I didn’t have a normal teenage experience, and all I want is to give it another shot!! BUT ALL OF MY FRIENDS LIVE IN ANOTHER STATE :( sigh. I hope 18 will bring me in-state/online friends
SOOO yk how shart's gay ass fangirled over Karlach bc "she looks like she could carry her to safety". What if in Waukeen's Rest, when the party all went into the burning mansion to save Counsellor Florrick, Shadowheart got like. idk burned/hurt or whatever, and her wounds were too much to bear and saw it as an opportunity to be carried by The Tiefling Ever???? But forgot that bitch can NOT touch her in Act 1, bc of the like. idk. carbon dioxide and her fatal pansexuality
how would taht go. bc I genuinely think that she would either
Subtly say she's unable to continue getting out of the mansion
or be helped against her will bc Karlach wanted to be the knight in shining armor (hung around Wyll too much). SUBSEQUENTLY bringing Shadowheart to like. 1 HP bc of the fire damage
I dunno, I just love when characters try to be suave and fail miserably. It is CRUCIAL in every story (fact)
Maybe it’s the neurodivergance in me, but I’m SOSOSOSOOSSOOOOO naïve. Like, I’ll be scrolling through Instagram comments (my own fault really, holy HELL), and I’ll be hit with wave after wave of hate!! Usually on LGBTQ+ folks. And I’ll read them up and be like “fuck, am I really that bad? Am I really some kinda monster in the eyes of these people?”.
Maybe it’s also because they always use god as an excuse in their arguments, and with growing up in an EXTREMELY orthodox household, that fear of god still lingers. Which I think a lot of LGBTQ+ people can relate to
ANYWAYS!! SORRY FOR RAMBLINF! Here’s the point: I somehow I always doubt myself before anyone else, and it’s SUCH A CHORE to get over . Especially being anti-authority/punk and all. Does anyone else have this problem??? I don’t wanna fake it ‘till I make it anymore
Your "non-confrontational" choices not to communicate hurt the people you don't confront btw. You're not a martyr for keeping everything inside and then running away when other people don't know what's going on with you. You just decided avoiding rejection and sparing your own feelings was easier than being honest and giving them the agency to respond and make their own decisions. You chose to hurt them so they didn't hurt you. You think your feelings are realer and more important than their own care and love for you. You were always just waiting for a sign to run.
"If they cared about me they would have–" did you tell them that? Did you let them know how you feel? How much importance you place on those requirements they don't know they have to meet? This secret criteria and secret signs for your secret feelings? Or are you making them play a game they don't know even exists?
Your choice not to communicate isn't cute. You didn't run because they didn't feel the same for you. You ran so you wouldn't have to risk rejection. You chose to prioritise your own self-protection over their trust in and love for you. At least own that.
Nothing makes me madder than seeing reels/YT videos/whatever that say "TikTok made me buy it!!" and it's the biggest piece of landfill you'll ever see. Convenience products are only a convenience when you remember to use them, are durable, and save you TIME. Do you genuinely think that a ROLLING GARLIC CHOPPER that is $13 worth of plastic is going to benefit you, in those aspects? And from Amazon, no less? Stop letting major corporations and influencers sell you products that 'eliminate' minor inconveniences, you are ONLY a number to them.
The pathway of playing a character of the opposite gender in RPGs and later identifying as non-binary IRL is SOO real and explains SOOOO much. Because why was I so giddy to walk around like a copy pasted Justin Bieber on Movie Star Planet.... AT 8???
Got some hand-me-downs from my mom! Aren’t they AWESOME!!!!! I’m beyond stoked, and I love the lacing.
Sorry for lack of posting, been kinda meh recently.I got a shit ton of soda cans from a party my family hosted, so I’ll do an update on how I upcycle those! (Check my reblogs on here, there’s a super cool post on turning them into studs!)
That’s your spacekid123 update! Hhheeeellllooooo December! :D
Do you think Jay and Tim hung out off camera,,? Or were their conversations STRICTLY abt the tapes/the operator ?? Because I can totally see them, in the hotel room, just by each other to pass the time and forget abt their shitty situation
Like they’ll just be sitting on their beds: Tim’s smoking by the window, Jay’s … staring at the ceiling. And he just starts talking outta NO WHERE.
like. It scares Tim
Jay: “Humans are 1000x more sensitive to the smell of petrichor than sharks are to blood.”
Tim: “…….okay?”
it either stops right there or sparks banter. NO in between