#DRYER LINT. CRUMBS! specks of dirt. like are you kidding me. catapulting myself into the nearest viper pit rn i think. but also it’s 1:30 am | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

pepprs · 2 years

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like . omg i know i need to stop POSTINGGGG but god thinking abt the argument w my parents last night and all the implications of it hurts so bad it’s unreal it hurts literally so bad. and it is ruining my life in so many ways and ive been fighting back tears all day bc of it. Lol

#purrs #i think im a burden to everyone and that everyone thinks im stupid and young and naïve entitled selfish annoying etc etc but really it’s #just my parents who think that and the fact that they do means that there is something fundamentally wrong with me so i carry that into #every relationship im in and isolate myself and hold back from saying how i feel and setting boundaries and i am so sad and tired all the #time that i never talk to anyone and i beat myself up for making mistakes and for having thoughts and feelings and i hurt the people who #love me by denying myself to them and not believing in their love and it fucking sucks and i hate that i will never fully recover from the #damage and i hate that the damage is over the STUPIDEST fucking shit in the whole world that is literaly nothing compared to some of the #horrors in the human experience like it’s just 2 bad fights with my mom and my brother being born and my grandma dying and how my mom did or #did not parent me 100% to her best ability during all of those moments and suddenly im fucked in the head for life over DUST BUNNIES. over #DRYER LINT. CRUMBS! specks of dirt. like are you kidding me. catapulting myself into the nearest viper pit rn i think. but also it’s 1:30 am #and i am working tomorrow and ive had an exhausting soul crushing week and i need to go to bed and i am running away from everyone and #everything in my life and it just is a hard time to be a person right now anyway so like maybe i need to just go to sleep and reblog some #posts and play animal crossing in all my free time and throw my phone into the river and be normal for 2 seconds. ok.#* 3 bad fights w my mom. but also a lot more but especially those 3 ♥️

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