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STARKID TRENDING CATEGORY 5 AUTISM EVENT
#I MEAN I KNOW THIS IS THE GAY THEATRE KID WEBSITE#BUT I ALWAYS THOUGHT OF STARKID AS PRETTY NICHE?? I GUESS???#I'VE NEVER SEEN IT TREND#I DIDNT ANTICIPATE THAT AT ALL#AUGH#BEAST MODE#i really have no concept of this site's userbase tbh#i didn't know if ghosts would trend after s5#but i mean REALLY i was thinking 'well it would be quite cool if starkid trended but it's not 2012 so i'm really expecting nothing'#like fully this has put me into shock#sorry. but like i had no perception of this#me thinking that skblr was a small and fairly niche community#anyway#starkid#i love npmd so much i've been listening to high school is killing me on repeat since the 15th of september#anyone else watching hf halloween party btw? it's in fifteen minutes i'm so excited for workin boys and the new info about the future of hf#gnomeantics original 🌟
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i know im late but xanlow pocky doodle was a must....
#xanlow#fe14#fire emblem fates#fe laslow#fe xander#PRETEND ITS STILL 11/11#11/17 looks like 11/11 if you're lying#look ive been having a crazy week you WILL give me a pass#my prof changed the due date of one of my papers so i had to write an eight page paper in. one night. exciting stuff!#that on top two exams and other homework. busy week......#im so sad tho cause i was literally waiting in anticipation ALL YEAR to do a pocky doodle for them and then the time came and i spaced djfks#ive got a couple more xanlows that i was gonna post in conjunction w this one but i didnt like how they looked together so.#expect art in the coming days#also: natalia if you see this i saw your message!!! and so my song recc to you today is riot by the scarlet opera :D#dots draws
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song of all time
#if there is a song i remember VIVIDLY hearing for the first time its this one#i was in my bed at 5am#listening to bbc#nick's show#that harry was going to be on#the anticipation of it all#when i finally listened to it i cried so hard (and silently because i didnt wanted to wake up my mom lmao)#anyway! sott will always be that bitch
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obsessed with how Star Wars de-canonized Obi-Wan secretly giving Anakin the cheat sheet to speedrun becoming a Force ghost, and instead has made them into a dyad so that even IN DEATH they are cosmically incapable of leaving each other obikins just keep winning
(referencing this article suggesting they’re a dyad)
#obikin#makes me wonder how THAT first interaction went if it wasnt obi wan who actually taught anakin how to force ghost#but instead as obi wan and yoda watched the death star blow up in the distance they just#hear nervous shuffling from behind them and a ‘u-uh… master?’#and obi wan’s jaw drops bc its a fuckin blue anakin skywalker looking not a day over 22#and yoda IMMEDIATELY dissolves into thin air for the moment#bc no way in all the sith hells is he going to stick around for this conversation#at least not until those two finally have the heart to heart convo they desperately needed#and yoda expects maybe some shouting#maybe a lot of shouting#maybe a shove or a slap if theyre feeling spicy#he pops back in after like 30 minutes to make sure these two idiots havent found a way to somehow make force ghosts bite the dust#and finds that these two were alot more spicy than he anticipated#bc honestly he didnt realize force ghost clothing could be removed#i cant believe the dyad theory is in mainstream now#they really said even in death where there is a kenobi you’ll find a skywalker not too far behind
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you mind doodling them for the intern request thingy?
(the siblings ever :>)
ayyyy lets go the sibs!!!!
theyre vry cute and were super fun to draw :>>
#rhythm doctor#mish’s art tag#ik these reqs are taking a while to get out- terribly sorry about that D:#i didnt anticipate it but i seem to be out of it lately.. im def gonna finish all of them over the week or so tho!! apologies 😭🙏
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god i really wish i could just. control my voice. could control my volume and how much i speak.
#vent in tags#cant take the bus home anymore. last time the driver didnt hear me when i pointed out my stop#i was in the front seat. i was being as loud as i could. he couldnt even hear that i was talking.#i think one of my coworkers might think i dont like her. she says hi every time we pass each other#all i can do is a little nod. i can hardly ever say hi on command#cant always speak on command in general.#i need to be prepared. to be anticipating a conversation#and even then im too quiet#or if im w friends and family im too loud. i talk too much. too fast#i just. i wish it was in my control#it is for everyone else in the world. why not me.#actually autistic#ok to rb#rambling
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#it went!!! idk lately my pain treshhold has been so low bc im in pain all the time#so i just dont wnna be in pain anymore... he said that now it'll still hurt for a few days T-T#but he wasnt exactly sure what it was but i had.. a cavity??#im not rlly sure abt the english terms for all of this but the tooth is dying lol#but instead of immediately killing it nd getting a root fill he said that we should give the tooth a chance#so he fixed what he could fix#i hate dentist treatments bc of all the air nd water nd my anxiety i need to swallow constantly#but this time i actually told them abt it nd he was very helpful sksks#he even said 'ok now take a break nd swallow' so i didnt need to be so anxious#nd it was a relief bc he wasnt bad at all. he was actually rlly nice nd easy to talk to phewww#it cost abt $80 so i can manage to be without that until next week!!!!#so yeah it went much better than i had anticipated so im happy abt that#but yeah the problem still isnt 100% fixed yet so im still not relieved#he said i had a cavity in my other tooth as well but that we needed to check that at another time#im so frustrated bc i brush my teeth 2/day i use mouthwash i floss....#and for the last 7 months i havent even had any sugar!!!!! like why did this still happen.. o.o#oh nd he also said that i probably clench my teeth nd yeah i do that a lot more than i've realized#your teeth arent supposed to be touching!! never!! only when u eat#my teeth.... are touching pretty much all day omg. bc im so tense nd anxious#he said that he couldnt be sure bc he didnt have enough info to go on but that could have contributed to this#well well... i did it nd went even if i didnt want to#hopefully my tooth will be better now. nd i have another appt in may to see what i could get done further#if financial aid for it gets approved tho it might not#but yeah.. god dental pain nd issues is my no. 1 fear bc im poor nd i cant afford it
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rewatching old all stars f trailers for fun and I did not realize till now that I have most of them memorized.
#guys when I say that I thought abt this movie constantly I mean it. It was all I ever thought abt.#it still is. Whenever there is a lull in my thoughts it’s just replaced with bunny thoughts.#The amount of anticipation I felt… it didnt feel real. I kinda convinced myself I was never gonna see it lol#Anyway happy 2am sigh.
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Well I got a job
#ramblings of an arrow#I realize I probably should be celebrating#and this is an objectively good thing#and not the end of the world#I am just kinda still tired and burned out lol and not looking forward to working full time again#especially since last time I worked full time I was usually sneaking out early and not actually being there a full 8 hours#which worked fine because I was the only one in the office#which will not work at all at this job that actually has other ppl around lol#it will probably be good for me to have a routine though#and I Know that having consistent income will do wonders for my mental health#I am just...... like already feeling tired in anticipation lol#the irony#I wont start for 2 weeks#and I wanna get art shit done before then#but I have been washed in a wave of exhaustion and now I dont know if I will be able to#which is not great considering I doubt I will have much time for art at all with a full time job#anyways I am so normal and things are fine and Im not having a mental breakdown about this#this is an objectively good thing#it is#i just also wish ubi was a thing so I didnt have to have extreme financial anxiety and could be unemployed and focus on art without#the financial anxiety in the way#i will live#things will be okay#im in a supportef enough position that if it sucks I Can quit#so like no matter what things will be FINE And I just need to calm the fuck down
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deadnamed at my father's funeral
#parental death tw#family death tw#not sure how else to tag this one#yeah december was a very rough month for me :)))#i actually drew this on the way to my hometown a couple days after i got the news that my dad had passed away#fully anticipating that one of the grueling parts of the process would be the incessant deadnaming and misgendering#bc my dad himself never once used my right name after i came out to him. not once#i asked and we even got in fights about it! bc he just REFUSED to do it#didnt want to think of me as a man at all. i was his only daughter and his baby girl and he didnt wanna accept that id changed#in that way#but i do know bc his wife told me that despite not really accepting the truth about my identity#he was very glad that i seemed happy about it#so i think thats whatll be important to me about it#he didnt get it and didnt really accept it for himself but he was happy that i was happy#anyway it was indeed annoying at the service but more people were chill about it than i expected#and i also had to deal with fewer people than i thought i would#was talking to one of his old band friends who i vaguely remembered and joked that 'i was a girl last time u saw me'#and he said 'youre still a girl' and i just went 'no i am not. the sideburns beg to differ.'#then at the end of the service when people were leaving he came and asked for my New name and when i told him#he was like 'ok ill try to remember that'#i like to think he realized instantly the faux pas he made and was like Yikes. This Is Her/His Dads Funeral. Maybe I Should Be Cool.#anyway. the whole affair was exhausting but i got some nice things out of it too#like hanging out w my brothers#then we got home and me and my wife both had covid bc life wasnt done kicking me in the dick i guess!#im good now i think tho. its fine its fine its fine
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literally yesterday at a party (when i was explaining the plot of bucchigiri?! to someone rlly badly) my brother randomly jumped into the convo and made a joke about all the guys in the school wanting him. how did he know.
#he watches the show with me. but all he had seen up until that point was ep1.#he hasnt interacted w fan content or previews at all. and even i didnt know that ppl were making harem jokes before we watched todays ep.#judging by the op i figured he was gonna fight all of them scottie p style. turns out its a little different...#i basically figured out most of the rest of the plot but this part. this part i did not anticipate.#i mean i shouldve. but my brother takes the w on this one. cant believe he jokingly predicted the gay harem...#even he was shocked.#bucchigiri?!#tedpost#tedtalks
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>:(
#i need to vent a little im sorry pls ignore this if u are bothered by my thoughts#SH tw !!!!!!#this morning i was supposed to have my weekly therapy session but i had to cancel bc my mom got covid and obviously stayed home from work#and i do online therapy and i didnt feel comfortable doing it with my mom around but i really needed to do it tbh#and then my professor replied to my email with all of the things ive been working on since august and didnt say anything about the material#he just asked to call me on the phone tomorrow and i started to spiral…. like Spiral with a capital s#even now thinking about it my stomach sinks bc i have this feeling that his feedback is going to be negative and i just know my#barely existent self esteem is going to break and idk what im gonna do with myself then#this afternoon while i was spiraling all i wanted to do was /hurt/ myself. i kept thinking that i wasnt good enough and i had done a#horrible job.. so bad that he couldnt even tell me by email but needed to do it on the phone and i felt like throwing up and i couldnt get#/that/ thought out of my head and i could only cry#and all of this not even actually knowing what my professors feed back is going to be because this is just all in my head#but i was talking to my school friends and they were like oh its gonna be fine even if he doesnt like it u can still put the project in ur#portfolio hes not even our professor anymore and so on#and i kept saying that i knew that but i just could not handle that sort of feedback and rejection mentally#i was telling them that i knew i would crumble if i got real negative feedback and i was terrified of that and they just couldnt get it and#idk it made me feel really lonely#im a bit calmer now but i feel so depressed#i am really anticipating something that will hurt really bad
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hi pluvi!! im a bit new here and have just very recently stumbled across usurper!gojo so perhaps this has been touched on before and I’ve missed it, but one aspect of the series i think about a lot is readers reaction to gojo’s “assassination”— and alternatively gojo adjusting to living without reader for the time being. thinking about them just being kids in love and then suddenly losing one another like that is so heartbreaking. like, reader first hearing the news of gojo’s “death” and how she grieved afterward. gojo left to wonder what was going on in readers life without him and missing her everyday. ugh, you’ve absolutely captured my heart with them.
usurper!gojo tag || masterlist
The news comes to you by messenger.
It doesn’t come to you, exactly. It comes to the academy you’d been sent to, a week away from the royal palace but only a day’s ride to your family’s manor in the south. It’s announced suddenly at midday: the king is dead, and the crown prince assassinated.
Your fellow students mourn, as is appropriate. More than a few had been potential matches—their visions of marriage and queenhood dashed in a moment, you find it difficult to relate. You mourn a person, you mourn your first love, you mourn your best friend; they find you pretentious, and conceited, and they make snide comments from the other side of your closed door, behind which you spend a week in your bed reading through the letters you never sent him, staining them with tears.
When you finally emerge it’s with a silver pendant around your neck, hidden beneath your gown. A token of affection from many summers ago, surprisingly tasteful for the spoiled prince who’d gifted it to you. It remains hanging upon your breast long after you return to the palace, older and wiser and more determined.
It remains there even when invaders storm the walls, even when that towering figure appears and those regal eyes fall upon you.
Gojo wakes up in a strange estate located, as he comes to learn, just outside the border in a neighboring kingdom. His injuries are numerous, he’s in such pain he can hardly sit up for the first month. You are all he thinks about because you are all he has left; his parents gone, his crown and country stolen, yet you remain, waiting for his return though you don’t know it. The thought of you is what keeps him going—it’s the tether to his sanity when his rage threatens to consume him, the reminder that there is still something to live for, to fight for.
Throughout the years he keeps up with your status, informed in more and more depth as time goes on and his shadow web within the palace grows thick and sturdy. He knows when you return, knows when the queen first notices you, knows as you claw your way up to become her close friend and most trusted confidant. He’d give you help where he can but you hardly need it. Not that he’d ever doubt you.
He grows dahlias in the gardens of the hidden manor, and he tends to them meticulously. Each one, he imagines, must be perfect; he knows they won’t be the ones he uses to propose but he refuses to let even one wilt before it’s time.
They’re for you, after all, even if you’ll never see them.
#ask.🌧#anon#usurper!gojo#this is rlly short but i hope u like it!!!!#its a Very Difficult few years for them#made worse by the fact that they /kinda/ said good-bye before the reader was sent away#they just didnt anticipate /all this/
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I don't even know what we know about tonights episode. every new episode since Recovery has sent me into a spiral to the point that I've developed a completely new method of interacting with weewoo I have NO idea what's going on
#to be fair i also didnt watch the sneak peaks this week cuz i had a Feeling the madney plot was gonna be my favorite part tonight#so i didnt wanna watch it all before the episode#but like pre: poker date it was just anticipating poker date#and since then ???#my brain is just a lot of COUCH??? and [insert most recent] INTENSE BUDDIE CONVO????#like i have vague predictions for the finale but ??????? i have no idea what the actual facts are#too busy thinking about what we just saw to have any real thoughts about what we're GOING to see#buddie#911 fox
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Cool Dude Picrew
Thank you for tagging me @autistpride this was a new one i hadnt yet seen!!!
no pressure tagging @iceprinceofbelair @messymoony @jmeslovr @thisliminalspacedaydreams @adaaimee @heartshiii <3333
#Tagged#Omce again i made a new post cause i dont like adding to reblog chains :(#This was so sweet thank youuu#oh also sorry for all the tags and the asks ive gotten and ignored i got vaguely overwhelmed by everything recently#so i just. ignored everything. somehow didnt anticipate the overwhelminess when i added ask games to my queue#im still thinking about a handful of asks tho (specifically the describe your fics one mar sent me so ill get to that eventually)
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oh fuck im getting the Worlds Worst Daughter medal for 2024 my ma is texting my brother to ask if they can change their tickets to leave my place two days early. like for real.
#scream#i really am the worst bc im like. well if you wanna go...........#all this over me not anticipating my father needs a tall glass to drink water out of....#like are you fucking kidding lol sorry i didnt buy new glassware for your four day stay at chez val. fill up the small mug twice damn
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