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loverllyhurtswithoutyou · 7 days

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I finished The Lioness.

I need some Joe x reader and Cruz x reader. Please, I'm begging you 😭

#thelioness #cruz manuelos #cruz x reader #joe #joe x reader #zoe saldana #laysla de oliveira #current mood #m’am… please…#fiction #writers

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loverllyhurtswithoutyou · 12 days

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i already have a job and it's called keeping myself alive. why do i have to be employed on top of that

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loverllyhurtswithoutyou · 12 days

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people have said good things about you behind your back, without your knowledge. people have shared their love for you with others.

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loverllyhurtswithoutyou · 13 days

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OC questionnaire!

Thank you @decaying-rose-petals for the tag!

I’ve chosen a few characters of mine to answer your prompts. They’re each from different class levels in their society—and they’re named, too!

They’ll speak for themselves, but I’ll also be butting into their answers with my own commentary.

My questions are:

1. How do you feel about yourself?

2. What was your childhood like?

3. Is there something you’re really proud of?

Imp

1. “I’m an essential piece of this ecosystem, friend. I’ve wondered who I am since I was picking grass, and now I know: I’m a benevolent virus. Reborn in the stomach this oppressive monster—not through it, but in spite against it. To fight it. Because they’ll never tell me who I am to be.”

It’s all about The Cause, with this one. From what I can tell, they never switch off.

2. “My suther* died before I learned how to dodge a bottle. My kether* kept me on my toes. When I learned how to read, I started seeing all the sinister little cracks in our great nation. It got me acting up, until I got caught. Good-old Kad* set me up for time in the dungeons. They got these chains that age you up faster. My youth came and went faster than most anyone I know. Bums you out, don’t it?”

* “Suther” and “kether” are the formal terms for parents of particular respective genders. They tend to go by se/ser/sers and ke/ker/kis pronouns, respectively. “Kad” is the informal term for a kether. I’ll tell you more about it in another post.

3. “I’m proud of myself whenever I manage to cut against the grain. Like how I got out of the dungeons. It’s awfully satisfying. And I’m proud of Pupil. He’s a scary-bright kid, and he’s got that Thing; That phenomenon where you think of what you’ve gotta do and you just do it. Some folks lose that when they get older.”

Imp is pretty focused. You can see why they and Pupil might like to work with one another, yes?

Pupil

1. “I know what I’m talking about, I know what I’m doing.

I’ve been told I’m not great with people, but I think I’m just not great with people who………………… are idiots.”

Contrary to popular belief, Pupil has friends. Unfortunately, only one of them attends his school. The others are shopkeepers or vagrants.

And he doesn’t actually take to the commonly defeatist “smart vs dumb” rhetoric. But when he believes someone is thoughtless or ignorant or conformist, he likes to call them an idiot. It is a fun word, after all.

2. “Less-than-stellar. Neither of my parents are around very much. They’re both in government. They pay a few folks to come watch us, or take us to school.

But for every birthday since nine, I received more and more responsibility over the others.

At night my parents are still busy, both until and after dinner. Don’t mind us, you’d only be out of a job without us.*”

* Pupil is referring to the fact that citizens of this nation earn the privilege to engage with society by proving their fertility (i.e. having at least one child, the more the better). No one ever says it outright, but a thing need not be spoken to be enforced. Life and the harnessing of it are very big in their nation’s culture and religion.

3. “I’m proud whenever I’ve done a good job, or whenever I get to slight someone who looks down on me……

I guess I’m proud of the other kids. I don’t look in on them much. But when I do, they’re very interesting and inspiring.”

Pupil has two younger siblings. More on them at another time.

I like that his when Pupil’s name is in purple text, it seems like a misspelling of the color’s name.

Frame

1. “I quite like myself, I guess. I don’t really think about it, so much as I think about the day. And my mother.

Mother says our family is the greatest, bestest family in all the world. Can you believe it? In the world!! How lucky is that! I’m very grateful.”

She’s grinning ear-to-ear, by the way.

2. “I had a wonderful childhood. Mother would read stories to me and my siblings before bed. Father would play with us in the garden while Mother worked….. One thing I never understood is: Most everyone has called me ‘odd’ since I was very little. Usually when I would go run off with the other girls…………….

But beyond that, our life has always been so exciting to me. My brother gets to be a godly* someday! He’ll get married to someone pretty from far away, and eat at the end of the table instead of the side.

He could take up any land he sees and it would all be his—He doesn’t really like land so much, but he could do it! Even if all he wants to do is just look at it for a little while! And he could declare war with anyone who sets foot on it!

It all sounds so charming.”

* “Godly” is a title given to the one who sits on the throne, per the belief that their family line is—and by extension, they are—appointed by a god.

And not every adult refers to Frame as “odd”. Her parents certainly do.

3. “I’m proud to be born into this family. It’s really such an honor. Our castle is beautiful, my entire family is beautiful, I’m beautiful—very happy about that.

But even all our citizens are beautiful! Everyone I see, I just want to stare at them………….. just look at them, you know? Especially other girls, they’re ever so pretty. I wish I didn’t have to blink so I could look without stopping, but I do have to blink, so I can’t do that. I also have to look away once in a while, otherwise people become a bit shaken up.”

She was staring during the pause, to demonstrate. Her eyes are typically opened “as wide as the laws of this world will permit”, as her mother puts it.

This! Was! Very fun. I will be softly tagging @thevioletdaffodil @spideronthesun @apolline-lucy @calamityeden @cruelflesh @unrepentantcheeseaddict and anyone else who wants to try their hand!

Your questions:

1. What tempts you?

2. What environment would you/do you tend to thrive in?

3. What is your most closely-held belief?

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loverllyhurtswithoutyou · 13 days

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The “oh I could definitely write this fanfic in under 5000 words and it really wouldn’t take me that long” voice in your head is actually the devil speaking

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loverllyhurtswithoutyou · 15 days

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“are u ok”

bro i am completely disconnected from reality right now

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loverllyhurtswithoutyou · 15 days

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I long to kill the writers block fairy

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loverllyhurtswithoutyou · 15 days

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loverllyhurtswithoutyou · 15 days

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If you could relive any of your memories, which would it be?

I'd like to relive the moment of my first kiss. It sounds classic, but I haven't experienced that feeling of peace with myself since that moment. And I miss being close to someone, being at peace, finally being myself.

#send asks #send me asks #wlw

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loverllyhurtswithoutyou · 16 days

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at this point i’m holding myself together with glitter glue

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