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pink-soft-monster · 3 hours

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Posting my body, might delete later.

First pic is me in December 2023, 73,5kg

Second pic is me today, 61,4kg

( I picked the same pants so you can see the difference well, i'm in my pajamas don't judge ok ? 😠 )

I know I'm not skinny but I'm kinda proud to have lost weight, when I see the first picture I hate my body so much 😭

Please tell me you can see the difference...

Btw if you think I'm fat, I know and I don't need you to tell me

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pink-soft-monster · 1 day

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What I ate today ( realistic 4n4 )

Breakfast :

🫐 Coffee with stevia : 0cals

🫐 38g of blueberry : 19cals

🫐 98g of 0% yogurt with chia seeds : 57cals

Snack :

🫐 1 big emmental and pumpkin seeds cracker : 111cal

Dinner :

🫐 Premade vegetarian raviolis : 297cal

🫐 Miso soup : 18cal

🫐 111g of Strawberry : 36cal

🫐 1 square of 95% black chocolate : 58cal

Total of the day : 596cal

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I feel quite stuffed ngl, the cracker mid day reaaaally helped me to wait until 8PM to eat my dinner

And the chocolate...omg amazing 💖

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pink-soft-monster · 1 day

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ed culture is eating 500 cals a day but not losing weight bc youre not eating enough to be able to shit

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pink-soft-monster · 1 day

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reminder why u should NEVER interact with 4n4 c0aches!!!

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pink-soft-monster · 1 day

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Today i weighed myself, when I saw 61,7kg I was like HOW DID I GAINED WTF ?! And kept re weighing myself again and again until it hit me.

My sweet little discalculic angel, you went down from 62,1kg to 61,7kg, the second digit changed !

It took me like 7 times before I saw it, since I was eating a lot then restricting again these two previous weeks I was used to only see the last digit change 🤣

Please someone buy me a brain who can handle numbers

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pink-soft-monster · 2 days

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lol i really don't give a fuck that part of ān0r3xia is being deathly afraid of gaining weight.

that doesn't mean you shouldn't treat fat people like people. they're humans, not "bad examples" for you to make fun of.

you have an 3ating disorder, not a "I'm a huge asshole" disorder.

get therapy please.

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pink-soft-monster · 2 days

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opening tumblr whenever i get hungry like a soldier in war gazing lovingly at a photo of his wife

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pink-soft-monster · 2 days

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is this really how you want to look this summer?

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pink-soft-monster · 8 days

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pink-soft-monster · 9 days

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Tw food

I hate having my period so bad, all I do is eat eat eat eat eat because I feel like shit.

I wanna be thin but when I have my period I just want something that makes me feel good, right now.

All I think about is chocolate, ice cream, cake...

I can't wait for it to be over

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pink-soft-monster · 11 days

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Update it worked once and now it just hurt me and that's it....fuck my life and fuck this body.

Not really Ed related / about period

I'm trying a TENS Unit and it's horrendous !! It's painful but once I stop it the pain for my period is gone for a little while. So since I'm in pain I'm eating whatever I don't care, I'm crying every two minutes because having my period reminds me that I am a woman so I don't fucking care about my calories.

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pink-soft-monster · 11 days

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Not really Ed related / about period

I'm trying a TENS Unit and it's horrendous !! It's painful but once I stop it the pain for my period is gone for a little while. So since I'm in pain I'm eating whatever I don't care, I'm crying every two minutes because having my period reminds me that I am a woman so I don't fucking care about my calories.

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pink-soft-monster · 12 days

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Me after having a normal eating day: wow maybe I'm recovering, maybe food doesnt scare me anymore maybe I can just enjoy food now!

Me 3 hours later

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pink-soft-monster · 16 days

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It took years for me to have nice long hair and I think about shaving my whole head at least once a week, I get you 💀😂

Are you really anorexic if you didn't think about cutting your hair to lose weight ?

It's a joke don't take it the wrong way you're valid 💜

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pink-soft-monster · 16 days

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Come on guys the first one is biting her cheeks and the rest (except the 2nd one ) had facial buccal fat removal, don't be blind.

A skinny face card never declines, but a fat one will

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pink-soft-monster · 16 days

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Are you really anorexic if you didn't think about cutting your hair to lose weight ?

It's a joke don't take it the wrong way you're valid 💜

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pink-soft-monster · 16 days

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Tw for binge, emetophobia and w33d

Guess who binged again...

I don't feel like talking anymore, I just wanna be able to purge...but my mind won't let me do it.

I binge every night, yes I could just sleep but since I stopped w33d (3 years ago) I have terrible nightmares every night that nothing can stop, so I delay my bed time every day because I'm scared to have nightmares and live my traumas again and again.

Sometimes I wanna smoke w33d again, just to be able to sleep peacefully, but then I remember the "foncedalle" (french word for being hungry because you smoked) that it gave me

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