EMOTIONALLY DEVASTATED IN THE CLUB TONIGHT

How are there still 22 chapters to go.

I am very glad there are still 22 chapters to go but how are there still so many chapters to go.

Time to spend every waking moment thinking about this until the next liveblog.

BUT SUFFERING ASIDE thank you so much for all your comments and replies! They were devastating and wonderful and I am having a wonderful terrible time.

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UNTIL NEXT TIME, TREASURE THE TIME YOU GET WITH YOUR CLONES.

YOU JUST NEVER KNOW WHEN THE METAPHORICAL LOOP WILL CLOSE AND HE WILL SHATTER IN YOUR ARMS.

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THIS IS EVERYTHING I HAVE EVER WANTED

THAT ENTRANCE OH MY GOD?!

JADE, NAOMI, AND BIANCA DID NOT COME TO FUCK AROUND!!!!

i need to be sedated i just thought of arthur and prone bone Oh my god

sorry moots and oomfs and followers and friends i'm really insane over ffxiv. please play ffxiv. the free trial will now include stormblood soon. that's easily so much content this is the MOST generous free trial for a game you can ever get and it's for one of the best games ever (even if you don't think you'll like mmos! imo!). please play ffxiv.

Literally woke up, stared at my ceiling listening to sn tv for two hours and I’m gonna need like 3-5 business days to recover. There is not one coherent tought in here, just screams and lyrics and more screams. Idk what to do

OH MY GOD IT'S HER THEY'VE BROUGHT HER BACK

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK WAS THAT OH MY GODDDD THAT RAT WAS A WHOLE JUMPSCARE AND I. OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD .

...i just remembered cannibal by marcus mumford exists (& all of self-titled actually)

im finally getting to sit down and watch the new ep of burrows end and THAT FUCKING BEAR MAP KS AMAZING!!!! HOLY SHIT IM FREAKUN EATING IT UP!!!

HOW YOU GET THE GIRL ARE YOU SERIOUS?

“KYAU Kate: Pump your brakes, mama bear. I'm just surprised we managed to keep another human being alive.”

Baby Nat, lighting a cigarette in the crib-cage back at the kidnappers’ house: Am I a joke to you, mother?

bro the way im CACKLING like for real im laughing so fucking hard lmaoooooooooooooooo

THE CRIB CAGE JFKSJFKSJFKERJKSJDDJSJSJ

👀 zhilan, how do you feel about xerxes?

⧼ 🌱 ⧽ ┊        ❛ HONEST ANSWERS.

❝ About Xerxes? ❞ That's an easy one, isn't it? It feels like a straightforward answer, plain and simple. ❝ He's... someone I feel comfortable with. ❞ But that isn't all there is to it. Not when he lingers on it. Zhilan drops back unceremoniously onto his pillow with a sigh, scrutinizing the patterns on his bedroom ceiling. ❝ Maybe 'comfortable' isn't the right fit. The word I'd use is more unique than just 'comfortable'—but I just couldn't think of it if you asked me. ❞ A thesaurus would be of no aid here.... What he needs are metaphors. His gangly arms source the spare pillow beside him, securing it over his stomach with his elbows acting as pins. Between his brows lies a knot, thoughtful and sincere. ❝ You know that feeling you get when it's cold out? You've been soaked to the bone by the rain, and your shoes are covered in mud. So you kick them off at the door, and there's a fire already waiting for you in the fireplace. A meal for you, too. Maybe... it's your favorite one, homecooked the way that's familiar. ❞ His eyes become lost in the scene he's painted, there in the canvas of his mind. For the first time in days, a smile comes easily to him. Small. Fond. ❝ You instantly feel better after having your meal by the fire, and your difficult journey home is all but forgotten. It's like that, I think. ❞ Listlessly, he tosses onto his side. But there are other pieces, too—one example isn't quite enough. ❝ Or... instead, ❞

❝ When you wind down after laughing really hard. Your stomach hurts and your eyes are watery, but it's in the best way. You feel refreshed, and you're comfortable enough to not say anything else. That's about right, too. ❞ Sightlessly, he fluffs the pillow over his stomach in earnest. Anything to busy his hands to quell a busy mind. Then, he stills. Certain. ❝ ... I feel happy when he's around, is what I'm trying to say. And I trust him. I hope that he trusts me, too. ❞

SHIV DANCING HAS FILLED ME WITH SO SO SO MUCH JOY

❝ you’re my person.  you’re beyond special to me. ❞ kharon to pasha

rides together had been rare when kharon first moved in (again), but as svetlana got older, and pasha had finally conceded to hiring a nanny that could enrich svetlana more than pasha knew how to, couple outings were once again feasible. he's taking off his helmet and kicking his bike stand into place as kharon is doing the same. usually they ride (read: race) out to their spot, share a cigarette, get a little frisky, and get back on their bikes with little to no fanfare. it felt as if talking would break the adolescent adrenaline that came with speeding and groping. they were both content to their silence. there was little that needed to be exchanged anymore, pasha figured. he had been laid so mortifyingly bare.

and yet kharon was here. unquestionably and undoubtedly here.

pasha isn't sure if he will ever love a man like he loves kharon. it is a terrifying and comforting thought.

kharon says it as he lights pasha's cigarette, the flame of his lighter carefully directing shadows across kharon's handsome face. he was so mesmerizing. sometimes pasha wakes up next to him and counts his eyelashes in the morning. wonders if it's normal to have your heart burst so violently for someone who doesn't share your blood.

pasha smiles. easy but not common. he takes a drag, exhales into the late afternoon air. "you're just saying that because you lost," is all pasha replies with. his avoidance of the subject is a telltale sign that kharon has flustered him thoroughly

"you owe me a kiss, no?"

I WASNT PAYING ATTENTION TO MY PHONE I WAS THROWING BERRIES AT THE POKEMON FOR A RESEARCH I JUST CAUGHT A SHINY NIDORAN MALE ????????????