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altamira-a · 7 months

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Some thoughts on transitioning

I'm done with seeing transitioning as something normal. This is not just 'something I'm doing.' This is a Spiritual experience and I sure as hell am going to treat it that way.

My vocal training will be an important daily ritual. By doing so I am getting closer to my true self, after all.

My binder? My platformers? They are not something to be taken as the mundane. They are not a 'costume'. They are bringing me closer to what I know I am.

Since religion is not present in my life, This is how I will connect to the spiritual. Through myself. Making myself what I truly am. Self discovery is one of the most spiritual processes after all, I don't see any reason as to why transitioning isn't part of that.

#trans #transmasc #transgender #transman #transfemme #trans woman #spiritual #transitioning #testosterone #binder #transmasculine #I don't think I am able to look at transitioning normally anymore #I thought of this while working my job as a cashier #While wearing my binder and thought #“This feels like i'm desecrating something sacred by wearing this here”#Now here we are #Funny how life does that sometimes

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quilldesignz · 11 months

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Honestly not sure where on the scale of cyborg to human @redwinterroses and @darkleweather 's cyberpunk au falls, but I kinda had fun with the varying levels of cyberware.

I think this is the first time I've ever drawn skizz. I had to resist the urge to give him a dog nose.

#redwinterroses #cyberpunk limlife au #dark fibre au #traffic series #anyone who says skizz' mc skin face doesnt look kimda like a dog nose is lying #quilldesignz #impulse like the cyberware that makes life convenient #tango's is experimental and largely self improved #etho's is a mystery and noone is sure how much cyberware he has under those layers #but he does his own repairs #skizz has some of the more generic cyberware #but honestly compared to the rest of the team hes pretty barebones #also i know yall said flipflops but i gave impulse dad-sandals #skizz: gets a nice suit. tears off the sleeves and wears it with sneakers #also impulse's cyberware changes colors randomly sometimes #cuz i watch his streams and i think thats a funny detail

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opens-up-4-nobody · 7 months

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#ever sit like a corpse in your own body?#im doing a job i wasnt designed for. theres this funny thing we do in academia where we beg for money. write in consise phrasing why we #deserve funding. what it is about our project what it is about our personhood that makes us deserving. what we're doing in our present to #give back and ensure a better future. and i can pull together a description of a nervous kid who couldn't read but loved to learn anyway.#who didnt kno how to hold proper a conversation until college and so tried and got better at ppl. who wouldnt let a language problem get in #the way of information gain. who cares about making complicated info visually digestible. and that's a nice story. but it falls apart when #projected into the future. what r u doing for the future? im just trying to continue existing #dont u want to help other ppl like u? sure but i dont have anything nice to say to them. does it ever get easier? no. it probably never will #ur brain was not built for reading. sometimes things r just terrible and u have to accept that. develop a crippling mental disorder or do #something where u dont have to read. see. not helpful. bad attitude. im just too full of blood and broken glass. all my achievements r #stained red and it hurts to look at them. to get myself to function i have to squeeze so tight i can feel the strain in my head. and even #then its not enough. do u kno what its like to spend ur whole life building something only to watch it burn to ashes in front of u? just a #broken machine rotting away underground where no one will see it. but dont let things fester. speak up if somethings wrong. and say what?#lmao i wrote this last night and then today when my advisor was like: hows it going? do u feel like u have enough time to get everything #done? and i had the gall to be like *voice strained high to prevent crying* its alright i think ive got enough time. bc yea technically i #think there r enough hours in yhr day that if i really tried i could get it all done. but that doesn't count the time i spend laying with #thr absolute desolation of my mind. so no. there isnt enough time bc im not doing well. but there's nothing he can do abt it so ya kno #whats the point in talking abt it except to say ya sorry im such a wretched miserable person. i dont kno how to fix it. my enthusiasm is #hidden under layer upon layer of pain. i burnef out before even getting here and im only making it worse #but whatever ill see my therapist Tuesday #unrelated

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sketching-shark · 9 months

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U know wgat? I gotta give props to dyslite for making their swk and lemh as twins.

Bc their dynamics fits sm as this rather than in a romantic sense.

Plus! The lemh esper wants swk esper dead. Jusy like the jttw classic ;D

It is so bizarre that sm of swk history gets rewritten in western fandom in favor for lemh. And makes swk OR ANY OF HIS ACTUAL FRIENDS AND COWORKERS BE WORSE THAN THEY ACTUALLY ARE

The lemh favoritism irks me sm—like u completely rework this guy in order for u to like him. Thats no longer lemh—its the better swk who could do no wrong and is emo.

Hmmmm I'm going to actually have to look into what the deal with dyslite is one of these days because I've never played it and am still not sure what's going on there, but I'm glad people are appreciating the "twins who want to kill each other" relationship between the two from the og classic manifesting in other works. Cain and Abel in monkey form <3

#anon answered #monkey critical #yes yes I know the relationship isn't a one to one #but the dynamic of 'guy who wants to kill other guy because of what he has' is a big part of the relationship between both sets of simians #and YEAH remains baffling why so many people decided to toss out literally every part of LEMH's characterization from Xiyouji #in the name of turning him into a shadow the hedgehog clone #though from what I know shadow actually has it better #on account of his entire existence not being defined by an obsession with the guy who ruined his life lol #and yeah rip lego show Sun Wukong #sometimes I think about how apparently involved Chinese creatives wanted him to be more of a proper mentor #and get sad :(#that said it does remain extremely funny how xiyouji SWK does look even better by comparison #he may have smashed more people into meat patties than he can remember #but he never put the entirety of reality into danger in great part through his doofus decisions #and actually was a good mentor to someone too lmao

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fdragon-art · 1 year

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Jackie, my good dude~

(Redraw from S4E21: The Champion's Hike)

#craig of the creek #cotc #jackie #cotc jackie #art #I have wanted to redraw this particular pose for /so/ long and finally got around to starting it last week #The shading is a little quick but also I have very little practice in soft shading and it was...so dificult...to focus on this piece #But I wanted to at least give it a try and it's...not terrible? It's definitely rough but there's parts of it that feel kinda nice~#(Also drawing his hair was a process. I couldn't find a great real-life reference that felt right enough so I had to kinda mostly rely on #screenshots to get the feel of his hair right (there were a number of references that were kinda close but never got as visually big as #Jackie's hair so it was a bit of mix 'n' match). That said.. the end version actually feels like it's bending right so time well-spent~)#I might have to do a hard-light/cel-shading version later but it's good to try and branch out sometimes~#Also have I ever mentioned how much I enjoy Jackie? He's a pretty chill dude who's also got that same competitive spirit the king's #champions all have and him being the only one to jump into the water was both so funny and fun to watch~#(And media does /not/ have enough deaf characters of any hearing level so I'll never get over the good feeling when I learnt Jackie was #not only deaf but we got to see more than one episode of him? And more than one after we learn this is the case? It's nice~)

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munamania · 9 months

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talking about yellowjackets with people who get it is like so incredibly fun and juicy and dissecting the complex narrative themes motifs will give you a high truly indescribable it’s a gold mine it’s genius it’s soooooo fucking delectable. and then you talk to someone who very obviously does not enjoy the genre storytelling etc but is pretending to like it bc it’s big and it makes you wanna blow the whole building up

#ppl like haha idk like it’s interesting but it’s a bit much… frankly it could be more fucked up.#like eons more. and i would eat it the fuck up.#someone in my life yesterday was like yeah no yellowjackets is cool sometimes i wanna smash misty with a brick tho. girl she’s SO fucking #funny!!! also like #why on gods earth am i having to go free my girl she did nothing wrong…#girl i simply will not be excusing my enjoyment with Theyre So Awful but i love it.#i feel like it has to do w that resounding notion ppl have with horror rn like that post talking about how you’re so fucked up if you like #like saw or any body horror without giving it a million excuses. like. relax. i will not be doing that #abby talks #another moment where this simply does not have to be your thing and you can let it go. you know. you don’t have to talk about it

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astrxealis · 8 months

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me rn having the biggest hots for leon kennedy and astarion sorry LMFAOOO <3

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#^___^ me smiling innocently #bg3 is on the MIND !!! i dearly want it so badly. turns out my dad played 1/2 (not sure which) a looong time ago #but he never got too far i think bcs he's busy... :P but hey i love him. wow. it's really cool he knows it too (ofc he does lmfao)#me and him (handshake emoji) also never getting far in da origins yet bcs we have it on xbox bcs of him getting it a long time ago #but there's that bug in the mage tower... :( funny we both went thru it LMFAO <//3 anyway i got it on steam so i've been playing #again but not recently anymore since 1. ffxiv took over my life last days of summer again 2. summer is over back school so rip #anyway can u tell i love fantasy :)) da and bg babeyyy !!! my type is going to make you guys cry i'm so obvious #zevran... fenris... astarion... i have a thing for ppl w blond/white hair :P idk my fav in inquisition yet and idk anything abt bg1&2 yet #but Yeah. GHBSHJGBSHJG..... da origins is kinda funny (lack of better word) to me btw bcs i like all four main romance options #but it's hard to explain (i have a story behind stuff i want to share but it's tiring and annoying of me /hj !!!!!)#anyway i like blond elves if it wasn't obvious. yes i also like link and zelda from loz. yes i like legolas. yes i like #...anyway! so where does re fit in this? uh. u see i'm a coward actually i'm too scared to play re LMFAOOO #BTU I ADORE THE LORE and the characters and the game franchise and shit ^_^ just. i shld really watch it sometime #instead of reading wikis all the time and just soaking up all the knowledge but i'm. a Coward. okay #i can't even play bloodborne despite how nerdy i am over it... it's so scary to poor little me... i'm a coward (it's the harsh truth).....#anwyay i'll conquer my fears one day but that day is NOT SOON !!! i wna get into re properly tho aside from just being a nerd #so i'm too scared to play but i'll watch playthroughs sometime (and admire leon) <3 yeah. another blond. i know. shut up.#is this my life rn am i just infatuated w blonds and white haired guys. it's gna be hell if i continue nier replicant rn too huh #uh. goodnight!

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rose-lalondde · 2 months

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Naruto Modern Fantasy AU - Bijuu & Patrons

Order and Chaos are two of the oldest divinities and are responsible for the creation of the systems that exist within the Nexus (my world). Respectively, they're famously known for the creation of the Order of Angels & Life (Order) and Hell & Death (Chaos). Other achievements include the Seven Heavenly Virtues and the Seven Sins (Partially out of commission).

At an early part in their life, Order and Chaos formed an understanding relationship that developed into romantic feelings. The result of that romance and their union were the bijuu, their nine (related) children. Very soon after Shukaku was created, they separated and began their long-standing and bitter feud. In addition to their together children, they each have their own offspring, the Goddess of Life and Creation & the God of the Dead (prev the God of the Dead, Death and Decay; alt title as King of the Dead).

In the older days, each Bijuu was worshipped and had devoted followers because they were so important, and at the time were the only minor gods around. Eventually, after the creation of the New Gods, the Bijuu lost relevance and were in danger of fading away. A deal was struck so that they could maintain their form and power but they had to have a patron that they fused their soul with. In rare cases, the patrons are willing participants who offer themselves in exchange for help. In most cases, the patron is an unwilling sacrifice, pushed by devoted followers (or power-hungry men) who want to keep their god alive. In the very special case of Mito Uzumaki who offers herself to keep Kurama alive by making a deal that she'll honor his wishes in exchange for power and safety,,, she absolutely does not follow through. This builds up decades of resentment, especially when he is passed down to Kushina who does the same, which starts off his rocky relationship with Naruto.

In another very special case, Rin, who is forcibly made a patron to Isobu, dies within the early stages of his soul intertwining with hers. Later she is resurrected, as the initial soul intertwining process was botched, and Isobu and Rin's souls are now one in the same. Meaning that instead of switching out consciousnesses like a regular patron and god can do, they share it. After the resurrection, Rin also displays physical features of Isobu such as red sclera and protruding spikes.

Patrons receive their patron god's powers and abilities in exchange for either sacrifices or completing quests/tasks, often they're centered around the patron god's title. For example, Matatabi requires Yugito to exorcise and guide spirits/ghosts to the afterlife. In Killer B's case, him and Gyuuki are just vibing. Gyuuki has a historically good relationship with B's family and all of his patrons volunteered willingly, so he freely exchanges his power. Fuu was unwilling sacrificed, but thankfully Chomei adores her enough to provide her power for protection, even helping her leave her followers.

Kurama - God of Vengence

Gyuuki - God of Persistence and Adaptability

Chomei - Goddess of Luck

Saiken - God of Patience

Kokou - God of Determination & Freedom

Son Goku - God of Courage & Strength

Isobu - God of Still Waters and light rain showers

Matatabi - Goddess of Exocisim and Safe Passage to the Afterlife

Shukaku - God of Overindulgence and Partying

#naruto au #naruto #nexus #moon posts #Nexus is basically a system of pocket dimensions that can sometimes bleed into the human realm #lemme tell u rn they were NAWT raising those children #using offspring instead of children b/c they're not bio related??? idk how to explain #very complicated relationship as they're considered creations but have been raised and taught by them (more or less)#Life considers the bijuu as her siblings #Dead does not (which is funny b/c Order favors him the most even though he's not hers lol)#Rin and Isobu are basically the same person instead of her just being a host #long story short: Life went behind some ppl's backs b/c resurrection via patron was NAWT the deal #the akatsuki are not going after the patrons or bijuu like....they could but i don't rly wanna write that #i thought about keeping kushina and minato alive b/c kurama would'nt rly form properly with his patron dying saurrr....yeah #i did say minato died though already and i gotta stand on business #kushina however #if im bringing rin back im gonna bring her back too omg #but instead of resurrection its stubbornness that keeps her alive through the extraction process and extensive therapy omg #like her soul got ripped in half and she's essentially comatose for 12 years which they keep a secret ofc #hiruzen hides her from naruto and ofc that bitch is dead when she wakes up #Rin helps with the recovery process even before she wakes up #instead of naruto and sasuke going with jiraya to get tsunade rin goes b/c no one else can heal kushina atp #soul recreation veers into black magic and the creation of life #tsunade doesn't wanna do it but does it anyone b/c shes family #tsunade ends up binding her soul to the goddess of the ocean and seas b/c of their heritage #i forgot to mention that kushina's a witch. Uzumaki is a witch coven surname #ummm idk that was it i think

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gingerbreadmonsters · 5 months

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gahhhh. im sure it doesn't sound like it most of the time, but wow my degree is so cool and fun 🥰🥰

#yes it is painful sometimes and yes it is lots of hard work and frustration #but like....... isnt it so cool to find out why the world became the way it is #how people in the past were like us and also so totally different #through the right lens human history is both the ultimate tragedy of a self-obsessed power hungry cannibalistic species #and also the greatest funniest soap opera of all time #stories upon stories #i will be very honest with u i was kind of scared when i started that i had chosen the wrong degree #what if its not as fun at uni as it was at school - what if its actually way too difficult and i end up hating it #but ykw?? im so glad i chose this #(for those who may not know i am a history student)#idk man i just wish more people knew how cool and funny history is sometimes #plus the sorts of ways this degree encourages u to think are VERY useful (esp nowadays)#'always question everything' is the motto and wow it is very enlightening to live like this #where has this info come from - can i trust them? why are they telling me this? what do they want? is it even true? how do they know this?#does this info fit with what i already know? why? what do other people say abt this? does this imply something about the wider context here #look me in the eye and tell me thats not the most important ingredient for being online nowadays #(except for block and move on. that one is supreme we all know that)#if u are not so into history i would encourage u to have a little look at some of the cool stories that are there i think u will like them #one of the funny (and very gory) ones that i would recommend is the life and especially death of maximilian robespierre #he was alive during the french revolution in the late 1700s and the way he dies is fucking hilarious when u know whats going on #i have actually talked abt this a lot on discord bc i think its funny - much to the annoyance of everyone else in the server lol #another one from that time is napoleon's coup and the removal to saint-cloud #the power struggles of the GMD and CCP in china in the early-mid 20th century are also v interesting if u like that sort of thing #this has all come about bc i was reading an account today of the marriage of alfonso vi of leon and castile and princess zaida of seville #and wow i have a lot of thoughts about it #theres no way to tell if they were really in love or not and if so how much #but idk something about it is very sweet and very sad to me #she the daughter in law of the muslim king of seville and supposedly falls in love with the christian king alfonso - she converts #to christianity so she can marry him but they are only together for a short time - she dies a few years later in 1093 giving birth to their #son sancho alfonsez (who is killed in 1108 at age 15) and she's buried at alfonso's favourite church (technically an abbey but ykwim)

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nguyenfinity · 1 year

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More school stuff!!

These are spreads from a type specimen booklet, the objective was to make an 8-page 5″x5″ booklet showcasing the many uses and variations of only 1 typeface on any topic of your choice

So I once again decided to get silly with it--

My other topics in consideration were:

A full summary of all 16 seasons of Ninjago (scrapped because I’d have to write that summary myself and I did not have that kind of time [we were allowed to copy paste as long as we included our source])

The entire national Pokédex. All 1015 of them. Just 8 pages of listing every single Pokémon. It was funny until I realized that’s way way too much.

Narrowed it down to the full dex of just one region but that was still too much-- (body copy requirement was just 5 paragraphs and too much text would be too cluttered)