‘im back bitch changed my hair changed my gender meet the new me’

2014 -> 2024

Well yes

disclaimer: this means nothing. but it also means everything. to me. (x, x)

incoming dangender thoughts: the more I read up/watch the stuff dan has said about gender after BIG + reflect on what he said in BIG I'm like. y'all she really has been explicitly trying to tell us his gender IS formless blob (without making it a huge deal in the mainstream public eye), but so many people haven't actually been taking him seriously! like. labels are made up, dan has pretty much said as much before. why do we have to have a specific approved™ term to consider them genderqueer/nonbinary/trans? those are descriptive labels and dan has been using a fun descriptive label they created that he defined for us in BIG, a definition that matches up with those other labels! and dan has said since 2019 that he is comfortable with any pronouns even though he still mainly uses he/him. like, lately dan has been using more she/her and they/them for herself and experimenting with being more femme and/or androgynous in various ways, and what is changing is not even necessarily gender (although maybe who knows), but probably that dan is finally feeling more comfortable with different kinds of gender presentation and pronouns than she typically uses. because low-key gender is kind of a performance and it's scary to switch it up sometimes but dan feels safe doing so especially with their audience and I think that's actually really special 🧡 but moral of the story, dangender has actually been out in the open since 2019 and I wish more people picked up on that!

If dan was nb wouldn't that make phil bi (legit curious)

i don't want to get into any of the discourse but no it would not make him bi and his identity is his own outside of a partner's label

i forgot they dressed up in their dil and tabitha merch 😭💖

danisnotanegg in the end screen… I’m so sorry to all the transfems and dangender truthers out there :(

idk of this makes sense to anyone else but would've, could've, should've is such a sister daniel song in my brain and someday i'll get around to writing that fic

like what do you mean 'if you'd never looked my way, i would've stayed on my knees, and I damn sure never would've danced with the devil at nineteen' no comment

'if you never touched me, i would've gone along with the righteous' but how are we supposed to believe in something bigger than ourselves when the feeling of your hand in mine makes me feel closer to heaven than a lifetime of prayers

'YOU'RE A CRISIS OF MY FAITH'

'i miss who I used to be, the tomb won't close' and 'if clarity's in death, then why won't this die?' with the idea of the tomb/death as the closet but also the consequence of being out of it at the same time

and like 'give me back my girlhood it was mine first' but not in a loss of innocence you made me grow up too fast way but in a i learned to be a girl by your side and i don't know how to perform gender when i'm not playing opposite you.

Is he now? We're just pretending dangender didn't happen?

do u guys remember that they did that stereo show when Dan talked about how if he'd express himself in a more feminine way it would be like exactly what he did with the catboy photo (long sweater and thigh-high socks) and then he did it and now they're going out of their way to use they/them pronouns for them? Like this particular one is special in some way and not just a costume like sister Daniel? Like this is Dan taking a little public step away from masculinity because he wants to? Cause that's all i can think about

dan drunk on younow in 2012 important update:

god made me bisexual for the sole reason of being attracted to dan howell

"On all levels except physical, I am a big titty goth girlfriend" would have been a glorious tweet and I'm still salty that it was kept in the drafts

Daniel Howell gender envy hnNNGG

forever thinking about the girl who told dan in high school that he had a "bi vibe." like obviously he was insecure about being perceived as queer at the time and like, yeah there were some stereotypes at play but also. dan himself said at the book launch that he didn't want to do celebrity tv appearances back in the day because he was like. they're gonna see me and be like. this guy is gay!!! and it's funny how people were always like "phil is the masc one" before they came out. idk I just feel there are some interesting dangender implications here that are fascinating to me.