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Moving Forward | 9/20/20

Tagging: @miss-madeline-beiste & @faithhudson Location: Madeline’s suite Date: Sunday, September 20th, 2020 Summary: A calming scene followed by a conversation about wants, needs, and the future.

Fae's stomach churned a little as she approached Madeline's door, but that was a common thing since she'd quit drinking. That made it impossible to know whether it was nerves, a bad lunch or the incredible urge to drink something, anything, that would make her feel good. Truthfully she was excited for the night - to kneel for a while, something to occupy her mouth and her mind, and just let herself try to find some kind of peace. The talk that would follow...well, that was more disconcerting. Fae wasn't sure just how intense it would be, what they were both willing to say and not say, and what it would all mean in the end. But it was a talk that she wanted to have, and one she hoped Madeline was as invested in as she was. The door had been left unlocked for her, so rather than kneel she knocked and quietly let herself in. "Good evening, Miss."

Madeline turned toward the door when she heard it open, and she smiled at the sight of Fae letting herself in. She liked that a lot, for reasons she didn't want to allow herself to think too much about. She was both excited and nervous about the conversation they were planning on having, but she didn't want to get too far ahead of herself. The gentle scene while they watched some TV would be a good introduction to the evening. "Hi, Fae," she said brightly. "Go ahead and put your bag down in the bedroom--you can take the guest room if you'd like, or you can join me if you prefer. Take your shoes off and get comfortable, and then join me back out here when you're ready, okay?"

Fae's memory was getting better, at least incrementally, but she still tried to pay careful attention to instructions when they were given. Her mouth moved slightly as she repeated them to herself, and once they were firmly in her head she smiled. "I'll join you if you don't mind, Miss. I'll be right back." Fae turned the full force of her grin on Madeline before heading into the master bedroom. Her bag was placed gently down in the corner and she set her shoes down as well, considering for a moment before unzipping her bag and swapping her jeans for a pair of sweats. If she was going to be kneeling, jeans didn't seem like the best idea. That done, she returned to the living room. "All set, Miss."

"Good girl," Madeline said, noting with a smile to herself that Fae had swapped out her jeans for something a bit more comfortable. She was wearing a sundress with a cardigan herself, taking advantage of some of the last few warm days of the year before fall truly started. She grabbed a pillow from the other end of the couch and set it on the floor by her feet. "Come kneel in front of me, Fae," she told her, sitting up straight as she waited for the Switch to join her.

Those two words had begun to feel like a compliment of the highest order, and Fae knew that it spoke volumes about her status as a Switch and what it was that she really wanted. Taking a moment to appreciate the sight of Madeline in a nice dress, Fae couldn't help but smile at the way she set down a pillow to make kneeling easier on Fae's knees. She didn't know a lot of Dominants, but the difference in attitude between them could be startling. "Yes, Miss Madeline," she agreed, moving into position and settling on the pillow. "I hope you've had a nice day so far?"

Madeline automatically reached out and began to stroke her fingers through Fae's hair once she was down on her knees in front of her. God, would having this beautiful woman submit to her ever get old? She smiled and gave her a nod. "I have," she said. "The best part has been texting you, though. How are you feeling?"

Fingers in her hair was a sensation that Fae loved more than just about anything, and she tilted her head into the touch to enjoy it a little bit more. "You're very sweet to me," she blushed. "Today's not a bad day. I'm shaky, but it's not so bad that I can't do up buttons and stuff, so I call it a win. I'm craving, for sure, but I'm not thinking about it every second."

Madeline listened carefully to Fae's response, glad that she had taken the question seriously rather than brushing it off as a simple greeting. "Well, let's get a bit of a distraction started so you can hopefully relax some, okay? Now, I want to try out that gag that you put in that basket for the auction tonight." She leaned forward and grabbed it from the coffee table and held it out for Fae to see. "Remind me what your safe gestures are?"

"That sounds nice, Miss." Fae was looking forward to trying out the gag, and the distraction that it would provide her. "I'm ready for it. I think this is going to be a good experience." She studied the gag for a moment, nodding her agreement. 'One finger on the left hand for a break, a peace sign if I need to immediately stop what we're doing." She held up her index and then added her middle as well, demonstrating both of the gestures to be sure she was being clear.

Madeline nodded as Fae showed off her safe gestures, and she repeated them herself. "Good girl," she said, "thank you. If you don't have any questions, I'd like you to go ahead and open up for me so I can get this situated on you."

Fae smiled easily. "You're welcome, Miss. And no questions, I'm good." Settling her shaky hands at her sides, she tilted her head back a little and opened her mouth to accept the gag. She was ready, and prepared for what would come next.

Once she was sure Fae was ready, Madeline brushed her hand down through Fae's hair one more time before placing the gag in her mouth. The front of the piece stretched out widely over her cheeks, and Madeline made sure it didn't cut in too harshly as she strapped the gag in behind Fae's head. She gently pulled a few strands of hair out from underneath the strap where it looked like it was pulling, and then she sat back to look at the sub in front of her. "How's that feel?" she asked. "Thumbs up if it's okay, one finger if it's not."

The ball on the inside of the panel gave Fae something to set behind her teeth, allowing the full panel to rest against her face. It was bigger than she'd expected, covering from just under her nose down to her chin and a good amount of her cheeks as well, but it wasn't uncomfortable - just new. Madeline's care and attention in making sure her hair wasn't trapped was good, and she nearly smiled before remembering it wouldn't look like anything. She took a deep breath through her nose, making sure she was set, and gave Madeline a firm thumbs up.

Madeline felt her heart rate slow as she immediately relaxed at the sight of the thumbs up. Gags were a new concept to her, and knowing Fae felt okay so far made a big difference. "Good girl," she praised, petting her hand across the top of the Switch's head again. "Go ahead and turn to the side for me so that you can rest your head on my lap and see the TV screen. Once you're settled, I'll put something on for us."

Fae leaned into the touch, smiling behind the panel even though she knew Madeline wouldn't know it. Turning her body on the pillow, she settled onto her knees again once she was in position and laid her head on the Dominant's lap. Once she was set she offered another thumbs up, giving Madeline the go ahead to put something on for them.

Madeline appreciated the second thumbs up. They hadn't discussed a safe gesture to mean green, go ahead, but they were clearly on the same page here and that made her feel a lot more comfortable in her Dominance. She rested a hand on the Fae's upper back while she flipped through Netflix until she found The Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt. "I think you'll like this, Fae," she said as she hit play.

Fae hummed softly against the leather panel, wanting to acknowledge Madeline's words and the touch of a hand to her back without having to signal. She felt...calm. As the show began, she let her focus leave the way that she shook, the way that she craved something to drink, all of it. The only sensations that were important were the feel of leather against her face, the soft ball between her teeth, and the hand on her back. It felt a little liked what meditation was probably supposed to feel like.

Madeline let Netflix autoplay through into the second episode after the first one ended. They were short enough that she wasn't concerned about it being too much for Fae, and she hoped that the other woman was enjoying the show as much as she was. She'd seen it before, of course, but it was still just as funny the second time. As they watched, she focused half of her attention on Fae's body, both looking out for any signs that she was uncomfortable and taking the opportunity to rub her back, neck, and head gently. It was a simple gesture, but one that reminded them both that they were there together. When the credits came up on the second episode, she hit the pause button before it went into a third one. "All right, Fae," she said gently. "Head up. You've been such a good girl for me."

The show was as funny as Madeline had made it sound, and Fae made occasional chortling noises that were muffled by the gag in place of laughter. For the most part though it was like a wave, washing over her as she tried not to focus too hard on any one thing. The gentle motions of hands against her drew out more tension from her slight frame, and gave her an anchor to ensure that she didn't drift away entirely. The end of the second episode had escaped her, but when Madeline spoke up she moved to comply, lifting her head but not turning her body - she'd only been ordered to do the first part.

Madeline smiled down at Fae and reached behind her to undo the buckle of the gag. "Easy," she said as she carefully pulled the gag away from Fae's face and mouth. Once it was out, she set it aside quickly, making a mental note to clean it and her end table later. She went back to petting Fae's hair, smoothing it out in particular where the strap had been. "You've been such a good girl for me," she repeated, unintentionally. "I'd like you to be where you're most comfortable right now, either on your knees or up here next to me. Your jaw's probably going to be a bit sore for a while now."

Ducking her head a little to allow easier access to the buckle, Fae let out a soft groan as she opened her mouth to let the ball pass between her teeth. She hadn't felt it while she was kneeling there, but with the gag removed she could definitely feel the strain that had been involved. Madeline's repeated praise made her flush with pleasure, and the attention to her hair was never going to get old. There was still a slightly dazed feeling in her mind, like she wasn't quite awake or asleep, and a contented sigh escaped her lips. "Thank you, Miss," she murmured. "I'll stay kneeling. May I put my head back on your lap?"

Madeline had been sure Fae would choose to join her on the couch, so she was very glad she’d given her the option to stay kneeling. “In just a minute,” she replied. She grabbed a bottle of water from the coffee table—a reusable one with a built-in straw—and held it in front of Fae’s mouth. “Have a few sips of water for me first, and then you can put your head down and tell me how you’re feeling.”

Fae sipped from the water, surprised to find herself more thirsty than she'd expected. If she'd been thinking more clearly it probably could have been blamed on the gag, but that was a level of clarity she was missing just then. "Thank you, Miss," she nodded, waiting for Madeline to set the water down before laying her head in the Domme's lap once again. "Floaty," she began with a murmur, looking for the right words to explain her mental state. "Just a little bit disconnected. Not in a bad way, but like..." Fae trailed off, a bit frustrated that the words wouldn't come. "Like things aren't bothering me. If that makes any sense."

“That makes perfect sense,” Madeline said, her hand seeming to land back on Fae’s head of its own accord. Before she even realized she was doing it, she was running her fingers down through the other woman’s hair once more. “Let me know if you start to feel more grounded, or if the floating starts to feel not so good. Otherwise, we can just sit here and relax a bit, hm?”

Letting her eyes flutter shut, Fae let out a soft noise of approval as Madeline's fingers worked in her hair once again. It was a gesture that felt good, and right, and helped her stay in the submissive mindset that the kneeling and gag had helped create. Fortunately she understood Fae's point, because she wasn't sure she could have made it make more sense, and Fae nodded against her lap. "That sounds nice, Miss, thank you."

"You're welcome, Fae," Madeline said encouragingly, still running her fingers through her tresses. It felt good to just sit here with Fae at her feet and her head on her lap. It felt right. She didn't know what that meant for the conversation they were going to have once Fae felt more herself again, but she hoped it was a good sign, at the very least.

Fae didn't know how long they sat like that. It was a passage of time that went almost completely unnoticed, as she let herself fly free in her head for just a little while. Only when she began to feel the ache in her knees and her jaw did she realize that she'd come down from her high. "May I join you on the couch now, Miss?" she asked softly.

Madeline let her hand run through Fae's hair one last time after she heard the question, but then she pulled her hand back to give the other woman some space. "Yes, you may, Fae," she said, shifting to get more comfortable once Fae's head was off her lap. She grabbed the water bottle again and held it out for her to take. "A few more sips of water, please."

Fae nodded. "Thank you, Miss." She sipped from the water, sighing contentedly as she put it back. Her knees popped a little as she stood, but fortunately she could go straight from there to the couch, resting alongside Madeline with a smile. "That was a good show. Just as funny as you said it'd be."

Madeline lifted her arm up to drape it over Fae's shoulder as she settled in next to her. "I'm glad you enjoyed it," she said. "It's been ages since I watched it the first time. We can watch more anytime you want."

Snuggling into Madeline's side, Fae smiled. "We'll make a regular thing of it. Maybe when I get back from meetings. Did I show you my fancy coin?" It was just a token for 24 hours of sobriety, but she wanted to show it off anyway.

"When you get back from your meetings sounds perfect," Madeline agreed. "I think that's a perfect time for something light and funny." She turned to look at Fae's face and shook her head. "You did not. Do you have it here with you?"

"Definitely. Those things get pretty heavy, so light and funny would be a nice change." Her face lit up a little. "I do! Let me go grab it for you." Fae scooted into the bedroom and dug through her things, emerging with the coin and a triumphant smile. She handed it to Madeline as she took a seat again, snuggling close. "Twenty four hours sober."

The proud look on Fae's face when she handed over the coin just about did Madeline in. She felt tears spring to her eyes, and she was glad that Fae sat down again with her so quickly. "That's such a huge deal, Fae," she said, her voice wavering just a little from the surge of emotion inside her. She examined the coin, front and back, and then pressed a kiss to the top of Fae's head. "I'm so proud of you," she said as she handed the coin back over.

Madeline's shaky voice made her wonder if she'd done something to upset the Dominant, but the kiss a moment later seemed to put paid to that idea. "Thank you, Miss," her cheeks reddened a little. "I know it's only twenty four hours but it's a start, right? If I can go that long without messing up then maybe I can get the next coin too."

"What's the next one?" Madeline asked, having recovered her poise with Fae back in her arms again. "And I know you can do it, however long it is. It's like Kimmy said--you can do anything for ten minutes. You can do anything for twenty-four hours, too, it seems!"

"I think the next one is thirty days," Fae frowned. "Which is a lot harder than the first one, so that seems unfair somehow. But I think I'll try that, and focus on the ten minutes. Trying to do a month in 24 hour chunks would be too much."

"Ten minutes it is, then," Madeline said, already making a mental note to create a special chip for 1 week. Fae deserved more positive reinforcement than having to wait almost an entire month. In the meantime, she grabbed the water bottle and handed it over again. "A little more water," she said gently. "How are you feeling? Would you like a blanket?"

Fae accepted the water bottle, draining the last of it in a few big gulps. The gag had definitely left her a bit more dehydrated than she expected, but that was good to know for the next time. "Actually I'd love a blanket, Miss. I don't know why I'm a bit cold, but maybe from staying in one position for so long..."

Madeline guided Fae to sit upright before getting up to grab a soft, fuzzy, sherpa throw blanket from a basket across the room. She brought it back and draped it across Fae's body, and she grabbed the empty bottle of water. "I'll be right back, Fae, okay?" she said before going to refill the bottle. She brought one back for herself as well, and before long, she was settled back in next to her. "Drink some more water if or when you feel like it," she told her. "Are you feeling any better now? It's not uncommon for a sub to need to cozy up after a scene."

"Mmm," Fae hummed as the blanket was laid over her. She hadn't realized just how much she needed it, and she snuggled into it as completely as possible. "I'll be here, Miss," she promised, not even making a joke. "Much better, Miss, thank you. I think the extra time on my knees with my head on you went a long way to making it better. It wasn't even bad, really, I just felt kind of spaced out."

"You're adorable, Fae," Madeline said before she could stop herself. She smiled at her before lifting the blanket to shift her legs beneath it, too, making sure not to take enough away from Fae that she'd get exposed to the cool air around them on her other side. "Are you feeling more like yourself now, then?"

Fae chuckled. "There aren't many people who've ever called me that, but I'm happy that you're one of them." She contentedly shared her blanket, nodding at the question. "Much more, Miss. For good or bad, I'm back in my head now. If we wanted to do that again sometime, though, it was nice to be out of it for a while."

"Well, anyone who isn't saying it out loud is certainly thinking it," Madeline teased. "But any time you want to get out of your head like that, I want you to speak up and let me know--though I know I don't have to worry about you speaking up for yourself. That's one of the things I really appreciate about you, Fae."

Fae snorted. "I think you confuse your high opinion of me with other people's, Miss, but I'm glad you think so." She nodded, a smile lighting her features again at the compliment. "I don't know any other way to be, I don't think. If I don't speak for myself, nobody else is going to."

Madeline smiled to herself. Perhaps Fae wasn't wrong about Madeline thinking everyone else had the same opinion of the other woman as she did herself, but that was neither here nor there. She was just glad to make her smile. "One day, your Dominant will speak up for you, too," she pointed out, surprising herself at how smooth this transition might end up being after all.

"That's true," Fae conceded. "That is part of the job, or at least that's what they tell me in Switch 101." She'd still never really experienced the urge to play on that side of her mark. It could be done, she'd done it with DJ and Fauna, but it didn't feel as right. As natural. Being on her knees for Madeline or Evan had felt a million times more like the person she was meant to be.

Madeline hummed in agreement. "The right Dominant for you will make sure you're taken care of, all the time," she said. "That doesn't mean that they'll walk all over you. It just means that they'll support you and protect you while you give the same back to them through your submission."

Fae stayed silent, trying to make sure that Madeline had the time and space to talk without interruption. It wasn't easy for someone like her, but she made the effort. "And do you think I can do that? Be the kind of submissive that someone deserves?"

Fae's question made Madeline frown and pull the Switch closer in against her side. "I know you can do that, Fae," she said firmly. "Your submission... it's a wonderful gift, every time you choose to let me experience it. I'm grateful every time that you do."

Fae cuddled up a little closer in response. Madeline had a ton of faith in her, more than she felt like she really deserved, and it was overwhelming sometimes - in the best of ways. "I'm glad to hear you say that, Miss. Because I'm always happy to give it to you. You make it feel like it's special to you."

"That's because it is special to me," Madeline responded. "I'm not a Domme who enjoys ordering around reluctant submissives. I expect titles and basic respect, of course, but I don't see the enjoyment in making someone submit to me who doesn't want to. I really appreciate that you want to give yourself over to me in scenes. I know it's not something that comes easy to you, Fae."

"It's not," Fae shook her head. "But it's made easier with people who I know respect me. And people who know all of me. It's easy to know someone's good parts and like them. You've seen my shitty parts. And you like me - but more than that, you treat me with respect. That's the thing that blows me away about you. And you're a good Domme, Miss. In my humble opinion, at least."

Madeline found herself blushing at all of Fae's compliments. "Thank you, Fae," she said. "You have no idea how much it means to me to hear you say that. I know how hard you've been working to try to improve yourself, and you've been doing such a good job. You even got your 24-hour coin!" She grinned brightly at that. "I just want to do my best to treat you just as well as you deserve."

"You're welcome, Miss," Fae smiled. "I'm only speaking the truth, that's all." She glanced at her coin, trying to take in all that it represented. "It's a start," she nodded. "And I hope you know that you always have. Always." Madeline never made her feel less than, never made her feel like the hopeless drunk she often considered herself. She'd always taken Fae's wants and needs into consideration, and never talked down to her.

"It's a start," Madeline agreed. "And hey, look. You've gone ten minutes a few times now since you arrived here. It's already dark out." She nodded toward the nearest window to the outside. She licked her lips and stared out into the branches of the trees outside her window for a short while before continuing. "So... Fae. What have you figured out it is that you're looking for in your Dominant in the future?"

Fae looked out the window, blinking. Time had actually gone by pretty quickly, it felt like, and she hadn't had to struggle too hard. "I guess I have at that, Miss." She was content to stay silent as long as Madeline wanted, and only perked up again when she asked a question. "It's a tough question, Miss, but I think it's supposed to be. I don't...the actual D/s side of things isn't as crucial to me, if that makes sense. I want someone who's going to treat me with respect, like a person. Who knows about all my shit, and isn't bothered. And who I can count on to keep me safe no matter what we're doing. Those are sort of my three needs."

Madeline focused in on Fae's words as she spoke. This was an important conversation for both of them, and she wanted to make sure she heard everything Fae was saying--and everything she might not be saying, too. "I would say that all three of those are very good qualities to have in a Dominant for most submissives," she pointed out. "Though, obviously, not every Dominant is going to be able to meet all of those needs. How do you feel about living a D/s lifestyle, though? Being a submissive all the time, in public and in private?"

Fae nodded. She knew there weren't going to be a lot of "right" Dominants for her, because she was a lot to put up with and doing so required a certain level of patience that not everyone possessed. But they were, she thought, the important ones. "I don't have practice living the life," she admitted. "But here's the thing. I don't want to be somebody's toy. I don't want to walk around on a leash, stuff like that. Because I can't do that. What I can do is call someone by a title, do what they tell me most of the time, and do my best to be good company."

Madeline frowned to herself, not sure she was understanding Fae properly--and not liking what she was hearing if she was. "It sounds to me like you're not really interested in much submission at all, Fae," she said, trying to keep her voice light and curious. "Would you say that's true? That you're only looking to submit to the extent that it makes your partner happy?"

Fae shook her head. "No, I'm sorry, that's...that's not what I was trying to say. I meant, like...you see people walking submissives on campus on a leash, and it just looks like they're property. I don't want to be property - I want to be a submissive person. The submission part I like, but I need practice at it. Like...what we did here tonight, you and me, with me kneeling and gagged? I liked that. The scenes we've done? I liked those. I will do stuff like that anytime as long as the person I'm with is a person who treats me like a person. It's like when we go to town and you order me to leave the bar. I've never fought you on that, and that's part of what submitting means to me. Letting you take control." She frowned. "Am I making any sense at all, or should I start over?"

Madeline's heartrate started to slow a bit as Fae responded. The way she described it this time helped, and she nodded a bit. "I think that does make sense," she told her. "So what I'm getting--and tell me if I'm wrong--is that there are forms of submission that you do like and enjoy, but it has to be with a Dominant who makes you feel respected and protected? Do you think you would enjoy any sort of pet play as a scene, or does that seem to be too property-like to you?"

Fae was glad to hear that she'd found a way to explain herself, because it wasn't always easy when it came to this kind of thing. "Exactly," she nodded agreement. "It's the respect that lets me put myself in another person's control." Without that there was no trust, and without trust she couldn't give herself over. "No, I think pet play could be fun. I haven't taken any classes for it or anything but I think wearing some cute ears and a tail would be a good time."

"I've done a bit of pet play, and it can be a lot of fun," Madeline said. "Maybe sometime soon we can try it out together, hm?" She reached up to run her fingers down Fae's hair once more, and she tucked a strand behind her ear. "So that's one thing that's an absolute no for your future claim--being treated like property. Are there any other things you definitely don't want in your future claim, Fae?"

"I'd like that," Fae smiled, soft noises of contentment on her lips as Madeline played with her hair. That was such a good feeling. "Other things I definitely don't want...to be...what's the word? Restricted? In what I do. Like, I'd still like to be able to work outside the house and go out for dinner with friends if that was something I wanted to do and I'd earned it. I'd follow whatever rules I had, of course, and only do those things with permission, but I wouldn't want claimed life to be like a prison. And..." she hesitated a little. "I know how dumb this sounds coming from someone who warred against my Mom and Stepdad's relationship for so long, but I wouldn't want a claim without love in it."

"I wouldn't either," Madeline replied. Her own parents' claim was a good example of a claim full of love--for one another and for their children. She knew her mother had been part of a claim that may have had love in it at one point but that was based on fear, and she never wanted that for herself or for Fae. "Love is an important part of a claim for me," she said. "And I can't imagine restricting a submissive that I love, other than as a punishment or for their own good--which is something that I would discuss with them and we would hopefully come to an agreement on."

Fae 's smile was growing increasingly bright as they talked. Madeline had always done a good job of understanding the things that she said, as well as the things that she didn't, and helping her realize when a word or concept had eluded her. "I'd say we're really on the same page there," she nodded, wracking her brain for anything else that might be worth mentioning in her wants and needs. "I think those are the important ones for me, Miss. That, and to be claimed by someone who's willing to come to meetings and go on this journey with me."

Madeline felt like a weight had been lifted from her chest. We're really on the same page there. "Everything you said is very reasonable," she told her. "And very realistic, too. You deserve a claim partner who is going to do all of those things for you and more." She paused for a moment, reaching for her water bottle to sip from it and buy herself a moment of time. "What about... physically, Fae? What do you need physically with your Dominant?"

There was a lot of room in a conversation like this for things to go sideways, but to Fae's pleasure they hadn't had that happen just yet. The longer they talked, in fact, that better it seemed to be going. "And you deserve someone who can be the submissive you deserve, Miss. Who can give you the things that you want." The question wasn't one she'd expected, although she realized she should have. "If you mean sex, Miss, here's the thing. I've had lots of sex. For lots of reasons. So that people would buy me drinks, or give me a place to stay. I've had it because I like it. And sometimes I've had it because I had a drink or two in me and wanted to feel something." She sipped her own water, clearing her throat. "So I don't have requirements. If I'm with someone who likes sex as much as I do, cool. If I'm with someone who isn't, I'm more than capable of taking care of those needs myself."

"Thank you, Fae." Madeline could never bring herself to speak about sex as bluntly as many of her classmates seemed to do. She didn't consider herself a prude, and she was quite happy for everyone who had a nice, healthy sex life. That just... wasn't her. She'd known coming into the institute that it would likely cause her some issues when it came time to find herself some submissives, but she'd always remained optimistic that there would be other people out there like her, ones who didn't need or even want sex with their partners. "What about no sex at all?" she asked, her uncertainty coming out in the tone of her voice. "Would you be comfortable doing that entirely on your own or with someone who wasn't your Dominant?"

Fae had assumed for some time that sex might not be something Madeline was into, for whatever reason. She didn't need to know what that reason was, nor did she need that to change. She wanted to give the question an honest and thoughtful answer, and so she paused for a moment to consider it. Would a relationship without sex bother her? Finally she nodded, keeping her eyes fixed on Madeline. "I would. Be comfortable, that is. As long as my Dominant could allow it happen with others without it causing strife in the claim. Because if it was going to cause jealousy, then it's something I could handle on my own. I'm good with toys."

Madeline gave Fae a little nod of encouragement, but that was the most she was able to do. How did other people talk so openly about sex? She felt completely comfortable with Fae, and she would always be honest with her, but this topic of conversation was something she was fairly sure she'd never be capable of having without her stomach trying to tie itself up in knots. "That's... relieving to hear, Fae," she said. "I don't... For some reason, I don't find sex enjoyable like other people do. It's-- I don't know. It's not something that sounds pleasurable to me. You should know that up front."

She wasn't normally the sort of comforting person who would be good in this sort of conversation. But Madeline had opened up and told her something deeply personal, and Fae planned to treat it with the respect that it was due. "To be a hundred percent honest, Miss Madeline, I'd sort of figured," Fae's smile was gentle and encouraging. "This is the longest I've ever known anyone who didn't ask for, or make moves toward sex, so I kind of figured it wasn't something you wanted. You've been very honest with me, and I will be honest with you too. I don't need you to explain it, or give me a reason. I'm not going to assume that you don't find me attractive, or think that you're frigid or some stupid thing like that. It's a part of you, like your hair or your eyes, and I wouldn't ask you to change any of those things." Fae licked her lips. "If we went forward together, then all I'd need from you is a promise that I could still get kisses on a regular basis. Nothing more than that."

Madeline blushed--honest to god blushed--at Fae's comment. She had known in the back of her head that it probably wasn't going to be that big of a surprise that she wasn't into sex. Most people here seemed to fuck like rabbits, and someone not participating in sex like that would stand out like a sore thumb. "I don't know why I don't like it," she said before clearing her throat. "It just... isn't something I like. I don't understand it. I wish I did. Kisses, though... that I can definitely do." She felt a little more relaxed now, and she pressed a soft kiss to Fae's cheek.

Madeline's blush was perhaps the most adorable thing that Fae had ever seen, and it took a lot not to comment on it - but she didn't want to seem as if she was making fun. "And that's fine. You don't need to know, Miss. I don't know why I don't like anchovies, or left turns, I just don't. You don't need to explain it. You just need to tell me that's how it is." The kiss made her smile. "Then that'd be just fine by me."

"Thank you, Fae," Madeline said, though she wasn't sure she was able to get enough emotion into her voice to show her just how much the acceptance meant to her. She pulled her close, resting Fae's head on her shoulder and her head on top of Fae's. "How do you feel about having another sub around?" she asked after a few moments of simply enjoying the other's existence.

"Of course, Miss. You're so welcome." She leaned against the Domme, taking those quiet moments to contemplate everything that could potentially lay ahead of them. They hadn't actually said the words yet, but she was fairly certain they were agreeing to pursue a future together. There was a part of her - a big part - that was sure she didn't deserve that, but Madeline had told her over and over that she thought otherwise. And while Fae was aware that her path wouldn't be smooth, perhaps it would be easier together. "A double claim, you mean?" she gave that a moment's thought. "I think it would be selfish of me to say I have to be the only one you care for. You've got a big heart, and I think there's lots of room in it for two. I'm not going to pretend I'd be great at sharing you, at least right away, but I'd learn."

The way Fae slipped from a hypothetical future claim into speaking specifically about belonging to Madeline made her heart flutter. She'd done her best to keep the conversation focused on a generic Dominant and a generic claim, though she knew she'd spoken a bit about herself recently. Yet hearing Fae speak so clearly about being Madeline's sub was an absolutely wonderful feeling. "I've always pictured myself with two submissives," she explained. "I know that's not for everyone, though. And I wouldn't want you to agree to a double claim with me or with anyone else just because you don't want to be selfish. That's one thing you absolutely should be selfish about, if you want it to be just you and your Dominant, Fae. I don't want you compromising on that. It's not fair to you, me, or the other sub."

Fae nodded, wanting Madeline to know that she was listening. "I never pictured a future until pretty recently, Miss. I always figured at best I'd join the 27 club and at worst I'd make it to thirty and go where all the unwanted go." She nestled further into Madeline's shoulder. "So I've never really considered whether I'd be in a double claim. How that would make me feel. And truthfully, I still don't know. Here's what I do know: I would be happy to try. If it turned out that I couldn't live like that, I would be honest. But the only way I'm going to know anything is to try it. I won't turn my nose up at anything without at least making an effort."

Madeline was surprised to find herself petting Fae's hair again without noticing that she'd started to do so. "You're destined for so much more than either of those options," she said firmly. She would see to that. There was no way she'd let any of that happen to her, no matter what happened between them. "I think... it sounds like you'd like to try this. Us. And seeing where we go from here."

When Madeline began to stroke her hair once more, Fae let out a contented sound. She didn't know why it felt so good, but she wasn't interested in examining it either - it felt good, and that was all that mattered. "I'm glad that you think so, Miss." The words from Madeline's mouth weren't unexpected, but they had power and weight and Fae had to pull away, just a little, to make sure they were looking eye to eye as they were spoken and responded to. "I would," Fae agreed. "I know there aren't any guarantees, but I think this could be something. As long as it's what you want to, Miss Madeline, and you don't feel pressured in any way."

Madeline was almost overwhelmed with emotion as she looked back into Fae's eyes and gave her a bit of a nod. "I don't feel pressured," she told her. "I hope you don't, either, Fae. I... quite enjoy taking care of you, and the moments I've been happiest the past few months have been the ones when you're entrusting yourself to my care. I don't know if you understand just how precious those moments are to me." She smiled softly. "I think that this could be something, too."

"I don't," Fae promised. This was a point in her life that she'd never imagined reaching. She hadn't lied or exaggerated when she'd said that she fully expected to be dead or a slave by thirty, and imagining the sort of feelings that were surging through her now would have been impossible even a year ago. "Not at all." She took a breath to try and ground herself, wanting to be sure that she spoke her mind with clarity. "Those moments have meant a lot to me too, Miss. It sounds corny to say it out loud, but you're kind of my hero. You got me here." She smiled brightly at Madeline's declaration, leaning forward unprompted to press a soft kiss to her lips. "Sealed with a kiss," she chuckled. "I'm afraid you're stuck with me now."

Madeline laughed in surprise at the kiss, but she leaned forward to take a second kiss. They were short and sweet kisses, but they were exactly what she needed right now. "Sealed with a kiss on my end, too," she said, her smile bright on her face as she looked back Fae. "You got yourself here, Fae. I'm just here to offer you support and protection. But you're the one doing all of the hard work."

She hadn't expected Madeline to return the kiss, but Fae smiled widely in response. She was dealing with a happiness that was overwhelming, in a very pleasant way. "I needed a reason, though," she shook her head. "You gave it to me. You put your faith in me, no pun intended, and treated me like I could do this. I don't think it would have happened without you."

"I treated you like you could do this because I could see that you could do this," Madeline told her. "I may have given you a nudge in the right direction, but you did this on your own. You deserve a lot more credit than you're giving yourself. I'm here to help you along the way, but your successes are your own, Fae. Don't forget that."

Getting emotional wasn't in Fae's wheelhouse, or her comfort zone. But there was no denying that she'd been on a remarkable journey since arriving in Lima, one that had changed not only the person she was but the person she wanted to be. And Madeline had been a remarkable part of that story. Eyes welling up at last, she leaned closer and buried her face against the Domme's neck. She held a lot in, and maybe it was time to let some of it go.

As Fae's head landed against Madeline's body, she placed a comforting hand on the back of it, holding her in place against her. "I'm so proud of you, Fae," she murmured. Holding her like this felt good and right and like they were starting on a journey to somewhere perfect. "And I promise you, I will do everything in my power to support you and protect you and keep you safe."

Fae took in the words, empowered knowing that Madeline would stand behind her whether she failed or flew, and let herself cry for a while against the Domme's shoulder. It would have embarrassed her on any other day, but she needed the emotional release in that moment, and she only pulled back again when she was sure she had some kind of control over herself. "Sorry," she murmured, laughing around the lump in her throat. "Guess things kind of caught up with me."

Madeline didn't know what was going through Fae's head right now or what was causing her tears, but she did know that she felt honored that the other woman was allowing herself to feel this here with her--and that she was able to take some comfort in Madeline's presence, too. She simply held her and let her get it all out. "You have nothing to apologize for, Fae," she said, hooking a finger under her chin to guide her to look at her. "Do you have words for what's going through that beautiful head?"

Eyes red-rimmed, Fae met Madeline's gaze without hesitation. "I think it was just...letting go of some baggage, Miss. Being able to kind of sit back and realize that I'm so incredibly lucky. How far I've come and this new journey we're going to take, it's just a lot of good things and I don't think I've really sat down and let myself feel all of it until just this second. So when it hit me it kind of all hit me at the same time."

Madeline gently swiped her thumb underneath each of Fae's eyes in turn, wiping away the remnants of the tears that she'd just released. "You really have come so far in just the few months I've known you," she said, "and you're going to go so much further from here. I'm really glad you want me around to support you through that, because I can't wait to see who you are a few months from now... even a year or two from now."

Fae let her eyes shut as Madeline wiped her tears away, a smile ghosting across her lips. "Hopefully whoever I end up being is still the person you want to have in your life, Miss Madeline. Because I know future me isn't going to have changed her mind about wanting to be in it." It was cheesy, but she was pretty certain it was the truth.

Madeline smiled at Fae. "I won't hold it against you if I end up not being the sort of Dominant you want long-term," she said, her insecurities about her sex issues surfacing once more. "But let's try this and see where it leads us, hm? We'll take it one day at a time, and hopefully, we'll have a lot of days together ahead of us."

"I don't think that's possible, Miss. You've never given me any reason to think I'd change my mind, and there's nothing about you I want to change. But you're right. We'll take it a day at a time, and this journey will be something we take together." She stole one more kiss, on the cheek this time, and nestled against Madeline.

Madeline blushed softly at the kiss. She didn't know if she'd ever get used to Fae's affection for her, and part of her hoped she didn't. She didn't ever want to lose this feeling. "Come here," she said, wrapping her arm back around Fae's shoulders. "Today's been a very good day," she murmured. "I bet tomorrow will be, too."

Fae snuggled as close as humanly possible, her outburst of emotion having tired her out more than a little. "It's been a great day," she nodded agreement. "Tomorrow's the start of something new, and it's also going to be great. We should do something to celebrate."

"Yeah?" Madeline asked, looking down fondly at the girl in her arms. How had she gotten so lucky to have Fae trust her like this? Whatever it was, she'd do it again in a heartbeat. "What do you have in mind, Fae?"

"Well, I've got two night passes that I won during the basket auction," Fae smiled. "I thought we could use one of them and go out on the town. Go for a nice dinner, maybe walk around a little and just enjoy the company, and then stay in a hotel for the night. Something with a nice comfy bed where we could order room service and watch tv and fall asleep with each other."

Madeline smiled. Part of her wasn’t sure she wanted Fae using one of her night passes on her, but she reminded herself that they were going to try something more serious together and that it made perfect sense in that context. “You’ve got excellent ideas, Fae,” she said. “Perhaps... after parents week is over?”

Fae smiled. "That would be great, Miss. We can definitely do it afterwards, and make sure that you've got as much time to spend with your family as you can. After all, it only comes once a year, right? I wouldn't take you away from that."

“You know I want you to be a part of that this week, too, right?” Madeline asked. “I know that meeting my parents probably takes on a bit of a different feeling now, but... I would still like you to meet them, if you’re still up for it.”

The thought of it was slightly more terrifying now, but Fae wasn't going to back out because of that. No matter what might happen in the future, she did still want to meet Madeline's family. "I'd like that too, Miss. I'm still up for it."

"I'm really glad you are," Madeline replied, smiling brightly at the Switch. "Both of my parents are really nice, so you shouldn't feel intimidated or anything. We just aren't going to have this opportunity for another year, and, well... I'm just glad that you're willing to give it a go for me."

"I'm happy to try anything that makes you happy, Miss. I won't lie and say I'm not going to be intimidated, but I do want to be there with you even if I don't say much. I'm not sure what the etiquette is when it comes to introducing yourself as a recovering alcoholic."

Madeline's fingers had found their way in between strands of Fae's hair again, and she smiled at how the gesture seemed to comfort them both in a way. "I think the etiquette really is whatever makes you the most comfortable. Your recovery is your business. If you want to share that with them, they won't think any less of you, but if you want to keep that to yourself, I support that, too."

Fae hummed softly as Madeline played with her hair. Clearly it was something they both enjoyed, and it was nice that they had a little physical contact that made them both happy. "I'll think on it," she nodded. "I don't know if I want to go all true confessions on them, but if the subject comes up I won't keep it a secret, either."

"I think that sounds like a good plan," Madeline said. "I'm glad you're thinking about it, too. You don't ever have to share parts of you with anyone else if you don't want to, but as long as you feel safe, I don't think hiding is necessarily the right decision, either."

"I'm sure it'll take me some time to figure it all out," Fae admitted. "How much people get to know about me. Until now I've been pretty straightforward about being a drunk, but if I'm actually going to not be that anymore...maybe I don't want to tell just anyone."

"If it's relevant information, then I don't see why you shouldn't share your journey if you feel comfortable doing so," Madeline said, "but you need to do what feels best for you. Alcohol doesn't define you."

Fae's eyes welled up again, and she blinked a few times to clear them. She was still getting used to people who saw her as something more than her habit. "Thank you, Miss. I really appreciate that - that you see me that way, and that you give me the chance to define myself."

Madeline smiled, tucking a stray strand of hair behind Fae's ear. "You should always feel like you have the ability to define yourself," she said, "and I don't feel like this is something I deserve thanks for, but you're welcome, Fae. I'm always here to support you."

"Not to disagree with my Domme or anything," Fae was testing the words out, and she found she very much liked the way they sounded, "but you do deserve some thanks. You're an amazing person, Miss, and I want you to know that I think so."

Madeline hadn't expected to hear the words my Domme from Fae's lips just yet, but god, did she love the sound of them. She could get used to that, for sure. "Well, thank you, Fae, for thinking so. I'm glad my submissive feels that way about me."

Fae processed the use of "my submissive" for a second, more than a little surprised at how good it felt. "She absolutely does, Miss, Very much so." There wasn't any doubt or hesitation in her voice, and she relaxed all the more against Madeline. "I'm really happy right now," she murmured.

"Me too," Madeline replied, unable to keep the smile off her face if she wanted to. Fae was hers. It wasn't in any sort of official, legal way, but they were going to try this, and she could think of nothing she wanted more in this moment.

Fae turned a little so that she could look up at Madeline. "Think we can head to bed and cuddle for a little, Miss? I can make us something to eat later - or order something, whatever you'd prefer. You might be better off getting something ordered in," she joked quietly.

Madeline chuckled and nodded. "Maybe we can get some cooking lessons together," she suggested. While she would prefer one of her subs to take care of cooking and cleaning, she didn't want to be helpless, either. She was a decent cook, but she could always learn more, and it sounded like something fun they could do together. "Let's go to bed and think about food later." She pushed the blanket off of them and stood up, holding a hand out to help Fae get up, too.

"I'd like that," Fae smiled. "I don't make any promises about how well I can learn, but I'll give it my best." Accepting Madeline's hand, she let herself be pulled from the couch and smiled at her Domme. "That sounds like a heck of a plan to me, Miss."

Once Fae was up, Madeline shifted her grip so that she could hold her sub's hand as they walked back to her bedroom. She thought about changing into pajamas but decided that she'd rather just stay dressed and cuddle sooner. She let go of Fae's hand long enough to climb under the covers, and she patted the bed next to her for Fae to get in, too.

Fae contentedly followed, giving their joined hands a squeeze. She wasn't sure why she felt a little tired, except maybe that the flood of happiness she'd felt had worn her system down. Fortunately they could just cuddle - there was nowhere to be and nothing they had to do, and she could just curl up contentedly in Madeline's arms. Smiling, she slid between the sheets and curled up, taking the little spoon position and sighing happily.

Once Fae was settled in front of her, Madeline settled the sheet and comforter down over her and scooted in behind her, her arm draping protectively over Fae's side. "Hi," she whispered into Fae's ear, and she let out a bit of an excited giggle at how good this felt. "Just close your eyes and rest a bit, if you can."

"Hi, Miss," Fae smiled. Her giggle made Fae's smile all the brighter, and she cuddled in just as close as she could. With an arm over her, she felt safe and warm and protected. "You too, if you can. I think we both need it."

Madeline hummed and pressed a kiss to Fae's neck, just behind her ear. "I'll do my best," she said softly. "It certainly helps knowing exactly what I'll be waking up to."

If she grinned any more widely it would be painful. "I know exactly what you mean, Miss. I promise you that." She couldn't wait to wake up beside Madeline, even if her adrenaline only let her have a few minutes.

"Good girl," Madeline said softly, and she kissed her neck one more time before closing her eyes. "Rest now, Fae."

Humming with pleasure, Fae let her face turn slightly into the pillow. "I'll see you soon, Miss," she murmured as she let herself start to drift

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Being Alone, Apparently, and Beautiful: BANKO Our sweet, bouncy action hero! "Please don't forget me, I'm still waiting!" :-( BEYOND CRITICAL 4/13/19 He’s brash, bold, big hearted and downright beautiful. BANKO is our ticket to love! A volunteer writes: “Banko is a pup who reminds me of an action hero. A bit brash and a bit bold, he is quick to rise to action, happy for a quick trip to the park. Striding at a steady pace, Banko turns on his investigative skills, sniffing here and there, yet still connected with you. Sitting at a park bench, he is quite respectful, leaning in every now and then for a good scratch. Banko might appear emotionally cool at times but whip out a treat and you've got his attention. He is also a smart pup who knows to sit for treats! What he needs now is a new family who'll keep working with him to be the best dog he can be. Could you be his hero?” This adorable youngster would love to have a family of his own. If you can give him a soft place to land, please MESSAGE our page or email us at [email protected] for assistance saving his life. BANKO, ID# 58120, 2 Yrs old, 47 lbs, Neutered Male Manhattan ACC, Large Mixed Breed, Gray / White Owner Surrender Reason: Shelter Assessment Rating: LEVEL 3 No children (under 13) Medical Behavior Rating: OWNER SURRENDER NOTES - BASIC INFORMATION: The Owner has had Banko for a little over a week. When owner leaves he'll put Banko in the crate. He is not housetrained - he will pee and poop around the house. Banko is said to have high energy. Bank previously lived with 2 adults. Around strangers Banko is very playful. He jumps on the stranger to sniff them. Banko is very playful around children. He will jump up on them as well. He will not try and play with their toys. Hes been around 5-10 year old children. Banko pulls leash when he sees other dogs, he barks when he sees other dogs. He also cries when he cannot play with them. When he is allowed to play with another dog he'll sniff. Hes only been observed around other big dogs. He does not show aggressive behave. Banko has not been around cats, so his behavior is unknown. Banko allows for food and treats to be taken away from him without reacting. He has no known bite history and is not housetrained, according to his previous owner. Banko´s energy level is described as high. Banko has never had a medical issue. His parent took him to the vet before, but the timeframe is unknown. For a New Family to Know: He cries when left alone or when not given attention. Banko enjoys chewing on big dog bones. Banko sleeps both on the sofa and in his cage. Banko is said to need alot of attention. INTAKE NOTES – DATE OF INTAKE, 25-Mar-2019: Banko allowed counselor to pet him and collar him. Banko sat still when offered a treat and food and was told to sit. Banko also jumped up on counselor when he thought she had more treats. Banko did not show any aggressive behavior. He was very playful during the interaction wagging his tail and running around the admissions room. Banko also stood by the door whining when his owner first left. SHELTER ASSESSMENT SUMMARIES - Date of assessment: 26-Mar-2019 Leash Walking Strength and pulling: Moderate Reactivity to humans: None Reactivity to dogs: None Leash walking comments: None Sociability Loose in room (15-20 seconds): Moderately social Call over: Approaches with coaxing Sociability comments: Body soft, explores room, checks in with assessor Handling Soft handling: Seeks contact Exuberant handling: Seeks contact Handling comments: Soft body, leans into pets Arousal Jog: Follows (loose) Arousal comments: None Knock: Approaches (loose) Knock Comments: None Toy: No response Toy comments: None PLAYGROUP NOTES - DOG TO DOG SUMMARIES: The previous owner of Banko reports that he would bark at them in a playful manner, but no further details. Due to limited observation, slow introductions are recommended to respectful dogs. 3/26: When introduced off leash to the female greeter dog, Banko initially allows polite greeting. When solicited with play, he runs away and offers correction. 4/10: Banko is muzzled due to growling at the introduction gate. He runs after the female greeter dog and sniffs her, does not pursue further. INTAKE BEHAVIOR - Date of intake: 25-Mar-2019 Summary: Playful, allowed handling MEDICAL BEHAVIOR - Date of initial: 25-Mar-2019 Summary: Playful, jumpy, attention seeking ENERGY LEVEL: Banko is described as having a high level of activity. We recommend long-lasting chews, food puzzles, and hide-and-seek games, in additional to physical exercise, to positively direct his energy and enthusiasm. IN SHELTER OBSERVATIONS: Banko has been highly social with human handlers while at the care center, approaching both known and novel handlers and consistently displaying loose wiggly body and wagging tail. At times he will jump up in a social manner and will need positive reinforcement training to help with this behavior. In addition Banko has been reported to leash bite with some handlers when being removed from kennel. We would recommend walking him with a toy if this behavior persists outside of the care center, as well as positive reinforcement training. BEHAVIOR DETERMINATION: Level 3 Behavior Asilomar TM - Treatable-Manageable Recommendations: No children (under 13) Recommendations comments: No children: Due to the high level of jumping and mouthing seen at the care center, we recommend a home without young children. Older children who are comfortable around large, jumpy dogs should have an in-depth interaction prior to adoption. Potential challenges: Basic manners/poor impulse control Social hyperarousal Mouthiness/poor bite inhibition On-leash reactivity/barrier frustration Leash-biting Potential challenges comments: On-leash reactivity/barrier frustration: Banko is reported to bark at dogs he is passing. Please see handout on On-leash reactivity/barrier frustration. Basic manners/poor impulse control: Banko is reported to jumps up on people. Please see handout on Basic Manners. Leash-biting: Banko has been reported to leash-bite when being walked by handlers at the care center. Please see handout on Leash Biting. Mouthiness/poor bite inhibition: Banko is mouthy at the care center, applying hard pressure. Please see handout on Mouthiness. Social hyperarousal: Banko becomes aroused around people, displaying mouthiness and jumping up hard. Please see handout on Arousal. MEDICAL EXAM NOTES 14-Apr-2019 Progress Exam. CIRDC resolved 11-Apr-2019 Progress Exam. Subjective Observations: Noted to have mucoid nasal discharge. P previously diagnosed and cleared of CIRDC and completes last day of abx today. Abx will be extended. EN -- eyes are clear. yellow crusting along the nares during rounds observation. Assessment: enrofloxacin 136mg tablet -- give 2 tablets PO q24h x 7 days, cerenia 60mg tablet -- give 0.5 tablet PO q24h x 4 days, 9-Apr-2019 Progress Exam. Subjective Observations: Day 10 CIRDC recheck. BAR in kennel. Standing at kennel front. EN -- eyes and nose are clear. no sneezing or coughing. eupneic. Assessment: CIRDC -- apparently resolved. Plan: move out of ISO 8-Apr-2019 Progress Exam. Hx: has had CIRDC like clinical signs BAR. EENT- nasal dc and congested. P) continue ISO 2-Apr-2019 Radiograph Review. Skull Radiograph Interpretation Approximately 7.3mm x 2.2mm, smooth, rounded protrusion of mineral opacity extending from the body of the right mandible. No lytic lesions are apparent within or near the protrusion on current radiographs. Small linear air opacities can be seen within the protrusion. Rule outs: Chronic, healed fracture vs craniomandibular osteopathy vs other 1-Apr-2019 Progress Exam. BAR in kennel. Mild to moderate nasal discharge bilateral. Actively sneezing. No coughing or ocular discharge. A:CIRDC (new). P:Move to iso. Enrofloxacin 136 mg tabs-1.5 tabs PO SID x 10 days Proviable 1 capsule PO SID x 7 days. Recheck in 7 days Good prognosis. 30-Mar-2019 Progress Exam. BATH GIVEN 3/30/19. 28-Mar-2019 Spay/Neuter Summary. Post Surgery Note: 10:23 AM Pre-surgical exam, anesthesia, and surgery performed by ASPCA. Green linear tattoo placed lateral to incision. start 1 tablet of carprofen 100 mg SID PO x2 days as post-op pain management. MANDIBLE BONY GROWTH (LOWER). BONY GROWTH ABOVE RIGHT EYE 25-Mar-2019 DVM Intake Exam. Estimated age:1-2y. Microchip noted on Intake? n. Microchip Number (If Applicable): n/a. History : owner surrender. Subjective: Observed Behavior -wags tail, seeks touch, playful/jumpy. Evidence of Cruelty seen -n. Evidence of Trauma seen -n. Objective: T = , P =60, R =wnl, BCS 5/9. EENT: Eyes clear, ears clean, no nasal or ocular discharge noted Oral Exam:clean adult teeth. PLN: No enlargements noted H/L: NSR, NMA, CRT < 2, Lungs clear, eupnic. ABD: Non painful, no masses palpated. U/G:2 testes. MSI: Ambulatory x 4, skin free of parasites, no masses noted, healthy hair coat. CNS: Mentation appropriate - no signs of neurologic abnormalities. Assessment: healthy. Prognosis: good. Plan:neuter. SURGERY: Okay for surgery * TO FOSTER OR ADOPT * If you would like to adopt a NYC ACC dog, and can get to the shelter in person to complete the adoption process, you can contact the shelter directly. We have provided the Brooklyn, Staten Island and Manhattan information below. Adoption hours at these facilities is Noon – 8:00 p.m. (6:30 on weekends) If you CANNOT get to the shelter in person and you want to FOSTER OR ADOPT a NYC ACC Dog, you can PRIVATE MESSAGE our Must Love Dogs page for assistance. PLEASE NOTE: You MUST live in NY, NJ, PA, CT, RI, DE, MD, MA, NH, VT, ME or Northern VA. You will need to fill out applications with a New Hope Rescue Partner to foster or adopt a NYC ACC dog. Transport is available if you live within the prescribed range of states. Shelter contact information: Phone number (212) 788-4000 Email [email protected] Shelter Addresses: Brooklyn Shelter: 2336 Linden Boulevard Brooklyn, NY 11208 Manhattan Shelter: 326 East 110 St. New York, NY 10029 Staten Island Shelter: 3139 Veterans Road West Staten Island, NY 10309 * NEW NYC ACC RATING SYSTEM * Level 1 Dogs with Level 1 determinations are suitable for the majority of homes. These dogs are not displaying concerning behaviors in shelter, and the owner surrender profile (where available) is positive. Some dogs with Level 1 determinations may still have potential challenges, but these are challenges that the behavior team believe can be handled by the majority of adopters. The potential challenges could include no young children, prefers to be the only dog, no dog parks, no cats, kennel presence, basic manners, low level fear and mild anxiety. Level 2 Dogs with Level 2 determinations will be suitable for adopters with some previous dog experience. They will have displayed behavior in the shelter (or have owner reported behavior) that requires some training, or is simply not suitable for an adopter with minimal experience. Dogs with a Level 2 determination may have multiple potential challenges and these may be presenting at differing levels of intensity, so careful consideration of the behavior notes will be required for counselling. Potential challenges at Level 2 include no young children, single pet home, resource guarding, on-leash reactivity, mouthiness, fear with potential for escalation, impulse control/arousal, anxiety and separation anxiety. Level 3 Dogs with Level 3 determinations will need to go to homes with experienced adopters, and the ACC strongly suggest that the adopter have prior experience with the challenges described and/or an understanding of the challenge and how to manage it safely in a home environment. In many cases, a trainer will be needed to manage and work on the behaviors safely in a home environment. It is likely that every dog with a Level 3 determination will have a behavior modification or training plan available to them from the behavior department that will go home with the adopters and be made available to the New Hope Partners for their fosters and adopters. Some of the challenges seen at Level 3 are also seen at Level 1 and Level 2, but when seen alongside a Level 3 determination can be assumed to be more severe. The potential challenges for Level 3 determinations include adult only home (no children under the age of 13), single pet home, resource guarding, on-leash reactivity with potential for redirection, mouthiness with pressure, potential escalation to threatening behavior, impulse control, arousal, anxiety, separation anxiety, bite history (human), bite history (dog) and bite history (other).

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