Enough perfect mom Amanda Grayson. It’s time for middling mom Amanda Grayson who loved all her kids but was never close enough to any of them and is somewhat idealized in their heads because of it. Amanda Grayson who seems great in comparison to Sarek but is actually, when you look objectively at it, strangely absent: A mother who is always facing away from you, who you have to call but who always has a smile ready for when you do. Amanda Grayson who contrasts Sarek’s overbearing rules and expectations with an almost hands-off approach that felt like a refreshing reprieve at the time but as her children grow they realize was also hurtful in different respects. Amanda Grayson who loves her children almost as much as she loves her husband. A mother who listens when you complain about dad, who agrees and nods and pets your hair and says “I’m sorry, honey” but nothing ever comes of it and at a certain point you both know nothing’s ever going to come of it. Amanda Grayson who pretends she does not see it. Amanda Grayson who is too human for any of her children to let themselves love. And because she’s human maybe she resents them for it a little bit [do you think your mother knows you love her? Did you ever say it? Do you think she ever wanted you to? Do you remember when she held you and repeated it over and over again and told you she wouldn’t tell your dad if you said it just once and you answered her with silence?] And because she’s human she loves them anyway. She knows anyway. She can hear it even in the silence. /pos

something something eddie has a plan for chris if he dies but he doesn’t have a plan for chris if buck dies or whatever

Spoiler question but do you think you know who from this week's quest will become a you know what?

Will Amanda become a Guardian, I assume!

I don't think so. I don't think it would serve any purpose. Her story came to an end; we learned all we needed to learn about her and she went out the way she lived and for what she believed in. There's also nothing really pointing to her being that relevant to bring back. Like, purely from a technical standpoint; they removed her as a vendor and gave her a send-off, complete with her entire backstory. Making her a Guardian would just be making a new character with her model, but new. I can't see them doing that.

One thing that I also feel like people are forgetting, somehow, is that if she becomes a Guardian, she will not be Amanda. Like, that will be a new character. Nothing she's done before will matter. Crow and Savathun were exceptions central to the story to go forward so they had exceptional stories where they got their memories back. Amanda simply is not. She died and even if she becomes a Guardian, there's no more Amanda. It would be a blank slate. No matter what, all of her conflicts and relationships are over.

I just don't think we need a blank slate New Light Guardian right now or that Bungie would keep her in the game like this currently. I think this season was centered on wrapping up stuff about her, giving her a full scope of the backstory and basically letting us say goodbye. It does not read like a setup for a new Guardian.

Obviously, Bungie could have something extraordinary planned out that we can't possibly guess and that would make Amanda returning as a Guardian really compelling. Who knows! Maybe this is something that will happen down the line. As in, after this saga ends and some new story in the setting begins!

But right now? Until the saga ends? I just do not think Amanda as a Guardian is a storyline that needs to be told while we're scrambling to wrap up loose ends before The Final Shape. She was a human face to the war and a victim of it, something to remind us about our mortality and the fact that we're not invincible. Despite Guardians and all our powers, we are fighting for people who are mortal and fragile and those people also have the right to defend their home. Amanda took that very seriously and helped a lot of people, but ultimately at the cost of her own life.

Bringing her back could offer some potential stories, absolutely, depending on how you want to take things in the future. But overall, I just think it's not likely for her to be planned to return as a Guardian, at least not within the scope of the current story. Of course we can't really know what's in store, but from what we do know (lore-wise and meta-wise), the likelihood of this happening is very low.

i feel like im never going to be fully satisfied by any saw sequel (or the fanbase for that matter) bc i dont think the majority of ppl involved read jigsaw the same way i did.

Started thinking about the Amanda Waller + Ben Turner relationship again.... fuck, I'm gonna need a minute

I dont care what burner93836286494 has to say anymore. Im free.

OH consider. Since. Amanda is Gabe's right hand man. And if Dave is the bad bad guy here. Maybe Amanda swaps with Evelin (or even Thatcher would be VERY interesting.)

OOO YEAH that could work too-

I got horrible secondhand embarrassment from Sofia doing that interview where she revealed getting engaged to Daniel was just some huge scheme. That’s some Wilhelmina shit right there. I still cringe

we as a fandom don’t talk enough about the fact that willa definitely blamed herself for wayne’s death

there’s no way you can convince me she doesn’t drive herself crazy trying to figure out how she could’ve saved him. like she knows deep down that it’s not her fault; there’s nothing she could’ve done, not really. but in those first few days there’s no way she wasn’t thinking that if she’d just been able to go all clear, put fear aside and use her brain, then maybe wayne wouldn’t of been killed.

and you can’t convince me that, at least for a little bit, finn blames her too

PokeManda's Dad: Fuck you, my child is completely fine.

PokeManda, kicking open the door: whEN I START DRINKING--

Amanda Grayson with her Hubby and Stepson

so this was a panic placeholder avatar that I have kept, to my shame, for an entire year. I'm currently considering options—

—and the MAIN reason I'm considering another that's nothing to do with the blog content is because the alternatives are either wholesome things like eliot with hair beads (approximately 0% chance it'll be sufficiently distinctive as an avatar) or they're anton with his entire teeth out.

look,

I'm just trying to spare all of us and especially me.

I was feeling so shitty this morning I really almost called out but it was my last day before vacation and also I had my eval so I gritted my teeth and went in and I had such a good day honestly I was with my future co-worker and we have the same sense of humor we're like very similar people and she was so friendly and it was so easy to talk to her, I had such a good morning and then she texted me later and said she had fun too!!! and later I was in a really cool case with some very experienced people who supported me with what I didn't know but honestly I did a lot of it!

this artistic rendition of kiyohime makes me happy lmao

Since the dmg fandom (i think) collectively decided Luke is to Po3 like Kaycee is to Leshy, clearly we need to either

A) Assign Carla + Lionel to the other two Scrybes. Or swap one of the two out for Theodore, idk

B) SOMEONE needs to make a post-canon fic where, somehow, a couple people (who are to Grimora and Magnificus in the same way as Luke = Po3 and Kaycee = Leshy) get the floppy disk, recover the contents, and blah blah blah

Explanation in tags bc i tend to ramble in tags