I keep putting cassius through hell whenever I write fic, so I’m balancing that out by finally letting him get some sleep lmao

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65.

I have been contemplating this for a while now, I am not sure what to do “you been staring at your computer screen for a while now, what you looking at?” blowing the smoke out from my lips as Fabian placed more money on the banknote counter “it’s literally Christmas in three days and I ain’t got Sofia shit, I think maybe I could just take her away? I mean like a few days, just in America, memories kind of shit?” I shrugged, placing the blunt between my lips, Fabian laughed “kind of shit, you should be confident on these things. Your woman, she seems, romantic I would say” watching the money being counted “you think?” I laughed blowing the smoke out “I know, she is very emotional. Emotional women they are romantic. I come from the city of love and I think you should do France?” I snorted laughing “I don’t want to leave the country at all, I think I want to keep it here. Something cute” Fabian chuckled “you have learning to do about love Cassius, it’s there” the door opened “woah” putting my legs down from the table “knock Sofia” putting my blunt out “well you didn’t say not to knock? I just wanted to ask if you want some food?” Sofia eyed up the money “where did this come from?” she pointed at the money “something I did, it’s fine. I don’t want food” waving her off “just go, please” I smiled at her “shouldn’t you eat? Cassius you need to eat” why won’t she just go “I am fine” Sofia scoffed walking out of my office “very emotional lady boss, you need to do something big” I laughed nervously, this is just great “I know she is, I think going away somewhere in America will be fine. Just me, Cartier and Sofia. She will be fine” Fabian keeps laughing at me.

I laughed after calculating the money “so you give everything people need, the people need paying and then you keep the rest for your family” passing Fabian the duffle bag “Merry Christmas too, thank you for staying behind” he took the duffle bag from me “we still making money boss, just more of it” nodding my head “I know but we going to get these niggas that hit at me when I was down, I mean we made what hundred stacks. That is off one take over in Atlanta and this is done by me, nobody else. This stays between me, you and the people that was there that day. I don’t want Sofia knowing of any of this” Fabian nodded his head “I was shocked you did it yourself, you are too high for that now” I chuckled “sometimes you need to do shit yourself because people ain’t there for you. Weak, these new niggas are weak, they may have taken my shit then but now, nah. I mean I hit in daylight? How weak can you be, how did I find their shit so quick. I mean I should thank them for making the money for me but thanks. Next year, it will be a good year for us. Have a safe fight to France and see you next year” walking around Fabian, I decided not to plan. I found their place and hit it myself. Got a few niggas and did it myself, I don’t need planning or people that just waste my time. Killed them and took their money, it was daylight too, dumb ass new niggas.

My hair is growing back, I am like wolverine, my hair grows back so quick. This is why when Sofia was tripping I didn’t get it, touching the top of my head with my hand. It’s getting there, turning away from the mirror to get some clothes on. I need a shower after that, I did this all without Sofia knowing. I didn’t need the drama, I didn’t need the planning. I knew what I was doing, they hit my warehouse lazy, I knew them niggas would be just that, lazy. They are fucking dumb, did the shit myself and it’s over with. I need to get my shit back, everything that I own, I want back. I think I will find it difficult when I need to go Brooklyn, my phone started ringing in my hand “speak” I didn’t bother to look at the name “Boss, what you wanting to do about your mom, she out here speaking on you to your dealers. She out here asking where you at” kissing my teeth “she is making herself weak on purpose, I know that woman. You watching her now?” I fucking hate my mother “pay some unknown niggas, tell them to beat my dad up. And that will shut her mouth up” shaking my head “also Kalia is calling me later, she want to speak to you” of course she does “yeah, just three way or some shit. Speak soon” disconnecting the call, I sighed out heavily. Am I bad person, I would kill my dad but my mom I couldn’t but I would kill my dad to show my mom pain, she don’t know pain, she needs to feel it. The bitch knows where I am.

Sofia is cooking something nice but I know she is upset with me about saying no to food and then telling her to knock “it’s the boy! Hey son!” seeing Cartier in his high chair “you waiting for your food huh?” he grinned at me “my little goof, your momma locked you in this” pressing a kiss to his forehead, he tried grab my face but I moved back “how is bub? Are you ok?” she is not speaking to me, walking up behind her “knock Cassius” she repeated my words “I was smoking and you are pregnant, I was thinking of you baby. You are pregnant” touching her bump “I am pregnant Cassius” she mumbled “come on Sofia” I smiled at her “but you was annoyed with me” poking my lips out “I was not annoyed with you, I was just thinking of you and the baby, you know I love you” kissing her cheek “I love you too” Sofia turned her face to me, pecking her lips “I will take Cartier with me, smells nice by the way” Cartier is just staring at me “we going boy, we going to go and watch some basketball” unbuckling him out of the chair “I can’t wait for you to start walking, as soon as you start walking, Basketball camp for you” picking him out.

Sofia and I eventually did the tree, I mean it was something we argued about a lot because I didn’t want an angel at the top, I got my way though. It was fun to do, it’s nice to actually do the tree up together and I am sat here looking at my tree. I am home, I have my son “hey! Watch it” I pointed at the TV “you need to see the TV, you got to watch basketball” I need to go and see a game again, even though Brooklyn Nets ain’t doing well but that’s my home, I ain’t about to change teams “he cute” hearing Sofia say behind me, looking at her “right?” mean mugging her “right” she smirked “why you playing again? Like you know I am the cute one” Sofia laughed “sure, just want you to know that tomorrow you and I are going to shopping for Cartier’ gifts. This is all your fault that we are rushing things” I hate shopping, I scoffed “sure, we can do that. My boy first Christmas so we doing it big for him” Sofia touched the back of my head “food will be done soon, I knew you was hungry” I only got hungry when I smelt the food.

Cartier is fighting Sofia today in regards to feeding him, I can’t help but laugh. He wants to do it but Sofia is like no and Cartier is like yes and keeps screaming at Sofia “laugh all you want” Sofia mumbled “I am not laughing at you” I chuckled “it’s just funny how he is arguing with you” Cartier yelped out “Son!” I spat, Cartier’ face dropped and looked at me “he going to check you next” Sofia said moving out of his way to look at me “you be nice to your momma, you stop talking back to her” Cartier is not taking my shit, he looked at Sofia “dada not happy with you” he slapped his tray and sat back, that kid is hype “I need to speak to you actually” I near choked on my drink “what?” I said putting my drink down “I just need to speak you on something, why you acting like you done something?” Sofia glared at me “I ain’t say I have, I just choked on my drink” I shrugged “mhmmm, I am watching you Cassius but let me feed him, then we can talk” I hope to god it’s nothing about what I did, or she has heard me speaking about doing the hit. She won’t be happy with me, I hope it ain’t something serious.

This shit seems so serious, like she has put Cassius in his play pen so he can’t crawl away and hurt himself. She sat across from me slowly “I got a backache” Sofia groaned out as she sat down “the curry is nice” I said changing the subject “thank you” Sofia smiled at me “anything to make you happy” she touched my cheek “so, babe” she laughed a little. Placing my fork down as I chewed the last of my food in my mouth “I am happy your hair is growing” touching my pocket “oh yeah” grabbing the stack from my pocket “this is for you” placing the stack on the table “what, why?” Sofia said all confused, she ain’t used to that “for you, go and spoil yourself. It’s clean money” I winked at her “but why?” she questioned again “no reason about it, just spoil yourself. Buy what you want, some new heels” Sofia smiled a little “oh, I don’t know what to say, thank you” she grabbed the stack “anything for you princess” I sniggered, she is so cute. She seems so taken back by it “I really appreciate it, this is not my Christmas gift is it?” shaking my head “no, just looking after you” she let out an oh “thank you baby” just to see her smile, she don’t know her baby done well today “so what is up?” I threw her off there.

My baby look so happy “so yes, well you know that time I told you about my mom texting me and I assumed it was Leyton? Well she texts me every day, I had enough and I replied. I said what do you want me from me? Is it money to look after Leyton? And she said no, I just want to know you, I want to see you and my grandchild. I goes Cassius question mark, she text me back it’s hard. And I goes then stop texting me. She text me today again, she said sorry. She goes if he is making you happy then I am happy, she wants too” Sofia put her head down “to what?” I think I know “to go Barbados” she mumbled “right, and you wouldn’t tell me this unless you was considering in going?” shaking my head, shifting up in the seat “baby, I ain’t ever held you away from your family. I did because she hurt you, she did a lot to you. Why?” I questioned “it’s just not her I want to see, I want to see my grandparents. But I just feel like, I don’t know. Maybe I am being stupid but maybe she is different. She has been in Barbados for so long and maybe it is better there, Leyton is happy. He wouldn’t be happy if she was being bad, this way I can actually you know say to her why” rubbing my chin “you can go” I won’t be going “me?” she pointed at herself “yeah” Sofia squinted her eyes at me “Cartier?” she mentioned “he can stay with me” Sofia looked at me dumbfounded, like she didn’t think I would say that “they want to see him Cassius and you” shaking my head “no” I said as continued to shake my head, my phone started ringing “I got to take this” getting up from the seat, that will be Kalia.

Closing my office door “hello” placing my phone against my ear “she on bro” Ethan said “Kalia” sitting on my chair in my office “I just got some information for you, so they want to get at your mom. They have arrested already, this was last week. They have tried to use her to make her go against you. They know she is weak, they have realised you don’t fuck with her anymore. I don’t know what was said in the interview but I don’t think she is complying, but they are seeing a weak spot. If your mom is weak she will break” that doesn’t shock me “she ain’t weak, trust me. Kalia, I will be meeting you the first week of January. That shipment will also arrive and you’re going to make sure it arrives ok? Also, keep bringing in anything you know” she told me, I can’t fault her “see you then” Kalia said “bye” Ethan said “ok she gone, I got some young niggas to beat your dad up. That is done” nodding my head “good, Ethan. Shit will be good, trust me. Bye” disconnecting the call.

Picking the remote from the couch as I sat down “I know you want to start again, so proceed” I muted the TV and turned to her, I am not dumb she is waiting to say more “you need to stop being stupid, I get that my mom has been many things. I know I lived through it. I just think it’s different now but I want to go and see my grandparents mostly. They really want to see Cartier and me, I miss them” licking my top lip “when?” she seems very prepared for this “January, beginning” I had to laugh, I laughed because it’s the same timing as Brooklyn “you know what, go. Take him with you” I can’t even look after him either “you’re saying it like you don’t care, take him? And you? You’re coming with me Cassius, I need you there with me. You can’t let me go alone” it’s like god makes shit difficult, I clasped my hands together “Sofia” I sighed “I am going Brooklyn then, you go and do your thing and I will be there. I have to go there, I can’t just not go. I need to deal with my people there. So go” she will be entertained there “so you think I will go there knowing you’re not going and you’re going Brooklyn to do bad stuff” blinking at Sofia like she dumb as fuck “you know what I am doing there, you know it. You know I am going there to sort my fucking business out, I am not going there to make up with my family. We all don’t have Disney endings” Sofia’ mouth fell open “wow, you’re being a dick. I am going to go and clean” she can go and do that, it’s whatever.

Stepping back from the wall, I have never seen my wall so filled with money. I mean I have seen more money than this but for this home to have this money in the wall, amazing. I ain’t got warehouse to hide this shit so I have to hide it in this home but it looks nice “what did you do?” Sofia said behind me “took what is mine” pressing the button on the remote to close it “I heard on the news there was a gang shooting in the morning, you was missing this morning” I chuckled “don’t laugh Cassius, that was you” I shrugged “anyways, I am sorry for upsetting you or however I spoke to you. But when it comes to work then it needs to be done. I can’t trust people with shit” turning to Sofia “Kyle is sorry” I kissed my teeth “Kyle is dead to me, you don’t understand how hurt I am. Nobody does, that’s my nigga. But yet he acted a whole fool, and I don’t want to know. I am going Brooklyn then” Sofia crossed her arms “do I have a say in it?” I shook my head “if” Sofia gripped my shirt “if I let you go, no arguments. I wait here for you, can you come with me? I need you with me Cassius. I am going there, I want to go there with you and show you my roots. My family, my real family” staring down at Sofia “please” with what she has done for me “yes” it was a reluctant yes, Sofia smiled “thank you” I feel bad now “I ain’t mean to be rude to you, you know I would do anything for you. And if this is what you want then I will do it for you” Sofia hugged my body “also Jasmine and Josiah are coming for Christmas, Merry Christmas Cassius” my face dropped.