I decided I want to be a nurse, I did a study to become a social worker and I did an internship at a mental hospital, it was really hard, I have all this scars on my arm, so I hid them, they are old ones, but they are really clear on my pale arms. In August Im going to start my study as a nurse, one day I hope to work in a children hospital.. Im really a dreamer, I once was a achiever, and Im going to be one again

Let me live here please, would love to be there all day reading a good book

Back when I was in a happy place

So I made this deal with my best friend, were going too hit the gym 5 days a week, I hope this wil gets me over the insecurity of my body, beacause even though I know Im not fat, I still think I am, just because off all the small things that build up. And also because off all the stuff people say. I hate my hair, its short now, and everyone says its better when its long, and strangers say she must be lesbian because of her hair, racist bastards, wish I could just run away from this stupid country. Everyone judges you here, I remember when I was in Londen, everyone just walked past me without even one look at me, it was the best feeling in the world. I also hate my legs, they are too short and chubby, but the gym will fix it I hope. When I look good, I hope I will also feel good, I want to be back in a happy place..

Because I did and you still pushed me away

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I just need somebody who understands me and talks to me

if you understand one, let alone all of them… im so sorry. ~  rec0veryy

Depression

I have this weird depression. Yesterday I felt like I could take on the world. And today, I litteraly hate everything and everyone again. I already cried so much that I can't even cry right now even though I feel like bawling my eyes out. Maybe tomorrow I'm happy again, I'll never know, it's a surprise, everytime... I wish I'd knew, because then I could make plans without ruining it for everyone because I'm pissed off or boring. Then when I don't feel like talking I could just lay in my bed all day. Right now, it feels like I can't do anything right in my life and that nobody loves me and that I will never have a decent live, with a boyfriend, job, degree or whatsoever.