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llondonfog · 29 days

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me, a slut for feverish, sick whump prompts

also me, currently sick: if i can't breathe in the next hour im going to claw out my sinuses with the nearest blunt object-

#tbd #aaajsksk thank u to all the sweet messages and hcs #i haven't responded bc i feel like death #day four of not being able to breathe or swallow and im begging the antibiotics to work #thank god i have like 300 hrs of sick leave bc i haven't slept in like three days #my eyes are burning #I JUST WANT TO BREATHE HOLY SHIT

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manglam-marfach · 1 month

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dyke!Chilaios has me understanding breeding kink all of a sudden

#chilaios #that's a lie i understand breeding kink very well lmao #HOWEVER IT MUST BE SAID #they finish up a great scene. hot lesbian sex. all going well.#and laios lies back with her eyes closed. still flushed and sweaty. she rests her naked hand on her naked lower stomach and says. 'hah....#'did you know ...that tallmen and halflings can have kids together?' Like its just another fun monster fact.#she's trailing her fingers absentmindedly over her stomach now. tracing idle patterns.#'with our lifespans being so similar it isn't even as big a deal as it is for elves and humans. they're even fertile and that's ...#that's really rare for hybrids.' her eyes are still closed. she swallows hard. She's more red now than she was when they fucked.#'you should talk about that next time you're in me. i'd like it...' and she cracks one eye open a sliver #to see chilchuck . BEET. RED.#because Chilchuck DID NOT. KNOW.#She was already fucked out and now she's dying?? she's dying. Laios still has her huge hand resting on her huge smooth stomach #miles and miles of soft skin...that she wants chilchuck to put a BABY in #she's thought about the hypothetical lifespan and safety of the hypothetical baby! is this just a sex thing? is this a for real thing?#chilchuck does not know and does not know which one she's hoping for now!! cause both sound GREAT #AND OF COURSE THERE'S ALSO #chilchuck remembering that conversaion next time Laios's huge huge fingers are inside her. Laios's hot wet breathing by her ear.#Laios's breathing going ragged even though no one is touching HER she is the one toying with Chilchuck right now. She always does that.#between the breathing and the fingers and the warmth and the smell Laios is all around her and she just thinks -#'Laios is so huge. Laios's baby would be so huge. I'd be so huge. Pregnant with it.' And she cums.#rattles her to her fucking core. Chilchuck who HAS BEEN PREGNANT BEFORE realising. holy shit.#i want this fluffy haired socially awkward 26 year old doggirl to . to fuck a baby into me. in a sexy way.#i think . I think it's hot.#enough to turn you to drink isn't it!#u may ask - hey how come chilchuck has a girlcock and has got pregnant? can laios get chilchuck pregnant?#does anyone even have a womb in this situation? I may answer - don't worry about it #a wizard did it. whatever. its a fantasy world.#whatever is sexiest in the moment i don't care #lesbiance

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boxwinebaddie · 2 months

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spoiler alert: chapter thirteen of pep is the begining of the stan healing arc and in the beginning of it, stan throws on his biggest, rattiest boy pajamas, puts his hair back in the standana, plays his emo throwbacks playlist and starts cleaning his entire gross ass house from top to bottom & that's based on true events bc its literally just me every time i clean my room after a major depressive episode

#sorry i'm not posting please know i am fighting demons #and the demons are whatever the hell is behind my end table #legit me rn in my death note teeshirt w my hair back in the hello kitty gloves wincing reaching into a crevice pulling something out n goin #AAAAAAAAAAA #*chugs cider*#eEWEEWeEwweEWWEWWEW #*chucks it in the trash*#shivers #idk if i'm naseous bc i have the freakin stomach flu or because of whatever fumes i am breathing in from my biohazard room #sorry i keep it real on here #every instance of pep!stan or raven being nasty #is just me like literally every time i'm so sorry i wish i was jokin #i want to be kyle pile or jersey so bad #i am a nasty gross disgusting goblin girl from hell #anyways...back to the trenches holy fuck i hate my life #but yes if ur waiting for a response...i'm sorry #i am in nasty horrible room girl hell also i'm sick #to my stomach and of my shit smh

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sunnibits · 2 years

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I just really wanna see a legit soft smile from Izzy… I want to see him sitting and chatting quietly with someone when the other person makes a little joke or some such comment, and it just gets a genuine little smile out of him for once in his life… I wanna see that hard, angry stone wall of a face crack for once, I wanna see the lovely creases form around his eyes, like a goddamn miracle…

#I want him to look decades younger but keep all his age at the same time #I can just picture it so clearly #I think it would make him shine #a little huff of breath and a small drop of his head…#the other person meanwhile is like ‘holy shit what was that’#izzy hands #ofmd

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edwardbonnets · 8 months

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oh my god i've had such a shitty weekend that in order to cheer me up, my dad fixed my computer and now i've been distracting myself with baldurs gate 3 to feel better

BUT NOW THAT I ACTUALLY CHECK SOCIAL MEDIA YOU'RE TELLING ME THAT OFMD S2 TEASER IS DROPPING TOMORROW?????????? HUH???????????? WHAT NOW?????????????? OH MY GOD???????????????????

#personal shit mixed with the usual metnal ilnes had me cooped up distracting myself with baldurs gate #cant believe i almost missed being able to witness ofmd teaser happening IN THE MOMENT #fuck that will definitely breathe some life into me holy shit #im SO fucking ready #like a part of me hopes it doesn't spoil too much but i also want like. a Substantial amount of footage of season 2 shdjshsh #and also now that my computer is fixed and im FINALLY moving into my apartment tomorrow i can make gifs lol #definitely gotta cool it on the baldurs gate or yall will never hear from me again that game is ADDICTING #anyways it's late im gonna sleep i just checked twitter real quick before going to bed and noticed the teaser announcement lol #emily.txt

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thecatspasta · 3 months

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I wanna. I wanna make something. Make an AU that caters to me specifically. So. Bad

#god is so specific and literally noone but me would care #but i want to #so bad #holy shit #i had a lotttt of inspo when i went away but now im back and i want to go back to just doing what i do best (nothing)#inspo not for this specifically just in general #garlic breath #okay but like. i want to so so bad. but like theres some specific shit that ive literally mentioned to noone in my life #and so im avoiding the shit out of it

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blossyossyossy · 1 year

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I cannot catch a break holy fucking SHIT.

#TRYING to work on my final presentation that's due tomorrow and I can't get anything done b/c #my mind is going in like 40 different fucking directions #and then my allergies or whatever the fuck is wrong with me this time is causing my nose to be stopped up meaning I can't breathe #and that i have to stop whatever progress i'm actually making to blow my nose and I just want this shit OUT of me holy fucking shit #not to mention the stress of having a conference w/ my ex roommate tomorrow AFTER I have my presentation which'll probably be interrupted #by my fuck ass allergies #and i just. can't. FOCUS.#i can't leave my room b/c i don't want to run into anyone and i don't want to go outside b/c that'll just make my allergies even worse #i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here i hate it i hate it i hate it #oh and now i have a headache :3

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meateater-lamb · 2 years

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#vent in the tags idk #i hate my fucking life #i actually fucking hate my life. so much #i havent had something good happen since 2019. not one thing #its just gone downhill #which is insane bc it was already terrible 3 years ago but SURPRISE. IT CAN ALWAYS GET WORSE #fucking hell #im like 90% certain im chronically ill but its not like i can really go to the doctor.#i dont want to risk covid.#so my health just keeps deteriorating #i cant even breathe right at all anymore #the effort it takes to take a full. deep. breath. its so much. and it hurts.#and im so dizzy all the time. i can be laying down totally still and the room will be spinning still #im so isolated due to the pandemic ive genuinely forgotten how to interact with people irl #not that i knew how before. or that i wasnt already isolated before. but its so bad now #and my heart has gotten weaker. i can feel it. it pounds out of my chest and skips beats and shit at random. so much more than it used to #and i keep having panic attacks bc im afraid im dying and i keep having nightmares and holy shit i just want to be ok #is that too much to ask??? to be okay??? for life to get better for once???????#and i dont even wanna get into the mental shit im going through or the highkey abusive situation im in but its bad and i just. jesus christ #god.#idk #i just needed to rant for a minute ill prolly delete this when i get back up. im going to bed.

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ilovedirt · 1 year

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#triggery stuff in tags alas #every time i see a pic of me pre recovery im like holy shit how was no one concerned for me #i mean i realize now i go off the rails for fun and stuff but im so proud of me #and i wish i could reach back and hug that confused person w no idea how to deal with anything but refuse to eat #as a means to have control over something when everything was out of control for me #and drink when that wasnt working #listen it gets better if you decide better is who you want to be and put the time in to figuring that out earnestly #i am really lucky to have been able to come back from the things that were happening to me and i am grateful for it w every breath i have #to not be 95lbs and drinking daily and hallucinating and not sleeping and dissociating and doing anything i could to stop feeling anything #to be able to have a relationship w myself and be working towards being able to have that again with those around me #in ways that are fulfilling and meaningful and worth something more than numbing #ill never be totally better and thats ok with me because at least i know how to deal with me now #anyway im just having some thoughts and radical vulnerability on this wednesday

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breitzbachbea · 2 years

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Nice to be back in my academic mode, I have much desire to pick apart and analyze this rock band text and zero to continue writing on my own creative projects.

#beablabbers #I am so sick of my mfers for the time being sorryyyy #I don't even want to work on The Amulet. I just don't. That urge will return but for right now I don't think I could do any of the kids #justice. I am creatively drained. But academically restored! I think my brain needed this honestly. A pause to do something for ME.#I was so stressed and scatterbrained the last months this is a breath of fresh air. I just wanted to live for me and not deadlines.#maybe talking with Ilich about Weber also helped. Like hmmm I like writing the blorbos but I also like analyzing them #WAIT THAT IS WHY I STUDY HOLY SHIT I GOTTA GET BACK TO MY ACADEMIC CAREER

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tragedykery · 2 years

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when you have a thought that’s smart actually but your brain refuses to put it into words

#I was thinking about me feeling like everything I write has to be groundbreaking #and if it doesn’t make the person who reads it mutter ‘holy shut’ under their breath then what’s the point?#*shit #but I’ve noticed my attempts to do that (or the ones I feel come the closest to it at least) never end up like. happy #which might just be my personal issue or whatever #but the idea of sadness being more poetic than happiness #and how that ties in to the idea of suffering being good and how you shouldn’t indulge yourself (barf)#and how I feel like I need to justify writing ‘dumb fluff’#it’s like. it’s okay to write things that don’t make people go ‘oh my god’ but just ‘nice’ it’s okay to write things that are happy #and perhaps not groundbreaking or even technically ‘good’ but good because it’s what you want to write #elli rambles #‘I don’t know how to put this into words’ I say [proceeds to write an entire essay in the tags]#maybe it’s just the format that feels better suited to my (perhaps a little incoherent) ramblings #anyway I definitely don’t feel like most (or any) of my fics are ‘groundbreaking’ but the problem is that I shouldn’t feel the need to–#justify that #it’s okay to write about small feelings & mundane things it’s okay to write silly fluff the important thing is that you like to write it

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roseband · 2 years

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now the mom groups are spreading that "if they find out your baby has defects they'll make you abort" crap again and lies lies lies lies

i know most families don't have pictures of their cute little triplet cousins where one was photoshopped in for the newborn photo cuz she was immediately rushed to the high risk NICU after C-section when the other two were mostly fine and then lived in the hospital for over a year after she had her feeding tubes put in at birth (we obviously all visited her constantly lol like she was never without family members)

but jfc my cousin had a major organ defect. she was missing a valve in her esophagus and it wasn't connected to her stomach. they needed to know with ultrasounds in utero so that she didn't immediately die at birth. now she's a fairly normal teenager after three surgeries and unless people either notice her scars in the summer or she tells them (or she downs like a dozen antacids after eating 10x the pineapple she's allowed lol) people can't tell

telling people that doctors will abort their babies if they get ultrasounds is EVIL and will actually kill babies that were wanted and could be alive with modern medicine

#personal #these people are living in a deranged fantasy land of JESUS #4/5 of the kids in my gen on my moms side were nicu babies including me....two of the triplets but only one was in long term #my oldest cousin whos in college now...and me (cuz i plopped out just over 6 weeks early and then stopped breathing oof)#(well i didn't plop out i was induced cuz w/o induction both my mom and i would be DEAD....#some of these religious nutjobs want to end induction too cuz JESUS and like my mommy and i would be DEAD as #of 1995 (im supposed to be a '96er lol) we'd have both DIED)#i KNOW my family health experiences arent the norm but FUCK have empathy and realize shit can happen to you too holy fuck

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tin-can-iron-man · 2 years

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I was in the military and had an (entirely silly and in no way serious) argument with a shipmate about Hal Jordan while waiting around for some range training. I fucking hate the guy, think he's a loser and that Guy Gardner, Jon Stewart, and Kyle Rayner ALL rank well above him- the head fuck-o at the training place took me out of the room and tried to intimidate me.... over a comic book character.... He also docked points off my pistol score. Some stans are just like that ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Jesus Christ anon that is MUCH worse than arguing over a locket lmao I'm so sorry for your experience.

#esp as someone who kinda likes Hal Jordan.#in any case physically intimidating you over a comic book character is UNACCEPTABLE holy shit and trying to fuck with your job? yikes #I think that sometimes people just forget that these people do not exist. that if someone doesn't like the same thing as you...its fine #like I like Hal. but I am totally fine with you confiding in me that you hate him. that's fine.#you could come into my inbox and talk about why you don't like Tony Stark and while I wouldn't publish your message I'd be fine with you #you not having the same opinions as I do about comic book characters isn't going to piss me off. it's not that big of a deal.#take a breath. go outside. block me if you want. lets not go too crazy about *checks notes* literally a picture book #anyway thanks for confiding in my anon!! I appreciate that you are willing to share a story with me about your own experiences #and also allowing me to show by example the proper way to interact with someone who has a negative opinion of a character you like #unfortunately I'm starting to think Reed stans are just as bad as mcu Wanda stans #and the ones that have tried to interact with me really do not help those cases whatsoever #just....you could try....just.....being chill...the block button is right there...#if you don't wanna see what I'm saying. that is literally it's purpose.#anyway! love you anon see you later <3

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daeluin · 3 months

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i've seen the datamined stuff in wowhead but i still broke down and cried when i started going around bel'ameth

#like jfc #i've been a nelf player since vanilla and there's no words to say how much i've hated this storyline since bfa #and like its not the ending i would've wanted but at the same time there's no ending that would've been enough #there's no going back from the bullshit they pulled in teldrasssil and after. there's no way of making things right. no forgiveness #but man there was something so cathartic about being able to sit around amirdrassil and just take it all in #just breath it in. leave out a sight you have been holding for years #we are still here. we will rebuild. we will endure. elune-adore in her arms we rest now #wow #night elves are the only ones i care about #also thats THEE daeluin holy shit!!!!!

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cheemken · 5 months

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Smd really fucking me up w the starter choices man ncmxnx

#i did not know they gave char dragon breath here holy shit #also cjxmdn #ough mudkip/cyndaquil my usual duo #but also the want to choose chespin/froakie ncmdnd #i might just go w ches and froakie might as well try smth new hahah #random bs

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cinnabeat · 5 months

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i have a combination migrain and sinus headache and im literally gonna fucking lose it

#holy shit #i just want to lay down in the dark but then i cant fucking BREATHE #god #michi tag #literally feeling like bashing my head at a wall

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