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Had to have a go at Goth Yukari from that mod, the design was too good not too!

Thinking about starting an rp blog...

hi-res, HUD-less screenshot of the third-semester christmas event with some minor color corrections :3 made it for use as my wallpaper but figured i'd share

>reading article about Persona 5

>writer describes Futaba as an "inappropriate romance option" because she "basically becomes Joker's adopted little sister"

>immediately stops reading right then and there

SHE IS LITERALLY ONLY ONE YEAR YOUNGER THAN HIM AND THEY ARE NOT RELATED IN ANY WAY, SHAPE OR FORM, GOOD FUCKING GOD.

Hey um, I don’t remember if anyone remembers me (it’s been literally almost a year.) But I just want to say I’m alive. Mental health took a heavy toll after a couple of months after my last post and I’ve been struggling since. I want to come back and bring positivity on this blog again, but I need to focus on myself for now. I promise I’ll be back. I just need time. I wanna keep giving hope and advice. Thank you everyone who’s even seen this blog, it means a lot! I’ll be back, you can bet that I will be!

- Makoto

My return is inevitable. I’m here on this app again, and soon I’ll have my problems solved.

“That way… we’ll never be apart if I don’t want to be.”

I'm just gonna go on a small rant about how the P5 community treats Shutaba and how it's genuinely kinda dumb in a way. It really tires me how when anyone sees a fan who is playing or just discovering Persona 5 for the very first time and realizes the chemistry behind Futaba and Ren (Joker) and ultimatly starts shipping them, gets bashed on by anyone with saying "omg they're literally brother and sister that's gross ew, nasty ass proshipper" It happened to me, I discovered P5 not that that long ago and I tried joining fandom spaces and it was.. hell. So I'm hoping that this could hopefully help someone and maybe stop those toxic people who literally start crying and labeling stuff with extreme terms. First of all, Ren is NOT Sojiro's adopted son. He's more like his protégé, his student in the coffee, curry, café, womanizing (lol), ect spaces. He only "took him in" because he's the only one who said yes to taking in a guy on probation. And I see many many MANY people try to argument against this with parts of the games where characters mention that she's like a little sister. Wanna know the fun part about Persona? You get to CHOOSE if you want Futaba as your silly sister or gremlin girlfriend, OMG amazing right??? And there's even parts where you yourself can make remarks about being family and she'll just be there like: "Are you fr?? Weirdo" I'm not here to bash on anyone who likes them as the coffee/curry sibs, it's not my cup of tea because the fact that they're so touchy and close disturbs me when thinking of them as sibs, but if you like it, go for it! It's cute tbh But just because you see them as sibs, doesn't mean you have the right to call someone a proshipper for liking them as a couple, Futaba deserves to be with the man who saved her life and fans get to do as they please, that's the magic of having freedom and being able to CHOOSE. It now scares me to interact with the fandom because of how many times I've been attacked to the point I just gotta shut off the pc and let the anxiety flood away, I can't even make friends with ppl with the same interest, in the english P5 fandom because of that. Good thing is the spanish speaking Persona community is chill and knows that drama about said ship is honestly stupid. Basically just, let people do as they please, go touch grass and if you don't like the path someone took in game, then just block or don't interact with that thing. IRL you can't block people but online you can, so you shouldn't rage or seeth about it, especially about a game. Saying someone is a proshipper by shipping Shutaba is like saying someone is a criminal and a violent person for playing Fortnite or that horror artists are sick and twisted people just because of their stories. Instead, actually go after those who are problomatic like those who genuinely ship Kotone/FeMC with Ken.

Makoto’s Song of the Day #2 (October 19th, 2022)

Hello everyone! Hope you had or are having a good day! It’s time for my song of the day again! This time, the song comes from OneRepublic, and is a childhood favorite song of mine. That’s my tip for the day. While the past *can* be negative, it’s also positive if you look at it through a different lens, and can help you reflect on all of the good in your life! This song is exactly that for me. When I feel down nowadays, I typically put on music from my childhood, and reminisce about how great my life has been. Even if you think your life is the worst one ever lived, you’re dead wrong. What’s funny about this is, the past doesn’t fully define you. You make your own path in life, and it’s always new, but it can be extraordinary even if you maybe did something simple like joining a school club you’re mildly interested in! Who knows, maybe you’ll fully love that talent and pursue it, and change the course of your life. There’s always a bright side to everything, just remember that. Love you guys!

Good morning everyone (or good evening/afternoon for some of you!) I hope your day is great, remember what you’re striving for and work towards it! (Make sure it’s positive though!!)

Makoto’s Song of the Day #1 (October 17th, 2022)

Today’s song of the day comes from hip-hop artist and highly influential rapper Eminem. Eminem has been a huge inspiration for me growing up, and while I don’t necessarily care for most of the Relapse album, Beautiful is one of his best songs in my opinion. Beautiful is about Eminem’s struggle with sleeping medication overdosing from around 2004-2009. He was incredibly depressed, had no motivation for anything, and nearly dropped his career because he was so depressed. This song had an incredibly large impact on me towards the end of my depression, especially the main hook line “Don’t let ‘em say you ain’t beautiful, they can all get fucked just stay true to you.” This song has a special place in my heart along with another Eminem song that I may post here one day. I would highly recommend it, even if you aren’t struggling with a drug addiction or even an addiction of any kind, because it’s just a really good pick me up and say “fuck what everyone else thinks, I’m me.” You can get through this, trust me.

Makoto’s Tip of the Day #1 (October 17th, 2022)

Take deep breaths. Everything will be okay.

So, I suppose I should introduce myself! I’m Makoto, I’m a guy who’s struggled with mental health issues for basically all my life. To make a long story short, I’ve recently been prescribed the right medication and learned the right techniques to finally calm down most of my mental health problems. I’ve been through absolute hell over my life, because of my own mind and some external factors, and I wanted to share some stories about my journey, including my recovery and how I got out of it. With this blog my goal is to help those who are like how I was, and give them hope! I want to let everyone know that it’s all going to be okay. But, enough about me.

I’ve purposefully opened up questions (you can submit one anonymously too if you don’t feel comfortable being public), so feel free to ask for any advice and I will do my best to answer it.

That’s enough from me, let’s get this ball rolling!

BEFORE I START THIS BLOG, HERE ARE SOME COMMON TRIGGER WORDS/PHRASES THAT WILL BE USED ON THIS BLOG, AND THEY WILL NOT BE CENSORED UNLESS I USE ASTERISKS, SO IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE TO THAT SORT OF STUFF, THIS BLOG MAY NOT BE FOR YOU.

With that being said, there’s a lot to unpack, so here we go:

Abuse (Child Abuse specifically)

Depression

Suicidal thoughts/ideations/actions

Anxiety (Social Anxiety, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, etc.)

Self-harm

Death

MENTIONS OF VARIOUS BANDS/SONGS FROM ARTISTS SUCH AS: Eminem, Linkin Park

Alcoholism (not related to me, but may come up in explaining some things sometimes.)

Violence (Minor besides the abuse, but still there)

Sobbing/Crying

That’s all I can think of right now. I’m pretty new to Tumblr as I haven’t been on here in years, but I hope to help some of you out who are struggling with mental health, give you tips on how to recover from it, and how to open back up to society. Thank you for taking the time to read this, first actual post will be coming soon!