earlier this week i made a post about how hartford stage’s 1991 production of falsettos ended with whizzer on the aids memorial quilt. i’ve actually managed to find the clip of the scene itself and it’s beautiful

The original Broadway cast of Falsettos performs ‘Year of the Child’

Mendel seeing Whizzer for the first time in 2 years:

Kicking my feet at this info… also this is the first time I’ve seen the trinity college in trousers that is more than 3 pixels

went down a rabbit hole about the Trinity College production of In Trousers (the one with the slide that's on youtube) and found these newspaper articles! apparently it was done at least twice, once in January 1992 and once in November with the rest of the Marvin Trilogy. recordings of both In Trousers and Falsettoland can be found online, but unfortunately, a recording of March doesn't seem to exist.

LETS GOO

TW: homophobia, slurs

Okay so this is going to be more of a serious post.

I’m currently in high school which isn’t the best time for anybody, but the thing is, I’m full on considering going back in the closet. I’ve heard so many people say that schools are so liberal and they’re trying to indoctrinate our children to be gay. Which is not at all true or even correct. No matter how many times I get harassed nobody at the school will bat an eye at myself hurting. It’s gotten so bad to the point where I want to go into hiding again never to be seen until I graduate. I feel disgusted by the amount of people who harass me on the daily basis, I would rather just go into hiding then be harassed for “being myself”. I know that being out and proud is what people want queer people to do but I’m just not in a safe enough place to do that. I feel like theater and listening the musical falsettos on repeat is my only safe space at my school. I want to go back to being “normal” again even though being out and proud with past girlfriends may have been the happiest I’ve even been, I can’t do it. It’s like the world is caving in on me and I still hear people complain about “kids these days” and their “liberal agenda” even though I hear f-ggot and d-ke on the daily basis. I’m on the edge of going back to the person I was so many years ago, I don’t know how to find myself anymore because I’m repressing so much of myself down into my head. William Finn has made such an impact on my life that he didn’t even know he had, that musical is my only queer and safe place I can run to in the hallways packed with thousands of people like sardines in a can. I want to be out and proud to make other queer friends but now it’s starting to feel like the days of Judy Garland (if you know, you know). I feel like Marvin in In Trousers currently because I like the rain, I like the snow, but I don’t love, touch, drink, or screw men and I feel like I have to prove to others that I am socially acceptable in life even though I want to be “saved” by other queer people. I can’t wait until I’m able to make the choice of the people who I want to surround myself with instead of other people choosing for me, but at the same time I’m terrified of growing up. I’m sitting here writing this in my room next to my pride stitch plushie feeling like I’ve disappointed my people by giving into the societal norms of what love should look like. I’m counting down every single day until I can finally let myself be free in the summer time which is currently 95 days of school left which doesn’t sound like much but it sounds so disgusting to have to spend 95 days surrounding myself with people who bring me down. I know this is kind of a stupid question to ask on tumblr but should I go back into the closet?

time for bed !

Fr im like “i think it’s fading a little bit” and then I put the soundtrack on repeat to just get through the day. Like that musical has been my pookie for three years

for a second i was like hm i think my falsettos hyperfix is fading a little bit as i make my way through the saw movies. Like they're just Characters lmao. and then my sister turned on tight knit family in the car and i started stimming so hard that the man who just last week made me take a 100 question long phineas and ferb quiz that he made himself called ME over the top

Thinking about Falsettos.

⚠️spoilers⚠️

Crying.

Not actually about Whizzers death, obviously that is so tragic but I’m thinking about Jason.

This poor boy, y’all ready?

1st things first, Parents have a messy ass divorce, dad is gay, both parents are having breakdowns.

Dad’s boyfriend and he have a great relationship and stuff right, but since the kid is already going through a lot he is acting strange so Psychiatrist comes to house.

Psychiatrist is unhelpful, psychiatrist proposes to mom. Dad and boyfriend break up. Poor kid.

His dad comes to his mom’s house to yell at her and he witnesses his father hit his mother. His whole life is already messy.

He and his dad have sincere talk right?

So basically we get two years of relative peace.

Then we’ve got parents arguing about his Bar Mitzvah, which sucks, because it’s supposed to be his happy special day, but now people are all arguing about it!

Dad and boyfriend get back together!

Boyfriend gets sick, it’s bad.

This person who Jason considered a friend who cared about him in tough times. Might I remind you this child is like 13?

He visits Boyfriend in Hospital, and everyone is pretending he’s ok, but Jason can’t.

Now it’s all on and about him, does he want the Bar Mitzvah or want to cancel it, this is a lot of pressure for small child, who is already grieving his friend.

Boyfriend’s situation becomes much worse, he is dying, Jason begins to turn to G-d for this, because everything is falling apart.

He learns is dad is also sick and will likely also die, what does he do now?

Boyfriend accepts his death will come.

Than Jason does arguably the most selfless act in the show. He has his Bar Mitzvah at Whizzers hospital room.

The entire “Jason’s Bar Mitzvah” song is actually so tragic and touching, especially all the touches in the show I-

Anyway, Boyfriend dies.

After the show ends so does his dad.

This kid goes through it and he needs more hugs.

so apparently William Finn confirmed Marvin committed suicide after Whizzer died and he got diagnosed with aids. My heart can’t take this right now oh my god.

I know it’s canon that Marvin died at the end of falsettos but I thought it was from aids and not from suicide :(

I thought of the stupidest joke in the world:

“Why was six afraid of seven?”

“Because seven ATE”

Im sorry

He’s a weatherman so I think he just carry’s around a folded up projector sheet that they used for the news in the 70s-80s

And he would also carry around one of those pointer sticks too 💀

That post about Falsettos reminded me of something I wanted to post a while ago-

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He's got a cardboard suitcase??? Where he works? On the playground? I wonder what he will bring home. Monopoly money or...

...mud bacon?

with adhd/autism it's funny like. people will call you weird all your life, people will bully you for your "outlandish" behaviour, people will criticize literally everything you do as "not normal", BUT THE SECOND YOU GET DIAGNOSED (or suggest you might have it) they're like "huh what but you're so normal, you're literally the most normal person I've ever seen, you're literally so normal and absolutely nothing is wrong with you? why would you have that now all of a sudden???"

Just like with Whizzer, Danielle being mischaracterized as a twink makes me scream

hey yall stupid question

have you ever read a moral orel fanfic that made you go

"they would never SAY that!!"

or

worse

they were so mischaraterized it was literally insulting