im having a meta day rn because my weight has been STUCK for the past three days and I cant deal !!

Hey, does anyone have any ana what's app groups i can join? I don't have discord lol <3

Me ignoring my silly little hunger pangs and writing my gay fanfiction that I need to update today

(I am literally fucking COOKING over here bro, ao3 better be fucking ready)

I LOVE MY LIFE, FUCK I LOVE IT SO MUCH.

194

194 FUCKING POUNDS IM SO HAPPY. WHO KNEW THAT JUST FASTING FOR LIKE 24 HOURS GETS RID OF SO MUCH (its probs just water weight but I like living in my own little delusional world)

New ana skill unlocked!

ROOM DIZZY, HOLY FUCK IS THIS HOW YALL FEEL ALL THE DAMN TIME. HOLY SHIT, SOMEONE SEND HELP

so glad I'm being a good anorexic but god damn it do I just want to pass out

holy fuck it's taking a LOT of strength not to lose my balance around my family right now. all I had for lunch was an apple and a stick of gum w diet coke, holy shit man. go me?

Vent post

tw: just hopeless thoughts I guess? and crush talk, ew, love, I know.

I'm so tired, tired of my home, tired of school, tired of being fat, I'm just so tired. I wish I could get a pair and ask my crush out, she's beautiful, she's so funny and kind, and I am so in love with her it hurts. I hate that she's my thinspo too. I hate that so much, I hate that even though I'm in love with her to no fucking end of course my ed finds it's way into every aspect of my life. I feel so drained, so sad, and for what? I wish, I wish everyday that I just could have been born destined to be thin at birth, and could have gotten to live my teen years as a normal fucking person. I feel so guilty that I have anorexia, I feel so bad whenever I say 'Oh no thanks, I'm not hungry' at lunch for the third day in a row and my friends give me concerned looks. I hate that I might be causing them worry, because I love them so fucking much, and I would never want to hurt them. I hate that almost every night I hug my mom so tight and tell her I love her before I go to sleep because I'm so afraid that I might die. I hate that when I feel my stomach grumble my brain's first response now is 'let it rumble, it has enough fat to eat off of you.' I'm so angry that every time I eat I panic over calories, why can't I eat normally? I fucking with I could. I wish I didn't cry tonight because the scale is higher and I had to eat today. I hate it so much. I wish that I would cry over boys like normal girls my age, instead of calories and weight. I want to go to sleep. And I wish that I would believe the little voice in my head that says 'When we hit out ugw then we can recover!' when we all know that that's not going to happen.

my dash is SO DRY lately soooo ->

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YOO !!

HIT MY NEWEST LW AT 196.4LBS!!

KEEP IN MIND THAT YES, THIS IS MY LW SINCE MY RELAPSE, BUT HOLY FUCK SHITS LOOKIN UP YALL. CUTE CLOTHES HERE I COME!

THANK YOU COOKIE RUN KINGDOM FOR MAKING ME FORGET THAT IM HUNGRY

YALL PLEASEEE GO PLAY CRK I SWEAR TO GOD ITS SO FUN AND IM LITERALLY ADDICTEDD LMAO

LMK IF YOU WANT TO FRIEND ME ON THERE!! I'M ON THE DARK CACAO SERVER

PLEASE drop the stretch mark routine 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

❦𝕊𝕥𝕣𝕖𝕥𝕔𝕙 𝕞𝕒𝕣𝕜𝕤/𝕝𝕠𝕠𝕤𝕖 𝕤𝕜𝕚𝕟 𝕥𝕚𝕡𝕤❦ ੈ✩‧₊˚LOOSE SKIN ༊*·˚

Derma-rolling~

You can find derma-rollers on amazon! basically all u do is apply vitamin C serum to the targeted area, use the derma-roller and roll it all over the area for about a minute, apply more vitamin C serum and repeat once every two weeks! this promotes collagen and tightens the skin but DO NOT DO THIS EVERYDAY u need to make sure u give ur skin time to heal! i highly recommend this, it takes a few months to start seeing a difference!

B-flat~

So this is a little more on the pricey side. basically what it is, is a cream that u apply to the targeted area and u will feel a burning, tingly feeling which only lasts a few minutes! u apply twice a day for best results and it will tighten your skin and also reduce stretch marks!

Supplements~

I suggest taking collagen supplements while doing these things! u can get it in powder/pill/gummy form! i use the powder in my smoothies :)

Excercise~

There are different workouts u can do to reduce the appearance of ur loose skin by building muscle and leaning out to fill where ur loose skin is! ੈ✩‧₊˚STRETCH MARKS ༊*·˚

Oils~

Coconut oil: THIS is what originally faded my stretch marks and i used to have deep purple stretch marks. i massaged it into my stretch marks every day after i showered and after a few months they were pretty much gone!

Massage oils: u can find different massage oils on amazon for cellulite and stretch marks i use the M3 NATURALS anti-cellulite massage oil and i put it on everyday after my showers and it smells summery!

Vitamin E oil: u can mix this with the coconut oil!! vitamin E is known for anti-aging and its very moisturizing!

Vitamin C oil: u can also mix this with the coconut oil! i personally believe vitamin C is the most effective along with the coconut oil!

Bio-oil: im sure you’ve heard of this one, many women use this during/after pregnancy! this is very effective as well, i definitely recommend this!

Lotions~

Palmers cocoa butter formula: this stuff is super affordable on amazon, and it works AMAZING!

Any other lotion: u can really use any lotion as long as it’s moisturizing! its super important to keep your skin moisturized!!

🦄 these are all things i have used over the past 2 years, if u want any brand recommendations i have a ton of those too and feel free to comment any other tips yk! 🦄

Alr I weighed myself this morning and it was 200lbs :/

Although, I'm not very surprised lol. I've been pigging out for the past week or so, atp I'm glad I didn't gain more! I've been fasting since around 4pm yesterday sooo hopefully I can fix this lol. My mom is at work until late as well so I can tell her I already ate when she gets home. Luv ya <3

My Absence

Hey luvs! I won't make this too too long but in case you may not have noticed my acc has been dormant for a sec! Long story short, my spring break started on Friday of last week and I've been on vacation with family until today. I decided to not look suspicious to my family and count calories so I'm not looking forward to stepping onto the scales. I also started my period so I'm in turmoil trying to decide whether or not to weigh myself lmaoo.

Alright, that's all! Good to be back

Luv ya <33

Day 8: Pretty much whatever my Physical Fitness does, and boxing for around an hour when I get home lmao

Hey ED tumblr, I'm in a bit of a dilema

New challenge! Drinking only these until I pass out!!

THEYRE SO FUCKING GOOD AND THEY'RE ONLY 5CAL IM SCREAMMINGGGUH (dw these are the topo chico's without alcohol, no underage drinking for mee)

Day 7 No, my parents do not know that I am trying to lose weight. I haven't told them because I don't wish for them to worry about me.