But you know what I am. [insp]

hold me in your arms like a prison

love

"I missed you. I'm sorry! I tried to get rid of the feelings, b-but… I-I… still want to be your friend…!"

"Killua."

Anytime Gon says his name like that... So gentle his heart stops for a moment, even the tears stop, and he looks up.

"I want to be your friend too, but more than anything, I want to be your protector too; I want you to be happy and safe and warm. I will come to save you, always. I know my Yoshi isn't up to snuff; I mean, he's not a cute dinosaur; he's a motorcycle, but please... That idiot Bowser of yours won't stop me, so please, will you be my Princess Peach?"

https://archiveofourown.org/works/31451912/chapters/109407030

Tbh, I did not realize how much the nogitsune plot would effect me emotionally

and if they get me and the sun goes down into the ground and if they get me, take this spike to my heart and...and if they get me and the sun goes down and if they get me, take this spike and you put the spike in my heartttt ! and if the sun comes up will it tear the skin right off our bones? and then, as razor sharp white teeth rip out our necks, i saw you there someone get me to the doctor someone get me to a church where they can pump this venom gaping hole and you must keep your soul like a secret in your throat and if they come and get me.... what if... you put the spike in my heart? and if they get me and the sun goes down and if they get me, take this spike and can you take this spike? will it fill our hearts with thoughts of endless night. time. sky.? can you take this spike? will it wash away this jet black feeling? ....and now the nightclub sets the stage for this they come in pairs she said, "we'll shoot back holy water like cheap whiskey, they're always there" someone get me to the doctor and someone call the nurse and someone buy me roses and someone burned the church we're hanging out with corpses and driving in this hearse and someone save my soul, tonight please save my soul! can you take this spike? will it fill our hearts with thoughts of endless night. time. sky? can you take this spike? will it wash away this jet black, now? come on! and as these days watch over time and as these days watch over time and as these days watch over us, tonight and as these days watch over time and as these days watch over time and as these days watch over us, tonight. i'll never let them, i'll never let them, i'll never let them hurt you, not tonight, i'll never let them, i can't forget them i'll never let them hurt you, i promise. struck down. before. our prime before you got off the floor can you stake my heart? can you stake my heart? and these thoughts of endless night can you stake my heart? bring us back into the light can you stake my heart? and this venom from my heart and these thoughts of endless night can you stake my heart? bring us back into the light can you stake my heart? and this venom from my heart. can you stake me be-fore the sun... goes.. down....? (and as always, innocent like roller coasters, fatality is like ghosts in snow and you have no idea what you're up against because i've seen what they look like becoming perfect as if they were sterling silver chainsaws going cascading…)

I am at 5x16 on my re-watch and this scene hurts even more the second time around aahgh my heartttt

tbb s3 ep7 spoiler under the cut :D

ok but. raaaahh the fight between Cross and the assassin hurt me so much you could tell just how weak/tired/worn out Crosshair was and I hate it :(((

AND he almost drowned

MY HEARTTTT

PLS GIVE HIM A BREAK 😭😭😭😭

things in the first two eps that i will never recover from 🫡

the intro. word for word BAR FOR BAR

blackjack cameo iykyk 🤭

uncle rick cameo when they were in the headteacher's office 😭

the way grover was willing to have percy hate him just to keep percy safe.

THE MYTHOMAGIC CARDS

"i can grab some food from Di'Angelo's" LIKE HELLO????

grover and percy swapping their sandwich fillings - my heartttt

the entire mrs dodds scene

RIPTIDE.

percy and sally counting to three before running out the car - i love them your honour

SALLY WIPING HER TEARS I WANTED TO CRY

and just sally being the goddess amongst women she is honestly

dionysus convincing percy he was his dad js to get day drunk😭

"Son." "Dad? 😧😧"

"is there a god of disappointment?" - idk but im probably their child

"we burn what we'll miss the most" PERCY BURNING HIS BLUE SWEETS AND PRAYING TO SALLY 🙏🏽

"i think i've made some real friends" oh! yeah this is gonna hurttttttt i can feel it

if luke evil then why hot.

if clarisse bully then why hot.

the dryad and the council of cloven elders ughhh 😩

"like...like Jesus??" bro was convinced he was the next messiah

"grover why is there half a goat in your pants 🤨🤯"

gabe being a comedic relief instead of an abus*ve asshole?? like no dude im supposed to hate you😭

"losing at imaginary poker" - i giggled.

LOGICAL PLAYING WHEN QUEEN SALLY SHOWED UP

sally buying percy "welcome home" sweets - sobbing.

"there's something wrong with my brain." "i'm scared" - LORD I AM NOT YOUR STRONGEST SOLDIER

annabeth shamelessly admitting to stalking percy. what an icon

YOU DROOL WHEN YOU SLEEP ‼️

"not you sunshine" changed my brain chemistry

percy's silly little teenage boy montage - he fr started flossing pls 😭

clarisse being a female rage icon

luke playing the role SO WELL i be forgetting he's the villain so this just means the betrayal is going to hurt more hahaha xx (im not okay)

annabeth helping him up js to pathetically push him into water and the way SHE KNEEEWWWW ugh yes we love

"I AM SALLY JACKSON'S SON" - LIKE YES BABY YOU TELL EM ‼️

and finally percy being a confused and sarcastic lil shit for the entirety of the two episodes because walker is percy confirmed.

Thinking about bff!lando

He and you would’ve had feelings for each other for years but both been in denial about it, especially on his part.

And through the years the sexual tension has done nothing but grow. But Lando refuses to deal with his feelings head on, always always turning the other way, taking of quicker than a racing car could.

So when you one day joke about you two dating, in that casual flirty tone, that you and Lando has developed with each other through all the longing stares and lingering touches, Lando unexpectedly shoots it down. In the same “joking-but-actually-serious-manner” he tells you that your friendship as it is perfect, that gambling with your dynamic isn’t an option.

This continues to happen the next time the you get a bit too flirty. And then again, despite Lando himself activity participating in you guy’s banter. And you become more and more heartbroken. How could he be so against you as a girlfriend? “What would even change in your dynamic, to everyone around you it seems like you’re dating.” All this of course you don’t say, instead you just listen to the hurtful remarks from him about how silly you would be as a couple.

And then one night after a race and many wild hours with champagne and celebration, you stumble onto Carlos on a balcony. You’ve always been friends. Of course not as close as you and Lando, no one is as close as you and Lando. But still, you know each other pretty well.

And then all of a sudden Carlos kisses you. You’re taken aback for a second, and before you even comprehend it you’re asking “Carlos what about our friendship” and he looks at you while grinning across his entire face and says: “What the hell let’s just ruin it” And that’s all it takes for you to fall right back into his arms, and later all the way into his hotel room. After finally having heard those words, even though it wasn’t from who you had dreamed.

You don’t tell Lando the next day. Actually Lando doesn’t see you for almost two days, which is ridiculously rare and drives him nuts. He knows something is up. There are many clues but what really gets his brain turning is the extremely informationless responds he gets on his text “lost you at the party last night, how did you end up finding your way home? know u get lost every place u go hahaha”.

But of course Lando finds out, it takes him three days, but still, he finds out. And his world comes crashing down. He’s furious, he feels completely betrayed by both you and Carlos, he wants to cry and destroy his hotel room, and lock you away somewhere so that you’ll never look at Carlos’s stupid face again, and only see Lando’s own.

And then he realizes that he fucked up, bad. He suddenly sees how holding on to your guys friendship so tight that it would never change, so that he would always have you at least from a far, actually did change everything. And now when he looks at you it’ll still be from a far but it will probably also be with your hand intertwined with Carlos’s and not his.

— hi lol, I’m sorry this was so ridiculously long. I just haven’t been able to get it out of my head, and then I thought why not share :) especially since I adore your writing and I am living for all the Lando brain rot.

OH NO 😭 I didn’t expect that angsty ending, my heartttt!! he’d be absolutely ruined that he managed to push you into his best friends arms. I love this so much <3

How Do You Live? (boy and the heron)

just came back from the cinema celebrating Miyazaki's birthday finally watching BOY AND THE HERON i wanted to cry the whole time i was speechless just overflowing with magic the direction divine the many distant shots of Mahito within vast space (which was just magical backgrounds) the music (especially when pelicans started eating the warawara) the lore of it all my heart couldnt take it i just wanna stay inside hayao-san's worlds forever i dont wanna get outtt omg THE SHINYA OHIRA opening scene >_< *pukes stars* the young parallel world KIRIKO jumping on the gigantic fish and slicing it in two till the tail and giving mahito to try and THE GUTS all spilling and burying him under T_T_T_T when the heron first started talking and the fuckin design and voice acting was haunting(ly beautiful) when he was making the bow and the arrow and stealing tobacco and give it to the grandpa when he raised the stone and just the blood started rushing so so so much ?? when he was first crying and there were 2 tears on both corners of the eyes plus one all 5 of them standinggg the parakeets which brought so much more cartoony life lmao the granniesssss and their designs?? when he found his mom and those paper devils just flew around hurting/burying them both till his young version of his mom burned them the warawara for real they just had fun animating them also the crowd scenes also the backgrounds ill say that again i mean my eyessss my soullll is healedddd (of course im gonna go watch it at least 5 more timessss lmao) happy birthday you magical madman of a grandpa i love you with all my heartttt i thank you for everything thank you for existing thank you for raising me and feeding me dreams and eternal fantasy thank UwU forever i love you i have so much more to say about teh movie so much livelinessss when they caught the fish and the sea suddenly was full of insane trees and the boat shadow creatures THE FACT WE GOT TRIPPY SATOSHI KON SCENES when the heron showed mahito his mom and she started melting then the ground swallowed tehmmmmm ughhhhh the corridor to his ancestor who was playing with those blocks im glad i exist every time i existing in your films thank you for creating the safest weirdest most magical places for me to call home

okay okay when his new mother caressed his bandage and she said its her fault she let that happen to him. when the heron made THE FROGS AND MUDSKIPPERS AND another creature climb all over mahito and swallow him till his mother threw the arrow that was the second time i lost my mind completely after the ohira scene T_T

<3 i'll make it out of here for you and because of you i promise <3 joe hisaishi played while i biked in the darkness back

ooc)

I need to stop rewatching 2.4 :))))))))) goddamnit dAZAI BEING SAD FUCKING HURTS MY HEARTTTT

Also Oda dying makes me wanna sob

the voice acting is immaculate my GOD

Ouch Cherry that blurb hurt! It was beautifully written and the twist was not what I was expecting at all going into it. I loved the almost poetic way that the reader and Reggie spoke to each other. But oh the angstttt, my heartttt, I could only accept this pain from your writing <3

Hello my custard <33,

I am sorry !! I really had to, and it's so sad to think that reader has been withering away for so long that over a decade passed without their awareness :,). I'm a huge fan of poetic Reggie (because YES), so I just had to make his last letter heartbreaking </3. Thank you so much for your love, dear <333! I look forward to showering you in fluff and angst in the future haha <3.

she's done!! what a nice game. i do really want to play p3 portable at some point too, i bounced off of it a few times as a kid after playing persona 4 but now i'd really like to experience the original if for no other reason than i think the older atlus kinda sickly-looking anime style lends itself way better to this subject matter than the (albeit gorgeous) shiny clean style they go with nowadays.

ummm idk here's a couple thoughts i had while playing that i never posted about: i was EXTREMELY annoyed by Junpei for hmm, 80% of the game? his nasty attitude towards women, annoying sense of humor, like, most of the time i dont super care for the male-friend-default-party-member in these games but ESPECIALLY Junpei i felt like had no redeeming qualities. when he started interacting with Chidori i started warming up to him, but my hate definitely culminated when he had his big blow-up scene and says everything that happened was my fault. i literally stopped talking to him lmao like when i got back to the dorm every day i would exhaust everyone's dialogue and just ignore him. that only lasted a couple days though before he does his big apology. i felt like he actually felt bad and was trying to be less of a shit. and his efforts with Chidori felt super genuine and heartfelt in a way he didnt show when he interacted with women before.

Shinji hurts my heart so bad. his death and the way the characters feel the effects of it is so brutal and so much more heartwrenching and real than anything in 4 or 5 that i can think of. god when you and Mitsuru go to his room and find his re-enrollment form........ owie owww ow my heartttt.

Foolish forces the server to sleep in the same room with him as a supervisor. It’s one of the rooms in his summer home that he fit out with cushy floors, soft pillows, and piles on piles of blankets in preparation for the event. He forces everyone to come by after curfew, threatening them with morning tickles if they don’t show up on time — or worse, don’t show up at all.

Most of the players get a degree of freedom in where they want to sleep, but Foolish does not let Dream go anywhere: Dream is staying tucked against his chest where he can’t be kidnapped or tortured or whatever. (Dream complains about it, but Foolish can feel him shivering.) (The others taunt him about it once. Once. Foolish’s example of the offender (probably Sapnap) teaches everyone a very clear lesson in this regard.)

Quackity is one of the ones who doesn’t show up the first night. He doesn’t show up for the first three weeks, actually, first out of defiance and then out of fear. It’s not until Foolish comes by to talk to him that he finally joins in.

SLEEPOVER wEewoo?!! wait omg so not only is he enforcing his rules with tickles, he’s also making it mandatory to attend sleepovers?? 😭😭 i forget the reasoning behind this? is it coz he understands that them all being together is important to dream? or is it just easier for him to monitor everyone lmao. i forget 😖

either way omfg dreamie getting cuddled to sleeeppp again my heartttt

(more discussion below)

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ok so this is such a cute concept that he like,, decks out a building purely for sleepovers what the heck 😭 my fluffy brain has straight away imagined pillow fights and pyjama parties coz i assume at least some of the server dwellers wouldn’t be so opposed to a pillow prison (tommy, george, sapnap, karl). like some characters are just so desperate for a release that i feel they’d just make the most of the sleepovers and entertain themslves (or they’re just not the types to be able to be in each others company without messing around eventually)

dream being kept safe at night :( foolish not letting him out of sight in case they decide to hurt him again :(( taking on the authoritative sibling role to keep his brother safe ☹️

i love the idea of sapnap getting tickled for teasing dream about it that’s so cute 😭 like it would be so fun for dream as well?? like i can imagine he’d be embarrassed about it but would certainly not pass down the opportunity to rat out sapnaps spots to foolish when he’s called upon hehe

i feel like people would end up being pretty cautious around dream because of foolish’s protectiveness though right? like they wouldn’t want to accidentally make dream feel threatened or treat him in a way that foolish wouldn’t like. it kinda opens up for the some angst? 👀 coz dream would potentially start noticing their hesitancy. like he’d potentially see old friendships reconnecting whilst they’re all under the same roof,, and yet it would be clear that people are avoiding him…

it’s not exactly foreign,,, but at least usually he’s been able to just slink off and away when he witnesses friendships that he’s envious of… but now he’s forced to watch. there’s potential here for foolish to notice his state of moping? 👀

i have no smooth transition but your comments about QUACKITY is so exciting as well. he skips the sleepovers 😱 and then just gets too scared to show himself because it means he’s practically walking into tickles 😖 and you’re saying that foolish goes out to find him? :O eeeeeee it’s like a repeat of his last behaviour with the hiding :((( aghhh

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Top 5 enstars relationships (doesn't have to be romantic)

All of Alkaloid! They're such a family, they help each other heal so much and notice when the others are even slightly off and know how to help them its so so sweet 🥺

Midori, Tetora and Shinobu!!! I think every day about their interactions I don't even know where to start with them sobsob the fact that they feel so comfortable with each other now and know they can do anything as long as they're together I'm lying face down in the mud right now.

Rinne and all of Crazy:B. His care for all of them is so strong- even if his way of helping them isn't strictly what you'd expect, most of his interactions with them are calculated to push them in the right direction for them and I love him so bad.

Eichi and Keito! They break my heartttt but I love them so much,, The thing that gets me is that they've got Eichi's whole funeral planned despite his fear of dying. Like Keito has helped plan his best friends funeral at the age of like. 17. How much must that HURT??? They care about each other so bad I cry.

Izumi and Naru! Their friendly rivalry is so sweet and I adore it 🥺

saw all the anons going 'hurt me more' and 'stop hurting me with ur art' so i went to check it out and i'm sobbing very hard right now because that fanart is so relatable. my lover's in iso rn and god that art hit so hard.

ME AND MY BROKEN HEARTTTT

aw NAURR i wish them the best and i hope u can meet up with them again soon :((

Here are some words because asking people is fun

12, 28, 34

yippee ^_^

12: i got this one from an art ytber some years ago and its worked out 4 me so far. basically you should draw palms before drawing the arms bc that can let you think of more ways to draw the arms connecting to them and make it feel less robotic iirc

also dont rush The Creative Process, trying to rapidly create masterpiece after masterpiece will not work out in the long run and might just put you on the highway to burnout (and trying to catch up on everything else in ur life). ofc if Artistic Inspiration hits u in the face with what seems like a good idea you should probably sketch it/write it down but not everything needs to be a fully lined colored and shaded 14-hour piece

28: do stickers count

34: bright green and bright magenta do not go that well together and i will die on that hill /jk

anyway serious answer time

do not ruffle my hair unprompted pls.

also, art """criticism""" that feels like ur just looking for things to take a jab at (for example, "girls should have bows and flowers why is she holding an axe").

and a teacher of mine being annoying bc she saw some of my grades (seriously, u get 1 bare-minimum-for-passing grade in the whole-ass semester and shes like oh nooooo. how could youuuu. youre hurting my heartttt. like girl what)