Happy holidays, from the remnants of the year of 2020.

This is the face I managed to conjure up for this day, and it felt great! (yes it's a happy face!)

I wish I could summarize the past year and a half I haven't been posting, like anything at all, in a few words, but the world has been kind of busy and so have I.

Post-op now since 2017, which makes me both 34 years oldand 3, and 5,if I count the timeline of hrt... Ok, fine, not perhaps the soundest logic going on, but hey, I'm an artist!

I have a few things more about transitions and life that I would like to get off my chest, so consider this a light comeback.

I really hope you are doing well, quarantined, safe and keeping a light in your heart for yourself.

Yes, I give positive crystals now.

💖

Here's the second presentation, a piece I call Pray.

Also...

The reason this tumblr has been so vacuous the last couple of months, is that I've been fighting depression (which periodically has been reoccurring since I was fourteen, but never given any kisses). So two and half months ago I got started on anti-depressants, and with combined therapy, I feel my life's been saved. But, will write more about that later.

I hope you all are taking care of yourselves.

Kisses in billions 💋

Pray

Soon coming back with some content, in the meantime I present to you some art I made (posted on my art-tumblr) 💋🖤 Follow if you like, very appreciated

The Heart Escapes

Hello, it is me, Ms Moon (and Beyond), and I'm here to tell you - IT PREMIERED! The date was the 26th pf June, in the year of our lordess 2018. It shone through on all television sets here in Sweden and bewitched the nation.

What, you ask?

Well, my first feature, of course, which you can watch from wherever in the world, albeit it currently only has subtitles in Swedish!!! But for the version we'll be sending to film festivals there will be english captions available. In time.

This summer has, except for that, been pretty shit. I've been drowning my sorrows in work, and after this week I'll finally have some time off to... Paint! And write again! Oh, I also finished my second book, so awaiting the judgment of editors, please send me a prayer please. And a kiss!!

Since fall is finally here, I'll have the energy to keep updating this tumblr more, although I'm thinking about trying to make a bideo or two instead. Seems appropriate, considering one of my vocations.

I'll post the link to the film here, if you're interested in watching, if nothing else, some pretty pictures!!

Currently sitting on the bus, so soon I'll arrive in Mordor again to fight off the nastiness of the days and/or Sauron.

Hope you're all doing well, keep the lights burning

❤️

This is the link to the movie:

https://www.svtplay.se/video/18441410/moving-sweden-nikita-forever

Cute outfits for the wicked. Dot com dot com.

Soooo, guess what? There’s a premiere date for the movie now, and it’s the 26th of June, in this year of our lord, 2018. On swedish public television, also known as SVT. Am I nervous? Yes. Yes I am. A bit. But mostly excited.

I mean we’ve only been working on it for the last four years *hysterical giggle* so no biggie!

When it goes to festivals, which will be later on, I’ll be sure to post about it as soon as.

Now: dilation!

Also, to people responding: a thousand kisses, and your support is always locked and loved inside a special chamber in my heart.

Also, yes, japanese is a hard language to learn. There’s a very steep curve in the beginning, and the first year is best spent on grammar and kanji. Then! Then a few ten years will have passed and suddenly you sit there reading poetry, that you bought in Muji in Tokyo, by Shigesato Itoi, and all that time spent cry-writing short essays in japanese about euthanasia and forced retirement for politicians will totally have been worth it. Throw in some Parasyte and Boku dake ga inai machi or nostalgic Bishoujo senshi Sailor Moon and you will explode out of joy! (if people want to know more about, I don’t know, japanese learning or something, please, let me know!)

… Im gonna go now.

Tata!

❤️

Hello, world! It's me, Princess Long Time No See-chan. Currently in Japan, and more specifically in Tokyo. Been here for about two weeks tomorrow. Visiting old places and new places, I used to live here a million years ago. Finally bought Mishima's debut book, "Confessions of a mask" or 仮面の告白, in Japanese. Can't waaaait to read it! Currently reading his sort of novella 憂国 and it's very... Emotional, in a stringent way ending with romantic double suicide. The film is about done soon, it will air in the summer, though I'm not sure exactly when. Will announce as soon as we get a timetable. Otherwise, dilating, living, writing, the usual. My boobs have gone back to their regular size, which makes me happy happy happy, and dilating feels much much easier now. No. Regrets. Only. Joy. I feel liberated. And Hiroshima was beautiful, mon amour. Sending you all of my love. Kisses Cuddles Xoxo ❤️

A movie i co-directed and wrote!!!! Hello (^,^)/ fellow, transgirl here!

It’s called “Nikita Forever”, and that’s all I’m going to tell for now. Starmachine shall take over.

It will premiere in the summer, and will air on SVT (swedish public television) for all to consume.

<3

m/f ships that involve trans people or poc are more revolutionary and important than you fucking assholes give them credit for

Hello, people of Earth, in the year of our lord, Samus Aran btw, 2018!

I have healed some, and still am recovering, and today I went for some yummy blood tests for my doctor’s appointment next week. I started my estrogen injections again about three and a half weeks ago, and am now feeling like myself again.

The picture is me, after eating a banana, after twelve hours of fasting, as per the hospitals instructions. Don’t I look like a blessed saint? Lol.

First month of post-op was rough. Ooh, boi! And dilating is a strange carnal adventure. I stopped taking opiates about a week after getting home, and now am able to manage any residual pain with paracetamol and ibuprofen. Every experience, both good and bad, is a part of this now whole being that is me. I have cried alot, the first time I saw my vagina, in the shower, sometimes almost just sitting in a chair. So much happiness in all of this.

Now entering month 3, and can now wear my beloved tight jeans again, and just that makes me tear up all over (;_:)

Xoxo

Happy New Year,

Love,

Lions,

Lemonade

💖💋

Heellooooo! It's me! Post-op Princessé! Dear lord, so many feelings. For one, I don't think I've ever cried this much from happiness (also in this picture) in my entire life. I tried to tell the nurses during recovery yesterday, mine is going really well, thank fairies and divinie godmother's of all, and just burst like a bubble. The pain is not as I excepted, and if I do feel something, I can self-administer morphine in low controlled doses. I'm finally whole. It feels so right. I think I'm gonna cry again, so this will have to do. Love and kisses all around! Ps. It also happens to be my birthday today, so Happy Birthday Me!!! I get to be my own cake 🎉❤️😘

In one week I’ll be admitted to the hospital, and during the next they’ll perform the surgery. It just took about four years to get to this place. Dear lord, this journey, or whatever you want to call it, has really been life changing. From a shell to an actual person. Right now I’m entertaining my estrogen depraved brain, since you have to stop all hormone therapy three weeks prior to srs, with haikus. I once lived in Japan, and keep the language alive inside me by reading (and listening to amateur radio). This one is a classic, by some old man called Matsuo Bashô. It could be translated: “An old lake A jumping frog Sound in water”

This is what I want to share.

Hope you all have a splendid day/evening/night/morning ❤️

Xoxo

Got a phone call this week from a nurse working in the Gender Reassignment Surgery-part of the hospital, and obviously me moving has kept my place in the queue for the procedure - and I'm really high up! So, in hopefully half a year I'll be in Vajayjay Land 😙😙😙💖❤️💖💝🎊🎉🎆🎇 Goodbye Tranny Chasers!!!

And now starring, in Gorgeous Black and White of Top Class Swimmingpool Quality - moi.

During this summer, I’ve managed to get sick, write a new novel (awaiting my editor’s verdict with electric anticipation) and most bitterly translate a boring japanese article about the discovery of a Vietnamese coin, from the 13th century. Apparently, a samurai put it in a very nice box, and buried it (together with other coins for use in trade with the Chinese) under a stone, during the Muromachi period.

And that’s all from me.

Xoxo

WE'VE FINISHED SHOOTING THE MOVIE!!! Congratulations me! The world! And everybody else! So weird to think about these past weeks, and how we actually made something. I can now call myself Director of le Cinema, and anticipate a year of post-production. Then it will be shown on Swedish tv (we owe them at least one screening, considering they gave us half our financial support. Thank you!), and then screened at film festivals ALL AROUND THE WORLD... If everything goes according to plan. Love and sunshine to you all! ❤️

Hello, it’s me, Miss Derp-a-tron! 😂🍰🌸

So this week I'm celebrating two years on estrogen 😘

Todays mode.

And now, dear people, me and my marvelous jawline will announce that IN A MONTH WE BEGIN SHOOTING OUR FILM!!! Thank you Swedish Film Institute (Svenska Filminstitutet) for giving us this opportunity. And yes, winter prevails in the midst of spring here in Sweden. Take care, everybody, be arty farty! ❤️