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pastelvelvett-2nd · 6 months
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Also I have made the executive decision that whenever I make any posts that is just me rambling about yandere writing adjacent things on here it's in this font and this color, just to immediately differentiate it from actual stories I'll post. Hope the walls of vibrant pink won't hurt ur eyes lol
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pastelvelvett-2nd · 6 months
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GAHAHHHHH I WANT TO DO NOTHING BUT WRITE DOGSHIT YANDERE X READERS BUT LIFE HAS TO HAPPEN >:(
disgusting. Vile.
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pastelvelvett-2nd · 6 months
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GAHHH I'M SO HAPPY MY FIRST COMMISSION WENT WELL!! :D this was a review posted on my yandere story writing gig on fiverr! If you like some of the stuff I've written before and you'd like me to write something for you too, then you can go ahead and send me a message either on here or on fiverr and we can talk about it!
♡ ♡ Here's my gig! ♡ ♡
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pastelvelvett-2nd · 7 months
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♡ Hello! I'm making this post to announce that I will now be doing writing commissions on Fiverr! ♡
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You can find my vn writing gig here.
If this the first time you're seeing a post from me, take a look at what I've written here so far so you know if my writing style is right for you!
Oh, and here's something I haven't posted on Tumblr. It's in first person present tense which would match how visual novels are usually written, so I thought it would be good to show it here.
If you want me to do scriptwriting for your visual novel game, go right ahead and reach out to me on there! And if you don't need work done for a visual novel, send me a quote describing what you want me to write about!
I've got a strong preferance for yandere content (as you may already know) and I can write that best, but I can write anything else too as long as it doesn't include nsfw scenes or graphic depictions of violence. Yes, I'm a yandere writer and I have a problem with writing graphic violence, make that make sense.
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pastelvelvett-2nd · 7 months
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If you have any recommendations for yandere ocs then lemme know!! I'm lookin to make some new ones specifically for this blog!
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pastelvelvett-2nd · 7 months
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my heart is full of you, you, you.
my love for you is overflowing.
my pulse is racing - it's crying your name.
it is just you. it is always you. again and again and again.
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pastelvelvett-2nd · 7 months
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You have ALL my attention
I’m absolutely captivated by you
I want nothing more than to just watch you
Every second of every day
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pastelvelvett-2nd · 7 months
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HOLY FUCK WHAT 100 NOTES NO WAY
Okay okay
If this gets to 200, I'm making an animatic for the beginning of this song with Harper being the lady talking because I said the voice suits what I think Harper's voice would be like and also she talks like this so it would be a perfect fit imo
Idk if I'll get there but if I will I will deliver pinkie promise
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♡ Word count: (aprox) 2,299
♡ Post type: x reader
♡ Taste: In Between
♡ Yandere: Harper
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♡ Plot summary: Harper is assigned to tutor some fellow students for the upcoming exam, and you just happen to be one of them. By the time your first tutoring session ends, her mild interest in you grew to a degree she didn't expect.
♡ Beginning of post note: This is how I imagine Harper's voice to sound like in case you wanted to know lol anyway, I hope you enjoy the fic!
Yandere!Honor Student x Shy!Reader
Days seemed to blur together for Harper, and this day was no different. Reptition wasn't something that inherantly bothered her, she didn't think, but as she glanced outside her classroom window before the bell got the chance to ring for the first time of the day, she couldn't help but feel a twinge of wrongness in her chest. It wasn't even the first time she felt that, really, and she amounted it down to realizing she wasn't doing as much as she could. Harper assumed it was just a sign she should try harder that day, and that she would.
The classroom was almost completely empty, since she'd usually come to class unusually early. A few fellow students chattered amongst themselves in the background, and she'd normally join in, but for whatever reason, she didn't feel prepared to today. A few confused glances showed that they noticed. Maybe they were upset with her? Harper's stomach bubbled in anxiety at the prospect, but apparently, that wasn't enough to motivate her to turn her charismatic self on.
Maybe she felt... Bored? She honestly couldn't tell for sure, but she thought she did. Maybe even empty. Harper loved them, though. Her classmates. The people she'd help every time she'd get the chance to, and feel proud of whenever they would do well on tests or anything else they'd achieve. The elements in her life somehow didn't seem like they were enough for her in that moment. This caused her to feel a mind numbing amount of guilt, because none of them deserved to have their friend think about them like they're a toy that grew to be boring.
Something different would happen today, though. Maybe this something would give Harper enough satisfaction to feel happier. Because of her great track record in academics, she (and a few other students, of course) was given the opportunity to tutor some students for the upcoming exam. She usually helps her classmates with homework and tests, but this could also give Harper some extra credits, too. Now feeling a bit excited at the image of her telling her parents about what she accomplished, she also felt brighter generally. Almost like a switch being turned on, Harper changed from looking melancholic and unattentive to acting like her usual warm, friendly self, and with this new attitude, she went up to talk to her classmates like she usually would.
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She didn't understand it. She really didn't. Harper just finished her first tutoring session with one particular enigmatic student, and her head was filled with thoughts she'd call confusing. She sat herself at the bus stop, looking back at how the whole event went.
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"Hello! Y/N, right? I'm Harper, I'm here for the tutoring thing! Nice to meet you!" Her tone and expression were almost unbelievably sweet, like they usually were. Although you never really talked to the girl much, it was clear she'd always make an effort to make you feel more comfortable whenever you did speak. It never really seemed to work, unfortunately. As warm as Harper was, you could never get yourself to feel anything but anxious talking to strangers. Them being friendly only gave you the slightest feeling they would murder you if given the chance, but you realized that you were just being paranoid. If it's an actually nice person that wouldn't murder people, it would be rather unfair to assume such a thing of them. You could feel her lavender eyes staring you down for a second, making you shift uncomfortably in your seat. Chances were that she probably noticed, considering her smile threatened to fall in that moment. Not wanting to seem rude, you tried relaxing your tense body and nodded your head. "Y-Yeah, that's me. It's... Nice to meet you, too."
While it seemed like Harper had no issues keeping eye contact (maybe overly-prolonged eye contact, if you were to be honest) for you it was the complete opposite. As she sat herself at the empty desk to your right, you couldn't help but dart your e/c eyes all around the empty classroom you met up in, anywhere and everywhere but the girl next to you. She was... Intimidating, you supposed. Harper Martinez always seemed like the perfect person, which was concerning, because you knew there was no such thing. So, you had to assume she put up some sort of front. It was like seeing someone wearing a mask. Just because someone is wearing one doesn't necessarily mean that they're hiding a nefarious expression underneath it, of course. But the fact that the person decides to hide their honest feelings their face portray is enough to make someone feel suspicious. You noticed you weren't really the only one who seemed to think Harper was off for this very reason, but it seemed like she still remained fairly popular and well-liked. ...Maybe you were just overthinking things, afterall? She never did anything remotely mean, or anything, so your suspicions felt a bit unjustified.
Just as you were stuck in your own little thought loop, you heard the sound of scraping to your right, and upon glancing you realized that Harper just slid the wooden surface right against yours. Next came the chair, obviously with her on it, and suddenly you felt even more cornered than before. You had no clue if she realized how nervewrecking what she was doing was. She wasn't easy to read, not like how easily she seemed to be able to read those around her.
"So, I heard you transferred to this school a year ago, right?" She asked, inciting a bit of confusion from you. Ah, right. She must be making casual conversation so you felt less pressure. For some reason, you were assuming she'd go straight into the tutoring, but you supposed she thought it would help the learning proccess along. Or maybe she felt pity for you, you did seem really nervous. You simply nodded your head, not knowing what else to add than a simple confirmation. "Right! Knew it, hehe. Are you used to it here by now?" She inquired with a tilt of the head, seeming to take your lack of involvement in the conversation in stride.
You thought for a moment about your answer, not noticing how she slid herself closer to the edge of her seat so she could be closer to you without making a loud sound like before. If her knee was even a tincy bit closer to yours they would touch, and you surely would've realized then. "I... I think so. It was a bit hard to get used to, though, honestly." Harper seemed to take in your words for a second, brows knitting together in concern.
"I see... May I ask what you were struggling with?" Even though Harper seemed to act casual most of the time, some of the things she said sounded polite in an almost stiff sort of way.
"It was just that... I don't know, I just don't think I fit in great with the people around me. Nobody seemed to like me much." You paused for a second, realizing you should probably clarify something. "I-I mean, that's not really to say I'm popular right now or anything, I think I'm pretty much still in the same situation, only difference is I'm used to it now..." Just as you finished speaking, you realized how pathetic you sounded. Harper didn't seem to look at you with amusement or scorn or anything though, she kept a patient, empathetic expression.
"I see... I hope nobody's bothering you?" Harper asked, to which you pursed your lips in discomfort.
"U-Uh... Not really, no." Your response was given with as much confidence as you could muster, but something about Harper's demeanor clued you in that she didn't buy it.
She was silent for a moment.
"Well... That's good!" Just like that, her expression brightened yet again. "If you ever need help with anything, not just studying, let me know, okay?" You could only stare at her smiling face for a few seconds, blinking in confusion. From someone who you never talked to much before, this was a strangely kind thing to say. As much as you didn't want to be suspicious of her, it still rang alarm bells. But you supposed it was just her being nice by saying it, responding with anything but gratitude would be impolite.
"Haha, t-thank you...! I appreciate that a lot." You smiled as brightly as you could, though surely, it could not rival Harper's.
Not long afterwards, you began studying the subject you had the toughest time with. She was so patient despite how much you struggled through the whole thing, you could swear she was a saint. By the end of the session, you realized just how curious you were about the honor student, and you would lie if you were to say that you weren't starting to feel a bit more fond of her. There was a reason she was so well-liked. She radiated a positivity that was contagious, and she seemed to genuinely be invested in seeing you improve. But there had to be something more to her. You could swear she was a saint, but she definitely isn't. She's a normal human just like you, but she seemed to also be invested in appearing to be perfect.
You were somewhat excited to learn more about this mysterious student, having absolutely no clue how excited she was to learn more about you, just the same. ♡
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Although Harper didn't think about you much before having this first tutoring session, she always felt you were... Somewhat alluring. Unlike the sociable, open Harper, you always kept to yourself, never really speaking to anyone unless it was necessary. She wanted to know more about you out of curiousity, true, but she also felt worried about you. What if you felt lonely, and you just didn't know how to approach people? Although, it was still very possible you wanted to be left alone. You didn't seem to make any efforts to talk to people, afterall, so Harper could just be bothering you if she began hanging by your side. She tried talking to you a few times, but you didn't seem terribly comfortable around her, so she assumed this proved her theory.
Once Harper saw you today, though, she seemed to have quite a bit of a change of heart. There was something about your mannerisms that were just so... Enticing to her, for a lack of a better word. Despite you not sharing that much about yourself, just sitting down next to you for an hour helped Harper get to know you a lot better than she could from short small talk whenever you'd bump into eachother in the halls.
Although still not knowing very much about you, Harper was sure of it, that the two of you must be kindred spirits. This was someone that could surely wholeheartedly understand her if she were to ever shed any of that perfect exterior of hers. Maybe... Maybe if it could be with you, she could finally act a bit like herself. Her teeth clenched together the second the thought passed her mind. No... Could she really do that? By the end of the hour, you actually seemed more fond of her than when you started. Your tone was naturally warmer, and you actually didn't seem to be afraid to look in her direction anymore. You seemed to already warm up to her.
As she stared blankly at the concrete sidewalk, she could list each one of your little habits that she found adorable without any bit of trouble. The way you'd stutter over your words every so often, the softness your tone always carried, even just your posture, a small detail that Harper would never make special note of for anyone else, seemed incredibly cute to her. You always held your arms close to your center, often slouching, almost as if you were trying to make yourself smaller and more difficult to spot (despite the fact there was no one there that could spot your except for your tutor).
In you she saw herself, but not the her that everyone else saw, no, the person she truly was behind a confident exterior. For someone who always put herself in the middle of it, Harper had an intense fear of the world that she could also sense in you. Normally, she'd act much the same, if helping people didn't obviously require you to come up and talk to them.
If you'd like this her she projected... Then she wouldn't be able to change it.
Her daze was broken by the sound of a bus stopping in front of her, followed by numerous footsteps mixing with the voices of some of the individuals those footsteps belong to. Harper instantly got up, and with an empty expression boarded. As she sat herself down at the nearest empty seat, she internally marvelled at how much more she cared about your opinion than anyone elses, all so suddenly.
You, who she never spoke to more than a few words every now and again before today.
You, who she never even thought about too much before today.
You, who seemed so much more special than anyone else in her life. She felt mind numbing guilt thinking this again, because there were friends she spoke to every single day since the beginning of freshmen year and she still doesn't feel a bigger attachment to them than you.
Was she a bad person? She musn't pick favorites, she must give every person in her life equal attention, equal help, equal kindness, or else she would be treating someone unfairly. And suddenly, someone comes around and occupies her mind more than anyone else? It just wasn't right.
And yet, she felt a tug in her chest, telling her, no, yelling, that it was right.
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Tomorrow she'll see you again.
She smiled.
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pastelvelvett-2nd · 7 months
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♡ Yandere!Honor Student, Harper Martinez
[ ♡ ] More info on her [ ♡ ] Meeting her (Shy Reader) [ ♡ ] If she had an extroverted Reader
A diligent and compulsive perfectionist, Harper puts as much effort into anything she does and it shows. A wonderful academic reputation would often result in a person that is completely full of themselves and sees themselves as inherantly better than everyone else, but surprisingly, she's not only modest but incredibly friendly and helpful to anyone around her. Harper looks like she's perfect, and she puts a lot of effort into keeping that pristine mask from slipping. But because she truly isn't perfect, cracks appear every now and again, making some more observant people question just how genuine she is.
The only thing she's ever truly wanted is to help people, and that sterns from her wanting to be loved and needed. But once she found you, her focus completely shifted to only one person. She feels so guilty about it, but... Nobody else seems interesting to her anymore. She doesn't feel the joy she once did from helping her friends or family. None of them are enough for her anymore. But you... You're everything to her. In you she sees herself, and she believes that maybe one day, you'll be the only person willing to accept who she truly is for that very reason.
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"Hey, I know maybe this sounds a bit awkward to say... But I can't keep it in anymore, you know? I have to say it. You're better than anything, than anyone else in my life. I know you're the only one I need, so... Can I be the only one you need, too?"
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♡ A quick note! ♡
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Thank you to very cool person @beeees-are-amazing for requesting this imagine!!
As always, please check the tags for trigger warnings~
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♡ Yandere!Honor Student (Harper) x Extroverted!Reader ♡
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• Harper isn't truly like this. Her bubbly and outgoing personality is entirely performative, but she does a good enough job that nobody around her could ever conceivably tell. How she acts is exactly like the kind of person she admires the most, someone truly selfless and kind that always makes time for other people and enjoys it.
• So, when she found you, she immediately looked up to you, and it wasn't long until that respect turned into something more.
• The two of you talk quite a bit from the beginning, but Harper always seems... Unusually timid around you. Not incredibly so but still, a lot more meek than she would usually act.
• Without realizing it, Harper started acting more like herself around you. If she had realized it, then she would bring a quick stop to it clearly, but her attention was always fixated on you and your own behavior. No time to notice how she'd almost shift into a different person when she's talking to the person she's idolizing the most.
• Her dynamic with you is very different from the one she has with most people because of that. Most of the time she'd be the reliable one, the one to help those around her whenever they would need it (and even sometimes when they wouldn't). You are what she wishes she could be, and she doesn't doubt that for you it's not a front. And because of how clumsy she tends to be around you, she starts relying on you more and more.
• First she resists it, feeling guilty for making anyone, but especially you, help her so often. But, being a hedonist at heart, she gives in quick to something that tastes so sweet. The guilt doesn't completely go away, but the attention you give her when she needs help... It's too difficult to refuse.
• She's more comfortable now. For the first time in she doesn't know how long, she feels protected and cared for. ...But is that really something she ever felt? She most likely never felt that kind of thing, not even as a child with her parents. The feeling is foreign to her, but she doesn't mind it.
• You're always there for her, and she's always there for you. At first, she was a little shy and didn't approach you too often, but soon you start seeing her everywhere.
• Harper being Harper still tries helping you with things you seem to be struggling with, but she's far less tense and it's clear to see. She's more relaxed, gradually trying to prove her usefulness less and less.
• There is one thing she's too nervous to do still, though. That is, confessing to you. At some point she realized that this intense affection wasn't platonic at all, that it was maybe even deeper than the romantic love she'd observe in other people. It's so strong that she has no clue what she would do with herself if you reject her. So, Harper keeps silent about this for now, hoping that eventually she'll build the strength.
• Harper started focusing on you a lot more than everyone else in her life, but you kept up being the social butterfly you've always been. She feels a tad bit sad that you don't seem to have the same kind of favoritism for her as she does for you, she's got to admit.
• Another feeling foreign to her. The jealousy tugging at her chest, begging to not be ignored... It isn't pretty. It's not something she'd want to show. She hates seeing you talk to other people, as awful as it feels for her to admit to it. Other people rely on you just the same as she does, and she has to wonder, is she any different from all of them in your eyes? Is Harper just another casual friend you chat with at school just because you're the type to always want to talk to somebody?
• Her worries and her jealousy are still a lot milder than they would be with a different Reader. Harper's newfound ability to rely on you and be slightly more herself around you certainly has been good for her mental health. She's a lot more stable than she would be in a relationship where she would just give and give and never receive, which is the kind she's used to.
• But still, the amount you talk to other people preoccupies her head more than what would be considered normal. This deep, selfish want to have you be hers is what pushes Harper to tell you just how she feels about you. Maybe... Not being quite as descriptive on how much she truly loved you, since that would surely scare you away.
• If you say yes, Harper would be overjoyed beyond belief. If you say no... Then it's alright. Because there is no limit on how long Harper would wait for you. Despite her better mental health in this scenerio, she's still rather delusional, thinking that you loving her back is just an eventuality.
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It's just a matter of time.
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More Harper fics:
[ ♡ ] Introduction
[ ♡ ] Meeting her (Shy reader)
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pastelvelvett-2nd · 8 months
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Hello there I seen your wrote for Harvey from sdv, I’m not sure if what other sdv characters you will write for but I was wondering if I could request yan!sebastian x gn!Willing!reader. Just some stuff on what type of ya deer he is and how he would act with a so who is ok with his yandere tendencies. Sorry if this sounds confusing at all
Hello! Thank you for reading my Harvey fic!!
It doesn't sound confusing at all, don't worry about it. ^^ I present to you: ✨the yandere emo boy✨
Trigger warnings are, as always, in the tags!
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Sebastian would be the type to take a while to warm up to you.
At first, Sebastian didn't think too much of you. He had absolutely no clue why you would decide to move here of all places when you already lived in a place he dreamed to live in. He was a bit jealous, to be frank.
Surprisingly enough, you kept visiting and talking to him, despite his aloof behavior the first time you spoke. The more you'd chat, the more he'd understand your perspective and what drove you to leave the hubub of the city. He began to get to know you better, and you seemed to want to do the same in turn.
Sebastian started awaiting your visits with bated breath, and when you did arrive, he acted a lot less cold than he initially did. He started being more open, and the two of you even shared some of his geeky interests. Your hangout sessions became his favorite part of the day.
With you, he was open and friendly. There was nothing he wouldn't share.
He realized something. How open he was... It's wasn't the norm. A person only shows certain facets of themselves to another. That's the way he used to function, and everyone else seemed to tick the same way. Surely, other people must know other sides of you that he wasn't familiar with.
There were many things he wouldn't find out about you. The thought made him feel sick to his stomach like little else did.
Sebastian would be the type to eventually begin stalking you.
This way, he'd get to know you in a deeper way he ever could just by listening to information you'd offer him. He'd follow you around town, watching as you'd go shopping or talk to the villagers. Sometimes you'd even go drinking on fridays and play videogames on the arcade machines with Sam.
You seemed close to Sam.
Sebastian would be the type to cut anyone off without a second thought, anyone that isn't you.
As much of a loner as Sebastian already was, he gradually talked to Abigail less and less, and Sam... He stopped talking to him alltogether.
Sebastian would be the type to want to do awful things to someone he once called a close friend, all because of you.
He couldn't stand the sight of him anymore, which was a shame, because it seemed like the two of you spent more and more time together.
Sam obviously noticed his change of behavior, and so did you. Sam first tried talking to Sebastian about it, but a curt "I'm busy right now" and a dirty look from him made it clear that he wasn't quite as willing to talk.
When Sam saw Sebastian following you around town, he obviously went and told you about it. You seemed to react... A lot less scared than he expected you to?
"I'll talk to him about it. Don't worry." You told Sam, though he didn't think you talking to him would ease his worries any bit. He practically begged you to talk to tell the police, but you assured him you would take care of it. Sam eventually gave in, albeit reluctantly.
You visited Sebastian like you usually would, acting completely normal as if you never found out he had been stalking to you. If you didn't bring the topic up, then he would've never known that you knew, but you did exactly that.
You confronted him about it.
In such a calm and casual way, Sebastian thought he was dreaming or hallucinating.
You explained that you knew everything. You left out who told you and just said you caught on to it on your own, just to be safe.
You explained you had no problem with it. Sebastian didn't believe you at first. He was upset that you would lie to him.
But you assured him of your honesty. You truly didn't mind. Sebastian's eyes widened, now believing you.
He loved you before this an abnormal amount, but somehow, hearing this made him love you even more.
Sebastian would be the type to build a shrine to you.
He adored you. So much. He felt so grateful that you would accept even this... Intense side of him, so grateful that you treated him with so much love. So happy that you apparently liked him enough to ask him out.
Yes, despite him being head over heels for you, he was too shy to ask. Eventually he would, of course, but you made this so much easier for him.
And you, on the inside, didn't just tolerate his obsessive attention, but you were even pretty flattered about it. Not something you'd directly admit to him, of course.
Neighbors would urge you to not involve yourself with him, but you didn't listen.
Sebastian would be the type to only kill if he considered it necessary.
It wouldn't be out of guilt. Murder came with a lot of complications. Sebastian, being a calculated person that always thinks before he acts wouldn't give in to his violent urges. Except for when he had to, of course.
He just hoped there would be no need for it.
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Once upon a time, in a dream,
The whole world had sunken away.
Me and you,
Just the two of us.
Leapt straight into the situation.
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Someone who looks only at me.
A person for whom no one else exists.
Which one of us was the bad one?
Do you understand?
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pastelvelvett-2nd · 8 months
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I'm currently working on the yandere Sebastian imagines an annonymous user requested so if you're that person don't you worry I'm posting it soon lolol
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Post info
♡ Word count: (aprox) 2,299
♡ Post type: x reader
♡ Taste: In Between
♡ Yandere: Harper
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♡ Plot summary: Harper is assigned to tutor some fellow students for the upcoming exam, and you just happen to be one of them. By the time your first tutoring session ends, her mild interest in you grew to a degree she didn't expect.
♡ Beginning of post note: This is how I imagine Harper's voice to sound like in case you wanted to know lol anyway, I hope you enjoy the fic!
Yandere!Honor Student x Shy!Reader
Days seemed to blur together for Harper, and this day was no different. Reptition wasn't something that inherantly bothered her, she didn't think, but as she glanced outside her classroom window before the bell got the chance to ring for the first time of the day, she couldn't help but feel a twinge of wrongness in her chest. It wasn't even the first time she felt that, really, and she amounted it down to realizing she wasn't doing as much as she could. Harper assumed it was just a sign she should try harder that day, and that she would.
The classroom was almost completely empty, since she'd usually come to class unusually early. A few fellow students chattered amongst themselves in the background, and she'd normally join in, but for whatever reason, she didn't feel prepared to today. A few confused glances showed that they noticed. Maybe they were upset with her? Harper's stomach bubbled in anxiety at the prospect, but apparently, that wasn't enough to motivate her to turn her charismatic self on.
Maybe she felt... Bored? She honestly couldn't tell for sure, but she thought she did. Maybe even empty. Harper loved them, though. Her classmates. The people she'd help every time she'd get the chance to, and feel proud of whenever they would do well on tests or anything else they'd achieve. The elements in her life somehow didn't seem like they were enough for her in that moment. This caused her to feel a mind numbing amount of guilt, because none of them deserved to have their friend think about them like they're a toy that grew to be boring.
Something different would happen today, though. Maybe this something would give Harper enough satisfaction to feel happier. Because of her great track record in academics, she (and a few other students, of course) was given the opportunity to tutor some students for the upcoming exam. She usually helps her classmates with homework and tests, but this could also give Harper some extra credits, too. Now feeling a bit excited at the image of her telling her parents about what she accomplished, she also felt brighter generally. Almost like a switch being turned on, Harper changed from looking melancholic and unattentive to acting like her usual warm, friendly self, and with this new attitude, she went up to talk to her classmates like she usually would.
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She didn't understand it. She really didn't. Harper just finished her first tutoring session with one particular enigmatic student, and her head was filled with thoughts she'd call confusing. She sat herself at the bus stop, looking back at how the whole event went.
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"Hello! Y/N, right? I'm Harper, I'm here for the tutoring thing! Nice to meet you!" Her tone and expression were almost unbelievably sweet, like they usually were. Although you never really talked to the girl much, it was clear she'd always make an effort to make you feel more comfortable whenever you did speak. It never really seemed to work, unfortunately. As warm as Harper was, you could never get yourself to feel anything but anxious talking to strangers. Them being friendly only gave you the slightest feeling they would murder you if given the chance, but you realized that you were just being paranoid. If it's an actually nice person that wouldn't murder people, it would be rather unfair to assume such a thing of them. You could feel her lavender eyes staring you down for a second, making you shift uncomfortably in your seat. Chances were that she probably noticed, considering her smile threatened to fall in that moment. Not wanting to seem rude, you tried relaxing your tense body and nodded your head. "Y-Yeah, that's me. It's... Nice to meet you, too."
While it seemed like Harper had no issues keeping eye contact (maybe overly-prolonged eye contact, if you were to be honest) for you it was the complete opposite. As she sat herself at the empty desk to your right, you couldn't help but dart your e/c eyes all around the empty classroom you met up in, anywhere and everywhere but the girl next to you. She was... Intimidating, you supposed. Harper Martinez always seemed like the perfect person, which was concerning, because you knew there was no such thing. So, you had to assume she put up some sort of front. It was like seeing someone wearing a mask. Just because someone is wearing one doesn't necessarily mean that they're hiding a nefarious expression underneath it, of course. But the fact that the person decides to hide their honest feelings their face portray is enough to make someone feel suspicious. You noticed you weren't really the only one who seemed to think Harper was off for this very reason, but it seemed like she still remained fairly popular and well-liked. ...Maybe you were just overthinking things, afterall? She never did anything remotely mean, or anything, so your suspicions felt a bit unjustified.
Just as you were stuck in your own little thought loop, you heard the sound of scraping to your right, and upon glancing you realized that Harper just slid the wooden surface right against yours. Next came the chair, obviously with her on it, and suddenly you felt even more cornered than before. You had no clue if she realized how nervewrecking what she was doing was. She wasn't easy to read, not like how easily she seemed to be able to read those around her.
"So, I heard you transferred to this school a year ago, right?" She asked, inciting a bit of confusion from you. Ah, right. She must be making casual conversation so you felt less pressure. For some reason, you were assuming she'd go straight into the tutoring, but you supposed she thought it would help the learning proccess along. Or maybe she felt pity for you, you did seem really nervous. You simply nodded your head, not knowing what else to add than a simple confirmation. "Right! Knew it, hehe. Are you used to it here by now?" She inquired with a tilt of the head, seeming to take your lack of involvement in the conversation in stride.
You thought for a moment about your answer, not noticing how she slid herself closer to the edge of her seat so she could be closer to you without making a loud sound like before. If her knee was even a tincy bit closer to yours they would touch, and you surely would've realized then. "I... I think so. It was a bit hard to get used to, though, honestly." Harper seemed to take in your words for a second, brows knitting together in concern.
"I see... May I ask what you were struggling with?" Even though Harper seemed to act casual most of the time, some of the things she said sounded polite in an almost stiff sort of way.
"It was just that... I don't know, I just don't think I fit in great with the people around me. Nobody seemed to like me much." You paused for a second, realizing you should probably clarify something. "I-I mean, that's not really to say I'm popular right now or anything, I think I'm pretty much still in the same situation, only difference is I'm used to it now..." Just as you finished speaking, you realized how pathetic you sounded. Harper didn't seem to look at you with amusement or scorn or anything though, she kept a patient, empathetic expression.
"I see... I hope nobody's bothering you?" Harper asked, to which you pursed your lips in discomfort.
"U-Uh... Not really, no." Your response was given with as much confidence as you could muster, but something about Harper's demeanor clued you in that she didn't buy it.
She was silent for a moment.
"Well... That's good!" Just like that, her expression brightened yet again. "If you ever need help with anything, not just studying, let me know, okay?" You could only stare at her smiling face for a few seconds, blinking in confusion. From someone who you never talked to much before, this was a strangely kind thing to say. As much as you didn't want to be suspicious of her, it still rang alarm bells. But you supposed it was just her being nice by saying it, responding with anything but gratitude would be impolite.
"Haha, t-thank you...! I appreciate that a lot." You smiled as brightly as you could, though surely, it could not rival Harper's.
Not long afterwards, you began studying the subject you had the toughest time with. She was so patient despite how much you struggled through the whole thing, you could swear she was a saint. By the end of the session, you realized just how curious you were about the honor student, and you would lie if you were to say that you weren't starting to feel a bit more fond of her. There was a reason she was so well-liked. She radiated a positivity that was contagious, and she seemed to genuinely be invested in seeing you improve. But there had to be something more to her. You could swear she was a saint, but she definitely isn't. She's a normal human just like you, but she seemed to also be invested in appearing to be perfect.
You were somewhat excited to learn more about this mysterious student, having absolutely no clue how excited she was to learn more about you, just the same. ♡
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Although Harper didn't think about you much before having this first tutoring session, she always felt you were... Somewhat alluring. Unlike the sociable, open Harper, you always kept to yourself, never really speaking to anyone unless it was necessary. She wanted to know more about you out of curiousity, true, but she also felt worried about you. What if you felt lonely, and you just didn't know how to approach people? Although, it was still very possible you wanted to be left alone. You didn't seem to make any efforts to talk to people, afterall, so Harper could just be bothering you if she began hanging by your side. She tried talking to you a few times, but you didn't seem terribly comfortable around her, so she assumed this proved her theory.
Once Harper saw you today, though, she seemed to have quite a bit of a change of heart. There was something about your mannerisms that were just so... Enticing to her, for a lack of a better word. Despite you not sharing that much about yourself, just sitting down next to you for an hour helped Harper get to know you a lot better than she could from short small talk whenever you'd bump into eachother in the halls.
Although still not knowing very much about you, Harper was sure of it, that the two of you must be kindred spirits. This was someone that could surely wholeheartedly understand her if she were to ever shed any of that perfect exterior of hers. Maybe... Maybe if it could be with you, she could finally act a bit like herself. Her teeth clenched together the second the thought passed her mind. No... Could she really do that? By the end of the hour, you actually seemed more fond of her than when you started. Your tone was naturally warmer, and you actually didn't seem to be afraid to look in her direction anymore. You seemed to already warm up to her.
As she stared blankly at the concrete sidewalk, she could list each one of your little habits that she found adorable without any bit of trouble. The way you'd stutter over your words every so often, the softness your tone always carried, even just your posture, a small detail that Harper would never make special note of for anyone else, seemed incredibly cute to her. You always held your arms close to your center, often slouching, almost as if you were trying to make yourself smaller and more difficult to spot (despite the fact there was no one there that could spot your except for your tutor).
In you she saw herself, but not the her that everyone else saw, no, the person she truly was behind a confident exterior. For someone who always put herself in the middle of it, Harper had an intense fear of the world that she could also sense in you. Normally, she'd act much the same, if helping people didn't obviously require you to come up and talk to them.
If you'd like this her she projected... Then she wouldn't be able to change it.
Her daze was broken by the sound of a bus stopping in front of her, followed by numerous footsteps mixing with the voices of some of the individuals those footsteps belong to. Harper instantly got up, and with an empty expression boarded. As she sat herself down at the nearest empty seat, she internally marvelled at how much more she cared about your opinion than anyone elses, all so suddenly.
You, who she never spoke to more than a few words every now and again before today.
You, who she never even thought about too much before today.
You, who seemed so much more special than anyone else in her life. She felt mind numbing guilt thinking this again, because there were friends she spoke to every single day since the beginning of freshmen year and she still doesn't feel a bigger attachment to them than you.
Was she a bad person? She musn't pick favorites, she must give every person in her life equal attention, equal help, equal kindness, or else she would be treating someone unfairly. And suddenly, someone comes around and occupies her mind more than anyone else? It just wasn't right.
And yet, she felt a tug in her chest, telling her, no, yelling, that it was right.
...
Tomorrow she'll see you again.
She smiled.
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Red flags? Red is the color of love ❤️
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Lowest of the low
Made by
Nakiso
Art by
Shida
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You extravagant bastard, you extravagant bastard
You extravagant bastard, you extravagant bastard
You extravagant bastard, you extravagant bastard
Are you prepared?
Don’t brazenly betray me.
Please.
I wish I was still breathing with you...
I wish I was still pulsating with you...
Ah! Little by little by little, I’m waking up
See, I’m becoming detached.
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...
....
Huh?
Little by little by little, I’m waking up
“Love will eventually end”.
Ȩ̶̫͇̗̓̕n̵̝̯̝̠̈͠d̷̛̛̰̓́̚.
Ę̴̤̠̰͐͌̾͗̋n̶̝͈̥̐d̴̬̐.
E̴͑̓̒̐̀̏̂̋̚͠��̞͓̝͈̫͇̳̥̱̟̫̪̎̅̆͒ň̴̨̨͓͚ḑ̶̢̛̛͔͍̭̰̱̦̬̻͙̬̫͔̣̲͋͌̂͐̐͛̽͛̉̅̌̌͘͠ .
E̶̢̛̪̫͎͕͕͈̙̳̝͕͈͎̝͓͙͔͓̬̭̭̹̬͍̩̦̹͍͋̇̊̓̎̅͊̀͐̃̾̉̌̉̚͘̕n̷̡̨͓͈̩̼̰̭̱̬̞̬̘̬̣͇̾̑̄͑̏͒̍̄́͋͑͋̉́̉̌̇̂͌̉̈́̎̒̍̆̀̿͘͘͘͘͜d̴̡͍͔̻̟̰͉͙͈̗͓̹͉̩͖̩͙̭̥͎̞͖̫̖̲̝͇̮̼̀̊̒̿̑̏͋̒̕ͅ .
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Thankful ants gather
High praise, high praise, the highest of praise
A flavorless candy.
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This song (but especially the art) is extremely this blog-core it's delightful. Also it's a huge bop, for a song about literal murder it cheers me up an interesting amount lmao
What even is the purpose of this post? I don't fucking know I just like coloring dramatic lyrics in pretty colors get off my back >:(
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