December 1st I had my beautiful second baby, my daughter via VBAC. It was everything i dreamed of and im beyond grateful to have the two most beautiful children in the world ❤️
I turned 30 last Tuesday, my sweet bubs turned 3 on Thursday and i'm 35 weeks pregnant today with my daughter who has decided for herself when she'd like to be here as my i'm 1 cm dilated. granted it doesn't mean she will be here any time soon, but with how well i labored with my son i wouldn't be surprised if i don't have much time left lol
was really hoping to make it to december, but idk if that will happen. we shall see!
Went with the baby daddy to a hospital taking me on because of my LADA issues and got my 20 week scan! 🥰💕 baby girl is perfect and couldnt stop wiggling the whole time lmao, and my placenta is in the back which explains why i can feel her so much more than i could with my son, since my placenta with him was in the front.
I’ve started to come to terms with my break up, though the hard part is the fact i dont know how ill ever feel as safe with anyone as i did him. He always treated me so well and encouraged me to do things i loved. But i know thing will get better, and we’re still best friends which helps.
I just want both of us and especially my babies to be happy at the end of the day ❤️
One of my biggest fears when i start dating again as a single mom of two kids is how can i ever trust another man or woman with my kids? My childrens father is amazing, truly the best human as well as the best father and i can’t imagine trusting anyone else with them. Ugh.
I’m still pregnant, so of course i wont be dating any time soon…but it’s still a fear i have.