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welcometothedopeworld · 17 days

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Hello! Could I request Cozmez headcanons where their s/o is on holiday for a few weeks, but they really miss her?? Thank you in advance! 💖💕

Btw I loved your Shiki fic! It was really cute 🥹

Summary: How they would react if they missed you.

Pairing: cozmez X G/N!Reader

Genre: Angstyish Headcanon

Word Count: 923

Warning: depression

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A/N: Thank you so much for requesting this! I hope I did it justice! Also I'm glad you liked my Shiki fic! Thank you!

Kanata Yatonokami:

He totally acts like he's not bothered

You're gone? That's fine! Have a great trip!

He's totally fine being left alone!

In fact, he's been alone most of his life!

He can survive a few weeks without you!

Easy, no problem!

The signs of him missing you are slow to present themselves, but if you're like Nayuta, they're glaringly obvious.

It starts with accidentally making an extra plate of food and then shrugging it off, like he didn't forget you weren't joining them for dinner.

And when it comes to chores around the apartment, he mentions it's your turn to do them and Nayuta has to remind him you're not here.

So he obviously takes over because you wouldn't want him to be so lazy, or something like that.

And Nayuta can hear how he talks about you way more as you're gone for longer and longer

Everything reminds Kanata about you and his brother has to listen to his brother rant about you all day.

Anytime he tries to bring it up that he may miss you and he should just call you, he shuts that shit down so fast.

Assures you he is fine and he can handle himself.

He doesn't need to call you like some clingy child!

In fact, he's more than happy to have a bit of time on his own!

It's his way of proving he's still independent!

But Nayuta knows that this kind of behavior isn't sustainable and cannot go on forever.

As he watches his brother continue his downward spiral into missing you, he takes it upon himself to call you.

You're obviously relieved because you've been trying to get a hold of Kanata, but he's been trying to prove he's independent and doesn't need you as much as he lets on.

Nayuta assures you he's fine physically, but he's not sure how much longer that will last.

You tell him to call later tonight and then give the two of you some private time so you can talk.

He agrees and sets the plan in motion, telling Kanata he's going to go visit Shiki.

Kanata answers the phone and when he hears your voice, he finally breaks.

And I mean full on mental breakdown.

He misses you so much and he's disappointed in himself that he's not strong enough to be away from you for so long.

You assure him he's plenty strong and he doesn't need to be so hard on himself.

You tell him just how much you miss him as well and how much you want to be there with him right now to hug him and tell him everything is alright.

You promise you'll be home as soon as possible and the two of you will be able to talk in person regarding his insecurities and your time apart.

Kanata, to his credit, tells you how much he loves you and how he's desperately waiting for you to come home.

With promises made, you both hang up, feeling closer than before.

Nayuta Yatonokami:

He tries to be strong like his brother.

But it's easier for Nayuta to break than Kanata.

However, he's not quite as "aggressive" with how he shows he misses you, if that makes sense.

While Kanata lives in a state of denial, Nayuta is clingy.

You can't go an hour without getting at least two texts from him.

He just wants to talk to you and make sure you are okay.

He's never been apart from you for this long and it's a little scary for him.

At night, before you both go to bed, you spend at least an hour on FaceTime.

You both talk about your day and anything new, cool, or exciting to share.

Despite how much he hates being apart from you, Nayuta really does love listening about how you're enjoying your time.

You have so many cool stories to share and you're so good at telling them, he feels like he's right there with you.

Really you tell the best bedtime stories in his opinion.

However, in the morning, when he realizes he's alone...

It makes his heart hurt.

He misses you and wants you by his side again!

Kanata is quick to pick up on his brother's feelings.

At first, he tries to distract him and remind him that he can lean on him in times of distress.

But eventually, longer than he cares to admit, he knows his brother's need for you is too strong.

He needs to do something about it.

And so Kanata swallows his pride and calls you, asking you to come home.

While you unfortunately can't hop a plane and fly in tonight, you promise to talk to Nayuta about his feelings as soon as you can.

That night, during your FaceTime call, before you can even say anything, Nayuta speaks first.

He apologizes for monopolizing your time while you're away and how clingy he's been.

He tells you he'll try to back off for both of your sakes.

And that's when you have to shut him down.

You tell him you miss him just as much as he misses you, maybe even more.

While you can't leave right away, you plan on getting home as soon as possible, because you need him and he needs you.

You both cry together for like an hour, but it's a good cry.

Because you both know that you both love each other more than anything in the world.

And that is definitely something to cry about.

#Paradox Live #Paradox Live Fanfiction #Paradox Live Reaction #Anime #Anime Fanfiction #Anime Reaction #cozmez #Kanata Yatonokami #Kanata Yatonokami X Reader #Kanata Yatonokami Angst #Nayuta Yatonokami #Nayuta Yatonokami X Reader #Nayuta Yatonokami Angst #Reaction #Headcanons #Angst #Fluff #Trigger Warning #TW Depression

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zazhah · 8 months

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clingy hajun

#paradox live #パラライ #パラライファンアート #48nayu #hajunayu #夏なゆ #yeon hajun #nayuta yatonokami #zazart #smh always draw very soft hjny despite the amount of angst i cook up for them in my head

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valittlecorner · 7 months

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[✧] Overanalysing Trust Nobody's lyrics

- Hai you read the title, this is a very straightforward post cuz I can't get this out of my mind + this could heavily relate to the Revolution VD so. Hear me out ok. Everything is under the cut if you're interested.

If you pay attention to the lyrics of the second verse, its as if they're having a conversation and/or trying to convince each other to change their point of view. Kanata seems quite negative and "depressed" while Nayu sounds more comforting?? Watch this (I'm breaking it down cuz ofc I will)

[✧] Kanata

"From the beginning, never trusted strangers, don't care about others' betrayal"

- Basic Kanata activities. I think Trust Nobody takes both of their persoectives on Trust. Kanata associates it with the trust issues he has towards society, while Nayuta associates it to something (or rather SOMEONE) else.

"Same agonies, same regrets. We shared it all, us brothers"

- Basic Kanata activities². In this song he makes STRONG EMPHASIS in them always being together. Whether its hardships or happy moments, they were ALWAYS together. Keep that in mind

"Even the days of reoccurring drama, we persisted in this way of life, we just believed so we sang"

- Self explanatory I think

"Even if we weren't trusted overall, if the words are lukewarm, it's just fake love"

- It's hard for me to interpret this lyric to be honest, maybe my english isn't englishing. But I guess it refers to the bond they created using rap, a bond that isn't affected by what others think of them, and if other people's verses are lukewarm, that's just because they lack trust or love. I think.

[✧] Nayuta

"Even if the scene's the same, it's a different world."

- This is like a direct reply to Kanata's negative view of trust. Even if they still live on a bad environment, they have each other, money to subsist and the ability to evolve and be better. If only Kanata moved on from the slums. It's like he's scared of the outside world so he decided to stay there, but Nayu wants to move forward

"It can't be helped that all can't be mutually understood, pushing values and correctness onto each other, there's no way that can be called trust"

- Straightforward as hell + I used it for my first theory post. Basically, Nayu doesn't like the way Kanata restricts him even if it's on accident. And while Kanata connects Trust to his trust issues, Nayu connects it to the lack of trust within Cozmez.

"As long as we live, there'll be a difference in our strides, but it's rectified through perseverant exchange of words"

- Nayu just wants to have a chat with Kanata about their issues girl... Kanata please.....

"Unfulfilled dreams? Silly destiny? The results will prove them so just wait and see"

- This is SUCH AN INTERESTING THING cause when it says "Unfulfilled dreams" Nayuta is shown in the mv, and for "Silly destiny" Kanata is shown. I think this is about Nayuta's unfulfilled dreams and Kanata uncertain destiny without Nayuta (he doesn't know what to do without him / outside his comfort zone).

They're definitely kinda venting to each other???😭 In Kanata's perspective, "Trust" relates to how no one trusted them and they didn't trust anyone. Meanwhile for Nayuta, it's more about the lack of trust within each other. It's really interesting, cause Kanata still stubbornly believes this way of life is the best for both and doesn't acknowledge Nayu's desire for change, most likely out of fear. I haven't shut up about this lately but deal w it. Take this as you will. I just felt like sharing it cuz I'm obsessed w this song AND topic as of late

#i love czmz angst have you noticed that #people from my school were looking at me funny while I wrote this like I made some sacrifices here #paradox live #pararai #cozmez #nayuta yatonokami #kanata yatonokami #valittleanalysis

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augustmishas · 6 months

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🪐 a lonely planet

#paradox live #paralive #nayuta yatonokami #kanata yatonokami #cozmez #paralive spoilers #bee posting something that isn't a3? more likely than you think #still filling out mt shifts at the sibling angst factory #bee art

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uruwashinonightingale · 4 months

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so today we’re thinking about more nayushiki angst, or about an au where nayuta never comes back after jumping off the rooftop and shiki has to live on for years afterwards just hating himself. for many reasons: for not being able to stop nayuta, for being dumb and never admitting to himself back then that he loved nayuta, for never telling nayuta how he actually felt about him. for throwing away his first love without realizing how precious and invaluable his relationship with nayuta was while it lasted.

euaghhh i need to stop thinking about them -.-;

#mallow speaks!#can you tell the new paralive episode’s theme of angst got to me . . .#sorry that this is messy wwww #paradox live #nayushiki #nayuta yatonokami #shiki ando

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withoutzeuzey · 2 years

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My Fanarts for Pararai Angst Week

Day 3: Fireworks

Day 4: Marionette

Day 5: Scars

Day 6: Death

#day 5 doesnt look much angst i know-#i couldnt help myself hajhsjs #but it's about the scars of THAT night!!#paradox live #pararai #paralive #fanart #cozmez #nayuta yatonokami #akye #1nm8 #kei miyama #akanyatsura #iori suiseki #reo maruyama #art comms open #commissions open

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kanatamour · 4 months

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hi tora!! another blog, another request from me~ today im hoping for headcanons "how do they act when they have a crush and how would they manage to confess" with nayuta, kanata, reo & hajun!! i don't know how many characters you do at the time, so if that's too much just nayuta & kanata are nice!! thank you so much hehe <3

THIS IS MY LOVE.

Because ‘I love you’ is written in every single one of his actions, but he needs to tell you properly.

ft. Yatonokami Nayuta, Yatonokami Kanata, Maruyama Reo, Hajun Yeon x gn! reader.

cw/genre: fluff, love confessions, some angst.

Hello, Jules, dear and thank you so much for sending in another request here ! I’m sorry this took a while, but I still hope you enjoy it and that it can make you smile <3 I ended up making it in time before the year ends, so happy new year !

ଓ YATONOKAMI NAYUTA

“You came along, and my heart smiled. So, get rid of those doubts, my love, I’ve been waiting for you.”

— With Nayuta, you realize he’s in love because of his smile.

— His usually apathetic, even melancholy expression, is replaced by an upwards curve to his lips, brimming in a sweetness that is hard to place.

— To anyone who deigns to observe where his iridescent eyes keep looking, they’d find you at the end of the lane.

— It is easy to see, when you two are together. His gaze is a little brighter, that difference that makes you discern dusk from dawn; he seems more energized, the lilt to his voice a tad more upbeat, particles of sundust shining in the words he addresses to you.

— And perhaps everyone notices, and Nayuta hopes you do too.

— And maybe you already have, but alas, fear seems to follow humans in crucial moments, confusing the heart, leading it through twisting alleys that echo the unsavory sounds of ‘what if’.

— What is it’s just all in your head. What if you’re overthinking and reading the signs the wrong way.

— The sighs he lets out, alone, in the dead on night are the unheard confirmation that his feelings for you are real.

— And yet, miles separate you, each of you lying on your side in the blue light of a faded moon.

— But, as they say, every cloud has a silver lining.

— Nayuta just will have to tell you directly, then.

— Or rather, show you.

— You find yourselves on the topmost floor of his secret hideout, the sun casting in coppery hues the thousands of piled up buildings below; a beautiful contradiction, how the slums had a beauty to them at golden hour.

— But so did your moments with Nayuta.

— You found him, the one you hold most dear. It didn’t matter if it was in a place this world had forgotten.

— Because you could never forget Yatonokami Nayuta.

— Nor the kiss he gives you when you turn towards him at the call of your name.

— You can taste the remaining sweetness of the popsicle he was just eating as his hands land on either side of you, stabilizing himself when he leans in further.

— And because there is no way your mind is making up the cool softness of his lips on yours, you kiss him back, hands cradling his cheeks, strands of silken moonshine reflected on puddles after the rain tickling your fingers.

— “Is it clear now, that I like you, my cute [Y/n]?” Nayuta utters, in the sunset lit instants between his kiss and the second one you initiate as an answer.

— You don’t trust your voice right now, so you’ll speak in the language lovers do when words are superfluous.

— And you can be sure, he’ll be asking for more.

ଓ YATONOKAMI KANATA

“Your petals were bloodied amidst the storm and you still shined. When I next realized, I was the thorns, and you, the only rose.”

— Kanata doesn’t know what is it he feels for you.

— And what’s more, he doesn’t know why.

— Weren’t you another one of those rich brats to begin with? It was your fault that day you were in trouble in the rain, being robbed by some troublemakers.

— And yet, the moment you resisted to give them your pocket money and one of the attacker’s hands closed around your wrist, something in Kanata snapped.

— He doesn’t know how, or the reason behind which he found himself throwing punches until those bastards were running away.

— But he knew he didn’t like the sight of the cut they somehow managed to land on your cheek.

— “Thank you for that, but are you okay?” You asked him, checking for bruises on your nameless savior.

— You are the one bleeding and yet, you ask him that.

— “You shouldn’t be here.” Kanata spats, turning away.

— “Wait! What’s your name?” You asked, running to catch up with him.

— He ‘tsks’. Why can’t he leave you alone in the rain? Why does the sight of blood running down a stranger’s face sit so wrong with him?

— Annoyed, he drapes his jacket over your head.

— “You don’t want to know.” Are the last words he tells you, before running off.

— You stand there, dumfounded, the boy’s hoodie shielding you from the rain.

— You’ll be back here tomorrow.

— The sky dyes in shades of peach and lavender, reminding you of the sweet scent of spring. Ironic, in such a cold evening, and even more so in this district.

— You have a feeling you’ll find him again, so you wait. His jacket is neatly folded over your lap, as a stray kitten rubs itself against your leg.

— Then you spot him. Short sleeved t-shirt on, hands buried deep in the pockets of his pants.

— “Put this on, at least!” You call, throwing him his jacket. “Catch!”

— Eyes not unlike the color of the sky widen at the sight of you again.

— “Thank you for yesterday, whatever your name is.” You softly tell the young man, reaching where he stands with the small cat in your arms.

— It meows at him. Extending one of its paws.

— “See? He wants to know your name too!” You pout, holding one of the kitten’s white paws in your hand.

— “Ugh fine! It’s Kanata, okay?”

— “Nice to meet you, Kanata.” You giggle, as the cat paws at your hero’s face.

— And somehow, the way you call his name… It’s pleasant, a sweet melody shining in a world of gray.

— He wants to see you again.

— So, next time, he’s the one to seek you out.

— You always meet at the same place; the street where the white kitten lives. Sometimes it goes home with Kanata, though, and others you bring him to your apartment.

— Time is fleeting, and days become months, with December snow fading to rays of February sun, auguring an early spring.

— And then one day, Kanata isn’t there.

— You wait, with your cat friend, who meows sadly at you, climbing on your lap when the first tears begin to fall.

— That evening you leave, matching cups of ramen left to the freeze of a lonely night.

— However, someone saw this hurtful scene.

— “Care to explain yourself?” Nayuta asks his brother, slamming the door behind him.

— Kanata turns slightly around. “Don’t know what you’re talking about.”

— “Oh, you… You know very well. Why didn’t you go today?”

— To which Kanata shrugs.

— “Fine. I hope you know they left crying.” His younger twin points out. “Will you just face your feelings and accept you’re in love and that they love you?”

— “That’s…” Kanata’s shoulders slump. “They deserve better…”

— “Silly!” His brother intercepts, with a soft flick to his forehead. “And what? They want you. So you better get it together and go find them now!”

— And well, for some reason, Kanata doesn’t need to be told twice.

— Luckily for him, a small friend is there to help.

— Following the kitty, they both manage to locate you.

— “[Y/n]! Wait!” The boy who saved you that night calls, putting a hand on your shoulder.

— “What do you want, Yatonokami?” You ask, tone cold, without turning around.

— It hurts him. The way he’s hurt you, the way you won’t face him, the way you use his last name instead.

— “I’m sorry. I just… I’m stupid, okay? I couldn’t come to terms with- the thing is- I… I… Oh, to hell with it! I like you, okay? And I just didn’t know how to act around you or what to do and I thought you deserved better and so I just stood you up and I messed up.”

— A chuckle is definitely not the answer he was expecting.

— “You are cute when you blush, Kanata.” You murmur, wiping away a stray tear, smiling sweetly at him.

— “I’m not-“ He starts, cheeks blooming in crimson roses.

— “I said it’s cute. You are cute.”

— Droplets of thin rain begin to fall.

— “I like you too, if that wasn’t obvious.” You softly say, with a kiss to his cheeks.

— Much like the night you met, rain surrounds you. This time, it’s his cheek that burns, not because an open wound, but because of the searing sensation of a kiss he won’t forget.

ଓ MARUYAMA REO

“What is the point for a rainbow to hide? Let’s write our love in the sky.”

— Reo is a cutie and he definitely has a way with flirting.

— So that’s exactly what he does.

— He is not shy about it in the slightest, often complimenting you on your new clothes, telling how sweet you are or giving you hugs out of nowhere.

— Of course, all of the above, always that you are comfortable; Reo is very cheerful, but he knows how to read your emotions and pick up what you like and dislike.

— And at first, you didn’t think much of it. Sure, he is very affectionate with you, but he is with everyone else too, right? It’s not like you are receiving special treatment.

— Which, in turn, frustrates Reo more.

— Is he doing something wrong? He’s being pretty obvious, right?

— Or maybe… you don’t feel the same way?

— No, no, no, he can’t fall into negativity.

— He has to take you to a nice date and tell you how he feels directly.

— So, he puts together some money he’s been saving and chooses his cutest outfit. This is a special occasion and he wants to make you happy.

— When you arrive at the accorded spot, Reo is already waiting for you.

— Sure, he is a sunshine, but you didn’t expect an amusement park date, seeming how he and his gang usually preferred to hang out at the ramen place.

— “Hello, [Y/n]!” He greets you, those eyes of his mirroring the sunset clouds lining the horizon. “I got cotton candy hehe. One for you and one for me!”

— You take the sweet treat from him, eyes sparkly at the delicious sugary scent wafting around you.

— “Woaah! It looks so tasty! You’re the best Reo…” You thank him.

— And maybe, just maybe, because this is a date, you leave a cotton candy kiss on his cheek, giggling at the pink remnants left behind.

— To which the boy grins mischievously, bringing his fingers to it and tasting the sugary treat.

— “Hmm… Your kiss was sweeter…” He ponders, as your cheeks heat up. “What if we repeat it, properly this time?”

— And at that moment, beneath the lighting of dusk and attractions, your lips touch for the first time; a memory written over cottony clouds in rosey glaze.

— “I love you, pretty.” Reo utters, nose brushing against yours, when he parts.

— “I love you too, Reo.” Are your words, before you initiate a second kiss.

— Little did you two know, Iori and the rest of the gang are looking from afar, proud of his youngest member (Suiseki is a little jealous, but that’s another story).

ଓ HAJUN YEON

“I’ll erase the piercing words that were etched into your soul that day.”

— This man’s way of flirting is teasing you (change my mind).

— With his fans, he is all smiles and charming phrases, but when he really loves you, you get to see a more… naughty side of him.

— When he teases you, he doesn’t do it out of malice, no.

— He’s been hurt in the past, and even if his infatuation with you grows by the day, a part of him is still afraid he’ll be discarded again.

— The words ‘you are not needed anymore’ still resound inside his mind, no matter how much he smiles or tries to look perfect on the outside.

— So he’s wary of diving into a new relationship.

— But at the same time, you are so lovely… The way you pout when he’s teasing you, or how you call him and wave at him whenever you see him at uni…

— Hajun would really like to spend more time with you.

— “You should.” Anne tells him, when they finally get Hajun to spill the beans. “I know you’re afraid to trust but… Isn’t it lonely, to keep the one you love at a distance?”

— It is, yes.

— It’s painful if he stays away. And the variant of getting hurt hangs in the air if he tries to get closer.

— But, as they say, ships were not made to stay at harbor.

— So he’ll take this chance and hope for the best.

— And for that, you know he’ll use his charm.

— A cute cafe date here; dinner at his place that he cooked himself using organic ingredients there; and of course, the occasional expensive gift you had been eyeing, mysteriously arriving at your doorstep.

— You like all of this, and especially, you like him.

— However, a part of you can’t help but wonder: what does he want with me? What does he get out of all of this?

— With those thoughts, you lie in bed, listening to his music in the new noise canceling headphones you’re sure he’s bought for you.

— You’re so not sleeping tonight. Maybe tomorrow you’ll ask him about what ‘ulterior’ motives he has.

— The model’s vibrant eyes widen slightly behind his glasses when you utter the question.

— “Why me, Hajun? What are you planning?”

— It hurts him. How it seems he’s not the only one with trust issues here.

— So that’s how you think of it. Some kind of twisted game he’s playing to get something out of you.

— “I’m serious here, Hajun.” You insist, tone stern, when all the answer he gives you are the subtle expressions of his face.

— And for once, he decides to be honest. No mask of perfection obscuring the words he next speaks.

— “Because I’ve fallen in love with you, [Y/n]. Because I was afraid to trust, to be left behind, thrown away. But then you came around. And I wanted to spend more time with you. This is no game, not one that I plan on ending anyway.” He whispers that last part to your ear, a knowing smile on his lips as he feels the heat on your cheeks.

— “Hajun… You… You mean that?”

— “More than anything.” He vows, placing a kiss to the back of your hand, the one adorned with the set of silver rings he gifted you, never once breaking eye contact.

— Your fingers slot in between his. You suppose it’s alright to let your heart take command and test the waters.

— After all, you can’t keep denying you’ve been in love with him since the beginning, too. You just never thought he’d end up reciprocating.

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yatonekoami · 2 months

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Lithium.

Featuring. Kanata Yatonokami x Fem! Reader.

"Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone Couldn't hide the emptiness, you let it show Never wanted it to be so cold."

Tags: angst, with some comfort. Delves into a bit of darker themes, like thoughts of disappearing and self loathing, so watch out if that's something that triggers you.

Out in the night, the decadent city is painted in ominous twisted lines.

A blue period held in between noisy train tracks and overflowing dumpsters.

Any other time, you would have deemed the scene beautiful.

Now, however, it’s just depressing.

Perhaps it’s because your teary eyes can’t focus on any silver lining amidst the dark forest; right now, there is no clearing illuminated by moonlight, just wolves howling beneath the stygian sky, their hunger festering with every passing second.

And you are their prey.

Your knuckles match the eerie light from outside when you grip the windowsill.

You messed up again.

And you can’t find it in your weak beating heart to forgive yourself for it.

You don’t deserve it, you don’t deserve anything.

Or anyone.

Since all you seem to do is hurt them.

Sunshine. That’s what you had been referred to more than once.

But, alas, it was only pleasant when it warmed one's back.

Looking at it directly was a lethal inferno.

And so were you.

Only meant to be kept at a distance from everything.

From everyone.

Your fingertips momentarily touch the foggy window glass.

Snow has started falling.

A cruel and ephemeral sight, for you know there would be nothing left of it once the sun shined upon it.

Meant to destroy, to cause despair everywhere you went.

That was you.

You really want to disappear.

Maybe you should.

No one would miss you if you did.

Maybe him at first. But eventually he’d forget you, a watered down memory of light and time.

The front door of his apartment had never felt so heavy when you turn the doorknob.

You wish it hadn’t been so noisy.

Your boyfriend’s younger twin looks at you through bleary eyes, hair sticking out in all directions.

Your heart breaks a little at his confused expression.

A crooked smile held by sheer willpower tilts your lips.

“I’m going out, Nayuta. If Kanata asks, tell him not to come looking for me.”

With that, you get separated from the small space you had come to call your home, the heavy slam of an iron door putting an end to your life here.

You don’t really have anywhere to go now.

Nor do you want to go anywhere for that matter.

You guess you’ll just wander around until you freeze or fall asleep, one of the two.

You didn’t even bother to grab your scarf or coat. What would have been the point, anyway?

You look up at the sky.

Black clouds beckon you deeper into the slum’s back alleys.

—

For the second time tonight, Nayuta is roused from his sleep.

Not that he really was sleeping since you left.

More like tossing and turning, a sting in his heart freezing him to the core at your words.

“Tell him not to come looking for me.”

In Nayuta's nightmares, Kanata cried.

And you were gone.

“Nayuta, I’m back.” His older twin greets.

To the aforementioned's surprise, Nayuta actually gets up today, running to him.

“Nayuta, is there anything wrong?” Kanata asks, checking his brother for injuries, as he holds him by the shoulders.

“I’m fine. But [Y/n] went out. She said not to go looking for her.”

That’s all Kanata needs to hear before the front door clatters open and closed again.

—

You are starting to feel weary. You’ve walked these streets with Kanata before and yet, right now it all feels like a frosted labyrinth.

You don’t have it in you to care.

You can’t hold on anymore. You can’t keep going.

Your feet feel numb with cold and you cannot move your hands.

Maybe this is finally your sweet release.

The cold hard floor feels like an oasis, finally somewhere to stop and let yourself adrift to the fates of tonight.

You just hope you’ll be gone before the dawn arrives.

Name and face eventually forgotten.

However, a certain someone is not willing to forget or let you go so easily.

Footsteps approach.

You don’t care if it’s some thug come to rob you. Maybe they’d make it swift.

“Why?” A familiar voice asks.

Your eyes focus on the ground before you, his shadow elongated by the blinking street light behind him.

You don’t like the brokenness in his tone.

Strained, as you had heard it that time he desperately called his brother’s name.

Still, you won’t look up.

“K... Kanata…?” You ask, throat parched from not eating or drinking anything all day.

Your boyfriend crouches down before you.

You avert your face. You don’t want to hurt him too. It seems that’s all you’re good for these days.

He’s not having it.

One of his hands reaches out, cupping your cheek, guiding your gaze to his.

“Why did you leave?” He questions.

You flinch, feeling the hurt and anger in his tone, the bleeding sting of a crimson rose.

“Why did you come, Kanata?” You ask as an answer, gaze vacant, akin to the dark dirty windows lining the streets.

Your lover grits his teeth.

And if you hadn’t been so distraught yourself, you would have noticed the tears glimmering at the corners of his beautiful eyes.

The dew that fell over lilac fields in the hours between midnight and sunrise.

Dew the blazing morning would scorch.

“Tsk, are you an idiot?!” Kanata exclaims. “Going out at night like that! Anything could have happened to you!”

“And what about it?” You reply, voice monotone.

Kanata’s breath catches momentarily.

And despite your impassiveness, you can’t deny the freezing tear tracks staining your face, nor the constriction of your lungs.

“I’m a horrible person, Kanata. Who cares if anything happens? I just hurt others.”

The next thing you know is the gasp leaving your lips as familiar arms wrap around your form.

“What are you saying?” Kanata’s voice breaks. “You don’t hurt anyone, you make me happy.” He squeezes you a little harder, lovingly, like those mornings he just wanted to keep sleeping with you, even if it was only for a few brief instants.

“But I do, Kanata… I-“ You sob. “I hurt someone important to me… I didn’t want to… But I’m dumb and I try to be positive… But… My words did more wrong than good… How am I supposed to forgive myself now? I’m truly horrible.”

Your boyfriend offers you a sad smile.

“Maybe you’re right on the dumb one. You’re being dumb right now.” He places a gentle kiss on your temple. It feels warm. “You don’t hurt others, [Y/n]. You were trying to cheer someone up. I don’t think anyone could ever be mad at you for your good intentions, even if the result wasn’t the ideal one.”

You sniffle, letting yourself indulge for a few seconds in his warmth.

“Do you mean that, Kanata?”

Draping his jacket over you, he assures you:

“Do you think I’d have come out here for just anyone? It’s because I love you. Of course I mean it.” He wraps your scarf, that he picked on the way out, around you, the colorful wool and the stars sewed on each end, a bright sliver of hope in this abyss.

Kanata is pulling you out of it, though.

His hands tenderly hold yours, helping you up.

He won’t let you fall back in.

When you next meet his eyes, you find the lavender crescents you so adored every time he smiled.

Perhaps tomorrow the sun would be gentle.

As long as you had Kanata by your side, the snow wouldn’t melt the next day.

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seangelfish · 1 month

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OCEAN WAVES

"If only I could go back, I would hold you so you won't be apart from me. For even a moment, I would give you my everything." (Day6 – I Would)

Kanata Yatonokami x reader

➥ Tags & warnings: Angst (no comfort but open to interpretation), suicide attempt, established relationship, she/her pronouns, reader neglect, misunderstandings, a lot of tears.

➥ Word count: 2,590

➥ Synopsis: Despite how long you've been together, you feel like nothing in your relationship is improving. After putting up with so much of his shit, you finally realise that you're no longer happy with him anymore.

A/N: PLEASE listen to 'I Would' by Day6 whilst reading this. It's the song that inspired me to write this in the first place! It also makes the fic more depressing, hehe~ I have so many Kanata angst drafts, it's not even funny. I love him sooo much, but I also love Kanata angst. He deserves the world though.

Please do tell me what you think of the fic! (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶)♡ I would love to know everyone's reactions!

The twins looked at you, stunned. Rapid tears rolled down your cheeks as you spilled everything out. Despite how much they were mean to you sometimes, you kept a happy facade and gave them countless chances in hopes of being accepted by them one day - properly accepted because even when they allowed you into their home, into their lives, every so often, they would treat you like someone they didn't want around in the first place.

But what made things worse was that you were dating one of them.

"I don't understand why you still treat me this way!" you screamed. "Why are you still so mean to me? What did I ever do to you?!"

You weren't a sensitive person, but trauma isn't something so kind. You had gone through this before – being bullied. You didn't care if a stranger was mean to you, they're nobodies after all. Harsh words from them would graze your skin, nothing like a bandage wouldn't fix. But harsh words from a loved one? Someone you adored and trusted? It was like being stabbed by a knife disguised as a bouquet of flowers.

And those flowers were withering quickly.

"(Y-Y/N), s-slow down," Nayuta started, eyeing his brother whose whole body was trembling. "I'm so sorry, w-we didn't–"

"What's the point in even being here anymore?" you hissed, interrupting whatever he had to say. You unlocked their door, slamming it shut before running away.

"(Y/N)!"

They had each other, but you only had yourself. You moved to Japan on your own with the dreams of studying and working there. Everything was amazing and new to you, but also extremely lonely and overwhelming. There were times when you were so exhausted that you couldn't focus on studying at all. You'd isolate yourself in your room feeling homesick, starving yourself as you had no appetite to eat. There were even times when you just wanted to give up on your dreams and go home.

Yet that day when you got lost in the slums to university, that day you met Kanata had changed everything.

But maybe, just maybe, you shouldn't have gotten lost that day – you shouldn't have moved to Japan at all.

Carefully, you placed your shoes neatly on the sand. Then slowly, you approached the water.

You fell too hard for him – for Yatonokami Kanata – that it stung and left bruises. You had hoped that by time, he'd show a softer side of himself. When you thought that he would, he would regress to his cold demeanour, leaving you feeling even more confused and unwanted. Then why? Why did he accept your feelings? Why did he confess those same feelings to you that day too?

Your chin hit the water. All you could see ahead of you was a pitch-black sky, empty and soulless with no sign of a single star shining. As you continued moving ahead, your hearing became muffled and you could no longer hear the wind blowing those melancholic melodies.

Nor could you hear your name being cried out. Those anguished cries, the way he didn’t think twice before running in to save you. You couldn’t even hear the splashes of the water. The only thing you could hear was bubbling, the way the water gradually filled the inside of your ears.

But before anything serious could happen, you felt his hands on you, dragging you hastily away from the abyss.

His heart was racing as he panicked to get you back to shore. Once the two of you hit the sand again, you coughed out a few mouthfuls, and he held you so tight that you could feel his hands digging into your skin.

But you didn't care.

Nothing mattered anymore.

You stayed in his arms, letting him hold you as much as he wanted. You didn't care. You let him cry on your shoulder, and scream out his apologies. You just didn't care. There was nothing to care about anymore because caring so much had led to this.

"(Y/N), I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." he would constantly repeat as tears streamed down his face. "I'm so sorry..."

Eyes as empty as the midnight sky, you stared at his lilac hair embedded with the turquoise underside that you loved so much.

"I'm sorry... I'm so sorry... I don't know why I acted that way towards you..." he cried miserably. "I bet you felt so alone... I'm sorry... I shouldn't have done that... I should've loved you properly..."

You didn't want to listen, but you had to. His voice was so hoarse from screaming, but he still wanted to give you the apology you truly deserved and wanted. Even if it was too late for apologies, he still wanted to fix things – to fix you in any little way he could.

Kanata had taken in every word you yelled at him and his brother before you ran to the seashore. He never knew you felt this way as you were always so happy-go-lucky, always so upbeat, but the realisation had hit him as memories he had forgotten flashed into his mind.

And for the first time, he saw things from your perspective.

"Kanata, I'm bored..." you whined playfully. "Please can we do something together? Why don't we go to that place–"

"Sorry, but can't you see that I'm busy?!" he quickly snapped. "I can't half-ass this song."

You were startled by this but nodded understandingly.

"O-Oh, right! Yes! S-Sorry."

You smiled, but your heart had sunk to your stomach. But you could easily get over that! He was busy after all. It was your fault for even speaking in times like that. Maybe the two of you could go on a date next time!

You remained seated on the windowsill, hands clasped together as you stared at the floor of their rundown apartment.

Why didn't he just go with you? The two of you rarely went on dates unless it was you initiating them. It would've been nice to take you out on his initiative this time, but alas, that didn't happen, and he regretted it badly.

What happened after that was something he didn't remember, but he really hoped you didn't cry yourself to sleep about it. All he remembered was that you left earlier than usual.

"Hey, (Y/N)! Why don't you join us?" suggested Nayuta when the three of you bumped into each other at the mall. "You'd like that, wouldn't you, Kanata~?"

At the time, you had rejected Nayuta's proposal because you didn't want to disturb the twins on their shopping trip together, but Kanata insisted that you come along anyway.

However, it seemed like you were tagging along on your own accord.

"Hey, Kanata. Doesn't this look cool?!" Nayuta uttered as he showed his brother a bomber jacket he had found.

Kanata agreed. "Do you want to buy that one?" he asked. "It looks good on you."

From a distance, you watched them with a smile on your face. The brothers were having so much fun shopping together that you didn't have the heart to insert yourself into any of their conversations. Plus you believed that if you did, they would just brush you off.

You supposed you could look around the store by yourself to find an outfit you liked.

"Ah, (Y/N), there you are," said Kanata. "Check this one out."

"It suits you!" you replied.

"Haha, right?"

You thought he was going to pay attention to you this time, so when you found a dress that caught your eye, you chirped, "Wow, this dress is so pretty! Kanata, don't you think–"

But he was no longer by your side anymore.

You chuckled in embarrassment before putting the dress back on the rack. You didn't need it anyway. Plus, you didn't have that much cash on you; you were only at the mall to run errands.

But you really did want that dress. It was pretty and it was your style! You hoped it would still be there the next time you visited.

Unfortunately, it wasn't.

The worst part of that memory that Kanata came to remember was that he did hear you call out his name, and he did hear you talk about a pretty dress. But he was so preoccupied with all the stuff Nayuta was putting in their basket, he didn't come to you quicker.

When he finally turned around, you had left the dresses section to regroup with him and Nayuta. You were bright and smiley, so he didn't think it mattered to you. He should've trusted his gut feeling though. After all, he found that dress pretty too.

Those were the only two memories he came by, but deep down, he knew there were more instances where he made you sad. If only you had shown it, but at the same time, it would've been better if he caught on to your subtle yet loud reactions.

"(Y/N), I'm so sorry…" he cried. "I should've treated you better… I'm sorry… I'm so sorry…"

You didn't respond, but you did find yourself gripping onto his soggy shirt. Even after all of this, a part of you still wanted to be held by him – the boy you loved. Kanata didn't hug you often because he found it embarrassing, so you were the only one in the relationship who initiated physical touch. But there were times when he did hold you, those times where you wished it happened more.

"(Y/N)! Kanata! Are you two okay?!" you could hear Nayuta yell. "Come on, let's go back! We need to get (Y/N) back home and..."

You chose to ignore those words as you singled in on the ocean waves' rumbles.

The twins carried you back to their home as it would be easier to keep an eye on you if you were to attempt again.

Kanata filled up the bathtub and gently urged you to get inside. You obeyed without hesitation like you always did, but you wouldn't look at him once. Those eyes that used to admire him and sparkle were now so soulless that it broke his heart.

The two of you were silent as he helped you wash up. It was the first time he ever did something like this, but neither of you cared whether he saw you naked. The sadness in your hearts made it unbearable to feel anything else.

When he was finished, he wrapped you in a towel. As he held you close, you could hear his heartbeat, fast and unsteady. You let him hold onto you for a while, but it wasn't as if Kanata had never comforted you before, you just never experienced something so intimate like this with him. It was a shame that you were being treated like this now – on the day you nearly ended your life.

As he helped you put on some spare clothes, he tried looking into your eyes, but even when you were staring right back at his violet ones, he couldn't find the girl you used to be.

"Here, (Y/N)... drink up," said Nayuta, offering you a mug of hot chocolate, something that the twins both knew you liked. "I'm sorry, (Y/N)... I should've been nicer to you too. You did nothing wrong; remember that, okay? I'm really sorry..."

You accepted the drink, but it took you a while to put your lips on the rim. By the time you drank it, it was already cold.

It was 2am now, and Kanata had you wrapped in his arms. He was still crying, but the stream of your tears had already dried up. So you just laid there, unmoving.

The two of you knew that once he and his brother fell asleep, you'd be gone by the morning.

"Kanata," you uttered. It was the first word you said after the attempt. "Let's take a break..."

He dreaded those words, but it was bound to happen after tonight. He didn't answer though. He never wanted to lose you in the first place. He never thought it would ever happen. He had lost his brother once and was lucky to have him back, but he had nearly lost you too. He didn't know how he would react if he was just a second late to saving you.

"I'm sorry... for being an annoyance..." you murmured.

"You don't need to apologise for anything! You never were an annoyance. I was just an asshole!"

"Kanata..."

"..."

You found yourself gripping onto his shirt again, but this time, the fabric was dry and soft.

"I'm sorry for doing that," you continued. "I wasn't right in the head. Don't worry about me though. I won't try that again, but... don't go looking for me either."

He didn't know what to say, but he was confused when you started giggling to yourself.

"Hehe, this feels nice," you said as a tear rolled down your cheek. "We never got to cuddle like this in bed before... I wish we did that more–"

But you couldn't help it. The dam you had closed off suddenly burst open, and you started wailing loudly on his chest. Nayuta watched you two from the couch, his heart clenching too.

It wasn't the first time you got to sleep with him on his worn-out futon, but you were never this close. When the two of you did sleep together, he kept his distance. Even when you wanted him to be closer, he never dared move an inch.

"Hic... didn't you love me?" you said slowly as big, hot tears fell from your eyes.

"(Y/N)... Of course, I loved you..." he replied sadly. "I still do..."

A forced giggle escaped your lips again. "Okay..." you muttered, sniffing.

You wrapped your arms around his body, reciprocating the embrace. It was the last time you were ever going to see him again anyway, so you might as well do this.

When sunrise came, Kanata found the bed empty as he had expected. In your place, a note was left behind. He didn't want to read it because he knew that all he was going to get out of it was even more tears. However, he didn't want to throw it away either. He wanted to keep a piece of you even if it was a goodbye letter.

Kanata, I hope that in another universe, we would still be together.

After all, I don't think I'll ever get over you.

He sighed, trying to keep his tears inside his eyes. He had cried enough, but it didn't seem to be enough.

If only he could go back to that day, to just have one more day with you, he would hold you again.

And for even a moment, he would have given you everything you wanted, no matter the price, he just wanted you back in his arms.

What neither of you remembered was that after the twins' shopping trip that day, Kanata had gone back into the store.

"Did you forget something?" Nayuta questioned.

"Yeah," he replied. "It's nothing though–"

"Haha, let me see."

In the bag, a new purchase was made. Kanata had bought the dress you were eyeing before.

"Why didn't you buy that for her earlier? (Y/N) just left."

It was Kanata's first time being in love, so he was the most inexperienced boy out there, but still, he loved you.

Even though he had wasted his chances.

"I'm not sure... Do you think she'd still be happy if I give this to her?"

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pillow-anime-talk · 1 year

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music & vocaloids month ; twenty-third day.

synopsis: Until death do us part.

# tags: scenario; current relationship; disease!au; hospital!au; mention of depression; drama; angst; death mention; crying; sfw?

includes: gender neutral reader ft. megurine luka {vocaloid}

You would never believe that your life in the last several months will undergo so many changes, hopes, pleas and will be susceptible to so many unanswered questions and sincere prayers that will never come true.

Less than two years ago, your partner found out about her disease – about breast cancer, which, as it turned out, had been developing in the body of a young girl for several years, but only a little over a year and a half ago, during a gynecological examination, it turned out that Megurine...

The cancer is now at a very advanced stage.

Every day your girlfriend got more and more depressed, she cried day after day, she apologized more and more to you that she doesn’t look like she used to, doesn’t smile like she used to, and isn’t like she used to be. Despite steroids, chemotherapy, despite breast removal surgery, despite a beautiful wig made of real donor hair, the young woman did not feel well. On the contrary. Each subsequent day spent in the hospital ward, on examinations, taking medications and on a special diet was more and more debilitating to her mind, and at the same time her body. Conversations with parents, with friends, with a psychologist and psychotherapist, and with you were not enough.

The twenty-five-year-old just wanted to be healthy; she wanted to go back to work, go on vacation with you, adopt a pet, and live with you again in a beautiful but small apartment in the city center. Luka wanted to go for a walk with you, go to the swimming pool, eat her favorite ice cream, and go to university and finish her education, thanking all her loved ones for their support and presence by her side. Unfortunately, everything indicated that the young girl would not leave the hospital for this year, or even the next.

“... Everything will be fine.” You said, touching your partner’s pale, slightly cool hand, and she just sighed, not looking away from the window.

“Y/N, I’ve been thinking about this for a long time and I’d like to tell you something.” At that moment, she looked at you with calm eyes, slightly subdued and empty, but you still saw in them love and hope for a better tomorrow. “I wish you’d find someone better. May you be happy again and find a reason to live. I don’t think I’ll live another year, so please go away and be happy with someone else." She said softly, her gaze falling to your and her hands. The woman wanted to let go of your hand, but in the same second you squeezed her fingers much tighter.

“That’s interesting, because I have something to tell you too.” You answered seriously as you pulled a small box out of your pocket. Luka frowned. “It’s not a proposal, it’s a promise.” You added, taking out two bracelets from the black package, and then put one of them on your woman, kissing her at the same time. You put the second bracelet on yourself, and then looked at the pendants on the jewelry; yours was in the shape of a small moon, while Megurine’s was in the shape of a silver sun. “No matter what you say, I will not stop loving you. I hope you will understand my choice. I don’t need anyone but you, and nothing won’t keep us apart. I think your disease make us stronger because I know you’ll beat her.”

“Y/N...”

“Do not cry. For love you don’t have to cry, just smile.” You said, wiping her pale face and she just nodded. “I love you.”

“I love you.”

previous day ; all girls from ho-kago tea time ♡ next day ; nayuta and kanata yatonokami from cozmez

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paradox-liveheadcanons · 3 years

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Cozmez Dating Headcanons

Might be a bit angsty at first but hold on, I’ll try my best make you happy after the angst! <3

Kanata Yatonokami -

He wouldn’t go on dates often with you since he’ll probably be worried about taking care of Nayuta.

When he does go on a date, Nayuta is usually the one who urged him to go.

At those dates, he’ll hurriedly leave you to go back home and take care of Nayuta.

Sometimes he might even cancel dates with you to take care of his little brother.

It takes a while for him to trust you with Nayuta. Although you’re dating, he will still be worried about his little brother since he’s the only family he has left.

One day, Nayuta will literally invite himself to your dates just so you can spend time with Kanata.

Although it’s not much of a date and more like you three hanging out, it was still a ton of fun. Kanata loosened up a lot and got to relax without worrying about anyone else.

The next date after that, Kanata will probably arrive (without your notice) and take you on a proper date. (Nayuta probably argued with him all night about how he needs to treat you properly. That was his wake-up call.)

You both have an amazing time and Kanata made sure to treat you properly this time.

Even though Kanata might not have money for an extravagant date, your dates are always very extravagant with how well he treats you and how simple day to day things seem to magically look extravagant with Kanata by your side.

He’ll always give you a little gift (As an apology for all the times he cancelled and rushed your dates) which consists of flowers he saved up to buy for you, maybe a toy he got from a cheap gachapon or sometimes even jewelry (Nayuta also helped save up money for the more expensive gifts).

Most dates are either at his place or yours. You guys would often eat home cooking or take out raimentei. He might be composing a new song and you’re beside him, giving your input on the song and giving moral support (which he appreciates immensely).

I like to think that after your relationship deepens, you just visit the Yatonokami household randomly and the twins will be completely alright with it. It will become almost like a routine.

Once, Nayuta jokingly complains about how he suddenly has parents (you and Kanata) to take care of him and how you both should quickly get married since you’re already acting like parents babying their child (Nayuta). Kanata blushed a lot that day.

Nayuta Yatonokami -

Kanata would be the one who opposes you two from dating since he’s overprotective of Nayuta and his little baby brother is all he has so he doesn’t want to let him go.

Once Kanata learned to trust you (and a lot of arguing with Nayuta), he finally allows you to go on a date together (he’ll probably be in a bad mood and sulk the whole day but when he sees his little brother happy, he can’t help but smile a bit.)

Nayuta is the type to casually do acts of affection. He’d hold your hand, hug you a lot, and sometimes pat your head and these would happen so randomly you might get flustered by it.

He likes shopping for clothes and he’s also the type to want to dress up his s/o.

Dates with him includes window shopping, visiting small cafes and a casual walk in the park. You two love talking with one another and sharing ideas so high tension dates don’t happen often.

Much like Kanata, most of your dates might be at home where you two cuddle while Kanata composes a new song.

A lot of cuddling. He loves cuddling and you’re going to be his new pillow from now on.

Whenever he feels lonely, he’ll just get up and head straight to where you live (you always have to call Kanata right away when this happens so he wouldn’t worry).

Originally, I was going to do a Cozmez playlist instead of dating headcanons but my editing software wouldn’t cooperate so I might do that next week. Thinking up dating ideas for Nayuta was pretty hard... so apologies if it’s not the best ;-;

I hope you enjoyed nonetheless!! - 🐝

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welcometothedopeworld · 5 months

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new blog from paraliveeee yeiii<3 , can I request hdncs of hug and care sessions for cozmez (separately ~) after a competition maybe?., well just a gn reader who likes to show his affection as a reward after the boys gave their all on stage: '))

Summary: How you would take care of the cozmez boys after a performance.

Pairing: cozmez X G/N!Reader

Genre: Angstyish Headcanon

Word Count: 1019

Warning: Nayuta's has spoilers for Episode 7, trauma, trap reactions, mentions self harm

Masterlist

A/N: Thank you so much for your request! I hope I did it justice! Also I want to apologize for taking forever in answering it. I just really wanted to make sure I did it right!

Kanata Yatonokami:

Every competition is hard for him

That's only because half the time he's worrying about Nayuta

Old habits die hard and that counts for on the stage

He cares a lot about his brother so he pushes harder than him so he doesn't get hurt from the phantometal

That doesn't always happen but it's the thought that counts

That's why he all but collapses on top of you when he's done performing

He's sore and in pain and soon his trap reaction is going to hit

And while he'll never admit it, he's terrified

So what do you need to do?

Give him love and cuddles of course!

Kanata's going to deny it at first

He doesn't need to be coddled like a child

But deep inside he can't deny it feels good to be cared for

Especially from you

For once, it doesn't feel like he needs to carry the weight of the world on his shoulders

He can relax with you and feel completely at peace

As soon as the trap reaction hits, Kanata's not pushing you away anymore

In fact, he can't stop pulling you closer

You need to swarm him, completely invade his sense

Hug him as tight as possible

Remind him that you are still with him even as he slips into dark memories

He wants to be reminded that he is not alone, that you are still right there as he goes through this awful pain

Imagine him like a cat where he sinks his fingers into your skin

He might even bite you

He doesn't mean to hurt you in any way, shape, or form, but he needs to ground himself

He needs something to tether to and you're the one holding him

You're the one stroking his hair, hugging him tight, whispering to him words of encouragement

He's going to hold onto you every way and hold on so tight so he doesn't slip away

Eventually, and it takes some time, the trap reaction will fade

If Kanata thought he was exhausted before...

It's even worse now

He has completely lost all energy

He will drop his dead weight on top of you

He's just so tired and that trap reaction sapped the last remaining remnants of his energy away

Poor thing is absolutely dead tired

Here's hoping you can carry him

Because you're going to be the one to carry him to bed

Nayuta will offer to help but he's not looking any better than his brother

It's best if you handle it on your own

As soon as his head hits the pillow, sleep almost overtakes him

He's coherent enough to pull you down with him

Again, Kanata will deny it to his last dying days

But he loves cuddling with you like this

He's still trying to ground himself and he needs you with him

He can't sleep without you

So tuck this baby close to your body and kiss his forehead

He'll smile sweetly and whisper how much he loves you right before falling asleep

And when he wakes up later

He'll smile fondly and hold you close now

It's the least he can do for what you've done for him

Nayuta Yatonokami:

Okay spoilers for this one but I have to talk about it

It's the only way

If you don't want to read the spoilers, watch episode seven and then come back

Okay, now for his reaction

We all know he's got that corrosion going on

There is no way it's all gone and he's felt what it's like to go through with that

Performing is extra daunting to this poor boy

It hurts to rap and to create his illusions

But he loves performing with his brother so he will endure the pain to the best of his ability

And he'll push himself too far

He's just trying to keep up with his brother

And that comes back to bite him

If you think Kanata is too much after a performance, Nayuta is worse

Kanata will at least try to act like he's strong and can handle it

Nayuta almost completely loses consciousness every time he performs too hard

His body can't handle the effects of the phantometal like his brother

He uses it too much and he's hurting because of it

You'll need to place nurse for him as you comfort him

Make sure he's safe and not too physically injured

Bandages are a must and he needs water

This is all before the trap reaction has set in

And you'll want to patch him up beforehand because he becomes erratic when the reaction comes

Nayuta's all apathy and creepy laughs

He's seen what he's done to others and the pain he's feeling

He doesn't care anymore about anything

You'll need to hold him tight so he doesn't hurt himself

Keep a close eye on him and remind him how much you love him

He's going to need it

Sure, he's going to deny it and push you away

But deep down he wants to hear it

He needs to be told that someone besides his brother loves him, that they would care if the corrosion took away his life

Really, the boys switch temperaments when the trap reactions hit

Eventually the reaction will subside and this time Nayuta really will pass out

His poor, battered body can't keep up with the phantometal any longer at that point

Please make sure to catch him and bring him to bed

Watch over him and keep him safe

Oh, and cuddle him like your life depends on it

Because when Nayuta wakes up

And you're holding onto him like he might drift away, like he's your whole world

It will honestly bring a tear to his eye

Because he never realized how much you needed him and how much he needs you

And he'll hold you close and kiss your face

He'll whisper in your ear while you're asleep all the reasons he loves you

Because he loves you so much

And everything you do for him means the absolute world to him

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zazhah · 8 months

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don't listen to the ghost of his voice

#paradox live #パラライ #パラライファンアート #48nayu #hajunayu #夏なゆ #yeon hajun #nayuta yatonokami #zazart #angst provided by cuwan <33

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kanatamour · 4 months

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A SIGN OF AFFECTION.

Because even if silence would rule her life without her aid, he fills it with sunshine and smiles.

ft. Yatonokami Kanata, Hajun Yeon, Ando Shiki, Kanbayashi Yokei x fem! reader.

cw/genre: fluff, very, very, mild angst.

Hello nonnie ! I’m so sorry this took so long to post… I know you requested it on my old blog, thank you for liking my aesthetic there <3 It’s late, but merry christmas to you as well, I hope this new year brings you lots of love, health and joy !

ଓ YATONOKAMI KANATA

— At first, he’s a little surprised.

— Why is it that your little sister stares up at him in wonder, of all people?

— She’s a lucky child, after all. She can live in a clean house and she has you as her older sister, so why does she seem so entranced by him?

— “This is my little sis, Kanata.” You introduce her, your hands on her shoulders. “She can’t hear by herself, but she uses these headphones, they’re magical, right little princess?” You tell your sister, bopping her nose.

— She giggles, while nodding enthusiastically.

— “Hmh! I can listen to my big sister’s boyfriend with these! Kanata’s music is the best!” She claims, happily.

— Your lover’s lavender gaze widens when he hears that.

— That exact phrase is what Nayuta always told him.

— A chuckle leaves his lips, as he pats the girl’s head (even if a little awkwardly).

— “So you like Cozmez that much?” Kanata asks your sister.

— She takes a few seconds to answer, the sound processing for her in her headset.

— “Mhm! Cozmez is the coolest! Kanata and Nayuta are the best! Also, is it true you can breakdance, onii-chan?”

— At that, Kanata blushes. Both at the question and at the term she used to refer to him.

— “I-uh… yeah.” He finally manages.

— You chuckle, taking your sister by the hand.

— “Hey, hey, Kanata is a little shy, alright, sweetheart? Give him a little time to warm up.” You explain.

— She nods, while your boyfriend’s blush intensifies. You’re so precious taking care of your sister, he almost can’t handle it. If you keep this up, he feels like his heart will burst with so much cuteness.

— From that day on, your younger sister starts wanting to hang out with you and Kanata every time you meet up with him.

— And so, your dates end up involving her in one way or another.

— Listening to Cozmez at Kanata’s apartment as she tries to dance to the beat of the songs; taking her to eat ice cream, ramen or cake at cute cafes; petting the neighborhood cats, or reading books to her.

— And to your boyfriend, these moments are worth so much.

— Taking care of her together, with her giggles and your soft laughter filling the air… It feels as if finally beams of rainbow are added into the sunshine you shed into his life.

— Kanata is also very protective of her.

— Because she thinks he’s so cool, your sister tends to follow Kanata around.

— And we all know how dangerous it can be for a little girl like her to wander alone around the slums.

— So your partner always makes sure to spot her right away, taking her by the hand and bringing her back home.

— She is safe, but she doesn’t escape your scolding, even if she hides behind Kanata.

ଓ HAJUN YEON

— Charms your little sister almost instantly.

— With his good looks and permanent smile, who could resist him, huh? (That is, before you know about his sadistic side /lh).

— “Big sister! You’re dating a prince!” She says, eyes sparkly and wide, bouncing on the balls of her feet.

— You and Hajun let out a laugh, amused at her innocent enthusiasm.

— “Does that mean you’re a princess, onee-san?” Your baby sister inquires. “And does that make me one too?”

— You give her a bright smile.

— “Of course you are a princess too, baby.” You say. “You have this magical crown that allows you to hear, do you not, sweetie? I think a fairy must be guarding you too.”

— Your boyfriend smiles. Not his usual fabricated grins, but a sincere one this time.

— “Your sister is right, young lady.” He adds, taking the girl’s hand in his. “You two are princesses, so it is my honor to finally meet my lover’s precious sister.”

— “Woah… You’re really a prince!” The girl in question cheers, enchanted by him and all the attention she’s getting.

— Thanks to her headphones, your sister can hear BAE’s songs, and of course, her bias is Hajun (she adores the whole trio though).

— Anne is like an older sibling to her as well, and Allen is like… uh, the silly uncle that’s really cool when singing.

— Whenever you and Hajun go out together on a date, your sister stays with the other two.

— Anne does her hair and dresses her up, while Allen plays music for her and they all dance together.

— It’s really precious, going back to Hajun’s apartment and finding laughter filling the space and the people you love having such a good time.

— However, because she’s enchanted with your lover, your sister has taken to following Hajun around sometimes.

— She peeks from behind the kitchen’s door, observing attentively while he cooks.

— “Hmm… I have the feeling someone’s watching…” Hajun announces, the little one’s giggles perfectly audible. “I wonder whether this princess would like to help me make dinner?”

— To what she emerges from her hiding spot, running to bury her face into Hajun’s apron.

— Unbeknownst to them, you were watching the scene with a dopey smile on your face.

— You go to wash your hands. You’ll join them in a minute.

ଓ ANDO SHIKI

— Now if someone is shocked to be thought of as cool, that is definitely Shiki.

— He’s been called gloomy before, and he doesn’t really have a very positive opinion about himself.

— So for your sister to admire him and look at him in wonder… That is certainly a new feeling.

— And at first, he can’t deny he’s scared. Because what if, once she gets to know him, she finds out he’s uncool or boring?

— Besides, someone whose hands are stained in blood due to the sin he’ll never forgive himself for… He doesn’t deserve that kindness.

— So at first, he runs away from this, like he’s been doing his whole life.

— You miss him.

— And your sister notices your boyfriend seems to avoid her, so she gets sad.

— “Is it because I need special headphones to hear?” She asks you one day, eyes teary. “Is that because Shiki can never meet with you, big sis?”

— “No, no, it’s nothing like that.” You hold her in your arms. “Shiki is very shy, so he has trouble making new friends, but I’m sure he'll be happy to meet you, once he calms down. He gets nervous easily, you know? Give him a little bit more time.” You tell your younger sister, squatting to be eye level with her, as you wrap her in a hug.

— “Tell you what, why don’t we drop by Shiki’s workplace while he’s there? I’ll introduce you. You’re a fan of his group, after all.”

— And so, that’s exactly what you do.

— You are aware a bar is not the most suitable place for a kid, but you trust all the guys there. They take good care of Shiki, after all.

— The little girl hides behind you as you greet everyone. And, somehow, Ryuu’s the one to bring her out of her shell.

— “Wow wow! You have very cool headphones! Ryuu wants a pair too! Aaw mini [Y/n]-chan is so cute!”

— “I use these to hear!” She giggles at the funny faces TCW’s peculiar member makes. “I love The Cat’s Whiskers! Shiki is my favorite!” She says, waving her hands.

— Your partner lets out a strangled yelp, almost dropping a glass he was drying.

— “Come on, Shiki.” You invite him, softly, with a tender smile on your face. “She’s really looking forward to meeting you, you know.”

— “H-hello, there.” He greets her, awkwardly rising a hand for her to high five.

— She does so, with a “Yay! I’m a fan of Shiki!”

— The latter lets out a laugh; a precious sound few got to hear, the rays towards which sunflowers turn.

— Maybe it was alright, that she thinks he’s worth meeting.

ଓ KANBAYASHI YOHEI

— Flustered at first, but then he softens up and is actually one of the most caring.

— Your sister is a little shy around him at first, despite her admiration for him.

— She’s seen him on tv, and, thanks to her prescription headphones, she’s heard his vocals on stage. She really thinks he’s so cool… But Yohei looks so serious…

— “Onee-san, is your boyfriend angry?” She asks, tugging on your clothes.

— “Wha-“ Bar 7/4’s master utters, amber eyes widening in shock.

— Saimon lets out a chuckle from behind the counter.

“Yohei, I think you should drop that frown a little.” He tells his junior, good naturedly.

— The latter sighs.

— “Hello there, little one.” Your lover greets the girl, as he crouches down to her level. “Would you like to listen to some music?”

— She nods vigorously, her small fists clenched in front of her in anticipation.

— Yohei rewards her with a smile. Then he sits at the bar’s piano.

— As his deft fingers slide over the keys, a sweet melody fills the space, your sister holding her breath as she listens intently.

— Then, she walks towards the piano, watching closer how this mesmerizing melody is brought to life.

— Your partner stops playing momentarily, offering her a kind smile.

— “You want to try too?” He asks her.

— “Yes!” She affirms, as her little hands hover over the keys.

— The bar’s master helps her sit on the bench, as he gently places her fingers over the keys.

— “Here, don’t be afraid. Try here, press it softly. Yes, that’s good!” He compliments her, as a note echoes through the room.

— As you watch the scene, you can imagine the three of you in a spacious apartment, sitting in front of a piano; sunlight streams through the windows, almost like lines of a music score you’re writing in this idyllic moment.

— Despite the cold, the warmth of your lover and your sister by your side keeps you comforted, the sunny melody, a caress for your heart.

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