"Today I will write some backstory stuff. It will be short, probably only a page or two."

"..."

"Uh oh"

commi for @the-blackest-nights❤️ thank you sooo much!!

can't write trans yashiro meta without writing down the bisexuality meta first, can't write the bisexuality meta without bringing up transgender reading. oh the misery

sorry guys i'm alive, i swear, i'm just...

*sigh*

Cleaning. :/

honestly at this rate, i’m considering going back to fic writing/drawing fan works full swing

just hit me its the first time Im sick while alone in my own apartment. milestones I guess

ooc;; lil update!! (a little venty I suppose, apologies)

aahh its been a day. I . started my day wth my dog being sick in... a variety of ways off and on (i wasnt able to sleep a lot bc of it ;-; poor guy needed to go out every like. hour + was heaving too. almost missed the transit bc of cleaning up ?? you know

+ when I got home my older brother who's been visiting from BC had to be carted away via ambulance bc he couldn't move <:' ) he'd hurt his back pretty badly a few months ago and something let go tonight. so !!

all that being said I might be a little absent this week. hopefully both boys feel better soon. I'm worried sick over them + am, a bit afraid of falling asleep too deeply lest my dog shit / v*m on the floor and have to sit in the room with it bc I've passed out cold orz" .....vet tomorrow if hes still ucky feeling. idk if that warrants staying home with him (bc im afraid he'll shit and v* on the floor/on the deck ? and generally just not knowing whats wrong with him) but !! i huheuhugghh I waNT TO

who gave sharp the audacity to be so kind, loving, sweetest person. D:< no amount of words i can put up will ever be able to contain the vibe he has; i desperately need a drink with him and i dont even drink and he doesn't even exist!

can i ask if you saw the iwtv show? like... idk how to say this but like, its giving CW show vibes... Lestat isnt even fun or flamboyent he looks like he hatecrimes people... am i crazy? they had gay sex first episode but it theres no chemistry at all

i havent watched it yet babe alskfjamdfas i watch maybe like...one or two shows per year and i'll probably get around to watching iwtv in 2023

as someone whose played neither (yet) , how different is limbus company from lobotomy corp? i mean lore and character-wise. im really interested in the limbus company dudes but i dont really like that sort of gameplay, so basically just asking if theyre in the same universe. and do you think it would be fulfilling to watch a playthru?

asking bc you make pretty arts on these and i trust your judgement. your art is juicy man and i love it

lore and character wise... they're set in the same universe/world/setting, but in lobcorp you are In A Basement Underground and don't see too much of the city outside outside of some mentions of "wow there's problems". it's also a completely different set of characters from limbus

however the story still is REALLY GOOD and sets up stuff in the sequel stuff (lor and lcb) so if you do get into limbus or lor at some point it'll be like "woah... lobcorp mentioned...!"

n what if i put out a ascian aphrodite starter call huh what if i do...

like for ascian aphrodite starter mayhaps... id say multis specify muse(s) but replies arent working so...lmk

urehghdhgdhghg. whf is generally... listen. she gets it. she understands why people end up working for corps - she was one of them. it put metaphorical food on the metaphorical table. it paid for medical bills, piling up. it let her keep the people relying on her afloat. she won't apologize for making the decisions she made and doing what she had to do.

cut bc Longe. post abt takemura mostly.

but she never liked the corp itself, and only pretended she did when she had to. she worked in cybernetics programming, not intelligence, not public relations - she was tucked away in a basement lab, testing software integrations. no one looked at her for too long, let alone cared about how strongly she believed in arasaka's great vision. and behind all that, behind the chip she let them put in her to dull the edges of her emotions, there's just a massive, massive onslaught of rage.

listening to takemura talk up the Order and Overwatch of arasaka like it's a benevolent patriarch makes her want to climb off the side of the unfinished building they're doing a stakeout on and just hit the concrete, it'd be faster and less painless than her head exploding.

takemura, look at yourself. look at her. both of us are from respective slums created by corporate bullshit. she's been in debt since before she knew how to count, inherited and generated out of thin air as everyone she cared about fell victim to the poisoned air, the poisoned water, the poisoned earth - all effects of corpos running amok, unfettered. it's not like he doesn't know - it's just that he's convinced himself otherwise. seen what he wanted to see. and she was like that, too, before leaving arasaka for good. she knew, conceptually, that there were worse things under her feet. that some of her work was being used for horrible things. but there was only the desperate tunnel of needing to make it through to the next paycheck. and she stayed until the very last possible fucking second because - because it was only on the brink of having them take the last ten years of her life away from her that she realized she couldn't rationalize that away, and she had to stop doing it for everything else, too.

so sure, talk to hanako. do whatever you've got to do based on whatever loyalties you've got to honor. but don't fucking pretend, don't fucking lie to yourself that you were ever anything other than lucky. you worked hard, but a corp is a massive beast. you just got lucky. every day you got lucky except for that one day.

just like her. every day she got lucky. except for that one day.

meanwhile johnny's just sitting over there listening to all of this and it's the most she's ever spoken about anything prior to the corp, really, and it's usually walled off in her mind behind the arasaka no-feelings implant, so he's... interested, but also so fucking. sad. he guesses. he's sad because she's sad. except she's just empty, and the only thing left (because there is No One left; they've all gone and the years she spent trying to keep them alive feel completely and utterly wasted now because who is she to fight entropy. who is she to fight the corps. who is she to fight the decay of the planet) is just a well of anger so deep he's surprised he's never tripped over it before. not that he pries, exactly, but it's so obvious now that he's seen it. she's got so much of it and so little of anything else left, and he hates to see a mirror in her in this way.

You read the RGU manga? Tragic, RGU is easily the top five: "Skip the manga, only watch the anime."

Anyway, yeah. Mikage is only sixteen.

I think he suffers from the RGU: "He does not look at all like that on the actual show." cuz his appearance on the anime is clearly of a teenager.

AH. see thats a teenager the other image was most definitely giving 60 year old professor. also to clarify i tried to read the manga via my highschool's library but i never made it past volume 1 bc they had that, skipped 2 and 3, but had 4.

and ik it was high school bc somehwere on one of my blogs is a post of an utena doodle i did back then on a sticky note

I walked into a fast food place and when the person asked what I wanted, despite knowing exactly what I planned on ordering, I short-circuited for a solid fifteen to twenty seconds before finally saying "I just want a burger...meal..."

so that's how I'm doing rn

THAT'S IT I'm making another mask

hiya, im remaking this post bc donations have stopped and im still without a cash flow bc i haven’t started my job yet, im tyler black trans autistic guy tldr got kicked out by my abusive parent and had to quit my job and move states for safe housing

I recently had to pay bills and buy work appropriate clothing for my job that ill be starting on the 11th as i was not able to bring many clothes with me when i was kicked out, ive been relying solely on donos or commission request and when i start this job it will be biweekly pay meaning i will get paid on the 29th

todays the 15th and im running low on gas again and need to pay my phone bill soon, if i could get help id appreciate it :T any kind of support would be lifesaving thankyou for reading and sorry again

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