So I binge-watched Dead Ringers, and it made me really sad. I genuinely wanted Bev to be happy. It grinds my nerves how every character on the show, but Genevieve, openly mocks her kindness. I'm angry that she thought Elliot was the better sister and the bottomless pit of despair Elliot is, swallowed her, and she allowed it. It's very on-brand for a survivor of narcissistic abuse to take the blame. And Elliott WILL NEVER be happy! Because she is empty inside. And they are never content. They are never full. So the circle of abuse continues. The lab's being run by this monster with a God complex, financed by a sociopathic billionaire and its pain and more pain and no justice, no retribution. And it bumps me out, I guess. I wish bev would just run away. I wish I didn't relate to her this hard. Codependency is the worse and I get that she prefers to die. I'm just sad about it.