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My TLT nails! This is my first time using gel. I did the Roman numeral IX with a sewing pin.

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Think about Harrow's AU Bubbles

Thinking about Harrow's AU bubbles, not as fanfic references, but as expressions of her subconscious fears and desires, is so fascinating.

The Harrow Nova one is pretty obvious. Harrow's parents were obsessed with her being a necromancer, were willing to kill for it. It's only natural she'd wonder, "What if I hadn't been?"

And the answer Harrow gives herself is: Your parents and everyone would reject you (except, wildly, for Crux). Also they'd be alive cuz you'd never opened the tomb, and you'd be an unpopular orphan they'd abuse (Just Like Gideon). And you'd still be just as devoted to serving the Ninth with a blade. There's a lot there. But the other really telling bit is her relationship with Gideon. Harrow Nova professes to hate the reverend daughter even as she seeks to (re) create the necro-cav bond with her. But that hatred doesn't seem to be mutual. And the bit about the daughter intervening when Harrow was whipped…

That's Harrow's subconscious saying if their roles had been reversed, "Gideon would have treated me better than I treated her. Gideon would have protected me."

The Ball AU also seems like a reasonable extension of Gideon's childhood query: "What if my other parent is the most important guy in the universe?" Answer: Emperor Dad would throw a big party.

But also… it's a bride-finding ball! That's so very telling. It could have been anything, but Harrow invents another scenario where she's fighting, competing to get to Gideon, to be awarded the role of her sworn partner (first cav, now bride), while outwardly claiming not to want it.

Now The BARI Star AU often gets described as a "coffee shop" one, but it's actually set in a cohort cafeteria. And normally I wouldn't split hairs over that, but I think the cohort setting is actually really significant. The Cohort was Gideon's dream, and also Harrow's rival for Gideon's attention. It's what she kept trying to leave Harrow for.

So now Harrow dreams that she's left Drearburh to join the cohort and will meet Gideon there. Not fight or compete for a role where they're bound to each other, but just meet her there. That feels like yielding. Like compromise. It makes me think Harrow's subconscious has matured past trying to keep Gideon with her always and is instead looking for ways that SHE can be with Gideon. Meet Gideon where she is.

(Also this may be a stretch, but I always find it low-key funny that Harrow imagines Gideon in the cafeteria… I like to think her brain is skimming lists of hypothetical military jobs like... what sees the least action... ah, coffee-adept, she'll be perfectly safe there...)

Don't tell Harrowhark what to do. She's the Reverend Daughter.

‘Circuit Board Fossil Series’ (2012) Art: Peter McFarlane

This is a vintage Mattel dollhouse toilet. I put a Tootsie roll in it 15 years ago, and now it looks like a hoarder's toilet that hasn't been flushed in 15 years.

Me Fr 😔💔

fucking crying.

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Lol I figure we can start off 2017 with a toe update. For those of you who are unfamiliar with ~the toe, yes, this is a real human toe. I have it switched over into fresh preservation solution and a temporary jar while I wait for @jonblowsglass to make a smaller, pendant sized jar! Finally you can get a good, clear look at it without that old plastic medical specimen jar! So super excited to make progress on this project! Big thanks to the lovely royallyoily for trusting me with her body parts hehe 😜

April 3rd, 2024

I added some spinach to a frozen pizza.

Deviled eggs were invented by the devil. Why do so many people eat them on Easter?