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200428 |  the waiting room feels cramped with thirteen again. jinwook camps out in the corner of the couch and lets the déjà vu simmer for a few minutes, unsure of whether it’s a positive or negative feeling. the noise is a comfort, definitely, keeping the room at a steady buzz and soothing his nerves for the complete group’s first day of promotions. the nostalgia.. not so much, because convex’s debut days marked the culmination of over a year’s worth of the lineup training together, and the past few months of tension haven’t completely measured up, no matter how much jinwook’s opened his heart to the new members. he’s always had trouble letting go, and with every step forward he still feels so fiercely tied to the past.

he relaxes the tight grip on his phone and smooths out his sweater. the pastel fabric for their b-side stage is soft beneath his palm, an easy complement to the ballad, and it grounds him. “is it weird?” jinwook asks, musing aloud to hoseok. he pauses and shakes his head, clarifying. “when you were working on smile flower, did you picture it on stage like this?” he doesn’t gesture but shifts his gaze across the waiting room, indicating the full lineup, and lets a small smile lift his lips. “i missed the noise, honestly, but i need to get used to it again.”

evening blues,

@rkzyx

as fun as filming love poten was and the promotions that subsequently followed-- woohyun is tired. and he's happy for  bit more freetime to focus on practicing and preparation when he's finally released from it. the episodes still release, and that's enough for him. he gets home a bit earlier now it feels like-- every moment counting to extra rest now that he isn't spending it catching up on keeping up with the constant movement that convex is on.

he rubs the side of his neck, lightly hitting at the base of his neck to work out the strain in it. he needs to spend a bit more time in the gym, a bit more time doing warmups. he's got to keep himself in tiptop shape as he ages, and the more they promote the harder it is. woohyun's determined to keep pushing forward, taking whatever cautions as necessary to ensure he's what sphere expects of him for convex. he shuffles his feet on the floor of the dorm, peering into the kitchen after dropping off his things.

"yixing-ah," he greets happily. his tone is still tinged with fatigue, but his smile is as bright as even. "ooh, late night snack? let hyung have some~" he says cutely, shuffling over.

Show Me

@rkzyx

It seemed like it was rarer and rarer for Seulgi to see the Convex boys in Sphere, so whenever she did, she always made sure to try and get in touch with them, especially any of them that she considers a friend.  Yixing was one of those, so when she spotted him in one of the studios, she didn’t hesitate to come inside the room and greet him with a big smile.

“Oppa! You’ve been avoiding me again, haven’t you?” she laughs a bit, coming further into the room.  “I knew once you were a big star and got your first win that you’d forget all about little old me!” she was just teasing him, of course, but it had been a while.  “What’re you working on?  Hmm? Any choreography you can share with a starving dancer?”

♕ ✦ —  misunderstanding.

@rkzyx

after watching a few of the competitive matches, he thinks that it may be time for him to head out and play his own video games within the comfort of his own home. not only does he not have to lose in front of all these people, he also doesn’t have to be crushed within the sheer amount of them either. he’s practically halfway out the door when the sudden urge of Just One Game overwhelms him, and he’s making a sharp turn toward the just dance booths to try his hand before he leaves, since he doesn’t have the game at home.

he’d thought all of his years dancing would prepare him for a game like this, but as soon as his turn comes up and the music starts playing, he quickly comes to realize that it’s hard having to dance along to choreographed music when he doesn’t know the moves, and the little markers at the bottom of the screen don’t seem to be helping very much. it’s a god damn mess, if he’s being honest, but he’s having fun at least, even if he’s just a bumbling mass of limbs moving on their own.

that is, until he swings his arms maybe too far, too hard, and suddenly he misses hitting someone with such a slim margin that he can practically feel them breathe on his hand as it swings past his face. the look of horror and disapproval from people around him has him turning to look at who it is, and as the wheels start turning in his head over why this guy looks so familiar, the look of anger on the face of the guy behind him makes everything click.

oh shit, he thinks. he’s one of those. an idol.

* far from home ,

@rkzyx

he glances at his watch, looking up and around him once he realizes he’s stayed at this tournament for far longer than he had ever intended, but these glowing screens keep calling out to him, begging him to play. he hadn’t realized how much he’d actually missed video games until he tried Just One Game several One Games ago, and as much as he wants to go home and get some rest before training again the next day, he knows this is the last time he’ll get to play again for a very long time.

he’s one his way to play the fifa game another time, but for once, there’s something calling his attention louder than the sound of automated rabid soccer fans. neither of them have their spiderman costumes on at the moment---chanyeol doesn’t even remember where he’d placed his---and it makes absolutely no sense for him to come up behind his friend doing that silly dance now of all times and places, but that doesn’t stop him from flailing his arms and legs around in a movement that’s all too familiar even though it’s been almost a whole year since then.

he waits a few moments to see if yixing will notice him without making a sound, then has his voice join in on all the nonsense. “is that a web shooter in your pocket or are you just happy to see me?”

ZHANG YIXING - CONVEX - GROUP PURCHASE

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PURCHASED ITEM: official fanclub SPECIFIED ROLE: fanservice CURRENT GROUP BANK TOTAL: 430 DBT COST: 50 DBT NEW GROUP BANK TOTAL: 380 DBT

* debut points deducted from the group bank ( ⬇︎ 50 ) Official Fandom name and more details will be a collaborative effort between the mod debut team and the muns of the idol group. Restriction: 1/1 purchase; can only be bought once.

think of me,

dated: may 15th, mbc show champion.           @rkzyx

halfway through the month, and it’s still surreal. vanessa is entirely at ease with her role as mona-- k.arma still going strong as they continue with promotions. it’s an exciting month, even if it’s tiring at times. vanessa finds herself more happy than anything else, enjoying the taste of debut and performing the most she can before promotions end. and since she’s been so happy, so pleased with how everything is going, it’s only a matter of time before things begin to take a turn.

it’s been a while since she’s dated. a very, very long time-- sunggyu seems miles away, and yixing even longer than that. so of course, when she’s stumbled across the male during passing out their debut album, she’s stunned to silence. realistically, she shouldn’t be surprised-- convex is promoting, and she did know he was a member (a leader too, just like her). 

vanessa isn’t sure at all why she is surprised-- doesn’t know if it’s actual shock or the knowledge of she doesn’t know how to talk to him anymore. back then, when she was free and careless it had been easy. now, with their breakup that had been solely on her, the fact he had dated jennie for so long (are they still dating? she can’t remember, so out of the loop she’s been)-- it’s awkward. it’s weird.

but still, she smiles-- and maybe it’s a bit fake, a bit strained. she greets with a hello, eyes trailing over his features carefully. yixing’s always been handsome, always been a sight for sore eyes. she can’t deny that. “hello sunbae! this is k.arma’s mona.” she bows, hands extending forward the news album. “please enjoy our debut album!” she lifts her head, and her smile softens a bit, twisted and crooked in a way that’s less mona and more vanessa. “sorry, still getting used to this. hope it’s not-- hope i’m not awkward.”

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byunnie_baek they’re going off ㅋㅎㅎㅎ #아주NICE

tagged, 　CONVEX_LAY @rkzyx, ymt95 @yienrk

event: practising ‘adore u’ choreo location: sphere building // practise room date: june 12th // 2:34pm

ten’s been wracking his brains for a day now, and he’s come up with nothing choreo-wise so far, and it’s starting to agitate him. this is his area. he’s a dancer, and he loves to choreograph things himself, so why is he finding it so hard to get something down for adore u? he knows the few seconds he needs to fill, but finding something to fit the start of it is difficult. 

at first, he wanted to work on it on his own, but now he’s beginning to think he’d have a better chance of coming up with something if he just worked with the other boys. surely if they all work together enough they can figure something out. he has a tiny idea here, a tiny idea there, but putting it all together and filling in the gaps - that’ll take outside help. 

he sits himself down, back against the mirror to take a break. tugging a water bottle out of his bag he takes a few gulps, then replaces it in his hands for a carton of chocolate milk. ripping the straw off the side, unwrapping it, and poking it into the foil-covered hole on top he wraps his lips round the straw and closes his eyes as he sucks. 

ah, chocolate.

he thinks over the past few months as he sits there, wondering what the fans are currently thinking of their songs, their performances, their vlives. he wonders what they think their personalities are like, and he wonders how many fans he himself has alone. recently he’d been pondering making a secret twitter account, and he’d long since stopped using his personal one. he just wanted to immerse himself in their fans world, and since he was able to speak multiple languages he could get a good insights into both korean fans opinions of them, as well as international fans. 

he’s not sure that he’d be allowed, though. so, he knows he’d have to keep it a heavily guarded secret. he already knows he’d pretend he was a simple taeyong fan from seoul, just like many other fans were. from his brief scrolls through some searches on twitter he’d already seen a lot of fansites opening for taeyong, as well as the other members of course, but he particularly liked looking at taeyong ones, seeing the pretty pictures people took of him. 

if he wasn’t in convex, he thinks he’d probably have become a taeyong fansite too, just to follow his best friend around and take pictures of him. he sort of already does that anyway, though most of his pictures stay tucked in a shoebox under his bed, or are given to yuta as presents. pretty polaroids of the sleeping kitten are his favourite. 

he watches kibum and yixing across the room, heads together as they work on the choreography together. smiling to himself he leans his head back, eyes closing to listen to adore u playing on the stereo in the corner of the room, on replay, so it sticks in their heads. 

ten thinks it might be one of his favourite songs they’ve made so far. 

so, he listens, and thinks of the existing choreo, hands moving on their own to subtly follow the moves in his head as he tries to think of something fitting to put in the few seconds the performance teams been given to fill. it’s going to be a lot of work, but together he knows they’ll come up with something - he has faith in his group. 

who are your biases from the recently debuted groups (luxe, convex, eclipse)?

“from luxe, well… xayah’s on another level,” rosie begins on a high note, genuine admiration in her voice. “she owns their concepts, she really knows how to play to her strengths, and she’s just so damn attractive—is it even possible to bias anyone else?” a soft, halfhearted chuckle passes her lips. “no, probably not. anyway… i haven’t really kept up with convex. i don’t mind them, they’re just… not really my style? i mean, i don’t love luxe, but i still try to keep up with them. if i had to choose, though, i’d probably have to say lay? i like him, even if the group isn’t my favorite. there’s something about the way he dances… i can’t explain it, but i can’t get enough of it. maybe he should consider going solo. xayah, too! i’d buy the hell out of those albums.” more laughter escapes her as she tries to narrow her choice to a single bias of eclipse, to little avail. “and for eclipse, i’d say it’s a tie between jennie and anna? they each have their own strengths, so… it’s kind of difficult to choose. i didn’t pay much attention to their debut, but the girls themselves are pretty cute, so… i’ll probably keep up with them in the future. i don’t know, i guess we’ll see!”

who is your spiderman halloween costume bias?

“can i choose myself? i think i was pretty original. just ignore the broccoli head’s opinion. a’ite, a’ite i guess yixing and chanyeol were pretty good too. chanyeol poked me with one of the spider legs though. that shit’s a little creepy.” 

- – — skydive

190110 |  06:49AM GMP ✈️ CJU

it’s hardly earlier than jinwook is accustomed to beginning his day. he’s never been a morning person, but they catch a nap in the van, and jinwook rubs sleep from his eyes in time to look presentable for the small scattering of fans who’ve caught wind of the idols’ schedules. jinwook doesn’t mind airports, either, not on principle. not the tedious lines or the uncomfortable chairs; he doesn’t mind the feeling of travel but yet... there’s something about boarding a plane that always makes him shiver as the boys shuffle through the gate.

he’s always preferred to ferry across the strait. ocean travel is something familiar. the cadence of the waves and scent of the sea breeze have been ingrained in jinwook since he was a child. it’s nothing like the suffocating, breathless confinement of an airplane. jinwook closes his eyes as soon as he finds his seat and turns his music up, wishing he were there instead.

he knows there’s nothing to worry about. logic doesn’t cut it though, especially in this pre-dawn haze. and really, jinwook doesn’t like to pretend. he doesn’t cover it up; it’s just never come up with these boys, and he doesn’t have some insecurity complex about it but still — still, out of everyone, he’s relieved to have yixing by his side.

he tugs down the window shade, mumbling something about the sunrise hurting his eyes. it’s easy, to rest his head on yixing’s shoulder. his sweatshirt is fresh and oversized, the hood large enough to shield part of his face. it’s cozier like this, and no one can see the tension in jinwook’s jaw when the engines start to rev for takeoff.

they’ll be in the air any minute now. his stomach twists with the thought. quietly, jinwook turns his hand palm-up on the armrest, and seeks out yixing’s fingers to fill the spaces between them.

out of place,

@rklandon

woohyun will admit that it feels nice to be promoting again. after the few months with schedules after schedules during comeback preparations, he's happy to be promoting on music shows. it feels much easier than everything else, a break of his own in a way. it does feel a bit weird-- to be thirteen again after so long, but it's a good sort of weird. a hopeful one. they’ve already received a relatively positive response with the trailers revealing their new lineup, so maybe it’s a good sign. he hopes it is. 

woohyun’s eyes stare at the performance blankly, lost in his thoughts; he absentmindedly hums along with the song that the group is performing-- another promoting artist at show champion's broadcast that he's heard of before. "i'm happy we're promoting again." he says after the bout of silence. blinking, he chuckles to himself-- turning to hoseok next to him with a small smile. "it feels..." he trails off after a moment, teeth worrying on his lip. "...different. after so long." he says quietly.  

Get Out More

@rkzyx

“Let’s get out of here.”

She really isn’t sure what she was planning with making this statement, but it was after their scheduled time to be in the Sphere building (or at least her’s, she wasn’t sure of the idol’s schedules), so technically she was free to go, even if it was expected that she stay later.  Either way, she was tired of being there, which seemed to be a common occurrence lately. As long as it was somewhere other than where they were now, tha was what was important to her, she didn’t care what they did.

“C’mon, go get a disguise or mask or something and let’s go do something.  Do you do stuff for Christmas?  We could go shopping for gifts or go get some food somewhere that you won’t be seen or... I don’t know... I just... I need to get out of here before I go crazy,” she laughed, tugging on Yixing’s sleeve.  “Oppaaaa~  Entertain Seulgiiiii~” she tried hard not to laugh more with using aegyo on him like that, but she couldn’t help but do it a little bit.

which convex member do you think is the hottest?

    “sehun by default. he’s a limp noodle as he says he is.” she laughs softly, making a small smile. “ but even though he’s an ex, he’s still pretty hot in my book.”

“not yixing oppa either. maybe.”

who's your convex bias?

“this one’s easy. it’s yixing gege,” he says, making his voice obnoxiously, cloyingly sweet. “he’s a great leader and, ugh, have you seen him dance?” he fans himself, bursting into laughter soon after. “and yien? so chic.” his demeanor changes, becoming a bit more somber. “it used to be romeo, too, but...” he purses his lips, releasing a popping sound as he parts them. “sphere did him fucking dirty.”