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mental-health-advice · 1 year

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Alr, idk how we will solve the tag issue yet as we are very many alters so separate accs may not work but at least I can bring this up now knowing I didnt before!

--- Warning for talk ab delusions, kidnapping, Family abuse and stuff like that ---

Basically we did get emotionally, psychologically and probably more abused and in childhood before we even understood it was abuse we sometimes would think "well that cant be MY parent" bc of it. At age 8(?) We found out our dad isn't our biological dad.

After that I know we repeatedly thought we must have been switched at birth, kidnapped at birth or something else bc no way in hell could we be related to our mother. This went as far as us episodically actually being full on believing that she isnt our mother and often we were tempted to look through documents or go to the hospital we were born at to ask.

Note that our youngest half sister literally looks like a carbon copy of the body at her age. Like we literally have evidence we a re e related but we still keep believing she must have taken us.

The past days it was bad again, as I'm typing this I'm more in reality again but it's scary to think that any morning I could wake up believing that our mother is a kidnapper or that we were switched at birth or that none of our family actually are our family etc

I tried looking into it eatlier.

Most I found was new mothers suffering from delusions ab their babies being switched at birth and people having delusions that their families got replaced by clones (which,, I probably should have waited to read when I was more fully grounded rather than still half gone bc that makes me uncertain ab our abusive younger brother bc he cant have become that bad for jo reason etc)

Idk how to bring this up to our psychiatrist and therapist without them starting to think the entire system is just a delusion or hallucination as well :(

-- Crepe (☆)

Hey there,

This sounds to be a really scary predicament to be in. I guess in the situations that you feel as though you have been kidnapped or swapped at birth, just try to reassure yourself that these are just feelings and not necessarily the truth. Try to ground yourself, focus on your breathing and surroundings, remind yourself that you are in the here and now.

I am so sorry that you have been through so much abuse in your life and from such an early age as well. I want you to know though that sometimes remembering these abuse episodes or situations I guess you could call them, can be a good thing and especially if you are remembering them bit by bit and not all at once. The reason I am saying this is because remembering things slowly can allow you to slowly heal from this past abuse with your psychiatrist and therapist. This will take time though and a lot of hard work and working through abuse may bring other things up as well, but keep in close contact and update your psychiatrist and therapist on a regular basis and I know you can work through this at all your own paces. Of course though, it may be too soon to work on any abuse issues so please do talk to your psychiatrist and therapist first before starting anything!

Abuse can affect people differently and sometimes abuse can even run in families. For example, my Dad’s Dad (I cannot refer to him as anything more due to abuse I suffered from him) was sexually and emotionally abusive and the emotional abusiveness went down to my own Dad and his brother. This is not to say that abuse runs in everyone’s family but it is possible. So I guess what I am trying to say that maybe your younger brother was also abused or the abusive side of things or what he saw happen to you made him think it was OK to abuse others in that same way. Just something to think about!

Back to the delusions now though and how you could bring this up with your therapy team! I think that what you wrote was really well said and so maybe writing something similar in a letter maybe helpful to share with them? It will help for them to better understand where you currently are and how best they can help you all right now with knowing that important information. Would you feel comfortable writing something down? If not, then just try to explain things as you have done on here. It’s OK to feel how you are, being confused or delusional at times. None of this is your fault, and none of this means that your entire system is just a delusion or hallucination and I think your psychiatrist and therapist will know that just from knowing you and your history and especially if you have been seeing them for a while. The horrible thing about DID is that sometimes things come up in pieces that don’t quite make complete sense, this is normal. So please don’t worry!

I really hope that this has helped a bit and please do let us know if we can help support you guys in any other way!

I’m thinking of you all and hope you are all going as best as you can be!

Take care,

Lauren

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wave2love · 7 months

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U GOT ME SO IN MY MARK THOUGHTSSS i kind of came up w a little smau idea 😢😢

ok so . idol au!!! mark is a soloist and so is yn, mark’s been in the industry a while and yn has recently debuted. mark thinks mc is “like, so cool, dude” (a direct quote real not fake) and will NAWTT shut up ab him he’s literally streaming ur music on every live putting it on his ig stories adding it to all his playlists like its SERIOUS for this man. he’s on his priv twt following all the fan accs and following u on every platform and retweeting ur selcas the second u post them its a little bit embarrassing actually. and his friends r like ermm r u like.. 🏳️‍🌈 ? is this a crush situation ? so hes like Whajstt😂😂 no man i j think he’s cool lol . and his friends all sigh and pity him 🙁 #DELUSIONISREAL..

FAST FROEARDDD its been a few weeks mark is STILL in firm denial (or is j oblivious) ab his Gay Crush and then. he gets the news. you and him are set to appear on a variety show!!! TOGETHER!!!! its HORRENDOUS for him he’s panicking he’s freaking out he’s excited he STILL thinks he j really admires you and nothing more. (mark in the gc: guys is it gay if ur fave musical artist makes ur palms sweaty moms spaghetti😭😭😭 and then hyuck tells him to kill himself he’s truly fighting a losing a battle). d-day arrives he turns up on set sees u in all ur fine glory and comes to about 13 realisations in that singular moment.

he’s a MESS the whole shoot he’s giggling at every second word u say he’s complimenting u every second sentence he’s crashing and burning and twirling his hair and kicking his feet and the editors are also giggling . not bc its funny but bc of how much they’re going to RUIN HIS LIFE!!! they edit NONE of that shit out he is in the trenches. but not in a bad way everyone j knows he’s down horrifically astronomically terrifyingly bad. #LOVEISLOVE

ANR FROM THERE ITS J . SHENANIGANS!!! BEING SILLY!!!! he managed (Somehow) to get ur number after the shoot and he squeals like a little girl whenever u say hi. its bad. anyway crush crush giggle mark lee falling in love kiss kiss GAY PEOPLE! happy ending rainbows. i was thinking like choi hyunwook for the fc.. hes j loml 🙁🙁 omg and mayb rocket for the title i love that song my

ok anw gn bsf muahhhhh <3 TELL ME WHAT U THINK IF U EANT ?? but i kinda love this actually 😭 MAKRKKK MY SILLY GUY

THIS IS SO GOOD OH MY GODOODOA

giggled and kicked my feet reading this ask tbh!!!

literally do it.. no bc i acc love mark even tho i don't stan nct i just like love him he's so silly!!

do it make the smau like rn!!

#when u send me long ass fic idea asks >>>>>#stop i acc love this idea sm its crazyy #🫧 — jj best friend

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angerydj · 5 years

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rant so just skip if you don’t care

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So the other day my da made a dress joke to me when we walked passed a wedding shop and he turns around and says I should get one, I don’t think anyone other than my sister understands how serious that fucks me up mentally and I’m still thinking ab it

And that same day he drop me, my ma and sister to a trans pride, which my mom told me ab that day super last minute and I later found out from my sister she didn’t expect me to go cause it was so last minute but I did anyway. And I was honestly nice to hear everything they had to say and actually be able to like relate to other people and not feel so anxious and alienated in public, like it so nice to go out and feel good ab myself for once and that happy streak kept going for most of the day until that moment.

Like what went off in your fucking head like? This another one of your fucking ‘trying to be funny’ moments? And I couldn’t even react to is as my usually pissed of defense self cause of my good mood so I just gave him an “ew no.” And then my day was ruined but we were on are way home so at least it was over and I could just go back to my room and hide.

I knew the day was going to well, I hate being too happy It makes me distracted, like I know better I expect nothing always so I’m never disappointed, can’t be hurt if I never felt it in the first place. As if my dysphoria wasn’t getting worse to the point now when I wake up in the morning I have to put on my binder and hoodie before I leave my room and even then it’s still horrible.

Or today my mom is actually making them effort and trying to sign me up for clubs and that’s all good at least she trying, but I bet she doesn’t even know the shit it know, like she’s probably expecting me to go to this place and pick a name and all that shit, but fuckinf late if I’m honest and you handled it shit the first time in completely crushing me with my first name, before I even told her she butted in an told me it had to be close to my birth name so SHE could remember it, cause fuck me right? My entire life I’ve felt second hand in everything, it’s never ab me on my own for a second and it’s gone on for so long that when something is ab me or me getting involved I feel like I don’t deserve it, I’m not good enough for it, I put everyone before me, I don’t like wasting my parents money I rarely even ask for everything cause I don’t deserve it, I only get sales iteams. I hate attention I don’t like projecting myself cause I feel so unimportant like there’s better things people can be doin than paying attention to me. I just like to watch now and see people get better cause honestly I don’t care ab myself.

And my mom loves to comment on everything I do as well, if I jsut randomly smile she wants a reason behind it, I’m so jsut to having an excuse to everything I do, and if I tell her it’s like some fucking dumb video I watched earlier I get called an idiot? Like bitch then mind your business. Or today I haven’t eaten in 2-3 day only water and tea and I acc finished my dinner, cause I thought this is good for me and I need this and I’m feeling kinda good, and when I finished she said something like “pushing the boat aren’t you” which made me feel horrible and want to throw it all back up cause it felt like I had too much and didn’t deserve it and that I should of waited till tomorrow, like most of the times the only reason I’m not horrible to myself cause if I have bad impulses “dead name would do that not Matt” and I just want to be better and start being happy like withh myself and jsut to be able to get up in the morning and jsut feel like its going to be a good day even if it ends badly.

And how drawing is one of my only good coping mechanisms, I’ve tried the good and bad ways and none of them work as well as drawing it’s literally if I stop drawing I stop. Sometimes I feel bad when I’m not talking to people but I continue to post, it’s not cause I don’t care or I’m ignoring them, this is literally my only way to zone out from whatever is bothering me or I just sleep and stay in bed but I try to stay active even if it’s getting a sketch done that’s enough for me

Sorry if this sound like a load of shit but this only a hint of what is bothering me of recent,

#sorry if u read all that. i just wasted your time #only reason #i posted this so i dont dump it on a poor friend who deserves better #dometimes it gets to a point where i dont want to live anymore #but i still here and i want to stay

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