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kafkaoftherubble · 2 months

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把死人给带回来？难道...?！

// If They Are Bringing Back the Dead...

This post contains spoilers for Chapter 184.1 of To Your Eternity.

It also contains speculations galore. This is NOT a meta essay.

Shoutout to my homie branetheory in Discord!

Thanks to them, I was reminded of what Parts of My Brain had wanted to talk about:

Bruh. I can't believe ToFu made me so high last night that I forgot to talk about this.

Honestly I regret nothing Okay, memory water.

A little Kafka Aside: I'm gonna have to consciously ignore how... not-there the scientific backing for this is. Honestly, this Memory Water thing reminded me of the New Age/Pseudoscientific idea of "water memory" or Masaru Emoto's "water consciousness" thing or DNA teleportation. However, this is a story where weirder shits have happened, so suspension of disbelief willingly and gleefully granted. I just need to get this out of my head first.

To reiterate, Kaibara's experimental procedure involves

Extracting cells from a person's body

"Turn" it into water (how?)

Make a "clone" drink it (who?)

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Who could these clones be?

The only clones we know so far are the Mizuha clones. Their existence seems to imply a similar purpose to Hayase's descendants—they are supposed to inherit Hayase's Will, which is 95% "get injected with a tumor we call the Left Hand Nokker."

But Nokkers have long become invisible and fully integrated into this ecosystem. In the Future Era, they are embedded in tag chips, and they grant the bodies they possess all sorts of abilities and augmentations.

What would an inheritance of Hayase's Will even look like here? At first, I thought it would be similar: a tag chip with the Left Hand in it. Mizuha's, uh, possession (for the lack of a better word) manifested through the same mechanism other Nokkers used, after all.

However, the story gradually told us that the clones had all been massacred via an unknown operation for yet-untold reasons. Why would they do that?

Were these clones failures?

If they were failures, then it would make sense why Kaibara treated them as disposable; after all, in the past, the Guardians always exalted Hayase's Descendant(s) no matter how incompetent they were at their mission. Failure to secure Fushi's seeds I mean love never made them disposable enough to be killed, right?

So, as branetheory (crediting my homie even though they might not see this ahahhahah) also thought—

Could it be that Hayase herself has been successfully reincarnated in the body of one of these clones? (8)

I assigned this hypothesis an 8, or "80% confidence level."

Is she who you're gonna see, Bon?

Why would Kaibara need so many Mizuha clones in the first place? They only need one Descendant. They only have one Left-Hand Nokker...

Unless these clones were made specifically for bringing back Hayase. They were all experiments. Few experiments ever go right at the first trial. But this? Experiments this challenging and important as "recreating our legendary progenitor, Hayase?"

It will definitely require a lot of trial and error. So these clones were made to be expendables.

Honestly, who would name their offspring with numbers if they weren't meant to be seen as expendables?

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There is an interesting point to note: Memory Water only works if one has a Nokker implanted in them. Remember how Abel can't drink it and instantly know the answers to their stupid-ass questions?

So do all clones have Nokkers implanted in them? They all own a tag chip, after all. But there is only one Left Hand Nokker, and that bitch seems deadset on possessing only Hayase's appointed heir (or in this case, Hayase herself).

Does that mean

all the clones have their own Nokkers, but none of it is the Left Hand, until the Experiment? (3) OR

all the clones have empty tag chips until the Experiment, in which the Left Hand Nokker is then implanted inside before the subject drinks the Memory Water? (6) OR

other hypotheses I could not think of at the moment? (1)

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Doro and Her Sisters: Were They Trying To Stage a Rebellion Against Kaibara's Highest Echelon? (7)

Assigned (7); "70% confidence level"

Could this scene actually depict a failed experimental result, where #32/Doro was the subject? After all, she didn't look like she died in a massacre. She looked like she died alone, leaving her sisters behind..

Doro liaisoned with Fushi in secret. So secretly, Tonari didn't know it happened.

Why would she do that? Way back then, me and the Discord gang had speculated some sort of clash between Doro and the rest of Kaibara. At that time, I think our speculation was that it had to do with the Wish-granting Orb specifically.

But now, with this new information in mind...

Could it be that the liaison was part of the clones' planned rebellion? (6)

Assigned 6; "60% confidence level."

It could be that, in addition to passing vital information about Kaibara to Fushi (who is still not exactly forthcoming about what they know so far), Doro was also trying to ensure that the Wish-granting Orb will never fall into the Highest Echelon's hands.

Was her conviction formed out of concerns about what Kaibara might do with the orb?

Or was her reasoning more pragmatic—she didn't want Kaibara to have the power to crush her rebellion?

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Back to the number-as-naming convention. What if these weren't names, but the assigned turn of each clone for the ultimate experiment (6)? If that's the case, then Doro is the 32nd experiment that failed.

That's a lot. And the fact that she failed would mean the experiment will keep going. The clones will keep being bred to be used for these experiments. It's a conflict ripe for seeds of rebellion, right?

And so, there are extra hypotheses as to why the clones were massacred in the first place:

Hayase has been successfully reincarnated (8)

The clones' rebellion plan has been found out (7)

Hayase has been successfully reincarnated AND the clones' rebellion plan has been found out (5.6; 8/10×7/10)

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Dolly's Purpose(s)

While Doll's original purpose might have been for amusement and fun—Doro rescued it from some trash heap and just engineered it to be a playmate—I had always found its ability to dish out powerful punches suspicious. Why would a playmate be good at granting people concussions in the first place?!

And it was good enough to take out mercenaries, right?

I'm quite confident that Doll's punch is a defensive ability to guard whatever's stored in its memory (9).

I should review what Previous Me had speculated:

Doll holds Doro's brainwaves or consciousness

Doll holds the Left Hand Nokker within it

Doll is a combination of Doro's consciousness/brainwaves and its original AI

There is also the speculation that Doll is the Wish-granting Orb itself, but I think the confidence level for that hypothesis has gone pretty low... at least to me, personally. It sits at less than 10%.

Now, I want to add new hypotheses and rearrange them from most confident to least:

Doll's memories include Kaibara's top secret: key infrastructures, their real master(s), their experiments, whatever information they have gained about the Wish-granting Orb, their master plan to counter Fushi, and the like. Things that could give rebelling clones an edge. (8)

Doll holds Doro's brainwaves/consciousness integrated within its original AI (7)

Doll holds Doro's brainwaves/consciousness AND it is Doro's consciousness/memories that possess knowledge of Kaibara's top secret (5.6; 8/10×7/10)

Doll holds the Left Hand Nokker (less than 2)

The first (and by extension, the third) hypothesis can be supplemented by the fact that Kaibara really wants the Doll. Why, if not because the Doll holds vital information regarding the entire company?

They could go after it for Doro's consciousness, sure, but the priority would drop a lot more, wouldn't it? ...Unless the third hypothesis is true!

The second hypothesis can be partially supplemented by Abel's dedication to possessing the Doll; he really cherished Doro, and to him, the Doll could lead him to her again. He also claimed that Doro "is still alive," though when pressed, he gave no evidence.

Was it wistful thinking, or could he have been privy to Doro's experiment to transfer her consciousness into Doll? Did he really know nothing about Doro's death?

There is also the "Now I am human" line Doro uttered while blindfolded. Given we now know what the clones are used for, Doro might see her existence to be inhuman/subhuman because of her real purpose. Maybe, to her, she could feel more human by being a doll than in her human body.

Hell, who knows? Doro might secretly envy Abel's humanness—a guy who was likely born from normal copulation and couldn't fit in with the rest of the Tagged society, yet all the more a genuine human being than the rest of them.

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What is the nature of Doll's Brainwaves?

Could it have been a digital transfer, or could it have used a similar mechanism to the Memory Water?

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Miscellaneous Implications of Memory Water Bringing Back the Dead

Bruh I swear if they reincarnated the Nameless Boy to torment Fushi I will fucking sever my friendship with Left Hand Nokker and nuke their Paradise. Oh hi Left Hand, nothing over here.

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And that concludes my hypotheses round-up, updated to only Chapter 184.1. Remember! Y'all are always welcome to reblog and add your own thoughts to it!

Fuck, I will be so honored if y'all Fushi-fied my writing by adding absolutely anything.

Thank you for reading my ramble. Rest assured, I have prepared just the right image for the moment I clown myself by having most of my hypotheses come out spectacularly falsified:

(Hi everyone this is Kei from Ajin)

#Man. I know I have adopted the “confidence level assignment” habit since I learned about super-forecasting and got a bit better at stats #But I never really knew how to incorporate it to help me organize my hypotheses and speculations...#...until lately. I feel like all I've been doing is TRYING TO FIGURE THINGS OUT AND SPECULATE HERE AND THERE #My livewired brain has evolved in a very specific way. I just know it.#What I don't know is whether I should thank the chief instigator for this evolution. Or strangle them.#Maybe both. Pretty sure (99% confidence level) they deserve both. Aye guys?#fumetsu no anata e #to your eternity #fnae #fnae spoilers #fnae manga spoilers #tye #tye spoilers #Wish Era #speculations and hypotheses

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thesocialgeek-blog2 · 7 years

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Getting Straight with Goals

At the near start of the year, I wrote down a set of goals that I wanted to achieve and a new set of habits that I wanted to adopt in the my lifestyle.

That list was as follows:

I was confident in that what all I listed were all well thought-out, elaborated, and aligned well towards the things that I most wanted to work towards. I made sure that the things these revolved in what are three important aspects of someones life: Romantic Relationships, Career, and Physical Health

This document was seen not only as a reminder but as an ultimatum for what was going to get accomplished this year. Alongside having this document in my room in plain sight to act as a reminder, I also disciplined myself each weekended to write in a small moleskin notebook all the tasks and assignments I was going to undertake at the start of each week which would work accordingly with each thing listed on the document.

For about three weeks, I was persistent on having everything I written in the document stay in my mind’s focus and kept writing in my notebook everything that was necessary for me to do: Making approaches, actively speaking with my friends and acquaintances, making active efforts on dating sites/apps, attending certain clubs and events at my college, knocking off chapters of my books, sitting in my backyard and counting a hundred breaths- you name it.

By the time the first three weeks were up, I stopped writing in my journal and dropped doing all weekly homework I usually assigned for myself, except for ones that dealt with getting in shape and maintaining a reading habit. Reading is something I have no trouble stopping since its something that I naturally like to do in my leisure. As opposed to being an on-and-off reader I wanted to become a more ardent one. As for working out, the short answer to that is was how being strong and fit had began to become part of my character since a few weeks ago when I started hitting the gym, and to this day, it continues to fuel me continue working on becoming more so.

So what stopped me?...

I can only be certain with a couple of factors that made me stop in my tracks but I don’t think I have any better answers than most people who attempt at picking up new things:

“I loss interest” - “I loss the energy”- “I didn’t find it helpful” - “I forgot about it” - “Things came up”

These excuses can all apply with some short thought, but I’d say the appropriate reasoning surrounding this, both with personal insight into how the things I went for in the past stuck, stuck, and with knowledge I have from books I read on goal-setting, is that they didn’t click. This is still a long-shot of providing an accurate answer since its quite vague. That about the same answer that is applied for why people who form tight-romantic bonds do, which still leaves the matter a mystery, but it at least in some sense asserts that I wasn’t emotionally and mindfully invested in pursuing them.

The other day I went to have conversations with strangers and this was reconciled to be for the good of exercising my conversational skills and to interact with the opposite sex more. But what of it? What long term goals does this activity fall into following up to? I can speculate that these activities can makeup parts of the path in becoming a better conversationalist, expanding my social circle, and being less anxious towards engaging people, especially women. I didn't have accomplishing any of these goals in my mind however when I just went out of my way on the one afternoon to speak with strangers.

It was only out of hyperventilating-bent anxiety that sprung up in the hours before working on the assignment that made me do so. The morning of that day was spent attending a local renaissance fair. Intermittently I wrestled and tried bearing with depressing thoughts revolving around my loneliness and enviousness towards people like my younger brother who had a girlfriend accompanying him at the fair.

In the midst of my heightened anxiety, I was sprawled on my bed where I passed out after coming back from the fair. I had no other intent other than just falling asleep flat on my stomach with my dirty clothes and make-shift elf ears glued still onto my ears.

“My brother is probably having the time of his life embracing and spooning his exhausted body all over his girlfriend in his room right now”

“I have no one who wants to be with me in bed and my 20′s will waste away having no one to share a moment like that with”

Those were the last lines of inner monologue that hit me before energy had miraculously surged through me, giving me the strength to my get my tired ass out of bed and enter a extremely cold shower with no hesitation. The shower had worked to release me from the negative mind state that gripped me. My anxious demeanor, shaky in movement and breathe, had transitioned to a saddened one. I didn’t cry but several grief stricken gasps escaped me while I had my arms wrapped myself tightly.

In my minds eyes, I’m already a built man with lots of physical strength. No external opinions and judgement assigned me this self image. Even before I began lifting weights, despite being a fairly slim man with little lean muscle, I already envisioned that I was meant to be physically fit and active and that nothing was going to stop me from being that way. Nothing was going to stop me from becoming who I was supposed to be either. I have and still continue to risk my academic performance in part by the training regiment I undergo which has me turn to the gym five times a week.

On another note, there are probably few things that make me feel alive other than hitting up the gym. I fell in love with lifting weights and pushing myself doing cardio while having metal and heavy rock blast in my ears through my headphones. I love the feeling of my muscles being tight and sore. I love being drenched in sweet after my workouts. I love taking long nice showers in the locker rooms. I love to be in the presence of other dudes like me who are tall, slim, and packed a set of good lean muscles as well as other men who were burly and beefy. If I couldn’t be part of a frat or Greek group to feel the sense of belonging to the type of men who are in them, I could attain so solely from going to the gym.

Do I also see myself as the kind of man who has in himself to have the personality and skills to be able to build relationships that are strong and/or otherwise romantic? Out of most things, I guess that’s just one of the only things that I don’t dare to envision since I think that’s something I often don’t see to be possible. The idea of having a lover by my side, is stature embellished with power too great to find myself worthy of ever having.

Socializing and building relationships are things that still remain to be mysterious on an intuitive basis. I have yet to have raw exposure to the nature of rapport building and exchange of deep intimacy between someone.

I want to have my social and love life remain on the forefront as to what I work on now since I believe doing so will have the biggest impact on my life. Regardless of how my progress goes, I don’t want to stop learning. I want to always remain in the position as the observer and I damn well know I have the capacity be one with the same level of perceptiveness and analytical scrutiny as that of a scientist. Just as Charles Darwin, through years of careful observation and study, had distinguished different species and discerned some possible evolutionary ties between them, I think socializing and relationships has its own set of general patterns and notions that, likewise, can be discerned.

My blog was created to serve as a repository of all my notes, field reports, analytical pieces, and personal reflections and stories. I hope to have the blog inspire those who share the feelings of intimidation but fascination with these areas. I also hope that my blog serves to inspire hope and courage for those facing similar dispositions as I do that concern the lack of a fulfilling social and love life.

Unto getting goals straight. For now, the list has been revised to a single goal:

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New Goal: Acquire a date with a woman

Date - An arrangement between individuals for a romantic or social engagement. Conventionally, this is a type of private arrangement between two individuals.

I want to successfully make a friendly acquaintance with girl and ask her out on a date with me. _____________________________________________________________

#social skill #relationships #self improvement #goals #achievment #spirit #love #love life #social life #development #future plans #resolution #skills #women #men

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