 Lstn - Sïstër 10:44 Robin Schulz & Alle Farben & Israel Kamakawiwo'ole - Somewhere Over The Rainbow / What A Wonderful World 10:38 Parra For Cuva Feat. Anna Naklab - Wicked Games 10:36 Luca Schreiner Feat. Johnny Chicago - Its All Gonna Be Good (Junge Junge Edit) 10:32 Kygo Feat. Parson James - Stole The Show 10:29 Raffa Fi - Ritmo 10:25 Filatov & Karas - Au Au 10:18 Adana Twins - Strange 10:14 Kid Massive, Yuji Ono, Dtale - Pray (Wolf Krew Remix) 10:10 Sofi Tukker & John Summit - Sun Came Up (Radio) 10:05 Groovecatcher - Neonstrasse 10:03 Kygo, Paul Mccartney & Michael Jackson - Say Say Say 09:59 Chicane Feat. Bryan Adams - Don't Give Up 09:55 Sean Bay, Mehdi Mouelhi Feat. Arabella - Maktoub 09:52 Dj Antoine & Dead-line - Shout 09:49 Backstreet Boys - Chances (Instrumental) 09:44 Federico Aubele - Postales 09:38 Nora En Pure - Thermal (Extended Mix) 09:31 Heather Nova - Aquamarine 09:28 Vize & Leony - Dolly Song (Devil's Cup) 09:16 Monkey Safari - Hi Life (Cheeky Bold Cover) 09:12 Beatkonexion - Heart 09:09 Kungs Feat. Jhart - Dopamine 09:06 Dj Antoine & Flip Capella Feat. Evelyn - Dark Love 09:03 Blank & Jones With Coralie Clement - Days Go By 08:57 Rodg - Heights 08:48 Boral Kibil - Never Again (Bobby Deep Mix) 08:44 In Credo - Siesta Del Sol 08:39 Two Lanes - Pièces Froides: Ii. Danses De Travers 08:36 Glockenbach Ft. Clockclock - Brooklyn 08:29 High Heels Breaker Feat. Sarah Palin - Come Easy (David August Remix) 08:27 Feder & Ofenbach Feat. Dawty Music - Call Me Papi 08:22 Sine - Smooth Relaxation 08:11 Cell - Above The Clouds (Live Version) 08:03 David Hohme - Fear Less (Hraach Remix) 07:59 Kygo Feat. Sandro Cavazza - Happy Now 07:57 Tiësto & Karol G - Don't Be Shy 07:51 Deep Dive Corp. & Setsuna - Transatlantic 07:47 Niles Cooper - Lamplight Rains 07:43 Elderbrook & Bob Moses - Inner Light 07:41 Sons Of Maria - A Kiss Like This 07:36 Dk Dent - A Walk In The Park 07:33 Brando - Don't Call Me (Galantis Remix) 07:30 Klingande, Wrabel - Big Love 07:27 Alle Farben Feat. Janieck - Little Hollywood 07:24 Sans Souci - Take My Breath Away (Original Mix) 07:20 Feder Feat. Emmi - Blind 07:17 Max Johann & Layrz - Tell It To My Heart 07:13 Nihoni - After Sun 07:07 Roger Shah, Feel, Zara Taylor - One Life (Pedro Del Mar & R.i.b Chillout Remix) 07:04 Topic Feat. Nico Santos) - Home (Alle Farben Remix) 07:01 Loud Luxury - Cold Feet 06:55 Joachim Pastor - Joda (Worakls Remix) 06:50 Eelke Kleijn Feat. Diana Miro - You (Frankey & Sandrino Remix) 06:47 Alle Farben & Fools Garden - Lemon Tree 06:40 Parra For Cuva - The Fifth Hand 06:37 Milk & Sugar Feat. John Paul Young - Love Is In The Air 06:33 Blank & Jones - Into The Sun 06:29 Wamdue Project - King Of My Castle 06:26 Basixx - Stay In Your Sunlight 06:23 Sam Feldt X Lush & Simon Feat. Inna - Fade Away 06:20 Bernward Koch - Lonely Dream (Solo Piano) 06:15 Lstn - Sky & Sand 06:13 Sans Souci Feat. Pearl Andersson - Sweet Harmony 06:10 Ck West - Aldebaran 2021 06:03 Bay Area - Dolphin Rider (Pianodreamsession) 05:59 Schiller & Schwarz - Avalanche 05:57 George Geccoo Feat. Maik Pinto - Dolce Vita 05:52 Lyke - Stay With Me 05:45 A Sagittariun, Skip Mcdonald - Crystallization Feat. Skip Mcdonald (Original Mix) 05:41 Nora En Pure - Stop Wasting Time 05:38 Karsten Kiessling Feat. Helin - Fight Like A Lion 05:33 Perfect Silence - Di (Original Mix) 05:28 Anrey - Lost Lands (Extended Mix) 05:21 Jan Blomqvist - The Space In Between 05:16 Lamb - Wonder 05:11 Christopher Von Deylen - Heliotrope 05:05 Mr. Sam Feat. Kristy Hawkshaw - Split 04:58 True & Berger - Imprint Of Pleasure 04:55 Robin Schulz Feat. Alida - In Your Eyes 04:50 Ganga - The Wind 04:46 Dvine - Unknown Reality 04:44 Dj Antoine Feat. Ablai - My Corazon (Dj Antoine Vs Mad Mark 2k21 Mix) 04:37 Chris Zippel - Around, Arrived 04:31 Lstn - Times Of Sorrow 04:28 Hallmann - Always Be 04:24 Nora En Pure - Diving With Whales (Daniel Portman Radio Mix) 04:20 Jan Blomqvist & Bloom Twins - High On Beat (Sofi Tukker Remix) 04:17 Klangfeld Feat. Tillmann Uhrmacher - Free 2018 04:10 Monolink - Don't Hold Back 04:06 Zoe - C'est La Vie 04:02 Blank & Jones - Pura Vida (Original Mix) 03:58 Joachim Pastor Feat. Nathan Nicholson - Saint Louis 03:51 Beyhude - Akasha 03:47 The Dining Rooms - Existentialism (Milano Dub Mix) 03:44 Riva Starr Feat. Imaginary - Ride This Sound 03:40 Fritz Kalkbrenner - Daylight Is Falling 03:35 Sean Hayman - See Of Love (Whisper Mix) 03:33 Sam Feldt & Sam Fischer - Pick Me Up (Vavo Remix) 03:30 York - On The Beach (Kryder & Jenjammin Sax Edit) 03:23 Melih Aydogan - Between 03:19 Bronson Feat. Lau.ra - Heart Attack 03:15 Stefano Saletti & Piccola Banda Ikona - Tagama 03:09 Exstra - Comet (Extended Mix) 03:05 Lstn, Arya Noble - Desert Walk 02:59 Nora En Pure - Tears In Your Eyes (Extended Mix) 02:52 Jean-michel Jarre - Equinoxe, Pt. 4 02:48 Tycho - Horizon 02:40 Burudu - Sun Theory (Original Mix) 02:33 Christopher Von Deylen - Opaque 02:31 The Holy Santa Barbara Feat. Madugo - The Sailor Song 02:27 Pang! - Walking In The Sun 02:22 Pete Tong & Tale Of Us Feat. Jules Buckley - Time 02:19 Schiller - Once Upon A Time (Cahill Remix) 02:14 Afterlife - Espalmador 02:11 Avaion X Vize X Leony - Pieces 02:05 Blank & Jones With Claudia Brücken - Unknown Treasure 02:02 Kygo & Sasha Sloan - I'll Wait 01:59 Atb & Topic - Your Love (9pm) 01:53 Lounge Generation & Namara - Inner Voice 01:50 Vamero & Lizot - Bleeding Love 01:47 Lost Frequencies & Mathieu Koss - Don't Leave Me 01:42 Bacaro - Under Presure 01:38 Jean-michel Jarre - Equinoxe, Pt. 5 01:35 Younotus Feat. Chris Gelbuda - When I Think About You 01:28 Max Melvin - Sometimes 01:23 Lstn - Floral Decor 01:20 Ac Venture - Rain In Spain (Roberto Sol Remix) 01:17 Jonas Blue Feat. Dakota - Fast Car 01:12 Schiller - White Nights (Don't Let Me Go) 01:07 Nikko Culture - Break My Heart 01:03 Edx - Vommuli 01:00 Twopilots - Take My Breath Away 00:55 Les Negresses Vertes - Face A La Mer 00:51 Above & Beyond - The Inconsistency Principle 00:45 Blank & Jones - Coh 00:39 Chris Zippel Feat. Tusnelda - Blade 00:35 Passenger 10 - Voices In Her Head 00:30 Claptone Feat. Dizzy - Queen Of Ice Queen Of Ice 00:26 The Chill Out Orchestra - Wish You Were Here 00:23 Together Alone - Let Go 00:20 Thrdl!fe & Sleepwalkrs - Outta My Head 00:17 Disciples - On My Mind 00:13 Thomas Gold Feat. Bright Sparks - Seventeen 00:10 Alphawezen - 4043 00:07 Dj Antoine Feat. Chanin & Jona Xx - Dancing In Tulum 00:04 Portishead - Revenge Of The Number

WIP Wednesday Tag Game

Soooo, @nemo-of-house-hamartia​ had tagged me back in January, but I didn’t really have anything to share at the time. However, now I do and I felt like sharing it!

Earlier today, I kind of got caught up in some old game about being locked in an abandoned museum overnight, and inspiration ran away with me, as it was something I could easily see my Syndicate OC, Magnolia, being caught up in, thanks to taking on a dare from her rival - so these little tidbits (they take place at different parts of the story, but I wanted to share both for context) were born! (And yes, of course Jacob gets caught up in the shenanigans too. haha) So, this is more of a fun, little “side adventure”, rather than anything tied to the overall main plot of my AU. To whomever reads this, I hope you enjoy! ^_^

Tagging: @nemo-of-house-hamartia (yes, I’m tagging you back, haha), @susann-noir, @havatnah, @straight-into-the-animus, @kiatheinsomniac​

"Don't forget, Miss Magnolia - you agreed to this," one of Hortensia's friends reminded with a smirk as Hortensia clicked the key in the gate's padlock, securing it.

"Enjoy your time in there," the smaller, raven-haired girl sneered, jangling the old keys in the air. "We'll be back for you at dawn."

Magnolia gripped the thick, iron bars and leaned her face between them, coming nearly nose-to-nose with her taunter. "You better," she insisted, her voice resembling the low growl of a cat, "because if I die and my body is never found, you're the first one I'm coming to haunt."

Hortensia's dark eyes widened, and silently, she considered how grateful she was that there was a locked gate in-between her and the threatening blonde with the piercing gaze that echoed the flickering, deep blue center of a searing-hot flame.

(Much, much later…inside the museum)

A shadowy figure slipped out in front of Magnolia, near-silent, and she barely had time to react.

The stranger clapped a hand over her mouth, cutting short her shriek. "Shhshhshh! It's alright, luv! It's just me!" he tried to soothe, his low, gravelly voice tipping off the young woman to who exactly it was. His face now in view of the candlelight, Magnolia's body relaxed a bit as he removed his hand.

"Good God, Jacob!" she hissed loudly. "Are you trying to give me a heart attack?"

"On the contrary, I happened to be in this part of the city - and upon hearing about you being in here, I came to see if you were alright."

In any other situation, the young woman might've been touched by the thoughtful action, but at the moment, she was still too on edge. "How did you even get in here, anyway?" she instead insisted on knowing.

He smirked and leaned in somewhat. "I'm not sure we know each other well enough for me to share all of my secrets," he teased.

Magnolia’s expression flattened with annoyance.

Jacob, on the other hand, turned curious himself. "But what of you? How did you end up in this place? I thought it had been closed to the public."

The young woman looked away with an embarrassed blush. "Came on a dare," she mumbled. "And kind of…allowed myself to be locked in here…all night…"

Jacob's eyebrows sprung up. "Alone?"

She looked at him out of the corner of her eye, still a bit sheepish. "Umm…yeah."

"Do your parents know you're here?"

"Umm…no."

His eyes opened wide. "You planned all this without telling them?!" He sounded unusually alarmed.

"Don't be a hypocrite, Jacob," she chided, now fully looking at him. "You would've done the same."

"Well, that's a different story; first off, my parents are dead–"

"Don't split hairs–"

"I'm not splitting hairs!"

X-Files Collector’s Edition: Redux II Samantha Was Real

My own personal belief is: Redux II Samantha was the real deal. Of course, I have to be blind to the events in Closure... which is just fine by me, as it was a mess and a half. HOWEVER: for those of the Closure-minded, these fics are the best I’ve read-- thus far-- that deals with the “what if” alternatives: tenderly, angrily, or mixtures in-between. 

**Edit: I forgot the one Samantha story that started this all (Susanne Barringer’s Thicker than Blood and Jenna’s IOU)-- it’s now listed below.**  

xraelynn/Rachel Nobel’s Given - Chapter 3 

““Scully smiled back at him. “See, you and Bill might be able to find common ground after all,” she said. 

After I’m gone, her mind supplied, and something in Mulder’s smile faded as if he knew what she was thinking.

“What was she like, Mulder?” she asked impulsively, and she felt Mulder’s thumb grow still atop her hand. “Samantha. You…” She faltered. “You never talk about her.””

A little precursor to Samantha’s POVs-- Everyone is waiting for the prognosis of Scully’s new chip, and Mulder is trying not to react to Bill. Scully asks for stories of Samantha in an impulsive need to connect to her.

Vickie Moseley’s The Visit (Goss) 

“"Sweetheart, he wants to meet you.  Tonight." 

I couldn't believe my ears.  "Daddy!  Not tonight!  I can't possibly go tonight.”” 

Samantha is as we’ve never seen her: kowtowed, subdued, completely dependent on CSM. She is forced into meeting her brother; and doesn’t have the spine to resist. 

Dawn/sunrize’s Heart’s Desire (Goss) 

“"Tell me, Mulder."

So much conflict within him, it was nearly tangible. He wanted to tell her, but didn't want to burden her.”“

In the immediate aftermath of Redux II, Mulder rejoins Scully and breaks down over his destroyed quest and lost (again) sister. She uplifts and helps pierce his swirling confusion. 

shannono’s Meeting 

“"You took her!" Mulder cried out. "You held her for twenty- four years! You lied to her, you told her Mom was dead, that you didn't know where I was. If she's really your daughter, how could you do that to her?" The smile faded. "I am not proud of all my actions, Mr. Mulder. But you may be assured that I have always done what I thought best for my daughter."” 

This doesn’t have Samantha in it, but it is a conversation between CSM and Mulder about Sam’s visit. CSM explains his reasons for keeping her, his secrecy, and why he’s letting Mulder see her now. 

Jennifer-Oksana’s Going Home Again

““To Whom It May–

To My–

Dear Mr. Mulder–

Dear Fox. “”

Samantha contemplates sending her brother a letter... but just can’t.

Livia Balaban’s Samantha’s Fate - Version 04

“”She wept, she missed me.  She was ordered to stay away.  If she got close they would have killed us.  Me, Mom, her.  Later, when she married and Scully entered my life, the threats expanded to include them as well. 

Five lives bound up in one lie.”“

Samantha shows up, trying to reconnect. Mulder doesn’t believe her and insists she leave. A dessert helps to prove who she is.  

Jenna’s IOU 

""Oh, it's complicated, Samantha. We work together and I just think it wouldn't work." 

"There's your problem, Fox. You think too much. Don't think, just make it happen. I can tell you're obviously crazy about her."” 

Mulder is rooting through his parent’s attic with Samantha. She questions his closeness to Scully; and encourages him to go make a move with her now. 

Mish’s Contact 

"”I raise the binoculars again to find Samantha nuzzling Michael's sandy curls.  James is patiently holding a dripping cone of chocolate ice cream for the child to eat when Mom is finished with the toddler's dust- off. 

"They're beautiful," I whisper, grasping Mulder's hand.  He fits his palm to mine and brings our clasped hands to my chest. “”

Post Redux II, Mulder takes Scully to a kids’ baseball game. It’s his nephew’s; and Scully is further surprised to meet Samantha.  

AUs (of an AU) 

Jennifer Maurer’s Perfect Gifts 

““The man's slow, poisonous smile chilled Mulder more than the winter wind blowing around him. 

"You will give up the search for your sister Samantha and accept the fact that her fate is entirely out of your hands.  It always has been, actually, you just refused to believe that.  You may keep the X-Files open as you wish, but I will not tolerate any further interference in the Project."“

An AU before Redux II: On Christmas Eve, Mulder is offered a deal for Scully’s cure; however, it is for naught as Scully takes up a trade deal for Samantha. 

Susanne Barringer’s Thicker Than Blood

“"We have to try," piped up Samantha.  Scully resented her, although she didn't want to.  This woman had just walked into Mulder's life today, after breaking his heart for six months by not having any contact with him.  She'd been in his life for all of eighteen hours and already asked him to put his life on the line for her.  Like he hadn't already done that a million times.  Yes, she knew that Mulder had to find the answers someday, but to walk right into it without any investigation first, without finding out exactly what he was dealing with, and without the Bureau's resources was too much to ask. Even of a brother.””

Mulder is overjoyed that Samantha has contacted him; and overlooks all the manipulative and gaslighting behavior she exhibits. Even though Scully suspects, she can’t deter Mulder from the lethal mission Sam sends him on.  

Susan Proto’s Familiar Faces 

“"There was no doubt in his mind it was Samantha. 

Or a clone. 

"Scully__?" he choked out.

"Could it be the same woman you'd met at the diner?" Scully asked....”” 

Post FTF-- Mulder and Scully are openly dating. While leisurely walking in the park, they stumble upon a little girl that looks exactly like Samantha-- until they realize her mother IS Samantha. Scully professionally handles questioning; and Mulder is gut-punched that Sam doesn’t want to remember her past. 

This is a cherry-pick pick, I must admit. I only read the initial interaction between Mulder, Scully, and Sam’s family before I dropped off (as it, admittedly, gets too dramatic and seems to shift into sliiiight absurdity. Just my own thoughts.) 

finisterre’s The Tunnel at the End of the Light

""Scully? You're Scully, aren't you? I'm sorry, I don't know your first name.

"Then, I see the gleam of something metallic. A gun in her hand, rising. "Who are you?" she snaps.

"I'm ... uh, a friend of the Mulder family," I said.

The visible eye thins to a suspicious slit. "Friends of Mulder's family aren't usually friends of his. So who are you?"”

This takes place during Season 8: Samantha hasn’t reached out since Redux II-- but that changes when she realizes her life, her friends, and her husband were a fabrication CSM used to keep her dependent. She flees, ending up at a very hostile Scully’s (who softens when Sam is devastated at the news of her brother’s abduction.) She is awed when Scully hands over the only false identity The Lone Gunmen had set up as emergency; and hopes to meet again soon.

Enjoy! 

Let’s all say exams had went just very very well! Now it’s graduation time and Party!

Some of Strangeview residents came to celebrate!

it was so fucking crowded guys 😭 my game was lagging so bad- (can someone tell me how to make my game LESS laggy)

Pascal: Hey you and Susanne need any help with moving?

Jace: Pascal. I got two words. Well two and a half. You’re Pregnant.

Pascal: I know I meant just-

Jace: I just don’t want you get yourself hurt or anything. Also you sure Susanne has enough room?

Pascal: yes! She can take her violin and all that other stuff!

Jace: yeah! Man.. honestly I just can’t wait to help you with the child and all on the way. Oh and how’s nervous?

Pascal: i can’t even get a hold of him in a while. I’m worried about him

Jace: same here. We all knew each other for a while and if anything I’ll try to help him out.

Pascal: thanks Jace Your the best

Jace: yeah. Oh! I guess the party is wrapping up

And it was

Everyone has gathered around to say goodbye before they left

song time ig

OKAY ONE. I recommend los campesinos they’re like my favorite band. here’s some songs actually— allez les blues, the sea is a good place to think of the future, I just sighed. I just sighed just so you know, broken heartbeats sound like breakbeats, for flotsam, avocado baby, selling rope (swan dive to estuary), death to los campesinos, this is how you spell “haha, we destroyed the hopes and dreams of a generation of faux-romantics”, you me dancing, romance is boring, we are beautiful we are doomed.

that was a lot. oops.

TWO. I recommend how to be a human being glass animals if you’ve never listened to it. it slays

THREE. ummmm. paramore this is why, new album, it slays. oh and also hawaii part two miracle musical. ALSO. peach pit’s album being so normal. ALSO ALSO. the oh hellos. also also also punisher phoebe bridgers.

list of random songs I’ve gotten obsessed with for like a week or two over the past few months. dirty summer mother falcon, sweet tangerine the hush sound, kingslayer baby metal/bring the horizon, gnaw alex g, san fransisco the mowglis.

songs I’ve been less obsessed with but still good. we don’t want your body stars, unraveling crane wives, wake me up foals, when I was done dying dan deacon, cannibal tally hall, burden in my hand soundgarden, pomegranate seeds julian moon, you are the moon the hush sound, she doesn’t sleep anthony amorim, the horror and the wild the amazing devil, we will commit wolf murder of Montreal, stranger you me everybody, April to death flower face, digital silence peter mcpoland, dream song lala lala, skipping tiles Julie, drop it doe eyes los campesinos, acetone vundavar, (plan a) los campesinos, little mouth los campesinos, promiseland MIKA (^-^), never let me down again depachemode, white room cream, spike pardoner, speeding 72 momma, by your hand los campesinos, dear arkansas daughter lady lamb, accelerate susanne sundfør, renato dall’ara los campesinos, rockstar momma, rip off momma.

okay now things I just. think of. the detail delta sleep, the killing kind marianas trench, let’s go to bed the cure, poor george James supercave, fear of dying poppy, pepper the butthole surfers(🙄), beachboy mccafferty, you’re on fire they might be giants (that’s an angry song I’ve been thinking about today a little. aha….), gold guns girls metric, hero badassjackson, cannibal queen miniature tigers, motion sickness phoebe bridgers, monster starset, you’re all scotch no soda sarah and the safe word, honey whiskey nothing but thieves, apollo momma, to my enemies saint motel, dear dictator saint motel, wonderland natalia kills, carrion comfort aeseaes, wine red the hush sound, castle of glass linkin park, end of an empire celldweller, pieces red, make a move icon for hire, lost kitten metric, modern day cain IDKHOW, roundtable rival Lindsey stirling, use somebody kings of leon, be somebody kings of leon, king Florence + the machine, checkmate conan gray, dead girl in the pool girl in red, crybaby destroy boys, say it right Nelly furtado, brave as a noun AJJ, my heart is an apple arcade fire, funeral gray waterparks, one for the money escape the fate, hella good no doubt, lowlife poppy, a good song never dies saint motel, shampoo bottles peach pit,

I just realized I should just made Spotify playlists. what is. Wrong with me. okay tahts it I’m stopppng now cries

Growing your intuitive abilities...and more!

Hello, hello my beautiful friend!

Welcome to the Unconditionally Loved podcast! The podcast that supports you in finding the answers to questions you didn't even know you had, healing in places you didn’t even realize that you needed, and the gift of knowing and experiencing the unconditional love that is your birthright.

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The Voice - Hard News, Partner Colour Story & 500 Word Reflection

Hard News Story - The Voice

Deputy Mayor of Darebin Council Susanne Newton said she thinks the Darebin Council will be for the Voice to Parliament. 

“In my opinion, I support The Voice because I think progress is important,” said Deputy Mayor of Darebin Council Susanne Newton. 

“The Darebin Council hasn’t taken a position yet, we’re guided by the Darebin Aboriginal Advisory Committee,” said Ms Newton. 

Ms Newton said she’s worried a no-vote combined with indifferent people to Aboriginal voices, will create the perception Australia is a racist country. 

Hard News Source 1 Contact Details: Deputy Mayor of Darebin City Council Susanne Newton  

Email: [email protected] 

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/susannenewton  

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/susannenewton/  

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Senator of Australia Jacinta Price says if The Voice to Parliament is passed it “will divide her family.” 

“Later this year they want to establish a so-called Voice to parliament, this is a really big deal,” said Senator of Australia Jacinta Price in her new campaign with Advance Australia. 

“There are already too many culture warriors in this country – in the public service, in our sport, in our schools, and in our workplaces. They’ve come for Australia Day, and they’re coming for more,” said Senator of Australia Jacinta Price in her new campaign with Advance Australia. 

She claims that the voice is divisive, dangerous, expensive and “not fair”. 

Hard News Source 2 Contact Details: Senator for Australia Jacinta Nampijinpa Price 

Phone: (08) 8948 3555 

Email: [email protected] 

Website: https://www.aph.gov.au/Senators_and_Members/Parliamentarian?MPID=263528 

Address: 1, 229 McMillians Road, Jingili NT 0810 

PO Box: 40021, Casuarina NT 0811 

Canberra Phone: (02) 6277 3122 

Partner Colour Story  

Emily Leon is a mother, and a proud indigenous woman who expresses the need to see a treaty before The Voice. 

“I’m a mix of 3 different tribes, the first is Gunnai from Gippsland, then Gunditjmara and the third is Worimi. Unfortunately, I didn’t grow up where my motherland is because our culture was taken away from us. I wasn’t able to speak my mother tongue so I can't really speak to what it's like because I lived more inland,” Emily said. 

“I’m proud of my culture, my connection to my motherland and to be a part of the longest-living culture out there,” she said. 

“Wherever I lived I grew up with the Aboriginal community there. When I was growing up in Northcote, I was living with the Aboriginal community there, I would say that Darebin is one of the more progressive councils in Melbourne,” she said. 

“I embrace my children learning their father's mother tongue, which is Punjabi. I embrace it because at least they have one mother tongue,” Emily said. 

Emily said because of the past and present treatment of Aboriginal people, from the history of slavery to mass murder, to babies’ heads being kicked off, she believes Australia is a racist country. 

“I’m 30 years old and still when I go to a new job people make comments like, you’re too pretty to be Aboriginal or you don’t look aboriginal because of my light skin,” Emily said. 

She said it’s frustrating to deal with people's comments because the information is out there, but people need to be willing to be educated. 

“If a darker person says I’m Australian, then people will have questions but if a white person says they’re Australian no one asks questions, racism doesn't stop there it affects all people of colour,” she said. 

In the lead up to The Voice to Parliament Emily says she’s concerned that just having a voice won’t be enough because politicians can still do as they please. 

“I feel like The Voice is a good thing but there should be a treaty first. That would be important to have and hopefully it will be a steppingstone,” Emily said. 

“You hear the public saying no and people in the media saying yes, it's like the people in the media are against the people in the community,” she said. 

“I think there are Australian politicians that don’t care about Indigenous voices and opinions. I feel like they're only doing it because the public is watching and they’re getting pressure from indigenous people,” Emily said. 

Emily said she worries about the people that don’t keep up with the news such as her mother. She believes the government is only thinking about people who are engaged with the media, not those who are disconnected.  

Soft News Interviewee Contact – Emily Leon 

Phone: 0421 429 757 

Email: [email protected] 

500-Word Reflection 

I had no doubt in my mind that The Voice would produce newsworthy stories. When choosing who to contact I decided the more people I reached out to the better. I was intimidated to contact people for the hard news story as they were people in positions of authority, so I had low expectations when it came to receiving replies. The first and only response, I got was luckily enough from the Deputy Mayor of the Darebin council, Susanne Newton. I could not have been more fortunate to have her as an interviewee, because of her position on the council. But also because of her kindness and open-mindedness, she was friendly and willing to answer my questions. My expectations when it came to finding interviewees and receiving responses were realistic, I knew I wasn’t going to get a lot of responses especially when it came to finding someone who was willing to go on the record with an opposing opinion. I had a lot of answers to work with for source 1 of my hard news story and the partner colour story, condensing those two articles down to the most newsworthy parts was my biggest challenge. I have a clear grasp of the structure of a hard news story now, I tried my best to apply them by using as few words as possible when quoting my interviewee for source 1 of the hard news article, avoiding adjectives or convoluted words, having one concept per sentence and making it easy to read and understand. I did my best to put the news first and focus on the facts and be as objective as possible. Learning hard news structure has been a journey of trial and error but one that I've improved on and enjoyed. I struggled when it came to my comprehension of the structure of a soft news article and when it came to writing the partner colour story. I showed it to a friend, and she said it read too much like a hard news story. I read over examples of soft news articles and continued to edit until I was happy with the structure and emotional atmosphere. Finding the most emotional parts of the story was easy, trying to cut down the article was difficult because my interviewee Emily said so many interesting things. I did my best to keep as many of those emotional quotes as I could. I wanted to capture as much of Emily’s personality as possible as she is a passionate and honest person who had a lot of interesting stories and experiences to share. I wanted to create an atmosphere of empathy and a deep dive into her life. I put her personal stories first to create a connection with the audience and set the tone. I followed the structure of a soft news story by using a mixture of longer and shorter sentences, quotes and facts, being descriptive using the 5 W’s & H and making it easy to understand.