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#I can't fucking draw Dazai ever
benetnvsch · 6 months
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honeydazai · 2 years
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୨୧·࣭࣪̇˖ 𝆬  when you say their dick is too big 𝆬 𓏸
feat.: Dazai, Chūya, Ranpo, Kunikida, Fyodor, Nikolai, Sigma, Bram, PM!Dazai
content: nsfw, some dub con, size difference, dacryphilia, degradation, praise, breeding kink, fangs, sadism, corruption kink
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You're on your back, your legs spread terribly wide when you suddenly gasp out that it's too much and he won't fit into you. DAZAI merely raises an eyebrow in response, his smirk sly and, oh, he'd be a liar to say he's not enjoying this. There's tears in your eyes, slowly dripping down your cheeks as his cock all but spears you open, and your whimpers are pitiful.
He's quick to coo at you, faux sympathy dripping from his voice as his words, sweet yet degrading, make you squirm; he doesn't stop moving even once while telling you that you're opening up so well for him, you must really be made for this, you're a natural at spreading your legs like a slut. Despite concealing it with praise, he's terribly mean, a jerk to the bone, and seeing you cry only makes more precum pearl at the head of his dick. His thrusts are unnecessarily rough, though you're not complaining anymore — not that you're able to, as the only coherent word that falls from your lips is his name.
“Oh? My, my, belladonna, look at you; suddenly you take my cock so well. And you're so wet, too! Don't tell me you've been lying to me when you said it was too much for you to handle! Ah, either way, you look quite adorable like this.”
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CHŪYA notices something is wrong when your thighs tense where they're wrapped around his waist. He's quick to pause in his movements, his gaze shifting from curious to concerned as his eyes meet your tear-filled ones, though he can't help but huff out a gentle laugh when he hears your worries — that he'll never fit, that he'll rip you apart.
His lips brush over your own as he smiles against your mouth, his tone just a little teasing as he tries to calm you down. Then, he reaches down, his thumb drawing lazy circles around your throbbing clit, and you all but flinch at the sudden pleasure that shoots up your spine. You already seem to unclench a little at that, though he offers to finger you more or to eat you out nonetheless; after all, the best way to make you relax is to make you feel good, right?
“Aren't you a flatterer, baby? Hah, don't you worry your pretty little head that much. So you're still too tense, hm? Let's change that then. Wanna cum on my fingers first before I fuck you?”
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The second you whine about his dick being too big, RANPO pauses for a second. Then, however, his lips curl into a smirk and you can all but feel how his dick twitches inside of you. He doesn't even bother to pretend that your words don't turn him on; his hips thrust forward in sudden impatience, though you're way too tight for him to sink in all the way.
He can't help but tease you for your simply unrealistic worries — of course he'll fit, silly you —, though Ranpo has to admit that the sight of you, whimpering and teary-eyed, is quite a nice one. He's quick to think of a solution; it being him leaning down to close his lips around one of your nipples, kneading the soft skin of your tits between his fingers. It'll certainly take your mind off things and, well, he's not one to ever ignore an opportunity to mouth at your chest.
“What are you saying? That I won't fit? That's adorable, sugar. Adorable and naïve, if I may say so. I'll definitely make it fit. Ah, but why don't you relax a little first? You always like it when I do this with my tongue, after all.”
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When you all but choke on a sob while telling KUNIKIDA that he's too big, with tears welling up in your eyes, his eyebrows twitch into a frown. He stops almost immediately, his expression one of concern as he checks on you to make sure you're alright. Eventually, once you've calmed down a little, he attempts to push more of his dick into you, though he won't force it; if you tell him to stop again, he will.
His lips are soft against your forehead as he presses a kiss there; Kunikida is all about praising you while he finally bottoms out. His voice is more raspy than usual yet soothing, though his constant sweet words are rather counterproductive — you clench tightly around his cock when he calls you a good girl, after all.
“Fuck—, ah, good girl. You take me so damn well. See? It fits after all. I told you so. Oh—, God, you're tight. Relax a little for me, at least try to. Yes? There we go. That's good.”
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For less than a split second, FYODOR'S lips twitch into a pleased smirk when you whimper and cry about his dick being too much for you to take. You make a pitiful picture; on your back with your thighs spread wide, your own arousal clinging to your skin, and yet you're crying, your bottom lip trembling and whole body shaking and tense. He's certain you've never looked more adorable, more innocent before, and the urge to ruin you properly is nearly overwhelming.
He coos reassuring words at you while pressing into you steadily, not even pausing when you beg him to; after all, don't you want to take what he's giving you? Are you not keen on pleasing him? Soon enough, his narrow hips are flush with yours, and amusement sparkles in his eyes as you hiccup out some more sobs, yet you're not complaining anymore. Besides, you're obviously enjoying this; why else would you be this damn wet? While his initial pace was uncharacteristically gentle, his thrusts are anything but, and soon enough you're trying to curl into him, to hide your face in his shoulder and to hold onto him, scrambling for purchase as the head of his dick nudges against what you're sure is your cervix. Fyodor doesn't wish to see you cry, he craves to see you break.
“Oh? Did I understand you correctly, you want me to stop? My, my, dear, and here I thought you were so keen on being obedient. Ah? So you did change your mind after all? You're awfully fickle today, darling, but I won't hold it against you in a situation like this. Simply lie there all pretty and focus on taking what I'm giving you. You can manage that, yes?”
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Honestly, you think NIKOLAI is being unnecessarily cruel when he positions you on his lap, his smirk smug; he knows well enough that the obvious size difference of you intimidates you greatly, and while making you ride him might seem like a kind idea, you're sure there's a hidden motive you don't get yet. It becomes obvious when he pushes you down onto his cock, his grip on your hips ungiving even as you tense up and tell him that it's too much. In fact, his smirk only widens at your pleas to give you a break.
He chuckles when you tear up, his eye shining with mirth and, really, you're in for a tough time; he enjoys this terribly much, how much weaker and tinier you are than him, and seeing you cry with your tears spilling over your cheeks only makes him thrust up into you harder. He doesn't hesitate to comment on each and every reaction of yours either, if only because you're terribly adorable when embarrassed.
“Oh? You're adorable, darl! You're truly pretty when you cry like this, you know? And the way your tiny cunt's so tight around me, too — ah, you're just a wet dream come true, aren't you? Come on, doll, be good and cry some more for me, yes?”
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SIGMA stops pushing into you the second you tell him to stop because he's too big, he won't fit into you; he raises his eyebrows in mild surprise, though one look at your flushed face and teary eyes is enough to know you truly believe that. What matters most to him is your comfort; he's quick to press his lips to yours in a gentle kiss while murmuring soothing words, his touches careful and loving.
Despite being impatient himself — can you blame him? You're still clenching tightly around half of his dick, wet walls pulsing around the tip of his cock —, he doesn't mind waiting until you're fully comfortable and allow him to continue. By the time that happens, though, Sigma's pace is more rough, more fast than it would have initially been; he's so close already, just from having you involuntarily warm his dick for a while, and the way his hips snap against your plush ass has both of you moaning.
“Try and calm down, will you, love? Ah—, you feel so good around me already. Absolutely heavenly. I promise I won't hurt you. Simply tell me when you're ready.”
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Honestly, PM! DAZAI doesn't get why you'd possibly think that babbling about his dick being too much for you would make him stop — the second he notices the way you're squirming and whimpering, sudden fear obvious on your face, given how he's only halfway inside of you and you already feel so full, he scoffs. In his mind, you're being ridiculous, though the way you sob and whimper is at least amusing to him.
A sadist at heart, Dazai gives you a second to relax, only to thrust into you at once moments later. Your breath catches in your throat and your whole body is shaking pathetically, and his wide smirk borders on uncanny as his nails dig into your soft inner thighs, drawing blood. He's not above mocking you for being this pathetic; his words are anything but nice as he calls you a slut and a whore for spreading your legs for him this willingly despite acting all shy.
“Ah, I can't believe you're crying just because of my dick, darling. Should I feel flattered or pitiful? Oh—, hah, would you look at that? You're all but dripping. One second you say you want to stop, the next you're gushing around my dick like a bitch in heat. Tell me, love, what should I think about that?”
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You're on your back, your legs spread wide, and you can't help but cry out when BRAM'S dick pushes into you moments later. You're incredibly tight, your cunt clenching down hard around him, making it nearly impossible to push in further and earning you a low grunt from him. Halfway in, you choke out garbled pleas about how he'll never fit into you, that he's too big and it's just anatomically impossible, though Bram doesn't care to hear anything about that.
Instead, he huffs out an almost disbelieving laugh before he sinks into you with one smooth thrust, all but relishing in the way you cry out and arch your back off the bed, your thighs shaking. For a second, his fangs graze over your throat, not breaking skin, but the sensation is enough to take your mind off how much he's stretching your cunt out — that is, until he thrusts into forcefully, causing your sight to blur with tears of pain and pleasure alike.
“Oh? So you dare to complain even when I fuck someone as filthy as you? Hah. What silly thoughts you have. Worry not, I'll make it fit.”
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himimosa · 9 months
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how they hug
some headcannons on how dazai osamu, nakahara chuuya and edogawa ranpo hugs...
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Dazai Osamu
-Dazai is exceptionally observing. Even though he can't empathize with all feelings people have, he knows what to do in social situations by mimicking others, it is just about if he cares or wants to do it...
-"polite hug": This is the hug you see most in social life when you greet someone you are not close with, where the lower bodies don't touch and only arms gently holding the other by shoulders. This hug is for his acquaintances or people he interacts with for work.
- "embracing hug": He wraps his arms very tightly around the other's back. If he hugs you like this, you feel safe and sound. You can hear his heartbeat, his slow breathing. He might give a few pats to your head or back. He usually use this hug for comforting people who he cares when they are crying or feeling down...or if he wants to give someone a false sense of trust and manipulate them...
- "clingy hug": Where he just jumps into the arms of you... He wraps his arms and whole body around you like an octopus. He buries his neck wherever he likes at that moment; your hair, your neck, your chest. He whines like a little child, says how much he missed you and says that he won't let you go now... (the thing is, sometimes he hugs Kunikida exactly like this because Dazai knows this level of clinginess drives the poor guy crazy: "Dazai put your fucking arms away from me and go back to work you waste of bandages!")
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Nakahara Chuuya
- I don't think Chuuya does hug a lot of people. Or does he even hug?.. He doesn't look like someone who hugs to greet people in a mafioso meeting. I can't even imagine him hugging anyone to just greet them in the port mafia, he looks more like the type who gives a nod with his head or a firm handshake at most... But even not so frequently, this redhead mafia executive has times he hugs too:
- "drunk hugs": Where he loosely puts his hand around the shoulder of whoever he is drinking with that night. (might be Akutagawa or Tachihara) This is more like a side hug, where he hums and swings the song that is currently playing on the bar, even if there is no music he will sing and swing...
-"hug with only one arm": (This is sad, please don't hate me) His job is not the most chill one, he loses people who work under him. Sometimes he loses underlings and he prefers to give their death notifications to their families by himself. He is someone who takes care of people who are under his wing, it counts for their loved ones too... When they break down with the news -the dead one's friend or companion or child doesn't matter- chuuya will simply put his gloved hand on the back of their head, and let them cry into his shoulder or chest. This is a reassuring type of hug that says "I am still here and I will take care of you"
-"stir on the air hug": This is how this man hugs you. No matter your height or weight, he is the gravity manipulator. Whenever he hugs you, he can't help but slyly and abruptly pick you up from the ground by your waist and draw circles with you. You feel like a feather in this man's arms and can't help but laugh when he rotates around like a child. He loves to adore your giggly face from the downside. And if you give him a kiss from that angle? He is the happiest man ever...
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Edogawa Ranpo
- I believe that Ranpo is the clingiest among them. It is only about if he feels comfortable enough... He won't hug any acquaintance for greeting like Dazai, (i don't think he handshakes too, he probably only waves his hand to greet) But with people who he feels closer with, like Ada members? Now that's a different story...
-"hugs with jumps": You know the hugs when two people who haven't seen each other for a long while that they run into each other's arms with a jump? Ranpo doesn't need a long separation for this hug, if he is overexcited about something, he will jump before hugging. Once he jumped over Kunikida just to prove that Kunikida will catch him even if it means to drop all documents in his hands, and Kunikida exactly did that (if you know the Terry-Jack scene from B99, you know this) (also poor Kunikida)
-"back hugs": Ranpo doesn't do much at the office, his job is mostly outdoors, at crime scenes... So whenever he is at the office if he is not eating snacks, he is probably on someone's shoulders. He loosely wraps his arms around their shoulders, his head sometimes rests on one shoulder. Sometimes he helps their case files with his great skills, sometimes he just wants to bother them because he is bored. If you are working at the ada, good luck because he is never leaving you. He is like a little mosquito (a loveable one) His head is always around your ears, he never shuts up. And sometimes he bites...
-"hide my face hugs": (Again, this is sad) There are only a few people in the world Ranpo hugs like that. One would be the president Fukuzawa on a very bad day, the other would be you... Unlike others, Ranpo hugs like that in only private. He wraps his shaky arms around your waist and buries his face near your shoulder or chest. He doesn't lift his head for a while, but you can feel his shivering and the wetness on you because of his tears. He may or may not cry aloud, but he will cry. He needs you to shield him from the world, maybe pat his head and whisper everything will be okay...
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iridescentdove · 6 months
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i'm so sorry for being dead for so long ,, things go on at work and i have to prepare for some cosplays event, then be away for 2 weeks at spain—
requests are closed by the way! sicne people still keep sending me stuff 😭 don't worry, i'll open them once i'm free. for now, everyone stay safe and happy !! i can't wait to write again, because i have many ideas for all of you <3
spoiler: bsd series ✨️
because i've been gone for long, here's a small preview for you. also, the series has a bit of smut maybeee ...
it's a dazai x reader x chuuya.
yes, you heard me right. now get over here, you simps.
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WASHED AWAY
INTRODUCING - A BUNGOU STRAY DOGS: SIREN! AU
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It was a peaceful voyage in the luxurious cruise. You leaned by the docks, arms rested on the railing as you look out to sea. Well, this was boring. Your mother promised it was way more entertaining than staying home all day coped in a room.
She were so wrong.
Splashing came from below – seemingly, in an attempt to draw attention. One'd think it was just a dolphin, or of some sort. Until well, you heared talking.
— "Oi, Dazai. You'll be noticed, you know!"
— "Exactly what I want~? Hehe."
Two sirens ... casually swimming and following the cruise ship. They obviously had tails instead of legs – swimming around gracefully. They looked ... so handsome, in a way. A charming appearance that shouldn't even look real.
Wait–
SIREN?!
Much confusion was held. A siren? Wait – are you just dreaming? There's no way they're real, right? Yet your thoughts were proven wrong as soon as you saw two of them swimming just by the ship. Oh, how strange.
— "Hm? ..."
What a queer day. You decided to peer over just down by the railing, noticing their bickering and rested your arms by the cold metal, unsure what to do next.
They seemed to be ... whispering to one another, but you couldn't understand the foreign siren tongue. Aha joke, you did.
That librarian knowledge did not go to waste.
Soon, the two sirens looked back up – both staring in the direction where you were.
— "Hey ... look there. There's an attractive young mortal!"
— "Shall we... greet them, Chuuya~? Hehe."
— "I shall not refuse the first chance of entertainment, either."
Both sirens swam up as their tails moved fluidly, their sweet siren songs ... filling your ears.
They wanted you.
A lulling, sweet song – having enchanted the very core of one's own being and slowly leading to the predator. It was as you thought. Despite how tempting it was, you really didn't want to drown, do you?
So! You decides to back off. With your mouth shut. What a brave soul. You used every fiber of your being to resist the song, finding it praisable that you'd have read knowledge of sirenhood beforehand ...
They didn't stop. It became louder. And louder. And louder – it soon came that your own will was slowly breaking apart. They needed you. To listen.
— "This mortal is quite strong ... but they will succumb soon."
— "Awe ... They can't resist forever~"
— "Especially with two sirens."
No.
Two male sirens.
They were seducing you.
Seduction. That rang in your ears. Well, heavens me! It's been quite a while since you've ever heard of that. Ever since you were once seduced by a student in junior high school and somehow ended up shoving him into a broom closet filled with puke and cobwebs since he wouldn't shut the fuck up.
Obviously that was Nikolai.
Slowly, you panicked. Trying to find a way to escape this dire situation, in any means necessary. It may as well be hopeless, but you couldn't just succumb to your end. You kept your mouth shut, trying not to say anything ...
They swam towards you, slowly. Their voices ... singing, still. You wanted their voices. And their words. And their body. And their touch.
In fact – oh, why not.
Well ... you just wanted them.
You opened your mouth. They were basically ready to spring up and grab you at anytime. They were an inch away from the ship, where you stood. They were smiling, as usual – it seemed.
Give in to them, (Y/N). It's just that easy.
...
Oh, fuck it.
— "I ..."
This wouldn't have been preferred, but yet again, this is you obviously – (Y/N). The most lucky and yet (usually) stupidest bitch we know. Ah, look at that. Here it comes. You take a deep breath, clenching your fists.
She notices Chuuya's gleaming, steely blue irises staring at with that sultry look.
— "... Sir ... those are fanfiction blue orbs."
Silence came afterwards.
Chuuya was stunned at this comment. He didn't stop singing, though. If anything, he was more interested in singing and seducing you. He was a siren.
But at some point, he was at a loss for words. One simple question was in his mind, bugging him.
What in the flip-fucking fish is fanfiction?
Dazai had stopped singing as well. He was staring at you, raising an eyebrow – he looked amused, yet concerned? He looked like he was jaw dropped, to be honest. He seemed to be he was in disbelief. What the f-
— "Those ... are what?"
Not much of a moment later, you replied to the brunette.
— "Don't smirk, fishboy. That's cringe."
With that, it took all your might to salute and speed walk away ... whereas, when you finally made it inside – you shut the cruise doors loudly. Sad. Now they have to wait for you to come out again ... which might never be in a hundred years.
In the end, the silence protruded as soft giggles were heard. Until, the two sirens were full fledged in laughing – mostly because you called a siren a ... fishboy.
— "A fishboy~? Aren't you precious."
— "But don't worry. This is the start of a great entertainment. This is fun, Dazai."
You could hear them singing outside the door.
— "You can't keep us out. We always find a way – even if we have to break into the cruise ship and drag you to the sea."
They were so fucking petty.
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aaaand done! it's a long preview, huh? SO PLEASE FORGIVE ME I DID MY BEST.
it'll be out once i'm no longer on hiatus and have finished all seven requests in my inbox lmfao. it's not much at all, but i only post when i get a burst of energy so ...
see you all soon! <3
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nanaosaki3940 · 7 months
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Let's talk about Sakamoto Days...
After the trauma and anxiety the JJK manga gave me for the past two weeks, I decided to indulge myself in something new... Just finished reading chapter 136 of Sakamoto Days manga and now I'm finally caught up with it.
And man, this manga's so fucking amazing!! 🤩🤩🤩
There's no dull moment in this series 😆, the comedy is on point 😂, and the action is peak in every single chapter 👌👍️!!
In other words, everything in Sakamoto Days is just pure RAW.
Talking about favorite characters - Sakamoto and his wife and daughter, Shin, Lu, Heisuke, all the Order members (except for Kanaguri, that filmmaker guy, cause he's fucking annoying), Satoda sensei, Byodo, Akira, Amane, and the Seba brothers (Natsuki and Mafuyu) are those characters that I really enjoyed and care about them.
The grannies and grandpas in this series are no joke, for real, like that one time when a mob of grannies beat the shit out of Sakamoto at the shopping mall, oh god!!
The most robust character in this series - good ol' Takamura - yeah, he's also an old dude working for the Order. And the fact that the old man just fights half-asleep with a simple katana, slicing buildings, cars, bridges, and towers in half?!?! Crazy!!
But, among all of these crazy ass characters, there needs to be a "BAE" character, no??? And that "BAE" character for me is none other than - NAGUMO. 💘💖💕
Like, y'all, I just can't express how much I love this man!! 😍
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He's goofy AF with that smiley look he always has on his face... So unserious!! 😂😂😂
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The duality of this man though...😳😳😳
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His fight with Minimalist is so fucking RAW, y'all!! Like here he's goofing around and teasing that big dude... and the next thing you know...
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...he chopped off that big dude's head!!! 😳😳😳
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Also, man loves going to toy stores to buy fake weapons... So stupid.😂😭💕
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Man's super fast that literally no one notices his moves!!😆
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Appears out of nowhere and is just there??? Like, sir, who invited you??🤨😒😑😂
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My man just loves chilling around... also, his love for his pocky sticks, yo...😋😋😋
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Getting all the ladies - A True Rizzler!!😍🤩😘
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How he starts his fights...😆😆😆
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How those fights end...😨😨😨
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His bond with big guy Hyo is the funniest shit ever!!🤣🤣🤣
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Him and the Order...😎😎😎
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When did he draw out his weapon?!?! How did he cut off his head?!?! Also, where's the weapon he used to cut off that big dude's head?!?!😨😨😨😱😱😱
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Him in the volume cover!!!😍😍😍🤩🤩🤩
In short...
Welcome to my bae club, Nagumo!!! 😘😘😘
(My bae list, btw...)
Keisuke Baji from Tokrev
Dabi/Touya Todoroki from MHA
Satoru Gojo from JJK
Osamu Dazai from BSD
Nagumo from SakaDays (newly added)
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kissesforsatoru · 2 years
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hello! although i don’t read bsd, i found the dazai’s reaction to a suicide attempt a really interesting concept. could i request yan gojo, getou, and nanami’s (separate) reactions to the same scenario? i hope you’re having a good one!! (also: i read through your rules and it didn’t specify how many characters at a time i can request- so if you only take one at a time, please don’t worry and just write for whichever you prefer.)
𓏲 ˖. pairings. . . gojo x reader
𓏲 ˖. summary. . . gojo's reaction to darlings suicide attempt
𓏲 ˖. warnings. . . general yandere themes, suicide, death, drowning
𓏲 ˖. notes. . . i don't really like nanami and i don't know getou's character well enough to write for him yet, i'm sorry!! (reference to this post.)
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at first he's mad because how fucking dare you. you can't just leave him, especially not in such an insulting way — because of course gojo would find escape by suicide insulting. but, it quickly sets in that you're dying and he becomes terrified.
it sounds like a joke for someone like gojo to be scared, but there he is, on the verge of tears because he might lose you. he leaned over the bathtub, desperately and frantically pulling your limp body out of the water and into his arms to check for a pulse — it was very faintly there. gojo's body shook as he performed cpr on you.
you coughed out water when you woke up, your body instantly flinging itself into a position where you could breathe better. but you were weak and barely able to hold yourself up at all, so you quickly fell back down into the floor. you looked around the room, struggling to keep your eyes open, and when you saw gojo with a worried expression on his face, you smiled ever so slightly at him.
"if i die, i'll be happy knowing that i don't have to suffer being with you anymore." you whispered to him just before you lost consciousness.
gojo sat on the ground next to you shocked that you really hated him that much. in that moment he felt so incredibly weak, and he hated it more than anything because it was foreign. but he wasn't going to just let you die, especially like this, so he hired the best doctors to care for you during your recovery.
the entire time you were unconscious, gojo struggled a lot. he was scared and worried beyond belief, but he also didn't really know how to process what had happened. but as gojo is, he would never outwardly admit something like that.
i think that things would get a lot worse for you. he'll get more possessive and clingy, his presence will be so suffocating that you won't even get the chance to think about suicide or escape ever again. and he'll always remind you of it too, telling you that you're his no matter what you do. but there's always a glint in gojo's eyes that tells you he's not as confident anymore.
if you do die, even in the hands of doctors who provide you with the utmost care, you'd draw the opposite reaction out of gojo. something like his darling dying would affect him so much that he'd lose all of his personality and will to be anything but an empty shell of a person. he'd hate himself and what he did to you.
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the-bloody-sadist · 5 months
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Can I ask your top 10 fav fics ever (from any fandom, if you don't mind)?
Also, just curious, is there a story behind your name "the bloody sadist"?
YOU FUCKING BET!!!! I love having the opportunity to list my favorites for anything, though I'm also incredibly picky about fanfics, so I don't actually know (until I start scrolling my bookmarks and listing them) if I'll reach a whole 10 favorites!! But I might! (Note: these are in no particular order)
What I Want From You is Sweet by VampireFaun (Heaven Official's Blessing) [And basically every other work that she's written! But some of my other top favorites of hers are The Thing That Was Not His Highness and Beast With Two Backs]: When I can't get a fanfic out of my head, I usually end up drawing an illustration based on it, if I'm bold enough to risk depicting an author's precious words (rare). This is my MOST re-read fic and I won't ever stop. It doesn't help that VampireFaun/Deer is a WONDERFUL PERSON and I love her personality so much. She's an incredible writer!
Tenfold by dgalerab (Bungou Stray Dogs) : Baby's first fic! This was one of the writings that immediately roped me into the fanfic world. When I first was into it, I was under the impression that everyone just went there to write half-assed explorations of sex between characters, and that wasn't so appealing to me. When I discovered that some people can write entire 25-chapter PLOTS with the level of literacy that matches what I hoped to read??? I was hooked. Obviously you can see in this list that I have strong devotion to a handful of fic writers and my favorites are just the top best fics that I return to of their writing. If I find a great writer, I subscribe to them and go on a rampage of consumption through their list of fics, my fandom or not! Please consider doing the same for those authors that I mention like that!! You'll find so much gold. Everything by dgalerab is good in some way, I have almost all of their fics bookmarked. :') My only complaint about this particular story was that HOLY FUCK THE AUTHOR CUT SO MANY SCENES WAY TOO SHORT LMAO. Please let me have a full comfort scene for more than two paragraphs T_T I worked so hard for it. I cried so much. ANYWAY, STILL A HUGE INSPIRATION FOR WHAT I WENT ON TO WRITE!
What You Have Tamed by Parsnipit (Heaven Official's Blessing)
Love is Hard, Life Sucks by gev_ao3 (Bungou Stray Dogs) : A painful inspection of the nuances of domestic abuse. This one rang true to reality so much that I don't think I can re-read it without having a depressive episode. It's not finished, but it's Fyozai, and you know how I feel about that. Also side-plot SKK! I usually can't stand AUs, but this one fits the situations very well. It's the type of fic that only someone who knows a little too much about how abuse works on a victim can write.
Careful Fear and Dead Devotion by intimatopia (Trigun Stampede) : Yet another fic that I couldn't help but draw for! And intimatopia was kind enough to link it in his fic summary T_T - A super angsty sadomasochistic fic about Vash needing pain and Wolfwood needing to give it. If I don't list any other fics by him on here, it's because I'm such a huge enjoyer of his writing (one of my favorite fic authors), so nearly all of them that don't hit on personal triggers are in my favorites category. He's a master at pinning down the PERFECT depictions of characters that make them feel as canon as possible while also becoming more tangible and real. The ZhongXiao, AyaThoma and Kaeluc fics are incredible. Read them all! However, I will mention that one of his fics that first stuck with me was his Kaeluc AU Northbound & Reaching ! Carys has done a lot of BSD fics too, of which a few stick out to me like They Say You Gotta Fake It and that one Soul Eater AU he did where Dazai was a knife in Chuuya's drawer who gained a body. I DON'T KNOW WHERE IT WENT CUZ I CAN'T FIND IT TO LINK YOU BUT GO LOOK THROUGH ALL HIS FICS FOR IT. IT'S REALLY UNIQUE.
Top 5 works, I guess?? As I mentioned several times while gushing, three of these account for entire lists of the author's works that you should enjoy if we share the same taste! VampireFaun, dgalerab, and intimatopia are my top fic authors, and I've read everything they've posted as long as it didn't contain anything personally triggering - and have learned about new fandoms even! Also, Alaruya didn't make it on this list, but they have a Fyozai fic that really inspired me with its imagery and language. I link it in my Sinner fanfic if you're interested!
I have quite a few other random fics I enjoy, but most were from a Heaven Official's Blessing craze recently and then BSD works that inspired me in some way, but they're not very unique or long, so I felt like this was the best collection to list. Most any fic that explores Dazai struggling with self-harm or neediness or asexuality has my attention. It just has to be written well!
AS FAR AS MY NAME - YOU'RE THE FIRST TO ASK THAT QUESTION! I'm a big fan of...how to explain...slightly dehumanizing titles?? Something that isn't really a name, but a description of me in some way. Something that makes me feel mysterious and yet also gives everyone who reads it an idea of the type of works I'm creating. Of course, my main personality trait is being sadistic, and I love the word sadist, and I love putting THE in front of literally any title because I DON'T KNOW LMAO...I'm THE ONE. That kinda thing. I'M THE GUY!! YEAH I'M THE BLOODY SADIST GUY! THAT ONE! I also love smashing words together, so I was like, I can't just be THE sadist....what else do I like....and that's about it. If I name myself I tend to have trouble ever using anything else in reference to me, so Sadist has stuck from the very beginning. It's going to be very hard to part with that name once I publish a novel and have to use a first and last name...
THANKS FOR THE ASK!! I HOPE YOU ENOY THOSE RECS.
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cousticks · 7 months
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Fave character and why (overall)
What type of characters do you typically enjoy? (for me i usually like dead characters because of their... idk there's just so much to work w there 😭 like so many things for interpretation/potential)
What got you into bsd
What got you into tumblr
Can you give at least one tip or advice on how to recover from a hyperfixation on something when u need to be productive?
Are you better at writing or drawing?
If you could choose, which would you be better at?
Do you like painting?
Are your friends nice?
Forgive me for the random asks. jus answer the ones you want to ty ❤️
Is it weird if I answer all of them? I think all of these are fun to answer so I'm gonna answer all of them. Tysm!!
Favorite character overall is... really difficult. I like so many different characters for so many reasons across so many different medias. Even choosing a favorite from BSD is wildly difficult. Of all characters ever, one of my favorites is Cal Trask from John Steinbeck's East of Eden (the book, not the movie, even though he is played by James Dean). East of Eden is one of my favorite books ever, and most of the incredible themes in it, all of the cycles it represents, as well as the cycles it finally breaks, are done through Cal. He struggles with being good despite a thematic predisposition to being anything but throughout his portion of the novel doomed-by-the-narrative style, until at the end the resolution is that... he doesn't have to be either, he only really has to be him. I love that book dearly and could talk about its themes for hours (and have!). As far as favorite BSD characters specifically, that's near impossible for me to say, but a rough top-group would include Kyusaku, Kouyou, Dazai but specifically mafia era, Kunikida, and Albatross. I don't have any really good reasoning for those top favorites beyond "hehe, I like them," honestly.
I usually enjoy characters that it takes a while to piece together their motivations. Morally grey. And I mean actually morally grey, not the asshole-that-does-nice-things antihero type. I like characters that make me want to think about them and piece them together and study them like bugs under a magnifying glass until they start to catch on fire. Dudes who suck but have so much potential to be more. Make me have to justify why I enjoy them in front of a board of directors. I love to be able to fill in between the lines.
A former friend group got me into BSD back in 2019 because they were all watching it and I happened to have the time and energy to. The sheer amount of media to consume & intrigue of the characters is what made me stay, though.
This is horribly embarrassing but my first stint on Tumblr ~7 or 8 years ago was sparked by learning that the Onceler fandom existed and being absolutely fascinated by it. It was already dying out by this point, so I wasn't active or anything in it, but I thought the way people interacted across blogs to make these wild stories was so fascinating. Specifically the Truffula Flu zombie arcs. I was a Camp Entre loyalist. A couple years later I accidentally deleted my blog and didn't get active on Tumblr again until a little over a year ago, though, when I wanted to start engaging with the fanbases some media I was fixating on at the time.
If I could figure out the secret for recovering from a hyperfixation in a productive way I would be a much more functional person. Sometimes I'm able to approach things with an "if you can't beat it, join it" mentality, and can come up with ways to connect my current task to whatever I'm fixating on. Here's the secret: you're allowed to be cringe with it. If you need to do the dishes and need to make it a mental competition for "oh boy I need to be less of a disaster than Dazai its fucking on" or "I need to do my math homework so Kunikida will be proud of me" or "gotta do my laundry... I gotta be dressy for my port mafia work attire..." then do it. Who cares. That doesn't work all the time, but it can work sometimes. And when it doesn't? I normally just try to clear my mind entirely by doing something that sucks so much I can't think of anything except how it sucks. For me its cardio. I hate cardio exercise. But if I go on a jog and come back I a) feel a little better and more functional because I went on a stupid exercise for my stupid mental health, b) got some of the excess fixation energy out, and c) that sucked so bad i would literally rather do Anything else i might as well be fucking productive. These are not sure-fire ways but they help me. And my most important one? You can't focus when you're stressed. Trying to force yourself to focus when you're stressed about an assignment and panicking because you can't focus will not help you, it will make the problem worse. It is okay to give yourself some grace, walk away, try to put yourself into a healthier mindset, and come back. That's another reason I like to take walks when I can't focus, even if its just a small one down the hall for a glass of water and then back. Don't force yourself. Never force yourself. You'll feel worse and more frustrated.
I'm much better at writing. I'm horrible at drawing, I just do it anyway for fun because sometimes I need to get my fixation kick out in a visual manner. Writing has always been my strong suit.
If I could choose? I think I'd still pick writing, honestly. I'm sometimes jealous of those that can make gorgeous art, but I'm happy in my world of writing because it has helped me in so many other areas of my life as well. I don't live an artists life, unfortunately, and writing has served me well.
I do like painting! I haven't in a very long time, as I don't have the time or energy much, but I used to sculpt and paint my creations. I'm not saying I was particularly good at either, but I used to, and I enjoyed it.
I didn't always have nice friends. But these days? They are. I wouldn't trade the friends I have now for the world.
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4ngel-inc · 3 months
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𝐁𝐔𝐍𝐆𝐎 𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘 𝐃𝐎𝐆𝐒 — ASKING THEM TO USE A TOY IN BED ۪ ✦ ۫ 𑄼ల۫  ۪
notes: none, pretty self-explanatory !! ᰔ
warnings: fem reader. inexperienced akutagawa in his. jealous dazai (he ruins your orgasm, but lovingly). cock ring in fukuzawa's just cus i feel it suits him so well !! :'))
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𝐃𝐀𝐙𝐀𝐈 is very much into it when you ask him to use a toy on you—it's not something he's new to, a few of his partners have asked for it in the past, and it's always been a good time, so why not? however, he wasn't expecting to feel a little jealous this time around—the way you're moaning and creaming around the toy as you orgasm, his hand moving it in and out of you at a steady pace as his eyes are locked onto your pretty pussy, has him feeling just a little left out. was he jealous of a damn toy? he can't control himself as he unconsciously pulls it out of you in the middle of your climax, earning a startled groan from you as he latches his mouth onto your pussy and begins to softly suck on your clit. "mmf-" he lets it slip out of his mouth slowly, making your legs shake. "you still like me more than the toy, right, angel?" you roll your eyes at him, "i thought you've done this before, 'samu?" he pouts at that, "i think i just love you too much, princess. can i fuck you instead?"
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𝐂𝐇𝐔𝐔𝐘𝐀 isn't sure about the idea at first—he wasn't a virgin before he met you, necessarily, but he wasn't as experienced as some others in the mafia—he was more focused on work than a quick fuck, that was probably how he climbed the ladder so quickly. however, he figures he'll try it if it'll make you feel good, and he quickly finds he likes it much more than he expected. he feels utterly mesmerized as he holds the little vibrator on your clit, your pussy squeezing his fingers harder than he's ever felt in his life as you draw nearer to your orgasm. "oh, f-fuck, chuuya, gonna make me cum so hard. your fingers feel so good, move them in and out like that-" you grab his wrist and motion him to fuck you harder with his fingers, and he eagerly obliges. "gonna cum already? shit," you practically cry as you cum, gushing over his knuckles as he feels your pussy contract with each wave of your orgasm, the sweet sound of his name leaving your lips only making his cock harder. "wanna feel you squeezing my cock this hard, can we try that next, doll?"
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𝐀𝐊𝐔𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐀𝐖𝐀 already feels way out of his element just by dating you—he cherishes your relationship, it's just that he's been learning so many new things all at once, it's a little intimidating at times. you told him you were hesitant to ask about using a toy, but surprisingly, he found himself more comfortable with the idea of fucking you with a toy than with fucking you himself. he's still building confidence—watching you cum exactly as you like is something he thinks may help him please you more. when you adjust the toy as he fucks you with it, tilting it upwards a little to hit your g-spot, it's like something suddenly clicks in his mind. "ah- there?" your moans grow louder as he hits your sweet spot, "oh, fuck, yes, that's perfect- you're doing so good." "hmm," he leans down to lick your clit gently, spreading your lips with his fingers as he does, growing more comfortable with the simultaneous movements. "can i do this at the same time? seems like you like it," he smirks. "mmm, 'f course, baby, you're so good—just don't stop." he grows a little bolder at that. of course he's good at this, why wouldn't he be?
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𝐅𝐔𝐊𝐔𝐙𝐀𝐖𝐀 is much more traditional than you are, and he isn't super into the idea of using a toy at first—but the way his balls tighten immediately as he begins fucking you, the pretty cock ring wrapped tightly around his thick shaft, has him silently thanking the universe you'd encouraged him to try something new. his moans grow louder than even he thought possible as his cock hardens almost painfully, spilling into you only a few minutes after starting. "oh, i-" he struggles to catch his breath as his cock softens slightly inside you, his hands traveling up your body to gently squeeze at your tits, still clearly turned on. "i was not expecting so much. . ." from the look on your face, you weren't expecting such a positive reaction either, but as his cock soon stiffens again, his hips moving faster against yours this time as your tits bounce, little whimpers escaping your lips, his sensitive cock sends even more intense jolts of pleasure through his body this time, his eyes rolling back as he cums almost immediately again. "hmm, i take it you like it, yukichi?" you reach up to stroke his cheek with your fingers as he comes down, "still feeling a little sensitive, yeah?" he nods at that, sliding back into you as he groans deeply.
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mrskurono · 2 years
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Okay okay, mama here I am with my self ship *drumroll*
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Rae x Chuuya (bsd)
You know I'm shit with thinking about hcs myself but....I feel like Chuuya would be all about scented candles and decorating the INSIDE of the house for Christmas. Like he doesn't want to bother at all about outside stuff cuz that's a pain. But sitting in the livingroom with some candles going and a corny Christmas movie on seems about right to me. I can't see him going all out with like "buzzing with the holiday spirit" out in public but like a lot of it is inside and stays that way haha
Not to mention, he thinks that a good Christmas gift involves his body in some way. Like he dresses up his cock with a pretty ribbon and says that's your present
But oddly he's actually good at getting gifts that isn't of his body
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MY WIFE'S NEW SELF SHIP EVERYONE HEUHEU YOU LIKE CHUUYA DON'T YA HUN???
Ok joking aside - Chuuya just seems to have a strong draw towards cinnamon scents? Is it bc they're red? And his hairs red? We may never know. And he decorated outside once but then Dazai commented on it and told him it looked good and Chuuya decided to never decorate outside ever again bc god forbid Dazai talk to him while he's home/in his safe space.
He puts a tiny bunch of poinsettias in his hat at the beginning of December and leaves them there all month don't @ me
Also the bit that he thinks he's a magnificent gift himself sounds around right. But we both know you're gonna untie that ribbon on his pretty dick so don't know what you're doing hiding that with tiny text 😏 He'll also convince you to fuck under the Christmas tree on Christmas eve and RIP when your kid finds mommy NOT with Santa
Alright since I did Atsushi already, I guess I'll do my other one. My Akutagawa self ship...Akutagawa doesn't like Christmas at all until it's our first Christmas. A curmudgeon at heart he can't fend it off the moment we decorate the tree. Something about that just, really sticks with him and becomes very real suddenly to him. Spends an awful amount of time then staring at said tree throughout the month. But it's less creepy when the colorful lights reflect off his eyes and he just kinda zones out content. Akutagawa is shit at gifts though. Unless it's painted out in bold he is either a gift card guy or a "you like this food I bought 10 lbs of it" kind of guy. The thought never counts but the amount of times he wants to cuddle through the month makes up for it.
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Let's talk self ships! • #selfshipsaturday baby!
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