Random musings and interests of the day of a chronically out of spoons person.
Likely posted at insomnia o'clock. High chance of nonsense, slaphappy humour and distractabili— Oooh shiny!
I wanted to make a flower-based April writing prompt challenge, so I did.
Flower meanings are sourced from this book on flower meanings
PROMPT LIST
1: Daisy: Innocence
2: Lilac: First Love/Reminiscence
3: Violet: Modesty
4: Anemone: Forsaken Love
5: Oleander: Caution
6: Honeysuckle: Devotion
7: Poppy: Eternal Sleep
8: Laurel: Glory/Victory/Success
9: Orchid: Elegance/Beauty
10: Petunia: Anger/Resentment
11: Iris: Valour
12: Heather: Luck/Protection
13: Fern: Magic/Secrecy
14: Oak: Bravery
15: Tulip: Love Declaration
16: Magnolia: Dignity
17: Pansy: You Occupy My Thoughts
18: Lavender: Distrust
19: Mistletoe: Surmounting Difficulties
20: Queen Anne's Lace: Sanctuary
21: Protea: Transformation
22: Myrtle: Love
23: Hyacinth: Please Forgive Me
24: Nettle: Cruelty
25: Hemlock: Death
26: Dandelion: Divination/Fortune-Telling
27: Mint: Consolation
28: Jasmine: Amiability/Cheerfulness
29: Rue: Regret
30: Lily of the Valley: Return of Happiness
ALTERNATIVE PROMPTS
Bouquet 1: Apology
Hyacinth: Forgiveness
Bluebell: Humility
Peony: Bashfulness
Olive Branch: Asking for Peace
Bouquet 2: Courting
Blush Roses: Blossoming Romance
Cornflower: Hope in Love
Sweet William: Gallantry
Honeysuckle: Devoted Affection
Bouquet 3: Marriage
Roses: True Love
Ivy: Fidelity
Myrtle: Hope/Love
Dahlia: Commitment/Eternal Love
Bouquet 4: Bitter Ends
Datura: Deceitful Charms
Tansy: Hostility
Thistle: Misanthropy
Wormwood: Bitterness
Bouquet 5: Regret & Sorrow
Asphodel: Regrets to the Grave
Azalea: Fragility
Snowdrop: Consolation/Hope
Rue: Regret
Willow: Mourning
The only 'rule' is to please have fun. You may tag "flowersofapril2024," if you'd like, and I'll reblog anything I see. If you feel like filling these prompts on AO3 then "Flowers of April" or "Flowers of April 2024" would be a suitable tag.
Just still recovering from surgery and going from one exhausting hyper fixation rabbit hole to the next.
Figuring out PC parts and what to buy not easy.
Neither is setting fire to a former key part of your life that decided continuing to cause harm is better actually than admitting they did wrong and make changes.
I'm tired, but life keeps happening.
So yeah. Not dead, don't worry. But also, someone send help. Or at least a box full of spoons. I'm going to need them.
So Prismo got recast in the Fionna and Cake show cuz Kumail Nanjiani's agents didn't let him know the crew was trying to get him back to reprise the role
we should globally ban the introduction of more powerful computer hardware for 10-20 years, not as an AI safety thing (though we could frame it as that), but to force programmers to optimize their shit better
So much of your blog is "Yaya another thing in my body broke (kill me)"
I'm not judging at all, cause I'm also dealing with that somewhat but,
In the most polite manner possible;
How the fuck do you manage to function without killing everyone around you in a bodily pain induced rage.
Body hurts too much.
But in all seriousness, therapy and a whole lot of radical acceptance.
I don't approve or like what’s happening to me, but realistically, there is no way to avoid it, so I either have to accept it and make changes to my life or reject it and increase my suffering.
It might take me a while to process this change and there might be a few screaming breakdowns in the interim (”it's not fair, it's not fair, it's not fair!”) but after a long time of doing this type of therapy, I’ve gotten good at holding my own hand and holding myself through the despair.
It’s a bit like being my own gentle parent. Like “hey bud, I know this sucks and you’re feeling a lot of big emotions right now. And I’m not asking you to stop feeling them, but I do need you to eat and drink before you get sick, okay? Okay, you’ve had some water, do you want to try for a shower? No? Okay, let’s go back to bed for a bit. We’ll try later... Cry it out if you need to. I’ve got you.”
Probably sounds bonkers to some people but it's the only reason I’m still alive.
My support network is wonderful and they do so much to keep me going, but it wasn't until I allowed myself to feel my emotions and self soothe through them that things got better.
I can’t change what has been done to me. I can’t change the dynamic nature of my disabilities or the fact that parts of my body will continue to break down. But I can accept myself and say, this is the way things are: react accordingly for our continued survival.
Radical acceptance isn’t about approval or giving up. It's a stress tolerance skill that lets you look at some of the worst parts of your life and go “fuck this sucks. Okay, how do I make this suck less?” and then following through on it.
It's a skill that takes a long time to build. But it's well worth investing in.