#SO MANY EMOTIOSN
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I JUST FOUND YOUR BLOG AND OMG
hey imma need that confession Heartsteel Kayn moment yannoooo… fr all I’ve been thinking about 😳😳😳
✖ Heartsteel!Kayn Confessing ✖
✖ Word Count: 1.2k
✖ Tags: Awkward Confessions
✖ A/N: Reader here is just someone who works at his studio! He met you as Heartsteel slowly begun to start out and get ready for debut. Also writing this with that one ask about him writing a song about this exact moment in mind. Heehee!
I was reading some fanfics on my side and got filled with so much adrenaline and emotions I spat this out. I got very very very carried away writing this. I hope its not too OOC. Thank you for asking for this, I couldn't stop thinking about writing it.
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It sucked. It fucking sucked. The way his heart raced when you were near.
The loud thumping against his chest. He hated it.
He hated how vulnerably and un-badass it made him feel. How the high he got from you rivaled that of the stage.
How your voice played over and over in his mind more than any melody he knew. How your laughter made his knees weak. It made Him. Weak!
He hated. He loathed. He grunts in frustration as he rocks out hard on his guitar. Fingers picking at the strings, a sick solo riff but it was for no one but himself.
Oh, how he did arguably stupider things than usual when he saw you watching. Showing off to you he jumped off a stage once. Which is not too far off from usual but it was to no audience! It was during a practice run! He did it just to flex to you that he was cool! Fucking embarrassing to remember but he did! All because you were standing nearby! How could you do such a thing to him!
The absolute frustration he was filled with. Not pent up rage, not a craving for violence and destruction, but affection? Undeniable. Overflowing. Drowning and choking him. Affection!
He finally threw his guitar on the ground. Breathing heavy. Hands running through his hair to push away the hair that has fell to his face in his little jam session. Hands wiping away the sweat. No matter how long he played, how fast his fingers pressed the strings, how frantically he strummed away. How he still played, chipping his painted nails when he slips up and drops his pick. The loud music of his electric guitar couldn't drown out the high BPM beat of his heart going off in his ears. The mental image of you smiling and waving at him every time he shows up. The tingle in his fingertips imagining himself holding you.
Swallowing hard, he storms out of the studio. He was at his fucking limit and refused to deal with this flip flop of emotions any longer. A cold shower. He calms down. Tomorrow. At the studio when he goes in to record. He'll find you then. He'll go early before the rest of the band gets there. He'll get this done and over with. Enough hours were spent being a mess about you. He was going to get this done! Tossing and turning in bed for hours he finally falls asleep. Tomorrow, he'll confess.
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The next day came soon enough. Making sure he looked good, makeup on, hair styled nicely, a sexy ass outfit with his deliciously sculpted abs out. Not the usual for when he goes to the studio but if he was going to be confessing? Perfect. Yes he was perfect in his own eyes but still, his heart raced. Small whispers of Rhaast in his mind, telling him they might reject him, that he was someone that needed nobody, he shouldn't go up to them and say anything, the frustration was so good for his music! But still, he walked on. Boots hitting the floor at the same pace of his rapidly beating heart as he walks up to you. You heard him before you saw him, the thump of his boots echoing closer and closer.
" Hey!"
He cringes internally, the hell was that greeting. Hey? Just hey?! He smiles. Cocky as usual. Face never betraying his emotions, yeah he was cool like that. The shaking of his hands held back as he puts them in his pockets. Its alright, he looked cool. Just like that, hands in his pockets fiddling with his phone as he leans against the wall to talk to you.
" Can I talk to you a bit before I go and record stuff?"
Oh gods you smiled and nodded. His heart fluttered. His expression, involuntary, visibly lighting up. The way your smile just made him smile so bright back. He takes a deep breath.
" I uh...I love you."
He spat it out. It wasn't cool. It wasn't sexy. It was a choked out confession. Heart racing, palms now sweaty in his pockets, still shaking. Hells, shaking More now. His breath heavy as he tries to keep the anxiety at bay. A feeling of stage fright he never felt before. Suddenly hitting him. You look at him, face slowly getting more flushed as you process the sudden confession.
" I hate it but I've fallen head over heels for you. I'm a fucking wreck. You ruin me."
Kayn runs his hands through his hair, a habit to calm himself down. His eyes closed as he takes a deep breath before continuing.
" You genuinely make my time here at the studio fun, your presence is chaotic and calming at the same time. I want to be with you. I want us to be a thing. You already know me, you've seen the me on stage during practice, off stage when I record lines, you've seen Rhaast go all out and you still choose to be around me. I want you more than anything I've ever wanted."
He looks at you now, a calm stare. Lips pursed in a tight line. Swallowing hard. His nerves somehow finding solace in letting out all his feelings that were pent up over the month or two since you got to know each other. You laugh, gods your laugh. He's giddy. You tell him you love him too. He smiles.
A pause as he suddenly stands up straight. You tell him you love him too?
" Wait haha what? Really?"
He was amazing of course you'd say yes but still, there was that tiny part of him that was worried. You liked him back? You Love him? The amazing you! The you that shone like a sun in his frustrating days of endless work as a rockstar. You! He was fucking Elated. Arms immediately around you, a tight hug as he lets out a sigh. Breath he didn't even realize he was holding until now. His arms still shaking a little as he held you.
" Can I kiss you. Right now? I-"
Kayn doesn't even finish his sentence, the moment you nod his lips are on yours, passionate. Hands threading through your hair as he holds your head gently. Holding you against him. His free hand around your waist, supporting you as much as he was supporting himself from falling apart at your touch. How he loved you, the smell of your hair so close to him now, the taste of your lips on his, the feeling of your soft delectable lips on his. How warm you were in his hands, how faint your breath on his face. He was in love. He was in Love.
As he pulls apart. He takes another deep breath. The way you left him literally breathless. Fuck. This was an excitement he never felt before. Never has a kiss left him feeling so...good? Never has a hug left him literally shaking with excitement. You were special and now you were his.
" You're so fucking perfect you know that?"
He laughs shakily. A hand rising, trembling as he lightly touches his lips. Still in disbelief. He loves you. Undeniably. Overwhelmingly. The storm of emotions he held for the past, who knows how long, now a summer breeze filling his chest with a warmth he doesn't remember ever feeling. He loves you.
#Also from personal experience as I too jumped off a stage once to an empty audience for a flex.#I sprained my ankle after but it was cool. Kayn would do that I can see it happening.#Anon Answer#My heart was racing as i wrote this#i was shaking too#so i made kayn shake too#heehee#SO MANY EMOTIOSN#I LOVE LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#Kayn x Reader#Heartsteel!Kayn#Shieda Kayn#I really outdid myself writing this#this is my new favorite answer#Kayn LoL#Kayn League#KaynLeague#Kayn League of Legends#SCENARIOS#Shieda Kayn x Reader#im ruined i love this so much and i fucking wrote it lmao#League of Legends Scenarios#league of legends imagines#oh i love him i love him#to hold him close and tell him he is worthy of love that is hard and fast that leaves him breathless and wanting#to give kayn a love like no other that is you reader. thank you for loving him.#Yuno's Favourite Answer#oops proofred to make it gn
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YELENA CRYING OVER THE BOX OF BASEBALLS
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#guys.guys.guuuuyys.#iohg#this makes no aense and can be interpreted so many ways just know i am Experiencing emotiosn#moss meows
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WE ARE SUFFERING
#LET ME OUTTTTTTTTT#</3 i dont wanna front any more its been 1000 hours now wtf#LET ALONE BASIL HIS FUCKING EMOTIOSN I??? SCARY#not that scary im used to it but he has so many emotions it kills me
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HEAD IN HANDS
#oh my god om fuck ohmgf#this show is making me go thru so many emotiosn tsydjhkaasfslgj fuckign hell
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everytimke i get remindined of my desigins so many emotiosn come flowing back BUT LIKE MOSTLY EMBARASSMENT BECUASE LOOKING BACK I COULDVE DONE WAY BETTER BUT ROBIN NEVER TOLD ME WHEN THEY WERE LEAIVDNG SO I WAS RUSHING TO FINISH
#piper silly thoughts#I ALSO LACK TECHNICAL DRAWING SKILLS </3 AND JUST DRAWING SKILLS IN GENERAL......
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There are so many things Wukong loves about you! He finds the way you blush when he shows you affection so adorable, he loves how huggable and sweet you are, he admires your kindness and potential to heal not just him but everyone around you... He loves you because he sees you as his equal, as his irreplaceable partner in all the adventures his life takes him on, and he's absolutely enthralled by everything you do! And even if you have trouble showing him your feelings, he knows you feel the same~
I am a BALL of EMOTIOSNS
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this is so blessed I A M
EMOOITNS
blessed be YOU blessed be this ASK
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Finished binge watching Altered Carbon and I’m a mess I love it becomesa bigjumbledmessofwordsandfeelings
#rambles#idk it made me think of stuff???#like instead of you know just watching and taking it in I guess#and I don't mean like just critiquing it plot things whatever'#I mean questions/thinking of immortality issues and whatnot#uhg#haven't thoroughly enjoyed a show so much in a while#mind you though#there's a lot of horrific violence in there#it matches with the world it's set in but still#there's also full on nudity#it's 5 am idk if I'll be able to sleep hahaksdha I HAVE SO MANY EMOTIOSN/THOUGHTS#plays Future is Now/The Kills on repeate#future starts now I mean#omg I mean FUTURE STARTS SLOW#third time the charm
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How this girl formats her dialogue is so weird???? she squishes between action but not in an appealing way but like action/words/action/words/action. I usually do actions/words or words/action or words/action/words. It’s easier to read and I’m not like why is there so much movement and why are we describing so many emotiosn everywhere
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oh im feeling so many emotiosn rign now
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ACTUALLY SINCE I’M PROBS GONNA BE BUSY TOMORROW I’M GONNA SMASH MY FEELINGS INTO THIS POST WHILE I HAVE THE CHANCE
this is about ephraim and if you’re sick and tired of me talking about ephraim i am so sorry
in his brave quotes, which i mentioned earlier, he gets worried that the armor was damaged instead of him WHICH ALREADY SHOWS BIG STRIDES TO HIS CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT IN HIS BRAVE ALT WHERE HE’S CONCERNED FOR THE ARMOR BECAUSE IT HOLDS SPECIAL MEANING TO HIM AS IT WAS HIS FATHER’S AND HE ADMIRED HIS FATHER AND I’M AHSHFDSHGDG I HAVE A SPECIAL BOND WITH HIS ADMIRATION /UGLY SOBBING
and in his like “regular” dialogue he has this like... very soft and very reminiscent tone when he speaks and it makes me so emo... so sad n soft... remembering how far he’s come i’m cryng in the CLUB
and in his christmas alt he’s just!!! “i wonder how [lyon] would react” MY EYES BECAME NIAGARA FALLS I HAVE TOO MANY EMOTIOSN FOR THIS MAN
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LONG PERSONAL POST just a fair warning
So it’s been lots of self reflection and talks with Alicia but I’m trying to get my head out my ass about my fears and expectations of myself, and I feel comfortable going back to school in the fall. I’m changing my major and going to follow something closer to my interests and passions rather than doing something to make me seem and feel…idk, smart and financially secure? It’s complicated but I also get on myself too much about needing to be in a different place in life at my age and there’s so many things that it’s so easy to know and understand but when it comes to applying to the self I just feel so undone and the every exception to the rule my entire view of myself has been wrapped in shame since i can remember bc of abuse / sa and once I started trying to heal and move on and grow I left that blanket of safety and self hatred and the set of cards my entire life and sense of self was built on shattered but now I am slowly learning healing learning who I am after everything and letting myself explore and love things. So much love and emotiosns and words trapped up inside for years with no one to talk to no friends no partner I felt safe with no one but my mind but Im finding love again and family and friends slowly but surely too bc the friend wound is somehow the deepest for me but anyways this is near incomprehensible and absolutely no one will read this but maybe y’all will and I don’t care !!!! It’s ok it’s ok I keep untangling the yarn of my life and I’ve been so lonely my entire life screaming begging howling to be loved and accepted but i just want to hold young me and tell her she is perfect how she is and wipe away those tears because I know my mom always told me she loved me but really didn’t like me. i wanna tell little me i love you and I like you
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THERE ARE SO MANY FUCKING EMOTIOSN MAKE THEM STO P
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@ofgriffin did I love on her yet? Does it matter? She’s perf. She’s always agreeing to my new ideas. We have like a billion threads together and she’s always up for more. I love her Abby so much. She goes through so much emotiosn and I die.
@redempticnarc I would read a novel by her. (I have, it’s called her replies) no but really, she’s fabulous. I love her prose style and the way she just adores all of Marcus. ANd her crack threads with roan, bell and o are so damn funny, I die.
@imnobodysson Like an amazing Murphy. WHo is so sweet to make me icons an di love them dearly. All our threads are just so much fun to play and I adore them all. They are such a sweetheart.
@ginatcnic Bless you’re darling heart. I love you so much. Your Gina is flawless. And she loves my Bellamy so much. Their threads are heartwarmig and painful and I can’t get enough of them. I always need more writing with you. And you’re such darling to talk to OOC. Like you let me rant about things and it’s great.
@heroinebtch I love your Lena. I love that you play with my Lydia because it’s so hard to find people willing to play wiht her. And our threads...I love the dynamic between the two Luthor girls. Both trying to find thier way in te world, Lena trying to do with itout her family and Lydia refusing to leave her family behind. And your Lionel...he gives me chills. ANd Lydia too but she won’t admit it.
@trueheda Bless your Ontari. I love how complex she is. YOu can really see the way being raised by Nia shaped her entire outlook on life and how she could ahve been so different if she hadn’t been found by the ice queen. Jake wishes she could be like Clarke but he’s going to adopt her anyway. Because she clearly needs a good father figure.
@unboundbydeath // @everyturnanycost FUCKING LUCY! I can’t say enough how much I love all her characters. Because she puts so much life into all of them. And there’s so damn many of htem. ANd I just...I can’t. I flail every time she’s mentioned becuase she’s that great.
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i need emotional support for this fucking show oh my god
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