do you have any ideas in mind for how swap!evans scrap baby design would look, assuming its different from regular scrap baby? (since yk, its implied(?) they rebuilt themself after getting kicked out of ennard)

oh and how did/do evan and circus baby interact/feel about each other?

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I DREW THIS ASK TODAY AND CANNOT SHARE THE ART BC ITS. ON PAPER. AND I DONT HAVE MY PHONE

But i thought id answer anyways, ill rb with a doodle if i can manage one (maybe in my animation class?)

first of all, he'd not be half as smashed up as liz was. he wanted to be cute and whatever, and his goal is. not killing ppl lmao.

so he goes back and gets a discarded unused circus baby faceplate from the bunker. its old and the faceplates dont move well at all (rusty and stuck together, mostly) but its not horrible. its also cracked a bit but. what can you do?

instead of wires and whatever i think hed want something softer to use for hair so i gave him some sort of fucked up string. its thick and fluffy but falling appart :( poor dude he also got other discarded animatronic concepts that william and henry kept in case they wanted to use them elsewhere. evan still has the claw on one hand but the other is an unnecessarily large paw (he cant exactly remember why at this point, but he loves bears so the paw caught his eye)

his outfit is just cloathes he found in the garbage and therefore doesnt fit well. and his torso is just the usual circus baby torso if not a bit fucked up by all the time itd been left in the bunker. its also cracked and rusty similar to his mask

his feet r just whatever he could find, but those wont even be seen a lot bc hes in the vents so who cares

the big paw is also one of the same as what molten freddy dug up to replace the rubber hose esque hands ennard had (not REALLY rubber hose but meant to look the part yk?)

as for evs relationship w cbby, its complicated. he initially wants nothing to do with the animatronic or possessing it, but when he sees liz he suddenly wants to seize control (hence bouncing between circus baby and evan)

at that time, there was still a pretty clear line between evan and cbby, bc of how hed avoided her n shit in a way bc he cant. he cant leave her lmao but he just didnt try to BE her. still while SL takes place the line does blur between him and cbby.

post scoop he finds mike and tells him about elizabeth and for a while michael keeps him seperate from the other animatronics bc yk, having someone he KNEW was his sibling and who KNEW his identity helped him and michael is the most conscious of everyone. and so he once again was aware of who he was but when michael and the funtimes both dumped him they reallty merged and it became unclear who was who (which lead to his memories getting fucked wehn he was rebuilding himself) and just overall hes weird and Not Evan Anymore. especially because evan being rejected by michael compared to circus baby being abandoned by william and the funtimes and that pain of being thrown to the curb causing anger in both that ended with them having such similar ideas and feelings that they might as well be the same entity

as far as interactions go, they really didnt interact much for a VERY long time and when they did it was quick and uncomfortable. but when evan tried to wrestle control back its started a weird silent relationshi

Circus baby did not want to get rid of him, she didnt entirely know what he was ("I still hear her sometimes" yk?) other than shed killed him and sometimes shed say things she didnt think.

evan didnt like how everything was going with elizabeth, so he wanted to subtly steer her elsewhere. however, between his own bitterness at her leaving him alone and inadvertently causing his death, and circus baby and him becoming one, he eventually began leading her to the scooper.

and evan is a lot more convincing than circus baby was.

its not until he's set free that evan is actually evan again

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I genuinely don’t understand people who say aspecs are queer BUT NOT kinky people. If you’re into BDSM, if you’re polyamorous, if you’re celibate, if you’re hypersexual, if you’re in an interracial relationship. It’s all related. These are sexuality/relationship/lifestyles that don’t meet our society’s standards and are underrepresented or represented negatively and so i think they are all queer

Anon I am having thinky thoughts but also I lowkey don’t want to get into this too majorly bc I got into this several years back during said campaign I mentioned in the tags on that rb post lmfao and it resulted in a whole Thing and I like... don’t have the energy to get into internet arguments with people anymore because I’m old and tired and can’t deal with the back and forth of me making points, them ignoring the majority of my points in favor of some strawmen or appeal to extremes, me addressing that and also some points including maybe where they DO have a point about some facet I failed to consider but have now, them ignoring that and repeating their same talking points, me addressing their points again & pointing out their ad hominems that usually have come out at this point and other logical fallacies, them ignoring that to repeat- and ultimately, we’re kind of talking past each other and I’m mostly appealing to whatever audience might be around. (I think I might have priv’ed or deleted a bunch of posts from back then but some may still be up somewhere in my archive lmao.....). 

So on that kind of note I don’t... necessarily want to get into an argument or debate (not necessarily with you, possibly by some other anon passing through who is much more inclined to picking a fight with me about the Affront to Them Personally as well as the sanctity of the movement) on whether or not being kinky itself constitutes being “queer” per se bc I think the terminology is a sticking point and I do kind of see the perspective of “kink doesn’t make you automatically queer” **HOWEVER** yes I do also agree with that post I rbed that like kink/fur do rather constitute “queer subcultures” even though not every single person in there is LGBT+ in a more “traditional” sense - such as speaking more towards like sexual orientation & gender identity - and that these kinds of “alternative” lifestyles do present a “queering” (*a* queering) of ^ sexuality/relationships/lifestyles or whatever we might term that. And maybe that’s what I was struggling to articulate all those yrs ago lmao, when I was young and full of the energy of the Youthe and could get into internet arguments with ppl. The like respectability politics of trying to be sanitized enough to be “acceptable” to a hostile and rigid mainstream while alienating queer subcultures, which just results in the queer community at large cutting off parts of itself to try to be/remain “acceptable” but that just leads to self-harm to the community at large vs addressing more global/bigger picture issues.

Hrmmm okay I think what this whole issue of terminology and what gets to be called “queer” kind of gets to: they’re related, as you say, but that being varying shades or scopes of marginalized, but that doesn’t necessarily make it all “queer”? Because.... tbh I can see why the full-stop is a sticking point for people, and I do kind of think operationalized terms have more value when they ARE applied with scope instead of trying to generalize it too broadly, and queer does mean something quite specific (or.. maybe not specific, but rather that “queer” DOES have parameters, tho they may be more of like a soft-shaded parameter as opposed to some kind of hard fence)? 

But I do agree that usually a lot of the language people against various other kinds of marginalized identity aspects uses, mirrors, & parallels language used against other things, like language against queer people/queer relationships & interracial relationships, and that communities would be served better with solidarity rather than trying to excise or disavow other communities - ESPECIALLY communities which have a lot of overlap with the queer community and also are historical and current allies - in a futile attempt to be “respectable” enough for the hostile mainstream and its evermoving goalposts.

..But maybe I’m just quibbling a point here, because while I don’t know if I’d call kink/fur/etc “queer” and the term “queer subcultures” seems to fit better for me, this does point to “these subcultures have room within queer spaces and in fact were there at the inception of ‘queer spaces’ as we kind of conceive of it today in USmerica” (idk fur but the kink community was definitely there). And then this gets into a more philosophical question of “well if it belongs in queer spaces is it not then ‘queer.’” This may be a “this topic is complicated and multifaceted an these different arguments based on different needs and with different axes of foci can coexist.” Ultimately, I think it does come down to “exclusionary rhetoric against a marginalized identity/community - especially one that is aligned, if not overlapping or otherwise part of the “core community” at the heart of this issue - is more harmful than helpful because the goalposts of respectability will never stay put and the language used by the hegemony against one group often is reused/paralleled/mirrored in language against another marginalized group, and can very easily be turned again back against you.”

Speaking more towards the arguments re: the 'coming out' campaign backlash, like back then I was fairly active in the m/m romance GR community & more in touch with ppl who were part of kink communities who were part of the m/m GR comm, and like based on what they told me/we talked abt following the whole backlash against “coming out kinky,” is that ppl DO in fact lose their jobs get disowned get evicted etc if they're 'outed' as kinky. Which then directly parallels the vanilla queer experience. I think a sticking point back then was that 'born this way' rhetoric was more prevalent back then, and ppl see kink as more of a 'lifestyle choice' and less about something 'inherent', and also some ppl were just flat-out like 'um ew it's sexual harassment'. But I think if you look at various dynamics of kink there's like lifestyle kink which isn't necessarily inherently or always sexual so like I don't think it's automatically a sexual harassment thing, ig for me it's like... ppl reacting with SUCH backlash against the idea that kink could/should be allowed within the concept of queer spaces and that echoes that post about assassination of queer subcultures, and like coming out isn’t always “I fuck xx” or “I fuck in xx way,” like if you come out as gay you’re not necessarily describing in explicit detail to your mother the ways fuck, you know? I think for me the “coming out” thing also was kind of like... is it safe for you for people to find out x aspect about you? And I do rather think there’s greater hostility towards these kinds of subcultures, which would then perhaps elicit or illustrate a reason why we might want to normalize or educate people better on what exactly constitutes the precepts of the subculture, vs whatever popular idea of it is prevailing at the time?

..I think ultimately we go back again to “this topic is complicated because there’s many intersectional issues as well as competing needs so there’s not a one-size-fits-all ‘answer’ to the questions/issues brought up”

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OMG THANK YOU EVERYONEEE!!! 🤩 I’m so glad you guys enjoy all the stuff I post/rb :’3c

I kinda want to do something special for this milestone (esp since I forgot to say anything when I reached 200). Maybe a sneak peek of the secret project I’m working on that I’ve mentioned a few times? Even though it won’t be so secret anymore? �� At first I was a little paranoid someone might try to steal my idea if I did post a sneak peek (bc I don’t believe this has been done before) but hey, if I post it then I can say you all saw it here first, hehe. (Actually I don’t really mind if like.. someone does their own version of this project. I was just afraid someone would take the idea and then accuse me of stealing the concept from them lmao)

It’s an animated video parody thing, btw. The completed video will be about a minute and a half, and I’ve finished about 7 seconds so far. (Might not sound like a lot but I’m having to work on it frame by frame ok 😂) So yeah, let me know! Do you want me to post what I have so far? Or does anyone have any other suggestions for what you’d maybe like to see from me? :3

EDIT: said sneak peek has been posted~

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i do NOT UNDERSTAND MATH

16. favorite makeup brand(s)i dont know how to use makeup lmao;;;like i have one lipstick i sometimes put on for work???? but idont know if its the right shade?????? idk mani might get hired as a bartender so id LIKE to know how to doll up so i can rank in tips but how work????

32. 3 favorite girl namesXochi, Aracely, and some other third one im sure ill think of like an hour from now

48. who is your role model?UHM not sure ive ever actively had one???? literally anyone whose having a good time rn lol 

64. Favorite dipping sauce?IN TOMORROWLAND AT THE GALACTIC GRILL THEY HAVE THIS REEEAAALLLYYY GOOD BBQ SAUCE FOR CHICKEN TENDERS AND IM SOSOSSOSOOSOSOSOSOOSOOOOOOOOOOOOO MAD I ONLY FOUND OUT ABOUT IT 2 DAYS BEFORE LEAVING MY JOB THERE I WOULDVE GONE THERE FOR LUNCH LITERALLY EVERY DAY????????????????? LIKE U SIT IN A SPACE OUTDOOR EATING AREA, THERES A STAR WARS STAGE SHOW IN FRONT OF YOU, CHICKEN STRIPS, AND THAT GOOD BBQ SAUCE??????????

IM SO MAD @MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

80. what is your biggest pet peeve?people who assume i dont know shit and try to tell me what to do even though im telling them i got it i understand i KNOW.....like someone being all “oh no we shouldnt go here, place you’ve known all your fucking life and I only just discovered, you wouldnt like it, its not worth it trust me” 

like this is so weirdly specific but it just irks me so much.....

/////also people who consistenly rb posts and add commentary thats still such a stupid tumblr pet peeve but yknow what, after that einstein post and everyone weighing in on their stupid comment im ALLOWED to dislike IT 

96. day or night? OKAY LIKEi like daytime bc i like the sun and its fun being OUTSIDE AND DOING THINGSbut im, its not that im not ALLOWED to go places, its that my parents dont like going out and doing things, so if they dont like it, we automatically cant or dont or wont so itll still be early afternoon on a weekend and we’re back indoors bc thats it no more needing to be out there nope nah we’re goodand it sucks when you just wanna fucken walk around in the damn sunlight yknow?????so thats why i prefer the night time like, im still stuck indoors, but they’re both asleep and as long as im quiet as hell its my city????i like daytime but i rarely get to enjoy it so i prefer the concept of night time lmao

mental health & gender musings under the cut, y’all can respond if you want to i guess but im probably not gonna reply to anyone tonight, im not asking for advice or anything i just needed to type out my thoughts tbh

(please dont rb this obviously)

i’ve hit a new mood over the last week like, i’ve been in such a bad place the last few months and it’s all felt really intense and painful and been so hard but idk? this week ive had less bad breakdowns and its a generally more consistent mood but im definitely doing less, my mind is a lot foggier and my sleeping patterns are worse and idk i just ??? feel kinda numb now? im taking longer to reply to messages and giving shorter replies, im not posting as much content as i usually do im pretty much just sleeping until mid afternoon and watching youtube for the rest of the day idk lmao i think im just on like.....low power mode like im down to one or two basic functions it’s probably super bad for me in the long run but im gonna give it another few days or a week or two maybe its just my mind resting and if i give myself some space it’ll spark me doing better overall ??? i d k i havent self harmed for almost a week which is the best i’ve done since early february so. we’ll have to see if this is the start of another recovery attempt or if im just between spirals i guess

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ive been thinking kinda a lot about gender lately as well like, i’ve tentatively identified as nb for a long time now and i think im just a lot more comfortable with it as a whole than i was a few months ago, but it’s also kinda surreal bc. im so strongly connected to womanhood & lesbianism and at the same time just....disconnected from gender as an entire concept like. i feel like im somewhere between being a woman and being genderless (or both at the same time some days) which is good and im not even having any sort of crisis over that and i think its bc i just....dont feel like i need to ever ‘come out’ as nb to my family & irl friends? like nb just feels Right and it’s so much more comfortable to me as a personal identifier than 100% female and as one to use around other lgbt people but. around cishets, even my family who i love so much & i know would be accepting even if they didn’t really get what it means, it feels like its just Easier to not say anything about it and.....that doesn’t really bother me at all? i use she/her pronouns more than they/them anyway so like. idk what this is about im just. finally more comfortable with this identity and starting to present in a slightly less feminine way, i got rid of so many clothes i dont wanna wear anymore and im rebuilding my wardrobe to embrace the lesbian aesthetic i want to and just. yeah this is nice i love being a nb lesbian, i might start a nb tag on my blog tbh