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I'm the one who gripped you tight and raised you from perdition
(am I a proper dedicated spn fan now?)
#supernatural tattoo#tattoos#cw supernatural#supernatural#dean winchester#castiel#deancas#destiel#spn#dean and cas
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father's son, finnished
this is shameless self promo but I wrote a song about dean. full lyrics below!
See the way you watch my hands on the wheel
You know some things you shouldn't feel
Tell me you don't think that way
You watch my lips when I pray
Hear you pace the halls at night
But it's harder to love than fight
Let me put my hands on you
I know you wanna hurt me too
Band-Aid in a broken home
And sex just makes me feel alone
Father said I found my worth
Six feet deep within the earth
Hear you say my name so loud
You'd find my face in every crowd
Swear I'm not like you at all
You always come when I call
Hunger is an awful drug
And I know that I'm hard to love
It's easier to make me bleed
But only so I'll see you grieve
Band-Aid in a broken home
And sex just makes me feel alone
Father said I found my worth
Six feet deep within the earth
Angels watching over me
Tell me I was born to bleed
A mother I'm a stranger to
Sees the way I look at you
I will sleep when I am dead
Tenderness just aches instead
I'm a sword without a shield
And I was taught to never yield
Oh kiss me
Oh kiss me
Tell me you don't mind
Tell me you don't mind
Tell me you don't mind
#supernatural#cw supernatural#dean winchester#castiel#dean and cas#deancas#destiel#spn#lyric posting#lyrics#original song#singer songwriter
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You know, Sam Winchester gets a lot of flack for the fact that all of his girlfriends die but at least it’s always a random thing. Dean on the other hand?? So much worse!
Don’t get me wrong, I’m a Dean stan till I die but it is undeniably crazy.
My man had three boyfriends and all of them died. The big difference is the fact that they all died the exact same way. Dean (though however unintentional) convinced three supernatural beings to LITERALLY KILL THEMSELVES FOR HIM!!
He had all of them so deeply in love with him, he didn’t even have to really ask.
First we have Benny
He fell hard for Dean in Purgatory and was kinda dependent on him outside of it. It hurt Benny a ton when Dean had to cut contact because of Sam. Even then, he still willingly died and went back to the place he had tried for so long to escape. All for Dean and to make sure he was happy.
Then we have the King himself, Crowley.
Dude stabbed himself in the chest to give Dean time to escape. No illusion or trick, just a straight up suicide bomb to distract Lucifer. He clearly caught serious feelings for Dean over the years, especially after he got the mark and turned into a demon. Even though Dean straight up rejected him, he still was too deep in love. He committed suicide to keep him safe.
Then there’s the one and only, Castiel.
He died for Dean multiple times and had been in love with him for so long but this last one was really it. He confessed how much he loved Dean to his face! He said I love you! Knowing he would die if he did! All to save Dean! All to give him a chance! FUCK IM GNAWING AT THE BARS OF MY ENCLOSURE THIS ONE HURTS!
Basically, Dean had men falling over each other to sacrifice themselves because they were so in love with him and he still had the gall to think he was unlovable.
In conclusion, Dean Winchester is the most oblivious man in the universe.
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The Official lazarushound Dean Winchester Playlist
Okay so this playlist is a big deal to literally no one except me but I spent like two hours explaining every single song on my dean playlist and I'll be damned if I don't share it with SOMEONE.
The playlist in question, which I update and add songs too fairly often(ish). It's roughly arranged in order of Dean's story, from pre-canon to the finale. A fair few of the songs are courtesy of catgirlhannibal, whom I adore.
Warning that is is a VERY LONG READ and almost definitely is plagued with typos. Without further ado, here is the 9.5k word explanation of every single song (at time of posting) on the playlist. Call that shit explicable Dean Winchester vibes, complete with my favourite lyrics from each song.
• Ramble On - Led Zeppelin
Dean's favourite song! The whole song is basically about having no choice but to keep going, even when things are tough. It's also actually about LOTR which is funny cause Dean's secretly a nerd lol. But yeah, it reflects a lot on Dean's nature as a traveller and someone who never settles in one place for long. Sometimes I grow so tired but I know I've got one thing I've got to do - I ramble on.
• Travelling Riverside Blues - Led Zeppelin
Dean's other favourite song! Probably not a popular reading of this song but for me, it definitely has a level of queer coding. Asked sweet mama, let me be your kid, she said "you might get hurt if you don't keep it hid" is the most obvious example of it.
• Psalms 40:2 - The Mountain Goats
Very biblical song lol. It's a lot about small town America (as many TMG songs are) and shitty motels which resonates with Dean pretty heavily. Not to mention: He has raised me from the pit and set me high.
• Night Moves - Bob Segar
This one is literally in the show so naturally reminds me of him. But it's about a teenage romance which definitely makes me think of young Dean. I mean, come on: out in the backseat of my '60 Chevy when the man drives a '67 Chevy??
• Father - The Front Bottoms
A few songs on this playlist are pretty much only there for one or two lines. This is not one of them. I could write another essay about this song and how it relates to Dean, every fucking line. You were high school, and I was just more like real life, and you were okay as a girlfriend, but I was just more like his wife 😮💨
• Old Number Seven - The Devil Makes Three
This is another song I'm pretty convinced was written about Dean. Once played it on guitar and my dad asked if it was about him so that's all the validation I needed. Angels start to look good to me, they're gonna have to deport me to the fiery deep.
• Mission - Alex G
This song to me is very much pre canon/season one Dean. It's all about following orders and being a good soldier, much like Dean's devotion to his father. I was trained to stick to the mission, I was trained, I kept it on track. To me, Mission has a slightly bitter tone, as though the narrator is resentful that they've followed orders so obediently and only suffered as a result.
• Adam Raised a Cain - Bruce Springsteen
Courtesy of catgirlhannibal. What a surprise, another biblical song. Dean sees himself as nothing more than a soldier, violent and aggressive. He sees his father as a hero, despite the fact that he's an abusive bastard. Well, daddy worked his whole life for nothing but pain, now he walks these empty rooms looking for something to blame.
• Shoulders - Big Thief
Okay, I'd argue this song is more akin to Sam than Dean but fuck you, this is my playlist and I choose the music. And the blood of the man who killed my mother with his hands, it's in me, it's in me, in my veins is obviously related to Sam and Azazel but also to Dean and John, as though Dean comes to realise that he's just like his father.
• Celene - Gigi Perez
End of season two! This song is about losing a sibling and is very much the mindset I pictured Dean to be in after losing Sam for the first time. I'd also argue it's how Dean felt when Sam was at Stanford. The other day I thought of something funny, but no one would have laughed but you.
• Like Real People Do - Hozier
Why were you digging? What did you bury before those hands pulled me from the earth? HELLOOO CASTIEL! Very season four Destiel, those boys will NOT kiss like real people do.
• It's Only Sex - Car Seat Headrest
Okay so post-resurrection Dean is VERRRRRY traumatised which makes it difficult for him to enjoy the things he used to love, including sex. This song is also about his struggle over his feelings for Cas: what happens if I don't like it? I like you.
• Not Allowed - TV Girl
Well, you may not like it but you better learn how cause it's your turn now! Very much following on from It's Only Sex, similar themes in this song but more relating to Dean's insistence on keeping up The Act and pretending he's the same man he was before Hell.
• Presumably Dead Arm - Sidney Gish
Second catgirlhannibal song to make the list. Just to start this off, this isn't the start of anything. To me, this whole song is Dean skirting around his feelings for Cas and trying to pretend they don't exist in hopes they go away eventually. They don't. Honey, you are nothing to me, (but alcohol and dopamine)/(I don't call people anything thought to be so sweet).
• Tangled in Ropes - Holy Locust
I literally wrote a whole essay about this one so I'll keep it short with just the best lyric. Had a laugh made of wax, house made of butter, how they melted that summer.
• Hate Yourself - TV Girl
If there's one thing we've learned about Dean Winchester, it's that the man loves to use sex as a means to avoid his problems. How long will it take? Before you start to hate yourself and go straight into the arms of someone else is just straight up Dean struggling to give himself time to grieve and overcome his trauma. He'd rather just hookup with someone else and pretend it doesn't make him hate himself more and more every time.
• Cherry Wine - Hozier
See: my whole essay about this song and Destiel. And it's worth it, it's divine, I have this some of the time.
• Body to Flame - Lucy Dacus
Another catgirlhannibal song! I see you holding your breath with your arms outstretched, waiting for someone to come rip open your chest. This song to me feels like Dean kicking himself for every trusting Cas, after Cas betrays him for the first time. To accept Cas as his family was going against his every instinct to close himself off from outsiders, and Cas just proved him right by betraying him.
• Motion Sickness - Phoebe Bridges
Okay this one is basically just for I hate you for what you did, and I miss you like a little kid lol. It just perfectly encapsulates Dean, bitter and resentful towards Cas whilst simultaneously missing him so much his heart aches.
• I'm Your Man - Mitski
Oh, woof. Continuing the betrayal arc, this song is all about Dean's guilt. It's his fault Cas fell from Heaven, his fault this angel isn't holy anymore. I'm sorry I'm the one you love, no one will ever love me like you again.
• Not Strong Enough - Boygenius
Where do I start? Always an angel, never a god 😮💨 I think if you played this song to Dean it would break him a little bit. I DON'T KNOW WHY I AM THE WAY I AM!!!
• Legit Tattoo Gun - The Front Bottoms
I was aware of this song but catgirlhannibal brought to my attention that it's Destiel coded 🧐 Who did I think I was? Who did I think that I could be? Oh, how dare me. Dean just kicking himself for ever thinking he could allow himself to have something with Cas.
• SHALLOW (PPL SWIM IN SHALLOW WATER) - Saya Gray
Okay, this one is a bit of a "hear me out." I'm seeing Mother Mary, she says I'm closer to Hell than the clouds are to Heaven. Dean's mother is called Mary so she's LITERALLY Mother Mary which scratches my brain very nicely. Obviously Dean sees himself as a sinner and doomed for Hell, despite the fact that he's a hero. And I left my enemies, cause nobody hates myself more than me, GOOD LORD DOES THAT MAN LOVE SOME SELF LOATHING. My mother's evil and the angels too is soooooo self explanatory. Dean has an idealistic version of Mary in his head which is challenged when she comes back to life and he interacts with her as an adult. There's also the fact that real angels aren't as "good" as you'd think. Sometimes I don't think I'm cherished enough.
• John Wayne Gacy, Jr. - Sufjan Stevens
This song is an allegory for being gay. The narrator sees himself as evil, just as bad as the serial killer for which the song is named, just because he's gay. And in my best behaviour, I am really just like him, look beneath the floorboards for the secrets I have hid.
• Always - Panic! At the Disco
Another one that is less obvious without me explaining it lol. The light in this song is a reference to the Great Gatsby which is a whole other queer coded story in its own right. But I always (hehe) picture this song as Dean struggling with Cas' feelings for him which are becoming more and more evident. It was always you falling for me particularly stands out to me, along with you are taking me apart like bad glue on a get well card.
• Star Tripping - Kevin Atwater
Okay I looooooove love this song. But it's another song which relates to God and being queer. It's about a very toxic relationship, in which one person is relatively okay with their sexuality and the other is incredibly repressed (seem familiar?). I could use any lyric from this song but I'll go with: you think He made you wrong, I think you're giving Him way too much credit, crying at the party, know it only bothers you if you let it, later you can kiss me, blame it on the stuff you took to forget it.
• The Calendar - Panic! At The Disco
Another Panic! song 💀 also from vices and virtues. Another "hear me out." There's the more obvious I will come back to life but only for you but I also think the rest of the song relates pretty strongly to Destiel. You said if you don't let it out, you're gonna let it eat you away, I'd rather be a cannibal baby, animals like me don't talk anyway. For me, it strongly resembles Dean's view of himself, an attack dog. Cannibalism as a metaphor for love. And obviously that man loves to repress stuff and let it eat him away, so to speak.
• Lacy - Olivia Rodrigo
Lawd. This song has a lot of queer subtext in and of itself. It's all about adoring someone to the point where you become insecure because you know you'll never be as good as them. The song is bitter and resentful whilst simultaneously loving and adoring. I despise my jealous eyes and how hard they fell for you, yeah I despise my rotten mind and how much it worships you. He hates himself because he loves Cas. HE HATES HIMSELF BECAUSE HE LOVES CAS.
• Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want - The Smiths
Dean does not let himself have nice things. Lord knows, it would be the first time. This song feels pretty self explanatory to me lol.
• Feeling Oblivion - Turin Brakes
Okay this is my favourite song of all time so I'm slightly biased for including it HOWEVER. I feel it also applies to Dean pretty well. We're now at the point in the story where Dean is about to/has already lost Cas. This song invokes an incredibly deep feeling of nostalgia for me, like looking back on when things were better. Now it is night time, maybe we're cruising avoiding the anti-cruise, like tell me this isn't Dean and Cas just driving around Kansas cause Dean can't sleep 😭 and don't even get me fucking started on so don't leave me here on my own, by the time fear takes me over, will we still be rolling? Feeling oblivion cause this song makes me cry every time I hear it I stg.
• Who We Are - Hozier
Poor Dean :( bro has just lost his best friend, and is now realising that he'll never be able to tell him how he felt. It's like he's seeing things plainly for the first time, realising what he's been missing. He never had Cas because they spent so long avoiding their relationship, and now it's too late. You only feel it when it's lost, getting through still has its cost, quietly, it slips through your fingers, love, falling from you drop by drop.
• Crack Baby - Mitski
I don't know if I really need to say more than: crack baby, you don't know what you want, but you know that you had it once, and you know that you want it back.
• Knockin' on Heaven's Door - Bob Dylan
This is another song that's in the show (dark side of the moon, I love you) so naturally reminds me of Dean. It might be a bit on the nose putting it right at the end but it just feels like Dean finally letting himself rest (die of tetanus). Mama, put my guns in the ground, I can't shoot them anymore.
#supernatural#cw supernatural#spn#dean winchester#castiel#deancas#dean and cas#destiel#spotify playlist#character playlist#playlist
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It's Supernatural FOR YOU.
It's Brokebacknatural for me.
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randomly found out one of my co-workers is a spn fan but she's a 40 year old straight woman and she looked at me like I was insane when I mentioned dean and cas 😮💨
my life is just meeting a new person and telling myself im not going to talk about supernatural cause that’s weird nobody gaf about this show anymore and then 6 months in randomly blurting out the plot while talking about how much I hate it and love it in every other sentence
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My Best Friend (who has never seen Supernatural) Writes an Episode of Supernatural
Everything they know about this godforsaken show is based on my poetry and my insane, autism fuelled ramblings. Enjoy.
[Opening Scene in a forest with a car. Also Sam and Dean are there.]
Sam: I told you not to fuck with my car!
Dean: Fuck you, I didn't fuck with your car.
Sam: This is why dad beat you as a child.
[The two begin fighting, shouting unintelligible insults at each other which show their deeply messed up psyches as a result of their poor childhood.]
[A vague monster appears, grabbing Dean tightly by the throat. He comes to him as a really really hot guy, and Dean actually doesn't seem to mind.]
Monster: I know what you are. I know what you are really looking for. I know what you have been waiting for for all of these years.
[Dean's eyes trail to the monster, looking at him brotherly and admiring his totally sick bod.]
[A beat. Dean is about to open his mouth, his eyes trailing from the monster's to his lips before-]
Monster: A brother.
[Dean's expression falls. He's not so bricked up now, and in fact seems disgusted. Was it himself he was disgusted with? Or was it... his father? He goes to the nearest tree and punches it, his knuckles bleeding. He watches the blood fall. He thinks he deserves it.]
[Cas appears, out of nowhere or something, or maybe he walks. It's probably a bit awkward at first to be honest. Dean is crying, or maybe he's not. He never cries, so it's a bit hard to tell.]
[Cas looks at Dean with a vulnerable expression. He looks like the epitome of an open wound. Too soft for his own good. He puts a hand on Dean's, who almost seems to flinch at the touch.]
[Another beat. The two are staring into each other's eyes. But it's not romantic, they're just good friends.]
[Except not really. It's hard to love someone who doesn't want to know the truth about themselves.]
Cas: Are you okay, baby doll?
[Dean is angry again.]
Dean: I'm fine. Get your little fmaggot fingers off of me.
Cas: Why won't you let me treat you like a companion?
[Dean cries at the touch. Or maybe he doesn't.]
Dean: I'm not worthy of healing.
Cas: But I love you. We're brothers.
[Dean is bricked up rn, and this is a total mood killer.]
Dean: We're not brothers.
[Sam is just kind of there. With a girl or some gaping hole in his heart just like his brother.]
Cas: We're companions. We are life partners. We are civil mates forever.
[There is a lot of sexual tension right now, but it's actually a bit awkward and quite uncomfortable. The shuffling of Sam's feet on the leaves is a pathetic space filler.]
[A beat.]
Cas: You're my sweet cheese, man.
#every line of this is golden#dean is angry again#but it's not romantic. they're just good friends.#some lines actually hit me kinda hard though#he thinks he deserves it#with a girl or some gaping hole in his heart just like his brother#ebony ily#supernatural#cw supernatural#spn#dean winchester#castiel#dean and cas#deancas#destiel#sam winchester
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have not been able to get this out of my head for days
#returning from the dead to post this#then disappearing again#supernatural#cw supernatural#spn#dean winchester#castiel#dean and cas#deancas#destiel
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old number seven, the devil makes three
#impossible to choose one lyric from this song#it's literally all about dean#“angels start to look good to me”#are you joking#supernatural#cw supernatural#spn#dean winchester#castiel#dean and cas#deancas#destiel#lyrics#lyric posting#the devil makes three
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07.11
and dean took that personally
#frank deserved better tbh#this scene has me in a chokehold#07.11#supernatural#cw supernatural#spn#dean winchester#frank devereaux#spn gifs
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i think the people doing the uptick in posts that are like. jesus smelled the wood of the cross and thought of home mary birthed her child and doomed him to death by giving him life. should STOP aestheticizing christianity (cringe) and START aestheticizing supernatural (beautiful, true, honorable to write tumblr poetry in form of post about
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well, you may not like it but you better learn how cause it's your turn now!
#supernatural#cw supernatural#spn#dean winchester#castiel#dean and cas#deancas#destiel#tv girl#lyric posting#lyrics
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Eric Kripke, circa 2008
#this has definitely been done before#supernatural#cw supernatural#spn#dean winchester#castiel#dean and cas#deancas#destiel#eric kripke
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Do you see me now?
Do you see me all grown up?
Do you hate me for it?
I spoke to an old friend today
He asked me how you were
I told him you don't call anymore
add jo to the list of female spn characters who deserved better
#supernatural#cw supernatural#spn#dean winchester#castiel#dean and cas#deancas#destiel#jo harvelle#dean and jo#poetry#poem
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From Perdition
Deserving is not a word I ever associated with myself
I begged for a savior—sobbed for an end
I did not think anyone was listening
I am a man—an instrument of destruction
I've only known wrath, duty, and decay
I was impure and you saved me
I am sin incarnate and you raised me
I push aside the dirt from my grave and I stare at the motionless sky
I am alive
But I don't deserve it
Who are you?
My savior
Who are you to decide I am worthy?
These hands that tortured and maimed now grasp desperately at my body risen—shaking in their disbelief
I am forgiven
-AM
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seven - taylor swift
“if you’re raised with an angry man in your house,
there will always be an angry man in your house.
you will find him even when he is not there.”
#supernatural#cw supernatural#spn#dean winchester#castiel#deancas#destiel#dean and cas#poetry#poem#lyrics#taylor swift#seven#john winchester#mary winchester#sam winchester
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I'll be the little brother
no matter how old I get
a live wire, and mean, too
I don't bite the hand that feeds,
but I won't eat from it either
not me actually samposting for once
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