fyi the point of fucking up your data patterns isnt to avoid suspicion. it’s to make EVERYONE suspicious. same logic as the bloc, pals. protect your comrades, be suspicious. ESPECIALLY if you aren’t doing anything likely to get you arrested.
2018: my favourite productivity apps, blogs and podcasts
I came across a lot of these through other people's recommendations and I figured I should do one too! So here are some of the things that helped me keep going on -
Podcasts
Happier with Gretchen Rubin - Very small, doable and realistic "happiness hacks" and tips, and no boring, grand speeches about being "successful", just little tips on how to be happier. Do take the Four Tendencies quiz if you can or check out her book "Better than Before."
Personal Best - While the tips might not necessarily be doable for all, it really does bring home the reality of real people trying to change persistent habits. At least you will know there are others like you :D
How to Fail - Important stories that not only assure you many have failed, but also that there is always a way to bounce back.
Blogs
Zenhabits - Listen, I know everyone knows about this but Leo really knows how to calm down and connect with yourself.
James Clear - His book came out this year too but I would definitely recommend going through some of his articles about habits for someone trying to make their new year resolutions last.
Gretchen Rubin - I mentioned her podcast before but subscribe to her daily quotes newsletter where she sends out insightful quotes daily, some thing I as a quote collector, really appreciate.
Anna Akana - Okay not like a 'blog' blog but a YouTuber but this was definitely a very inspiring video, as well as this.
YogabyAdriene - Free yoga videos on YouTube that help you relax, work up sweat and loosen up. So glad I found this.
Apps
Forest - Hands down my favourite pomodoro all. You definitely don't want to kill the trees. Really helped me focus.
Night Shift - Made a huge difference, refused the strain on my eyes.
AppBlock - Did my personal Digital Detox with the help of this app. If you don't trust yourself, either lock your profile or turn on the Strict Mode.
Castbox - All my favourite podcasts are here for free! A gift.
Calm - I really got into meditation this year and both Calm and InsightTimer were incredibly helpful.
And these are all I can think of rn! Do add if you can think of any :)
seriously. it's the one thing that helped me get out of my latest rut and also helped me in actually figuring out how much time I was wasting. having set goals and tasks written down in a diary helped me push and not waste time on my phone. having a habit tracker not only reminds me to do stuff but also makes me reluctant to break the chain. it helps, it really does
here is something that I learned to be proud of recently - when I am in a slump or a rut or a really bad phase, I struggle. I read articles about what I can do to do and feel better, I try to wake up early, I try to get proper sleep, I eat what I really want to and it might not work instantaneously, but goddammit I struggle and I try to do my best to get out of my slump. So if you have tried sitting down to study even though nothing got through your head, and you tried to exercise even if you gave up in the middle, be proud that at least you still have the strength left to fight back
reminder that it isn't necessary that things you work on for too long will always come out good. sometimes it's a losing battle and it's okay to quit. and sometimes things you do in a short time come out great because you have nurtured the habit of doing it for a long time :)
I have come to realize slowly - there is no clean slate. there is no steady graph for progress. you try to change, study more and then one day you wake up late again. but that's the good thing I guess, that nothing really is constant - not your good habits or the bad ones. so the next day you wake up early and go back to doing it all over again.
“I might be having some difficulty understanding this subject, but i’m going to be patient, get some clarity on what I’m confused by and I’m going to learn this. After I understand it, I’ll be able to help folks that had the same struggles as me.”
how to recover from days you feel like you can't do anything
I recently had a bout of unproductivity after a good run of being productive. I wanted to sleep all day and would have, if not for my mom, didn't want to do anything, be it waking up, exercise, skin care routine, even the things I liked, and just gave up on studying. here are a few major things that helped me get back on track.
rest. give yourself a break - finally understood the importance of all those self care posts that talk about taking rest! I struggled initially but then I gave myself a deadline. I gave myself till the end of the week to recover, rest, get proper sleep, study only as much as I could (even if it was just half an hour) and honestly, I felt reenergized by the end of it. After a while waking up didn't feel that hard. I accepted that my body needed time and was careful not to beat myself up about it.
do a little but don't do nothing - I had to push myself a bit for it but the key is to take the pressure off. The 7 hour studying sessions would turn me off so much I dreaded them and I didn't want to do nothing. So I told myself I was gonna study whatever I wanted to, even if it was for a short time. Maybe I could watch YouTube videos about a topic, or go through last year's papers or something. But sitting around doing nothing and hoping that somehow magically you will start working 8 hours will not help, period. You start with 30 mins, then an hour, then 2. And suddenly you are on your way.
adjust your goals - this is for all the deadlines we put on ourselves. it's similar to doing a little everyday except you need to do both - push yourself as well as ease your goals. Instead of waking up at 6, I woke up at 7 which is still better than 10. Instead of exercising for 45 mins I exercised for 15 which is better than not exercising at all. It's still super hard, but don't pressure yourself. Take your time. Just see if your body and mind can take it. Don't think that it's better to just forget about it if you fall back on your goal by a bit. Don't aim for perfectionism because it's not realistic.
take it as a part of the process - these kinds of bouts aren't a failure on your part but they are a part of the process. They are bound to happen. You are changing and trying to improve so obviously your body and mind will take some time and might crash out sometimes. But you just have to go through the phases and you will emerge a stronger person who knows their weakness even better and now knows how to deal with them too.
And that's pretty much it. It helped me, hopefully it helps you too :) Also, I had a good cry one night. Yeah it helped.