good morning cruel world

do you ever just want to shout like… it’s because i’m sad! like yes i didn’t do my homework, yes i didn’t text you back, yes i’ve been hiding in my room! i’m sorry! but i haven’t killed myself so honestly where is my badge!

psa re: trans men

i dont often get super wordy on this blog but

can i just like

go off for a sec about how frustrating it is that most of the discussions around transgender folks revolve around trans women but you hardly ever hear anything about trans men?? like outside of a few hyper-masc-presenting-buff-conventionally-attractive trans dudes you hardly hear ever about the dangers we face or the struggles we have to endure. matter of fact, 9 times out of 10 the only time i ever hear about trans men is post-op trans men–us dudes with all our ASAB parts still intact get swept right under the rug. and heaven help you if you’re a trans dude who still appreciates femininity in fashion or hair or any level of your presentation. nobody’s pulling for trans men, as a matter of fact hardly anyone is acknowledging us at all outside of to sexually harass us and call us tomboys or “little girl playing dressup” (actual thing that was said to me by a gay cis friend of 8 years because i posted something about catcalling being a fucked up thing to do???)

i’m not trying to put down trans women or act like they don’t have it just as hard/worse, but like…think about it. of the trans people in the public eye, the majority (if not all???) are trans women. if people are interested in transgender people at all, it’s usually trans women. if people discuss bathroom issues, the threats centering around trans women are talked about more so than the threats trans men face. like, im a fairly andro guy and i get harassed in bathrooms quite often, i get catcalled, i get horribly dehumanizing shit thrown in my face on the regular. and that’s not to say trans women don’t and the issues facing trans women shouldn’t be talked about (THEY ABSOLUTELY SHOULD. PROTECT OUR TRANS LADIES), but trans men get…a pretty shitty end of the deal when it comes to being represented or even acknowledged in any discussion about transness. hell, i see more stuff about nonbinary/GNC folks than i ever see about trans men.

as a trans man, i feel unsafe engaging in drag. i feel like if i don’t wear my hair short and get swole that nobody will find me “acceptably” attractive. i’m scared to do any type of sexy work (not that its my first choice but money is money and sexy can be fun) or post any images of my pre-op body even though i think it’s just fine. i still look over my shoulder when walking down the street, i have to time my bathroom trips in public restrooms so that when i go in, even into the stall, nobody can be around to tell that i’m sitting down and peeing because i fear the other dudes may harm me. i feel ignored, not handsome, not important. less worthy of concern and representation and kindness because i’m not mtf. i feel alone, even though i know other trans men. 

in my years and years on the internet, i’ve seen maybe five posts TOTAL that hold any positivity for trans men–and this includes tumblr, one of the self-proclaimed most trans-friendly spaces on the net. i’ve seen many posts that discuss transgender issues, but only account for how they affect mtfs rather than ftms and completely ignore us (and i’ve felt afraid to comment on this several times for fear of being called out for being a Shitty Male Making It All About Me™).

this has to change. it’s time to stop ignoring trans men. it’s time to stop excluding non-passing, non-gender-conforming, pre-op, androgynous, small-bodied, etc trans men. it’s time to include trans men in the discussions about transness.

this is not a “i am uncomfortable when we are not about me” post. this is an “i am uncomfortable when the discussions and publicity and posts surrounding gender identity focus on trans women and nonbinary individuals but completely disregard trans men” post. so anyways for all my fellow trans dudes out there: stay strong, my man. i know we’re kind of swept under the rug, especially those of us who don’t look like Buck Angel, or still enjoy traditionally feminine things (because lets face it our bodies may change but we may still have interests in traditionally feminine things and that’s okay!). if nobody’s told you this today: you’re worthy. you’re important. you’re handsome and powerful and a king and you should own every inch of that. you are valid and you are loved. keep your head high and your spirit strong. to all my fellow lgbtqa community who’ve been silent about trans dudes: wyd?????????

tldr; trans guys deserve better and some of us are sick of being completely ignored. we out here

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if you tell a trans man they have a high pitched voice or tell them they look like a girl please stay as far away from me as humanly possible thanks

I’m a man. When I was born my grandfather congratulated my dad for having a son, and thanked my mother for giving my father a son. I got my grandfather’s name. When I was a child, I could play with LEGO, because “Lego is a boy thing” and that helped my creativity. My ability to solve problems was stimulated. I got HotWheels car-washes and gas stations. I also got a box of plastic tools, to assemble and disassemble toy cars and trucks. That also stimulated my creativity and developed my logic capability, which is good for every child. In my school day, the girls wore skirts and my friends lifted their skirts. It was a mess, So they were forbidden to wear skirts. I never saw a boy actually get punished for it though, after all “Boys are just like that. Took after his father this menace” - is what I usually heard At home, with my family, I liked to play house with a younger cousin. We were around eight. I was the dad, she was the mom and the dolls were our children. While playing, when i carried the dolls in my arms my mother would get mad: “Let go of that doll boy, that’s a girl thing”. And my little cousin’s father, when he saw us playing, wouldn’t let her do it either. He said boys play with boys and girls play with girls because “boys are very stupid, and worse, very forward”. I did not consider myself stupid, and did not understand what he meant by “forward”, but I still did as I was told At Christmas, my sister got a Barbie and I got a beyblade. She cried a bit because my toy was much cooler than hers, but every year my mother made the same mistake, and got her a doll, a toy stove, a toy fridge, a blender, everything pink, once mom got her an iron When I turned 15 and started dating, my father bought me some condoms During my teenage years, no one criticized me for kissing lots of girls. Nowadays, that still stands. My father does not get mad at me when I don’t come home for the night, He does not say I need to be a “family boy”. He never slapped me in the face for thinking I’d spent the night at a motel. No one lectures me saying I need to be reserved and play hard to get. No one judges me when I want to be with a girl and take initiative No one cares about my clothes; no one says I have to preserve myself. No one says I have to preserve myself because “women only think about sex” No one think my girlfriends were only with me for sex. No one thinks that, when I have sex, that I’m submitting to the wishes of my partner No one demonizes my orgasms. I was never judged for carrying condoms in my backpack or in my wallet I never had to hide my condoms from my parents. I was never told to marry a virgin because I was a man I was never told that “men have to value themselves” or that I had to “give myself the respect”. Apparently, my gender already makes me worthy of respect. When I go out into the streets no one tells me I’m “delicious” No unknown woman shouts “smoking hot” my way I can walk down the streets having an ice cream cone at ease, because I know I won’t hear things like “drop that and come suck me”. I can even walk down the streets eating a banana I never had to cross a street, even though it was out of my way, to avoid a group of women in a bar, who will probably catcall me when I pass, embarrassing me I never had to walk in sweatpants, because my shorts leave my legs exposed, and that could be dangerous I never heard someone say I was “shameless” because I went out without a shirt No one regulates my work out clothes No one cares about my clothes period. I was never followed by a woman in a car when I was walking back home I can catch a crowded subway everyday and surely no woman will rub against me, to record it and throw it on some porn website No one ever had to create a subway wagon that was “just for men” I never heard of someone of my gender being raped by a crowd I can get on a bus by myself in the middle of the night When I’m not carrying anything valuable, I no longer feel threatened, because I don’t fear getting raped at any moment, at every corner. That risk does not exist in the minds of the people of my gender. When I go out at night I can wear whatever clothes I want. If I suffer any kind of violence, no one blames me for being drunk, or for wearing certain clothes If, one day, I was raped, no one would say it was my fault; that I was somewhere inadequate, that I had on a revealing outfit No one would try to justify the rape based on my behavior I would be treated as a VICTIM and that would be it. No one thinks I’m vulgar because when it’s cold, my nipples show through my shirt When I have sex with a woman on the first date I practically get a standing ovation. No one calls me a “tramp”, or “easy” or a “whore” because I have casual sex sometimes 99% of porn websites are made to please me and men in general No one is shocked when I say I watch porn No one judges me if I say I love sex No one cares if I read erotic literature No one is surprised to hear I masturbate No mother-in-law will tell her daughter not to marry me because I’m not a virgin No one criticizes me for investing in my career When I have the same job position as a woman, my salary is never inferior to hers If I am promoted, no one says it’s because I slept with my boss. People believe in my merit If I have to travel for work and leave my kids with their mother for a few days no one calls me irresponsible No one finds it strange that, at thirty years old, I still don’t have kids No one guesses my sexual orientation based on the length of my hair When my hair starts to grey, people will find it sexy, not think I’m letting go of myself Society does not see my virginity as a prize 90% of military services are destined to people of my gender, even the higher jobs, in which the official only deals with paperwork and management If I go out with a certain outfit no one says I’m “asking for it” If I’m at club and a woman performs oral sex on me, I’m not the “whore” or the “tramp”, she is. If a video of me having sex with a woman gets leaked, no one will call me names, criticize me, stone me. I won’t be the “disgusting little bitch” I won’t be “trash” or “used” or “cheap”. I’d just be the man, fulfilling my alpha guy position in society. If I lead a promiscuous lifestyle and then fall in love with just one woman, people think its beautiful. No one judges me based on my past. No one says it’s disgusting if I don’t shave myself No one would judge me for being a single dad. On the contrary, I’d be seen as a hero. I’ll never be stopped from occupying a higher position in the Catholic Church for being a man I was never beaten up for being a man I was never obligated to do housework for being a man I never had the obligation to learn how to cook for being a man No one tells me my place is in the kitchen for being a man No one says I can’t curse for being a man No one says I can’t drink for being a man No one stares at my plate if I put a lot of food in it No one justifies my foul mood by blaming it on hormones No one has ever made jokes that undermined my intelligence for being a man When I sometimes mess up in traffic no one says “It had to be a man” When I’m polite to a woman she doesn’t automatically assume I’m hitting on her The term “tramp stamp” did not come into existence because men were seen as cheap No one treats my body as just a tool for giving pleasure to the opposite sex No one thinks I’ll have to be submissive to a future wife I was never judged for drinking beer at table in which I was the only man I’m never the target audience for house cleaning products ads I’m the target audience for beer ads No one’s ever asked me if my girlfriend lets me cut my hair. I cut it when I want to and people understand that. There isn’t haze at USP (a university) that promotes my humiliation and objectification Society doesn’t split my gender in “to marry” and “to whore” When I say “no” no one thinks I’m just playing hard to get. No is no. I don’t have to dress a certain way to avoid having women falling into temptation People of my gender were not raped each 40 minutes in São Paulo last year People of my gender don’t get raped every 12 seconds in Brazil People of my gender didn’t get raped by a crowd during protests in Egypt I’m not a man. But if you are, it’s fundamental to admit that society AS A WHOLE needs feminism Don’t underestimate suffering that you don’t understand.

(via thegirlthatcriedwolf)

im still counting on one last wave of puberty to come really late and make me hot

the handsome boy..

The kettle is hot

people who should get to wear dresses:

everybody

people who should get to wear suits:

everybody

people who should get to wear anything they want rlly:

everybody

people who should get to wear full suits of armour and befriend a fucking dragon:

everybody

trans girls are super cute

chubby trans girls are super cute

skinny trans girls are super cute

broad-shouldered trans girls are super cute

tall, gangly trans girls are super cute

short, chubby trans girls are super cute

muscly trans girls are super cute

trans girls with uneven bodies are super cute

trans girls who like masculine things are super cute

trans girls with facial hair are super cute

trans girls who supposedly dont “pass” are super cute

trans girls with stretch marks are super cute

trans girls with scars are super cute

trans girls with short hair are super cute

trans girls with long hair are super cute

trans girls who dont have clear skin are super cute

trans WOC are super cute

straight trans girls are super cute

gay trans girls are super cute

bi trans girls are super cute

pan trans girls are super cute

aro trans girls are super cute

ace trans girls are super cute

trans girls of all orientations are super cute

trans girls who dont want surgery are super cute

trans girls who do want surgery are super cute

disabled trans girls are super cute

nonbinary trans girls are super cute

neurodivergent trans girls are super cute

trans girls who are questioning, dysphoric, non-dysphoric, arent out yet, dont have a ‘feminine’ voice, are struggling with being proud of their identitiy, and everything else are super cute and super valid

ur tummies are super cute. ur hair is super cute. ur leggies are super cute. ur everything is super cute and oh my god youre so pretty i love you and i support u all <3 

all the trans peoples r cute as heck, but this post is for the super cute trans girls out there (hint: thats all of u. all of u r cute). u all rock. go out there and be ur super super cute selves.

Baseline for weekly progress videos,

Haven't posted in awhile but kinda big day... Starting testosterone shots today. Heading to see a nurse for injection training at 10 this morning! Did I mention I'm afraid of needles?