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nameification · 1 year

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7, 9, 14, 35?

7. favorite verse?

uasdjfbadsjh this one's hard.... hmmmm.... I'll go with It's No Game (Pt. 1) by David Bowie

Documentaries on refugees Couples 'gainst the target You throw a rock against the road And it breaks into pieces Draw the blinds on yesterday And it's all so much scarier Put a bullet in my brain And it makes all the papers

It's also like. the backing track that adds to this. Gonna be honest I love a lot of Bowie songs cause of the guitar

9. favorite chorus?

At pambihira Ang laki mong tanga Ipaghahanda ka pa namin ng tinola Lunurin natin silang lahat

Antidisestablishmentarianism by Dasu

It was a choice between this and Nakakapagpabagabag so I flipped a coin and got this one. I love Dasu songs so much aaadashssdh

If it was Nakakapagpabagabag it would've been

Sinabihan na kitang tumakbo papalayo sa mundong Nakakapagpabagabag Pinilit kong sagipin ang mga naliligaw sa dilim Nakakapagpabagabag

OH and also Curses by The Crane Wives but honestly those two are probs higher up for me. I'm gonna get into The Last Supper from JCS later cause fhasdkjfjd (and also idrk if the apostles' lines are considered chorus? idk)

14. most clever lyric?

Ipaghahanda ka pa namin ng tinola -Antidisestablishmentarianism by Dasu

The song in my interpretation is about corruption and injustice in media/politics and this tinola line is referencing this moment in Noli Me Tangere where Padre Damaso is served Tinola and asijdhidjfufhj

Also kind of just anything from Feast or Famine from the Starkid Black Friday musical. I love critiques on capitalism and consumerism and yes the cut song from the Lorax "Biggering" is also in the same spot

OH WAIT HANG ON JESUS CHRIST SUPERSTAR. okay so there's parts from Heaven On Their Minds that make me go Fucking Insane and then just. the breaking of the bread and then Jesus's freakout and then the following fight between him and Judas AND THEN ALSO JUST THE APOSTLES IN THE CHORUS and then also Gethsemane cause sahdlf

okay so

And all the good you've done Will soon get swept away. You've begun to matter more Than the things you say. -Heaven on Their Minds

Judas is talking about Jesus and about how his followers care only about heaven and their salvation and not about the teachings AND THIS SONG WAS WRITTEN IN THE SEVENTIES. IT STILL APPLIES TODAY. AND PROBABLY WILL APPLY FOR HOWEVER LONG CHRISTIANITY EXISTS

Then when we retire, we can write the Gospels So they'll still talk about us when we've died. -The Last Supper

It's the last line in the Apostles' verse and it also combines with the slight variation after Jesus and Judas have their little fight

What's that in the bread? It's gone to my head

That line happens a little earlier in the apostles' verse but if you look at the full lyrics/listen to it you'll see what I mean. The song implies that Jesus' followers' motives were more selfish than they portrayed it as and the What's that in the bread its gone to my head line ALSO accentuates this cause the apostles are DRUNK and were told they just ate the flesh and drank the blood of the Son of God

I wanna get more but I am. oufudghug thoughts thoughts thoughts

35. song that made you tear up a bit/gave you the chills/induced any other similar emotional reaction in you when you first listened to it?

Caught A Ghost's version of In The Pines! I found it on spotify while looking for the version that was used in that one SCP Confinement video (link here) and I hpnestly love it??? definitely more but that's the one on my head rn

#viv.txt #the mailbox #HI MAE I TOOK LONG ON THIS CAUSE I LOVE JCS #ask game

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theveesystem · 3 months

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vox and Val for the ask game

OOOK; long post ahead

Vox;

My first impression; I thought he looked pretty cool, wasnt paying too much attention (back when I watched the pilot around two years ago)

My impression now; ABAHAHAHHEGDYS HES SO SILLY AND AMAZING AND EVIL I WOULD DIE TO EVEN INTERACT WITH HIM WHAT THE SHIT <3<3<3

Favorite thing about that character; His silly cat-coded behaviour

Least favorite thing; eeeeerrr... probably the fact he lost against Alastor :/

Favorite line/scene; THE DANCE SCENE IN EPISODE EIGHT HSHSHHDHDHS

Favorite interaction that character has with another; refer to previous answer

A character that I wish that character would interact with more; VAL. VALENTINO. WE NEED MORE STATICMOTH.

Another character from another fandom that reminds me of that character; ..idrk

A headcanon about that character; He has a sort of purring sound he makes when he's calm or happy.

A song that reminds of that character; The second half of: Valentino by years and years

An unpopular opinion about that character; ..He's probably a top

Favorite picture;

Valentino:

My first impression; ...what the fuck he's hot but also why abuser.

My impression now; ..babe stop abusing people and also FUCKINGHOTMANWHATTHESHIT

Favorite thing about that character; he squeaky

Least favorite thing; abuser

Favorite line/scene; ..gotta say it's when he says good boy.

Favorite interaction that character has with another; DANCING WITH VOX BBJFJBSJBSVJJNVJNDNSFJDGJDHJUG

A character that I wish that character would interact with more; Vox. WE NEED MORE STATICMOTH.

Another character from another fandom that reminds me of that character; ..idrk

A headcanon about that character; he's partially deaf since one of his antennae are broken, and he needs prescription glasses because this mf is blind af

A song that reminds of that character; Mixed Messages

An unpopular opinion about that character; ..I mean he's my favourite character while most other people want him to burn and die

Favorite picture; either of these :3

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purplesurveys · 1 year

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satiating my craving for bts-related questions part 1/5

what's the first bts song you heard? To be honest with you I don’t think I’ll ever know the True Answer to this because they’ve been mainstream for a while now, and I know I’ve caught some of their songs on the radio back in college. If I had to guess it’d probably be something like DNA or Boy With Luv; but I would say the first song I heard when I was starting to give them a chance in 2020 was Dynamite. I feel like that song was a massive entryway for many of the current fans.

what's the first bts music video you watched? The first time I willingly watched a music video of theirs was in December 2020 when I watched Dynamite. At the time I wasn’t invested in the boys themselves and only watched the video because I liked the song.

who/what made you start stanning bts? So Angela urged me very early on and was always telling me stories about the guys, but I was pretty unmoveable until my Facebook feed fed me a short video from the Hawaii season of Bon Voyage – it was a snippet from that episode where they entered a restaurant one by one to order and speak with the nice old lady completely in English, and from there it was color me smitten lol.

Literally right after finishing the video I rushed to ask my sister to teach me their names, which took me a good few days to memorize.

who was your first bias and is now your current bias?

So from that Bon Voyage snippet, I formed a Hobi bias, right off the bat.

Then it turned to Jin, which I’d say was largely an influence of Angela’s since she’s a Jin bias hahaha.

Though once I started becoming a more invested fan and having my own thoughts about the group and all, it became Taehyung – and it was Taehyung for a really long time up until very recently.

Around a month ago I’ve switched biases and since then it’s been Namjoon.

you can only listen to one album for the rest of your life. which? the tweet i saw this from included photos of be, ly tear, mots 7, and dark & wild. This would be a very easy MOTS: 7 for me. Obviously I love the group’s entire discography, but personally Map of the Soul 7 is the album I’d listen from start to end without feeling like skipping any single song, ever.

You’ve got the guys’ intensity shining through on every OT7 track, the vibe of every subunit in their respective songs, a taste of each member’s personal music taste in the solo tracks, idrk what else you can ask from such a great release. Big shame Covid ruined the massive hype that was building up around the album.

what's your favourite collab? Steve Aoki. I really can’t live without that Mic Drop remix. Who with Lauv is amazing too! I’m also a fan of Coldtan largely because of the mutual respect and bond within the two.

what's your favourite bts japanese song? Your Eyes Tell. I’m obsessed with their Japanese discography in general, but I will say Your Eyes Tell is an extremely easy decision to make.

you can only choose one cypher! Contrary to most Armys’ preferences I’m not actually the craziest fan of the cyphers hahaha since they’re all very in-your-face rap, but I have to say Killer is my favorite. Triptych is also great, idk why it doesn’t get nearly as much hype as Killer and Cypher 4.

if your @ is bts related what does it mean? Obviously my username here isn’t, but I do have a secondary Twitter account for BTS fangirling stuff – sparklythv. It’s pretty self-explanatory, it’s just me and my appreciation for all the times Taehyung has looked all sparkly and pretty.

whose birthday is closest to yours? Yoongi’s is a month before mine.

favourite rap line song? UGH! Another easy decision to make, but Outro: Tear also gives it a run for its money.

favourite vocal line song? The Truth Untold. 00:00 is another favorite on other days.

zodiac compatibility with your bias? Idk and don’t care for this.

what’s your mbti compatibility with your bias? I actually researched this recently and saw that I’m apparently most compatible with Taehyung. I honestly thought it would’ve been Namjoon.

favourite songs in d2 and agust d? The Last from Agust D; Dear my friend from D-2.

favourite songs in hope world and jitb? Base Line or Blue Side from Hope World; Arson or What If from JITB. I’m just obsessed with everything j-hope lol

favourite songs in mono and RM? Joke from RM; everythingoes or uhgood from mono.

what official merch do you own? Uh...so many hahaha should I really delve on this?? I’ve got all albums in all their versions save for the LY series, MOTS Persona series, and MOTS 7 series; all the DVDs released starting April 2021 when I became a fan; a bunch of photocards and postcards I’ve bought individually; BT21 plushies; and a bunch of other miscellaneous merch like the BTS coffees, BTS Meal packaging, postcard books, mood light, a TinyTan V pen haha the list goes on, really.

ever seen the tannies live? I haven’t. The most beautiful moments in life take some time.

who are tannies to you? Best friends.

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poptod · 3 years

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Cyber Security (Elliot Alderson)

Description: An online ad leads him to you, though in reality he has little interest in your ad. What interests him is how you accidentally doxxed yourself and how oblivious you are to that fact.

Notes: idrk what to say about this one its one of those things that i wrote at midnight after almost falling asleep to a fantasy and then realizing it could work as a fic. like i did this same thing with ‘close your eyes’ that one was also a before-bed-to-get-to-sleep fantasy. this is also not a particularly romantic interaction, though it can be read as such WC: 2.2k

Sweat drenched his sheets, bathing him in the cold wind that breezed past his only air conditioner lodged in a nearby window. He stared blankly upwards, half shivering and half overheated, as he once again found himself in a familiar predicament—the practice of sleep.

It was no secret he had trouble calming himself down, and that aspect of himself reached into the evening, as well. He already downed three melatonin pills hours earlier, along with smoking a joint that should’ve put him to bed. Unsurprisingly, that did not work.

“Xanax,” he mumbled to himself, hearing it bounce back from empty walls. “Need to get xanax.”

In the meantime he raised himself to his feet, padding across freezing floors to his computer. With a click of a button the white screen buzzed to life, shining bright onto his sleep-heavy eyes, that did their best to acclimatize to the sudden change.

Hypnotization—strange as it might’ve been—had worked a couple times before. Not all the time, but decently enough to give it a try. He had work in the morning and he didn’t need to be more miserable than usual, especially since he hadn’t slept almost the entire weekend.

sleep hypnosis

The blinker flickered for a moment before his fourth finger slammed down on enter, the last step in calculated movements. What popped up first was a video titled [ SLEEP HYPNOSIS ] 8 Hour Loop with a screencap of a spinning black and white screen. Below that, however, was something he hadn’t seen before—a YouTube video titled exactly what he’d typed, lacking the caps just as he had. The title screen appeared to be some sort of poorly-drawn painting.

Curiosity overcame his hazy, aching head, and he clicked, finding a playlist of videos containing what could be the titles of songs, along with several different poorly-drawn title screens.

The first video began to play before he could realize it. What he first noticed was it was bereft of ads—that meant the publisher made no money off the album.

Sat in the presence of God

whose name means filthy old fraud

Captions had been manually added by, he assumed, you. The author. There were three views on the video, no comments, and no likes, leaving few other options.

Maybe it was the melody—maybe the lyrics, who talked of a world plagued by aristocrats. But he found his eyelids heavy, dropping dark eyelashes in his vision that blurred the screen. By the third song, reciting verses of an Islamic poem, he was slouched in his seat.

He slid down to the floor, crawling his way back to flop onto his bed. The music continued to play till the first ad popped up, at which time he opened his eyes, seeing a music video from Katy Perry, at which time he promptly reached over and unplugged his computer. He wasn’t sure which cord he pulled out, but the screen still went black. With that, he just barely sneaked into his covers, dozing until the morning.

It was far too easy to get information on you. Your full name was stated clearly in your youtube bio, alongside several different social media tags leading to instagram, tumblr, and facebook.

Facebook alone provided him the means to your address, and he didn’t even have to go looking for it. Your most recent post was an ad, searching for someone good with computers to aid you in your recording process, which you noted as ‘dismal’.

Are you fucking kidding me? He thought to himself, reading the ad once more.

Your address, your real, physical address was stated as the place you wanted to meet those interested in helping you. On the internet. You had doxxed yourself after less than a year of being online.

Okay, he thought, clicking on your listed email. Someone needs to be taught a lesson.

Three days later—after about two weeks of listening to your echoing voice every night—you replied, sending a cheerful email detailing when you would be available to meet him. After shooting a short message back, the date was organized.

Two more days and he was standing at your doorstep, his neck craned upwards as he scanned your tall, narrow home squished between two other apartments. He just barely knocked before the black door swung open, revealing a familiar face belonging to a stranger. Elliot was dressed in his black hoodie and jeans, a stark difference to your long, colorful robes, coming out of a sort of fantasy world.

“Hi,” he said, his voice grating with how low and quiet he kept it.

“Hello,” you said with a smile that did not match his hunched posture. “Are you Mr. Alderson?”

“Elliot,” he corrected, his chin just barely raising to meet you. “Elliot Alderson. Elliot works.”

“Alright,” you said, nodding. “Come inside? I was just making tea. Do you like tea? Or do you prefer coffee?”

“I... I’m fine, thanks,” he said softly, scooting past you when you opened the door wide enough for him to enter. He sucked in a breath as his chest brushed yours.

Your home was modern—far fancier than Elliot’s own apartment, with large windows flanked by soft grey curtains. A small, upright piano was in the corner of the living room, set upon a reed mat lined with Korean symbols. The couch was clinical, made of a sort of black plastic leather that matched the grey skies beyond the window panes.

He sat down, shifting his feet closer together as his fingers dug into his palms, continuing to scan the room in its’ entirety until you returned with your own tea.

“What kind of experience do you have? School counts,” you said, setting your cup down on a tiny plate whose decorations matched your teacup.

“I’ve been... experimenting, with computers, since I was around 9,” he said, mumbling the words out as his shoulders hunched awkwardly down. “Have a job at a cyber security firm. Started a while back.”

“You still have that job?”

“Yeah,” he said with a small nod. “Jus’ thought this would be... fun.”

The dead look on his face indicated no humor whatsoever, but you took his word as it was.

“How’d you find the ad I put out?”

“I... I listened to your music,” he answered honestly for once. “Helps me fall asleep.”

“Oh,” you said, clearly taken aback. Your face grew warm as you glanced away with wide eyes. “I’m glad I could help.”

“You’re not very good with technology, though,” he said in his usual low, grating voice.

“Not really,” you chuckled sheepishly. “That’s why I put out the ad -“

“No, not that,” he interrupted you. “You put your physical address on the internet. You doxxed yourself. Do you even know how dangerous that is?”

The lyrics of your songs pointed towards a kind of brilliance, balanced against emotions felt thoroughly on pages and screens. It didn’t match your actions at all.

“What’s doxxing?” You asked.

Elliot had to physically stop himself from sighing and leaving.

“You want everyone to know where you, a minor celebrity, live?”

“I’d hardly call myself a -“

“I could’ve been a murderer,” he said, reaching into his bag.

He looked you in the eye as he pulled out a gun, clicking on the safety before he pointed it at you.

“This is how easy it would be to kill you.”

As expected, you stiffened at the sight of the iron barrel, your fingers withdrawing to your chest. Your lips pursed as you met his gaze once more.

“Please put the gun down,” you whispered, your voice cracking.

He did as you said, resting the gun on the table.

“That’s a hell of a way to start an interview, Mr. Alderson,” you said quietly. “Please get out of my house.”

His heart sank. What had he expected? For you to fall to your knees and sing to him as he desired you to do? He threatened you with a gun to teach you a lesson, and you reacted accordingly. Calmer than others would.

Elliot stood on shaky legs, sliding the pistol into his backpack before he zipped it up. Throwing the pack over his shoulder, he swallowed through a tight throat, shuffling as he delayed his departure.

“Keep safe from people like me,” he said in a strained mumble. “Take that ad down. Meet people from the internet only in inhabited, public areas.”

You tapped your fingernails on the table for a moment, chewing on your bottom lip. Suddenly you stood, tugging on his sweatshirt sleeve to get him to face you, instead of staring at his feet.

“Alright. If you’re really so good at the internet -“

He ignored your incorrect grammar.

“- and... if you actually do want to help me with my songs,” your tone softened, “then you’ll be able to find my real name, not my stage name. If you do.. I’ll hire you.”

“Alright,” he said monotone, knowing the battle was already won.

Even though he knew your name already, he turned away and left to his apartment, immediately going to work on figuring out everything he could about you. If you willingly still offered him the job after that, he knew it would take a lot to scare you off. He could impress you.

It was, after all, the only thing he was good at.

Two days later he showed up at your apartment again, quietly thanking you when you let him in. The clean floors and walls remained unchanged since his last visit, and you led him to the same table, sitting him down on the same seat.

“Your name is (Y/N) (L/N),” he started with. You already appeared to be surprise. “You grew up near LA and you’ve had a chronic illness all your life. At eleven you saw your first therapist.. that must’ve been when you first got diagnosed with depression... and anxiety.”

“Killer duo,” you muttered.

“Your parents split when you were thirteen, which came at the same time as your dog, Penelope, died. Or... sometime that year. When was that... 1997?”

“1999,” you said quietly.

“Your mom homeschooled you,” he continued. “That’s probably why you don’t know how computers work. Rather eclectic, in a.. boring way... an ex-Amish, right?”

You nodded and his heartbeat tripled. Everything was right thus far despite a two year difference in his guesstimate of your life’s timeline.

“Then there was your dad... logger in the Redwood forests. Burly guy. Not a great man, from what I saw,” he said.

“He was fine,” you said with a small shrug as you looked away. “Didn’t ever hurt me, or anything.”

“Abuse isn’t always physical,” he said faster than he could think, dizzied by his own memories playing behind his eyes.

“I know,” you murmured.

You went silent, so he continued, hoping to pry more precious words from you.

“Your favorite color is yellow,” he said, leaning closer to you. “On Valentine’s you get chocolate strawberries, and on easter you get kinder eggs.”

Nothing.

“You studied mythology as a kid, and you made paintings of the forest you lived in with your mom. Santa Cruz mountains, I think.”

“Yeah,” you said. “I miss the forests.”

“I know. You want to visit Ireland again because it’s a land of faeries and moss, it’s a breeding ground for your song lyrics.”

“How did you find all this out?” You finally asked.

“You use the same password on everything,” he said, though that was far from the actual answer. “Your web browser tracks all your movements and you don’t try to stop it, or hide ads, or stay away from sketchy websites. Your parents aren’t much better, either.”

You chuckled, shaking your head as you brought your hand to massage your brow.

“You’re way too smart to be helping me,” you said with soft laughter, blushing with your smile.

“It’s better than working for E Corp,” he said, huffing out a laugh that was hardly humored.

“E corp?”

“My.. uh, place of work,” he brushed off his slip. “My point is... I’d rather work with you and do easy work than work with my current fucking coworkers.”

You laughed, truly and fully this time, curling into a little ball that shook with the force of it. Your feet tucked into your tiny chair, making you even smaller.

“Bad people or just annoying?”

“Stupid,” he chuckled. “Don’t let me wear my sweatshirt.”

“Ooh, now it’s my turn,” you suddenly interrupted him, earning a strange look. “I’ve noticed things about you, too. I couldn’t learn anything off the computer, but you, you have anxiety too. Probably some childhood trauma.. maybe a dissociative disorder of sorts or a form of PTSD. Your jacket is like your home, and... you have sensory issues. Few types of fabric, don’t like to be touched, if I had to guess I’d say you might be autistic.”

“Blunt,” he said after a full minute’s silence.

“Do you mind?” You asked.

“No, not really.”

“Good. Then you’re hired,” you said with a smile, extending your hand for him to shake. “If you still want the job, of course.”

He watched you with evident apprehension, but took your hand after much thought, shaking with a firm grip.

“When do I start?”

#elliot alderson x reader #Elliot Alderson #mr robot #rami malek

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vampiremansionpoolboy-moved · 2 years

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for the character asks - robyn, rowan, quinn, ami with 1, 7, 9, 29 (you can do it in whatever order you like or you can answer all the questions for all of them, idrk you can decide!)

i’m just going to do what the answers are at the beginning of the books rather than the whole thing to keep it less confusing

1. How old are they?

rowan - 17

robyn - 15

quinn - 15

ami - 19

7. What are their hobbies?

rowan - boxing or training bc he’s scared of losing the ones he loves so he wants to be able to protect them

robyn - late night baking (she also becomes friends with her future gf that way)

quinn - podcasting, learning new magic, looking at badass pretty ladies, and solving mysteries

ami - swimming (she’s the team captain and holds state records), attempting to cook with her partners, and bundling up in blankets to watch movies

9. A song they like? (or a band, or a type of music)

rowan - yes he’s the buffy scary asian dude at ur gym. yes he likes 2000s girly pop. yes he will beat ur ass with katy perry california girls playing in the background.

robyn - she a big theater nerd and loves musicals but she also listens to some kpop (random mixture ik)

quinn - quinn will listen to everything from electronic punk to j-rock she even listens to classical sometimes but if u try to make her listen to country she will kill u in cold blood.

ami - i already answered this in another ask but she like indie pop and folk kinda music and specifically listens to mitski and ricky montgomery

29. Do they have any aesthetic that they really like?

rowan - hes a very serious person even tho he’s so young (but that comes with the whole being an orphan who lived for years in an academy where u learn to fight monsters) so he doesn’t rlly have time or care for aesthetics

robyn - ooh so loves like ball gowns and eleogent stuff and royal period dramas and her long beautiful hair is her pride and joy even tho it’s not practical in her line of work (monster fighting academy)

quinn - oh quinn is an art hoe thru and thru even tho the hoe part is more theoretical than literal but hey it could be romantic hoeing around bc she falls in love with a new person each book (and i’ve got a 5 book plan for this series) but anyways she knows this applies to her and embodies it fully

ami - she’s very much nice quiet girl in your english class who is actually a super crazy and amazing person once u get to know her but she really loves the like historic and vintage romances aesthetic like old pictures with sweet messages on the back and letters with pressed flowers etc etc u can tell she’s a hopeless romantic (i mean she has been in love with her childhood best friend for years)

#toad talks #we just got a letter #starry my beloved #long post

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daaziscoolbesties · 3 years

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i yearn for one(1) thing only, and that is to have a nice, simplistic, cartoonish artstyle. an artstyle that doesnt rely on anatomy, but the "movement" of the drawing, if you get what i mean.

i dont want realistic proportions and traditional colors and basic poses and gradient shading, i want funky lil dudes in funky poses with funky styles littering my sketchbook :( but alas i havent figured out how to develop that kind of style yet, my brain wants anatomy to look nice but also i dont want to draw eyes. i dont want to take time out of my day to learn how to draw lips i want to draw a line that extends past the characters face. i dont want all my characters to have pointy chins with curved cheeks i want their heads to be round and friend-like or full of sharp edges depending on their personalities and styles. i want to give them all not-quite human ears, blob feet, simple faces, but at the same time i want enough detail to convey the story or emotion im trying to tell.

ive spent so much time recently agonizing over how to use 3d model websites, using real-life references and tracing over them for practice, color-picking from real images to try and do realism and failing miserably, but you know whats easier than that? funky little dudes. little dudes who do not care if their legs are too long or their hair is too bouncy. i dont want my characters to look human.

ive spent enough time on the artfight website to realize that most people who classify their characters as "human" have the most basic ass designs (no offense to people who like basic human designs its just not my thing) or its like dnd-medieval style outfits which i cant draw for the life of me (ive tried). again no offense to people who actively enjoy and draw characters like that. i just need my dudes to have that certain,,, off-ness to them. tails are cool. wings are swag (especially if they arent even like,, fully attached,, ), elf ears are so wonderful to me no matter how much theyre overused, horns are so much fun to draw, and colors!! i have no knowledge in the color theory department so this works great for me!! the only thing i really know is dont shade with black, other than that i just colorpick from references usually but i dont want to do that!! i want the colors to hurt people's eyes but in a satisfying way. like the character's design is so nice to look at that you dont mind your eyes hurting a bit. like how im enjoying writing this post even though its 2 am and the brightness on my computer wont go any lower.

and then another thing ive noticed from being on the artfight website is that a lot of people classify their characters that are anthro/have anthro features under humanoids/monsters. like i made a google form to find some people to attack and someone sent me in a character with some sort of animal (wolf? idk) arms and legs. like dude!! peak character design i love her. but me personally? i cant draw that shit, its so hard for me. i tried a while back and its just Not my thing. nothing against furries i just. cant. and i dont want to either.

and i got another submission that i accidentally deleted that was like full anthro/wolf-like like my comrade,,, i cannot draw animals what makes you think i can draw an animal who acts like a human lmao. i can do like. very basic tails, and also animal ears but i cant do the arms and legs and such i just dont know the anatomy, and i know i was talking about how i dont want to care about anatomy but i feel like for anthros you really do need to know at least basic animal anatomy so you know how the limbs look and shit and i dont have that knowledge and dont feel like gaining it.

and then there were some submissions that i absolutely adored. there was one that like, was vaguely human shaped but definitely was not a human. they had a dark-ish lavender colored skin and horns and tusks and like goat ears and a sorta fluffy tail with spikes on it and they had wings and such and they were such a pleasure to draw i love them. and they had a fairly simple outfit too, nothing too complicated. and then i also enjoy object head characters, theyre so neato to me. i got one of those and i really wish i had the motivation to work on it cause it looks so fun.

i want to make funky characters but id have nothing to do with them because the only book i ever tried writing (key word tried - never got past planning it out) had strictly human characters in it, and most of the books i read are humans/humans with powers in situations specific to them so id have no idea what lore to make with the dudes. assuming i have the motivation to make lore and backstory because honestly i just really enjoy character designing its super duper fun.

(side note a song about trucks doing the deed came on just now and its interrupted my flow, apologies).

i only have three actual characters right now. one is an original roleplay oc whos design is literally athletic shorts, an oversized long sleeved grey sweatshirt, long purple hair, and demon horns. the second one is my persona whos design some sorta medival knight outfit kinda thing? but not ugly it looks really cool (idk one of my friends designed it bc i won some contest from him but the drawing was on a super small scale so idrk the details,,,) with a plague doctor mask and crown, and shoulder length wavy brown hair, dyed bright pink at the end. and then my last one im not too comfortable using other places because theyre a character my friend is using in the story hes writing, and thats really the only place theyve been used. but theyre easily my favorite and im already writing a ton so ill talk about them too.

they're a sorta elf species thing from another planet, with pale green skin and pointed ears. they also have a tail, its like,, super thin, but with a feathery bit at the end. probably not the texture of a feather but i dont know how else to describe it. they have short, curly, almost-draco-malfoy-blonde hair that when it gets too long they can put in a man bun. their eyesight is kinda shitty so when they got to earth, they were exploring some supply closets around the airship. drop off area. thing. like airport but for rocketships and also fancier. yeah. they were exploring that area and found a nice big pair of round glasses with grey frames. and they also found a cowboy-style hat and a sharpie so they wrote their name on the underside of the brim of the hat and stole the hat and glasses (but left the sharpie in the supply closet).

yeah theyre my favorite, my absolute beloved, my child, so cool. i want more characters like them but with maybe a bit more snazzier designs. theyre super cool and all but they could have more pizzazz if they werent in a story where its too late to give them more pizzazz. i just want to be able to give my characters thigh-high boots with a bunch of buckles and fluffy hair with tons of accessories crammed in and abnormally large and long ears that can harbor many piercings and horns that can hold rings on them and special little details on their outfits like who knows what but i dont have any characters to do that too, so i have to make them from scratch, which is always hard especially when you have artblock.

and i also have like 17 characters i need to fully draw, line, and maybe color for artfight before august 1st. so i dont know. i have many things to do and plenty of time to do it but instead i spend my time halfway watching repetitive youtube videos that get boring or sleeping all damn day because i stay up too late doing things like this or i just do nothing at all and its tiring and frustrating but i also feel nothing about it like theres no consequence if i dont do it besides you know. not doing it, not gaining that experience, not making something i enjoy.

so i should do it but i dont for whatever reason, i think its called executive dysfunction but im not sure. this post started out very differently than it ended and i said somewhere up there that i was writing this at 2 am but now its almost 3. this is so many words why couldnt i have put this energy into something productive

#long post #sorry its so messy but like i said its almost 3 am and i dont want to go back and format all this #i might come back and make it look nicer in the morning #maybe not who knows #i just checked and this is 1.5k words what the hell

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Dw my theory is nowhere near organized either 😃😃

So hmmm lemme try to explain what popped up in my mind

From Border : Day One, it signifies the beginning of their journey and them achieving their dreams as well as its process. We have:

'Intro : Walk The Line' which could signify the very beginning of their journey, suggesting to well walk the line, meaning to start the journey that leads them to somewhere, or something(?)

'Given-Taken' which signifies how they were able to achieve their dreams and what they felt, questioning whether this chance was either given to them or taken by them through hard work(?)

'Let Me In (20 CUBE)' which hmmm, idrk either bc I thought of it only briefly but it's hard to explain since there are many theories about it alr, one thing for sure is that theu obv want to enter somewhere, and they're inside a cube, a tank? help my brain cannot process any of this

'10 Months' there's nothing really, it's just AN ADORABLE SONG but it could mean something about them wanting to be seen in a particular way?

'Flicker' omg idek about this one yet, I think about the connection they feel??? HELP--

'Outro : Cross The Line' my fave, there's some things here in the narration that made something pop up into my mind this cb season, like it seems that the narration has something--

Now in let me in, there are theories about there being clones of enha (the ones inside a museum thingy) and what if, they're actually part of the entire storyline

Like, what if the intro : invitation is actually enhypen's invitation to their clones to come inside the castle and to [try to] take everything

Drunk-Dazed, could it be them being drunk and dazed in this upside down world? Bc

UP HYPE DOWN - UPSIDE DOWN

"Days like a flipped carnival, where up is down and down is up"

And is it possible that with "days like a flipped carnival" that means everything is flipped? If up is down and down is up, will fake be real and real be fake? Will fantasy be a reality and reality be a fantasy? Can it be that they're drunk in this upside down world, not knowing it to be a blessing or a curse, and they don't even know if this is reality or if it's just a fantasy turned reality from the flipping of everything? JANANSDNND what am I doing

And with what they said in "come inside the castle, take everything" could it be that since everything is upside down the clones might be considered as the 'real' enha and now they might be able to steal even Enha's identity? And with the concepts of up, hype, and down, could it be that since they are in a daze they're stuck in a world where they don't know whether it is the past, the present or the future?

Thank u for listening to my very disorganized and confusing ted-ed talk, 😇 idek what this is I'll need to actually do it properly later, but I'm sleepy 😭😭😭

OMG IM LOSING MY NON EXISTENT BRAIN

Tbh that clone thing really makes sense bc The up version has nothing to do with other photos- ISTG I FEEL SO STUPID RN BUT

In flicker they talked about being connected from other reality or kinda tHING-

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episode origins p1

i was watching moriah earlier today and was wondering what the significance of the name moriah was, so i searched it up. i’ll explain it here in this. i wanted to learn which episodes have titles derived from pop culture, literature, etc. so i put together this list. it’s not complete, feel free to reblog with more!

why did i waste hours on my life on this, you ask? i don’t know.

season 1

pilot: obviously, all the first episodes of shows are called pilots. nothing new here.

wendigo: they’re fighting a wendigo

dead in the water: the phrase means “unable to function, move”.

phantom traveler: the name of the demon they’re fighting

bloody mary: based off the legend

skin: shapeshifters, also there might be a meta about how it’s a metaphor for dean

hook man: they’re fighting a hook man

bugs: bugs

home: they go home

asylum: they go to an asylum

scarecrow: scarecrow

faith: the concept of god first comes into play here, i thought that was pretty interesting. that’s why it’s called faith, duh. dean + faith is explored.

route 666: racist truck yes

nightmare: sam’s visions

the benders: i think it’s based off of the bloody benders, a family of serial killers

shadow: meg’s stalkery?

hell house: it was literally a hell house

something wicked: originally chanted by WITCHES in shakespeare’s macbeth. the full line is “something wicked this way comes, open locks, whoever knocks”. obviously the shtriga is a witch and it refers to that.

provenance: painting provenances, it’s in the episode

dead man’s blood: they use dead man’s blood

salvation: being saved or protected, like the boys and john do with the family

devil’s trap: the devil gets them in a trap. and they built a giant devil’s trap too.

season two

in my time of dying: based off of the led zeppelin song [x]

everybody loves a clown: based off of the gary lewis song [x]

bloodlust: i think it’s for the vampires but they were also a band in the 90′s

children shouldn’t play with dead things: based off of the 1972 movie

simon said: the whole “you do what i say” thing with andy and evil andy

no exit: it’s a song by blondie and in the episode h.h. holmes captures blondes...? am i just clowning

the usual suspects: based off of the 1995 movie

crossroad blues: based off of the robert johnson song (fave!) [x]

croatoan: i like this one. okay, so you guys probably know about the whole roanoke/croatoan thing in the 1600′s. so there’s a theory that the settlers were wiped out by a disease (similar to this town). also, the town would disappear off of the map.

hunted: gordon hunted sam

playthings: dolls, but the little girl was the grandma’s sisters plaything

nightshifter: a shifter in the night

houses of the holy: based off of the led zeppelin song and album [x]

born under a bad sign: based off of this song [x] there are a bunch of others including jimi hendrix but...?

tall tales: yeah i think this one is self explanatory

roadkill: someone got killed on the road

heart: werewolf heart but also how sam gave his heart to madison aww also there’s a band called heart

hollywood babylon: based off of the book by the same name

folsom prison blues: based off of the johnny cash song!! [x]

what is and what should never be: based off of the led zeppelin song [x]

all hell breaks loose: yes it did

season three

the magnificent seven: based off of the pretty famous western go watch

the kids are alright: based off of the who song [x]

bad day at black rock: based off of the 1955 movie

sin city: there’s a bunch of songs but the city was sinning so

bedtime stories: they were bedtime stories

red sky at morning: the full phrase is “red sky at morning, sailors take warning”. with the theme of this ep it fits pretty well.

fresh blood: fresh blood yes

a very supernatural christmas: i’m not sure. i think it’s based off of a christmas album?

malleus maleficarum: a 1400′s book of witches. latin for “hammer of the witches”.

dream a little dream of me: i love this song! based off this: [x]

mystery spot: mystery spot

jus in bello: i can’t really explain it but here [x]

ghostfacers: g h o s t f a c e r s

long-distance call: long distance call

time is on my side: based off of the rolling stones song [x]

no rest for the wicked: a biblical quote that means “evildoers will face eternal punishment”. also, “one’s work never ceases”.

season four

lazarus rising: in the bible, lazarus is the righteous man, which makes dean the righteous man. and he rises. so.

are you there, god? it’s me, dean winchester: based off of the judy blume book (maybe?), are you there, god? it’s me, margaret.

in the beginning: they go back in time

metamorphosis: with the rugaru but also sammeh

monster movie: monsters and movies

yellow fever: referring to the disease i think, but also there are a few songs

it’s the great pumpkin, sam winchester: based off of it’s the great pumpkin, charlie brown.

wishful thinking: yeah

i know what you did last summer: dean + hell, sam + ruby. is it based off of the shawn mendes song? i don’t think it is because this came out way before the song.

heaven and hell: opposite sides meet, dean’s hell experiences.

family remains: there are remains

criss angel is a douche bag: idk?

after school special: based off of the abc program? i think?

sex and violence: there was a lot of sex. and violence.

death takes a holiday: death took a holiday

on the head of a pin: i’m not sure but this article is interesting, maybe related. probably related. [x]

it’s a terrible life: based off of it’s a wonderful life? i love that movie btw

the monster at the end of this book: ughhh! yes!!! first of all there’s a sesame street book by the same title. also, chuck actually was the monster at the end of the book! that’s crazy. insane.

jump the shark: “(of a television series or movie) reach a point at which far-fetched events are included merely for the sake of novelty, indicative of a decline in quality.“ probably the whole long lost brother thing.

the rapture: a belief that christians will rise to “meet the lord in the air”. kinda like jimmy does.

when the levee breaks: based off of the led zeppelin song [x]

lucifer rising: lucifer rose

season five

sympathy for the devil: based off of the rolling stones song [x]

good god, y’all!: cas goes to find god

free to be you and me: a marlo thomas album and the brothers split up

the end: yeah it’s the end

fallen idols: i think we get it

i believe the children are our future: a lyric from a whitney houston song

the curious case of dean winchester: based off of the short story, the curious case of benjamin button.

changing channels: channels were changed. the end.

the real ghostbusters: based on the 1985 animation

abandon all hope: the full phrase is “abandon all hope, ye who enter here” and that pretty much sums up this episode.

sam, interrupted: i’m not sure?

swap meat: meats were SWAPPED.

the song remains the same: based off of the led zeppelin song [x]

my bloody valentine: based on jensen’s movie. but also the band?

dead men don’t wear plaid: based on the 1982 movie

dark side of the moon: a pink floyd album

99 problems: that one jayz song whatever

point of no return: a 1993 movie but also the poto song hehe

hammer of the gods: based off of the 1985 book i think? it’s about led zeppelin so probably yeah.

the devil you know: means that it’s better to deal with a situation you understand than one you don’t.

two minutes to midnight: this phrase is commonly used as a countdown to a global catastrophe (i.e. the fucking apocalypse)

swan song: someone’s final performance before retirement (i think this is about both brothers because it’s sam last battle and dean’s last fight before living with lisa)

season six

exile on main st.: based off of the rolling stones album [x]

two and a half men: it was a sitcom? but idk if that’s where it’s from

the third man: based off of the 1949 noir thriller? maybe? but there were also three men so idrk

weekend at bobby’s: it was a weekend at bobbys

live free or twi-hard: based off of twilight and that bruce willis movie that i watched once way back when

you can’t handle the truth: truth goddess. soulless sam gets exposed ig

family matters: based off of the 1989 sitcom? maybe

all dogs go to heaven: based off of the 1989 movie? probably

clap your hands if you believe: i think this is an original title idk

caged heat: based off of the 1974 movie i think

appointment in samarra: probably based off of the 1934 novel of the same name

like a virgin: based off of the madonna song [x]

unforgiven: sam does unforgiven things

mannequin 3: the reckoning: not sure

the french mistake: just... just read this link [x]

and then there were none: based off of the agatha christie novel of the same name

my heart will go on: y’all all know what’s up [x]

frontierland: they went to yeehaw town

mommy dearest: based on the 1981 film? maybe?

the man who would be king: based off of the 1888 novel by rudyard kipling

let it bleed: based off of the rolling stones album/song [x]

the man who knew too much: shares a name with the 1956 film

season seven

meet the new boss: they met the new boss idk

hello, cruel world: sad sam

the girl next door: there’s a 2004 romcom with the same name

defending your life: a 1991 romcom! wow!

shut up, dr. phil: sam and dean became philanthropists idk

slash fiction: hahahahaha i think we know what it means but wHY is it called that?

the mentalists: they met a bunch of magic people wow!

season 7, time for a wedding!: more like season 7, time for a slightly r*pey episode and GARTH!

how to win friends and influence monsters: based off of the 1936 book how to win friends and influence people

death’s door: they were at death’s door idk

adventures in babysitting: based off of the 1987 movie by the same name

time after time after time: based off of the cyndi lauper song? [x]

the slice girls: prolly based off of the spice girls idk

plucky pennywhistle’s magic menagerie: yeah idk

repo man: it’s a 1984 film too

out with the old: they were fucking around with antiques

the born-again identity: obviously based off of the bourne identity which i haven’t seen in forever

party on, garth: hahaha

of grave importance: it was very important

the girl with the dungeons and dragons tattoo: probably based off of the movie/book the girl with the dragon tattoo.

reading is fundamental: reading is fundamental. go read a book.

there will be blood: there was blood

survival of the fittest: everybody fought idk

okay i’m gonna stop here for this one because i’m tired asf and i’ll do part 2 later

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taytootwisted · 3 years

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— 1. Who was the last person you held hands with? Jamel

2. Are you outgoing or shy? Outgoing

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? :)

4. Are you easy to get along with? Ehh for the most part

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? Fuck yeah

6. What kind of people are you attracted to? I like quiet men lol

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? Wow I don’t think so

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? :)

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? Not really

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? Tee

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? Goodmorning

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

Callin my phone, trackstar, off the yak, no more parties, goat

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? Yes, makes me sleepy

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? Sometimes

15. What good thing happened this summer? We’re in a pandemic idrk

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? Sure

17. Do you think there is life on other planets? Yes!

18. Do you still talk to your first crush? No lol

19. Do you like bubble baths?ehhh haven’t had one in years

20. Do you like your neighbors? I’ve only seen him once in a year maybe twice 😂

21. What are you bad habits? Smoking & procrastinating

22. Where would you like to travel? The tropics

23. Do you have trust issues? Yeah pretty severe

24. Favorite part of your daily routine? The blunt I face after work

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? Ehhh just wish I wasn’t as tiny

26. What do you do when you wake up? Wake up?¿

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? Darker

28. Who are you most comfortable around?my family & friends

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? Yep

30. Do you ever want to get married? Nope

31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail? Yes need a cut

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? Hmmmm lol

33. Spell your name with your chin. It just clicks buttons

34. Do you play sports? What sports? I use to! Soccer, basketball, track & volleyball

35. Would you rather live without TV or music? TV

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? Duh

37. What do you say during awkward silences? Nothing they don’t really bother me

38. Describe your dream girl/guy? Tall dark handsome rich & kind & quiet & loves me more than life

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? I haven’t went shopping in so long I’m really crusty lol

40. What do you want to do after high school?HAHAHA

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? Not everyone, but yes

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? I’m in my thoughts

43. Do you smile at strangers? Sometimes

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? Let’s go to space babe

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? Survival

46. What are you paranoid about? Nothing currently

47. Have you ever been high? Yep

48. Have you ever been drunk? Yep

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? Nope

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? Grey

51. Ever wished you were someone else? Timmy Turner

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? A fatter ass but we working on it

53. Favourite makeup brand? Elf

54. Favourite store?

55. Favourite blog? Tumblr duh

56. Favourite colour? Yellow

57. Favourite food? Spanish

58. Last thing you ate? Noodles

59. First thing you ate this morning? Nada but I want chic

60. Ever won a competition? For what? One time I won selling the most cookie dough for school in like 6th grade 🤣

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? About 30 times, a bit defiant

62. Been arrested? For what? Shoplifting & weed charges

63. Ever been in love? Very much so

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? I think I was like in 7th grade I met up w the boy I had a crush on to hang at the park he was on a scooter. We did a lil peck kiss lol

65. Are you hungry right now? Yes!! I want chic

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? Don’t have any tumblr friends :/

67. Facebook or Twitter? Twitter

68. Twitter or Tumblr? Both

69. Are you watching tv right now? Nope

70. Names of your bestfriends? Tee, Bri, Ale, Mel, Kev,

71. Craving something? What?omg ur gonna keep asking huh CHIC

72. What colour are your towels? Pink, cream, flower print, brown

72. How many pillows do you sleep with? Three

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? Yes

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? 1 right now

75. Favourite animal? Cheetah

76. What colour is your underwear? Black

77. Chocolate or Vanilla? Vanilla

78. Favourite ice cream flavour? Chocolate chip cookie dough

79. What colour shirt are you wearing? Blue

80. What colour pants? No pants

81. Favourite tv show? Wentworth currently

82. Favourite movie? Too hard

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? Original duh

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? 21 jump street lol

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? Dory

87. First person you talked to today? Nobody yet

88. Last person you talked to today? Today just started

89. Name a person you hate? Nobody

90. Name a person you love? My mom

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? Nope I’m good

92. In a fight with someone? Nope :)

93. How many sweatpants do you have? Probably like 10

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? Probably like 10 lol

95. Last movie you watched? Something in Netflix I forget

96. Favourite actress? Nope

97. Favourite actor? Nope

98. Do you tan a lot? No I’m pasty as shit

99. Have any pets? Nope lonely lol

100. How are you feeling? I’m feeling good I think today is gonna be a good day

101. Do you type fast? Yea

102. Do you regret anything from your past? There’s one thing I wish I could go back & change

103. Can you spell well? I believe so

104. Do you miss anyone from your past? Yes

105. Ever been to a bonfire party? Yes

106. Ever broken someone’s heart? Yes

107. Have you ever been on a horse? No :/

108. What should you be doing? Nothing it’s 630 am

109. Is something irritating you right now? Nope

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? Yes :/

111. Do you have trust issues? HUGE

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? Uh...... the girls at the viewing

113. What was your childhood nickname? Birdy

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? Yes

115. Do you play the Wii? I have

116. Are you listening to music right now? Nope

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? Yes

118. Do you like Chinese food? Yes!

119. Favourite book? Not sure

120. Are you afraid of the dark? No

121. Are you mean? Sometimes

122. Is cheating ever okay? No but it happens

123. Can you keep white shoes clean? Yes

124. Do you believe in love at first sight? No

125. Do you believe in true love? Yes

126. Are you currently bored? No this is entertainment

127. What makes you happy? Food, love, money

128. Would you change your name? No

129. What your zodiac sign? Cancer

130. Do you like subway? Eh

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? Omg this already happened I fucking snapped :/ we’re ok now tho

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? Tee

133. Favourite lyrics right now? She’s a runner she’s a trackstar

134. Can you count to one million? I guess so

135. Dumbest lie you ever told? I don’t really lie too much

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? Closed

137. How tall are you? 5”3’

138. Curly or Straight hair? Both

139. Brunette or Blonde? Blonde

140. Summer or Winter? Summer

141. Night or Day? Both

142. Favourite month? June

143. Are you a vegetarian? No

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? Once in awhile all three

145. Tea or Coffee? Yea

146. Was today a good day? Just started

147. Mars or Snickers? Neither

148. What’s your favourite quote? Get me lit ima slut fr

149. Do you believe in ghosts? Sure

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? “I’m happy to do it either way.”

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what’re your thoughts on sugimoto for the character ask thing? :)

I actually did him before, but by God have things changed since now and the last time I did these rounds….

Favorite Thing: Last time I espoused on how much I adore Sugimoto’s curiosity and willingness to listen and learn all about the Ainu from Asirpa, as well as his kindness, but this time I wanna focus on how devotedly selfless he is for those he loves!! Even though he was singularly focused on Asirpa, he still paused his pursuit to make sure that Shiraishi could be saved from the ice drifts and so that he could assure Shiraishi that he was alive- and God, 188 just showed how much he’s willing to put on the line for those he loves!!

He’s even willing to save the life of someone he positively abhors if it means making sure that Asirpa doesn’t have to become a murderer. This selflessness is even more impressive when you realize- he’s putting this all aside while also fighting impulses to give into even more violent episodes due to his injury. It’s fantastically realistic writing from a narrative standpoint (while a brain injury in the frontal lobe can drastically change personality, anything extreme usually doesn’t last in the long term- look at the case of Phineas Gage- and the previous personality shows at least in some measure) and makes his selflessness all the more poignant.

Least Favorite Thing: Some of his more extreme behavior post-injury is kind of annoying, like the willingness to do weirder shit, leaving his photo with the Russian couple, etc- but then again, this is a very, very minor gripe. My real least favorite thing is the same as last time. Stop sympathizing with bearfuckers, fucker

Favorite Line: It’s still his speech about how soldiers have to rebuild themselves on the battlefield in ch100. The persimmon scene is, in general, the single most powerful scene in all of Golden Kamuy so far, but this may simply be due to extreme personal bias. I’ve been quite close with a lot of soldiers in my family, and Golden Kamuy has one of the most genuinely realistic depiction of PTSD and survivor’s guilt that I’ve ever seen in media, as is their effect on military families.

Once, in an uber, I was talking with my driver, I mentioned my Dad had been in the military and served in Iraq. He said that when a soldier serves, their whole family serves, and thanked me for my service. I still remember that- because when my Dad was in the army, I was about 5. This is becoming more of an Asirpa meta, but the persimmon scene encompasses that principle- that not just the soldier themselves serve. All the closest family and people the soldier meets afterward, who the soldier shares their closest lives and struggles with, in some measure are changed by war, even if they don’t know what war is. And it shakes me.

brOTP: Asirpa and Sugimoto- aka, Knife Dad And His Lesbian Daughter. Or like, maybe it’s Gay Dad and his Knife Daughter? I don’t remember how it goes. In any case- I love the sibling dynamic between these two!! Sugimoto obviously has come to love what Asirpa teaches, and enjoys spending time with her, and their joking, teasing manner of doing things is so realistic to how actual siblings act. No cutesy “Big bwother uwu” or “lil sis umu” shit here- Asirpa mercilessly tears into Sugimoto whenever he’s a dumbass and in turn, Sugimoto teases Asirpa for being a tiny goblin who’s weird about poop. He’s obviously endeared, but he doesn’t patronize Asirpa, and I think that’s beautiful

OTP: Oh SugiShira, definitely. Like I still love Sugimoto with a lot of the cast (Umeko and Toraji OT3 included,,) but SugiShira is definitely my all time fave in terms of content and making content! Their relationship is amazingly fun and sweet, and let’s face it- any boyfriend who lets Sugimoto go All Out with courtship is a boyfriend who Sugimoto is gonna go apeshit over, the fuckin sap. The big runner up is SugiKoi, because I still love TsukiKoi but also I love a good rivalmance. Like a rival-to-lover thing that’s ACTUALLY rival-to-lover and not just hatefucking

nOTP: Remember how last time I was like, oh, OSugi’s a soft no, I can’t see it in canon but in a well done au maybe? Yeah lmao not anymore!! Abashiri happened, Ogata kept getting worse and Sugimoto has irreparable brain damage that will affect how he forms and maintains relationships with other people and how some of his motor skills go for the rest of his Life. I won’t even lie and say “oh maybe you can convince me with an au uwu” because fuck no you cannot. Especially after 188 when people were going apeshit over the eye vore- yall were being fucking weird and that was weird. So yea. Goodbye, Osushit

Random Headcanon: Sugimoto stayed and held vigil over his family’s house as it burned to the ground. Even though the smell of burning flesh made him nauseous, even though his family lay inside, voices slowly being snuffed out and coughing finally coming to an end, he stayed and watched until the flames subsided. It was to make sure things didn’t become a wildfire, he told himself, but in truth he watched because he was mourning. His parents were already as good as dead- had it really been right to hasten them to their graves? And for what, he own fleeting reputation? I headcanon that even now, Sugimoto can’t look at a large fire without the pit of his stomach twisting in on himself. Not without the smell of flesh coming to him. Not without remembering the life he burned.

Unpopular Opinion: Or I guess this is a popular one, idrk? Either way… Sugimoto is a way better guardian figure than Wilk was, despite his few mistakes and general lack of needing to parent Asirpa- he’s not there as Asirpa’s father, just as her guardian and brother and best friend. Which is far more than Wilk has ever done, the son of a bitch, training Asirpa and trapping her in this gold hunt as he did under the guise of parental love.

Song I Associate with him: I still associate Still in Saigon with him, but after he started getting those psychotic violent episodes, I started ALSO associating Back From the Dead by Skillet with him. Lord knows that’s probably how everyone feels when Sugimoto appears again lmao- and plus, it acts as a great battle track for the Ogata/Sugimoto showdown we never got!

Favorite Picture: I’ve looked at this for five years now

#golden kamuy #sugimoto saichi #god!! I Love Him #So So Much

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philocalygray · 6 years

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“Needing More” - (E.D.)

💌 IMAGINE ⚡

Fic Code: fluff=💌 angst=⚡ platonic=🦋 ambivalent=☘️

Author’s Note: This was requested a whilllle ago by @lanadeldolans and I’m so so sorry for not having it up sooner:/ Thanks for requesting though!! I tried my best and I hope it’s what you imagined it to be though! If not, then I apologize cause I suck at pleasing people lmao but feel free to request something else or a story line if you want to:) Idrk hahah

Written by: @doltishdolans @dolantwinfanfic ← go follow my other account!!

Word Count: 2.1k+

Request: Inspired/Based Off The Song: “Hopes Up” by H.E.R. (You can listen to the song here)

Warnings: Angst if you squint??

Summary: You and Ethan Dolan were never an official couple. Everyone knew that you two had a “thing” and you both knew it too, but it was never a subject that was brought up to be talked about. You’re both fine with just being friends, however sometimes it seems that Ethan wants to be more than that. And maybe you do too. But you’re too afraid that you won’t be able to give him what he wants. Are you willing to take that risk to be with him?

~REQUESTED~

MASTERLIST

Ethan Dolan. That name was literally etched into your head. Everybody always assumed that the two of you were together even though you weren’t. But he was constantly on your mind, every day, every minute, every second.

You lay in bed, trying to fall asleep, but you couldn’t. You had been so stressed out lately, and you didn’t want to deal with any of it. But it wasn’t like you could really escape it either. You shut your eyes tightly, praying to drift off. It was already midnight and you had a busy day tomorrow and you needed your rest. But no matter what you tried, you just couldn’t fall asleep.

Frustrated, you kicked off the covers and sat on the edge of your bed, running your hands through your hair. You needed to cool off; your room was too stuffy and hot, so you decided to go for a walk. You grabbed your keys, shuffled to get your shoes on, and left.

As you stepped through the door, the chilly air hit and plastered against your skin, sending a shiver up your spine. Noticing the condensed breaths coming out of your mouth as you sighed, you shoved your hands into your sweater pockets and started to walk slowly down the street.

You looked up at the night sky, seeing as the moon was in full view shining brightly sprinkled along with a few stars. It was truly a beautiful view and somehow, it managed to calm you down a little. You felt much better and allowed your thoughts to leave your mind so you didn’t have to think about anything else.

But there was still one thing on your mind.

One person.

And that person was, Ethan.

Dolan.

Dragging your feet along the cement sidewalk, you continued walking, not paying attention to anything ahead of you. You stared blankly down at the ground, engulfed.

Simultaneously, you felt your body come up harshly against something and immediately swerved to turn back and look. What had you just bumped into?

Your eyes widened as you realized it was a person. But not just any person.

It was Ethan.

“Y/N?” he spoke out, into the darkness.

“Ethan? Why are you out here all by yourself?”

He quirked up an eyebrow with such gentle force but such intensiveness making your breath hitch. It was a little gesture he always made without even knowing how much of an effect it had on you.

“I could ask you the same thing,” he shrugged. “I-I just came out here to take a walk…well, cause..I needed to go out for a bit and think about some..stuff.” he mumbled.

You frowned slightly. Ethan was never really the quiet shy guy type. He was always so open and playful and flirtatious around you. Why was he acting up all of a sudden?

“...Me too.” you said quietly.

Ethan gazed into your eyes and you could tell that they were filled with lust and love. His lips curled upwards ever so slightly, into the smallest smile you had ever seen. His plump pink lips were highlighted in the moonlight, and you felt the sudden urge to kiss them. You wanted to feel his lips against yours, pressed together. You wanted to kiss him so badly. Your heart fluttered as you felt yourself leaning in, closer...and closer..

So badly.

But instead you pulled away gently and grabbed at his arm. “We can walk together.”

You could have sworn that you saw Ethan’s lip slightly droop into a pout as you redirected him back to walking forward. But you paid no attention to it.

“I’m glad I bumped into you,” Ethan smirked.

You couldn’t help but smile brightly. “Yeah? And why’s that?” you asked, sneaking a sly glance at him.

“Why wouldn’t I be glad to see you?” he responded, not giving you an actual answer.

You chuckled and playfully shoved him. “Oh, stop it. I know you followed me out here.” you joked, winking at him as you felt heat creeping up your cheeks.

His loud, but beautiful laugh bellowed out into the night, echoing through the empty streets.

“No, but on a serious note...I-I kinda wanted to talk to you about something.” he muttered out in a low voice.

You cocked your head at him, making your hair fall slightly over your face. Pushing it out of the way, you stared at him. “Oh?”

Ethan wouldn’t look at you. He stared at his fiddling fingers as though there was something so interesting about them. You waited for him to say something, but he remained silent.

“E? What’s up?”

His face was flushed and he couldn’t look at you. Rolling his jaw, he looked up and down, avoiding your confused face. Finally he heaved out a huge sigh and blew his lips to make a “phffft” sound.

“Y/N what are we?”

Now it was your turn for your face to flush. You quickly turned away and pretended to notice something in the distance. You heard Ethan give an exasperated groan and you shut your eyes, trying not to wince.

“Y/N, we’ve never really talked about this, and..I just need to know. I mean, everyone always talks about us, and you know what I mean when I say that. I just want clarification, and I think this is something we need to talk about.”

You knew you couldn’t steer off course now; there was no way you were going to be able to bring his thoughts away from this. You thought carefully about what you were going to say, but your mind had suddenly went blank. You had always known that this subject would come up sooner or later, and you had been planning a while on what to say. But now, you couldn’t even manage out a word.

“Uhh, us? Well, we’re friends right?”

“See Y/N, that’s your problem!”

You were taken aback by his sudden outburst. Who gave him the right to say that?

“Excuse me?”

He placed one hand on his forehead, rubbing his temples. He turned to you and grasped your hands, linking your fingers together. “What if I want to be more than that?”

Your heart pounded as you realized what he meant. “M-more than what?” you asked, stalling for time, even though you already knew.

“Friends.”

You pretended to laugh, trying to make him think that you thought he was joking, but your laughter died down when you realized he was staring directly at you, dead serious. You swallowed and stared back. “Uh..” you were lost for words. You wanted to be with Ethan so badly, you wanted him so badly, but deep down you were scared. He deserved better than you. You tore your gaze from his eyes, and shoved yourself away from his hold.

“I have to go.”

“What?! Y/N!”

You quickly turned away from him, and hustled the opposite way, going back to your house. You heard Ethan hurrying behind you, calling out for you to slow down. You weren’t listening though. You couldn’t. You didn’t know what you wanted with him. You saw so much with him, but what if you weren’t good enough for him?

“Y/N!” You heard him call your name over and over. He had also attempted to grab your hand every so often, but you would yank it away and just continue walking faster. But he never stopped chasing after you.

At last, you finally gave up. You couldn’t run away from him, because he would just keep coming back. He wouldn’t give up. When Ethan wanted something, he would do anything in his own will power to get it.

“I can’t!!” you cried out.

“You can’t what?” Ethan pried.

You stopped walking and dropped your head into the palms of your hands. “I-I...I’m not good enough for you. I’ll never be good enough for you! And I don’t want to give you false hope in thinking that you can be truly happy with me...cause it’ll never work.” you whispered.

“Y/N…”

“And I don’t want to lead you on, Ethan.” Tears were falling down your face now.

Ethan brought his hands up to your face and slowly wiped them away. He snaked his arms under yours and wrapped them around you. “Y/N, I think you’re perfect for me. I love everything about you. I love your laugh, your smile.” He paused to look into your eyes.

“I love your gorgeous face. I love how smart you are, how hardworking and dedicated to things you are. I love that you’re one of the most kind and caring, generous people I know. You’re amazing, and I look forward to every waking up single day just because I want to see you. You’re the reason I’m living, why I’m even breathing. I need you in my life, and more than just a friend.”

Your heart was racing as you tried to process everything he had just said.

“But...what if I can’t handle it E? I-I don’t know if I can do this. What if we can’t handle it? I don’t want to disappoint you. I’m just a huge mistake waiting to happen. I’m just a ticking time bomb waiting to explode and I don’t want it to happen to you.”

Ethan stroked your hair gently and leaned in to kiss your temple firmly as he whispered in your ear. “Y/N, don’t say that. You’re not a mistake. I want you for you.”

You didn't know what to do. You wanted him too, but you didn’t trust yourself, even if Ethan could.

“I...I have to go. Seriously. I’m really busy tomorrow.”

Ethan’s shoulders dropped and he sighed. “Okay Y/N. I won’t try to stop you. I understand. I guess we’re just friends then.” He let go of you and held your gaze for a split second before peeling his eyes away and turning away.

You watched as he ran his hands through his hair and then shoved them into his pockets before walking back the way he came.

Your heart hurt letting him leave, but you didn’t want to turn your relationship into something you knew wouldn’t last. And you didn’t want to ruin the friendship that you already had together.

You crawled back into bed, still confused and upset at what had just happened. The clock read 2:24AM. You had went out to take a walk to clear your head, but instead, it had just filled your head with even more thoughts.

Knowing that you needed to get to bed, you ignored everything and shut your eyes, trying to sleep once again. After about 20 minutes, your eyes shot open. Slapping your hand to your mouth to keep from screaming, you realized what a huge mistake you had just made. Jumping out of bed, you snatched your phone off the night table and messaged Ethan.

Meet me where we just were. Now.

You ran out through the door yet again, this time not even bothering to lock it. You just needed to find Ethan. You sprinted down the street, trying to get there as fast as you could. He probably wouldn’t even be there, he was probably already asleep back at his house.

But when you got there, in the middle of the street, he was already there.

Your heart skipped a beat as you ran into his open arms, hugging him tightly.

You clung onto his back and laid your head on his broad shoulder as he cradled you. “All you have to do, is tell me one thing.” you whispered.

“And what’s that?” he mumbled into your hair as he swayed you slowly, embracing you.

“Three words. Eight letters. One sentence. And I’m all yours.”

Without hesitation, he lifted your head up to make you look at him.

“Y/N...I..love. You. I love you.”

You shut your eyes and immediately, everything felt right. You felt happy. You felt at peace. Like everything would be okay.

You smiled happily, and before you knew it, Ethan leaned down to capture your lips into a sweet, passionate and deep kiss. You kissed him back, as you felt him smile against yours, making you laugh as he pulled you in for another kiss. He hummed into the kiss, as his warm hands stroked your cheeks, cupping your face. “Y/N..” he mumbled in between kisses. “I love you. So much. I want you. I want your flaws, your mistakes, your laughs and giggles. Your jokes, and your sarcasm. Everything. I just want you.”

“And I want you,” you whispered back. “I..I love you too.”

It would be hard to be good enough for him. He deserved the world and maybe you couldn’t give that to him.

But if he was willing to accept you already, for you, you knew damn well it would be worth it.

That’s it!!! I’ve been working on this fic for quite a while so I hope it was worth the read hahaha. As always, if you wanna request something just message me or send me something in my inbox, cause it’s always open!

I’m also gonna be working on those drabbles that you guys sent me in my inbox (which I know I haven't answered, I keep them in there as a reminder I still need to write them) and I promise I will be writing them, but in the meantime, just keep sending me ideas!

Love you all!! xox

[April 8th, 2018]

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maaatryoshka · 6 years

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30 Questions Tag

tagged by @strgaykids @officialchangbin @kim-squishmin THANK YOU!!! <3

GONNA TAG @mansaechamsae @busanjeongin @straykeeds @felixsfreckles @flxmes @pardon-my-lack-of-jams @lawoftotalmadness@emmaishere92@straykidsobsessed @straykidsboiiiii @canopandas

1. nickname: just my name! erin :)

2. gender: female

3. star sign: gemini

4. height: 161..???????? cm

5. time: est!

6. birthday: 6/15/01

7. favourite band(s) (not kpop) and non-k-artists: umm i think pentatonix has crazy good songs + i also like jessie j’s songs

8. favourite solo artist: uM are you telling me to choose? asdkf;adsj kitti b or cheetah or tymee or #gun or LOOK I REALLY CAN’T CHOOSE

9. song stuck in my head: runaway by pentagon

10. last movie watched: cult of chucky (was v confusing it was kinda dumb but i have shittiest sense of humor soooooo)

11. last show watched: fated to love you

12. when did i create my blog: dec 20 2017!?

13. what do i post: audio edits, subbed gifs…the occasional shitpost

14. last thing i googled: dry shampoo (ok s o i dyed my hair with a color that was supposed to be black blue and parts of my hair were brown so those parts turned dark greenish and i mean the colors fine i just dont think i suit the color very well- anyway my mother said i looked like chucky (which aint a compliment btw .-.)??? MOM CHUCKY HAS RED HAIR COME ON anyway so every tiem i shampoo my hair it gets greener and greener and my mom gets more and more disgusted so maybe if i shampoo my hair less SHE’LL STOP SAYING I LOOK LIKE CHUCKY ASJLSADFILKD;)

15. do you have other blogs: badsquishyass is my main!! i made it like summer 2015 as a seventeen blog then it turned into monsta x and now i rarely..sometimes.. post there ;;;; i should more often :’)

16. do you get asks: yus i doooo SHOUTOUT TO MY ALL ANONS i love you all :))) <3

17. why did you choose your url: why wouldnt i choose changbin’s iconic line for my url

18. following: 1172 (from 2015 ;;; i think i followed literally any blogs kpop related that i saw wooooooooot sRSLY THERES 99+ NEW POSTS ON MY DASH EVERY 5-10 MINUTES i don’t have the heart to unfollow them)

19. followers: 1376 i cant even believe its over 100 ashfjdk;ljsd omfg thank you everyone <3

20. favourite colour(s): black, red

21. average hours of sleep: ill either sleep for like 4-5 hours or 10 hours .-.

22. lucky number: 19! idrk if its lucky though i just like the number

23. instruments: mainly violin; piano, drumset, guitar, viola, double bass

24. what am i wearing: fluffy pj pants with a large t shirt from a school club with a fluffy robe + fluffy slippers YES FLUFFY

25. how many blankets i sleep with: 1 but i roll myself up into a burrito so it feels like 5

26. dream job: i..d….k…… since we’re talking about DREAMS so unrealistically- smth with music

27. dream trip: japan I NEED TO TRY SOME AUTHENTIC JAPANESE RAMEN i would also like to go on a trip that lands me -2.000 ft away from jisung

28. favourite food: NOODles (literally any kind) also i lub chicken (chicken noodle soup doesnt rank high on my list of fav foods tho)

29. nationality: this is where i get confused bw nationality and ethnicity but i’m korean and i was born + raised in the us

30. favourite song now: lOOK I CANT CHOOSE FAVORITES but ngl i’m never gonna get tired of hellevator

if anyones gotten this far does anyone want to see my hair iDK HOW I FEEL ABOUT IT

THANK YOU AGAIN FOR TAGGING ME!! <3

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doriansbutt · 6 years

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gaming meme

im wayy late to this but ye so i was tagged by @karanan and im tagging whoever else wants to do this bc...yeah im late to the party as usual

1. Favourite game from the last 5 years?

Oh, man. SWTOR and Dragon Age for sure.

2. Most nostalgic game?

Star Wars Battlefront II (the original one aka probably my favorite game of all time i literally still remember the cheats on ps2 lol)

3. Game that deserves a sequel?

hmmm I would love another Portal game. Not necessarily a sequel since I’m not really sure where that would go, but another game in the Portal franschise would be excellent.

4. Game that deserves a remaster?

Dragon Age: Origins, for sure. Or KotOR 1 and 2!

5. Favourite game series?

Dragon Age. which is not a surprise at all probably.

6. Favourite genre?

Probably RPGs, including MMORPGs.

7. Least favourite genre?

ooh fps games along the line of call of duty. im just so bad at them and theyre all the same

8. Favourite song from a game?

ooh shit hmm...i love the mando’a songs from republic commando...uhm god i just fkin love video game music i have a lot of favorites....

9. Favourite character from a game?

you cant make me pick!

10. Favourite ship from a game?

dorian/inq, definitely. i just cant help myself when it comes to dorian.

11. Favourite voice actor from a game?

ooh shit i have a weakness for the male agent in swtor when he has an american/”republic” accent....is that weird? does that count? it does now.

12. Favourite cutscene?

....scenes where people get hurt? should i admit that? i am the angst master general, after all....im blanking right now on like actual favorites, though...but a lot of ffxv ones were really good!! i cried!!

13. Favourite boss?

GLaDOS was a fun boss. the boss battles may have not been super memorable, but as a boss thru the games she was good. Also Ardyn in ffxv. He was just not your typical boss and I had no idea what to expect from him which I liked.

14. First console?

playstation 2. we had an atari but never used it.

15. Current console or consoles?

i mostly use pc, but i also have an xbone bc my laptop is...in bad shape and probably should definitely not be used for gaming anymore but does that stop me?? no absolutely not.

16. Console you want?

i would love a switch. or a vr headset though im not sure how id handle that with my sensitivity to just everything w migraines

17. Place from a game that you’d like to visit?

oh man i’d love to visit thedas. or aya in mass effect andromeda. or skyrim.

18. Place from a game that you’d like to live in?

hmmmm maybe somewhere in thedas i guess

19. Ridiculous crossover that would never happen but would be super fun?

hmmm idk like dragon age and swtor lol

20. Book that would make a good game?

ooh uhm what about the chaos walking books? i think thatd be interesting.

21. Show/Movie that would make a good game?

hmm hmm hmmmmmm i think coraline would make an interesting game. like you play as coraline (or even like just a kid and you can pick an “origin” so to speak) and you discover the beldam’s world etc etc it seems cool at first but then things seem weird etc you gotta figure out whats up w this dimension and defeat the beldam idk i think thatd make a cool game.

22. Games you want to play?

uhm idrk tbh im kinda picky about games and im p good with what i’ve got rn

23. Have you gotten 100% completion in a game?

ugh no. i was working on it w dai but some of that is just gathering shit or grinding like fuck and thats all the achievements i have left. i mean ive probably got something 100% but idk. im so close to 100% in skyrim too...

24. Have you cried over a game?

uh absolutely. i cried several times over ffxv most recently.

25. What power-up or ability would you want IRL?

im stealing this answer bc fuck yes the force would be sweet af

#who let this butt speak #long post #gaming meme #tagged me

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