It’s lookin like it will definitely be a thick boy summer! Decided I am going to continue the bulk through summer 😤😛

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Life goals.

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I did a two for one video of some working out today. Enjoy!

It’s amazing what you can do when you finally get all your tools and supplies in one place. I’ve got my main backpack with tools and supplies, one cinch bag with all snacks. Another cinch bag with quick dinners and dishes. I’ve extra strength protein synthesis tailored to my needs.

I’ve got different flavors of the same meals prepped, plus the extra benefit of snacking tofu leftover, which I was told a wonderful hack to make it more like the consistency of chicken.

I got a shelf of salves and healing items.

What a system, I even had time to put up a few decor pieces.

Finally had time to science a drink in the blender to gain weight and have a little fun with the process.

Yo, find what truly makes you tick, even if you have to break you’re spirit down to the very core to find your your life goal and purpose. I’ve got a lot of shit I’ve never worked through in my life and 2023 is the year of the White Tiger[zord], baby. Up making changes. Get connected to your spirit. I’ve finally found my sensai’s data that’s been scattered. I am April O’niel, Channel Six news. If she can make a comeback and fight with the turtles. So can I.

A workout doesn’t have to suck. Practice your craft. Focus on you. Pull up your diaper, and be the best damn Barney you can be. I am going to walk the path my Sensai has set before me. It truly was the journey you need to find your discovery. Find your pieces. Become whole. It’s you defending you, so find your good company when shit hits the fan.

The unfunny aftermath from the insane calorie day from yesterday but I suffered through a lot of pain and understand now that yes. This is what I want to do with my life. Eat big. Eat Healthy. Train like a Ninja. Cuz after that insane bowel movement, I feel like my body can handle anything now. However, during the actual moment in question, stomach was extremely sour (but completely empty!!) and so I’m struggling there, trying not to throw up from that while sitting in the bathroom for what felt like a half hour. But, I made it through it, despite Kat [Dennings] not coming in to be my pooping support buddy like she usual does. But all that uncomfortable pain I put myself through, I now have a better understanding on how hard this will actually be, but I’m up for the challenge. All the stretching and squats and screwing around with my ninja weapons will be worth it, worth it. I feel really good, but I still hate eating, so I’ll have to watch more Erik the Electric videos, cuz I want to bring that level of energy to the table. Gonna be a long ride, and gonna need a lot more antacids and support and a lot of lightheartedness ti get us through the fact training doesn’t have to suck. It can be fun.

I have been going on an very intense journey of self discovery much like the Native Americans this weekend to figure out what makes me tick and I’ve been very sleep deprived and crying and doing extremely intense thinking about what I want out of my life. Here’s a random highlight of the wild places my brain and body have been taking me. I’m forcing myself tj be sleep deprived and I made a lot of high calorie healthy smoothies and forcing as many calories in me to destroy this idea that I can’t be healthy, limber and fat at the same time because you’re going to get fat training for muscle, and not worry if I am looking fat or not. Just train my body and mind I’m segments like the Ninja Turtles. But it’s been rough and I’ve broken down and cried so many times and found ways to keep going and make plans and pushing past this stupid mental barrier. I want to live up to that message my shirt. I don’t want to be trapped by any limits anymore. I want to be a damsel in success, like Princess Peach. I can feel all the physical changes I’m making. With being able to get food down so I wanted to take this weekend to explore and unpack a lot of stuff and just keep forcing and pushing my stomachs limits while seeing how I get inspired and get a drive and it really has helped so far and one of my biggest fears is that old adage that being fat isn’t healthy. But it is. And if you’re going. To train your body for muscle, you’re going to get fat. So I need to shatter that mental block that it’s bad and just worry about how I feel mentally and physically and not worry about the look and go for the physical strength I need and discipline my insides. So I’ve made it my goal to gain some fat quick to tell myself it’s okay. I am still working on the calories in the list and there will be more tomorrow and I’ve been stretching and doing squats and light workouts this whole time. So I’m doing it as healthily has possible. Like I need to do this and train like this for my own good and health. So I started at 250.8 just a few days ago and working very hard to work on loving my body and getting used to gaining weight and it’s been extremely hard work feeling bloated all the time and like you’re unattractive, but you’re actually not. You’re beautiful and healthy because you know what you’re putting into your body to train and become stronger and need to do this and gain weight as part of my training.

I want to live like a true member of the Hamato clan and someone that would make Jason David Frank proud. My life has been pretty shitty but I’m glad I’m still here. I want to expand on my tattoos as I’m training my body and mind to be a better person. Ive already somewhat started and I was getting a better aspect when I was psychoanalyzing character development in TMNT 3: Turtles in Time movie for hours and I have a raw video of the whole Snapchat story of my day I can upload somewhere that’s 8 minutes long. But yeah here’s the last bit as a taste of what I was doing and having fun with it.

I’m starting with Michelangelo qualities of maturing and taking in more responsibilities but still having time for fun and nunchuck practice. Plus I want to still be quick, limber and lithe and quick with a joke, so he’s always been my favorite and relate to him a lot in his different iterations.

I’ve been practicing changing different positions with them stretching and feels really good to do good fluid movement stretching and then gets your arms tired from pulling so hard in different positions.

But my next is Raphael to work on slowing down and taking time to relax and not be so quick to anger and deal with my body issues because Raphael’s pure essence is generally fueled by hate, rage, sarcasm, and those things suck for mental health sometimes. Just like Sensei says, “Anger clouds the mind and when turned inward becomes and unconquerable enemy.” So I’ve got great insight for my Michelangelo discipline, and now need that work towards my Raphael discipline this year with getting in touch with my body now that I’ve gotten in tune with my spirit. Much of Raphael’s fighting style isn’t about using his weapons, but more the way he moves his body and uses the environment. This body phase is definitely the toughest and roughest challenge yet to overcome.

I have had an extremely intense past 24 hours with food consumption, body image, determination to change and test the human body’s limitations on how much a human can consume and gain weight in a matter of days and now here i am with a funnel and 8000 Cals of somewhat healthy breakfast smoothies . The only thing that makes them unhealthily caloric is there’s 5000 Cals of cream of coconut and the rest is coconut milk, fruits and flax seed. Let’s push the limits of our body and mind and find out who we are and what we can become.

All these late night capacity training and eating has been paying off. I woke up feeling. Extremely wide, stomach and bowels empty and as I can feel all this extra adipose tissue forming rapidly around my frame after just a week of retraining… I’ve never been more comfortable and determined to bulk up now that I know I can get into the groove and make some real changes. Time to up my game, and try to make it a gallon of my smoothie a day challenge. One of my smoothies is already like 2800 Cals per 64oz serving. I feel like an attainable goal is to do a gallon of the smoothie a day.

Oh geez. I think I’m about to get really fat really fast now that I’ve tested my stomach capacity. It can hold that entire 64oz bottle comfortably.

At least downing homemade smoothies is getting a little easier and that whole carton was approximately 2800 Cals itself. That 285 goal is looking closer already.

So this has been a fun day and I opened up about my struggles with weight gain to my best Digi-Bro straight civilian friend that I’ve known since college and just are real with each other all the time. And we had such Fire conversations earlier when telling him for the first time about my weight gaining endeavor. He had the best reaction, then offered up my perspective from what I’ve experienced if there was anything in there that could help out. So, just remember you never know where you’ll find support if you don’t open up to others and possibly be able to offer up some sort of insight. This is how you make personal growth, folks.

Now, to set up the context of the conversation, I sent him a Snapchat that said something along the lines of “Sweet Jeebus, give me the strength to expel the demons I’ve willingly let inside of me so I can do it all again today.” And my context purely meant I ate a ton of food yesterday and couldn’t start eating today until yesterdays waste was processed (I’m sure there’s another connection there you can equate to mental garbage as well so that’s why I sent it as cryptic as I did), and his reactions were beautiful.

Gaining weight is rough and anyone that tells you it’s easy clearly doesn’t understand having to constantly put something in your mouth and your insides feel stretched out constantly and have to fight past all those feeling of extreme bloat to make some physical and visible changes. You’re eating like it’s a chore, not because it’s fun anymore. So, give some support to a gainer in your life cuz this is the real truth about gaining. Cuz I’m out here struggling to obtain my life goal but no one ever talks about how hard it is. It’s all just the gains.

This has been a fun morning for social media content creation. Plus motivator to workout my arms a little bit and show my playful side.

It sure feels good to eat again.

Just a quick reminder post that I’m still alive and been sick lately.