im being dramatic its not so bad lmao but i made the mistake of not posting my fic right before i'd go to bed and now im feeling the anxiety, gonna go kill Balthazar to chill out
ah, yes, crippling self doubt about writing quality my beloved, we meet again
I like the idea that a named Durge got his first name from Gortash once they grew closer. Gortash being the first to view Durge as an actual person, and not just a tool and extension of Bhaal, and give him a name to represent that distinction. And that name being the one Durge remembers, even when he has a huge hole in his brain.
And then he gets a last name from Gale post-marriage.
The idea of the two men that Durge love(d) each giving him a bit of identity that has nothing to do with his father is just very appealing to me.
Story reached a point where i have to introduce a new conflict and i do have it fully worked out but its stressing me out whether it'll come off good or not, i'll take a nap and try to figure it out tomorrow
"Myrkul [compared to some gods, is autonomous] obeys no one but is influenced by Bhaal and Bane..."
I love this weird connection the Dead Three have with each other and how it never seems to go away completely. I don't think co-dependency is quite the word for it, but they're just utterly toxic for each other, keep fucking each other over, and somehow they keep coming back to this alliance. For some reason the opinion of the others holds sway!
Like Bane is... Bane. He thinks he doesn't need anybody and everyone is subservient to him! He's allergic to his own capacity to enjoy things or feel emotional attachments to people. He just fundamentally can't compute when he cares about someone. Why is he upset they're dead? Bane doesn't know! He also only got as far into the Time of Troubles as he did because he has Myrkul backing him up. He still kind of depends on the other two and at least once upon a time had respect for Bhaal.
Bhaal needs the other two to keep his murder hoboing in check, and they seem to be the only beings in the universe who can (or are permitted by Bhaal) to do so.
Myrkul left him unsupervised for a week once and Bhaal ended up getting distracted trying to kill winged ponies and then got killed, ruining his and Myrkul's plan.
Myrkul, by all accounts, is shooting himself in the foot every time he agrees to work with these idiots and he keeps doing it. Some descriptions have assigned gods mortal-like feelings, wants and needs, so like, is he lonely or what? Myrkul's charisma is abysmal by mortal standards; by divine standards a landfill of rancid trash has more appeal (he spent the last stretch of the Time of Troubles in a sewer, talking to zombies and himself). Bhaal is basically his only friend in existence (Bane is... there. Myrkul doesn't exactly like him, and yet he still works with him.)
The last time these idiots cooperated Bane destroyed Bhaal's worshipper base and got himself killed and thus left Myrkul in a mess, then Bhaal got killed due to murderhoboing and left Myrkul even further in this mess, and somehow the 15th century rolled around and these three agreed to work together again.
Working together worked so well last time! What is wrong with you.
I love gold digger Gortash. Can imagine him amassing so much wealth by courting various patriars, and after sneaking into their will and testament he even gets Durge in on it; if they take them out for him (in a manner that absconds him of course) then he gives them a cut of the money. Then they go bang in the victims mansion or on a pile of gold, idk.
Its so funny seeing people 'realize' Elon Musk is a moron but in my language 'Teslo' means 'idiot' so i dunno i always thought the implication was here