You seem similarly insane about Brian Murphy as I am and I love you I pay for a dropout subscription 70% because he's on it sometimes he makes my brain go crazy I'm not parasocial about this (but I am so close)

hiiiiiii hiiiii hello yes i'm super duper normal about brian murph murphy (lying hard!!) ur so valid anon, there's a lot of Great content on dropout but how much of it do i use to just rewatch the murph adventuring academy and the first 10 min of "it happened" adv party where they talk about murph murphing all over the dice? honest answer is: Too Much.

😔 it's embarrassing how long i've been stanning white boys but in my defence, uuhhhhhhhhh. look i just love someone who is just A Guy and then also knows a lot about stuff and also likes doing a lot of work. exactly my type. it's probably the gender envy idk

anyways yes i think murph is v cool and neat and i try to be a Normal Amount of Parasocial abt him but also he's just neat i think !!!!! he's an awesome dm and when he talks about dm-ing and d&d stuff i think he can say some pretty helpful things, even when the gang's bein silly! and he writes cool campaigns and plots and encounters and makes characters that aren't afraid to be sillysad or cringefail pathetic etc. and yes i like it when he's knowledgeable about mechanics and stuffffffff so anyways the conclusion is bRING MURPH BACK ONTO ADVENTURING ACADEMY- *gunshot*

no but pls just let him talk about stuff i just wanna hear him talk abt stuff just let him back on adventuring academy so i can have an hour of him (and brennan ig) talkin about his d&d dm stuff pls

its 'i know it doesnt matter and im used to it at this point but im actually a little sad that im kinda ugly' hours

HAHA idk how it happened honestly??? my brother has always had black hair, but i started with kinda.. strawberry blonde? then i slowly transitioned to having black hair

the kids in my elementary school made fun of me for my kool aid hair 😭

thank you!!! maybe one day i’ll do it….

yes thats what i mean, dealing with bleached hair seems so hard 😭😭😭💔

weee that sounds so cool!!!! curtain bangs are so pretty honestly

ok ok storytime

so i had a crush on this girl for like a long time, we were really good friends. she was like,, nice, funny, loud and extroverted. we were pretty close, so we would hang out almost everyday and like we would share drinks, hold hands and stuff like that!!!

im not a super physically affectionate person but she LOVES physical affection, so she would be the one to kinda initiate that type of stuff but i never minded it

like once i was sitting down and she practically sat on my lap LMAOO i was rlly flustered 💀

but recently i moved to australia, so i had to leave her (we still talk tho!!)

and like, we were never super serious/sappy types? we would always joke around with each other and bully each other playfully. but on my last day, she gave me a letter that was just genuinely rlly heartfelt and it made me cry 😭😭⁉️ so i went up to her and i didnt rlly know what to say. but like after a few moments i just hugged her really tightly (and this is pretty big bcs i don’t initiate affection much) and she hugged me back and told me everything was gonna be alright (also big bcs she barely ever speaks seriously or like not in a jokey tone)

BUT IDK the story just kinda sounded like a movie to me LMAO

WHAT THAT'S SO COOL THOUGH 😰 it's kind of like eyes how babies sometimes have light irises and then once they get older their eyes are so much darker it's crazy

the kids at your elementary school were just jealous of you 🙄 you were too cool for them okay KSHDJS

HELP it is hard </3 if you want to go through with it at any point in your lifetime make sure you're able to get good hair products to take care of it

and omg?? A LOVE STORY

that's so cute !! that she was so affectionate towards you and it didn't bother you at all despite not being an affectionate person, LIKE THAT DYNAMIC IS SO <33

she sat on your lap 😧 how did you manage to compose yourself and not die

I hope that your time in australia so far has been really fun and enjoyable !! I'm glad that the two of you still keep in touch <3

AND THAT LAST PART PLEASE WHY DO I ACTUALLY FEEL LIKE CRYING 😭 that's just so sweet the fact the two of you expressed yourselves to each other in a form you rarely do. the reassurance in general </3

you did keep the letter right? :0

that literally does sound like a movie, you could probably film and direct it AND end up breaking the audience's heart with the end but also leave them really happy because your experience was so cute and you guys still talk OMG

ok watching con videos kill me so I can’t confirm this myself..do u remember what happened with that girl wearing a destiel is real shirt and Jensen was like “where?” bc I’ve seen some people say that after that he said “destiel is real,” some people say he was joking, and some people say he was angry...what actually happened??

the amount of times i have watched that con........good LORD. i could not tell you what happened because literally none of us can figure it out, jensen starts very happy, has misha straddle him etc. then j*red comes on stage and it’s like defense mode is on. 

Now that i’m typing this....

I have always suspected they sent J*red on as a buffer, someone to keep the panel from going further into straddlegate underbears territory. 

Jensen immediately clocks that he just got leashed in and goes pretty silent (while also having to worry about a major b*ner problem ajhfgladhg) 

Jensen starts getting defensive, and when he sees the destiel shirt, which Misha points out “Does your shirt say ‘destiel is real’?” Jensen then, in this voice that i would say is sarcastic, but there are also many people this sarcasm could be directed at, or other ways to hear this tone, he says “Destiel is Real! Where? Where is it real?” which then  misha starts with a weird jokey “jensen jensen, dont go there” or something along those lines....

I wonder if it could have been overcompensating ie. I just got called out for going too far so now i need to compensate and find a way to deny it... 

Idk tho, I think he just got stressed and tired and frustrated (lots of reasons for that) and he didn’t really come out with what i think his intended tone was. 

I know a lot of people who think he was genuinely asking “where do you see it, like tell me why so i can agree with you” others think it was a slight at destiel and another way of saying it isnt real, but there wasn't even a q about destiel, a person was literally just wearing a shirt, and Misha is the one who pointed it out too. Which is weird he did that if he noticed (he did) how tense Jensen suddenly was acting and thought that would bother him more? 

God that panel is weird. I end up talking circles around myself. 

Anyways, Jensen is a heller so i choose to not think abt this instance in the panel. He’s grumpy for the entire second half i cant even watch it without cringing jaglhglrsfd

idk if thats what you were asking, but heres the video for anyone wondering 

ok not to be that sensitive white guy but,,, the rabies pride thing is kinda iffy to me s;ld;dsfl liiike a couple jokes here and there was. w/e sure like we joke about dark shit all the time, but the fact that its taken off So Much and that ppl are Still joking about how theyre in the ‘rabies fandom’ and wish they actually had rabies and shit,,,, when its nearly Eradicated in humans in north america and europe,,, but in nonwhite countries like asia and africa its still killing people pretty frequently, especially in the areas with poor health care and limited resources on animal control,,, idk it just seems. kinda distasteful for white gays to joke about smth that is unfortunately, still an actual horrible incurable fatal disease thats prevalent even if we dont have to worry about it. like. the latest death by rabies statistics was smth like 59k+ a year or 1 every 9 minutes. and its 95% young african and asian people who live in impoverished areas. it just feels like theres a disconnect between the joke and this information which,,, idk makes sense not a lot of people Know this but i wish they did cuz its genuinely upsetting. and ngl dont even get me started on my discomfort with the constant jokey comparisons of diseases or even. Actual stds with lgbt+ pride (ie ‘chlamydia pride flag’) like yall we’re the generation that didnt see the aids crisis. i get that we wanna joke to cope with everything but we gotta remember to be sensitive about it. idk just some stuff to think about ig

Pre-Infinity War MCU rankings

How I'd rank the current 18 movies, from my least favorite to most favorite, with some brief thoughts:

18. The Incredible Hulk (5/10): I barely remember this one... and I dont like Hulk's look here. Liv Tyler gasps all her dialogue. Ed Norton did an ok job I guess, but I didnt get much of a lasting impression.

17. Iron Man 2 (6/10): I remember being extremely annoyed by Tony and his behavior, and the blatant Avengers setups. Least we got War Machine out of this. Whiplash could have been great if he didnt have to share the villain role with Justin Hammer. (Also, without this mess, we wouldn't have gotten Jon Faverau's amazing film "Chef", which was made in response to his frustrations making IM2)

16. Thor: The Dark World (6/10): Forgettable plot and villain. Some chuckle worthy scenes. Not sure what else there is to say. You could tell the movie was butchered trying to fit Loki into the plot. There is barely any chemistry between Thor and Jane.

15. Thor (7/10): Decent intro to the characters and world of Asgard. But the movie looks strangely cheap, especially the New Mexico town. I never felt Thor and Jane could be a thing, despite their performances being good. The cast all around was terrific too (Hopkins as Odin is great). Loki was a great, tragic villain though. Thor breaking the bifrost is immediately undone by the Avengers...

14. Iron Man 3 (7.25/10): I enjoyed the deconstruction of Stark and common comic book tropes. What they did with the Mandarin was pretty ballsy and I respect that. I don't even remember the true villain's name... Having Tony deal with PTSD was also interesting.

13. Ant-Man (7.25/10): Surprising that this worked at all. Pretty fun ride, if a tad generic. Cool shrinking visuals. I look forward to the Wasp.

12. Doctor Strange (7.5/10): Again... plot is generic as hell. Forgettable villain. But very cool visuals. And I love the leitmotif and main theme music.

11. Avengers: Age of Ultron (7.75/10): I loved Ultron but felt he could have been a bigger threat. The middle of the movie plods... badly. Some wasted potential for sure. The third act action is comic book action nirvana. You could tell the movie was meddled with by the studio... I don't blame Joss Whedon at all for the film's shortcomings. He was obviously frustrated with it too.

10. Spiderman Homecoming (8.25/10): Gives us a great young spidey and a terrific villain. Seriously... Michael Keaton makes this movie work. The scenes with Peter and Tony are good. The supporting cast is good too. I wish they gave spidey a more memorable theme song for the movie.

9. Captain America: The First Avenger (8.25/10): I don't know why this movie resonates with me more than with other people. The look of the movie is gorgeous. The themes sincere. The music is wonderful. The performances are memorable. This movie showed us that Chris Evans was the perfect man to play Captain America. Hugo Weaving gave us a menacing yet charismatic Red Skull. One too many montages though. "The Star-Spangled Man with a Plan" is seriously catchy! Classic Disney songwriter Alan Menkin helped write it... no wonder!

8. Guardians of the Galaxy (8.5/10): How could a movie with a talking raccoon and a senient tree man be this good? Its all about the building of a family of friends, borne from people with broken pasts. Ronan is utterly forgettable, hence why I rank it here. The supporting cast is otherwise stellar. And the soundtrack... now thats how you integrate it into a movie's soul.

7. Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2 (8.75/10): Took the characters of the first movie to new places. Elevated them, broke them down, made them weep. The jokey dialogue can get grating. But thematically wonderful. Lots of small touches that gives life to even the most minor of characters. Everyone has an arc! Ego is a fascinating fellow, and seems genuinely likeable, until the revelation of his madness. The Sovereign are pompously silly and didn't amount to much of a threat (though I dont think they were supposed to be). The cinematography is sublime. The colors intense and vibrant. The soundtrack used impeccably. Just a wonderful piece of cinema. Others may disagree about it, but I rate it highly. It feels like a personal film by James Gunn.

6. Captain America: The Winter Soldier (8.8/10): Truly great and heartfelt while being relevant to the current times. A movie that brought Cap to the modern age, while haunting him with a spectre of the past. It just works on so many levels. Alexander Pierce didnt leave a big impression as the villain despite being played by Robert Redford. Could have been more intimate exploration of Cap and Bucky's relationship. Despite being called "The Winter Soldier", the focus is more on the fall of SHIELD... At least this gave us Falcon and some cute chemistry between Steve and Natasha.

The TOP 5 were very hard to place...

5. The Avengers (8.8/10): That this movie worked at all is a miracle. That it was actually infinitely watchable is amazing. This was the sign that the MCU ahead was heading to good things. The cast was excellent together. The dialogue refreshingly snappy. It made Loki into a staple of the MCU. The Avengers theme was memorable. Lots of fan service without it being intrusive... the middle act can be a bit slow, but it is otherwise nicely paced and tonally even. The look of the movie can border on TV production values at times... but it manages to overcome any shortcomings by being so darn fun.

4. Captain America: Civil War (8.8/10): This movie broke down our well-known heroes and gave us a villain in Zemo that is mysterious, tragic, and understated. Revenge permeates the themes of the movie, but the true heart of the movie is friendship and Cap's desire to hold onto the final relic of his past, Bucky. Motivations are clear between most of the characters and neither side of the conflict is right or wrong. Some Avengers are just along for the ride, but everyone nonetheless has a moment to shine. New characters are introduced (mostly) seamlessly (T'Challa is woven into it naturally, Spidey... not so much but he leaves a great first impression). The airport battle was a fantastic bit of fan service fun before the gut wrenching emotionally driven climax. The final showdown between Cap and Iron Man was like watching two parents fight over a child. This is a comic book movie that had ideas, and though it didn't totally follow through on some concepts like the Sokovia Accords, it did give us an emotional rollercoaster that built upon our pre-existing attachment to the characters. This movie was a true culmination of all that came before.

3. Thor Ragnarok (8.9/10): This movie felt the most fun and thoroughly enjoyable out of all the MCU. It may not be thematically challenging or very deep, but it isn't trying to be. For pure intentions, it accomplished what it sought to: make a fast and funny Thor-Hulk buddy comedy, and reinvent the God of Thunder as a likeable, dunderheaded oaf. Hela seeths with sultry menace. Korg is simply a treasure. Valkyrie is a drunken badass. Grandmaster is.... Jeff Goldblum. The score is the best in the MCU, instantly setting the tone. Led Zepplin's Immigrant song used twice to great effect. Quotable, hilarious dialogue. Korg. Taika Waititi injected new life into the MCU after a few serious installments. This reminds me of the goofy "fun" episode of a series before the finale. I love this movie!

2. Black Panther (8.9/10, bumped up after my second viewing): Epic world building and a villain that outshone the hero for once. It may have its flaws in plotting and pacing (the first hour is meandering), but what it tried to do is highly admirable. The supporting cast is great. The look of the movie is utterly beautiful. The action scenes are the least interesting part of the movie oddly enough due to bad execution and dodgy CGI. It has plenty of ideas regarding Wakanda and its place in the world, and the duty to use great power to help others. Killmonger should have been the chief focus beside T'Challa... You can tell Ryan Coogler made this film with his full heart. This is the only MCU film to make me tear up. With a few tweaks it could have been the best of the MCU.

1. Iron Man (9.5/10): Nearly everything here works. Robert Downey Jr. is perfectly cast, and turned Tony Stark into a household name. There is genuine chemistry between him and Pepper. Obadiah Stane is a likeable yet menacing villain (Jeff Bridges playing a bad guy?! He's terrific at it!). The action scenes are exciting and not too overdone. The score is energetic (why isn't Iron Man's leitmotif from this movie used more often?!). This movie wasn't bogged down with setting up a universe. It was allowed to be its own thing. But from this success, all the rest followed.