Hosted by du0tine: 21 WAYS TO KILL YOUR LOVER!
โณ pairing: jungwoo x reader (Release: 02/14)
โค 18+ warnings/tw: major character death, mentions of blood, usage of knives, stalking, curse words, vomiting, extremely explicit sexual context, and choking; disclaimer: this is not a romance. for more disclaimers and info look under the collab guidelines.
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Jungwoo.
When was the first time you came to terms with his existence? You canโt put your finger on what it was like before Jungwoo. How did you sleep? How did you eat? How did you go about your daily life without having him in your company?
He seemed to be the only person that ever cared for you. That will ever care for you truly. Heโs always there for you, even without asking or without speaking a word he knows exactly what youโre thinking. โYouโve read my mind once again.โ You would tell him in bed late at night when he holds you. He was perfect. โIโm the only one who knows you inside and out.โ He would give a chuckle back to you, full of confidence. You loved his confidence. He acted like he knew everything. Maybe he did know everything. He is the best boyfriend ever.
What was it like to be alone? In your life there was only one person left for you. What was the matter with you? See! Jungwoo is the only one who really accepted you. You canโt imagine a life without him anymore. A life without him is no life at all. With him you are living your best life. Jungwoo is your best life.
He was there. Forever. Always. He breathed down your neck, watching you close. Whether or not you wanted him to be next to you at that moment. Whether or not you wanted space or privacy. He was always there. But there's no problem with that. No. No, you didnโt mind. You didnโt mind at all, no. He was just being a clingy boyfriend. A lot of people have clingy boyfriends. Yeah, it was for the best he was there. Always there.
Jungwoo was the best, and he didn't give you an opportunity to doubt it until the end.
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an i love you so much ๐ฅบ i miss you ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
jo*breathes heavily and stares* ๐ง๐ปโโ๏ธ๐ง๐ปโโ๏ธ๐ง๐ปโโ๏ธ i TOO love you so much and miss you ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ซ๐ซ๐ซ๐ซ๐ซ๐ซ๐ซ๐ซ๐ซ๐ซ๐ซ๐ซ๐ซ๐ซ๐ซ๐ซ
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omg its been so long,, i've honestly missed you so much. i hope things are going well, or atleast better because thats still improvement !! pls take care of yourself :(( drink, eat and stay happy lov ! we all care for you so much so do what you feel seems right, if quiting tumblr is what you feel seems right then by all means do so :( its ur acc, ur life !! possible is there anyway others can still keel it touch w/ u? if not thats totally okay and i'll say my farewells n goodbyes <3 - n
it has been long hasn't it :(( ik you are anon right now but n i've missed you a lot too. i miss a lot of things in general hahaha :(( i hope you are doing the same and keeping yourself occupied with things that make you happy and healthy !! yes there is!! you can contact me via discord or kakaotalk (discord preferably) (just ask me privately hehe) it would be too sad to say goodbye forever <3
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hii your valentines day text thing w jaehyun was sooo cute
ahhhhhh im glad u found it cute :)))
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(I'm sorry I saw your update after sending my first ask, so please know that I don't intend to pressure you in anyway, and don't feel like you might need to answer those asks they're for you not for me ! And, well, I wish you even better than a good day. I've been in that place too. Hopefully it will get better. I send you my love)
ahhh my last update was a bit ahhh but really no problem! it was a very kind ask! thank you so much <3 sending my love back
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good evening !! I just read your two mark pieces and I love how you characterize him ??? And how both involve earbuds ๐ I think they're both very romantic, with a love that is deeply felt and carried but they remain light to read and you can feel a sort of free spirit from mark and the mc but also an acknowledgement of their commitment in both ?? I don't know maybe I'm going too far but all in all a very pleasant read ! Thank you for sharing it โจโฅ๐ I wish you a good day ! (or night) take care ๐
nonono you're not going too far at all! wow that really means a lot how much you've enjoyed it and have analyzed their characters! thank you and take care <3
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I miss you a lot and hope you're okay :( you're always in my thoughts and you're always my number one thot too. stay safe baby ily <3
hehehehe <3
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(ur desktop theme is so cute pls) omg idk why i didn't check out ur account before even tho u've interacted w me (this is mjlkau's main hihi) i hope u are doing well : D i am now happy we're moots! <3
:)) thank youu <3
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As someone whoโs attempted to take their life before you canโt really say that youโre being frank and mention that you tried to die. I think that despite what youโve been through you should be mindful with how you word your sentences.
Thank you for holding me accountable and I 100% agree with you. I should have been more mindful with my words and I will take it into consideration for further posts and happenings. Hope you are doing well whomever you may be.
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also i don't gotta answer that that ask was just for you to read whenever you're ready, i need to go fly off and water some sunflowers now anyway so don't worry abt me :)) - fairy anon
thank you fairy anon for always being so kind to me even though i really don't think i deserve it haha! i really hope you're taking care of yourself and i hope we could still keep in touch somehow! you always use the right words my love
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are you thinking about quitting tumblr? youโre never here anymore :(
:( yeah i've been thinking about it for awhile but i just decided i won't be as active anymore. (more details in my pinned!)
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I'm not as good with words as you are. I wish i could describe how amazing your writings are. They're so cute and captivating and oh my. I hope that you're doing well! Keep uo the good work :) โก
your words are very sweet thank you! i hope you are doing well as well!
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update :0 ???
Hey! Hey! Hey!
Itโs been awhile, hope this finds you at your maximum swag. This is going to be quite a long post talking about a lot of things so skip to the tldrย or the italics if youโre just casually scrolling!
tw: self harm
Firstly, I apologize for my last updateโs usage of words and for not putting a trigger warning prior to being told to do so. I take full accountability for being reckless and mentioning self harm so casually like it is nothing. It is very much something and a serious topic that I should not have brought up in general for this blog. I will now be having more boundaries between this blog and my personal life. I will no longer be mentioning what I am going through publicly after this post other thanย โfor personal reasonsโ when time comes around.ย Thank you to those of you who messaged me calling me out for it, I appreciate it and will now remember how powerful words can be and how they can influence anyoneโs actions offline and on. I also apologize for leaving without a word again. I cannot promise anything, is what I have come to conclude. I have not opened tumblr in about three months, so I have not checked direct messages on this website. To all my moots I have not said hello or checked up on in awhile, I hope you are all well and if you want to stay in contact letโs exchange discords or kkt!
Secondly, what will happen to this blog? I honestly have no idea. Although I said I was not quitting in my last update, I havenโt been in the best headspace to write for a long time. In fact I have no idea whatโs happening in the kpop or nct community or with nct in general. Iโve been taking a long time to figure out whatโs wrong and why I feel the way I do. What makes me happy? How can I fix my relationships? What are my priorities? Those types of questions have been filling my head and I have yet to come to a conclusion. I have slowly become more reclusive and avoidant of everything and by making this post, I feel like Iโm at least taking a step forward and confronting this hobby and community I have seem to lost touch with. Again, I have no idea whatโs going on with NCT and with kpop in general, all Iโve been doing is eat, sleep, and work on assignments.(But then again isnโt that everyone? We are all trying to survive.)ย
However I can do one thing: that I will finish any collabs I have signed up for and the ring ring rejection series. Thatโs the least I can do. I will also be responding to direct messages and asks. I will try my best to get back in the groove since I have finished my first semester of college and have a couple of days to myself.ย
On another note, I will no longer be taking part in tag games. Thank you if you have ever tagged me in a game, a fic rec, a follow forever, and all that good stuff. I very much appreciate it and itย made my day every single time but I would just feel terrible for not being able to give you the same energy back since I am not going to be very active on tumblr anymore in general.ย
I may occasionally post from time to time afterwards but I think itโs best for me and for those of you still reading to not have any expectations. There are so many other great, better, and consistent writers who need the love and the reblogs.ย
To all the hate sent to my inbox: I am not a pushover and I will stand up for myself when needed. That was unnecessary and you couldโve directed that anger towards something else productive. I am literally just an nctzen who just so happens to write fanfiction yo.ย
What Iโve come to realize is that you never truly know what people are going through at all. Whatโs behind the screens or what their situation is may be something only they know and only they can figure out. Be kind to yourself and be kind to others please. (This does not mean not having boundaries. Being kind to yourself also means knowing where to draw the line.)
To all the love sent to my inbox: Thank you for having me in your thoughts. I missed you too and I am ashamed to come back this way but I think putting it off wouldโve made it worse. I hope you are safe and happy or getting there. Stay healthy my loves.
tldr; I am back and will finish unfinished business but please do not have any expectations. I have not checked tumblr at all for the past few months and will probably not be that active in general. Thank you for being patient and I apologize for being so reckless in my last post.ย
update (02/14) : after i finish all my collabs i'm going to be quiting tumblr
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HENDERY BIRTH. w(โoโ)w
[11:02 am]
โShow me your palms.โ
Hendery had taken your extended hand out of bed and dragged you down to the floor. The sun was particularly happy today; penetrating through the pane of your window and directly onto the carpet of your bedroom. The warmth of his hand and the light causes your eyes to open fully.ย
He brings a piece of paper that had been lounging around closer to you, his hand never losing its grip around yours.ย
โWhatโs the paper for?โย
โYouโll see~โ he smiles at you and reveals a pink felt tip marker under his leg, pulling the cap off with his teeth with a pop sound before writing both of your names on the paper. His face lights up, not only from the sunlight but with whatever he was excited to do. He finally places the palm of your hand on top of the paper and bends down to get closer to the ground. His soft chuckles here and there make you smile subconsciously as you watch him trace your fingers one by one. With your other hand, you hold back the hair that had fallen in front of his eyes. Lifting your hand off the paper, he replaces it with his own and traces overtop of yours.ย
He presents the finished product to you. โNow weโll always be holding hands.โ The gesture is small, but thereโs an unexplainable comfort you wish you could hold onto forever.
โLetโs hang it on the fridge.โ This time, you take his hand in yours.
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FUCK YEAH BABY
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โคท ๐ง๐๐ฐ ๐ฆ๐๐ฆ๐๐๐ซ๐ฌ ๐๐ง๐ง๐จ๐ฎ๐ง๐๐๐ฆ๐๐ง๐ญ!
๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฎ๐ง๐๐จ๐ซ๐ญ๐ฎ๐ง๐๐ญ๐ฎ๐ฌ ๐ง๐๐ญ๐ฐ๐จ๐ซ๐ค ๐ฐ๐จ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ ๐ฉ๐ซ๐จ๐ฎ๐๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ค๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฉ๐ซ๐๐ฌ๐๐ง๐ญ ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐๐ข๐ซ๐ฌ๐ญ ๐๐๐ญ๐๐ก ๐จ๐ ๐๐๐ซ๐๐๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ฌ๐๐ฅ๐๐๐ญ๐๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ฆ๐๐๐ซ๐ฌ!
โคทย ๐ก๐๐ซ๐ ๐๐ญ ๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐โข ๐ฐ๐ ๐๐ซ๐ ๐ฉ๐ซ๐จ๐ฎ๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ฆ๐๐ฆ๐๐๐ซ๐ฌ ๐๐ง๐ ๐๐ซ๐ ๐๐ฑ๐๐ข๐ญ๐๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ก๐๐ฏ๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐จ๐ง ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ญ๐๐๐ฆ. ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ญ๐๐ฅ๐๐ง๐ญ๐ฌ ๐๐ง๐ ๐ฐ๐ซ๐ข๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ก๐๐ฏ๐ ๐ ๐ซ๐๐๐ญ๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐๐ฉ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฅ๐๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๐ฌ ๐๐ง๐ ๐ฐ๐ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐จ๐ซ๐ค ๐ก๐๐ซ๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฆ๐๐ค๐ ๐ฌ๐ฎ๐ซ๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐๐๐๐จ๐ซ๐ญ๐ฌ ๐๐ซ๐ ๐ฉ๐ซ๐๐ฌ๐๐ง๐ญ๐๐ ๐ข๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฎ๐ญ๐ฆ๐จ๐ฌ๐ญ ๐ช๐ฎ๐๐ฅ๐ข๐ญ๐ฒ. ๐ฐ๐โ๐ซ๐ ๐๐๐ญ๐๐ซ๐ฆ๐ข๐ง๐๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฐ๐จ๐ซ๐ค ๐๐ฅ๐จ๐ง๐ ๐ฌ๐ข๐๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฌ๐๐ ๐ฐ๐ก๐๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ก๐๐ฏ๐ ๐ข๐ง ๐ฌ๐ญ๐จ๐ซ๐ ๐๐จ๐ซ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ฎ๐ญ๐ฎ๐ซ๐! ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ญ๐๐ฅ๐๐ง๐ญ๐ฌ ๐๐ง๐ ๐ฉ๐ซ๐๐ฌ๐๐ง๐๐ ๐ข๐ฌ ๐ ๐ซ๐๐๐ญ๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐๐ฉ๐ฉ๐ซ๐๐๐ข๐๐ญ๐๐ ๐จ๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ฌ ๐ง๐๐ญ๐ฐ๐จ๐ซ๐ค!
๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฌ๐๐๐จ๐ง๐ ๐๐๐ญ๐๐ก ๐จ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ฉ๐ญ๐๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ฆ๐๐๐ซ๐ฌ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐๐ ๐ซ๐๐ฅ๐๐๐ฌ๐๐ ๐ฌ๐จ๐จ๐ง! ๐๐ฉ๐ฉ๐ฅ๐ข๐๐๐ญ๐ข๐จ๐ง๐ฌ ๐๐ซ๐ ๐๐ฅ๐ฐ๐๐ฒ๐ฌ ๐จ๐ฉ๐๐ง!ย
โคทย ๐ฉ๐ฅ๐๐๐ฌ๐ ๐ซ๐๐๐๐ซ ๐ญ๐จ ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐๐ข๐จ ๐๐ง๐ ๐๐ฅ๐ข๐๐ค, โ๐๐ง๐ญ๐๐ซโ ๐ข๐ง ๐จ๐ซ๐๐๐ซ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ซ๐๐๐๐ก ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ฐ๐๐๐ฌ๐ข๐ญ๐.
๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ฉ๐ฉ๐ฅ๐ข๐๐๐ญ๐ข๐จ๐ง ๐๐ข๐ฅ๐ ๐ข๐ฌ ๐จ๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ซ๐, ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฆ๐๐ฒ ๐๐ฅ๐ฌ๐จ ๐๐ฅ๐ข๐๐ค ๐ก๐๐ซ๐.
๐๐ฎ๐ซ๐ซ๐๐ง๐ญ ๐๐๐๐๐ฉ๐ญ๐๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ฆ๐๐๐ซ๐ฌ ๐ก๐๐ฏ๐ ๐๐ฅ๐ซ๐๐๐๐ฒ ๐ซ๐๐๐๐ข๐ฏ๐๐ ๐๐ง ๐๐๐๐๐ฉ๐ญ๐๐ง๐๐ ๐ฅ๐๐ญ๐ญ๐๐ซ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ญ๐ก ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ซ๐๐ช๐ฎ๐ข๐ซ๐๐ ๐ข๐ง๐๐จ๐ซ๐ฆ๐๐ญ๐ข๐จ๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ฒ'๐ซ๐ ๐ง๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ญ๐ฎ๐ซ๐ง ๐ข๐ง, ๐ฉ๐ฅ๐๐๐ฌ๐ ๐ฌ๐๐ง๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐จ๐ฌ๐ ๐ข๐ง ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฌ๐จ๐ฅ๐๐ง๐ ๐ ๐ฐ๐ก๐๐ง๐๐ฏ๐๐ซ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐๐๐ง ๐๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ค๐ข๐ง๐๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ค๐๐๐ฉ ๐ข๐ญ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ฉ๐๐ซ๐ข๐จ๐.
โคทย ๐ฐ๐ข๐ญ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ ๐๐ฎ๐ซ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ซ ๐๐๐จ! ๐ฉ๐ฅ๐๐๐ฌ๐ ๐ซ๐๐๐ ๐ฎ๐ง๐๐๐ซ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฌ๐๐ ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ง๐๐ฐ ๐ฆ๐๐ฆ๐๐๐ซ๐ฌ!
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:( i miss doyoung wtf
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